12/12 Gifts Of Love Flow: Message From Christ/Magdalene Consciousness

 By Kalayna Colibri

It seems there is still such a draw to the strain of the holidays, to the tightness of budgets and the anxiety of gift buying/giving, while underneath all of that is the ache for love, to be seen, to be cherished, to be in your bigness and full-strength light. The struggle around this still begins and ends within, normalizing holiday stress when it really wants to be a time of renewal, especially a renewed relationship to love and what it really is. It’s a time for awakening to the ways in which love has not been flowing in your life and how deeply your heart really wants it to. Love moves mountains and shakes up the foundations of your life as needed to let more of it in. You see, it’s too big for the walls that parts of you have built to try and contain or control it and always wants more room, never settling for less… though settling for less or expecting to have to earn or purchase it may be what you’ve become used to.

Christ/Magdalene consciousness is here in immense waves of love whenever you feel ready to let it in…. and especially on this 12/12 day do I feel it coming and shining brightly for us all, inviting us to feel how parts of all of us have held and related to ‘Christmas’ as a season and holiday in this 3D reality we’re still unanchoring from. The frequencies of Christ/Magdalene consciousness are alive in the music of this holiday, the feeling of being in the room with beloveds who are cherished by your heart AND your soul, the child-like wonder and awe around beautifully decorated Christmas trees. To feel more of these energies for yourself, you can start by actually making any Christmas song about ‘Jesus’ or the ‘Christ’ as being about the Christ being born and reborn within you, the preciousness and epicness of your own being and place in this ascending world. You can picture these energies coming in as an epic light stream of gold and sparkling red, shining brightly with the invitation to be in, with, and held by Love. You may feel this energy with you now, holding you close, inviting you inward to BE with the fear of love that lives inside and to BE with the aches and desires for more too…

When I feel these waves in the moment, these are the messages that come:

“May the unfortunate, sad, angering things that happen to you bring you closer to yourself, not farther away… may they invite you to love yourself more, not less.

May the light of Christ in feminine and masculine energies ignite the Sacred Union inside you, to unite you with Sacred Union outside of you, as you continue the work of letting love IN.

May this time of tightness, fear and anxiety, open out like a flower inside of you, inviting you to feel the fragrance of trust in love as it lives and moves and breathes in your life and the collective story too.

May the beacon of love bring you home… to yourself, to your soul family connections, to your heart and soul mate, to your genuine innocence and child-like desire for more love that has never left you, though it has perhaps been buried for a while.

May the healing of your heart, the support and service of the healing of others’ hearts, and the genuine connection, deep intimacy and growth that comes from all of this, land deeply in the burning fire on the sacred hearth of your desires and sense of the NEW reality that is possible, continually calling you homeward to love, love, love…”

With a bright, warm hug from Christ/Magdalene and the overflow of their ever-present Sacred Union, and from my own heart too, I wish you nothing but love and an ending to any suffering you still hold that says you do not deserve to have it or experience it in the deepest way you’ve maybe never imagined possible… ❤

Happy 12/12 ~ ❤ ❤ ❤ 


Photo by Aaron Burden via unsplash.com


Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Christ/Magdalene Light Streams In To Begin This ‘Christmas Season’

