Being With Anxiety: A Peek Into The SoulFullHeart Process: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Oct 28, 2019)
It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!
In this week’s Museletter, we feature an article from Facilitant and SoulFullHeart Social Media Maven Raianna Shai sharing her an experience from her personal process around being with an anxious reaction through connecting with parts of herself.
“It’s different for everyone but what’s the same is that all of our parts ultimately want love and to be heard. So if we take the time and space (if we can) to get to know these parts of ourselves then MAYBE we can begin to draw these feelings and situations less and less.”
There will be a powerful online Group Transmission coming up in November with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. The focus of this group on Saturday, November 9th, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the Ascension codes that are coming in through cosmic energies (from sources such as our Sun, the Great Cosmic Sun, other Planets/Galaxies, etc.) and from Gaia and Inner Earth as well.
Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on Sunday, December 1 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom This group focuses on deeper connection and surrogacy experience with the faces of the Divine Mother, such as Mother Mary, Kuan Yin, Mary Magdalene, Sophia, Isis, and Dark Mother/Kali.
Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman will be co-leading another Guided Meditation and Sharing Circle in-person here in Victoria, BC on November 18th, 2019 to provide a beginning place and space to connect with your Inner Protector.
For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events
There are some new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman and a writing from Kalayna Solais, who is taking a break from SoulFullHeart Facilitation and community to focus on her personal process. The writings include energy updates from Jelelle about a surge of Solar Winds and Schumann/Gaia waves, and sharings from Gabriel and Raphael from the SoulFullHeart perspective.
Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop
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Metasoul Timelines Coming Through On Halloween: Personal Sharing
By Jelelle Awen
Halloween was an opportunity for us to channel and tap into energies in our soul to express and allow ‘out’ for an evening. Raphael reigned as King Arthur from our porch, giving out candy with huge generousity and presence to over 300 children! A community bonfire raged right across the street, which added to the feeling of teleporting to another timeline.
I got to bring forward my inner Priestess and Queen too…remembering how it is walk in the woods with a long dress and sleeves, feeling feminine in a regal way, making sure there was enough food, warmth, magic and fun for everyone.
Nic joined us again for the evening, adding his unique, fun, and open hearted joy to ours and with Raianna, they made a sweet and lively Elven pair. Gabriel channeled his Victorian, Steampunk self, both dapper and a bit madcap.
Feeling grateful for the community feeling that extended beyond our little SoulFullHeart den last night….and hopeful for a taste and glimpse of what New Earth community could feel like.
Hope you are having a rich, deep, and explorative Halloween, Samhain, Day of the Dead, etc.
love,
Jelelle Awen
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Connecting With The You Who Can Feel You Reacting
By Raphael Awen
There’s you having a reaction with no one home to feel you having the reaction. You’ve simply become the reaction without awareness or consciousness of the reaction.
Then there’s you observing the you that’s having a reaction. Conscious awareness is being brought to the reaction. An aware you is showing up to take responsibility. That’s a big step ahead in growth for sure, but it’s also fraught with other reactions of a judgment and shame nature; an Inner Punisher showing up on the scene.
THEN, there’s a you who can feel and bring love and awareness to ALL of these states and phases of your consciousness evolution.
This higher self version of you can feel that you came here to have all of these stages, that you as well as your higher self needed this experience of both forgettance and remembrance. We chose a process of forgoing awareness as well as the entire process of returning to, and reigning in, full awareness.
Your reactions, along with your reactions to your reactivity, all the way to loving each and every one of them and especially the part of you having the experience is what you and I came here for.
Because we are both one and individual at the same time, whatever you figure out for yourself in awakening and remembering process is instantly downloaded into the one mind that we all share and made available more and more to those who are ready for and needing the download codes of what it is we are all growing into. This is where all purpose is sourced in. You get to play with whatever passion purpose expression you want to that is unique to you and part of the great remembering that we all share.
