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You Are Waking, Waiting, Claiming, BEing, Becoming…During Lion’s Gate And BEyond

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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You are waking…….Stretching new limbs of soul consciousness as your angelic wings unfurl.

You are waiting……..The timing is a Divine calling that your Higher Self whispers and then is singing in your ear.

You are claiming……..What you have made bigger than you, outside of you, is now coming from Within.

You are flying…….The winds of your Being, your BIGness, your Infinity soar you through the skies of life.

You are BEing…….Your essence is shedding layers of expected forms to arise into the essence of Infinite Love that you ARE.

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THIS is the process of the now moment. The Lion/Lioness Codes are supporting this and the downloading, integrating, feeling of them continues in this ‘day’ and beyond. The ways and means of how this happens with your emotional body, with your physical body, with your chakras/energy body, with your social/relationship ‘body’ is ongoing. A LOT can be pushed up in this process if there is more to feel and heal from inside of you.

Trusting the process and BEing with it and the rumbles from within and riding the waves that bring you into the next and the next. BEing with the GRAND openings and then the letting in of all the love that has been downloaded…..and also the shut downs and the frictions that bring up tears and fears.

You are BEcoming sacred human in the now. INjoy the process as it is held in so much love for you and with you and BY you!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Multi-Dimensional Dance Of Soul And Heart Maturation

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by Kalayna Colibri

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It’s an odd dance for me today and lately, of feeling both here and not here, both overwhelmed and as if I am in abundant joy to the point where I want to yell in some sort of orgasmic ecstasy… this push-pull sensation between the unknown and the known. The sort of acquaintance I have had deep in my soul with being a ‘young adult’ and taken care of by many though there was always an ache to be independent of this too. It’s a polarization of wanting to mature, to have my heart grow and open and beacon OUT in the service of love and a tug on the inside that still wants to stay small, stay ‘young’, find a mom and maybe a dad too to take care of all of my major needs. At times this ‘parent’ on the outside has been drawn through a boyfriend or a best friend. Sometimes it has pulled on aspects of my beloveds too, needing challenges that would come from a parent shaping their child, wanting to be guided in all choices instead of seeking the guidance within and getting messy when necessary. I think some of the more chaotic phases of my life have come as a result of this polarization, this feeling of both wanting to BE so much more of who I AM and am becoming, and yet being content on some level to find my smallness again too through circumstances and relationships and even jobs as well.

I’ve had plenty of ‘adulthood’ templates cross my path. Many of which parts of me have rebelled against, wanting to find their own way. At times it has been a relief to feel that someone has been wherever I am at a given moment before and can offer me wisdom from the place of having walked through it. And yet, at other times, the relief has not come as then these moments seem to ‘rob’ a part of me of being able to experience it all on my/her own too. To prove that maybe there IS another way that it can all turn out… inevitably, we all have to walk out our own circumstances in a way that fits with our soul and heart maturity level. This is supposed to shape our destinies in different ways than maybe we’ve ever seen or noticed before. This is daunting and empowering, both.

Some of this is the ‘Indigo dilemma’ it feels like, or at least this is what I feel to call it in the moment. It’s this inner drive to change pretty much everything about how the world works or has worked until now. It often comes out as a desire to set fire to systems and sometimes even leaders themselves… maybe not literally, but I can definitely own that in my shadow there have been moments of wanting to at least spit fireballs at leaders through a few well-chosen words. Even as I write and digest this, I can feel different Metasoul aspects of mine that live in different dimensions and eras but have been a part of some major moments in the world’s history, including wars and also the co-founding of different dimensional mystery schools such as Avalon or at least its early stages… at any rate, this spitfire way of approaching what’s happening and has happened globally feels like it actually comes from a much deeper core wound inside of my Metasoul that I and I’m sure many other Indigos are actually working at this very moment. It’s this feeling of, ‘I have to grow up (‘ascend’) HERE? In THIS place?? Where no one really listens to each other, let alone what I have to say?’ It has a bearing on our self-worth, a ring to it that hurts to feel as it hits deeper and deeper. We are feeling collective pain and angst and also our own. All souls everywhere, or at least those awakening now, have seen, felt,  experienced much through their own Metasoul experiences, let alone this life (which can be a loaded cannon for many too, in and of itself). To feel OUTraged is actually quite easy, but to bring it back inward and feel what’s going on at deeper levels of our being, THAT is the challenging part…

