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The Humility Of Really Feeling Our Emotions: Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls Blog Series

Published on May 1, 2017May 1, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

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There’s a certain amount of sanctity and sanity we preserve by NOT feeling, at least until the layers on top of our true feelings begin to give way and dissolve because of pressing life circumstances and swelling emotional reactions – THEN it can become insane-feeling, as chaos is created outside of us, pushing these feelings up even more as they call out for our attention. This is true for ANY soul ANYwhere. The piece here for Indigos, Crystals and Rainbows is much the same as for any awakening soul and heart – NOT feeling how we really feel becomes the much crazier choice than actually letting ourselves in. Yet too, there is something here that may be time-bomb-baked inside of us when we are in these soul groups, alerting us to this need for changes INSIDE of us at a much younger age because we are here to do so much work as leaders and healers.

I don’t hold any elitist sort of feeling around claiming I’m an Indigo. I actually feel it kind of lightly. For me it feels like a bridge and also a helpful explanation as to why I care so much about my growth and living into my soul purpose when I’m only just turning 30 this year. I became a “seeker” at age 14, which led me to a desire to serve others and feel my capacity to do so. However, this came in with some shadow pieces like arrogance and self-righteousness too and even in my already-cultivated self-awareness, I still wasn’t quite touching these and others, like entitlement, and narcissism, to name a few. This has been a part of the soul package I came wrapped in and some big things to work this life. I signed up for SoulFullHeart at age 24 because I wanted to work these things… taking breaks between then and now so that I could humbly go into life without consciously holding a process from time to time, which only illuminated more for me in the end. Once you sign up for the bullet train of deep healing, there really is no going back, try as parts of you might… 🙂

It took many reflections, some very hard to take in, for me to truly feel humbled, or rather, for parts of me to truly feel humbled and really start to feel what was really going on for them. There are soul wounds and also this-life, human wounds to feel too. These words of “arrogant”, “entitled” and “narcissistic” did NOT go in easily and there has been a lot of pain in even having to see myself in this light. What has been harder is feeling how TRUE these words have been for parts of me who haven’t been challenged on their ways of being in life before! Until meeting Raphael and Jelelle Awen, I hadn’t had a single relationship with another teacher, healer, parent or friend who could bring these pieces to me and if they did, it wasn’t with love and compassion, but judgement from the parts of them who are the same way. I can’t explain to you the difference between these two experiences. It’s really something to feel for yourself. ❤

Feeling our shadow and what’s underneath it is an important aspect of the process of going within. What has appeared to be “in shadow” inside of us is actually a whole lot of pain that wants to surface and be healed. There are immense gifts on the other side of all tears shed when feeling our shame, hurt and even rage. As our layers of inner and outer protection melt away because we are finally safe enough to really feel ourselves and our parts, we feel these movements and realizations come to us with fluidity on waves of love that come from outside and inside of us too. It is a humbling process, to unravel deeper and deeper knots and layers protecting the precious yet strong vulnerability of the Sacred Human seed inside… the seed that is meant to grow, flourish and serve love to so many others!

Parts of me have needed to be how they’ve been – there is so much to push away from in our cultures and birth family conditioning and understandably, there is also a lot to protect ourselves from…until there isn’t, that is. Being emotional is still not a fully-embraced thing inside of many, though arguably it’s becoming more and more so as more of us awaken and can no longer deny how we really feel about anything or anyone, dark or light, or while in chaos or stillness or somewhere in between. During this ascension process, this is all being pushed up as light codes and astral influences constantly invite us to really SEE and FEEL ourselves in a much deeper way, illuminating the places where we still need healing and more authentic love flow. If you sign-for some help with this from SoulFullHeart, everywhere you need to go with become illuminated and we get how hard this can be to feel through. It is a deep healing practice and while there is so much joy, there is also much sobriety as the transformation it offers you really does start within and flow outward to every other area of your life.

