Change and Transformation – Page 35 – Divine Self Embodiment Blog (Formerly SoulFullHeart)

Inner Child, Star Seed, Inner Teenager Healing – Day 32: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on February 2, 2018February 6, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 32 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about the Inner Child, Star Seed Child, and Inner Teenager parts of us. I start with the Inner Teenager, who seems to be in your teenage bedroom, guarded by the Inner Protector. The Protector is often the guard at the door and is also very protective of the Inner Child as well.

The Inner Child part has more 3D-based frequencies of hurt and shame that come from this life trauma. It takes time, patience, and negotiation with the Protector to connect to the deeper frequencies of the Inner Child because it is highly guarded and usually very shy/suppressed.

The Star Seed is the frequency that the Inner Child transmutes too as the hurt and shame heal from 3D experiences. The Star Seed is often holding wounding and trauma from being ‘abandoned’ by star family and also pain from ‘abductions’, which were actually star family visits. The Star Seed transmutes to wonder, curiosity, connection with star family, galactic heart opening, and eventually ‘sits’ in the center of your Merkabah or Light Body Vehicle.

More about these parts here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining me on this thirty-second day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing In The Light Of The Blood Blue Moon

Published on February 1, 2018February 12, 2018 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

“Every moment acts as our eclipse, our convergence, and our celestial wonder.”

Standing beyond the gates of this past super blue blood moon has me reflecting on what it meant to me personally and collectively. As with each arising doorway and portal we are being asked to feel. To take stock of what is moving inside of us and where we ultimately want to go….what we want to choose and create for ourselves. The rarity of this celestial occurrence had many of us looking toward the heavens for many different conscious reasons, but under it all we were all seeking more, wanting to feel and let in more. We are staring at the wonder of our own being and presence and calling it as we see it and feel it.

I don’t know if it mattered whether or not we could actually view it or not. It was occurring. It was offering and inviting. It had a message and gift for us if we were willing to feel it. With the internet, those of us who weren’t in range of it could see it and take in its majesty. Those that are much more attuned didn’t need to see it as it could be felt in the cells of their being. We are (cell)estial in nature and are very much connected to these events in some shape or form.

So what did you choose?

I took the time to reflect on my own personal process and feel the rumblings of all that had led up to it. It offered a sacred space to take in what was being messaged to me and what is wanting to shift and heal to continue this ongoing process of transmutation and ascension. I felt the “levitational pull” as if it was a poultice acting on my emotional body. I felt it activating wounds that were in the womb of my shadow needing to be brought into conscious awareness through the relationship with others. It was as if the moon energies were conspiring a dance of circumstance and challenge to bring me to an edge of something in much need of mirroring.

As we begin to come together in ways that are being orchestrated in the higher realms, we will find in that gathering a desire and resistance both. We are being separated and drawn together in ways that are meant to bring us more clarities about our inner depths. We were wounded while in relationship, so we can really only heal within it. The parts of us that have been in our own “witness protection program” are going to be invited to go to the lineup of our trauma and feel what they are meant to heal so that we can transform that stuck energy into Love and Compassion. For ourselves and others.

As we heal and integrate these unfelt and unhealed fears inside of us, we shall be able to see and feel more of the higher nature of these events and energies. They are calling our humanity and divinity both. We don’t have to wait another 150 years to see that inside ourselves. We have every moment that acts as our eclipse, our convergence, and our celestial wonder. You get to make whatever you want of it that leads you to the next fork in your road, or portal in your travels. You are the magic and the magician as well as the healer and the need of healing….in the womb of your wounds by the light of your super blue moon.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Conscious Community And 5D Money – Day 30: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 30, 2018February 13, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 30 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my husband Raphael joins me (along with his Star Seed part named Andy as represented in a sweet stuffie….and our dog Koda.) Raphael talks about how our draw and our push away (from parts of us) is connected to gathering together around values resonance within community. Our first experience of community is our birth families, which we have both good and difficult experiences to digest in order to let in conscious community. I offer that in higher dimensional frequencies we are used to Unity Consciousness versus 3D living that is so separate and isolated.

We share our experience of living in community for the last few years and with sharing money within our small group, which has allowed for more immersion and intimacy between us as a group with very little conflict and much less tension and anxiety. We feel that money represents love to parts of us, so the sense of abundance or scarcity of ‘money’ is really about love. We share our experience of getting down to very little money and still feeling trust and Divine holding around it.

We define what we feel is ‘conscious community’, which is about bringing the emotional reality forward through parts work, leading with vulnerability, being transparent and authentic, and emphasizing relationality.

