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Sacred Union Looks So Good On You!

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By Raphael Awen

A ‘Sacred Union’ can be simply defined as a sacrificing or giving up of your reality to make way for a new and arising reality.

Jelelle and I like to say that we are in a Sacred Union bond, and we feel that this is powerfully true, but there isn’t any spiritual ‘Sacred Union board of governors’ who can certify that this is or isn’t true. What makes it true for us is the sacredness and reverence that we bring to the bond as individuals, that then transacts mutually and opens out a bliss that we only dreamt of previously in our imaginative reach for what we most deeply desired. It is simply, our deepest dreams coming true, and then as that happens, continuing to dream deeper still.

This is the sacred sacrifice…the willingness to feel into your deepest desires and imagination of what your deepest bliss of a Sacred Union could look and feel like…in as many ways as you can imagine. The sacrifice comes into play as you are willing to let go of what you presently have (or don’t have) in favour of this deep inner all-consuming yearning.

Men are more wired (so we’re told) to do this sexually, and for men, that’s as good a place as any to open the imagination. What would heart and mind blowing sex look and feel like to you, and then because there are another 23 hours left in the day, what would being in life and love and that drippy sex glow look like and feel like to you? How willing are you to admit that you really want THAT? How willing are you to be ‘pierced through with your own desire’ and to pursue that… in real life, in real time, with a real woman? Only in that willingness are you willing to sacrifice your present reality to own and enter and alchemize a new one.

As a woman, what would it feel like to be with a man who is so into you, as the woman of his deepest dreams, who fully claims you and your arising life together that nothing comes a close second to the bliss of your Sacred Union bond?

Can you feel how you are the creator here? Sacred Union is not some spiritually attained place that you somehow pop into and suddenly you are hereafter declared enlightened. You ‘enlighten’ your path here one grounded and ever so fulfilling sacred step at a time.

When others look at Jelelle and I with admiration, they may feel a contrast between where they are at and where we are at and see us as having what they want, but this is them projecting their own heart and soul bigness onto us temporarily for safe keeping while they ‘go-in’ to their own heart and soul work to make the choices and feel all there is to feel to take this journey. The exciting thing in all of this is that once you begin that, you are on the Sacred Union path that IS the bliss, even if you are single, regardless of what your ‘attainment’ is or isn’t just yet. The humility and reverence you bring to the opportunity to be in this mutual reverence is what brings the ongoing deepenings.

You’ll have plenty of your own ‘out of this world, and don’t quite know where to file them’ kind of experiences soon enough, along with deepening healing challenges as well to invite you deeper into Sacred Union. You’ll need the conditioning too of these first initial courageous claims of what it is you most deeply want, to be in shape, so to speak, for the next steps. You are entering and choosing the domain of taking the sacred responsibility of manifesting your deepest dreams, knowing this is your sacred calling in the universe.

Can you think of anything more fun than that? Even whatever hell you need to go through to get here pales in comparison. You, in Sacred Union bliss are worth it all!

Sacred Union looks so good in you and on you!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Why Ask Bliss For Anything More?

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By Raphael Awen

We embraced experience.

We embraced the experience of limitation to contrast our infinity; of time and space to contrast with our timelessness; of preference to contrast with our complete and total ambivalence; of awakening to contrast with our very deep and restful sleep.

Why would anyone or thing wish to awaken from the best sleep imaginable? Why ask bliss for something more?

Bliss realized that it was in motion, that it wasn’t static, that it was on a mission, with a purpose of expansion. It wanted to know and experience what it couldn’t know and experience unless it tried through you.

You are this bliss out having a field experiment, with some control limitations and observations going on; all the things that go on in a scientist’s laboratory. What can we come to know that we don’t already know?

We know there is something more, we just don’t know what it is!

You are this more. You are this riddle. You embraced this world of conditioning and ‘limitationing’ to exercise and exorcise your Godhood out into a fuller light of brighter day.

