SoulFullHeart Museletter: Sept 17, 2022

Feeling your Inner Masculine as a woman is a powerful, multi-faceted experience! Tomorrow, Sept 18th at 5pm WEST (Lisbon/London)/ 12pm EDT/ 9am PDT, Jelelle and Kasha will be leading a women’s call focused on connecting with your inner masculine in any expression he currently has. You can donate to attend live and/or receive the recording via our shop or PayPal and we will email you the Zoom link and recording after the call.

If you’d like more information on any of our upcoming group calls, visit our Events page.

There are a few new writings to take in this week, featuring some messages from the Divine and star family too, poetry, and other heartfelt sharings.

There is also a brand new guided meditation video from Kasha, focused on creating a ‘Safe Haven’ within you where you/parts of you can return to whenever they want to, yet especially during those times when life on the outside seems unsafe or unstable in any way.

You can find our current Museletter here.

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Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

The Gifts Of Self-Validation & Immersion In Your Own World

by Kasha Rokshana

You know… sometimes it’s truly in your self-permission to imagine, to just be in play or even in pain, to immerse yourself in a world that feels ‘made up’ to others around you… that you find your deepest growth and most profound healing.

Dive into those waters of what could be real to find what IS real for you. And finding playmates on the outside in the form of soul family who also feel the depth and realness of everything inside of you as if it’s theirs too is a gift that keeps on giving.

Maybe it’s the pursuit of facts and cold, hard evidence that brings in the most confusion when your purest heart and parts of you just want to experience love unfolding… especially within you, and especially in response to all things in life whether hard or easy, challenging or simple.

Maybe all it really takes is recognizing the beauty of the self-permission to immerse in your own reality and make it the realest thing imaginable.
There’s no way to go halfway in that, unless you feel obliged to comply with whatever realities are around you and possibly invading your own in ways less than loving and much less than empathic or compassionate.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s all there is to it when it comes to your deepest, realest Divine reunion experiences – play pretend until it feels real enough to become embodied, find ways into and through your deepest pains, and remember that the ways in which your shadow may come out through these experiences is all a part of the same sacred thing of truly owning your own reality and finding your growth path within that.

…just some notes from the road as I step even deeper into this myself!

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Becoming: A Poem

by Kasha Rokshana

Maybe it’s readiness
That draws the curtains on our fate.
And maybe readiness has never been about
anything missing,
wrong,
or unmastered.

Maybe readiness has always been about
Now letting in
All the love there always is to receive,
being willing to go in
and feel
Where, how, why
Certain pockets of our being,
Certain parts within our heart,
Certain aspects of our vast soul
Put aside love as any possible answer
To any pain, ache, or desire.

Maybe…
Maybe it’s the vulnerability
Of humbly feeling unready
That brings in the openings we crave and cave into?
Perhaps it’s mostly in our humility,
Our willingness to start all over again,
Our ability to feel it all,
Where we feel our Divine calling to love
And be love
To experience deep and soulful romantic love
To draw to us our fated encounters,
Our synchronized alignments,
And our most beloved unfolding
Into everything we are
And are now ready to claim
…And be claimed by.

The Divine, the Great Love that holds us steady
through the tumult.
The energy inspiring our growing centres,
Encouraging, always, our deepening trust in all there is to endure,
Brings us homeward to ourselves
In ever-unexpected ways
Through waves of grief, fear, longing,
And yes,
Grace too.

We are everything
Rather than nothing.
We are aliveness
So much more so than deadness.
We are alchemy brewing and moving
Even in our toughest, tightest, flattest,
and most uncertain phases.

We are readying, steadying,
Living into
The greatest fates we could imagine
With every shake and quake of our hearts
And awakening of our souls
Into a new reality
Blossoming from the depths
And caverns
And crevices
Inside the inside of everything we are
Everything we ever were
And everything we are yet to embrace
In our ready, open, aligned
Becoming.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said “You are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

How Some ‘Spiritual Truths’ Dull Divine Passion & Personal Soul Truth

By Kasha Rokshana

So many popular ‘spiritual truths’ feel so empty and tinny to me, and they can sometimes be used by parts of you to quell your genuine passion and divine fire. They become such dull platitudes and yet they are revered and held as THE irrefutable Truth for so many souls.

