Category: Parts / Subpersonalities

Timelines Merging And Veil Is Thinning So We Can BE With Aspects From Other Lifetimes

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Timelines merging, veil is SO thin, and what has been called ‘past lives’ is NOT past, yet these energies are in the now. There is so much bleed through of other lifetimes that then triggers our emotional body reactivity and ‘hidden’ woundings. It creates a ricochet effect that can be confusing and intense. These eras and legacies and civilizations (Atlantis, Lemuria, Avalon, etc.) are energizing and ALIVE in the now. The mind (and part of you) might want to make them the ‘past’ so that they don’t have as much impact and influence as they actually seem to on your experience of reality and your emotional reactivity and outward manifestation.

Our definition of what is ‘real’ and ‘reality’ is being hugely altered, shifted, and turning upside down from what 3D has said and taught that it is. Our hearts ‘get’ it as they are not linear and they feel every moment as the now….they get stuck sometimes in a moment or scene and need us to help them move beyond it again, to become fluid again…to free up the flow of love, compassion, gratitude, and goodness. Our hearts are what is needed in this now, with so much crazy making (this is a TRUE mind fu*k! reality) realigning of our realities.

Energies of Atlantis are coming in and offering us a storyline to go down that comes alive with our openness to feel and heal it with the aspects of us that are living it out. The ‘fall of Atlantis’ is a wound in our personal and collective consciousness. We are experiencing this in deeply personal ways in our processes in SoulFullHeart, and Raphael and I too in our relationship. There is the Raphael-Jelelle timeline of usness experience and there is the others, the counterpart matings and pair bondings that span planets, species, and timelines. The Atlantis ones seems to be the most intense with themes of sovereignty, separation, power struggles, matriarchy vs. patriarchy playing out. Sorting through what is what through the terrain of the heart with the higher mind helping too (yes, I believe there is a higher vibrational frequency of thought and that the mind is not bad, just can vibrate at different levels of consciousness). This can be a tricky process with self love and compassion AND for other needed to hold the space.

This can feel like a ‘soup’ to navigate yet the process of parts work and metasoul aspects helps in such a huge way. It provides a life line and a heart line too….and a soul line too actually. It is the way we live our lives and what we offer others too, and how we led yesterday during an all day group session with some very touching and important and DEEP process happening for all that were there!

Be open right now to what has previously been labeled as ‘impossible.’ Be open to letting in energies of what you may have felt were not ‘relevant’ or ‘in the past’. Open your heart to all the aspects that need you…..even if (and especially if) they exist in another timeline. As you are open to this and curious, you become more able to ride the waves, experience the gift of them, and integrate it ALL into your wholeness expression.

Read more about parts work process and metasoul aspects here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Activation Of The Higher Heart And Healing The Healer

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By Jelelle Awen

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Heating UP, Amping UP…..I have described these energy influxes we have been experiencing as being like a ‘pressure cooker of LOVE’ turned to its highest setting. This seems to be increasing in the last few weeks and as we head into August, an intense month with a lot of activity on the cosmic level. All these energies are putting the pressure on, in a good way, for you to have realizations, come to choice points, and make changes related to your OWN healing as being the priority of your life in order to serve love. The pressure actually comes from INside, from the soul and higher self frequencies coming into the body and igniting the higher heart. This embodiment process creates a pressure inside, a revelation of what needs to be healed….that leads to the changes on the outside.

Igniting the higher heart, the cosmic heart….this is the GRAND awakening and cutting edge of the ascension process. The higher heart is your healing heart on a personal level that then can connect into the unity heart or collective heart as it becomes more healthy. A very important aspect of this healing of your heart on the personal AND the collective level is through accessing your emotional body. Your emotional body contains so much undigested pain and woundings (often mostly NOT conscious to you yet perhaps hugely expressing in your life), which lowers your overall frequency and esp. lowers your heart beacon or frequency. Your heart frequency allows for intimacy, vulnerability, gratitude, and TRUE compassion for self and for others. The higher it vibrates, the more you can BE these things with yourself and with others and towards the WORLD.