Thank you for joining us on this thirtieth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – The Inner Punisher (Emotional Area)

Published on January 30, 2018February 8, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman

In this video, SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Teachers and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, invite you to feel the tones of your Inner Punisher/Critic. This part is intense to work with, as its name implies, yet it also opens out so much more love flow within and through you, from you to you and you to others. Kalayna and Gabriel both share about their experiences of working with and healing different layers of the Inner Punisher and what they have noticed through working with and supporting healing in others too. It is sometimes the hardest part to be with, at least at first, yet they are one of the parts that needs the MOST love!

In many ways, we are raised by the Inner Punisher and its frequencies in our caregivers/parents and other authority figures that we lean into growing up. This is a part that energizes much criticism inside of you towards parts of you, yet also towards others. As it heals, so does the energy with which your intuition and discernment comes as well. This part is a critical one to work with as a healer or ‘lightworker’, as its energies can very often leak out in unconscious ways towards those who you actually desire to support in their own healing. Feeling this part means feeling the often shadowy conditioning you were raised with and that has become naturalized in your life and culture. The other side of this process leads ultimately to deeper, more profound love and self-acceptance and a keen discernment about life that comes from love instead of fear. The many layers of the Inner Punisher that you would feel in your SoulFullHeart process are all worth it, as you begin to feel your genuine worth and love flow in a much bigger way than you would have otherwise!

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on the blog, on the Youtube video comment thread, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Awakening Journey/Story – Day 29: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 30, 2018January 30, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 29 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I share my own awakening journey, especially over the last 15 years or so since I was introduced to the parts process through a emotional and spiritual healing group based in Ashland, Oregon. I share about my ‘make believe’ or fantasy life which actually felt more real than ‘reality’. I feel now this was a sign of my third eye especially being quite open, traveling to other dimensions, and communicating with higher selves of other people even as a child.

I also talk about my experiences in jobs and careers that reflected my soul expression coming through (as it always does in some way), such as being a medical assistant/nurse in a cancer center; a small business reporter/editor; and a life/business coach/manager. It can be interesting to look at our ‘job history’ this way and connect it to our soul purpose expression now.

My main soul awakenings really began with the parts process and have expanded and deepened over the last 15 years with dark nights, bliss and Oneness, non-dual and kundalini and cosmic awakenings, Divine Mother connection, conscious community, falling in love with Raphael, healing abduction wounding and my star seed, creating and offering SoulFullHeart, etc.

Thank you for joining me on this twenty-ninth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a link to purchase my books such as the one I mention, Keep Waking Up!: my memoir of awakening experiences while living on a remote ranch:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books
And the email I mention if you’d like to pre-order to receive my book sharing my early awakenings to re-released soon called Under The Bloated Banyan is soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page:https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Energy Update: Body Toxicities And Clearings Coming Up As Supermoon Energies Increase

Published on January 30, 2018January 30, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

You may be feeling these incoming Supermoon and Eclipse codes coming into your body already! This could be flushing up, bringing up, and purging up what needs to be let go; clearing toxicities out of your ‘every living cell’, as I’ve been offered this ascension process is doing and offering. I am hearing from people that they are having more intense experiences of FLU symptoms, nausea, sore throat, energy/heat surges and flashes, headaches and overall body pains and tensions, ‘INfections’, congestion, and more since the first Supermoon at the beginning of January.

The pattern of experiencing this physically often goes along with cosmic events, such as portal and gateway openings, to reflect what is happening in our inner cosmos too. Yet, the upcoming Supermoon, the second one this month, plus an eclipse is A LOT of Divine Feminine energy to digest into our energy fields and, therefore, for our bodies to receive too.

These Divine Feminine frequencies are coming in to offer illumination and revelation. She is holding the space for deaths and rebirths, transitions and shiftings into the new, exposure of shadow frequencies in hearts and souls and bodies to receive healing under the light of love. This process seems to include what has been ‘stored’ in the bodies and in the chakras (which are intimately connected to the body and all of its organs and cells as we ARE energy.) I share more here about these Supermoon codes in this recent energy update: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/01/28/energy-update-inner-supermoon-illuminates-and-dissolves-your-defensive-layers/

Our bodies are the densest aspect of our BEing by necessity as they form our ‘earth suit’ of survival here. Your Inner Protectors can ‘fuse’ to your physical bodies, as they are supported to do by 3D conditioning. This part of you can often feel that they ARE your body without much connection to your more expansive consciousness. This over identification creates a layer of resistance and fear that is sourced within your body.