There are so many different ‘truths’ that indeed ARE true in different ways, yet just like affirmations, they can so easily be used in a manipulative way that also dulls intuition and raw instinct within yourself and others. It’s about how they are related to, not about the words themselves…

Taking the “high road” that some of these sayings offer really isn’t as interesting to me as going into the messy road, the one that has brambles and needs some bush-whacking, for that is where realness is and also some very catalytic Divine energies. It’s not that being elevated enough to see the bigger picture isn’t important, but sometimes it’s the grind and grist that leads us to our deepest growth AND our truest exit from the need for grist to appear in the same way.

These ‘truths’ which are so often hijacked by the false light matrix, can be used to gaslight, to divert attention away from a need to actually own what’s rumbling in yourself or another, to keep you from dropping into a realization about a shadow play-out that’s been happening in your life or your spiritual healing/writing offerings.

And, they do anything BUT support you to go into more intimacy grounds within yourself, to truly cultivate and embody your Divine Self, and in that same way they do not support a deepening intimacy ground with others built with true compassion and love.

On my own awakening and Ascension journey, I haven’t personally been drawn to very many of them or the leaders/teachers who spout them off and justify the abuse they dole out through them. Yet, I also feel in my heart why some souls would be drawn and even ignore any intuitions they may have about them, especially if this to them is what love is or must be and it sure seems much more alive than what they’ve endured in the past.

There are so many I could highlight today, yet I’ve chosen just a few to share about that seem to really show up a lot.

“If you’re triggered by me, it’s not about me, it’s all about you”.

While this is true to some degree, this so often gets used to divert away from your own accountability, the mirror of your own shadow showing up. Even though you may have innocently triggered someone, sometimes there is still room to own your own side of things, to see and feel someone in their trigger, and discern if this is a reflection you truly need at this time or not. None of us are perfect, and we DO get to choose whose opinions and reflections of us we value the most, yet there is so much data in all of our triggers for ourselves and our relationships to absolutely everything and everyone.

Also, where is the heartfelt care in saying this to someone that you supposedly DO care about?

“Make sure you heal before you enter in romantic relationship so you don’t project your wounding onto your partner.”

Rare is the soul who is fully done with projecting. It is so challenging at times to be the receiver of projections and sometimes, again, we can innocently trigger someone into this ground, yet this is ALL a sacred part of our exploration of deeper intimacy with others. Sometimes parts of us HAVE to project in order to see and feel themselves from a different light. Without allowing each other to have ‘stuff’ we are working when in relationship, we have missed the point of even going into it in the first place.

In the past it was hard for a time for parts of me to get that we have this permission inside to get messy with others or to let them get messy with me without any true ‘winner’ in the situation, without anyone needing to be ‘wrong’ or ‘right’, and without anyone needing to pretend to be perfect and have it all together. Yet what gets me through the pretense and old conditioning around conflict, is the reminder that we’re all in this together, we’re all imperfect, and if we can at least hold a common ground of doing deep inner work and wanting the mirrors that true intimacy offers us, then we will be just fine and heal in ways we never imagined possible.

And here’s one more which has recently been on my radar: “It doesn’t matter if someone steals or takes credit for your writings or creations made in the service of love. It never truly belonged to you anyways”.

If you have created something from the fires of your inner work, your passion, your hard-earned Divine access inside and out, and someone takes credit for that who has absolutely NOT done the same work you have and may actually be using your words/creations to seduce and create their own platform and following (something many ‘leaders’ do, unfortunately)… why would that be considered ‘ok’? If you genuinely feel unattached, I would say there’s a missing Divine passion in you that some part of you is afraid of and concerned about what it could do if untethered.

Advocacy and reasonable self-defence are not separate from Divine passion. You can keep your heart open, refrain from getting nasty, and stand solidly in your truth all at the same time. I’ve done it, my beloveds have done it, it’s possible and it’s accessible. It also shows that instead of trying to control your emotions, which aren’t ultimately controllable, you are willing to explore what is actually happening in this scenario from all angles possible.

“What’s the lesson I need to learn here?”