I feel that some of this global maturation process is about embracing our multi-dimensionality and our parts too. It is about really looking at ourselves, even and especially when tempted to blame someone or something on the outside of us. Transformation is an inside job, really. It is a course of owning that we aren’t quite ‘there’ yet in terms of being completely healed, feeling humbled enough to drop the self-righteousness and LOOK at what still needs the waters of self-love to be nourished and keep on growing up and opening out. I do feel this up and down feeling of being at times in a rapidly moving elevator heading one direction or another yet mostly UPward, is a necessary crucible for embracing deeper abundance and love. There is a pending expiration date on our smallness, a time when the toddler clothes or teen clothes just don’t fit anymore… it’s a time to keep moving into the more ‘adult’ skins that may feel as if they hang loosely for a while until they are fully grown into my our purifying and growing sacred human hearts. I’m still not quite sure what it means to truly ‘adult’ in this world, in an authentic way for my ‘age’. Yet more and more I can feel what it is not or does not feel to be at least for me and the stage I am at in my process and growth.

Maybe somehow, someday, it just all clicks into place. Maybe it never really does, or at least not for long. I’m okay with the unfolding mystery of that. I’m okay with even feeling this tension of the unknown, as I so trust there is another side to it AND I feel how the Divine doesn’t really know either. I feel in this with you too, you taking this into your own heart and soul, feeling it for yourself perhaps. We are creating all of what we want more of in every moment we choose to do so and in that, we are already inhabiting more and more of who we are truly meant to be and become too!

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

Lion’s Gate: The ‘Roar’ Of Your Intention Comes Alive Now

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by Kalayna Colibri

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When you can set your intention like a beacon love for yourself, and hold that it IS possible though for parts of you it may feel impossible, this is what brings about the changes that you are asking for and holding out for. It is not an accident, that conversation you’re having with another about what you most want deep inside of you. It is a care-filled conjuring of what is right for you, what needs to come to and through you next…

For me, it is about embodying adulthood in a deeper way than I have been able to before, though I have technically been an ‘adult’ for many years now. It is not age that matures you or offers you wisdom, it is your willingness to go inward, to find and feel your heart even when it is in shadows and seems covered in infinite brambles and sharp vines. Your protector has worked hard to keep parts of you in a sort of stasis, to keep you in a level of heart-immaturity and with good reason too… how can a heart, like a beautiful, tropical fruit or flower, ripen or open in conditions where it isn’t being nourished?

I feel like the seed of my truest heart was planted many years ago and transplanted over different phases of seeking and healing. Finding the SoulFullHeart soil has helped me in countless ways, to bring my soul and gifts to fruition and deep awakening. It does feel like this Lion’s Gate portal opening today and all month, is here to help us plant and cultivate, reaping rewards while feeling ourselves and our needs on all levels. It is a maturation process that is ultimately about our Ascension and is also about reconciling who we have been, who we are now and who we most want to be.

Today feels like it could be a day where some feel the need for an outbound ROAR! that comes up from the bowels of everything they’ve long held and no longer wish to. It is the ROAR! of an inner protector that is DONE or wants to be done, it is the ROAR! of your precious inner teenager who has held so many years of rebellion or perhaps an avoidance of rebellion in order to conform and find safety or find ways to buck the system. It is the ROAR! of a deeper awakening on the inside that gets to come outward, finally.

Today also feels like for some it will be a day of a quiet roar inside, of a sweeter inner collapse that means parts of you are ready to be stiller now, to let you in more now, to lay on the soft grass of healing, snuggling with the rest of the inner lions in your Pride. This is the softer ‘roar’ of arrival into a higher place where the battles are done and the much needed rest time can happen… this is the roar of your long awaited healing and maturation process, where you can play more and feel more of your belovedness, though sometimes the roar of boundary setting with others or even with parts of you may still need to happen from this place.

No matter what the blessed ‘roar’ of inner change you are embodying today, it is ALL sacred, and you ARE arriving at a new place in yourself and in your life. Your intentions are ringing clearer and your drive to continue healing and loving is what is setting your sails now for new horizons of self and connection with others.