Indigos, Crystals, Rainbows and the like are at an advantage age-wise and also soul-wise. We signed up to wake up early and to draw to us the paths that would help with that. Becoming more and more humbled to where our paths are taking us and that we DON’T truly know ourselves in earnest until we’ve really felt our shadows be challenged by someone holding up a mirror with LOVE behind it, is so important if not critical if we are really here to help awaken and lead others. We must first awaken to OURSELVES, let alone ascension, let alone Gaia, star beings, or anything spiritual. The heart truly is where the journey deeply begins and where all legs of it ultimately return to. And there is no other path quite like the one that really embraces and supports an ongoing exploration of our inner worlds, without an “end” place where you can declare ourselves fully-healed, and with plenty of juice for the journey inward and upward. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love Invites You Into Service Of Love

Published on April 29, 2017April 29, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Love invites you in, to hold, to feel, to BE. It takes the form of your beloved. Your beloved SELF, your beloved sacred union mate, your beloved soul friends, your beloved children, your beloved soul family, your beloved guides…..your BE-LOVED by your love and you by theirs.

Love invites you to remember, to embrace, to awaken. It takes the form of your returning. The return to Divine Source, Divine Love, Divine Mother, Divine Father, Divine No-Thing-Ness, Divine Light, Divine Warmth, Divine embrace.

Love invites you to change, to risk, to lead, to serve. It takes the form of your desires. The desires of your heart and your soul that move into a flow that releases the stuck places…. the desires that bring a spark to your heart and to your life.

Love invites you to become and to arise. It takes the form of your essence as Infinite Love expressing as a sacred human ascending, growing, learning, shifting always and in ALL WAYS.

Feeling so grateful and blessed in this NOW moment of love coming up from within and coming UP to be shared with others. This NOW moment of BEing invited to step up and share, as we ALL are who have awakened to who we really ARE as love.

Go in, feel and heal, make yourself ready, and share in the overflow of the love that comes as a result. THIS is the reason we are gifted with the guidance, with the vision, with the goodness AND the pain, with the lessons that come out of struggle…To serve love…….THIS is the reason we are gifted with ascending and more sense of the higher frequencies of consciousness.

THIS reason, to serve love as our highest purpose and calling….THIS reason wants to rumble through your life and offer changes to the how and the why and the WAY you have lived. THIS reason wants to invite you to complete relationships that DON’T serve love yet instead distract you, suppress you, shrink you. THIS reason wants you to claim what you most WANT and DESIRE and DESERVE in union with others, with self….THIS reason wants you to claim your soul gifts, express your soul gifts, feel and heal the karmic binds from other lifetimes that suppress you and block you and keep you hidden.

Love can only be served purely from a heart that is healing and IN JOY from that healing, from light that shines from being with the dark, from what is revealed from being with shadow. Love can only be served purely from a SELF that is being deconstructed, dismantled with love and by love, to reveal the SELF that is not driven by unconscious wounding and self image but pure in its motive to serve love in ALL moments, including to SELF.

THIS service of love from a increasingly PURE heart and soul is the invitation to embody our sacred humanity….THIS is what the Universe, Divine Source, our guides, our star families, our soul families are WAITING for us to BE and to DO….THIS is what we have signed up to do and why we are HERE in the NOW at this moment of great transition, turmoil, death and rebirth, awakening and growing!

Join us as we celebrate LOVE today in the form of sacred union (with SELF and a sacred union MATE) during our group call at 11:11amPST
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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Loving And Healing Our Inner Punisher To Love Life Again (and MORE!)

Published on April 27, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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I’ve been feeling layers of inner-punisher frequencies inside myself for years now. They come and go, seem to fade away and then come back stronger, usually when I am inhabiting more of my soul gifts and bigness. These parts, when left unfelt, can tend to throw wrenches in the newly-greased wheels of forward movement and this can express as sabotage of our jobs, our relationships, etc. As their energy wells-up inside of us it can overflow outward to others, even during times when we feel we are serving love. It’s not that there isn’t ANY love available in those moments, yet if we are offering discernments and reflections to others that come with heavy judgments too, this is a frequency springing from judgments INside, from us to us. It can be subtle to most people, which is why the reflections from life, love and others who have been there are SO important. Once you really start recognizing and working with these frequencies inside of you though, that’s when you notice this happening and can really learn to be with it as it heals and transmutes into something new inside of you.

