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Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

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by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

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by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay ‘high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. ‘Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the ‘service to self’ versus ‘service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a ‘whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@renebbernal

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Welcoming The Peaks And Valleys Of Awakening

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by Raphael Awen

You can have what you want. That’s not actually the question.

The bigger question is about being ready to have what you want.

A part of you may readily say ‘oh, believe me, I’m ready! I’m so ready, I’m getting both depressed and impatient waiting to have what I really want.’

But this is only taking into consideration one part of you. Other parts of you can be just off your radar and actively resisting you (or what we call ‘you’) as they are not interested at all in these big changes ‘you’ feel you are so ready for. This resistive part of you is not something you can control, but it is something that you are responsible for, and something that you need to become responsive to.

Then, there is also another aspect of you, that is probably also just off your radar and that is your higher self. Your higher self may have chosen a preferred path of difficulty and going without something that another part of you deeply desires in order to learn and grow through a difficulty. It wouldn’t actually be a growth crucible without this tension between what ‘you’ want and don’t want. Your higher self is also something you cannot control, but it is something you are responsible for and that you also need to become more responsive to.

You are not a victim. Your life as you know it now is shaped by you, and the life you will come to know in the future is also shaped by you.

Your life as it is right now, warts and all, is perfect in the midst of imperfection. You are perfect while growing and learning. All the angst, pain and confusion is sacred. You had so much heaven that you needed to dial up hell in order to grow. Your soul loved the heaven it knew, but it also wanted more, and it knew the path to more was though the tension of less.

Consciously letting go of reaching for peak experiences and instead welcoming your awaiting valley experiences is what your soul may be asking of you. You may have very much needed your awakening experiences that happened through the peak experiences to let you know what is possible and what awaits you. But now, your soul wants you to let go of what a part of you may be be in danger of becoming quite addicted to, in order now to more consciously connect to what you actually came here for.

Whether conscious or not, you can’t escape growth. Growth is built into the DNA of the universe that you are a part of. While you can’t escape growth, you can accept your awakening to what is, and even the need to mourn the loss of your deep night’s rest in the 3D fusion of unconsciousness.

Now, as you are awakening, you are offered a conscious choice that your path up, is a path down. The downward path is a matter of feeling all there is to feel that you were not able to feel while asleep in 3D consciousness.

This will involve feeling crappy on a regular basis for a good amount of time. If this isn’t an option for ‘you’, then you are not yet ready for this deeper more conscious path of healing, but you can be assured, all of us will be invited and re-invited to return here just as soon and we are ready to. It is what we came here for. We came here to ascend with all of us, without any ‘lesser’ parts of us left behind being punished for any insubordination, or for just not getting the program.

Time now to look at what we’ve called ‘spiritual practices’ to feel where they are actually about transcending in the name of ascending, where they are about not feeling, rather than true healing.

We all come eventually to having what we most deeply want, with the fullest and deepest bliss that we can’t quite imagine. We are living our way to being able to imagine it as we feel and heal the parts of us still in deep pain that were covered over with our positive spirituality agendas.

Time now for a negative spirituality agenda that sees it all as sacred.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Healing From Warrior To 5D Love Ambassador Group Call W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen On Saturday, February 8

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“The new hero/heroines will not be those that fight, yet rather those that can be an ambassador of love in any situation.” ~

SoulFullHeart Co-Creators/Teachers/Facilitators Raphael and Jelelle Awen host this monthly virtual SoulFullHeart group call over Zoom. The focus of this group on Saturday, February 8th, 2020 at 10:00am PDT is to share about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes (especially 3D and Lower 4D/galactic war timeline) to move into becoming an ambassador of love for ALL parts of you and in other timelines as well.

We will guide you on a powerful and deep meditative journey to connect with your Inner Warrior/Protector and your Reptilian Self as well and feel what their current battles are about. Yeshua Christ and Mother Mary will join us as Divine Feminine and Masculine energies of support and ambassadorship. We will provide a bridge to an Ambassador of Love 5D frequency that creates a template for the New for your Inner Protector and your soul.

This group transmission is open to the public. You can attend the group live and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live and to receive the recording: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/from-warrior-to-ambassador-group-call-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us what you experienced during the transmission and receive feedback/next steps of integration from them. Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions.

We recommend watching and engaging in this Meet Your Inner Protector video before the group: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck

And this one to meet your Reptilian Self: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

Here is a writing by Jelelle about putting down the sword: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/04/23/putting-down-the-sword-to-become-an-ambassador-of-love/

You can offer a donation of $15 CAD to receive the recording of the other previous group transmissions as well. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Contact us here on FB or at soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information.