Now that you’ve done all of this; gone to all this trouble, will you follow through to take notes of what you are experiencing? That was the whole point of the experiment; to give yourself to the ‘solving’ of the riddle. If in the process of solving the riddle, you expand the riddle, then you have solved the riddle.

The riddle is that love and life wanted to be seen and noticed, rather than solved. It wanted to be pursued without ever being fully caught.

You get to be in never ending awe and wonder. You get to be in love, ever falling, ever in longing, ever wet with desire and appetite.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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‘New Earth Now’ Energies Inviting Us Home

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

Inside each and every one of us is a need to belong. I don’t feel it is a desire, but a substantial need that comes from the depths of our essential Unity…our inescapable communion with Love Itself, as my metaphysical mentor Raphael Awen would say. We are infinity and eternally in communion with unity at our core. This is the conscious and unconscious draw to tribe, family, and community. We need it because we ARE it.

Even in your most isolated moments, the ones where a part of you could do without ever coming in contact with another living soul (and there is that part at times), that you can feel the ache underneath. It is just that inside of the emotional body there lies a wound. A pain. It can come in the form of rejection, abandonment, or physical trauma. As we go into the healing journey there are this-life wounds that keep the 3D self in a state of guard and defense. Or a part, such as the Protector, could even outwardly seek communal trauma to prove that intimacy with others is not what it is all cracked up to be. The birth family can be a big source of this proof in the pudding.

In the Metasoul, there can be lifetimes of this communal trauma either from human to human, human to God, or archetype to archetype. It is a huge source of existential pain, especially for the aspect of us we call the Gatekeeper. They have been in their own created isolation chambers, and as Gaia continues her upward flight, these walls are thinning and they are beginning to feel the ache of that separation, especially from the Divine. This is another piece to our communal healing.

As we begin to awaken to our Starseed nature, the feeling of separation from our Star Family is a layer that takes on profound significance as a sacred core wound of the need to belong. The wounded Starseed needs to be felt in this abandonment trauma to fully let in the depths of our galactic mission on this planet. It is one that many have inside whether it has been triggered consciously or not. Our relationship to our Star Self is the beginning of a whole new dimension to how we relate to each other as humans. The evolution of our Gaian 5D Self.

Ultimately, the communion begins within from you to you, you to your parts, you to your Metasoul, you to the Divine, you to your Star Family. That sets the ground for relational communion with Other. A sacred union mate, a deep resonant friendship, and profound soul family experience. This is what you came here for. Not to be sitting behind your computer getting your social needs met, but going IN to heal and then going OUT to find more resonance. It doesn’t mean you won’t get hurt, it just means that you will be able to relate to the hurt differently and learn more about yourself to draw those that most see you the way that you truly see yourself. To find those that will water your goodness and challenge you to become more than you ever thought possible.

Welcome to New Earth Now.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Incoming July Energies Support Change Choices & Integration

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

It doesn’t feel like we’re in a phase of much being activated at the moment, though it depends very much on the phase that you find yourself in. If you’ve recently been navigating some significant life changes, you may find that you’re actually in a phase of integrating them… and if you’re trying to figure out your next step at the moment, or taking some sort of action in order to exit one phase and enter another, you may find that you’re being asked to find some stillness amid challenges that are springing up. It feels like whatever side of “change” you’re on right now, whether in the INcubation or INtegration phase of it, you may be feeling the birth canal of the rebirth these energies coming in are inviting you into. And what’s more is that these changes are a direct result of your awakening journey so far… they are all a graduation point, even the difficult ones, and they all want to lead you to your next places on your journey.