What are the big reactions that are moving through your life now?
Can you bring your awareness to them and feel any judgment reactions to the reactions?
Can you then show up with a curious and open heart to feel it all?
Would you be willing to get to intimately know and feel the parts of you that have lived your life as you up till now?
This is the new awakening in spirituality today. It’s no longer about becoming ‘higher frequency’ without getting to know the part of you pushing for the higher frequency attainment. It’s no longer about attainment, but is more about reverence for the entire process; the fusion stage of simply being your reactions; the stage of dawning awareness of your reactions; the stage of cascading reactions to your awareness of your reactions; and then all the way to revering it all as your sacred path and choice – and in that reverence, setting out to become intimate with it all.
I’m in it. You’re in it. We’re all in it.
If I can help you go into your next choice and awareness points, I’d like to invite you to consider a free intro session to the SoulFullHeart process. If you ask for the free intro session, myself or Gabriel Heartman will send you three simple questions to respond to and a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector to engage in, and then from there, we’ll set up a time to have the intro together for 30-45 minutes over Zoom. We’ll spend that time together and then from there, you can decide if you’d like to have regular sessions in ongoing process together.
How does that sound?
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.
Anxiety: A Peek Into The SoulFullHeart Process
By Raianna Shai
A couple of nights ago, I experienced anxiety in a way that I hadn’t in quite a long time. One thing that was very different this time was simply my awareness of it. I never totally realized that I had quite a bit of anxiety in the past. I always thought that because it wasn’t inherently debilitating that I was just an overthinker.
But I feel that this experience is quite prevalent in most of us, and is a mix of different relationships between parts of us.
For myself, it felt like my inner child feeling scared of “getting in trouble”. She wants so badly to love, feel joy and play in the beauty of life. But when things happen in my life that are more “adult” and difficult, my Protector will put her out front so that it’s harder for others to get mad at me. Who really wants to yell at a child?
My Inner Protector also has fear, for getting in trouble means he has somehow failed me. So he tends to try and avoid these situations as much as possible in order to protect my other parts such as my inner child.
Then my Inner Punisher comes into play by judging my Inner Child for getting something wrong in the first place. For he’s constantly looking for things that she could improve. When deep down, he really just judges himself for the way he feels he has to be.
All this to say that no matter how bad my anxiety or depression gets, the biggest thing that gets me through and allows me to grow from the situation is feeling the dynamics going on inside.
It’s different for everyone but what’s the same is that all of our parts ultimately want love and to be heard. So if we take the time and space (if we can) to get to know these parts of ourselves then MAYBE we can begin to draw these feelings and situations less and less.
Here is *sort of* a poem I wrote to illustrate the process I had that night!
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Tears of hopeless frustration
Feeling lost in a sea of emotion
Stomach tense in fear and expectation
Anxiety takes hold with intense ferocity
Sleep is lost to the silence of the night
Tossing and turning with measured repetition
Then I remember the family inside of me
Waiting to be felt
Waiting to be heard and loved
“What can I do for you, my loves?”
“How can I help?”
“I’m scared and just want to have joy”
Says the little one
“I fear failure, that I put you in danger”
Says the fierce protector
“I don’t like this, and I need to to fix it”
Says the punishing voice
“You are all loved, supported and heard”
I say
“You, little one, need not to worry of things in the adult world. You are the joy and love I need to tell my truth with compassion.”
“You, my loving guard, need not to protect the others. I am here now, to hold the space with intention and strength.”
“You, my precious critic, need not to judge yourself or others. You were needed once before, but now you may rest.”
And with that
The child tucked in
The protector at rest
The punisher soothed
I sleep in peace
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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Energy Update: Heightened Solar/Schumann Activity As Timelines Collapse
By Jelelle Awen
There have been heightened Schumann/Gaia resonance energy waves for the last three days starting on October 27th. These higher readings happened during high speed solar wind speeds (up to 600 km/sec) and lower class geomagnetic storms starting on October 24th through October 28. The winds are expected to pick up again on October 30-31, flowing from a new hole on the sun’s surface.
