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Energy Update: Pituitary & Pineal Gland UPgrades And Activations For The 11/11 Portal

Published on November 9, 2017November 9, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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I slept 12 hours last night…the second night in a row in which I have done this. This is after resting all day and taking a deep, pass out nap at some point yesterday. The body DOES seem to be asking for rest right now as it IS already receiving downloads from the 11/11 opening and is being prepared to receive more. I was offered by my guides/Metasoul aspects that is worth it to rest for a couple of days to prepare to be ‘changed’ then to resist it or fight it with more DOing. To ‘take time off’ to prep and then receive what is being offered right now will be worth it if you feel guided to do that. Making space for the next couple of days for this process allows you to maximize the benefits of what is being offered.

The parts of you that might resist may be feeling a sense of fear about the unknown around all of this. A sense of concern around where all this headed or going. To have your physical body and very often emotional body impacted/charged/in what can feel like suffering can push up desires to block or at least modulate what can be experienced. Negotiation with the Inner Protector part of you esp. can allow for more sense of trust around the process and surrender too.

The most deep and needed activations as we go forward are related to our Pituitary & Pineal Glands. These tiny, often ‘forgotten and de-energized’ and calcified in 3D glands are turning into snowflakes of crystalline, acting as receptors and translators and integrators as we move into 4D and higher frequencies. Their activation into higher vibrational frequencies serves as an important bridge to the fuller embodiment of our higher selves, activation of all that missing DNA, unplugging from the 3D matrix AND the 4D matrix/karmic cycles too. They are key aspects of the light body shifting process, along with the opening of the crown (and higher up too) chakras.

This solfeggio frequency video I have found helpful the last couple of days is specifically designed to bridge, prepare, and activate these glands. If you find that you are getting MORE head and neck pain while listening to it, then you might stop, however, it could be parts of you that are afraid of the opening out process too. Bring love to any inner resistance that comes up. This is the video: https://youtu.be/2nazfkojMK0

We are all chatting in the SoulFullHeart Community about various body preparations we are experiencing as we go into Saturday’s portal opening of 11/11. We all live in the same building, yet different suites with Raphael and I in one; Raianna in hers, and Kalayna and Gabriel sharing one together. We see each other quite a bit obviously, usually at least once a day, yet often our main communication is through google hangouts. The messages are flying this morning around various body experiences we are having.

I feel SO blessed to be able to have these kinds of conversations with those in close community with me and resonance. I realize that many people do not have this kind of soul resonance around them, although many are finding it and drawing it through online connections. You are SO welcome to share in the comments below what you are experiencing of physical, emotional, chakral, Metasoul/other lifetimes, body adjustments, experiences, reactions as we move into the 11/11 portal. I am also happy to respond to any questions that you have around this process too and esp. how our SoulFullHeart process relates to it and parts work if you are interested in that.

MUCH love to you as we UPgrade the vessel of flesh that has been functioning on an outdating operating system for too long. The REBOOT of the body (and the emotional, and ALL the bodies) is a sacred process that does directly connect to the further ascension of us all into 5D sacred humanity and galactic human grounded in emotional maturity and health too!! ❤ ❤

Join all of us for a group call on 11/11 at 11:11am CST….we’ll be offering teachings and a guided meditation, plus time for individual sharings. The guided meditation will offer an integration of the 3D energies/shadow that are purging out with the activation energies that are coming in through the higher ascension chakras. To join us for a $11 min. donation, go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Energy Update: Ongoing Body Preparation And Star BEing Experience/Connection To Receive 11/11 UPgrades

Published on November 8, 2017November 9, 2017 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

We are in process still ‘being prepared’ to receive on a galactic level, to let in the UPgrades/downloads coming through even now, yet especially on the ‘marker’ of this Saturday 11/11. This being prepared feels like it is happening BEyond what can really tracked by our minds. This portal is about bringing MORE of our higher timeline self energies INTO our bodies. The main ground of preparation is of the body itself, as it is the densest expression of our BEing.

To help with the preparation of the body to receive these downloads, I’ve been guided to eat ‘very lightly’, as if I was recovering from the stomach flu and just didn’t want to digest anything heavy or dense. Fruit smoothies have been the best and maybe very light vegetable soups. The lighter your body is when it comes to food digestion (with less moving through), the MORE you can let in of the light frequencies coming in. Food digestion takes up much energy, expends it, so having less of that to do right now is helpful. Preparation also may involve some continuing purification and detoxifications on the body level.