You may be starting to realize that parts of you have been over-focused on ‘making change happen’ in one particular area of your life, whether it’s trying to lose some physical weight, moving to a new home, looking for work, or completing/beginning a relationship. This over-focus feels two-fold to me: first, I feel there is an invitation here to feel how the work to ‘make something happen’ is a part trying to force something that perhaps has its own timing and probably out of a fear of missing out on an opportunity or to bring someone or something closer to you in your life for fear of losing them, or losing your next chance, whatever that may mean; and second, I feel too the invitation to begin seeing the bigger picture of the changes, that they connect to all areas of your life and not just one. It’s like trying to work out by only targeting one muscle group when really it’s your whole body that needs your attention and love. Plus, compartmentalizing is probably losing its ground for you in general, so the focus on only one thing/area or even person in your life is something you won’t actually be able to maintain for long as it all wants and needs to connect and integrate together.

It feels like July is a ‘hot’ month for bringing in and settling into changes too. I get a ‘coming and going’ sort of feeling around it. You may be experiencing a push-pull inside of you around change too, as parts of you want it and others don’t, and this polarization becomes harder and harder to ignore. You can choose to feel the parts and the ways in which they’re attached to what you’re taking steps to let go of and the ways they feel about what/who you’re trying to let in too. Your Inner Protector especially will have opinions and observations to offer, as will other parts of you.

As always with the incoming energy waves, there’s much to feel and awaken to within. You’re always invited to find expanded consciousness and a brighter view of the bigger picture of Ascension, the Cosmos, etc, yet this expanded consciousness landing within you is the one that truly lights up your path, your action steps, your stillness needs, and the parts that need your love as you choose, inhabit, and integrate the changes you most need in this Now. The Divine Mother/Feminine and Her many different expressions are here to be with you and hold space with you too as you explore all of these elements of your being… I feel Her honouring all of your choice points and everything you’re feeling or even ‘not’ feeling along the way, while also encouraging you to keep going, flowing, finding ways to BE with all of the challenges and desires, both.

Love to you as you feel all there is to feel on this next stratum of your ever-deepening healing and ever-increasing desire for everything you’ve ever wanted to have or happen in your life. ❤

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We are here to serve you should you feel the need/desire for more support on your journey and a very illuminating 90min (for $55 usd min. donation) session to help you find your next steps for your healing and Ascension journey: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Freedom Comes From….

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By Jelelle Awen
Freedom comes from feeling and BEing beyond self consciousness, self judgement, unworthiness….healing beyond the frequencies and energies that parts of you received from 3D life that created the binds and strains, the limitations and the doubts, the dampenings that these create INside.
 
Freedom comes from being beyond the self made prison of inner criticism…..trying to live up to ideals of perfection creates a constant ‘not good enough’ message from part of you that forms walls and barriers to letting in love with self, with others, and with the Divine.
 
Freedom comes from realizing that YOU hold the key to unlock the prison doors……when you realize that the key is your heart and its capacity for self forgiveness, self compassion, discernment WITH love, humility, and gratitude. NO ONE else can set you free and no one else can actually imprison you either. You are the creator of your prison and you are your liberator too.
 
Freedom comes from the sense of soul coming through…from living a life of purpose connected to serving love WITH others and WITH self. As you let go of self image-based needs for money earning, for material gains, for ‘proving and showing’ anything to anyone…..as you let go of conditionings that teach you ONLY about lack and scarcity…..as you realize that abundance comes from serving love in whatever ways and means YOU are here to do and BE.
 
Feedom comes from this letting go in order to LET IN this soul purpose of serving love and aligning with it in each moment.
 
Freedom comes from feeling the Unity consciousness that connects us all together. Feeling how you were never really separate, even as you sovereignly chose as a soul to experiment with that reality as an “I” here. Your independence day comes as you realize and feel the ways that parts of you may have become OVERLY independent and self reliant. You are moving out of lone wolf, “I need to be alone and do it alone”…. more into commUNITY inside and outside.
 
Freedom comes from BEing the LOVE that you ARE and aligning all of your life to and with love. So, you are free and so, you realize, you always WERE!
 