Most Protectors seem to be ‘based’ in the third chakra or solar plexus/belly area or personal will chakra. The third chakra can be our main 3D energy processing chakra and we are now moving into processing energy/reality through our higher heart, which seems to be a blend of the fourth or heart chakra and the fifth/throat chakra. As the third chakra is receiving new codes of healthy self empowerment and surrender to the Divine, toxicities come up to be removed, often manifesting in nausea and even vomiting. As the higher heart starts to receive energies, it can seem like it is ‘burning’ too and the lungs kicking up and coughing up toxicities as well.

It does seem to help soothe the body to connect with your Protector directly to feel what their concerns and fears are about the ascension process. OF COURSE they may feel attached to 3D life and the processing grounds through the body that they have become familiar and comfortable with. Inner negotiation with this part of yourself can OPEN up more surrender and trust to the process and lessen the body symptoms.

Connection to the deeper feelings coming up in your emotional body that then manifest as body reactions also often gets to the ‘deeper’ causes. Rather than just writing all body symptoms off as ‘part of the ascension process’, being open to feeling what is going on and BEing with it allows for them to clear and move. I share more about this in my video about relating with your body during ascension: https://youtu.be/CJARSHf01go?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Other things that seem to help soothe these symptoms of code integration and detox are connection with the Divine Mother/Divine Feminine guides through meditation; listening to high vibrational solfeggio music; cleaning your chakras and activating your ascension chakras; feeling what your body wants to eat and what it no longer can tolerate; taking in sunshine (more codes yet it seems to help with integration as you surrender to letting them in); and grounding to Mother Gaia through a grounding cord connection. Here is a body ascension soothing meditation that I did with Mother Mary that people have told me helps them relax, surrender, and fall asleep. One of my facilitants recently had oral surgery and said that listening to it really helped her recover faster and hold space for the process of body healing: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvL3_HIusq0GwJO4ziwlmioz

There is an aspect of this body detoxification and purging that is JUST part of the ascension process. It represents ALL the toxicities we have taken in living in 3D reality; all the densities and layers that parts of us have needed to create and cling to in order to survive here. Holding with surrender and curiousity what is manifesting in your body, even as it is temporarily uncomfortable and even painful, allows for a self loving space for the experience and the eventual INtegration.

Healing The Wounded Masculine – Day 28: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 29, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 28 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me to talk about healing the wounded masculine to embody the sacred masculine; connection with the Divine Father; and healing wounded masculine templating.

He shares about his process with healing his Inner Teenager to bring this part into healthier frequencies of masculine and to integrate (and not suppress) the inner feminine. What Gabriel shares here can also apply to a woman’s process in terms of healing her wounded masculine aspects.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-eigth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is the previous video that I did with Gabriel: https://youtu.be/6q2KnYh9dSU?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Energy Update: Inner Supermoon Illuminates And Dissolves Your Defensive Layers

Published on January 28, 2018February 8, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

awakenings

As we approach the Lunar Eclipse and second Supermoon for this month, you can feel the energies ‘ramping’ up. You could call this ‘portals opening’ and certainly it can look this way with your third eye. AND, I have been taking pictures of the sun during these gateways and portal openings offering energy download and code activations in which it actually looks like a portal. The physical ‘proof’ of this portal as reflecting in our sun serves to bridge to the 3D parts of us that still want and need that kind of link to what is happening in the cosmos with physical manifestation.

Your trust may be growing lately in what exists and can be felt much beyond the mind, beyond the five senses, beyond what you have been conditioned in 3D schools to believe as ‘real’. This trust grows as you connect more with your Higher Self (or Metasoul – individuated soul source) and these higher dimensional frequencies come into your consciousness. You experience this through altered states during meditation especially as you go within to discover the WORLDS there are to explore, find, and take in that exist much beyond the five sense limiting filtering system.

You can trust more too as you feel the parts of you that have been anchored to 3D reality and WHY they have been. Your Inner Protector had to form a shield and armor in order for you to survive here. Similar to putting on an atmospheric suit if you were to go explore on the moon’s surface, you needed a protective shield of density to be here in 3D. This protective shield creates layers of dense coverings over your energy field, over your heart chakra, over your emotional body, over your physical body. It is to protect you and exists for self loving reasons. These layers of protective coverings can make it more difficult to feel a transactional heart flow of love within yourself, in relationships with others, and with the Divine.