Headaches, neck and back pain, infections/flus/colds (that feel that way but aren’t actually about bacteria as 3D relates to it,) extreme sleepiness and drowsiness, lightheadedness. You may be feeling some of these and ‘pushing through it’ to do ‘normal’ activities could be pretty challenging and just not possible. Even if you have to take this time ‘off’ from Doing, it will be worth it for what you can potentially connect with and receive in the resting.

This is an aspect of surrender to the process, to trust that something special is going on here, and that you are being held through it with Divine love on ALL levels, even and especially on the physical.

I had a meeting/session this morning with what is feeling more and more like my Metasoul collective…..a gathering of all the aspects of my Metasoul that I have met, connected with, exchanged gifts of healing, cried with, moved energies of karma trauma, found resonance with over the years as we become more unity consciousness WHILE remaining individual soul spark consciousnesses too.

The message I received from these aspects/guides about this phase of preparation prior to 11/11 is to surrender into it; to go within; to ‘journey’ with it and open up to what is available. My Arcturian Metasoul Binkh offered that they are VERY close now to us…not just in Gaia’s orbit as they have been for a long time, yet, also, moving vibrationally closer to us. As we move UP, so they can meet us ‘halfway’. I felt them yesterday when I was sitting by the ocean and it seemed as if a portal opened in the sky. The sun was radiating rays down from its center, emerging out of a cluster of clouds. These rays were intense as seen through my sun glasses, although not as clear in the photo that we took below. The rays offered that we are being connected to in ALL moments, we are being reached for, we are being WANTED by higher frequency BEings all over the multiverses. Certainly the message was that we are NOT alone and never have been.

As our eyes open up more beyond physical sight, we can see these things and certainly we can feel them, as our emotional bodies are more visceral, less run by the 3D mind control stuff. We can feel them with our higher/cosmic heart as it opens up too. As we come to more unity from within…connecting with ALL aspects of our 3D self and our Metasoul too….then, we can feel more this commUNITY connection energy for which we are being invited to embody and remember.

This process is accelerating in this now. Real movement INside and as a collective is occurring. ALL the support you need is available if you ask for it and open UP to receive!!

Raphael Awen and I were guided to offer a group call on 11/11 at 11:11am CST….teachings and a guided meditation, plus time for individual sharings. I’m so glad now that we will be doing this on this day and really look forward to what will move and be offered! To join us for a $11 min. donation, go here:https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647

Energy Update: New Dawn Coming In And Dying To BE Prior To 11/11 Gateway

Published on November 7, 2017November 7, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Wise words offered from a friend on Facebook, Deva Anupada, about what she is experiencing of these ongoing INtense ascension energies: “During last night another huge shift occurred which brought in a deep release of illusions delivered through intense and not so pleasant dreams for those participating. Followed by a new dawn bringing forth new awareness. This really is logging off life (the programme) in order to log on to life again with a new operating system. From a new platform. Like reincarnating without going through the physical death. Dying to BE.”

This could be why I slept 12 hours last night and still felt groggy and floaty when I woke up! Logging off happening in sleep, yes, and also in waking life more and more as timeline realities merge over each other, overlapping realities of Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and also your Star BEing aspects too coming more into your waking consciousness.

Dying to BE….that feels so true to me. Making ROOM for the rebirth means allowing and accepting the purging, clearing, cleansing, releasing that just NEEDS to happen right now. This is happening on levels we haven’t experienced before during our present timeline.

I would add that the death process feels to me that it is of the 3D self versions of us that HAD to be created and formed when we came into the body here. Such density we encountered coming here! Our soul porosity had to fragment into different energies that could cope and adjust to it. Those energies we feel and offer in SoulFullHeart are primarily about protection, control, fitting into gender roles (such as mother or father), etc. These fragmented energies then form our personalities, who we THINK that we are in 3D life until our soul awakenings when we start to discover that our essence is actually so much MORE than these 3D personalities. Our 3D self aspects can be understandably resistant and afraid of the dying and rebirth process as all that they have known of life seems to be collapsing away, being ‘ripped’ away from them.

Connecting with your 3D self aspects directly that are still anchored to 3D reality processing through undigested wounding can allow for more ease, grace, trust, acceptance, integration AS you undergo the ongoing process of ascension. Even if and when MORE shadow and woundings need to come up to be felt, then you have a ways and means to BE with them. Forming a relationship INside to allow for eventual INtegration and navigation of the often very challenging choice points as you unanchor from 3D life and move into 4D transitional death/rebirth and beyond. Much more about our process offered through weekly sessions and group calls on our website if you feel a resonance with what I am offering here.