Testimonials:

“I loved this call, the theme is such an interesting exploration I really enjoy the reflection of a decade ago.So much love was coming through!” Deva, group participant

“It’s always so magical and immensely uplifting how much love can be generated by a few people willing to witness and share with others from their authentic heart-space. And, speaking of space, thank you so much Jelelle and Raphael for holding the space so beautifully for all of us to also for your space-opening sharing Gabriel. I’m left feeling so grateful for all of you who were on the call and wish all of you blessings through the portal experience.” Dave, group participant

“So powerful and empowering. Thank you all for being a safe container for my process,” Alexis, group participant

Meeting Your Inner Orphan

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By Raphael Awen

What we relate to as suffering, the Divine is passionately interested in. Divinity knew bliss, but had no sense of challenge or difficulty; and thus, no movement.

We feel something as deeply moving because that something flows in between the familiar tension we hold in our being of bliss and it’s loss.

We are the Divine out experiencing movement, growth, challenge and difficulty, all of which the Divine couldn’t know or feel were it not for its choice and our souls agreement to individuate itself into many gods – you and I.

Yes, you and I are saddled with godhood. And this explains our base tones of anxiety and fear. We knew and hold in our being remembrance of there being no separation, no veil of forgetting, no sense of any paradise lost.

This past week, I had a very moving encounter where I felt that it was time for me to formally meet my Inner Orphan Self – this core aspect of my soul who holds all of these tensions; this core aspect of my soul, out of which is born in this life, the Inner Child and Inner Teenager – both of whom are shaped and formed from the Inner Orphan soul aspect.

I simply tuned in Yeshua as a beloved guide, and dialed in a Golden Earth setting, and there in the magical outdoors, was Yeshua crouched down about 8 or 10 feet away, holding upright a (soon to be) eager toddler, who he then let go, as this beautiful baby focused his gaze on me and began to take his first steps crossing the space between us. Midway across, the name Bartholomew came as plain as day. I received him into my arms, and he readily received me. I intuitively knew that this Bartholomew would change my life, that holding him would require all the rigors of true parenthood and presence of being that this Orphan would need to transmute the pain in his heart, allowing both him and I to shift our destiny and to embody what we intended when we set out on our journey of ‘leaving’ the Divine.

This ache of loss held in the Inner Orphan soul aspect is the juice and the portal back to full embodiment, full familiarity, full familial fidelity. We long to return to soar in the heavens and so the Divine gives us the role of parent, re-parenting our own soul aspects as the very portal back to that which we lost only in experience, reassuring us that we never lost the actual possession or birthright of our full godhood.

In the days that followed this experience, I have surely felt a conscious vulnerability and arising of base fears and anxieties, along with deep tears – feeling so small. I have also felt a ‘me’ there who could handle and show up for all of it, as well as the Divine’s confidence in me and gratitude to me for my desire and willingness – that even now as I write these words, I feel a welling up of this support and energy.

I offer support and space holding and process within session space as a SoulFullHeart facilitator to others who wish to undertake such a journey, but it isn’t from any expert place of one who has ‘healed’ their anxiety and thus who has transcended their anxiety, or their depression, or their fear, but rather as one who has welcomed their fear, anxiety and depression. Quite the opposite, at many times, embracing this portal into pain has left parts of me seriously wondering if I hadn’t bit off more than I could chew. I can tell you that time and time again, I continue to come out the other side into newfound joy and range of being – what I see and feel as real transmutation of my being. This in turn only appetizes me for more and makes any ‘attainment’ look and feel like kindergarten all over again as I feel like a bigger beginner every time some ground or embodiment is gained.

Isn’t that what is really to be expected in an infinite love reality? Any and all progress measurement is swallowed up by love’s infinity. You get to be in infinite love if you’re willing to give up your stamp of certification of being anything other than part of this infinity. Certificates only look good on really boring office walls anyway. I’d so much rather know and feel real adventure out in the forest, the city and Golden Earth, with Yeshua, the Divine Mother, and The Divine Father.

Look for me and Bartholomew out and about feeling love and life anew in many ways for the first time. His name meaning is ‘Son of the Ploughman’ which so surprised me as I felt the plough as that which opens and prepares the earth to receive seed – it is through our wounding that the divine seed enters – ensuring that we will never lose our way – even through the deepest loss imaginable. We are ensured that all consciousness is finding its way back to all that it ever was and even being expanded out to more in the process.