Healing the heart is healing the emotional body, which has been largely ignored in most spiritual practices. Mainstream psychology and psychiatry mostly ‘drug and numb’ or ‘talk and block’ in response to the emotional body woundings and how they express. In SoulFullHeart, we connect with the wounded frequencies as parts of you and offer a deeply compassionate and loving way to BE with these aspects of yourself very directly and with feeling tones, not through the mind. As you respond in love (with the support of your SFH facilitator) to whatever fear is within you and your emotional body, so does it heal and move. This healing happens organically and beautifully over time as your soul self/higher self coming into your body holds space for this process. Parts of you don’t need ‘anti-feeling’ drugs; they don’t need numbing and distractions; they don’t need to analyzed without feeling…..what you most NEED is love and the capacity to BE there for yourself and to feel yourself and be felt by others who have done this parts work too on the heart and soul levels. Go here to read more about parts work, sessions with a SFH facilitator, etc: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I met for a session yesterday with a beautiful soul/facilitant yesterday who has been an energy healer/angelic channel for others for many years. It became very clear to us that while she has offered loving and soothing energies (such beautiful gentle presence!) to others and with animals too, part of her has been blocking her from offering these healing energies TO herself. Everyone else has been the beneficiary of her soul gifts and soul self OTHER than her. We felt together how important it is for her to offer energy healing to herself, meditate and connect with guides and her own parts, and be her own space holder around this every day.

I believe this is very common for healers/teachers and relates to the Inner Protector who is concerned and resistant to you feeling your own pain. It is OK to offer these gifts to others (it brings in money, it feeds a self image as a ‘healer’, it is good work and service), yet to focus on yourself is often a missing gap. You can feel and see signs of this gap if you are struggling to financially provide for yourself through offering your soul gifts, if you are in toxic or push-pull relationships with others, if your physical body suffers from disease or illness….and in many other ways.

These high vibe frequencies are supporting the ‘healing the healer’ phase for those who are stepping into and claiming their purpose to serve love here. The beautiful piece here is that the more self healing that happens through a process like parts work, the MORE pure love you can then offer to others. If that process of self love doesn’t happen, you are actually SHARING your lower vibrational, unfelt and undigested energies and emotions with the people that you are serving! I feel it is a BIG responsibility of ANY healer to go within and do their ‘inner work’ (to me, that would need to include parts work to truly be effective) to continue to qualify to offer healing with others. This especially relates to their emotional maturity and health of their emotional body which, again, has been mostly left out or bypassed in spirituality.

It is a phase of not bypassing anymore what is in need of our love. To recognize and relate with yourself FIRST, offering the love and support to YOU that parts of you have so been aching and craving before. You may even be ‘giving to get’…meaning giving others the love and healing that YOU are so needing actually. The Divine love and light energies are raising your capacities to provide this love and for the primary receiver of it to be YOU.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Beyond Redemption: The Search For Self-Forgiveness

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What if we are never redeemed? What if we are already redeemed?

These are words spoken at the end of the movie Wild that I watched last night, from the book authored by Cheryl Strayed.  They were words that seemed to go into me on a soul level as I have felt redemption being a strong theme in multiple lives.  When I was in my 20s an intuitive woman had said she told me I was living a life of  “redemptive suffering”. It all just made so much sense.  I could turn anything into a suffering loop.  A way to keep me from fully inhabiting the joys of life as if they were not permitted for me to have as much as I longed for them.

Through the process of accessing other Metasoul lives, I have been able to piece together a tapestry of lives seemed to revolve around this theme.  Choices that led to experiences that caused pain to others and taking that on as a personal cross to bear.  Then returning that pain upon myself in order to be redeemed in the eyes of a God that would accept me when the suffering was acceptable enough.  All the while not understanding the God I was asking for forgiveness from was ultimately me.

This idea of redemption and persecution is one that spans so many lives and souls.  It is one that can be a core wound for many.  The root of many of our personal unconscious choices.  A plot arch for many of our current soul playouts.  When we begin to become conscious of our Metasoul wounding do we begin to gain an understanding of who we are and what we would rather choose to be.  That we no longer have to unconsciously fuse to this karmic cycle.  We can connect to a larger story that is infinite in its possibilities.  But first we must feel the tug of the wound from these soul siblings and help to heal them into the largess of our own hearts.

As we start to feel these lives and access the gift they are presenting to us we can begin to see ourselves in a much different light.  We become more Light in fact.  We start to let go of the heavy emotional ties to those lives and hold them with the love of forgiveness they haven’t been able to give themselves.  The redemption was already bought and paid for. We were never “wrong”.  We were, or ARE, a part of a huge experiential learning ground where we lost track of that.  Got lost in the wild so we could find ourselves again with a new and larger vision of what we forgot we were.  The redemption aspects of us have been looking for already exist inside of us.

This may be a big part as to why some continue to stay in life situations that are not fully serving their greatest good.  This unconscious need to be less than in order to cash in on our soul IOUs.  It is becoming time to let go of that old story.  To go into the wilderness of our “history” and forgive ourselves for what has been serving fear and heal it into service of love.  For ourselves and others.  You have access to all of it inside that creative arena called your imagination.  It just needs to be negotiated with the part of you that guards this access.

Through this process a new world will open up to connect the dots you may currently may be unaware of.  The stories and timelines that have yet to be let go.  From there you can begin to unfurl the true gift of your inner Joy that is waiting to be remembered back into your heart and soul, remember where it was you actually came from, and what your true purpose is here on this glorious New Earth.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

You Keep Opening Your Heart

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By Jelelle Awen

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You keep opening your heart. You do because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like, it is breaking in pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, offering, ‘This is me broken up. Will I ever come together again?’ They speak to you of loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually be FREE from it.

You keep BEing with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL. You keep feeling because on the other side of your pain is your joy. None of your rainbows come without your rainy days….You wait out the tearstorms, providing your own umbrella, your own shelter to weather it out as you trust this too shall clear.

You keep trusting the process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning. You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so you do, your previously occupied hands now empty and ready to be held again by love…

You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you. You listen as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here, waiting until you are ready to receive it.”

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Everything You Feel Is Alive

Published on by Raphael Awen5 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you feel is alive.

The ‘negative’ feelings of pain or sorrow, or longing do not ‘negate’ anything. They are part of the truest thing about you.

If anything could be seen as a ‘negating’ energy in your emotional body, it would be the unwillingness to actually feel yourself and what is actually going on for you. Cut off from feeling your needs or having space to feel a loss, you are left disconnected from yourself and all that you are.

This ‘all that you are’ is a true portal into the deep more that you desire. It is also a mystery that cannot be explained or quantified or solved, but instead can be surrendered to, lived into, with curiosity and reverence.

If it is change you desire, would you be willing to feel this desire as deeply as you currently can? Would you tune in the feeling of the despair of not realizing that desire and then see where that leads?

It could be choices that were not apparent before that are steps towards larger choices, along with a strange new courage to act that wasn’t there before. It could be an opened well of self love springing up from the awareness that you get to feel all there is to feel. You get to be fully human in an ever expanding way. It could be the strange and overwhelming experience of seeing a universe of reality in a dandelion’s beauty, courage and super intelligence, only without a drug/hallucination kind of mediated opening.

You get to fall in love with yourself in ways that open you out to wonder and curiosity and love with others.

You get to also have the gift of others curiosity about you as you live into this same curiosity about yourself and each part of your being.

You get to suspend your answers long enough to re-open the very mutual QUESTions and deep vulnerabilities we all share.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Part Of Me Does. Part Of Me Doesn’t

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By Raphael Awen

Part of me does. And part of me doesn’t.

Coming to recognize yourself as a make up of parts as opposed to a single personality is in my opinion and experience the single greatest step to emotional and spiritual consciousness awakening that I know of.

It can be seen and felt how, in our attempt to come across as a single personality, we have suppressed other parts of ourselves who are not at all aligned with our dominant personality presentation to our world around us.

While parts of ourselves can be suppressed, they can never be eliminated from our BEing. Many of us are now feeling the futility of any and all fixes rooted in these kinds of an eradication-of-the-self picture.

Psychology and psychiatry’s attempt has been to label the presence of our subpersonalities as ‘multiple personality disorder’, when we are now coming to see and feel that the real disorder is not the presence of our subpersonalities, but rather the suppression of them into an attempted and highly stressful ‘single personality disorder’.

Your and my difficulty can be traced to this stress of attempting to be a single personality when you in fact are far from it. The ‘you’ who dominates your personality may well see itself as a single personality, and even the only personality ‘at home’, but many of us are seeing beyond these bounds to see and feel that we are more than this dominant personality that has shown up to do our lives for us and as us.

Years ago, in my personal experience with a business coach and his program, I had become quite focused and elated with the results as I had doubled my business income in the year prior. I knew however that I was suppressing another side of myself in order to stay positive and wanted to ask him directly about it, half expecting a quick fix and shallow answer. My question was about how to deal with depression when it appeared threatening the focus and energy. His reply to me was a one sentence question that went into me like a spiritual and emotional surgery that I felt I was in a kind of recovery from for the next 10 days. He simply asked “have you ever considered that a part of you has a very good reason for feeling this way?” These simple words contained a deep and next going-on place in my spiritual journey, that in the next months ahead, naturally resulted in the dismantling of my life as I knew it.

I share with you those same words now. Have you ever considered that a part of you has very good reasons for feeling the ways that it does? …for being attached to the things that it is? …for being resistant to other parts of you? …for being shut down?

If this is true, if this resonates into your being, then I think you can feel it changes everything. All the spiritual practices and self improvement practices that don’t see this model of reality will need to be set aside for new ones that do.

The idea of ‘you’ ‘overcoming’ an ‘unwanted’ ‘addiction’ and ‘getting it behind you’ for instance, is all a picture from the Single Personality Disorder parallel universe you are preparing to leave behind. Now, the concept and feeling tones of instead getting to know the part of you who needs the addiction along with getting to know the part of you wanting to overcome the addiction becomes the new reality.

All of this hinges on an emerging awareness and consciousness of an authentic self, rooted in your higher self who would be willing to relationally get to know all these varied parts of your being, their individual takes on reality with curiosity and love, without therapy agendas. This can be likened to a reparenting experience where we are receiving the water of heart open love that we are meant to flourish in.

It has become popular recently to speak of the need for self-love and even to see that without healthy self love, there can’t be a healthy love for others. But what this picture has not yet offered is a way to transact a love flow with the self because it is still rooted in the single personality picture. Love, just like in valentines, always flows ‘to’ and ‘from’. If we are going to deeply embrace self love, we are going to need a way to get to know and relate with every aspect of our being.

Only now, as we embrace our parts, can we return to the wholeness and essence that we always were and remain, but were forced to let go of in the experience of becoming human.

If these words resonate for you and you’d like to act on a profound next step that you can verify and self validate as you go, I’d like to personally offer you the session space and process of SoulFullHeart. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

I look forward to hearing from you when you are ready.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Redefining Family From The Heart Up

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

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Today is the day that my daughter, Shai, comes to join us in SoulFullHeart community.  It is almost surreal, to be honest, even though she was here in February and we have been in contact quite a bit.  It is surreal because it will be her coming in her full authority and self-choice to be a part of this healing path and community.  Admittedly, she knows all of us and that makes it an easier choice but this was not always the case.

When we all decided to leave Canada nearly 3 years ago, Shai was firmly planted in her Vancouver world.  She had no desire to join us and go into the healing journey.  She was in a construction phase.  A time to individuate herself from us.  It is actually the way it really needs to be for someone in their late teens.  The difference is that we would not be in contact because the energy of our worlds would be so different and nearly impossible to relate to.  We both needed to go all into our worlds and lives and trust that if we were meant to be in healing and community together we would.  It was a very difficult process to be with as it is so not the norm in terms what is “normal” from our societal and familial conditioning.

My inner Dad had so many concerns and judgments about “leaving her behind”.  All the voices of my personal family and the collective family.  It was a codependency to self-image and also soul legacies of abandoning and being abandoned.  This provided a HUGE growth ground for both us.  She learned to navigate life on her own terms and being with her own challenges.  I got to feel very wounded aspects of myself that would be medicated with care-taking.  I got to feel myself as “not Dad”, but as a man on a journey to self-discovery.

Through our space apart we eventually got back in touch with each other sometime last year, but I couldn’t tell you how.  If we are all meant to be together in a soul family, the hows and whens just seem to arise.  We had touching and tear-laden conversations of reconnection and she began a process with Kalayna as she had been feeling a fairly empty emotional and spiritual life in Canada.  Being raised in SoulFullHeart like she was, makes it hard to really relate to a world that has a hard time feeling its own emotions, and she admitted it was hard for her to feel hers.

She eventually began to feel parts and was opening up a whole new world inside her that was not based on pleasing Mom or Dad, but about her own growth and bigness. Now, there are undoubtedly mom and dad pieces that we will be feeling together, but this is something she is taking on in  her own right.  It is a truly remarkable choice for someone at her age of 22.  She is a leader of a generation, along with Kalayna, and that is such a gift to us and the world.

Now we get to reinvent ourselves as father and adult daughter.  We get to heal the old dynamic to make way for a new more genuine one that is between two souls on a path together.  It is about teacher/student (of which she will be my teacher on many occasions), being mirrors to each other, and being in close intimacy as two human beings in reverence and soul bond.  We get to explore metasoul places together and I get to be a recipient of all her gifts, and she mine.  None of these were possible in the old ground as we were both capped in roles that we placed on each other.

This is a grand experiment as she will be reunited with her birth mother and father in a totally new dimension of experience.  Where does this happen on this planet?  It is so damn compelling and one that I am really excited to see where it leads.  There will be much to feel between us and that is what we are ready for.  Shai represents a new start for the SoulFullHeart community even as it too is all unknown how it will all develop. This is about redefining family from the heart up.   This a template for what could be for all birth families as each individual finds their own way and trusts the bond that exists to bring each back into more authentic heart and soul space if that is what is meant to be.

Much more to come in this new chapter of SoulFullHeart! Stay heart tuned.

If transformative healing and soul family resonates with you, I invite you to check out our website and sessions page to learn more.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

 

Acknowledging, Feeling, Honouring And Healing Our Narcissism To Feel Real Compassion

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There are phases of very necessary self-focus. It’s good to dedicate a lot of time to personal process that has to do with YOU as your number one priority. Some of us don’t do this enough, some of us do it too much, and the balance of giving and taking is somehow very challenging to find and live into. Eventually, these phases of needing to go inward have a healthy sense of self-focus that has more of a balance of where the focus goes and comes from a growing emotional and spiritual maturity as we heal and allow in mirrors that help us map out where to go next. This takes a dedication though and the process of it all has not been shown to most of us before, so there is a lot to discover and rediscover as we go, allowing ourselves to get messy and sometimes trip along the way as the best way to learn.

Within our birth families, many of us have been the ‘black sheep’. Parts of us never felt understood and found ways to rebel. This took an enormous amount of self-care and focus, the best parts of us could conjure at the time, and necessarily so – these self-made nests of bedrooms and cozy family basements became our stages for self-exploration. We needed our forays into writing, artistic explorations, fantasy worlds, and eventually spiritual seeking and finding. We needed these phases of pushing away from the collective, from birth family, maybe even from peers and the church and/or education systems, we were wrapped up in. Parts of us started to refuse to go deeper into it… or decided to go in as deeply as possible, following along with another flavour of rebellion that may have meant following the rules only to one day snap and burn it all away. This took whatever ounces of love we could muster and find in our inner and outer worlds, drawing friendships and romances that were (and are), in the end, reflections of how we ultimately felt (and feel) about ourselves.

In order to push away from what we could feel was very much NOT us, or not what parts of us wanted to be, we had to encase ourselves in some degree of HEALTHY narcissism. This encasement may even have stretched well into our adult years, or, we had parts of us that decided to suddenly flip a switch and go far into the other direction, feeling ourselves as deep empaths that can quite powerfully feel others. Even in this though, is a layer of narcissism. There is a layer here of blaming ‘other’ for how and what you feel. There is a fixation on how ‘you’ are being affected by something or someone or somewhere, without truly feeling how and why others may be affected and that you may or may not have a part to play in this too.

Feeling and realizing this shatters our mirrors held up by our own hand, that only show us our self-made goodness, yet not the deeper, more compassionate goodness within that has true innocence and purity of intention. Our narcissism in our years of needing to rebel, needing to find an ‘us’ that could hold life, needing to navigate a spiritual path that we hope will open out to serving others, has been mostly about us and not actually about serving the world or the people in it. This is HARD to look at and feel. This is probably one of the toughest reflections of ourselves and how we’ve operated in this world to take in. True compassion, in my experience, can’t really come unless we are willing to see this piece inside of our shadows. Feeling all of this also frees us from our victimhood that again parts of us have rightfully needed to hold onto… We cannot truly find our power within unless we are willing to go here.

In terms of our Ascension, it could be that this is one of the biggest pieces for us to look at and heal with deep sobriety and dedication. If there is no interest in doing so, there is something to look at with that too, as it’s natural for our deep knowledge of our goodness to not want to have to go here, yet our ‘goodness’ can be a story that parts of us tell, meanwhile they don’t deeply feel they ARE good, until they have been able to feel the reasons why this is… the reasons why they hold this wounding. There is so much unworthiness within that this process brings us to. There are many layers here and each one brings us closer and closer to our higher hearts, our genuine Christ Consciousness, where we can and do shed tears for others, for the world, and then can bring it back inward in a healthy way too, to digest it all in authentic Divine connection and love, and in genuine soul and heart connection with others too.

Being real about not being able to feel or even care for others in a given moment, actually helps parts of us relax and can bring us almost immediately to a more compassionate place within. It also claims our responsibility and our desire to heal this block to serving and giving love. We have not had adequate modeling of how to truly be compassionate in this world. So much of it has been put on for the sake of self-image, it feels like. This has not been ‘bad’ for us though, we are just entering a phase of being invited deeper into it, to question it and ourselves more, and to really heal what we need to in order to be in LOVE in the truest sense. We already have all of the goodness inside of us that we need so as to truly feel and love this aspect of us that again has served us so well for so many years.

There is so much love on the other side of this mirror. So much love that wants to reach you, to flow to and through you. Love that wants to show itself in all of your relationships, in whatever ways it can. It is a love that is ever-purifying and incredibly deep, if only we can start to let it in and allow it to do its work. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Necessary Moments Of ‘Taking Stock’

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By Jelelle Awen

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The moments of deflation are necessary sometimes, of ‘taking stock’, taking a deep breath..an exhale and an inhale, a pause. Before the next letting in of this NEW life that you are the creator, director, and producer of in the Now. This NEW life with timelines that seem to unfurl with magical connections at an increasingly rapid pace.

There are moments of mourning though, letting go of what you’ve invested in sometimes with all of your heart and soul that just didn’t fit in with the NEW. Things just didn’t ‘work out’ even though you so thought that they would! In these ‘in between’ moments, trust and vision and creativity still LIVE, they’ve just gone dormant to allow digestion of loss to happen, to clear you for letting in more.

The watering of Divine support is still there…supporting you, believing in you, imbibing you…waiting patiently until you are ready to receive and move and serve again.

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These words are a blessed gift from my higher self guides/aspects as this is the exact place I find myself at in the moment after collapses and completions in recent weeks in SoulFullHeart/my life….maybe you will find resonance and some solace in them too!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Discovering What Your Emotional Body Is Trying To Tell You Through Physical Ascension Symptoms

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By Jelelle Awen

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Our body vessels are UPgrading in our every living cell from carbon, the ‘old school’ physical operating system of 3D reality, to crystalline or Christalline (as I like to call it). Crystalline is the ‘new school’ operating system of our light bodies whose fuel cells increasingly ‘run’ on energy. This process of transition from 3D carbon to 4D transitional to 5D light body has been going on for some of us for many years. Yet, also, our emotional bodies have been in an UPgrade process too, going from mostly unconscious or subconscious reality processing to CONSCIOUS feeling and healing of our this life and other lifetime emotional energies to really clear them and complete them.
 
This is new, cutting edge, consciously taking ALL our bodies ‘with us’ into higher vibrational frequencies of consciousness. We know the float out, astral self exploration, near death, being ‘out’ of the body in these moments of intense tunnel of light experiences. But, to remain WITHIN the physical body, which is the densest aspect of our BEing, is quite an undertaking. We’ve signed up for this UPgrade experiment collectively, led by those of us on the leading edge of the process showing the way, lighting the illuminating lanterns along the path for others to follow along.
 
The ‘ascension symptoms’ related to the body are vast and seem to be so unique to each soul, directly connected to what you’ve signed up to heal and feel this life from your Metasoul legacy that became triggered for you by this life experiences. The degree of experience related to body symptoms, I believe, is also connected to the emotional body conscious healing that you have engaged with AND Metasoul/other lifetime aspects conscious integration as well. The more lower vibrational, fear-based ‘stuff’ in your emotional body (which spans from this life to other lifetimes and seems to connect to the collective emotional body as well), the harder your body has to work to clear it from your cellular memory during the UPgrade process.
 
I actually feel that the emotional woundings ARE what is downstream of the body reactions. There IS a process of adjustment and ‘enlightenment’ going on with our physical bodies, yet I feel that many if not all of the ‘ascension symptoms’ can be connected to an emotional body root cause that stems from this life and other lifetime woundings. The body is ‘talking to us’ and pointing out what needs our attention from an emotional body perspective and parts of us express through the physical body with pain and suffering and discomfort to ‘get our attention.’ Any manifestation of pain signifies resistance to love, so I feel that experiencing pain while going through these body UPgrades is actually a sign of fear-based resistance from parts of us that CAN be moved and healed and even abated through conscious connection, negotiation, and love with them.
 
The next time you are experiencing a ‘ascension body symptom’ and would normally just see it that way with the usual way of ‘letting it BE and accept it as part of the ascension process’, feel into this approach instead. Connect with the symptom in a conscious way….let’s say it is ‘ringing in the ears’ as is commonly reported by many souls. Bringing in your most loving, caring, parental energy and opening your heart, write a letter to the body symptom and ask for it to share with you what its pain is about. Or you could connect to it during meditation with creative visualization, seeing yourself in a room filled with white light and the energy of the physical symptom ‘in the room’ with you. Ask it to tell you its ‘story’ and reveal to you the origins and reasons for the pain.
 
You might be QUITE surprised by what comes back to you! It could be access to this life memories stored in your emotional body (which doesn’t orient to linear time at all) that you had ‘forgotten’ about or, really, that part of you had blocked you from remembering (usually the Inner Protector) because it was too painful. It could open up access to a wounding pattern in your Metasoul connected to expression or repression of clairaudience abilities (in this example) and persecution experiences that your Metasoul/other lifetime aspects are experiencing in the NOW (because again there is no linear time, no ‘past lives’.) This exploration could reveal to you an aspect of yourself that needs your ongoing attention and love, such as your Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Protector, etc.
 
The ascension process is meant to push UP these woundings for us to feel, so that we can transmute them with love into higher frequencies. JUST looking at the physical body symptoms as ‘part of the process’ and treating them with remedies at the physical level (even if they are natural ones) actually screens out and blocks out a HUGE resource of information for us about ourselves and our soul legacies too. I also feel that this is why so many people experience looping patterns of body symptoms that can last for days, months, even years……which I’m feeling in this moment you don’t HAVE to experience it this way. Temporary physical discomforts and transitions that you then respond to with perhaps natural remedies and definitely some dietary changes is a self loving response to a process that you are holding as necessary, yet definitely transitory AS you dig deeper to feel and see if there is more going on at the emotional body level that can be cleared.
 
You may have forgotten how to be your own love detective, curiously searching for and finding clues to your own healing and transformation through EVERYTHING that happens within and with you. Looking ‘outside’ to others for resources on what this or that ascension body symptom COULD mean according to them is an example of forgetting your own love detective essence. Curious and compassionate self exploration LED by you allows you to move from victim to the ascension symptoms into self empowered collaborator who is negotiating WITH the physical expression at the emotional body level. You then have a ‘with’ relationship to what is happening to you on all levels, leading with trust that everything you experience is more data about yourself and your soul that ultimately leads to more experience of and service of LOVE. ~

 

Facilitators in our SoulFullHeart process (Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna) can serve you to make this connection inside, helping you to bridge your emotional body WITH your physical and your spiritual, during space holding sessions that offer then HUGE relief and even profound transmutation of previously stuck energies. More information about sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.