A new dawn coming in…..The 11:11 gateway opening to activate the receiving of MORE codes and downloads does feel like it is going to be significant. It could serve as a ‘marker’ for many on their awakening process for which they really felt the NEW coming more deeply into their consciousness. The inner prep to receive these codes (such as Iwrote about yesterday) is important to the degree and depth that you can receive them. An aspect of this preparation is BEing with any resistance and fear that comes up from parts of you. This could also be manifesting in crisis, turmoil, intense life events too for which you become more aware of where you are still anchored to 3D life and where you are ready to let go.

Raphael and I are offering a group call on November 11 (this Saturday) at 11:11am CST to BE with these codes through an integration guided meditation, teachings about our process to bridge your 3D self aspects to allow more integration, and space for individual sharings as well. $11 U.S.D min. donation to join us:https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647/

Energy Update: Preparation To Receive 11/11 Upgrades Happening On All Body Levels (Emotional, Physical, Mental, Social, Energetic)

Published on November 6, 2017November 6, 2017 by Jelelle Awen7 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Energies are strong today….thick it feels like and dense somehow. Not in the sense of suppressing anything, just can make you feel way sleepy, low energy, and the ‘here and NOT here’ sense of merging timelines. In this place, you may have little desire to go out, physically, and more want to rest, meditate, feel, and BE. These energies have the feeling of preparing us for the ‘date’ of November 11th, this Saturday, and the extension and expansion of the highest timeline downloads we started receiving on the total eclipse in August.

I was guided to hold a group call with Raphael on 11/11 as a way to connect to these energies, offering a bridge to the emotional body/3D undigested frequencies through our parts work process. To offer a means of integration of these high energies as the emotional body clears and heals…this is what we offer through sessions too and our SoulFullHeart process. I believe the energies will be HIGH on this day, so it should be nourishing to be in a safe, high vibe circle connecting with others in resonance. If you’d like to join us for a $11 min. donation, go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647/

In this preparation place/space to receive more downloads and activations, body sensitivities can be way UP and acute. What you eat and drink may be really impacting you in a new way. Using certain foods to provide comfort may be now intolerable to you and just not ‘working’ for emotional numbing as the body and the emotional come into more vibe together. Effects of caffeine and sugar may be amplified. As you become higher vibrational, the ‘buzz’ of these (when you do use them, even in small amounts) can create altered states….I have experienced this lately for myself.

I’m back to eating mostly fruit again these last few days, lots of water, cutting out sugar/caffeine/flour and much rest after having some toxicity reactions when I ate ‘denser’ foods and from moving out through my body some intense yet so good emotional body/Metasoul movements last week. I’ve already been a vegetarian (almost vegan) for eight years……this would be a good time to transition to going meat-free if you’ve been feeling that as the energies will support it much more. You may even find that you lose your appetite and ability to digest eating animals at this time and are just naturally drawn to fruits and vegetables.

If you’ve been moving through some heavy emotions and integration of shadow (as I’ve been writing about for the last few weeks), then your body may be feeling even more sensitive and clearing out these emotions on a cellular level. The more connected you become in wholeness to ALL of your bodies (physical, mental, emotional, chakral/energetic, social), the more you purge and clear on ALL levels. With our social bodies (personally and collectively) being flushed out by love, you may be experiencing upheavals too in relationships with new choice points based on your soul coming in, as I shared yesterday.

It is ongoingly an INtense and INteresting time of INtegration. Go within when you find the outside is just too overwhelming and dense and especially when you have something INside that wants and needs you attention to feel it.

Much love to you on this INward (and outward) journey! Offering a trust with you and to you in this now that what is coming up needs to be moved in order to prepare, ready, and, eventually, BEcome more love. ❤ ❤

My Magical Experience Of Sacred Union Through The SoulFullHeart Process

Published on November 4, 2017November 4, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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This man….this soul choosing to BE in life with me. As partners in this dance of feeling and healing. As co-creators of a vocation that offers a service of love with others that arises as a genuine passion. As journeyers into the depths of ourselves and all the aspects that live inside of us. As co-integrators of shadows that live in our Metasouls and our counterpart pairings in different timelines: Lemuria, Atlantis, ‘ancient Greece’, Arcturian, and more.

This kind of partnership is not what we have been conditioned to believe about relationships in 3D life. 3D offers us not templates of two souls moving into health in ALL areas of their lives individually AND together…yet rather examples of unhealed and congested wounded places inside of each of them that often clash and burn or cling and bind….. until whatever love they had between them runs out of ground.