So what is the actual gift of connecting with these parts of us?

This layer of “punisher/shame” (shame comes up as the underbelly of this part and often has very strong frequencies too) that I’m working with right now, I was able to really feel in a session with Jelelle and Raphael yesterday. This layer represents a lot of my conditioning as a woman and also a human being, coming from my upbringing, culture and birth family. This part also represents and holds a ton of power, which is really my personal, creative and alchemical power. It is power that has been misguided in its use and purpose, choosing to fixate on what is going wrong or could go wrong, versus all of the wonders and wonderfuls that are happening at the same time and that COULD SO happen in the near “future”. This revelation came as a surprise in some ways, and yet made so much sense. Inner-punisher frequencies are powerful, yes, and play out in so many ways in our lives, yet finding a love inside of us that can love this misuse of power, forgive it and then guide it to use this power for something GOOD and love-focused, THIS is life-changing.

I have felt before how possible it is that the two most deeply transformative parts of us to connect with are the inner-punisher/critic and the magical or inner child… there is a very strong need to connect with the protector as well in order to access these frequencies fully. Yet, when it’s the phase for it, working with these two parts of us illuminates so much about us, the timelines we have subconsciously chosen and lived in so far and all of the choices we’ve made that have placed us in the life circumstances we’re in now. It truly is a journey to finding, feeling and reuniting with our purity and our astounding power, to connect with these and any other parts of us that come forward. Feeling the heaviness that comes with this package DOES open out into something so much better than we have yet imagined… or maybe we have but have had trouble really buying it as a possibility with these unfelt parts denying that there is any space for that inside of us (even though THEY want the lovely outcomes too!).

Work with these energies inside of us seems to only happen on a deeply transformative level if we can allow ourselves to be humbled by it and let in reflections from others who have been there. These energies can play out in so many subtle ways that it becomes very hard to really track it all on our own. After all, these habits and ways of being are so ingrained in many of us that it really just feels like who we ARE. I want to offer though that these frequencies are NOT us at the core of our being and with some courage, dedication and tons of love, we can move them, heal them, and become more and more of who we ARE, creating the timelines we actually want and living a life that we genuinely love. ❤

We are so here for you if you would like some help shining light on this complex matrix inside of you where your own inner-punisher is possibly living. This really CAN and WANTS to heal inside of you with some earnest love and care. Visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information about sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Coming Undone When Love Has Won

Published on April 25, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

Deep guttural tears. Floodgates open to let out what has been constructed to hold back the fear. The realization of the part of you that had been holding the interface to your relationship to 3D. It IS your 3D self. Trying so hard to manage and keep up a charade that it has grown so weary of keeping up with all the ways in which you were not fully in your heart, or expressing your needs. This personalized self that has been the default operating system for as long as you can remember. As long as it can remember.

But as the tide of Love`s widening and deepening reach makes its way to your shores, the outpost of your most defended heartland, cracks in the facade begin to take root in the foundation of your BEing. It come into your awareness over the course of time or hits you square in the gut in one fail swoop. This part of you, the one so trying to stay afloat above the fear and the pain of not being the real deal, of all that lies underneath in the murky depths of its existential quandary, has started to lose its grip and can no longer maintain business as usual.

When you have enough of a YOU there, this part can let go into that. Even if it is just enough you to lean into the Divine, something is being held in Grace. A container for which the matrix of the former interface can come undone. Undone from all the doing. All the pretending. All the trying. It is a shedding of an old and tired energy. One that needed a lot of propping up to manage its day to day survival. This only comes into awareness as the love inside you begins to feel the Love that is already here and has already won. It can not be ignored for it has already claimed you. You are just working your way there.

