Category: Parts / Subpersonalities

The Sacred Wound Of Intimacy And Vulnerability

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Intimacy and vulnerability are the benchmarks of our sacred humanity. Without them we are avoiding our whole being, shadow and light alike. These are by far the most difficult parts of the healing process in my personal experience. Parts of us feel more comfortable on their own, with animals, or connecting to the stars than they do with other human beings. Given our vast soul stories, it is easy to understand why.

Authentic and conscious feeling is something that we have been conditioned and protected from doing. In feeling and owning what is real, there is a fear of being seen, of losing everything we have built up around us, or of getting swallowed up in the pain, and maybe even ecstacy! Being vulnerable is bringing to the surface that which is uncomfortable and/or sensitive.

At the core of this fear is a sacred wound that many of us are being drawn to heal. At the soul, or Higher Self level, we may find ourselves drawing situations that are meant to bring us to the precipice of this wound for in order to truly grown and evolve we are meant to face these wounds/fears once and for all. For me this is what has brought me into deep community with SoulFullHeart.

As I have moved back into closer proximity and soon heading off to Glastonbury with everyone, I am reminded that this is not just spiritual tourism. It is an opportunity to heal my intimacy wound as well as the Metasoul lives that are still in play in the 4D geography of the UK. What other lifetimes exist within me that struggle with intimacy? Being ‘on location’ brings me closer, more intimate, with these lifetimes and Metasoul brothers and sisters.

This becomes a prime example of how each moment is a portal into our sacred humanity if we chose it to be. We have access to so much inside of us yet we chose to acknowledge just a thin slice. Again, for very good reason. The true courage is not in the solving or the fighting, but in the feeling. The human heart is the first and final frontier. It is the doorway to our soul. The thing is, it has been through a lot of shit. A lot of fucked up experiences. It may still be. Yet, its healing IS our salvation, not the ignorance of it.

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Over the next two weeks in the last of the Free To Be 5D group call series, we will be addressing the Sacred Wound. The very thing that brings us around and around until we gain the courage and will to finally meet it where it is at. If this resonates with you, I encourage you to join us by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop to get the link to the call if you have not done so already. I also offer a free 45 minute consultation call to see how and if the SoulFullHeart process is right for you to support you in this sacred wound exploration and healing. You can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Life Phase Completions From The Inside, Out

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by Kasha Rokshana

Sincere ‘goodbyes’ and epic ‘hellos’…

We don’t really ever ‘complete’ phases of life or relationships with others unless the cycles of reaction to the completion and the relationship or phase itself completes with parts of you.


This only really happens when we INvest in relationship to them, which is a deep love relationship with ourselves. It’s the end of suffering loops and telling the same stories over and over again to try and digest what happened. Looping tells us that parts of us haven’t moved on yet. And from there we get to ask ‘why?’ and feel their reasons for hanging on so tight.

For a ‘goodbye’ to be sincere, to a geography, relationship, job, etc, there’s a need to feel the ‘goodbye’. This is what lets in the next ‘hello’. This is what sets the tone for the next phase of truly letting in the new. That doesn’t mean that old reactions or stories won’t come up. But it does renew our commitment to continuing to show up for ourselves and our parts in all of that.


Feeling this as I continue to complete with my geography and householding life phase here in Canada, as well as complete some loops that parts of me are still going into in moments with souls I’ve recently completed my relationship with. It’s all a deep journey and even in the emotional waves, my god, I wouldn’t want to be doing, being, or feeling anything else!


Much, much love to you during this epic time on this epic planet, where suffering within all of us is invited to come to deep completion and new waves of the realization of the love we all ARE can come in anew!


❀️
Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Lion’s Gate Crop Circle Update: Sacred Masculine Activations To Heal The Love Of Power – August 9, 2020

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By Jelelle Awen

A new and dynamic crop circle formation has been reported today August 9th at Woolstone Wells, Nr Uffington Castle, Oxfordshire, UK! This one ‘appeared’ most likely overnight during the peak of this Lion’s Gateway that we are still within.

I felt a strong activation from this formation immediately, stimulating energy already running up and down the spine as it comes in/downloads through the upper chakras (Personal Sun, Soul Star and Crown). I felt a sacred masculine frequency to this (rather than Kundalini/Divine Feminine) that seems to originate from the Great Cosmic Sun in alignment with the powerful Sirius energies.

These are energies of Divine Father support, love, and goodness to heal the wounded masculine that impacts and effects and lives within us all personally and collectively. Sirius Lion energies are of the healthy, noble, and humble leader…..the empathetic, compassionate and vulnerable king.