More scared unions than sacred unions are these, formed from undifferentiated parts of the 3D self ‘hooking up’ with each other. These hookups can look like two Inner Protectors guarding and ‘fighting’ each other; an Inner Matriarch (wounded masculine in the woman) with the Inner Patriarch (wounded masculine in the man); and many others. We need these reflections in others (that includes all relationships actually, with birth family esp.) until we no longer do in the same way.

The TRUE authentic selves, the higher selves coming into body of each partner may not claim much space on the dance floor of the relationship as it is so rarely safe enough INSIDE to allow for this overflow of genuine expression to come out. Lust then supplements for awhile and karma drama from other lifetimes and timelines, all without much consciousness around it. Duty and obligation can come in there too, along with needs to feel safe and secure.

This can be the experience of polarity and push-pull in 4D relationships. There is this sense of soul mating, of soul resonance, of belonging together in 4D consciousness around relationships. There are moments of genuine connection and even grounded bliss. Moments where two hearts can feel each other. Two bodies can connect with each other. And, yet, there is still the unfelt 3D stuff/wounding that anchors each partner into suffering loops and patterns. It anchors them into moments of fusion with 3D parts of themselves again. They go up and down in this unconscious cycle of push-pull together and the ceiling of good will, respect, and mutuality often crashes down around them eventually.

With Raphael, over our nine years together, I experience that we can navigate the murkier grounds of reactions and triggers together WHILE maintaining a larger container of love and goodness in the process. We don’t avoid what is in shadow or what is difficult. We don’t float in bliss together at all times (although many times we do, especially when we experience deep heart openings that come from moving through something difficult and come out the other side of it with MORE love.) We have been able to show up in relationship with each other this way because we have shown up for ourselves and parts of us in this way. With curiosity, we hold space for the energies that move through us. We feel them as very distinct and even commonly definable parts of ourselves that we have felt in so many others too.

Raphael and I can sit in conflict and tension together, as we did the other day for almost eight hours. Not to suffer in this space or to ‘beat each other up’ emotionally. Yet, rather, because we honor the energies inside and in our Metasouls that NEED this space to express and be relationally with an intimate other person and soul. The trust and love ground that we have between us and inside of us and in the Divine holds the space. We stay in the room together through it, allowing, and BEing with the fears that can live inside about the relationship completing, running out of ground, etc. Yet, we find the next going on place together and the next….AS we are willing and open to let go EVEN AS we are deeply committed to the union.

This IS possible through the parts work process, through the SoulFullHeart way of life and process that we offer and have been very deeply, personally engaged with for ten years. This understanding and feeling space that we create inside with parts of ourselves allows for the transaction together in an increasingly high frequencies of soul, body, heart, and mind AND integration of shadow too.

Someone commented the other day when I shared a joy moment that came after more Metasoul pairing integration with Raphael, ” I love how you’re really doing this – for real!” Yes, we really are and so can you….starting from inside of you, creating an inner sacred union with ALL aspects of yourself…..and this eventually drawing the your mate of soul, body, heart, and mind to be in it WITH you too!

Raphael’s comment on this post: “The challenge that arose between us a few days ago that Jelelle refers to was for me the most challenging yet, encountering a part of myself that has lived in my shadow…, something I don’t think would arise were it not for an intimacy as deep and ‘strange’ as ours. I say strange because the intimacy and magic I have and do experience with Jelelle still feels incomparable to a part of me, incomparable to anything I’ve seen or known or saw portrayed. I’ve tended to feel that strange magic in very private places, feeling also the vulnerability of it ending.

Now the universe is inviting us to self permit ourselves to offer to serve others in leading with what we have in deep transparency, feeling how opaque leaders and murky spiritual offerings are a thing of the past for so many souls now.

And….I’m feeling a ton of relief to be coming out the other side of an intense integration, or to the beginning of an integration in another way…

We are all being invited to a place where our life’s message is ‘I am the real thing, and if I ever feel less than that, I’ll be the first to admit that’.”

We offer a FREE 30 minute introductory session with us to get a sense for how the SoulFullHeart process could apply to you, your life, your desires, your frustrations, the parts inside that want and need you:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This photo was taken during an energy session with Raphael where I acted as midwife in moments, teacher in moments, student in moments, lover in moments, friend in moments….such is the multidimensional way we are with each other..