The increasing frequency of light is pressing ever so much into the crevices of your needed healing. Of what really needs to be let go of so that you can let in more. The more that wants to drown you in its goodness. But the Not Goodness needs to be felt first. But when held in sacred space, this pain is actually a relief. The part of us that has put itself up front to do life actually feels the blessing in it as the balm of your love and that of the Divine give the necessary medicine to heal and integrate.

As these days continue in their upward spiraling, the more you will begin to feel all that needs to be felt. This is why it is so important to have a way to hold this space within you. To feel yourself just big enough to hold the pain and the fear allowing it to have it needed time and space without becoming it. It is one that can be felt within yourself and within community. We were never meant to do all this alone even as this can be such an individual process at times.
As the dust settles, the digestion is made over due course, a new feeling of awareness and clarity of Self arises. Not that we are truly done by any stretch, but we are another step closer to BEing the love that we were always meant to be. To experiencing the true gift of our own inner union and sense of wholeness. To open up to new relationships and sacred romance that bring us new layers of healing and deepening the waters of our cosmic ocean of wonder and ecstasy. This part of us is forever honored and revered as it held what it needed to until it was no longer serving our inner rising tide of greatness. Days go by and it will feel like a dream. But for now, it is a sacred time of blessed messiness and coming undone in order to come home.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Keep Waking Up! Book By Jelelle Awen Offers ‘The Bigger Picture’ And ‘Positive, Healing Energy’

Published on April 23, 2017April 23, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

This is SUCH a touching review left by the beautiful soul Sonya Julie (and gifted soul scribe herself) for my book Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.…I am touched, yes, so much because this writing is SO personal, pouring out of me nearly every day for four months while I experienced intense awakening (kundalini, non-dual, astral, magic, star seed reality, etc.) journeys into the depths of my heart and soul with guides and soul aspects from other dimensions and even planets…..while Mother Gaia ‘held the space’ at an off-grid, remote ranch. If you are drawn to Avalon, priestess/Goddess worship frequencies, Reptilian Matrix revelations and digestions, healing from other lifetimes, healing and digesting abduction woundings and memories, parts work, curious about the SoulFullHeart process (which is JUST our way of life in another way) and more, you can purchase it for only $5.55 as an ebook or in print edition through this link.

“This book provides a beautiful example of how we can heal ourselves, each other, and our earth. Through holding space and exploring soul remembrances, Jelelle demonstrates how we can negotiate with love, not fear, with parts work to accomplish great healing and transformation. Through her experiences and journeys in other dimensions, I learned so much about this (SoulFullHeart) process that offers a way to investigate what we hold inside of ourselves. I have been familiar with reincarnation, angels, guides, dark night of the soul, dream work, visions, healing, mind/body/spirit work, shamanism and alternative world views for many decades but this beautiful book really brought these elements (and more) into something so much larger – to show me the bigger picture and what I am capable of to align my life to the light of Love. I have started to incorporate this process into my life and already I can feel a positive and healing shift in my energy. The book is well written and I honestly had a hard time putting it down.

I am thankful to Jelelle for opening her heart and soul to share this incredible journey.” Sonya J.

Creating An Inner Heart Bridge Between The Emotional Body And Your Access To Star Consciousness

Published on April 22, 2017April 22, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Galaxy in your heart, the stars in your soul….creating a bridge through transversing the waters of the emotional body that hold the pains of undigested experiences from this life, from other lifetimes, from the sense of ‘abductions’. The bridge has been purposely blocked by your higher self as an aspect of the growth journey. Clearing the blocks is about negotiation with the blocks themselves, offering them love, over and over, until the energy shifts and moves and integrates.

Connecting to ALL THAT IS, following your higher heart consciousness, going beyond your mind, to navigate the multidimensional life, to open beyond what you’ve been conditioned to believe is real. 3D conditioning, our ‘education’, what we’ve learned from our birth families, is SO pervasive, often we can’t even consciously know how deep it goes.