There is also a weak, slow moving Coronal Mass Ejection (CME) that left the sun’s surface a couple days ago that will produce some auroras today and tomorrow, yet probably not any geomagnetic storms, according to spaceweather.com. CMEs are different from solar flares that originate from sun spots, as CMEs take longer to reach the atmosphere of Gaia.
Heightened geomagnetics can impact our physical, emotional, and chakral bodies in different and unique ways. Some people feel them very acutely and there is quite a range to these experiences. Some people are in heightened states of physical tiredness/sleepiness, physical discomfort and pain, nausea, dizziness, etc. Others respond with increased sensations of Kundalini surges, bliss states, Oneness Unity Consciousness awareness, and more. Or there can be a swing in between the two.
The feeling sense is that these energies offered by our Sun are a key component to our ongoing Ascension and awakening process. They serve to provide sacred masculine activations to our masculine within and collectively. These energies help to upgrade the masculine into the next evolutionary phase of its expression from patriarchy to kingly partner and clear out the old. These solar activities can produce a heightened sense of your inner masculine wounding and parts of you (such as the Inner Protector, Gatekeeper, Inner Punisher) that hold this wounding in both women and men.
This particular surge of energies coming during the 10/10 to 11/11 gateway that we’ve been in feels like it connects to the collapse of timelines and emergence of those anchored into the New Gaia/New Earth/New Lemuria 2020 timeline. As we finish out the highly transitional year of 2019 with so much ‘9’ energy of completion, we enter into the open possibilities offered by 2020.
It feels like a timeline is collapsing during major life changes and transitions, geographic shifts, relationship completions, career changes, significant emotional movements, physical illness/surgeries (seeing many of these for people!), deaths and transitions of loved ones and pets, etc. Timelines collapsing can feel like going through a crisis, major loss, or breakdown. There can be quite a need for mourning, for letting go, for emotional digestion of whatever is moving on.
In this current phase of heightened Ascension, timeline collapses are often happening while the new 2020 timelines are coming into your field. Often they are occurring so that your higher timeline CAN come in. This is a bittersweet experience. I call it ‘ash in the air’ while ‘confetti rains down too.’ This can be confusing to digest emotionally as you are starting to tune into the loving JOY that you feel in connection to your higher 2020 timeline. The creative surges, the passionate visonary moments, the experiences of deeper intimacy with others.
These higher timeline moments and experiences of your Divine essence allow you to participate with and surrender to the timeline collapses. You can more easily understand WHY the timelines are collapsing and cooperate with them rather than resist them. You can see that they are happening with you, not against you. You can feel more gratitude for what is letting go and moving on even as you have strong desire for what is coming.
Connecting to your higher timeline can be hugely helpful in navigating these heightened energies and collapsing timelines. Letting in the Ascension codes that are coming in from the Sun also increases your capacity to align to your higher timeline and feel ALL the support that is there for you. This is a guided meditation I did recently to bring in Ascension codes: https://youtu.be/2IlAAdIvLuU
And you can join Raphael and I for our monthly group transmission on Saturday, November 9th at 10:00am PDT which will be teaching about the process of Ascension Codes. We will also be providing a sound healing with our 432HZ crystal sound bowls and a guided meditation/transmission. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/
Much love to you as we navigate these heightened energies bringing in the New while the previous collapses,
Jelelle Awen
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
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Letting Go Of Serving/Community, To Serve, Love, And Commune With Myself
by Kalayna Solais
“The energy released through the act of Confrontation is the resource from which the new self is created. To be sure, it takes great courage to look within, but the universe will not present to you what you are not ready to see… we will never be given a burden greater than our ability to carry.” — from Avalon Within by Jhenah Telyndru
Lately, I’ve been in a process of really diving deep within to confront anything and everything that has been keeping me from leading to my fullest capacity and deeply inhabiting service…. which is also everything that’s been keeping me from ME, from loving myself in a deeper and fuller way, and also loving others in the deep way they deserve without energies of comparison and intense projections of all kinds.