by Kalayna Colibri
Today… today it feels like Christ Consciousness is coming in to be held and to hold us too. It’s the ‘official’ kick-off of the Christmas season here in North America, so there’s that, yet increasingly as we approach 12/12 and perhaps especially with all of the ‘current events’ ongoing, Christ Consciousness is coming through with a palpable Divine Father/Masculine energy.
Today may be a hyper shopping day for some, which promises a gateway to much debt as many choose to invest their energy and resources into making purchases to perhaps try and please the unpleasable, both inside and out. Yet, almost as if to try and help us learn to hold and BE with these emotional highs and lows instead of spending scads of money and emotional energy to placate something, there’s all this warm, golden Christ energy coming through to hold us and remind us that we ARE more than this by birthright and soul-right.
The Divine feels us in this emotionally and spiritually-charged time we call the ‘Christmas Season’ and offers space for parts of us to land and lean more into the glow of the Christ Consciousness light waves coming in what look and feel like golden and red glittering bands of light. This is the Christ/Magdalene love coming in to encourage us to feel all there is to feel and move even more towards a unified inner community as well as resonant soul family/community. There is SO much light streaming in that it can’t help but bring UP what isn’t love inside of you and the ache for MORE of what you most authentically WANT in your heart and soul.
It is a powerful choice to go inward and feel during this time instead of looking outward for quelling what is becoming harder and harder to quell or quiet down inside. To explore the parts of you hurting and reacting during this time, to help them and to be with them as the most important ‘family’ you could ever work to love and hold dear. It is equally powerful to vulnerably reach out for help and to courageously show up to support others in their healing too. This is an aspect of Christ Consciousness that begins, as always, from within… and we are invited as this ‘Christmas season’ (which is really ‘Christ-Consciousness Season’) begins, to truly land in our hearts in a new and renewed way, whatever that means for us in any given moment.
Much love! ❤


Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Invites Us To Feel Our Humanity And Serve Love With It Without Martyrdom, Self-Sacrifice

by Kalayna Colibri

We are learning to serve love, serve our fellow human beings in stride with love, through our humanity. This is why it can feel so hard sometimes to be around each other’s pain, let alone our own pain. So many attempts are made to bandage the wound instead of healing it because the sight of the festering is too much for parts of us to bear and reminds us intensely of our own places we still need to go. It can be a momentous effort to actually stay in the room with ourselves, let alone each other, and to try and offer any amount of love in that context can be so challenging for parts of us that really would rather try and not go there or look here.

There can be no ‘perfect healer’, at least not in human form, as far as I can feel it… we can work to become purer and purer channels of love through continued work on ourselves, in conjunction WITH service of others, which is actually the bigger mirror for us. We can be transparent and vulnerable with each other about where we are still needing to go inside of us, what shadows seem to be peeking up, what we have gone through and are walking out for the sake of our own healing. Perhaps one of the most beautiful things about our humanity IS our messes and our courage, our insurmountable, wonderful courage to just, keep, going.

I think we have been pre-disposed to going to battle, serving ‘god and country’ because we are actually quite wired for service, period, and instinctively know this, feel this, believe this! We are meant to be in the ‘trenches’, yet not in a literal sense… we are being called to the mistaken, old, worn-out battlefields within others to apply medicine of heart and soul balms. Yet we are called to our own inner worn-out battlefields first. Peace cannot begin to move through our world without this, without our efforts to heal our own hearts and not transcend them or ask anybody else to transcend theirs either. Humanity cannot begin to mature beyond this mentality of needing to fight, needing to ‘other’, needing to find opposition in order to find itself, without looking inward on an individual basis first.

The singular agenda for humanity as a whole feels like this piece of remembering that we are of service… and what this even means. What is service without martyrdom, without self-sacrifice, without climbing up onto a soapbox to shout at the obscene and unfair crucibles of the world, without going to war or battles? What does it mean to be human and still serve love from the deepest hearth of our hearts, admitting when parts of us feel fear, shame, sadness, anger, rage and finding the vulnerability in being with that? Sometimes loving others means setting boundaries. Sometimes healing others means allowing, showing them they have the power to heal themselves, with the genuine love and support that comes from authentic soul family/tribe connections and a heart-based connection with the Divine that is not theoretical but felt and experienced.

How to serve other human beings while serving our own selves and our own humanity is an unfolding quest, actually, and an unavoidable one at that. In SoulFullHeart, we offer parts work and this is what works so deeply for us, as everyone, even and perhaps especially the people we serve, are all reflections for us to take in, of where we’ve gone inside of ourselves, what we’ve already cleared and healed, and what we have left to clear and heal, too. Yet we are also always learning more and more what works best for us, who we are meant to serve, and how. I doubt there could be any human healer on this planet who isn’t meant to feel this humility of not always kNOwing what’s best for another soul, for this is what invites us all into deeper collaboration with each other and with the Divine, who is always working through all parties involved in the healing effort, finding, rediscovering and ultimately healing Itself back to wholeness too.