Whenever I hear someone say this, I immediately feel an Inner Punisher playing disciplinarian inside of them. It can feel so harsh to say this to yourself or to have a beloved ‘teacher’ say this to you. It takes the humanity out of the equation or worse, tries to discipline your humanity and make it bad or wrong or off or even ‘not ascended enough’.

I don’t feel that the vast majority of ‘teachers’ out there are even remotely qualified enough to ask such questions or make such judgements of you or anyone else, but that’s another piece I’ll share more about soon…

When something goes sideways in my own life, I don’t ask myself if there’s a ‘lesson’ to learn because I’m not in school anymore. What I do is look into the mirror that’s been offered and ask my parts/aspects, “what do I need to feel in myself that’s been off my radar but that I couldn’t see without this situation?” Even with this question sometimes I’ve had to feel a shame spiral my parts have fallen into… yet grounding it back into them and feeling where that comes from helps so much, as well as feeling the situation from as many angles as possible, truly ‘milking’ it for my growth and inner reconciliation while inviting the Divine in to support and love me through it, and then moving on. Nothing will help you move on the way real love does and that is always, without any doubt in my heart, seeded first within.

There’s such an important discernment that is being asked of us in spirituality and beyond. It’s as simple as asking questions about what is truly real, what your heart and intuition both tell you is possible, and feeling how the Divine is guiding you in every moment… whether this means you are able to ‘follow the crowd’ and wherever the current fanfare is around this or that ‘truth’ or ‘teacher’, or if you’d rather stay in your own lane for a while, feel it all out from deep within, and continue to find your own empowered connection to yourself and the Divine.

This has been such an important place to go for me personally and I imagine that we have all struggled at times to find our way to what’s pure, true, good, and loving amidst all of the din.

If my truth stirs or inspires your own in some way, please do be in touch and if you’re curious about 1:1 sessions with me (for women), we can meet for a free intro call to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and community and if it might be a fit for you at this time: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for affordable membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-starseed-network-podcast/id1585215487

Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

“I love you”: Message Of Encouragement From The Divine

by Kasha Rokshana

(Art by Glenyss Bourne)

In all of life’s
infinite complications…

There’s always a voice
whispering,

“I love you”…

Even if
Part of you
Isn’t able to hear it
Or
Isn’t able to let in

The voice remains,
still whispering,

“I love you”.

Then…
you realize
this voice is yours
And the Divine’s
Rolled back into One.

Even when something
So deep inside you
thought everything was over,
That the complications have ‘won’,
that it’ll never know love again…

The voice remains
and still it whispers,

“I love you”,
And as a toddler
Makes its strides with watchful eyes,
your heart knows
And remembers steadily
That somehow
This voice,
These words,
Are its true home.

And when it’s ready,
With a steadiness in tow,
It begins to whisper back,

“I love you too…”

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Video: Caring For Yourself & The World (Teachings & Guided Meditation)

SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Union soulmates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, led this livestream on March 30, 2022 to talk about care for our inner and outer worlds and how there’s such a deep process around living into it. 

They share about their own experiences with the process of activating their own care from deep within themselves and how their different templates/models for what it means to care about yourself and the world around you has had to be deeply felt and moved through to find authentic care expression. 

They also offer some different ways in which to view this concept of being truly caring, the way it’s been hijacked by the Matrix through the ‘Woke’ agenda, and the difference between filling a role/expectation versus genuinely feeling empathy and compassion.

After the teaching and digestion, Gabriel and Kasha led a guided meditation to meet with your Love Ambassador self before entering the ‘care room’ inside of you, where there are different situations playing out and different parts of you feeling their attachments or reactions to these scenarios. 

Here is the link to a guided meditation led by Jelelle Awen where you’re invited to deeply enter a process of healing the cries of the inner and outer world: https://youtu.be/EsKv4XwV7ME

Kasha’s writing about the Great Passing: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/01/23/the-great-passing-taking-place-during-this-time-of-the-great-awakening/

And the recording of it in her voice: https://youtu.be/TKtMzVlPKSg

Meet Your Gatekeeper guided meditation: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Reflecting On My Past Decade With SoulFullHeart

by Kasha Rokshana

Now that I can actually say it’s been 10 years since my deeper healing, awakening, and remembering journey truly began in this lifetime, I’m realizing how little time 10 years actually is. It’s been a very FULL decade though with a lot that I’ve moved through and arisen into, with many waves of deep diving within. It’s been a real and humbling art form to then let the love cultivated flow outwardly to others in intimate relationship, service, and seed-planting.