That kind of starts to explain the hell you’ve journeyed through, or quite possibly feel like you are journeying through right now, yes? Doesn’t this speak also to the part of you who is more set on only ‘moving forward’ who doesn’t want to cry over spilt milk, who doesn’t want to get lost again in the world of feeling? This part of you will also need your showing up to negotiate the exploration and true healing journey your soul came here to undertake.

My truth is that we all individuated out of the Divine and came here to feel it all, even to get lost in it, so that we could be found by love, and in so doing, be truly of the greatest service to all of love and life.

Thank you for feeling me and for feeling yourself. 🙂💚😇

Much love,
Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Could It Be?

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By Raphael Awen

Stewing in thoughts or feelings finds movement when there is a you there who is willing to begin to feel what is stewing and why with curiosity and compassion.

Emotion and feeling are two words that speak their truth. One speaks of motion and the other of touch, or contact. Motion and touch create a ‘to and from’. Without this to and from, there isn’t a flow, and we’re back to the stasis of the stewing; stuck in a prolonged suffering over our difficulties.

Our difficulties are difficult enough. Why would parts of us choose to stay in suffering over our difficulties, rather than feel what is wanting to be felt, and thus let in the movement?

Could it be that to parts of us, the known suffering is better than the unsafe unknown?

Could it be that to parts of us, they’ve never been accustomed to an other with an open heart? Could it be that parts of us have been so long conditioned to a world without feeling that the prospect of feeling is a distant memory of an unsafe reality, that needs to be resisted for the land mine experience it was?

How could you find out what is true now for parts of you and why? Are parts of you open to a new experience of ‘flow to and from’ of whatever it is that is wanting to be felt in your sacred world?

Are you and parts of you ready to let in the next stages of your own largesse of being by feeling the most contracted and small feeling parts of you?

If these words call to you, and you feel you would like some help, I offer a free intro call intro call to talk more with you about the process we offer. Message me if you are interested.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Gaia Codes Quick Guided Meditation W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

Gaia Codes Quick Guided Meditation – This video was filmed on a hike with us, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, at the Roche Cove Regional Park, near Victoria, BC. It was one of the most beautiful hikes that we have ever been on. We hiked up to a vista point on the side of Mount Ash (how appropriate is THAT name right now with these 12/12 completion gateway codes) and were inspired to film there.

We talk in this video about our group transmission call over Zoom this Saturday, December 14th at 10:00am PDT to digest the last decade, complete that cycle, and prepare for 2020. You can join us live for the two hour call or receive the recording for $15 CAD. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/46546… or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

At three minutes in, Jelelle provides a quick guided meditation to connect you with the expansive and enchanting tree, water, sky and sun codes flowing through me to you, bringing them into your Personal Sun chakra down through to your root chakra. Gaia and sun codes can help a lot with integration and digestion of energy influxes, passageways such as the 12/12, geomagnetic storms, etc. INjoy this blessed moment brought to you by Mother Gaia and Father Sun!

Note: There is some noise from the wind around us as the element of air wanted to presence itself along with Earth, Water, and Fire (in those amazing rainbow sun rays!)

We also mentioned in this video Jelelle’s 20 Day Daily Video Series called Deepen 2020 that she’ll be offering starting on January 1st, 2020. Daily teachings and guided meditations with me and the SoulFullHeart community will be shared every day for 20 days here on FB and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel. Jelelle’s previous 33 Day video series Deepen 2019 and Metamorphosis 2018 can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart events (including our monthly group transmissions), visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

For more information about 1:1 sessions with Jelelle for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

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Digesting Epic Changes During Disclosure: SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast #3 (Video & Audio)

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Here it is! Our third SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast. In this one, Raphael Awen flies solo to discuss and share about what he calls, ‘Digesting Disclosure’. Disclosure is all about what’s now being revealed in an epic way about our world that was previously hidden, such as shadow-based activities of governments/corporations, etc., knowledge about the existence of Star BEings and their technologies, and more.

Disclosure, however, needs to extend inside of you for it to be digested, as the things hidden in your shadow press up into your awareness and life experience asking to be felt and healed. This involves no longer suppressing, therapizing, transcending, spiritualizing over, or medicating over, our shadow playouts, but rather getting intimate with them in a whole new way – that almost no one is talking about. Raphael offers a feeling sense of what a true alternative could look and feel like. Your wounding is actually a portal to your higher timeline ascension!