LOVE to you on this glorioUS day… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Leaving Victimhood To Have All That You Really Want

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

You really can have whatever you want.

In fact, if you are ready to see it, on a profound level, you already do have whatever you want.

I know those may be fighting words for the parts of ourselves so conditioned otherwise, but if you didn’t dial up your present reality, then who did?… and are you prepared to live out your days in conflict with these powerful others arrayed against you and your wishes?

The bigger deal in preventing us from recognizing this is that we haven’t had the emotional operating system to live into this new ground of being where we truly are the creators of our own reality. We’ve simply had too much unworth and shame that hasn’t been felt in our emotional bodies leaving our hearts grounded when our souls are wanting to fly.

I have some very good news to mix in with this sobering and challenging picture, and that is that you already ARE this. You don’t need to ‘get it working in your life’. You only want to change the direction it’s working in. The only hitch is that to do this, you’ll have to find the self love to be able to take full responsibility for your present state.

As you are able to behold the phenomenon that you presently are in your present state, it creates a powerful propulsion to move you to your next desired states of being. That may be in fact the only thing holding you in a perceived stasis is that the stasis and what’s behind it just wants to be felt, like a book that wants to be read or a movie that wants to be seen. You just need to enter your own heart center, your own sacred Holy of Holy’s. Why else would you have dialled it up? This is the emotional body digestion that is likened to the secret anti-gravity device that each of us takes to our personal ‘where no man has gone before’ into the center of our own desired universe.

The victim’s cry of ‘why can’t I have what I most deeply want?’ is in itself a powerful reality creating energy creating the very deeply felt reality of being victimized. We simply are unable to step outside of our creator status, as this too was of our creation.

We can try and pawn it off on God, or try to claim others have created our pain, but each of these attempts are powerful reality-creating realities that hold us until we are ready to create a new one.

Ultimately, there are no higher or lower states, but all are part of of our equally sacred journeys where we are all equal creators, out learning how to relate to the infinite love we are and to find ourselves AS that infinite love’s expression and experience.

What new realities are you wanting to let-in into your life? I know I’ve got plenty on my list!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Your Deepest Joys Include Your Deepest Sorrows

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By Raphael Awen

If part of your definition of awakening does not include feeling how unhappy parts of you actually are, you’re not ready to awaken. You may be working your way there, but you’re not there yet.

You’re ready to go find your next drug high that is about staying asleep to what is while pretending to yourself and others around you that that isn’t so. There’s plenty others still there and so there is company and joint victimhood to be had if that is what your soul is still needing in its chosen learning curve.

The cutting edge of the whole cosmos however is a groaning in birth pang travail for the awakening of true desire, for ongoing deep journey into change and a fuller fullness into the infinite love that we all are. If you can’t come to terms with the risk involved and admitting what you really feel, what you ache for, you are very much still in the spectator seats watching life pass you by. Life at its core is unsatisfied, while it also knows the deepest satisfaction there is. Both are true. They go together and can’t actually be separated.

Your deepest joys include your deepest sorrows. This is the place where you truly come alive, and find the grace to let go of the pretend spiritualities and polite culture that has you in its servitude, to cover for what your heart and soul truly misses.

What would it take to get you to sign up for something more? What QUESTions do you have that if they were truly addressed in your life, would make it so you can no longer say ‘no’? What love and curiosity could you bring to the parts of you who are not on board yet with your readiness and ache to choose something so much more?

I speak these words as much to myself as I speak them to you. They are a waveform vibration of awakening that are offered to stir something loose in you and I, that has been wanting and is now nearing a deeper return to life and divine play. We breathe in, we breathe out.

I’m out to find more of my tribe, and to be me in that tribe. It might sound noble, and actually be noble for that matter, but it’s actually perfectly selfish at the same time! There is no difference actually between what you most deeply want and your greatest gifts to the universe are. It’s time to move that word ‘selfish’ over to the benevolent side of your lexicon.

