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Men’s Group Call – This Saturday

Published on June 8, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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Because we live our lives inside of such deep conditioning from this life and other lifetimes, AND because we chose to enter the veil of amnesia, it feels to our local soul guardian aspects of ourselves that we almost tied both hands behind our backs at times in our goal to awaken and be re-membered to what we actually ARE and what we intended to inhabit in our current earth journey.

For many of us, we are left living lives that are strange pretzelated work-arounds for so many things that have not been felt that we simply couldn’t before access in our feeling, re-MEMBER-ing bodies.

Though this feels like a grim assessment, what if it couldn’t be more perfect? What if that is the way the higher intelligence that you ARE set it up as the way IN? What if you knew that it would be through feeling frustrated, behind and anxious to awaken that the fuel for the awakening path could come to you?

If any of this is true, and it feels like a bunch of it is true to me, then a process of remembering IS A PROCESS and THE PROCESS,… and FEELING it all one piece at a time IS the awakening… leading to new awarenesses, new choices, and new community.

And none of THAT can be done in a box, it’s done in life and in relationship!

Here’s the details on the upcoming Men’s Group Call

Join Gabriel Heartman and myself on June 10 for the 2 hour SoulFullHeart Group Call for Men. The event details are here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1529253583760067/

After receiving your minimum donation of $11.00 USD, we send you the link for the Zoom Room virtual meeting. The PayPal link is here: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart

(Choose ‘USD’ over the presented ‘MXN’ in the dropdown list of currencies. Also, you can chose English at the bottom right corner of the PayPal page)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Solving The Mystery Of The YOU-niverse

Published on June 8, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

When you look at the mystery of the universe, it takes you right up to the mystery of YOU, as the Universe IS the YOU-niverse… and just when you think you may be making some headway into describing the mystery or even solving the mystery, as you are beholding its beauty and magic, the universe and you explode into a deeper mystery still…. leaving you in awe and reverence.

It seems though that we are truly afraid of this awe and reverence even as we may consciously also feel we crave these expanded moments. Our 3D selves continuously and effectively normalize all incoming magic and wonder in our lives to make it into a ‘ho-hum, nothing to see here’ kind of experience. Even our 3D experience of life is itself pure magic and wonder!

Our 3D selves fear us being carried away by something it can’t relate to or feel. Finding and feeling the parts of yourself that only know a 3D relationship to life, where the you who is showing up to feel them is your arising healthy Authentic Self, IS the traction ground where you are now ‘solving’ the mystery of the YOU-niverse. Granted, the mystery will only deepen as you do, but the payoff is that you get to the place where the NEW REALITY as it lives in you, and as you know it inside of you, becomes your MIND ALTERING SUBSTANCE.

What reality are you presently creating? Are you willing to look at it deeply and take responsibility for it? Are you willing to explore into the farthest reaches of your own inner kingdom? It’s what you came here to do and be!

The Capacity To BE What We Have Most Been Missing

Published on June 7, 2017 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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What are the scenes of your soul’s despair? What are the scenes of your this life traumas? And what do they tell you of your Now? What do they show you that connects to your Now? What do you feel as you enter them with your heart open and ready? If you are open to looking, to feeling, to viewing, to connecting to this, it can move out of freeze frame and into liquid motion and fluidity again. It becomes unstuck, sprung back into life with all the energy it formerly occupied being freed up.

This is the time to BE this kind of self investigator, detective, inner journeyer to discover what there is to feel, see, know, remember. Avoidance hasn’t been working anyway, as the tension of it shows up in some way. Resistance cannot cover over that which persists, calling for your response. The part of you (that has been guarding and protecting over these ’emotional scenes’ because they don’t want you to feel any more pain) is getting TIRED. Their weapons are getting dull anyway. They don’t really want to fight or battle or guard anymore.

Much love is available for the going in now. It won’t be like before. You are much more able to hold it and feel it than parts of you may imagine that you are. Your human heart has such a deep and powerful capacity to feel and offer compassion to yourself. Your human heart is unlimited in its capacity to respond to whatever most needs your love inside of you.