All this 3D conditioning creates a filter, an inner matrix, over us and IN us that filters out magic, filters out infinite possibilities, filters out shifting timelines, filters out abundance. We choose this filter as we needed it to really GO ALL IN to the experiment of this density. Our 3D self is created to handle this density and it does this filtering to form a protection layer UNTIL we are ready to see and feel and BE without the filter. Until we are ready to remember and arise into our 4D and beyond self more and more. Awakening removes the filter more and more and LOVING negotiation with the 3D self to let go and drop away and eventually integrate.

Accessing the inner child, connecting and feeling…healing them INside to move from wounded and sad to magical 4D to the inner star child who holds such curiosity and capacity to BE the bridge to the stars. The crystalline child energy is in our higher heart. It sits in the sit of our higher heart. It is the ‘key’ to unlock the star BEing frequencies, connection with our star family, merging with our star BEing aspects, hearing the messages, speaking the language. This can trickle in, yet the flood of it comes as the inner child feels YOU as a loving energy holding the space more and more so it can let go of the wounded frequencies and vibrate higher.

The Universal grids going crystalline to match the inner grids that are awakening and ascending….tending to the inner grids is what accesses the outer connection. Light waves from the Universe wash in, come in as the heart and soul blocks are healed and ‘let down’ and ‘let go’. Without this negotiation with the blocks this can be painful and hard on the body, symptoms showing up in ringing sounds, heavy bones, hurting heads and necks, sleepy and drifty. All the bodies are connected (emotional, physical, mental, social, chakral, astral) and all impact each other.

Galaxy in your heart, the stars in your soul…..the TRUTH of this becomes revealed as you go within to bridge your emotional body WITH your soul awakenings, your inner space program to connect the inner galaxies with each other, mission to Infinite Love and beyond…YOU are the rocket, YOU are the fuel, YOU are the destination, You are the emotonaut/astronaut. Feeling, healing, INvestigating who YOU are and being willing to not kNOw the answers opens up the vistas of ALL possibilities and experiences BEYOND the self of Infinite Love. ❤ ❤

This is the journey we navigate with you in SoulFullHeart through sessions space holding with facilitators….. soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Fellowship of the Kings of Heart

Published on April 21, 2017August 2, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

I have a continued calling and desire to keep writing and inviting others to feel this archetypal King energy inside the hearts of all men. This is even true for women, as they have their own inner masculine energy that has protected their inner femininity from fully blooming for the most noble of reasons. They too can be healed to a King that helps to become to a counterpart to her arising Queen. For men, it becomes one portal into our deepest essence as a sacred human in masculine form.

I can’t help but to feel a loneliness that exists in the Heart of Man. An authentic desire for deeper connection and resonance. So much of our connection can be in the mental body,and if it does transact in the emotional body there can be some deep resistances to becoming too intimate. There is a dearth of authentic, intimate templating that we have been exposed to, at least in my past personal experience. I always felt more comfortable being more emotional with women than with men, but seemed to find more heart sensitive men to have relationships with when I did. But there is another level of vulnerability that we never seemed to cross. We stayed in a contracted frequency that had some nourishment but not a lot of growth.

As we find ourselves on ever-changing timelines and raising frequencies, we are being exposed to our deeper needs, desires, and the pains that follow them. We are being moved into experiences of remembering more of who we ARE in our most authentic Truth. As men, I feel how their is a desire to share this within community that can find itself to lean more toward mental digestions. Or there is a heartfelt ache to connect in heart space but there may be no one around to really understand what is moving through you. Or you may be blessed a beautiful sweet spot and are desiring more to join you.

I feel that we are being called back into our most heart-open leading edge of service and leadership. One that starts square in our hearts to feel all the places where we feel alone, forsaken, guilty, unworthy, confused, or in doubt. There are many different textures and levels inside of us that desire to be felt and for some it can be a lot to hold. The heart is seeking feeling and to be reunited with its soul. Its King. It seeks to be made whole and then expanded out into the Cosmic Heart of Humanity. To lead others into the glorious NOW of our deepest gifts and magic. To fly in the jetstream of Golden Consciousness with an untethered mind free of the energy that kept it in the dark spaces of our pain. This is what I feel we ache for. I least my heart and soul does.