I know something about you because I know it about myself. I don’t need any special clairvoyance per se to see it. I can see that you have in your awareness a sense of a next step on your truer path before you. It could be a long overdue epic life change that is stinking up your kitchen big time, or it could be something seemingly tiny, but yet a momentous change in your heart and soul’s relationship to life. That step, that choice is your portal to more and when you choose it, you light up the radar panel in the soularium and your tribe hones in on you and you on them.

It’s really that easy…once you do the hard part of finding the willingness to feel all there is to feel inside of you.

You might want to go shopping for a new pair of something because you are about to take a trip, to a new place that you’ve actually been in long waiting for.

It might be a journey into the heart of SoulFullHeart, and to us here. We’ve been building a while now and ‘they’ are coming. And it’s freakin’ exciting, and it will rock your world as you know it to check into really going deeper with us. We have clear intentions and clear boundaries about what that’s about to make it as deep a life giving experience for everyone drawn. Is it you? I’d love to hear from you if it is.

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

You can join us this coming weekend for a group call which is a great way to take in our energies another notch and participate if you want to, listen in if you want to and then see what’s true after that. Details here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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You Are As Perfect As Perfect Can Be

Published on by Raphael Awen5 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

You and I are already perfect.

You may be in hell, but you are perfect in your hell. My perfection isn’t a millimetre taller or shorter than your perfection.

I’m as perfect as perfect can be.

So are you.

What if you and your life are already perfect with a perfection that can’t be added to or taken away from?

Seriously!

Try saying it out loud: “I’m as perfect as perfect as perfect can be….”

This doesn’t mean you don’t have desires to change things about your life, it just means that your life is already perfect, and any changes you make or don’t make can’t affect this perfection.

Kinda changes a whole heap of a lot doesn’t it?

I mean, you can change something if you want to, or leave it the way it is if you prefer that. If any change you make or don’t make can’t add to or take away from the present perfection of your life, then the only valid reason you’re left with to change something or to keep it the same is because you simply wanted to…for the fun of it. Right?

This puts an end to the pretend people-pleasing and pretend God-pleasing agendas we’ve all gotten sidetracked on. Once you know and feel your perfection outside of what you do or don’t do, what you believe or don’t believe, what spiritual practices you maintain or toss out the window; you’re into some pretty intense and wild freedom.

You’re done with all the fretting over what the will of God is or isn’t. Now you’re saddled with really finding out what YOUR will is. Talk about a fearful thing to fall into the hands of your own will, and your own power!

Here, in this freedom, you’re finally free to get acquainted with your responsibility and power for your life as you know it. No one or no thing can add to or take away from your present perfection.

Let’s say it again. It bears repeating. You’re already perfect! You’re just out goddin’ around. You and I are so perfect, that I can finally drop any and all fix-it agendas that I tried to push on myself or project out onto you. We can still help each other, we can still change, but really, only if we want to, and because it’s our truest fun.

This is the Ascension people….! We’re waking up to what we already are and where we already are and that changes everything.

Holy Shit! It’s all as holy as holy can be!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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BEing Real, Riding The Emotional Waves

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By Jelelle Awen

 

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Raphael and I in San Sebastian, Mexico

I was feeling tiredness yesterday and today I am feeling in glow and flow….softer, surrendered, open. This is how the waves of energies seem to impact and invite us to ride our own inner waves of emotional body waters, especially in this now of August 2017 and Lion/Lioness/eclipse frequencies. I was with the tiredness that came from some recent situations (growing pains in the best way as our community grows) plus what was DEEP in the collective Metasoul (and mine too) from those of us choosing to lead in so many different expressions and ways in so many timelines and realities (as so many of you shared about yesterday too in resonance). We need to feel this bone and soul deep tiredness at times, be willing to BE with it because it is REAL and we serve ourselves immensely and the collective in our feeling of it.

It was fascinating to me yesterday that sharing from that tiredness, yet, also offering the ultimate choice of love (as being with that tiredness IS a choice of love), I then received probably the most response I have on any of my facebook posts in terms of the amount and volume of comments, likes, and sharings. I so appreciated the vulnerability in many of the comments and the PURE love and appreciation for me and what I am leading and sharing as well. It was overwhelming to be honest and I did some checking in with my guides and Metasoul aspects for support to hold it, let it in, and respond to it and to take my next steps into leadership….moving into the new for myself and away from experiences of the past with ‘crickets’ in the room and very little response. Because I have engaged in much egoic/false self deconstruction work through parts work process and many death/rebirth phases around offering my gifts, there doesn’t seem to be a self image-based version of me grabbing onto this attention, yet rather I feel a ‘beyond personality’ energy inside of me (the higher self coming into body) that responds to serving love…..AND trailing edges/echos of parts of myself that get kicked up and triggered at times too (although this is not much these days.)