You can listen and download the audio only version of this Podcast at our SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel: https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart and SoulFullHeart iTunes channel: https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/soulfullheart-experience/id1299364686

David Wilcock’s recent Disclosure update article: https://divinecosmos.com/davids-blog/23357-declas-incoming/

Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman’s ‘Digesting Disclosure’ Playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvKErXMSXqou0Z5TnuYT8s9T

Find out more about SoulFullHeart Sessions and Free Intro’s here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Here’s more about upcoming events including the Dec 14/2019 virtual group transmission: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

And here’s our Patreon page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart to mingle your energy, love and money with ours on a monthly basis.

 

Connecting With The You Who Can Feel You Reacting

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By Raphael Awen

There’s you having a reaction with no one home to feel you having the reaction. You’ve simply become the reaction without awareness or consciousness of the reaction.

Then there’s you observing the you that’s having a reaction. Conscious awareness is being brought to the reaction. An aware you is showing up to take responsibility. That’s a big step ahead in growth for sure, but it’s also fraught with other reactions of a judgment and shame nature; an Inner Punisher showing up on the scene.

THEN, there’s a you who can feel and bring love and awareness to ALL of these states and phases of your consciousness evolution.

This higher self version of you can feel that you came here to have all of these stages, that you as well as your higher self needed this experience of both forgettance and remembrance. We chose a process of forgoing awareness as well as the entire process of returning to, and reigning in, full awareness.

Your reactions, along with your reactions to your reactivity, all the way to loving each and every one of them and especially the part of you having the experience is what you and I came here for.

Because we are both one and individual at the same time, whatever you figure out for yourself in awakening and remembering process is instantly downloaded into the one mind that we all share and made available more and more to those who are ready for and needing the download codes of what it is we are all growing into. This is where all purpose is sourced in. You get to play with whatever passion purpose expression you want to that is unique to you and part of the great remembering that we all share.

What are the big reactions that are moving through your life now?

Can you bring your awareness to them and feel any judgment reactions to the reactions?

Can you then show up with a curious and open heart to feel it all?

Would you be willing to get to intimately know and feel the parts of you that have lived your life as you up till now?

This is the new awakening in spirituality today. It’s no longer about becoming ‘higher frequency’ without getting to know the part of you pushing for the higher frequency attainment. It’s no longer about attainment, but is more about reverence for the entire process; the fusion stage of simply being your reactions; the stage of dawning awareness of your reactions; the stage of cascading reactions to your awareness of your reactions; and then all the way to revering it all as your sacred path and choice – and in that reverence, setting out to become intimate with it all.

I’m in it. You’re in it. We’re all in it.

If I can help you go into your next choice and awareness points, I’d like to invite you to consider a free intro session to the SoulFullHeart process. If you ask for the free intro session, myself or Gabriel Heartman will send you three simple questions to respond to and a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector to engage in, and then from there, we’ll set up a time to have the intro together for 30-45 minutes over Zoom. We’ll spend that time together and then from there, you can decide if you’d like to have regular sessions in ongoing process together.

How does that sound?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Moving From Care-taking to Care-giving

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By Raphael Awen

After raising or changing your frequency, you find and feel old energies present in your relationships that reflect the old you; the old you that doesn’t exist anymore, at least not in the same way, or to the same degree.

A natural tendency is to caretake those friends or family members rather than honestly and integrously bringing your truth, seeing them as kind of ‘grandfathered in’ into your life. Trouble is, grandpa’s dying or maybe even long gone, but you’re stuck with all of his unsorted stuff.

I don’t know of a greater or more effective cap on our growth than this deep rooted conditioning of caretaking.

Seeing to the core of this tendency, we see that the withhold of our truth is actually a withhold of our love; albeit in the name of love. A part of us is defensively caretaking the friend or family member out of fear of loss, out of personal need, rather than heart overflow.

This is why it’s called caretaking – it’s very much ‘on the take’. It’s living out of the absence and lack of love. It’s begging and fighting over scraps and crumbs.

Integrity asks us to be integrated, as in coming from one place, not two. This means purity; of one substance. Here, and only here, as well as magically here, the love that we truly give our selves (parts of us) is the same love; the same in character and kind that we have to give others. Nothing needs to be hidden. Nothing needs to be worked on to preserve the relationship. Relating is real and only real. Real has an energy of its own where the tendency to caretake naturally falls away and diminishes more and more as we integrate.

What truth of yours is wanting to come out into your relationships? What truth have you been disintegrously withholding in the name (and name only) of love? What manifestations of growth is a part of you afraid of while holding onto this shrinking pattern? What stress that is sourced in this hiding have you normalized? What would it feel like to bring your truth?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.