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Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging sessions with me (for women over 35) or another amazing SoulFullHeart Facilitator to discover your inner freedom! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Rattle And Shake Of Shifting Timelines

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

Just finished with moving into a new place with my beloved Kalayna. There were some ‘obstacles’ along the way that made it bumpy at times. These practical annoyances really can shine a light on what we need to feel as we shift timelines.

When we awaken, we are recognizing the vehicle of one timeline is running out of gas. There is a realization that what we have been in relationship to no longer fits the compartments we have set up for ourselves. This can take the course of years, or hit us square between the shoulder blades in a short compressed moment.

You can either stay within the confines of that worn-out, yet comfortable creation parts of you have so diligently maintained, or you can choose to expand the scope of what life is really wanting you to heal and claim. The choice can be maddening for the parts of you that have clung to the safety and known. A game of emotional, spiritual, and mental table tennis being waged among the inner court of your sanity

To fully shift a timeline it means going through all the areas of the emotive body and feel all the parts that were tucked inside closets and underneath the beds. Letting go of all things that cannot come with you to the new. It means hitting some turbulence along the way because there was so much invested in the old. So much doubt from parts that life could ever be good in the way we had only dreamed of.

It is a rumble and a quake. A rattle and a shake. But it is also an adventure and a renewal. It is an opportunity through chaos. When the difficult parts are moved through with deep feeling and sacred love transmuting, you can begin anew in a larger domain of being. You get to place your acquired strength and gifts into the wide-open spaces of your new digs. One with fewer walls and more real love.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Letting Go To Let In More Love

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By Jelelle Awen

Letting go to let in MORE LOVE. This is what the awakening process calls you to navigate, to surrender to, over and over again. Mourning what is leaving, what feels like it is lost and will not return.

Letting go of that which is no longer a mirror of you, yet is more like an echo of a former version. What was once an important mirror of something inside of you and no longer is, loses its draw and its appeal…you just can’t fake or play it anymore, the mask is slipping off if parts of you try to keep up the charade. This ground of pretend, whether in relationships or career or whatever it is – becomes a strain rather than bringing any joy.

Letting go of 3D based motivations of obligation, keeping life safe, playing a ‘role’, fitting in…and letting in 4D and higher senses of serving love, living into the unknown, arising into your authentic self. Feeling your sense of self relating to ALL that is in your life coming from and interacting with your authentic essence rather than from role playing or personas. Coming from serving love in collaboration with others rather than from competition, envy, hurt, rage, and undigested traumas.

More and more moments you are in this authenticity…..you are this, and, so, you draw others to mirror this back to you as they are this too.

Let go of what isn’t you anymore in order to let in more of this reflection of and experience of yourself as the LOVE you actually ARE. ~

Jelelle Awen

Offering 1:1 powerful, illuminating bridging sessions with me (for women over 35) and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators to digest your journey and bridge to the revealing of the love you ARE. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Photo is by Shadowelve – Deviantart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Rebooting From ‘Spiritual Burnout’ To Find Your Own Truth

Published on by Kasha Rosa4 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Feeling done, burnt out, saturated with information, ‘truths’, knowledge, read-outs from others… does this feel familiar? Does part of you feel sometimes like they want to ‘chuck Ascension out the window’ along with your own healing path, or maybe at least take a very conscious break from it?

Maybe you’ve holed up in front of Netflix recently with a bucket of gummy bears or a liter of ice cream, watching something that parts of your more ‘spiritual’ connections (in your life or virtual life) would judge as being ‘unsacred’, ‘vapid’, ‘non-essential to awakening’.

That feeling of, ‘I don’t want to do this anymore’ is just as sacred, meaningful and alchemical as picking up another book, following another blog, taking in another video on Ascension, expanding your consciousness, healing your wounds. Sometimes you have to pull out of what’s been surrounding and saturating you in order to regroup and recharge, and also find what ‘truths’ out there most resonate with your own. Maybe you’re actually not supposed to resonate with what’s out there, at least not right now, because you most need to resonate with what’s IN HERE… in your own heart and soul.