I’ve been having to take space from my community and them from me during this ongoing process… and that also means not facilitating or offering intro calls to others. I’ll also not be leading the SAFE calls for women with Jelelle, like the one tomorrow.
I feel surrendered and sad. Hopeful and remorseful. I’m mourning the old timelines that are collapsing but grateful that it’s time for something new to arise from the ashes. I feel the tenderness, unknown, and even insecurity that comes up in claiming this space for myself but the alchemy and opportunities in this too, to finally uproot and HEAL what’s been allowed to live inside of me for so long, well beyond this life. This is the business of deep soul shadow work and I’m grateful for the degree of trust I have around it, even though it’s so challenging sometimes to hold it all. In moments, it feels like I’m going to implode. But even then… once the waves that feel like they’re going to drown me ebb again, a grace comes through, something bigger than the ‘me’ I’ve been, holding me. And that I’m leaning into as a vital part of my own personal healing and Ascension journey that I can’t put off anymore and that needs my intense sobriety and focus.
I highly recommend having a free 30-45min intro call with Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman… both are heart open, wonderful men that can be deeply trusted and they are so ready to show up for you and all parts/Metasoul aspects of you. ❤
Also, if you are a woman, I very much recommend checking out Jelelle Awen’s SAFE call tomorrow. Even if you can’t make it live, you can purchase the recording. It’s $15 CAD to attend/receive the recording. Jelelle’s energies of Divine Feminine/Mother are gentle yet catalytic and I have benefitted greatly from everything she has ever offered me in session space and beyond. ❤ More info on the event tomorrow here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/
Much love to you and with you,
Kalayna
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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, a healing healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Experiencing Anxiety And Depression As Portals To Your Parts Of Self And Soul: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Oct 21, 2019)
It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!
In this week’s Museletter, we feature an article and video from Facilitator/Teacher, Jelelle Awen, sharing about the extreme emotional states of anxiety and depression and how they offer a portal to deeper self discovery and soul exploration. She offers how the SoulFullHeart Healing Process works with parts of the self and soul to heal the trauma vibrations that cause anxiety and depression and where they are usually coming from.
“Seeing them as a portal allows you to shift from fighting them and into loving curiosity about them. The experience of extreme emotional states is so often the result of backed up, undigested traumas.”
Jelelle Awen is leading a virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) group on Sunday, October 27 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom is to provide a continuing conversation and guided meditation about what the sacred feminine is and isn’t, plus the process that is needed (both to let in and to let go of) for more embodiment of the sacred feminine.
There will be a powerful online Group Transmission coming up in November with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. The focus of this group on Saturday, November 9th, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the Ascension codes that are coming in through cosmic energies (from sources such as our Sun, the Great Cosmic Sun, other Planets/Galaxies, etc.) and from Gaia and Inner Earth as well. We will also talk about what codes ARE and how to bridge to your personal experience of them as images, sounds, number sequences, etc. We will also talk about the parts of you (such as Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) that need to negotiated with to bring the codes into your field through the crown chakra and what the fears/resistances can be to doing that stemming from other lifetimes/timelines.
Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman will be co-leading another Guided Meditation and Sharing Circle in-person here in Victoria, BC on November 18th, 2019. They will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.
We will be having a four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).
For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events
There are some new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle Awen and Gabriel Heartman. They include energy updates, a message for women from Magdalene, and teaching about the Gatekeeper, and other parts.
Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman are now offering FREE 1:1, 30-45min intro calls to see how the SFH process may support you on your healing and Ascension journey and if 1:1 sessions with them are a good fit for you. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop
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