Healing the love of power seems to be an aspect of the energies being offered right now during this Lion’s Gate as we see so much of this struggle in our world right now. The Matrix is fed by the love of power over others and the ‘attainment’ of it. It collapses as each of us chooses on a soul level to align with the power of love instead….the only TRUE and INFINITE and PURE power in the Universe. All other forms of power are illusionary, temporary, and ultimately dissatisfying to the soul.

Each soul is walking out this journey of discovery for themselves and in their own timing. Those of us who have been anchored into the power of love frequencies through a LONG deconstruction and purification process over many lifetimes can radiate out this possibility to all those who need to receive it.

Radiating out love rather than absorbing fear supports us too during this transitional time.

I feel so much love for the masculine with this formation and available with Divine Father in this Now, with our soul aspects who are masculine, with the Lion Sirius energies, with men and for the inner masculine within us all!

What do you see and feel from this one?

Here is the aerial footage of it: https://youtu.be/0Ah89xTj2eY

I shared more about the Lion’s Gateway, recent crop circle formations, and a message from my Sirius aspect Sela here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/lions-gate-crop-circles-up…/

love,
Jelelle Awen

More information on group calls, writings/books including my latest book Free To Be 5D, 1:1 sessions and more at soulfullheart.org.

Energy Update: Lion’s Gate ‘Roar’ Of Clearing & Truth Moving Through

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by Kasha Rokshana

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate is here and deepening too. It’s clearing the way for so much truth. In the wake of that clearing is the process we’re in now, of feeling the suffering cries of the children who have been trafficked who reflect to us a lost innocence INside too. It’s a process too of feeling the suffering of the perpetual ‘battle’ energy that has been necessary to energize for a phase yet we are always invited to move BEYOND it, especially within where the battles are often the most challenging to face, own, and heal. The ‘Roar’ is not a declaration of war but a declaration of the end of war and heralds the deepening of that process.

As more information comes out about child-trafficking and the horrors of it, it reflects to us humanity’s lost innocence that is in recovery. These children and their precious souls, hearts, bodies, have been subjected to unspeakable acts, yes, yet, to only be outraged by this doesn’t take into account the whole picture of what their souls signed up to be a part of and doesn’t encourage us to be accountable for our own reactions to it either.

Humanity cannot change at its core through outrage, shaming, blaming, chaos. Only once these frequencies have come home to our hearts through the tears and remorse of how in some ways we’ve all been a part of this unfolding narrative, can we start to feel what this has all really been about… reclaiming our own innocence and discovering the layers within us that have pushed away or suppressed it for the sake of ‘survival’ in 3D and even 4D; supporting the parts of us that have been victims to different life circumstances to move more into healing and genuine, vulnerable empowerment and even forgiveness/amnesty. It’s a VERY sobering time to be on this planet and we are all being invited into deep humility where we can admit we do not have all the answers but are doing the inner work necessary to feel and heal in many unfolding steps and layers with LOVE.

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate invites us to see and feel the deeper truths and process the reactions not just become them.

The ‘Roar’ is about the illumination and possible completion (if we truly choose it in our sovereignty) of suffering cycles inside and out.

The ‘Roar’ blows off any masks you’ve held in place, that have represented a fear of revealing the real you beyond any over-identification in parts of you with the trauma they’ve experienced.

The ‘Roar’ is here to ultimately support YOU and your ‘Divine Self’ that is waiting for you to ask for it to come in more, to find the context you need in order to process the ‘content’ moving within and in your life.

Your sacred process around all of this is yours to be in and hold. You are the Lion/Lioness ‘King/Queen’ of your inner Queen/Kingdom and all of our Sirian-Lyran counterparts, our humanoid lion(ess) members of our Star Family, are here and accessible especially through this Lion’s Gate passage. Their energies are available as a support for finding and embodying your own ‘Roar’ right now. They’ve been where we are now in their own Ascension process and have so much to offer, I’ve found.

There’s a lot to feel and process at this time… yet there’s even more to fall in deep love with, especially within you, with each sobering yet alive revelation.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

New Phase, New Name: Becoming ‘Kasha’

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by Kasha Rokshana

Today I’m officially stepping into my new ‘name’. This has been digesting for a while and I’ve been going into process lately with ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me to work with and feel deeply. There’s something so powerful, so meaningful, about drawing a new name to you. It’s a graduation and it’s an invitation. It’s a feeling of ‘arrival’ and yet too, it’s a portal into feeling your personal next steps in your process.

Feeling ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me has already been illuminating the patterns I’ve embodied related to service, men and romance, friendships, connections to the Divine and my own Divine Self, and really my relationship overall to the world ‘outside’ of me and my approach until recently to being with my inner world too.