You are a human being with a wealth of experience in this life and beyond. You have so much knocking at your door and there is a clamor going on in the spiritual healing world, with this path pushing another path out the window, internet ‘trolls’ looking to cut someone down who is expressing their own perspective through bitterness they have inside from their own burnout perhaps, and just a ton of information to take in and dessiminate for yourself.

It feels like it’s quite often the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper part/aspect of you that gets the most saturated or even fed-up with the efforts and seeking of other parts of you, the pursuit of your soul purpose, healing, etc. They feel ‘done’ with answers that perhaps don’t deeply resonate or that try and bypass this part of you that is there trying to protect other parts of you and quite often doesn’t deeply trust the space holder, teacher, therapist, or even skilled psychic you’ve been leaning into. Negotiating with this part of you along the way, helps you ground in what you’re being taught or told into your heart and soul in a way that is real for you and not simply just given to you by another.

Ultimately, the spiritual awakening/Ascension path is about rediscovering your own expression of your Divinity, your Divine and sacred truth of your own soul’s path. Seeking for what I have been calling “outside-in” answers like readings or energy sessions without “inside-out” work also going on, like finding your own truth, the truths of your parts, the negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and what they’re actually ready for you to access or not, will cause this burn out experience because the work you’re receiving needs to live INSIDE of you, otherwise you’re not likely to feel truly empowered to make the choices and take the steps you need to take in order to access your next pieces of alignment and feeling truly lit UP by your emerging strength of connection with the Divine within AND outside of you.

Your burn out is an opportunity for a reboot inside. To sacredly take a break if necessary from consciously taking in any offerings or healing paths at all and to simply BE. Feeling is the deepest path to your renewed sense of aliveness, even and especially if the feeling is that parts of you just want to “veg the ‘eff out” for a change!

No matter what… you can trust that your soul is integrating all of the work it has led you to do and inhabit and that it will lead you, in your own sacred/Divine timing, to your next steps for your own healing and your sense of your individual truth, Divinity, and essence of love that you inescapably ARE. ❤

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Still some slots still open for next week if you’d like some support/guidance on your next steps out of your burnout, connecting with your Inner Protector and/or other parts of you, connecting with Metasoul Aspects, or anything that arises if you’d like to connect for a Bridging Session with myself (for women under 35), Jelelle Awen (for women over 35), Raphael Awen, or Gabriel Heartman for men and women: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Reach Out, Ask For You Need, Get Ready To Receive: Affordable, Powerful Sessions

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Bridging SessionBy Jelelle Awen

So much INtensity of energies lately and such BIG quantum leap being asked of us to unanchor from 3D everything and move into our higher timelines as we heal the traumas/karmas in our emotional bodies and Metasouls too! These current energies (esp. connected to the full moon and SOULar activations) so seem to support the feeling and bridging to stuck places, traumas, and soul karma with more ease and grace than ever possible before. I have been experiencing this in the bridging sessions that I’ve been doing in the last couple of months where souls are moving multiple layers and timelines at once through connecting with different parts of themselves in a natural way!

What has previously felt perhaps quite deep and even ‘unreachable’ in some ways (such as sexual abuse) is able to be transmuted through connection with the part of you that experienced the trauma (usually Inner Child/Teenager) and your Protector who ‘tried and failed’ to ‘save’ you from experiencing it. This frees BOTH parts from being stuck in these traumatic places..transmuting shame to innocence, protection to guidance with compassion…..more about parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

As a long time healer/space holder (15 plus years now), I am just continue to be AMAZED by the movements happening at the rate/pace they are recently during sessions.

If you feel ready to dive into some truly unique and powerful heart waters, we have slots open! I offer too galactic activation sessions. More information about both here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

These are precious comments I received recently from some beautiful souls who have been in sessions with me recently:

“It was a beautiful session….thank you very much! Thank you for your thorough follow up email and for your open heart that feels pure in its intention. Since our session, there was definitely a big shift in that I’m not feeling like crying constantly or for long periods with emotional pain.”