And I wish to do this with other men in a fellowship of leadership. We have such a huge part to play in this arising new golden era of consciousness. To help heal the All by going into our One. To reclaim our brilliant kingdom within full of passion, vision, and creativity. We permit ourselves to live the lives of the Kings that we ARE and encourage and challenge each other lovingly to this grand place of masculine relationship.
I have experienced this with my good friend Raphael Awen and so much want to share this experience with other men. I loved my male friends dearly, as brothers of heart. I found myself on a new timeline, but feel them at times in my heart.

This is a show of desire to be in a bond of like-hearted souls that have chosen to fully inhabit their desire for growth, healing, and building an Empire of Love. I feel a new care and expanded heart for men everywhere, regardless where we are at on our quest. I would love to serve the hearts of those so drawn to this fellowship and leadership of Heart. I claim this inner kingdom for myself and long for you to do the same.

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Offering Possibilities Beyond The 3D Matrix, Reincarnation, Shadow Projection

Published on April 20, 2017April 20, 2017 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Here is my response to questions asked to me in response to my writing about being on the ‘frontlines’ offering love and forgiveness to representations of shadow and fear projections in our culture (Donald Trump and The Reptilians/Archons) and the sense that we collaborate in situations on a soul level and agree to what happens, whether personally or as a collective. The questions were: “I’ve read about the Reptilians and the 3d matrix and was always confused on how they could do this to us when we have free will. And wondered if it was even true to be honest. Does ascension break your soul free of the trap? Is the trap reincarnation? Does this mean you won’t reincarnate anymore once freed?”

As I feel into a response to these questions, I want to say that I am offering just ONE possible timeline of reality. The one that I resonate with and feels like is tuned to a higher frequency, Golden New Earth, love-based vibration, although it is not THE absolute truth or the ONLY truth as there are unlimited possibilities of timelines playing out in every moment. You’ll choose the one that most resonates with you in the moment…might be the one I am offering, might be another one.

In my experience, the things perceived by people as evil and dark are ultimately disowned aspects of their OWN shadow (or aspects from other lifetimes) that they have not embraced, so they are afraid of them and there is an emotional ‘charge’ about them. Even though there certainly ARE BEings (Ethereal, human, Star BEings) that are more polarized to fear rather than love. It is REALLY about your relationship WITH these fear-based beings as it represents your relationship with our own shadow aspects. Do you give them a lot of energy in your life of push away and resistance? Do you spend a lot of energy trying to ‘wake up others’ to their existence and feel rage and hurt if they don’t ‘get it’? Do you hold your relationship with them with a victim energy, feeling they have done things to you ‘against your will’? Are you resistant to feeling how YOU have an aspect that they represent within you or as an emotional body/psyche or soul aspect?

Feeling into the answers to these questions can open up whole new areas of inner exploration for you if feel drawn to go there. This outward projection of charged resistance to shadow aspects can be a sacred phase in someone’s journey and a very necessary timeline for them to walk out until they no longer need or want to.

On one particular timeline, for the souls who need to experience it as part of their awakening process, the 3D matrix created by an ‘evil’ race of Reptilians they call Archons (and other names) is VERY REAL. I believe this ‘outer’ matrix is the representation of an inner matrix made up of undigested emotional and soul woundings creating the sense of limited or capped perception, self deception and manipulation of others, disempowerment, being a slave to something….all of these are ‘chosen’ by the soul as an aspect of the awakening journey although often this is not conscious to the person fused to the parts of them that don’t remember this choice. For those who may not see or feel the inner origins of this matrix, they project out that it is coming from ‘evil forces’ of all sorts and kinds and being ‘done to them’. Parts of them are afraid of these evil forces and this fear draws MORE of this experience to them. It is a continual loop for them until it is no longer needed for growth. This loop is again, VERY REAL, to the person experiencing it.