‘Kasha’, interestingly, means ‘pure’, which happens to be the same meaning as my birth name in this life! This was completely synchronistic. My birth name ‘Kathleen’ and its short form ‘Katie’ both mean ‘pure’ as well. ‘Rokshana’ is a variation of ‘Roxanne’ in some languages and means ‘illumined one’ or ‘star’, yet in Farsi it means ‘light’, which I also didn’t realize until I looked it up. The synchronicity with that name is that it holds the same meaning as ‘Solais’, which was the last name Gabriel and I chose together when we were engaged. ‘Rokshana’ was offered to me in a vision as a last name before ‘Kasha’ was offered to Jelelle for me and she invited me to feel into it. The two names together mean ‘Pure Light’ and when you say them out loud, you feel the waveform and energy they hold! Woooosh!

This shift from ‘Kalayna’ is both sobering and exciting for me as Kasha. It’s a rebirth as a name change always is, yet differentiating from who I’ve been for the last few years of my life is not exactly simple, though it is very alive. Kalayna is my 4D Self in many ways and as her I walked out many stark ups and downs of awakening and death and rebirth cycles that were quite intense and dark. She has had her own experience of life and relationships and service of love that need some more digesting. I’m separating out from yet another ‘persona’ layer and it’s emotional yet exciting too.

I can already feel the NEW energies that ‘Kasha’ holds as my emerging ‘self’ and am looking forward to exploring that even deeper. As my energy as ‘Kalayna’ rests more, the integration of Kalayna’s gifts into ‘Kasha’ will be powerful. I can already feel a negotiation ground emerging and it’s sweet to let in.

Thank you for celebrating this shift with me!

Love,

Kasha ❀

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

All Current ‘Death/Rebirth’ Cycles Are Necessary For Awakening, Disclosure, Ascension

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by Kalayna Solais

So many souls are exiting the planet at this time. They’re leaving legacies as they go and inviting investigations into deeper and deeper truths as well, especially when their deaths are suspicious. They’re choosing (even if it looks like they didn’t choose because their lives were β€˜taken’) to leave during this time especially when more of the underbelly of our culture and the underground machinations of our human world are coming to light. They’re not coming along for the ride on this plane for the rest of our current phase, and are choosing instead to assist through another. I really get this sense of how it’s all about strong soul choices and being drawn to transition into an energy that is able to assist with disclosure, which is a huge part of our global awakening and ascension, and the process of digesting it as well.

To me, this is what β€˜death’ is meant to offer, whether it’s a death and rebirth cycle in your own life and healing process, or a transition into another phase as a soul without a physical body. Both shed a consciousness that isn’t needed in the same way anymore. Both require space for mourning and grief for those impacted by our soul’s choice, and in the case of a life phase change, our parts need this same space to mourn and grieve what was lost so they could truly be found, felt, and healed. 

What we’re experiencing globally right now is death and rebirth and the awakening that affords us all. It’s both beautiful and terrifying as our parts digest it all and our Metasouls ping around the unfolding because it’s so similar to what they’ve experienced in other lifetimes of war and collapse. 

I feel that some souls right now are awakening into polarities and it’s just as sacred as awakening out of them. Energizing what you are and are not, even if it’s not taking into account the whole picture, is a play out of your individuality journey and sometimes you’ll find yourself in contention over this and maybe this is new. Maybe it’s good that parts of you are advocating for something they feel is righteous or a Metasoul sister or brother of yours in another lifetime is walking out and trying to resolve some karma through YOUR lifetime. This is necessary for a phase and IS an essential part of awakening and ascension for many. This is what then leads to more desire for peace inside and out, but a peace that doesn’t cost you anything and instead is authentic and organic and so deeply rooted it can’t really be shaken.

Awakening beyond the polarity picture is NOT often easy, especially with how much contention there is around and inside of you, until you can find the genuine desire for this to shift in your inner world. There are numerous parts to work with if you want peace and deep inner love flow that overflows to others. There are numerous Metasoul aspects to work with too, who also need this experience of something new, without the same cycles of recapitulation of endless battles and war over differences that aren’t even real at the end of the day.

This is the gift that death in the physical and in our healing and ascension phases offers… illumination that leads to awakening. This phase on our planet in this β€˜year’ called β€˜2020’ has offered us all so much to feel into when and as we choose to. It’s a sacred time of messiness and chaos leading us to whole new ways of being if the steps can be taken from within.

Love,

Kalayna 

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Inviting Your 3D Self Into Healing

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by Kalayna Solais

In order to be in, live in, navigate 3D, parts of you have had to form. They’ve also formed in reaction to traumas you’ve experienced in the density of 3D. These traumas sometimes have slipped under the radar, actually, and not necessarily been experiences of overt abuse. Sometimes even just not being heard or seen is traumatic. Not feeling loved is traumatic. Not feeling like you belong on this planet is traumatic.