It really struck me again how there is so little permission in our 3D culture to feel, to be real…and this seems to have translated to our spiritual/awakening culture as well, although I do feel there is an increasing waking up to this bypassing of emotional reality and the cost of it. The ultimate cost is in what then doesn’t get to feel the light of your love…..creating a shaky foundation for which MUCH energy is needed to keep it all intact to maintain the appearance of being shiny and bright.

I can only share and teach and lead and BE what is emotionally authentic for me…this has taken MANY years of feeling what is not authentic and the parts of me that create these not real frequencies and why. I cannot pretend to be light, high, and UP if I am not. Or spacious and kind if that is not what parts of me are feeling. That doesn’t mean that I get to kick out or abuse or project at others….I hold myself responsible for my emotional reality and its impact in a very deep way (probably more than most souls can even track and at micro levels after many years of parts work.) I don’t feel this realness disqualifies me from leading or teaching, yet, rather is the new grounds of qualification for leadership in New Earth….realness, vulnerability, self permission, NOT pretending to be strong and brave, NOT being a warrior who ‘toughs it out’ yet rather to be soft, open, and also REAL about what we are feeling when it isn’t soft and open. This New Earth leadership empowers every soul to BEcome a leader of themselves, inside, and most importantly at the emotional body level where there is often the most immaturity and unhealed woundings.

The permission I am offering here is what I feel the Divine is also offering us ALL. For so long parts of us have played in this 3D experiment of pretend and get by, worn our masks, and followed the rules. THIS is what is collapsing now as those of us in heart and soul resonance are rebelling against this control system and fake matrix. The rebellion phases can have a lot of RAGE pushed up in them, outrage and necessary advocacy as parts of you say ‘no’ to so much of what they were served and conditioned in.

Another phase seems to be surrender to the Divine yet still with DEEP commitment and sense of the New Earth vision and to living it out in the Now. Not as a future goal or when some grand event happens where everyone ascends at once….yet rather a commitment to the process of it, to the every moment of it, to the ups and downs, to the highs and lows, to the dark and the light. A commitment to the mess of it and to the beauty of it too…..the bliss mess of it. This commitment, really, is to yourself AND to the collective too and that you’ll stay with the process and ‘in the room’ as it all falls apart and is reborn again.

This commitment is to love and the ongoing service of it…NOT just in the good moments yet, rather, in ALL moments. This is a BIG commitment and I feel how so many of you take it seriously and your own processes first of all. Things ARE shifting, New Earth is here in the now, and our commitment to love is offering us the gifts of experiencing the returns of goodness more and more in our daily lives, as we are meant to.

Thank you for BEing on this journey with me and for your choice and commitment to love. I am HONORED and so appreciative that you are HERE!!!

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
The challenges of this journey of transitioning into New Earth are immense and ‘going it alone’ is an aspect of the old paradigm and lone wolf phase. We are here in SoulFullHeart for support, guidance, community, empowerment, love if you are ready to receive and give:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Raphael Awen and I are hosting one of our heart opening group calls this Saturday to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process:https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Tiredness Feelings As We Choose To Lead Love

Published on by Jelelle Awen10 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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I’ll admit that I feel tired in this moment. I feel tired from this transition into the new for which it seems in moments SO many souls are still in the old. I feel tired from creating bubbles ‘around me’ in so many moments and ways as I try to bring my high vibe frequency to environments and others that block, distract, and resist them. I feel a tiredness from almost 15 years of seeing, being, and feeling reality so differently from mainstream consciousness, especially from the parts perspective which many souls cannot seem to let in or accept even as it offers SO MUCH healing and transformation. I am sharing this tiredness with you in this moment as I imagine you can resonate with this feeling on some level and I do feel it is being pushed UP in those of us in the lead here so that we can feel it and just BE with it.