I feel an aspect of this loop is also related to the timeline that ‘believes’ in reincarnation, however it is related to either as a necessary aspect of growth or as a trap. Because time in 3D reality FEELS REAL then so do past lives and, therefore, the idea of reincarnation. From a 5D and higher perspective, linear time does not exist and neither do ‘past’ lives in the sense offered by reincarnation. Beyond linear time, there is no ‘coming back’ lifetime after lifetime as the soul exists in the NOW spectrum.

Offering a different timeline around this that I have experienced myself more and more is the sense I have that we have ‘other’ aspects of us, fractals off of a main soul source which I call a Metasoul (Metatron offered that word, of course.) These Metasoul aspects of ours exist in different ‘eras’ and dimensions and their energy can be VERY influential in what we experience in the NOW. Connecting with them, healing with them, and eventually integrating them (the timeline they are on just seems to collapse and ‘go away’ eventually) allows for the you in the now to embody more of your soul gifts and soul accesses.

Your consciousness sort of absorbs theirs over time and all their experiences. I have experienced this merged consciousness exchange many times on many levels….from parts from this life such as the inner child and the inner protector to aspects from other lifetimes such as a high priestess from Avalon or a medicine woman to aspects from other planets such as an Arcturian, Pleiadian, and other aspects. This seems to be a very effective way to heal karma (which I hesitate to use that word for all the fear projection onto it). I write more articles about the Metasoul, karmic healing, other lifetimes, etc. here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/metasoul-other-lifetimes/

The way to ‘get free’ of this loop of outward charged projection of shadow, reincarnation limited ideas, and the inner matrix is by going within to awaken your soul and heal your heart. Being open and willing to feel ALL that is within you in the shadow of your emotional body and your soul legacy and your energetic/chakral body. We offer a process for that in SoulFullHeart and a supportive community to walk it out through sessions, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Ascension into higher frequencies (while also focusing on healing the emotional body which can act like an anchor lowering your vibration otherwise) DOES shift you into another possible timeline where you have access to your soul in a very fluid and connected way where you no longer see or experience ‘chapters’ of your lives playing out in the way as offered by reincarnation. Soul contracts, reincarnation, and past lives all become ‘ideas’ that can feel binding, ultimately fear-based, and limiting compared to the dynamic, fluid, multidimensional frequencies of your SOUL ESSENCE as it expresses in the NOW. And, you also feel and hold more and more, that it ALL comes from love, is sacred, and is your soul’s journey of remembering its essence AS Infinite Love.

Here is the article I mention above: Donald Trump’s Higher Self and the Reptilian King/Archon King offering love and forgiveness on the ‘frontlines’: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/19/offering-love-on-the-frontlines-connecting-with-the-reptilian-king-and-donald-trumps-higher-self/)

Following The Clues That Your Soul Is Offering You

Published on April 17, 2017April 21, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

“Everything is data”….this I like to offer about the awakening and ascending and growing process. Everything that we are drawn to, every movie, every piece of music, every relationship, etc. Everything that we resist. Everything that we resonate with. Everything that we let go of. Everything that we experience in our emotional, spiritual, mental, social, and physical bodies. ALL of it offers us data and information about ourselves, our souls, our emotional bodies, our physical bodies, our healing process, our growth…… if we are willing to LOOK at it and FEEL it from this perspective with curiosity and self love.

There are so many clues and hints and signs that we are given by our higher self and guides/soul aspects. These are like breadcrumbs for us to notice, to pick up, and to follow on our journey to remembering who we ARE as SOULS here. These are like pieces to put together of our puzzle for remembering our essence as multidimensional BEings. None of what we experience is ‘just coincidence’ as we have been conditioned to believe in 3D reality. ALL of it is part of the BIG picture of the WHO, and the WHY, and the WHAT, and the HOW of our essence expressing here.