The 3D Self is pretty complex yet when you meet your own with love and open-hearted curiosity, the parts that make it up respond to that, come forward, and a bond with them is created. This is not about ‘eliminating the ego’ as some other offerings may teach, yet rather, loving the ‘3D ego’, if you want to call it that, and appreciating WHY it’s had to form. This helps you find your way through the pain and into the harvest of deep inner gifts and soul bigness that have been buried underneath it out of necessity.

Without loving the 3D Self deeply, your life cannot shift on deeper levels. What needs to be let go of in order to let in MORE love in Divine/multi-dimensional ways becomes more challenging to walk out than it necessarily has to be. There’s a necessary burning away of the masks that have kept you in fused states to your 3D Self and its many ways of expressing in your relationship to others and yourself in general, and your relationship to the Divine, to love, to spirituality.

If this resonates and sparks some interest in you to go deeper, Raphael and Jelelle Awen offered a by-donation group call yesterday about this very topic that you can still donate to receive the recording of. It’s part of the 6-week Free To Be 5D Series so your donation will get you access to all recordings from this series so far and the Zoom link for the other 4 calls coming up. You’ll hear teachings from them on and also engage in a powerful guided meditation. Gabriel Heartman and I also share a bit about our own experiences with this process.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupseries

Much love to you and your precious 3D Self! ❀
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

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“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❀

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The EnLIGHTENment Of The Heart

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This morning I was feeling what Enlightenment means to me. In the past, I felt it as a goal or achievement. A state free from the suffering I was in. I focused on the Mind as the causation of my depression and anxiety. I meditated daily, went for long hikes in nature, and read many books.

Yet, in the formidable background, there was a voice that wouldn’t go away. An ache that made me feel everything I was β€˜doing’ was a cover-up. A smoke-screen from really doing the one thing I was avoiding, and that was β€˜feeling’. All the books, hikes, and words could not subvert the feeling.

After going into the emotional body for the past 8 years (not everyday, mind you), I have realized Enlightenment to mean something else at the moment. For me the key word is β€˜Lighten’. To make, or be, less heavy. That is rooted in the Heart.

The Heart holds the Akashic Record of our wounded and sacred humanity. We can use the Mind to take us to the places we got hurt, got rejected, experienced the trauma of β€˜not-love’. It is there we can offer the salve of Love to help heal, release, and transmute the pain, the experience of separation back into the Lightness of Being.

…The Lightness Of Being. Yeah. That is what Enlightenment means to me at the moment. The freedom to Be. To Express. To Create. To Partake and Enjoy. It is from this enLIGHTENed place that I can best feel and serve the β€˜cries of the world’. The Darkness that needs us to be grounded in this Lightness of Being so we don’t go down with it, but lift it up and out of the Shadow, both individually and collectively.

I am now more free to explore more of my mental and spiritual enlightenment without it bypassing the emotional body. As long as I am human there is more β€˜work’ to do, but now it is rooted in more joy and essence. That is what I have really been seeking this life. Maybe that is what you have been really seeking as well.

If so, please feel into a free Consultation Call to see how this process may resonate with you. I would be honored to serve and explore this emotional and spiritual enlightenment process with you. Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

There is also the next Free To Be Group Call Series beginning this Wednesday, July 15 with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. Check out soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries for more info as well.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Light Side Of The Moon

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Letting a new vibration of Joy inside of me today. For the past 8 years I have been doing deep inner work as well as resisting it on many occasions. This ebb and flow has brought me to new shores of my emotional and spiritual landscape.

I remember taking pictures like these in Mexico but there was still pain and suffering in my heart and Metasoul. I feel like I have entered the Light Side of the Moon, sort of speak. I know that there is still Shadow to attend to, but now I feel I am more rooted in the Light, in the Joy, and in the passion of purpose.

I owe this to the work I have been a part of these past years. My soul has made a pivot toward more goodness and Love. It feels lasting. I welcome the challenges to it so that I can feel how deeply rooted it is in me. I am inviting more initiations and guidance from my space-holders and mentors, Raphael and Jelelle, my soul friend Kalayna Solais, as well as Yeshua/Magdalene for my deepening sacred masculine and feminine integration.

I know now who I AM more than I ever have. Why I am here is more embodied and understood the more I have healed and integrated all that I have been through, with the help and support of my community. I wish more than anything to share that with others who are deeply drawn to this path of deep self-transmutation. I am not just a facilitator but facilitant. A teacher and a student. Always a student. Always humbled to let go and let in all that leads to my I AM.

My heart is full, open, and ready to serve when the time is right for those I am meant to. So blessed to be Here…Now with those that I am serving and learning from.

Sending Sirian Sun codes to all the parts of you that still feel lost in the dark.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.