The pictures of who I thought I would be have dissolved and transformed into something different, with the same essence at heart. These pictures began when my first awakening experiences happened around 20 years ago. Before my SoulFullHeart journey began, parts of me held onto a dream of becoming a well-known actress/performer while also holding space for others and hopefully making bank while doing so.

The ‘sage on a stage’ dream was quickly humbled by the recognition of how much the ‘work’ that I needed to do wasn’t on development and maintenance of a self-image that I could commoditize, or on quick fixes that promised I would overcome all of my doubts and fears with only some effort. Instead, it turned out that the work was inward. VERY inward. So inward in fact, that for a few phases I had to let go of everything that once was a sacred dream in order to let in what the real dream was… a dream of becoming a love so deep and vast and connected to the Divine, that no one and nothing on the outside could touch or taint it, even if this didn’t turn out to make me/parts of me look or seem like the well-known ‘teachers’ of our time, didn’t draw thousands of social media followers or fans, and also didn’t draw a six-figure income.

I also came to realize that even though parts of me could be quite social at times, I was actually more naturally inward and introverted. How many layers I would have had to put on to become what I originally thought I wanted to be! If it was all about love anyways and feeling on some level that I had to ‘earn’ love, then I would have become quite burned out… and I think this is what happens to many souls and the parts that had to form in order to conform to these outward-based needs and this picture of success.

In these last ten years, I’ve learned what service and empathy really mean and where they really seems to come from as both an inherent gift that lies in your heart from birth that’s meant to be shared, but also something that needs to be watered, developed, and made safe to come out. I also learned that being empathic AND compassionate is an art form in and of itself and a humbling one at that…

I’ve learned that what I thought “Sacred Union” was was really only a small picture of what it actually is… and what it actually is needs to be discovered so personally, starting from deep within you between parts of you and in your soul journey too, not simply with another on the outside. It’s taken me so much longer than parts of me thought it would to truly be ready for it and for the growth, mirrors, and depth of love it offers.

I am learning so much more, every day, about Divine feminine embodiment and what it means to be me as an energy expression of Divine Mother and a Divine Daughter. I am continually humbled by what this journey asks of me, the seeds it plants and waters in my heart, and by just how much I love the Divine in my soul… a love that more and more needs less and less from others in a certain way, though some needs remain that are fulfilled by my beloved soul family in the flesh and in the formless. It’s actually been the depth of intimacy I’ve experienced within this community that has done the most to inspire and support my inner shifts, and it’s the openings within me toward the Divine that has also inspired me so deeply and always keeps me going even through the toughest challenges.

These last ten years have been so deeply healing, even when I had to leave the SoulFullHeart room (in one sense of it) and let life be my facilitator/space holder during different phases, or when I had to leave the room of my Sacred Union relationship with Gabriel. I feel grateful for every up and down, every wobble, every triumph.

It was in every doubt and question about myself and my path, especially maybe in those times when I wasn’t been directly supported by the community and had to be ‘on my own’ for a while, that I could quite deeply recognize who I had been and the soul themes I had been working. It was during the times of ‘going without’ that I truly found how to go within, apply what I had learned, and re-enter the SoulFullHeart and Sacred Union rooms as a truly changed woman.

Truthfully, I probably spent 1-2 years out of this last decade processing on the ‘outside’ of this community, my beloved romance, and sessions. And though heartbreaking, it really did break me open.

I feel I’m digesting all of this as a way to let it in, but also to extend the invitation to your own sovereign soul, to feel into if this journey may also be for you. If you’re curious, Gabriel and I offer free 45min intro calls where we can feel this with you with lots of honesty: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Thank you for taking in this piece of my journey and feeling whatever resonance is real for you too!

Love,
Kasha

P.S… here’s the first article I ever wrote for the SoulFullHeart Blog, called “Heart-To-Heart Knowing”, signed off on by a now precious part of me named “Katie”: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2012/09/19/heart-to-heart-knowing/

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.