Because we chose amnesia and soul forgetting in order to really lean into and inhabit the 3D experiment, we have to become a love detective of sorts for ourselves in order to put the pieces of our soul picture back together again, in order to facilitate our own remembering process again. The love detective energy inside of us is curious……SO CURIOUS about it all and is also WILLING to question everything that we have in our lives from a soul perspective with an openness to let it go if it doesn’t serve our expression AS LOVE.

This love detective energy helps us move out of victimhood because it accepts that we have CHOSEN what we experience as a soul and it ALL serves our growth (no matter how hard or painful it is.) This love detective is building a case for our expression of our soul and is tracking down the clues that SHOW how our souls are peeking out at us ALL THE TIME (sometimes SHOUTING at us actually)….we just need to listen, to feel, and to take in.

Let me offer an example of this that has come up a few times lately in sessions with women. You may feel that your current job or career or business is not really a reflection of your soul. You may consciously feel that it is ‘dense’ or more ‘3D’ and very much feel a desire to leave it. However, I invite you to take a moment to feel what your choice of livelihood is reflecting about your expression of soul gifts as it always seems to be, in one way or another, to one degree or another. For example, let’s say you are a salesperson and you have come up with a new way to offer sales….really feeling what the deeper needs of the customers are and they even acknowledge and thank you for this. Your co-workers notice how your approach is different and maybe you are even being invited to become a manager to train others.

This example shows how your soul gifts of being a healer, being empathetic and feeling other people’s feelings, being a teacher and trainer of souls, is all expressing in this job. Is this job the long-term one for you in terms of serving love from a 5D energy? Probably not, but being curious about it from a love detective place offers you clues about WHAT your soul purpose is here and how you might express it. And it gives you a new way to hold it and think about as you transition to more of that soul purpose expression.

Another example comes up around the body symptoms that so many are experiencing related to ascension. There seems to be a collective and universal experience of these body symptoms as our carbon-based bodies transmute to crystalline, 5D light bodies. Many people express and comment and share about these symptoms. Yet, rarely, do they ASK their bodies what the specific symptoms MEAN for them. They often just write it off as ‘part of the ascension process.’ Yet, the deeper (and more interesting) ground comes up when you ask: What are these symptoms trying to tell you and have you FEEL about your body and also your emotional body and perhaps your chakras too?

Rather than just ‘asking for guidance’ to your Ethereal guides (which you may relate to as being ‘outside’ of you), try asking your BODY itself about what is going on. This can be done during meditation through visualization or through written journaling or both. Rather than looking outside for a read out on what is going on with your body or just commiserating about it, feel it for yourself and let some of the clues of your own process come to life for you. Also, listening to and taking in what your body is trying to tell you often greatly relieves, reduces, or cures the symptoms that are occurring.

Most of what I offer is a reflection of self permission for people to become their own love detectives by modeling and templating that for them during sessions, group calls, writings, videos. I am immensely and authentically curious about them and come from this place, often asking more questions than giving reflections (although sometimes that comes through if it is needed.) I offer an example of this because I LIVE this.

Everything is data for me about me in my life…offering a next piece of illumination or possibility for me in my process. A recent example is how I related to sinus congestion and allergy reactions that come and go for me, leaving me feeling ‘flu-like’. Rather than just saying, “I have allergies” (which is the mainstream 3D way to look at the body), I ask myself, “What are these allergies and nasal congestion connected to? What are they trying to tell me?” And then I go into ALL of my bodies (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, social, chakral) to feel the answers. Sometimes I get more questions (new places to go) then answers, but always I can connect what is manifesting with something related to my process.

Rather than just fusing to the reality as it presents itself, you feel through the deeper meanings to it. This offers so much more magic, healing and love possibilities to your life. And, your love detective gets to respond and discover MORE and MORE, contributing to your arising embodiment of your sacred humanity here with Gaia at this time of great change and transformation.

I created a guided meditation to offer soothing energies for the physical body symptoms during ascension and connection with Mother Mary’s (and ultimately YOUR) energy of healing and purification:

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, love ambassador, way-shower, and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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