This is what we are called to respond to that has been ‘left behind’ before or overlooked or suppressed or just not able to be addressed. We have the capacity now in our arising sacred humanity to BE what we have most been missing. To form our own bridges between what needs us most in our emotional bodies and in our soul legacies. Now is the time for this healing of self that is the manifestation of ALL our capacities. ~

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Let’s Fall

Published on June 6, 2017June 6, 2017 by Kasha Rosa5 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

It’s that threshold

before the further step.

A feeling that there is something

if only

we tip over.

Let’s tumble down this hill

for a jumpstart

while the edge is right here.

I want those scraped knees

and grass-stained jeans.

Those ripped up shirts

that tangled hair.

The one way

to tear down curtains

over those layers

that need revealing.

I want the melting heart

knee-buckling feeling

of an opening coming out

from deeper within.

From outstretched arms

held tightly

around an us

that can hold it all

somehow…

find ways to be in it

trusting

that the ways it leads us

often unknown

will show the silver-lined paths

of newly trodden soul circles

leading back to the heart.

I want the air of it all

the sea breeze

and the moving shorelines.

I want the ease of connection

worked for

contended for

and loved for.

The commitment from inside

that brings it all out

through these filters

no longer hidden

but now faced

and fitted

and trod out.

I want those memories

pinging between us

of lifetimes

still lived

and seeping through.

Yes,

I want a lot.

I want it all.

And when it’s here

that downhill tumbling

heart fumbling

reality of its power

will move all the while

within me

As I walk hand in hand

with you

and we find our way through

together…

Let’s fall

and rise back up again

over and over

as we have never done before

and bring it all out

to be felt

held

cherished

in the eyes and hearts of each other

and the Divine

sacred love

that holds every moment

and movement

with ever-expanding hands

and ever-healing souls.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Revealing Our Inner King

Published on June 6, 2017August 2, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

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What is it you are truly desiring as a man? The answer to that question is multi-layered and conflictual because there are different parts and aspects of us that are vying for the manifestation of these desires. This can create a maddening or flattening energy. Sometimes what we believe we want is a smokescreen for something even deeper that changes the storyline of the one you are currently writing. And that can be scary stuff to the parts so invested in the what has been comfortable even in its uncomfortability.

What if what you truly want is so big that you are almost blind to it by the fear of what all that means? Going down the corridors of our true passion and desires can mean upending some strongly held beliefs and expectations. YET…does staying in this status quo really serve anything other than your own passion’s demise?

I, along with Raphael Awenl, are so amped, juiced, and ready to serve those men that are ready to take their spirituality to a different universe altogether. One that blends so many possibilities into one gestalt. You just can’t find that anywhere that I know of. Accessing the emotional body takes us on a journey to clear a path to our spiritual awakening that traverses multiple timelines that can integrate so much of our beyond recognizable potential. Takes us to worlds we felt were separate from us as opposed to actually BEing us.

It is more than just healing we are advocating for. It is going beyond that healing to access our true divinity within to create a world that we have chosen to forget we could create so we can learn something new and remember our way back. That is a mouthful but feels really true. It is not THE truth, just one that we are choosing to play with as we continue to unfold this puppy one felt experience at a time.

We will be discussing the emotional body and out it lives out in men in our next group call this Saturday. There will be a meditation to have you meet your emotional body to begin a dialogue with it that begins a whole new ground for relating to yourself and what you thought was you but is really a part of a bigger you.

If you feel you are ready to just take one step to see if it leads to the next then please join us for a new emerging timeline that bring men together in a way that we feel has far reaching effects among the collective, the feminine, and Gaia. I look forward to seeing you there and what can happen in the space between us.

You can visit the following links for more information:

https://www.facebook.com/events/1529253583760067/

http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Aging UP: Entering A New Life And LOVE Phase On My ‘Birthday’

Published on June 3, 2017 by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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This painting is by Shiloh Sophia

I turn ’30’ tomorrow. A surreal feeling, as age and time have felt less and less important and real to me, except for those phases when it has to somehow. There are still some really important life phases and experiences that seem to happen mostly during certain ages or decades of our lives, so sometimes it IS important to acknowledge ‘age’ though I feel looser and looser about it, especially for myself.

I think I spent most of my ’20’s’ looking forward to turning ’30’. My 20’s felt awkward and strange at times. So much more self-discovery and remembrance happened during this ‘decade’ of my life than in my teenage years, though so much got started then too. Many phases of letting go, learning to let in, surrendering, hoping, wishing, losing sight of magic and wonder and then rediscovering it again, loving a man, moving through relationships, learning to love humanity again even when parts didn’t want to… this is just a taste of where I chose to go, venturing into shadow and light both and facing sometimes very, very humbling mirrors.

The ups and downs were palpable and as I reflect on them, my god, they were all so worth it to bring me HERE to this NEW place inside me that is more compassionate, more overflowing with love, more desirous of mateship inside and outside of me, more desirous to FEEL and HEAL whatever I need to no matter how challenging, and more willing to step into my destined leadership, starting within and moving without. My heart wants to BE and experience feminine stillness and also experience heart-based, vulnerable, transparent leadership happening more and more from inside of me, to serve and BE love, even when boundaries are necessary and conflicts may arise for one reason or another, all in the name of growth and letting in more and more and MORE with less and less shrinking or hiding or cloaking from parts of me who are fused to fear.

Rolling around with a part of me through reactions to ALL of this arising inside me took the place of sleep most of the night last night. In some ways it was the reactions that kept me up and yet it was also new energies coming in, or so it feels like to me now as I reflect on and feel into this all some more. I’m getting ready and being filled up and at the same time being flushed OUT. This morning has been mostly restful for me, despite any ‘plans’ I thought I had… I feel as if I’m trying to expand my container for letting in LOVE and letting it move through me in conscious transaction and relationship with others. There is so much juice coming in now, being offered to all of us actually. This juice can’t come in without us being juiced first! It can feel like a squeeze at times, as reactions surface and sometimes feel overwhelming and hard to track. Sometimes it feels to me like all I can do is surf it all and trust that as I’m feeling it, it’s also moving, and that there’s a fast track happening. I’m ON the train now, and it’s moving faster and faster.

As I enter this new ‘age’ of my life, it feels inaugural… I feel how much my inner Queen is arising now. She is waiting to be crowned at an official coronation, held inside me with guides and so, so much love. She is who I’ve been waiting and WORKING for, processing for, healing for. She is who gets to lead in my life now, more and more, as my healing continues and my persona parts of me continue to rest. She is the one ascending to her heart throne while also ascending to the throne built for her in the Universe, joining other Kings and Queens that are also showing up there more and more, leading humanity consciously and subconsciously through this phase of ascending with Gaia. She IS Mother Gaia, as we all are. She IS you just as she IS me and she also is a bridge, a platform, a ship, a rocket, a star and light BEing and leader. She is feeling her purity of heart come forward again at deeper and deeper depths as all I’ve healed and am healing helps to create her crown of jewels atop her head. She is my leader, my healer, my LOVEr living inside my heart and soul. And she is waiting along with me, helping me make room for a King to come and dance with her energy in sacred union, sacred sexuality, sacred and conscious duality, and sacred humanity.

As I find my rebirth into this new universe, I feel this birth canal that she is being pushed through by love and desire. She is responding already to what is coming and what is being asked of me and of her. We won’t be perfect together, yet there is no need for that. Many different birth canals await and that’s okay too, for the need for mess in order to grow is not foreign to me! Yet there is also harvest coming and feasts of celebration inside of myself and with others too. AND I look forward to welcoming more of ALL of our inner inter-galactic, inter-dimensional royalty, as we all reemerge and reunite in this way.