Yet, as you awaken, cracks of light start penetrating this protective suit. Trickles and sometimes storms of love water flood the suit and start to erode it away. The guardedness drops as you let in more and more love and light ascension energies such as what are being offered in this now. As you are in relationships which support and amplify this love exchange and make it safe to drop the defenses, the Protector can let go of the protective shield and trust love more. Your 5D Self (or your Higher Self coming into your body) is able to be in multiple dimensions at the same time, vibrating in joy, being porous to all feelings that are going on, bridge for all parts of you to the present moment without the need for the anchoring ‘suit’ of protection.

The moon energies support the illumination of this protective suit and getting to know it as a separate energy…..to become intimate with it in order to invite it into love. The Divine Feminine offers compassion and forgiveness to ALL parts, including the Protector and even the Inner Punisher too (that such harsh critic sometimes). The Divine Mother provides a re-templating of the wounded frequencies that we received. Acceptance and OKness with all of our feelings, shadow aspects, karmic patterns, and holding space for them to be felt and moved with and by love.

These energies have a feeling of rumble to them as well. Rumblings of desires and higher consciousness moving through the grounds of your life. These rumblings can bring deaths and letting go, which eventually lead to rebirths. Even your Protector can want these death and rebirths as it so desperately needs and wants to rest from guarding you and parts of you. The Divine Feminine shakes your life up with love so that you can see and feel all the pieces as they scatter about and choose if you still want them to ‘land’ in the same places and the familiar configurations.

There is an allowance and necessity for letting in, for integration, for going within to digest. There is a need for goodness, softness, compassion and self care. If you have difficulty accessing and providing yourself these frequencies, you probably have a masculine part of you (again, like the Protector) that is coming in to do, to judge, to conform, to maintain. Negotiation with these parts of you can allow for the feminine to come into your BEing more…….softening, enlightening, and soothing.

Your inner Supermoon wants to shine light onto all the fields of your life and illuminate what needs your attention, focus, and choice points. Your inner Supermoon reflects the BIGness of your BEing that can hold so much more than you might realize or even imagine, plus illuminates the edges and boundaries that currently limit your soul expression. Your inner Supermoon gives you a sense of what can be revealed when you are willing to look, open to feel, and surrendered to love.

Embodying Inner Feminine and Connecting With Divine Mother – Day 27: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 27, 2018January 27, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 27 of this 33 Days of Metamorphosis, SoulFullHeart Facilitator (for women under 30) Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about healing the inner feminine through feeling masculine aspects such as the Protector and the Punisher. As these masculine parts of us rest, then the feminine can arise. It is usually embodied in our Inner Teenager, who is guarded over by the masculine. Our Inner Teenager holds our waiting to be initiated healthy sexuality; latent emotional maturity; soul gift expression capacity, etc. Kalayna shares about her process with her Inner Teenager and the Protector.

We also talk about the layers of wounded masculine that we’ve been conditioned to in 3D culture and receive as templating from our birth mothers. To heal these layers is about connection with the Divine Mother and receiving new templating of authentic femininity.

To read more about the Inner Teenager and Punisher and other parts go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
To read more about sessions, including a free intro, go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you for joining us on this twenty seventh day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Healing Inner Punisher And Shame – Day 26: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 26, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 26 of this 33 Days of Metamorphosis, I talk about the Inner Punisher part of the 3D Self. This Punisher energy can show up in spirituality in terms of ‘battling’ the ego, annihilating the ego, obliterating the ego, and going to ‘war’ or against something else from inside, etc.

The Inner Punisher forms in response to the 3D culture that is polarized to going outward to judge others or turning the judgement inward or both. This is templated from caregivers/parents that hold these energies toward us.

Your Inner Punisher can be quite strong and you may not even notice it at first until you start tracking this energy and how it suppresses, judges, and pushes up shame reactions. One main suffering loop that you may experience is between the Inner Punisher and shame reactions that come up from the Inner Teenager/Inner Child usually. The feeling tones of shame are ‘I am wrong’ and ‘I deserve to be punished and judged’.

We don’t go to battle with the Punisher in the SoulFullHeart process, we actually help it transform to its higher frequency expressions of discernment, intuition, and guidance with love. It also helps to set boundaries with love; discern with love; offer guidance with love. Eventually the Punisher integrates into your growing 5D Self and is able to offer forgiveness and compassion inside and to others in an authentic way.

This is the writing that I mentioned today: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/01/25/loving-your-ego-into-healing-letting-go-and-surrender/

To read more about the Inner Punisher and other parts go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
To read more about sessions, including a free intro, go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you for joining us on this twenty sixth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this:

Share this: