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A Love Story: Part Five (A Choicepoint)

Published on March 5, 2022 by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

By Raianna Shai

This part of my “love story” is more of my own side of things as I was realizing that my spirituality and my 3D life were struggling to coexist. I was in a limbo space around this time trying to be two things at once: human and divine. I could feel how there was still some life left to live and sort out before I could really choose to integrate my connection to the divine.

I had one foot in both worlds and wasn’t able to give my whole heart to either. I felt like I didn’t truly belong in either and that I could never be enough for my relationship or my community. This was the moment when I realized I had to go fully into life in order to live into whatever was left for me there. In that, I chose to take a break from soulfullheart and soon found my way back with more clarity about who I am and what I want than ever.

Today I feel a much deeper union with my both my humanity and divinity and a greater knowing of my soul’s purpose. Everyday is an inch closer to integrating these two parts of my being and feeling more comfortable to express both of them. Sometimes we have to let go into one reality in order to end the suffering of trying to be everything for everyone else. In this choice, we find who we really are.

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A Love Story: Part Five
A Choicepoint

Why does it feel sometimes like my divine self and human self are at odds? As if I can only experience one of these truths at any one time. There’s a part of me that feels like I have to choose one or the other and when I do, I lose one.

What if I choose the Divine path and lose my self in the process, unable to turn back? What if I choose humanity and forget who I really am and what I’m really capable of? What if I end up living for everyone but myself, constantly choosing what they think is best for me.

I don’t have clarity inside of my heart and soul right now. I don’t have the answers or the ability to go with the flow anymore. I’m at a crossroads in this moment and it’s one of the most uncomfortable places I’ve been in a long time. The nest is prickly but I don’t know where it wants me to go next.

Who am I? What do I really want? How do I want to get to where I need to be? Where do I even need to be? I’m scared of making the wrong choices. I’m scared of every little thing I do coming from the wrong place.

It’s hard to evaluate each thing you feel as if it has the potential to be wrong. I’m in this awkward spot of being able to see when I might regret something but wanting to experience it anyway. Like I haven’t caught up with my own awareness so having the awareness is painful.

I feel as if I need to have clarity and a choice that I just can’t provide right now. So how do I reconcile not knowing what I want and feeling like once I make a choice, I can’t go back?

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Inner Son, Inner Father Guided Meditation: Video 26 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

Published on January 26, 2022January 30, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

In this twenty-sixth video of our 31-day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening in this 3rd of four videos within Deepen 22 series

In this video, we shared about:
*How the Inner Son, expressing as either the Inner Child or The Inner Teeanager holds the key to our sensitivity and vulnerability.
*How their ‘arrested development’ as psychology calls it, is not something wrong or to be fixed, but rather a portal back to our spring loaded essence, without which, we are left compensating in all of life for that missing essence.
*How our birth Father can leave us with a template of a bully, an impotent/absent dad, or an idealized false God, ‘perfect dad’ leaves us with a template that we need to then sort through to cultivate a healthy relationship with Divine Father

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael lead you to reconnect with your Inner Son and Inner Father to begin a reconnection and healthy differentiation with you holding the space as your divine self.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

A Love Story: Part Four (Enter At Your Own Risk)

Published on January 25, 2022 by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

By Raianna Shai

I finally made it to part four of my love story series! This is a full on post instead of a poem, so I’ll keep this preface short and sweet.

I had a moment last year while trying to rediscover myself and my purpose when I realized that the part of me that I’ve judged and kept protected is actually one of my greatest gifts. I’ve been so held back by fear of my own emotions and what other people may think of me that it’s been so hard to let myself just be honest and real.

Even when I would share my feelings in a relationship, I would try to soften it to not make it sound “too much” or “too unfair”. But I’m finally reaching the point of realizing that risking judgement and blowing up a relationship is worth it when your truth could actually bring you and the other person into something new and meaningful. Yes, truth can hurt and harm others – but so can holding it back. At least the former allows you both the opportunity to show up and grow into new ground.

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A Love Story: Part Four
Enter At Your Own Risk

So much of our lives are spent worrying and fearing what might happen. We close ourselves off knowing we could potentially be hurt if we don’t. We don’t tell people how we feel, we don’t open up our hearts to one another, we don’t commit to something that means a lot to us, we sabotage ourselves in the name of safety, comfort and preservation.

But when I think of all those beautiful moments in life that we’re constantly searching for – have we ever gotten there without risk? Have you ever fallen in love without being vulnerable? Or felt a deep sense of connection with someone without the risk of being rejected or judged? Has there ever been a moment of true and real emotion that hasn’t come with an underlying fear of abandonment?

We try so hard to avoid the mess – the heartbreak, the judgement from others, criticism – but with that, we avoid the bliss.

Something I’ve realized about myself over the last few months is that I am incredibly sensitive and emotional and for maybe the first moment in my life I 100% love that part of me. I’ve spent so long worrying that I would be seen as too much, as pushing people in my life to be someone they’re not in order to match me, as being overly sensitive and insecure. Insecurity can come with sensitivity but so can strength.

When I let myself be me, I have the strength to sit with someone and pour my heart out to them. I have the strength to feel my feelings on full blast without having a wall up to protect myself from others. I have the strength to love with such depth that I genuinely worry I’ll get lost in it.

And sometimes I do. Sometimes I forget how beautiful my heart is and how much it deserves to be loved back just as powerfully. I just want to be seen and felt in all my glory.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Grief and Mourning Guided Meditation: Video 24 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael Awen & Gabriel Amara

Published on January 24, 2022January 28, 2022 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

In this twenty-fourth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator Raphael Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Gabriel Amara as we explore Sacred Masculine Awakening over the next four videos.

In this video, we shared about how undigested grief and mourning seems to be the big piece holding the masculine back from entering the true ground of their emotional body from where real authenticity and presence and being arises; how this grief can be related to experiences this life, and can even stretch back all the way back to our original separation wound held by an Inner Orphan part of us that was created when we were soul-born into an individuated separate consciousness out of the Divine. We talked about how the masculine’s entire relationship with life, with meaning and purpose, with self-identity is then skewed by this undigested grief.

In the guided meditation portion of the video, Gabriel and Raphael lead you into the grief room to feel what is ready to be bridged to and felt, mourned, and then taken out into the light of day – from mourning to morning.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Light Body Activation Guided Meditation: Video 18 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

Published on January 18, 2022January 22, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this eighteenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the Light Body activation process that is occurring during Ascension as we shift the proportion of light within us. We share about how to activate your light body through detoxing from 3D energies/foods through fasting, clearing/activating your Ascension Chakras, and breath work/yoga/pranayama.

There is a ‘death’ occurring of our 3D body vessels, a mourning process, and letting go as we move into our higher dimensional bodies. We also share about how the relationship with your body shifts from shame/judgement to more loving acceptance and Ascension symptoms are also lessened through this activation process.

In the guided meditation, you connect with your 3D body in its pain, disease, death throes process in order to offer grieving space. Then, you tune into your 5D Light Body and begin the process of merging the two.

Here is a Light Body Activation video from Jelelle’s Deepen 2019 series: https://youtu.be/L_nbhQJ9uSw

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

From Warrior To 5D Ambassador Guided Meditation: Video 16 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

Published on January 16, 2022January 19, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this sixteenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the shift and movement from Warrior to 5D Love Ambassador that occurs as you heal the warrior and battle ground energies from within you with your Gatekeeper. We talk about how the False Light can project this need to be a “spiritual warrior” and go into battle with the dark in a polarized way rather than into the Ambassador energy that leads with compassion and seeks peace.

The matrix narrative in the C and V rollout is bringing out a lot of warrior/fighting energies rather than remaining non-judgemental even while personal choice points are clear. We offer from the Ambassador’s perspective, all roles/sides are sacred and there really isn’t anything to fight. If you do feel a strong fighting/battling energy toward someone or something, it is a mirror of a battle that is going on within you. We do honor that it can be an important phase to become an advocate and activist ‘against’ injustice as it was probably not allowed in other lifetimes and needs to express without persecution.

In the guided meditation, you journey with your Gatekeeper and the Divine Mother & Father to a battleground within your emotional body/soul field. You connect to the warrior who is expressing on that battlefield or protesting and invite them to go ‘above’ the battlefield. On a hill above, you invite your Ambassador to come in to meet your Warrior, who is invited to rest in a hot pool of warm loving energy waters with the Divine.

Jelelle reads a passage from Chapter Five of her book Free To Be 5D, which can be purchased as an ebook, audio, print, and PDF versions at soulfullheart.org/books.

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

1:11 Portal Inner Flame Re-Ignition Process

Published on January 14, 2022 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kasha Rokshana

The fire of love lights up your sleeping limbs and illuminates where to go next inside of you. It brings you into new levels of awakening to how and who you’ve been and what you’re truly called to become. It is the Divine inviting you to be truthful, real, and alive.

As the fire of love burns within me, it burns within you. I feel the flames rising and peaking at times and calming and fading at others, but always burning. There is no deep inner or outer change without being willing to burn brightly or even, at times, get burned.

This 1:11 passage continues to move through as we witness even more truths coming to light in our inner and outer worlds. The flames of transformation are being fanned in a huge way by the Divine within each of us… there’s so much we are invited into for our next levels of self-love and love of others and how both are embodied and expressed.

I feel from the Divine:

“This is not the time to douse the flame, however it burns inside of you.

Perhaps the most misunderstood aspect of having inner fire is that it’s not just about anger or fighting for or against something. It’s also heart warmth, feeling alive in the skin you’re in, your soul and heart both being lit up with passion and desire, and a deeply passionate and catalytic love that has to be shared. Parts of you may try to ignore or control it, yet eventually the restlessness stirs and something inside and outside of you needs to be seen and shifted. Sometimes this requires a flame turned up to 100, sometimes only 10 will do. You are loved and supported in all of your expressions of this flame, as no matter what, it eventually (or quickly) moves all that needs to move for the truth to be revealed and your true power to be found.”

This is such a deep and recent learning of my own… embodying my own flame more after a while of feeling the dial turned down. Over and over again I’ve had to feel parts/Metasoul aspects/my Gatekeeper in why this is and I’ve felt reminded over and over again about how keeping this flame down or hidden does not serve love in the way I signed up for, though the dimming was necessary for a time. I had to let it come up and out on 1:11, to serve and move beyond myself. It wouldn’t be real for me to pretend that this hasn’t taken much inner work to let it move through me and this alone is so humbling so feel!

It’s the fire of my truth, whatever it IS in the moment. It’s the blazing flame lighting up my heart, penetrating deeper layers within. It’s the beacon of Divine Mother moving through my ever-purifying channel. She is the match that relights what may have been deliberately or unconsciously dimmed inside of me so that I can see with new eyes what is really going on for me and for others.

This fire inside cannot be faked or even conjured. It is already there, waiting to be fed, with love and responsibility for how it moves you and others. And it does so much more than destroy, hurt, or harm… it enlivens in ways that are deeply transformative when the energies are allowed to be so, when parts of you feel truly done with controlling them and the catalytic nature of what burns inside of you.

There are so many layers to feel about how your inner fire has been related to and why… and in some ways, the discovery of that may never truly end. It’s what we came here to embody and unleash as we truly remember the love we came here to BE.

Maybe you’ve experienced your own burning flame inside in a more conscious way as the 1:11 energies have been moving through you too? 🔥

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

A Digestion Of The Deepen 2022 Video Series

Published on January 14, 2022January 30, 2022 by Raianna ShaiLeave a comment

By Raianna Shai

This SoulFullHeart video series is such an incredible way to get to know yourself to an incredible deep level. They’re full of teachings and meditations that are so valuable for discovering who you are, why you feel and react the way you do, what your gifts are and how to heal even your deepest wounds. I’ve been doing this series for the last two weeks or so and even the more “basic” videos have been so enlivening and core to my current healing process.

There’s something special about connecting to 31 different videos that slowly but thoroughly help you dive into any and all places that need your attention. They can be taken in at any pace and at any time which allows you to go deeper into any process that feels relevant.

I have been on a deep journey of discovering my divine empowered woman and these videos have brought so many connections to light inside of me. They have taught me how much my inner mother wants to care take everyone to the point where it doesn’t allow others, or other parts of me, to live into their bigness and grow into the person they’re capable of. They have taught me that my inner teenager is ready to blossom and become a woman capable of setting boundaries and advocating for herself and the capacity of others.

They have woken up my inner protector enough for him to realize that he can’t keep me small and locked in my bedroom anymore. This journey has strengthened belief in myself and what I have to gift others. I have been able to dive into my shadow in a way that I was way to scared to before and recognize patterns that have been so detrimental to my own growth as well as those around me, even if for a good reason.

So thank you Jelelle, Raphael and soon Kasha and Gabriel for providing me with the tools I need to love and care for myself in a way that serves both myself and the collective ❤️

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days, a playlist featuring each video released so far, and information about the two Deepen 2022 group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

Love, Raianna

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Accessing Your Metasoul Lifetimes Guided Meditation: Video 13 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

Published on January 13, 2022January 17, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this thirteenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the Metasoul, the individuated source of your soul and all of the fragments that project from it into other lifetimes/timelines. We explain how the Metasoul is non-linear, beyond time, and accessible in the Quantum Now through a bridge created by your Gatekeeper. Connecting with your Metasoul aspects in an ongoing, intentional way allows for mutual karmic and trauma healing, gift exchange, and quantum upgrades.

We also talk about how the current Matrix narrative is triggering the separation wounds in our Metasoul and the collapse lifetime experiences (such as Atlantis and Lemuria) as well. Metasoul access in an increasingly conscious way allows for you to digest what is occurring with this narrative in a deeper way and navigate choice points with more clarity as well.

In the meditation, we are once again joined by the supportive frequencies of Divine Mother and Father as we meet up with your Gatekeeper in their Metasoul portal access ‘realm’ (usually represented by a cavern with many tunnels leading off of it.) With your Gatekeeper, you tune into and enter a lifetime that is most needing your attention. You connect with a Metasoul aspect, begin a dialogue, and start the process of quantum healing.

Here is a video for Metasoul Timeline/Lifetime Portal Access
From Jelelle’s Deepen 2019 video series: https://youtu.be/9jWgpQbXTZo

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

Unplugging Your Reptilian Self Guided Meditation: Video 11 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

Published on January 11, 2022January 14, 2022 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

In this eleventh video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about your Reptilian Self, a 4D aspect of your Metasoul that is ‘entwined’ with you at the Matrix level. Your Reptilian Self has served a projector of the Matrix and been enslaved/trapped themselves to serve this function by the AI Beings calling themselves the “Architects” or “Programmers.

We offer an invitation to heal the polarity and judgement against Reptilian that can occur as you awaken to the Matrix reality by becoming an ambassador to your Reptilian self in a loving and curious way. These previously entrapped Reptilians are now awakening and unplugging as their ‘human counterpart’ is as well, being invited to relocate to a higher dimensional planet and being free from the entwinement.

In the meditation, Divine Mother and Divine Father wrap you in a protective white light bubble as you ask your Gatekeeper to bridge you to your Reptilian Self. We describe the different settings that we have seen them in, including a Red Planet, Mars-like environment. You connect with your Reptilian Self, perhaps receive a nap, and also are invited to help them unplug from their AI One Mind Matrix as much as is possible through the dissolving offered by love.

Here is a video to Meet Your Reptilian Self From Jelelle’s Deepen 2020 video series: https://youtu.be/pA7ZjZj2K8M

As we mentioned in this video, you can order pre-made and custom beautiful macrame creations infused with light and love codes by Raianna Shai of Enchanted Well Designs here at her ETSY shop: https://etsy.me/3tnNWdS

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeB…

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

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