From my Queen to yours, or perhaps your King if you’re a man, thank you for being a part of what has created my journey so far. You have taught me and continue to teach me more than you could maybe be aware of really and I feel you… I honour you. I love you.

In arising and ever-flowing love,

Queen Kalayna ❤

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The Beauty Of Our Messes: Living Life From The Heart

Published on June 2, 2017June 2, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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Gosh, claiming someone or something can feel like a big leap of faith. It is an agreement to fall in love. It can get to a point where even claiming the next step of the staircase can feel like a lot, like you and your parts know somehow that life as you’ve/they’ve known it is about to change. Some of us are more cautious than others. Some of us dive in head, heart or soul first, no matter the circumstance. There could be a balance here, and yet the whole point, it feels like, is to allow yourself to be ‘out’ of balance. To let something or someone new that’s arising in your life tip you completely sideways and add some new wonder to every fiber of your existence, known or unknown. Parts of us have all sorts of reactions to this and it’s important to feel every one as it arises, paving nothing over, and yet the messiness of it all, even feeling in hindsight what was buried, IS the point! Sometimes our growth edges cannot be planned or deliberately planted, yet stumbled upon. And sometimes this is the only way to find them.

As children, getting messy was easy! It was the way we learned to communicate, the way we learned to play, the way we learned how to BE with others and also with things. We shed tears over broken bones and toys and friendship bonds. Sadly too we also learned how to punish ourselves from the inside and as we learned what was ‘wrong’ and what was ‘right’ we also learned how to judge others for whether or not they followed the ‘rules’ as we learned them. Parts of us or subpersonalities began to form around these traumas, identities and ways of ‘seeing’ ourselves started to develop. We stopped being willing to get messy, sooner or later, for the consequences, which no one could feel us in at the time or offer us heart-centered guidance through, soon became things to avoid, avoid, avoid… it feels like this is when we learned how to stop falling in love, falling on our faces or bums or even our hearts when necessary, whether over a person or a butterfly or puppy, or a flower we just really wanted to run to in order to take it in deeper! We wanted to play, we wanted to learn how to fly, we wanted to experience the whole world with every sense alive in us. AND none of us were born judges or critics or even fanatics… we just WERE.

Our worlds of discovery, uncovering all we wanted to, became answered by knowledge. So many of us eventually began a path of seeking and spirituality in order to find magic in life again, and yet even this has become a place of only seeking knowledge and not actual experience. Not the same experience that falling into and sometimes on top of your heart can offer. It’s not the same as the inherent sense of spirituality we were BORN with, that got snuffed out because we had to go through phases of this. It’s been a tough road of remembrance and so it continues to be sometimes, but this innocence, this heart-centered love of everything, is still there. The healing, the difficulties, the FEELING is all worth it to find this place inside the inside of us again. We are constantly being invited back inward, back to that place where the magic has always been. We can’t return fully to that place where we were as kids, and yet we wouldn’t want to, for all that we’ve gleaned from our life experience has been a gift that’s meant to integrate with this child within, hold it and treasure it too. As we claim each piece of who we are, who we want to be, who we want to be WITH, we find our way back to the pure love we came from, bringing our full treasure chest with us that we always wanted to find as children but needed life to bring it to us.

A childlike claim of the love of discovery, of life, of love itself… the claim of another in romance, the claim of ourselves in pursuit of our deepest healing and experience of self love and reverence and worth… this is all within us and the more we allow in the possibilities of mess but still go IN, the more we seem to grow and the greater our depths of soul and heart seem to BE.

With each firewalk we endure, we find our power again, and realize we never lost it but it was our power that chose it in the first place. With each step into the wilderness, we find that getting lost only means being found in a new way. With each garden bed we till, we make friends with the bugs and learn to love the dirt under our fingernails. And with each fresh beat of our excited hearts, we learn yet again, that even the roughest seas bring us back to the shores of love and the light we’ve always had within. ❤

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Healing Our Way To Sacred Romance

Published on May 28, 2017May 28, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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There are times when we need love to not be so ¨nice¨ and instead be very direct and real. Matter of fact, true love shuns nice, as that is only a cover to something that is trying to avoid what is real and protects self-image. Love can be compassionate and gentle, but that is not the same as nice. When offered a mirror with direct love and advocacy of self and other, we are able to see what lies unseen and unfelt by our very own heart eyes.

It is an awkward moment and can press on a lot of other buttons that can only serve a shut down. When this reflection is held within a larger container of a desire to grow and let in more love then we can be with that reaction in a way that moves us from closed to open. From fear to more love.

As a man exploring and choosing to inhabit sacred romance, the layers of what holds resistance come to the surface in a way that is no longer avoidable if you no longer want to continue doing the same things that have kept real love from entering your kingdom. We have to be willing to face some hard reflections but how we are with those reflections are what set us in a new direction of openness instead of contraction. It is the old way of how the patriarchal parts of us have related to intimacy. As each one of us chooses to go in and heal that part or parts of us, then we in turn heal the patriarchy itself.

I do not come at this with judgement toward myself or others. That only continues the cycle. I hold this with an open heart and a desire to let go of what has, and no longer does, serve my desire to heal and see my inner King. I am very grateful to the women in my life who have helped me to see this and to the one man I have met that has so boldly gone where most men fear to tread. This is a new day for me as I go forward into the deep waters of what Love was always meant to be like.

Today I AM in a sacred union mateship with another beautiful female soul that has the courage and passion for the same. And THAT is what I have been calling for. Time to let that in and see how much fun can be had beyond what parts have believed is possible.

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Flowing In And Flowing Out AS Love

Published on May 25, 2017May 25, 2017 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Expanding out, wider and wider, to let others into the chambers of your heart. To let them in the places that you are clearing of the emotional cobwebs, the dust that has gathered, the shadows that have lingered. You are clearing out these heart places with your curiosity to explore INside. Your loving wonder about what is around the next corner of your deepest inner places.

Beaconing out, brighter and brighter, to lead others with the remembered wisdoms of your soul. Offering a mirror of possibility for what they TOO can remember as they unlock their soul doors. You are walking through the scenes of other lifetimes, feeling the edges and the gifts and the experiences that form the stories and substances of your soul legacy.

Going IN, deeper and deeper, to love yourself and all the pieces, parts, and aspects that you feel along the way. You are feeling your Inner Child in their school yard reality, stuck in a classroom or a childhood family living room, and bringing them into the current NOW with you and into the light of your love. Adventuring to the castles of your essence and meeting your Inner Protector there, offering him an invitation to rest and lean and trust.

Letting IN, more and more, that to serve love with others is your highest purpose for being here. You are feeling support from the Divine to express and to BE this purpose as you heal the fear, resistance and distrust within your emotional body and soul field that may block the expression and claiming of this. Inviting others into this space becoming more organic, natural, and authentic as you feel the Oneness from which we All originate and eventually return.

Flowing in and Flowing out, LOVE comes from this place of freed up frequencies of energy flow. You are experiencing this as you choose your most true path into your own heart and soul, drawing others then who resonate, feel, and BE with you too in mutual choice and reverence. In this abundant flow that comes from within, there is no scarcity here, no lack, and no need unfulfilled, as you experience the Infinite Love that ARE and always will be.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Still Loved

Published on May 24, 2017May 23, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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You are still loved….

Even on those days when a feeling of un-importance
overcomes the brightest light
in your heart
and the world seems to keep on turning
despite inner protests to the same…

You are still love.

Even when times of harsh climates within relationships
move across your skies
and a feeling of not being worthy
collapses your ceiling…

You can still love.

Even if that mirror ahead tells a tale
of shadow and darkness
and the you you thought you knew
turns into a serpent of rarest truths unknown…

To move back into the self of this love
that knows this love
that feels how this IS love
is that place where the darkened skies move
into a space of contained wholeness
and held goodness.

The love of this love
is the truest guiding light
and the deepest sinew of a song
calling all back home
to the love
that they always, always ARE.

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