“I am having the most incredible insights and healing shifts doing the work we started. Thank your so much for showing me another way through these wounds. I am forever grateful!”

“I was def feeling a little drained after our session! But I think the work is exactly what I need and want. I would like to book 4 more sessions with you because I do feel this is the right path for me to work through a lot of this. Thank you so much for this service!”

A bridging session with me is 75-90 minutes over zoom, one on one, for an affordable rate of $55 USD minimum donation. The bridging session with me is open to women. Raphael Awen and also Gabriel Heartman meet with both with women and men and provide beautiful heart open spaceholding as well through bridging sessions so see/feel who you are drawn to. Kalayna Colibri meets with women 25 years old and younger for bridging and ongoing sessions. Read more about it here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

A galactic activation session with me is 75-90 minutes over zoom, one on one, for an affordable rate of $55 USD minimum donation. The galactic activation session with me is open to women and men. Read more about it here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/galacticsessions

Looking forward to see where the deeper connection path could take US! MUCH love to you from my ever growing and expanding heart to YOURS ~

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Feeling – The Portal Back To Essence

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

We only struggle with attachment to lesser things, because of our loss of familiarity with the greater things that we once knew, but struggle to remember.

Most of us have no conscious recall of those greater things, and those of us who do, must be patient with what feels like a very slow pace to a part of us who just wants to ‘fully remember already!’ Yet, the evidence is plain; only someone who’s suffered loss could attach to and treasure so intensely things that don’t really nourish.

Whether it’s a relationship with friend, mate, or family, or an attachment to a geography, or a house, or a career, we increasingly feel it as a stuck place that wants to relate without the intense attachment if we could only find a way to loosen up.

This kind of tight gripping that doesn’t allow much room for breathing, is further proof that we suffered some loss that polarized us to this over grasping in relationship.

Why can’t we relate with an open heart, willing to let come and willing to let go? Why can’t we long for things and be okay with them coming or not coming, with them coming sooner or later? Why do we need to have it now and why do we need to preserve it from loss or change at all costs?

As I was going about my day, one day this week, I was aware of a sadness in my field. As I lay down to rest and feel into it, I felt a distinct young part of me longing for return to something lost. Tears came from several parts of me inside wanting to open out past some internal barrier of forgetfulness, wanting to see and feel clearly just what is this loss. As I shared with Jelelle later, she offered to hold some space for this part of me, and I was quite surprised by what came next, as some of the deepest tears that I’ve ever known rolled out. I was taken back to my boyhood town and a knowledge that something magical occurred there with starbeing contact, that was then later closed down as I needed to enter a phase of going all into 3D life, Christianity, marriage and family life.

I was able to see again how my later life stages and roles of exemplary and motivated Christian, husband, father, and self employed contractor were all motivated by a subconscious seeking to return to a bliss that was lost. I was able to feel some subconscious motivation even affects all of my relationships to this very day.

This kind of remembering and the digestions that occur in these moments have been happening more and more for me as I awaken. This requires a willingness to feel and go into pain and sadness. The expectation that awakening should be ‘beyond suffering’ or just be bliss all the time is a deterrent to our actual awakening.

I believe all of us have this longing to return to bliss in one form or another, and even in several forms inside of us. As we garner the courage to get in touch with it and the strength to consciously hold such great longing and desire, it is in this ‘relationship with’ that we weren’t able to have before, where some magical strides occur for us in our growth.

We get to be here and we get to feel every feeling there is to feel. We get to feel every part of us holding trauma, whether something so stark as sexual abuse or something so off the radar as this loss of our source bliss from which we came.

Feeling is the tipping point. Feeling is the graduation point that harvests the purpose and intention of why we surrendered to our human experience, as well as why we surrendered to our perceived separation from the divine experience.

It is in feeling the sorrows where we find the direct portals back to our joy, and to our indescribable essence as infinite love.

 
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