For those of us who have chosen this transition, time in this now, and especially to lead and show the way through it….. there is an inherent weariness in the momentum it takes, the inner push that still has trust and grace…the ENERGY we need to tap into in order to lead AGAINST so much opposition without going to battle. Rather than pushing against or fighting or contending, it is so NEW to be inviting with love and to be vulnerable in that invitation…..over and over and over again and feeling it land in some hearts and not others….mostly NOT others, yet the numbers are growing slowly it seems.

It is easy to go to battle actually as this we have known as a species and is our comfortable legacy unfortunately of this current timeline. It is easier to go to rage, to tap into the OUTrage in the collective consciousness and push it out at others, compare and contrast to others, put others down, and judge without love too…I feel many doing this, even and especially those in the current lead. Or to go to the mind and to analyze and dismiss or transcend feelings and being vulnerable and just focus on the cosmic aspects of ascension. Ah, yet, it is so understandable and I feel vast compassion for us from the Universe, our higher self, guides/aspects, star BEings as we sort this all through!

Over and over, I’ve received the message from these ‘higher’ sources….. “We are so in awe of you and your species and what you are doing and being right now! This is SO challenging what you are bringing and showing and feeling in the face of so much oppositional energy. There is so much to heal, so much to face, so much to BE with. Your tears and your fears are sacred and precious and we ADMIRE them greatly! Do not feel less than us or compare to us. We are here to inspire you, yes, and serve you to arise. Yet, we are LEARNING from you with great curiosity in our hearts around how you will walk this out. And, we are here always for you when you need us!”

Sharing this message with you in this moment is providing a rush of love inside of me and the tiredness inside and the parts of me that are tired. I feel more rest coming in as I DO feel the support that is there for me and for us all. I feel the trust that lives inside of me from so long being challenged and challenging myself and getting the response of love every time.

I choose love. I choose love in this now. I choose to share and BE even as I am real about what is going for me in my emotional body and soul in the moment. I choose the HONOR of leading myself in this way and for those souls who feel a resonance with this and me, I feel grateful for your coming along on this journey with me. I choose my heart and the healing and feeling of it above all else as its energy is what leads into the unknown and holds the other frequencies that need its attention and care.

I feel the energies that are here to support this choosing of love and have been ramping up for many years, especially in the last months. The choice of love is becoming more visceral, acute, and real for so many more and I feel the possibilities that this opens up every day!

I choose love…..how about you?

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
Join us for a dynamic and heart opening group this saturday where we feel into what it feels like to be in the ascension process and share around that from our hearts: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A ReLOVEution To End Inner Violence And Violence-Based Choices

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by Kalayna Colibri

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“These violent delights have violent ends  

And in their triumph die”

– Romeo and Juliet, ActII, Scene VI

 

Our suffering so often comes from violent choices.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to bury themselves, to bury their pain, covering it up, numbing it out, putting makeup on it, pretending it either doesn’t exist, or in some cases hiding it in plain sight through sabotage of this relationship or that job or through self-harm in the form of addiction of any kind.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to see the world as personally oppressive, racking up reason after reason, building a case for their victimhood, making it inevitable that an intense push-away always becomes necessary and the world feels like ‘us’ against ‘them’. As we assuage the battles within, there ARE times sometimes when we receive violence and abuse or aggression from others and DO need to advocate, to turn away, to all-out walk away from what needs to collapse for the sake of our self-worth and also at times our survival. Sometimes this has a violent playout and fallout. If this situation lasts, there is likely some deeper violence still happening within, because this relationship on the outside represents a battle raging on the inside. It is a climate that your parts have gotten used to… and have not learned how to be or even imagined how to be anything different towards each other.

Violence is chosen when parts of us hold rigidly onto ways of seeing and feeling others. In some cases, parts don’t want to feel others’ perspectives, or, would prefer to feign compassion rather than be in the process that allows them to feel genuine compassion for the first time. This serves as a numbing of the self. It is a focus on keeping the victim inside alive and pushing away the budding King or Queen of heart and soul. It is also violent when we try to press our point of view on another who isn’t ready or doesn’t want to take it in. It is violent too, to use aggressive energy behind our words and point of view. These examples are another way to become numb to the needs of others and the ways in which they need to walk out what they are walking out, without name-calling or unfair readouts. This is a hard thing to avoid doing when we have so much tension inside from us to us and part to part… this does move over time though and is so important to keep feeling as it comes up.

Violence is chosen by choosing to eat foods that are violent to the planet and/or to our bodies. I don’t offer this as a piece to feel shame over, but rather something to just feel into. It does feel important to let this in and to make new choices, feeling the parts of you that have resistance to this along the way, so that they can come with you and not feel as if THEY are experiencing violence against THEM, as this dynamic can happen too…

Violence and revenge in different forms have become a strong underpinning in our cultures worldwide. It is a way to see war as an option, protests as the only means of revolution, and aggressive, ambitious efforts the only way to be ‘successful’.

A reLOVEution can be and IS so different than this… than even those subtle twinges of wanting to fight fire with fire in some way. There is a way that we can stand up for ourselves through boundaries and vulnerability that doesn’t need to result in withholding love in any way. We can find a way to teach ourselves new ways of being in life and in LOVE without committing any sort of violence, suppression or oppression inside.

This is as much an ongoing process for me as it likely is for you too. I have had many years inside of a process of peeling back the layers of inner violence and battles and even recently have felt a Metasoul aspect that still lives in the era of Women’s Suffrage in the UK. Really intense timeline, that one. Talk about fighting fire with fire! She and I have been able to feel that there IS an alternative to these violent means of ‘fighting’… feeling how bringing vulnerability is actually the key to deep inner and outer change. She is still being convinced of the truth of this, as she understandably lives in an intense time and hasn’t really seen this in action, but she is trying and that is enough for me to feel something MORE wanting to come and be inside of me and thus from me to others too. I actually feel her helping me write this piece today… it’s helping her digest her reality and new possibilities that are arising for her and for others.

A new, violence-less horizon is calling, wanting to help us end our personal and collective suffering… how deeply you are able to heed this call is a very personal choice and it feels like any healing of this on any level of your being is a fantastic start!

LOVE to you, fellow reLOVEutionary!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Can’t Steer A Parked Car

Published on by Raphael Awen2 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

The reason your next steps may not feel so clear is that a part of you has been resisting the natural movement, the flow, the direction.

An all too common way parts of us do this is to focus on the ‘impossibility’ of the big step as a way to not take any small steps. Big steps are just a series of small steps.

You can’t steer a parked car and a parked car cannot take you anywhere.

The small steps are crucial to confirming guidance, building trust and being en-couraged to take the next steps. Big movements are always a process, rather than an epic end-of-life-as-you-know-it, mammoth, swallow-you-whole kind of choice that a part of you may be amping it up to be.

If life is in fact facing you with a life or death kind of choice, I venture to say that that is what a part of you has created by resisting the many small choice points along the way. Life never gives you what you cannot bear, but the opposite can sure seem true when we haven’t been paying attention. Parts of us then can play victim to life and change in a seemingly all-too-real reality, hiding the fact we created that reality.

A decision to leave a partner or a marriage shouldn’t be what stops you from beginning to bring your truth, both to yourself and to your mate. Start there and see where that leads. What changes can you embrace in your career while feeling and not denying the desire to leave that career?

Life at its core is about change. Trying to be in life with a resistive relationship with change is like trying to stop the wind. You can resist change, but you only end up resisting yourself and where change wants to take you.

When you don’t change, you become more and more uninteresting to yourself, others and even to life itself too. You are contributing less to the community you are a part of and so naturally you feel less safe and less trusting that life will reciprocate and meet your needs. Your anxiety becomes palpable and obnoxious as you demand that others look after the fallout of your resistance to life, and the dis-ease that you are manifesting around you and in you.

If you are allowing me to speak this straight to you today, I can feel that it is because you really do want to take responsibility to change your relationship to change, and return to actually being in life.

You bring huge air into the room when you do that. You water the souls of everyone around you, which includes all of us, because we are all connected and we are all one as well as individuals at the same time.

Talk about a high spiritual calling, like no other, just living your life, to the fullest!

I felt a need to speak this straight today as I am gathering my own courage again for my next steps, and I so want to be around, up close and personal with this kind of very exciting life giving energy.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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