Energy Update: Revelation, Healing, And Integration Of Shadow Frequencies

Published on November 1, 2017November 1, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

The energies ARE personal. As personal as it gets as you ARE energy. You are a multidimensional, galactic BEing inside of a human form. You are connected to higher dimensional expressions, star BEing aspects of your Metasoul (soul source). You are BEcoming and merging with the consciousness of these star BEings from other timelines, other dimensions, other planets, other galaxies more and more in a process that is MEANT to impact you personally as this happens.

Does it feel sometimes like the ascension energies are outside of you? The gateways and vortexes opening? The stargates activating? The sun flares and geomagnetic storms churning? Does it feel like these things are happening outside of you in a distant, vast, and irrelevant outer space with little impact on your daily reality? If so, this can lead to a sense of distancing from the ascension process and that it is less meaningful on a personal level.

All of these energies swirling around in the cosmos, all this galactic activity, is also represented inside of you. Making it personal, taking it personally, is where I feel the REAL gift of awareness about cosmic energies comes in and goes in. Connecting what is happening ‘out there’ with how it is impacting your emotional body, your process, your experience of experience leads to more self awareness and capacity to digest what is happening. Providing some context and overall picture to hold what you are living out can help with the digestion of the experience.

There is A LOT happening in the now, in the cosmos, that impacts us as a collective and on a personal basis. It is a major phase of transition for us as the shadows, the darkness, the underground and underbelly, are disclosed and exposed. There is no ‘going around’ this process as what has been so polarized during the 3D experiment needs to come back into balance. The only way is by going through it with manifestations of chaos, upheaval, and death and rebirth happening through intense weather patterns and political/social/cultural crises.

Finding our balance again requires the revealing and eventual release of the dark energies that have had so much underground influence on our culture and the formation of our 3D self AND on our Metasoul too. Making this process personal is feeling and BEing with the traumas created from all this polarization to fear-based frequencies. These traumas can remain undigested in your emotional body in your 3D self AND also in your Metasoul through repeating loops of suffering patterns and cycles and karmic binds.

All the photonic light generation activities in the cosmos creates a SAFE container for the revelation and healing of this shadow on a collective and personal level. The HIGH frequencies provide a padded room for the bombs to explode when needed; the fuses to ignite; the storms to roar….until they run out of fear to fuel them. This padded room of pure love and light is also provided to YOU as a shield from these necessary outgasses. You can connect with your safe padded place through meditation, through connection with your Ethereal guides/aspects, through commUNION with the Divine (and the Divine Mother esp.), through service of love, through BEing in relationships that are nourishing, soul resonant, through drawing the support that you need. Through our SoulFullHeart process, we provide a heartline through aprocess for you to explore the aspects of your 3D and 4D selves, your shadow, your Metasoul/other lifetime expressions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

This doesn’t mean that you transcend out of whatever necessary shadow revealing and integrating process that you need to go through. Yet, rather, you have a sense of being held WHILE you are in this exploration. You are not just becoming the shadow or the darkness OR suppressing it either (that is the old way), yet you are holding space FOR the aspects and parts of you that are overly polarized to it. You get to know and connect with these aspects and invite them into the safe, padded room of your HEART and soul, where they can finally feel safe to share, to be felt, and to BEcome something real….and, eventually, then to heal.

As you digest the shadow revelation that is happening ‘out there’ feel how it is impacting you on a personal level. Feel your reactions inside to what comes out. Feel if your ‘safe padded room of love and light’ is available and if you are using it. Feel what support you need to navigate your own process of shadow revelation. Feel the taking of it all personally and what that means for you in a way that also allows you to FEEL held by love during the process. Feel the integration that wants to happen inside of you as the shadow meets the sun of love and finally finds it way home in your heart.

Halloween Message: Responding With Love, Not Fear, To Your Shadow And Spirits

Published on October 31, 2017October 31, 2017 by Jelelle Awen5 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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“It is precisely because we resist the darkness in ourselves that we miss the depths of the loveliness, beauty, brilliance, creativity, and joy that lie at our core.” ~ Thomas Moore

Resisting anything in ourselves just leads to more pain, more resistance, more pushing out of life and not letting it in. Resisting the darkness is understandable when we have been taught in 3D culture to fear that which we don’t understand, that which isn’t socially acceptable, that which may hurt or harm others or ourselves. We have been taught to fear our fear and the fear of others as well. This fearing of fear JUST leads to more fear being generated. This creates a fear fueled energy cloud that rumbles inside of us and through all the strands of the collective emotional body web for fear-based BEings to get more energy from.

On this ‘day’ of Samhain’s and All Saint’s Eve, Halloween, Dia de los Muertos, Diwali…..the shadow is actually acknowledged, recognized, and even celebrated within our cultures. The shadow sides can come out in costume; they can put on masks that are actually more REAL to their frequencies. The darkness can roam a bit without fear suppressing it. Souls that have left their human bodies and passed on can be opened up too and be felt by their loved ones without the fear of ghosts or being haunted blocking the connection.

As we BEcome more of our higher self in our human body, gifts of mediumship naturally arise and become less afraid of the spiritual realm. We see, feel, and hear Ethereal BEings such as Angels, spirit guides, spirit animals, and more. We can connect with our passed BEloveds through our common Metasoul threads and heart cords as none of us really cease from being energized in the Now in SOME form. We can connect to other Metasoul partnerings and playouts with these SAME people, yet in different dances. Maybe, someday, we’ll be able to change or alter timelines to prevent dying and live out in Infinite Awareness with no time together IN a human body that will no longer age or get diseases.

With the veils between dimensions becoming so thin already in this now of intense phototonic light activations, it feels like there IS an opportunity to connect with spirits in a much deeper way today. To lead with your heart and your intention and ask to receive communications, being open to these contacts coming in unexpected ways, and trusting that love wants to see this happen for your own healing AND theirs.

There is also more support to being open as well to how your shadow aspects might be needing you, wanting you. Your shadow often contains sources of power, soul gifts, soul purpose clarities…once the fear and resistance frequencies have been felt, cleared and healed, then these powerful soul gifts can be revealed. More of your power can be revealed and, often, more of your vulnerability as well.

All of this discovery may require negotiation with the part of you that protects and guards your shadow, what we call the Inner Protector in our SoulFullHeart process. The Protector (and also the 4D Soul Guardian) may not feel that you are truly ready to connect with your shadow and embody your soul power expression. They are in a stance of keeping you ‘safe’ rather than allowing you to risk feeling something painful and difficult (even though they will often allow and even contribute to repeating suffering loops inside you).

As your higher self comes into your body and your higher heart opens and expands, you become able to bring love to ALL the fear places inside of you. You can then also bring this love to the fear based energies in others and serve as facilitator to this clearing of fear process in them too. This bringing love to fear then reverberates and expands throughout the entire Universe and the collective emotional body too. Bringing light to the darkness is above all about offering energies of compassion, forgiveness, understanding, and willingness to FEEL what is real.

Becoming a ‘warrior’ or going to battle against darkness just perpetrates the cycles of fear meeting and matching with more fear. This is often just the Protector in another form of ‘light warrior’ that is ultimately based in nonvulnerablity and resistance.

Help parts of you to put down the swords, share with you WHY they are holding them, WHY they are afraid to go into the shadows with you, and you’ll open your heart UP even that much wider, able to experience the love that makes up the essence of it ALL, including your shadow!

Letting In Joy That Comes From INtegration And INtimacy

Published on October 29, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Just feeling much joy in the moment, goodness about my life and where ALL this is headed….even when it is hard, dark, challenging, necessarily painful at times. THIS return to joy, the natural bubbling up of it that especially comes when you have gone in and through something difficult inside of yourself….it creates this sense of trust that it will be worth it to GO IN. To feel. To BE. To connect.

The veils continue to be so thin between other lifetimes that going in is doesn’t even seem optional at this point…esp. for those of us awakening. I have been in that inner process this week with a new Metasoul (‘past life’/other lifetime) aspect of mine from an ‘Ancient Greece’ timeline…that has been quite a bit to navigate at times. Feeling her tears and her fears…and in connection with a Metasoul counterpart from the same timeline of Raphael‘s which he shared about yesterday in his beautifully vulnerable posting about his process. These two Metasoul aspects had angst, power plays, are lovers and yet had little intimacy as they both tend to push it away. None of this feels like it is in the past or actually ‘ancient’ so these energies are strong and influential. As we bridged to them inside of ourselves, we then created a NEW bond between them….including beginning the process of changing a tragic outcome to their timeline.

The presence of these two Metasoul aspects of ours was around as we made love in the early morning, and I could feel them taking in the goodness, pleasure, heart connection, and soul connection that Raphael and I experience together. It is interesting to have Metasoul aspects ‘witness’ in this way, especially during love making, and it def. brings a wonderful, multidimensional frequency, a soul richness to it! And sometimes tears come as soul pain and karmic binds are washed out by love. It feels like such a blessing to have a partner go into these grounds with me, in the flesh, navigating all these dimensional realities and in life too.

The void can be an aspect of this process and may even be a necessary one for you, as I wrote about yesterday……yet, too, inviting self intimacy into your life with genuine joy and loving presence when you are ready then ALLOWS for intimacy to come with others in ways that are so nourishing, intimate, deep, and meaningful. These new textures of intimacy help wash away the trauma and pain from the previously dissatisfying experiences of relationships. Connecting with the parts of you that resist this intimacy, that want to protect you from getting hurt, that guard your heart, I feel is SO important to experiencing this intimate self relationship and with others too….it certainly has been for me and my Beloveds. You can read more about the process we offer around parts work/Metasoul connection and integration here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Raphael and I will be hosting a live stream in about three hours….at 11:11am CST on our SoulFullHeart Facebook Page and You Tube Channel….you can ask us questions in the moment about ascension, spirituality, emotional body healing, parts work, the SoulFullHeart process, 3D/4D/5D selves, sacred union, sacred sexuality, connection with Guides/Metasoul aspects, disclosure. Ask in the moment or you can offer your question here and we’ll respond to it during the livestream, which will probably last about an hour:https://www.facebook.com/soulfullheartwayoflife/?pnref=lhc

We’ll also be hosting a SoulFullHeart group call on November 11 at 11:11am CST (couldn’t resist that lovely repeating number energy) offering teaching, guided meditation, and personal sharings for a $11 min. donation/energy exchange:https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647

WE’d love for you to join us in the joy, the radical realness, the GIFTs and the learning….in the LOVE.

Moving From The Isolation Of The Void Space And Into Being Filled Up With Love

Published on October 28, 2017November 1, 2018 by Jelelle Awen5 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Then, there is the void. It feels like many souls will be in this as consciousness continues to shift and change. Maybe you are in this now or, at least, in moments? The void is the space in between the dips of necessary purgings and clearings and the peaks of feeling connected to Divine love, All That Is, the sense of your Higher Self kNOWingness. The void is the place that is the ‘during’…….the AFTER of the old and yet BEFORE the new has fully come in.

I was reminded of the void yesterday and how deep it can feel and BE. My heart went out with compassion toward the walking out of this phase as I felt it during session space with a beautiful, brave soul who is navigating this ground and asking me to support her to discover what arises on the other side of it. I could feel a resonant experience of it for myself too and for how it feels like the void will become more and more the collective experience too as we move from 3D consciousness to higher.

How lonely this void can feel. How isolating. How crazy making. It can seem to get bigger and bigger, never ending, a chasm that you can’t possibly jump over. It can feel like there will not be something on the other side of it again. Nothing to land in, nothing that will rise up to meet you.

Parts of you may feel so lost in this void. It feels like living in an empty house. It feels like looking in a mirror and seeing NO reflection there. You may feel like you truly have NO IDEA who you are anymore.

This void grows in your life as you awaken, as your soul frequencies rumble through you. As you are vacating the previous 3D life that parts of you, your 3D self, built up so carefully. You are purposely tearing down, pushing away, letting go. Things are slipping/cracking/completing. The previously nourishing relationships running out of ground and feel more and more shallow until they just fade away. These relationships once ‘told’ you who you were and you may find that you can’t locate yourself that way anymore. Another person’s ideas of who you are no longer offer the outlines that they once did.

The void is when compelling careers and jobs (even the spiritually-based ones) are no longer able to be responded to and the new means of livelihood based on soul purpose expression have not been connected to yet. You may be financially ‘broke’ as you break away from money earning energies that don’t fit anymore. No self identify or self image is able to be propped up by the doing or showing up for the role anymore, so there is a drifting confusion about claiming a soul purpose expression. There are moments of feeling that you want to serve and share, yet a persisting lack of clarity about HOW and in what way.

It can feel like the void will last ‘forever’, yet, it is ultimately temporary. As you rewire your entire life, there is a necessary ‘lights out’ phase. If you are truly letting go of what doesn’t serve your soul, love WILL eventually come in to fill the space UP again. Love wants to do this. Love comes in to fill the void in the form of soul family connections that offer a deeper intimacy and realness, a true reSOULnance. Love comes in the form of self intimacy that grows as you embrace what is authentically you and no longer resist ANY aspects of yourself, responding to love all that is within you. Love comes in the form of synchroniticies and opportunities and resonances that you learn to trust, following with less doubt.

Love wants to light you UP again. Love wants to fill the voids. Let it INTO your life again in whatever ways and means it is inviting you to. Trust your opening upper heart to guide you through and out of the lostness. Trust your soul to find the way through. Trust love to show you the way to the NEW where the spaces are filling in, arising into Infinite Possibilities in every moment.

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
We offer through SoulFullHeart a free intro session to experience our process….a heartline to navigate the void, moving through and to the other side of it.

Wounded Masculine And Arising Feminine Energies Coming UP For Healing And Revealing

Published on October 26, 2017October 26, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

There seem to be many themes running in the moment for us to see and BE with as we continue our ascension journey into embodiment of our sacred humanity…not NEW themes, yet more like another cycle around the bend into a deeper level and strata of healing and feeling. One theme is that the wounded masculine frequencies that have formed the foundational energy to fuel our 3D culture are being exposed and disclosed…to be seen, felt, come into the light. They have seemed so powerful, yet, are now running on fumes as the old paradigm structures start to collapse to begin transition into the new. The wounded masculine runs on compensational behaviors to cover over core feelings of unworthiness and core disconnect/separation. It operates on lack of vulnerability and lack of transparency using diversion and distraction strategies. You can feel and see this in the exposure happening now of false kings in the entertainment industry, government, banking, etc. how they are now being dethroned as their wound-based actions toward the feminine are revealed.

It can be tempting to lash out at this wounded masculine as it is exposed….to feel bitter and resentful, to turn on it. Yet, this outward outrage actually stems from inside and only feeds the fires that can hurt and burn. Going within to feel deep compassion for the wounded masculine WITHIN us is a key aspect to moving through this disclosure process with love. To feel how parts of us have felt like both perpetuator AND victim this life and in other lifetimes too. Not going to battle AGAINST these energies, yet seeing and feeling how, underneath it all, they are just seeking and want love. Being open to the recognition that these energies live inside of us and seem to express as our Inner Protector aspects, plus Inner Punisher and Inner Mother/Matriarch or Inner Father/Patriarch can help huge with this holding and response.

After many years of working with different parts of myself and with others, these are the energy tones that I feel most represent the wounded masculine as conditioned and formed into our 3D self. Working with these masculine energies is what allows the feminine to arise in an authentic way, freed finally from the warrior and overly masculine tones that are NOT hers to hold and energize. As the Inner Protector lets go of its stance of protection through inner negotiation, the feminine (in both men and women) can come into BEing as the seed of her expression receives the water of self love and love with Divine Feminine guides/aspects such as Magdalena, Mother Mary, Kuan Yin. Directly connecting with these aspects through journaling, guided meditation, and ‘dropping into ‘their energy during sessions is what we offer through our SoulFullHeart process. And, then we feel and explore this on the 4D level as the wounded masculine expresses in our Metasoul line/other lifetimes and archetypal frequencies too. More information here about our process for navigating this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

There is a deep connection in this collective wounded masculine disclosure process with the dissolving of the 3D matrix created out a fear-based (yet previously necessary for growth) collaboration between us on the soul level and some Reptilians/Archons/Anunnaki. Their wounded masculine-based timeline of dominance and suppression ‘over’ us is collapsing as more of them choose love over fear. The implants and hookups that we previously needed in our soul fields/chakras are loosening or dissolving as this choice point happens. I have written many times about the choice points they are being offered as a species on soulfullheartblog.com….relocation to a beautiful, tropical environment planet as they choose redemption and rehabilitation. It seems to be important to support this process by letting go of fear-based and polarized energies against them…this becomes yet another battle ground otherwise (that actually, again, stems from within). Connecting with your inner Reptilian aspect (which can form another layer of Inner Protector) allows for the flow of compassion and to act as ambassador to their choice points toward love with your support.

If you are in a relationship, you may be feeling the stirrings and churnings of this wounded masculine/arising feminine within your relationship. This can lead to more conflicts, disillusionment, and even desires for completion of even long-term relationships. The gaps in your transactability are revealed as what has been able to be covered over can not be anymore. If you have been awakening and your partner has not, resentment from parts of you may be growing around this and, also, authentic desire for more soul resonance, vulnerability, and to service love together (which is ultimately the reason for being in relationship at the higher soul level.) These frequencies of wounded masculine as they live inside of us and are being moved in the collective also play out in our relationships, impacting how we experience our partners, what parts of us are related with each other, and what we project onto them. Becoming conscious of your own parts allows you to navigate the relationship in a very different way with a new level of consciousness and emotional maturity in responding to your partner.

As the wounded masculine continues to transmute and transform into a higher vibrational frequency of sacred masculinity, the possibilities for balance and union between the masculine and feminine become revealed to us. We discover and BEcome this from within and we can then offer this to a world that desperately needs it as it transitions from polarized and fear-based expressions of gender into NEW expressions of a conscious duality dance based in LOVE.

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