This all makes serving love as a human being a trial at times and rather challenging, yet we keep going into it because we know, we trust, that LOVE is worth it, that everyone on this planet (and beyond!) is worth it… that WE are worth it. We are heading in the direction of love with every feeling space given to ourselves and others, and with every ounce of our vulnerability we bring to ourselves and the world around us. We are goodness, we are Angelic, we are the ones here to move along with Ascension and love along with Ascension. We are of service. We are beacons. We are amazing. And so it IS. ❤



Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.



January Supermoon Amplifying Energies

By Jelelle Awen


Supermoon energies yesterday and continuing into today….wow! Maybe it was the collective ‘hangover’ energy yesterday on New Year’s Day bringing up edges and some irritation….but there was definite amplification of whatever energies were around and coming out. Hangovers can be about more than too much alcohol and for those of us sensitive to energy and who don’t drink…they are usually about taking in frequencies that we are not used to…..lower, denser, more 3D, more dissonant.

This hangover feeling can be felt on the collective level, even if you stayed at home, even if you didn’t engage AT ALL in the 3D ‘celebrations’ of the New Year. As you awaken, you become more and more a receiver of collective frequencies…..as you are meant to receive and transmute them on some level as you expand into Unity Consciousness. Transmuting them happens through the Higher Heart/Christ Consciousness Heart….it is the BEST place to move energies as its capacity for compassion and connection to Unity Consciousness can transform without as much personal blowback (other than what we are meant to see and feel mirrored to us).

Our Higher Heart becomes congested and covered over by unfelt traumas in our emotional bodies from 3D life and also in our Metasoul from karma traumas playing out in other lifetimes/timelines. Covered over by false god loyalties and subsequent disillusions. Covered over by shame, unworthiness, abandonment that live in parts of us until they are connected with directly and felt. Covered over by distrust and disconnect from parts of us that have suffered and still are. Covered over by anchors to 3D life that still settle, shrink, and conform. The Higher Heart becomes uncovered and revealed and healed as we feel the parts of us that hold these woundings…..loving and BEing with them.

It may have been a TALL order yesterday to just BE in your own feeling spaces around the digestion of 2017 completing, growing INtentions and desires around 2018, AND the collective hangover energies too….all of this amplified by the Divine Feminine moon that invites us into feeling. I also felt a surge upward of lower vibrational fear frequencies related to false god-based and abusive leaders in spirituality. The Divine Mother is calling us even deeper into heart discernment about who we trust to temporarily guide and support us on this Ascension journey if we feel that we need that…..Kalayna writes so clearly and beautifully about this here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/2018-energies-invite-disce…/ This flush out of shadow leadership is happening on the governmental and political levels too of course with the collective disclosure process amping UP.

Physical pain may have manifested for you too….especially if you took in lower energy frequencies, toxic stuff, denser foods, conflict or tensions that you are not used to on New Year’s Eve. Pain and tension in the head, neck, and shoulders areas is a place where the collective energies can be ‘stored’ (as they mirror something in your emotional body or soul/auric field) and also can be a sign of drawing fear-based energies and entities. The pain moves with self love, holding space for the process and being open to what it is showing and telling you.

I’ll be sharing much more about Supermoon energies and leading a guided meditation to connect with Divine Feminine frequencies today in my Day Two – Metamorphosis 33 Days Video Series if you’d like to take that in as I will be sharing it on this blog later.

Love and blessing to you in this NEW Earth year of INtention and transition!  


Photo is a ‘supermoon’ full moon rising behind the guard tower on the 17th century San Salvatore Bastion in Pieta, Malta, January 1, 2018. © Darrin Zammit Lupi / Reuter


Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Moon Codes Offer Sacred Feminine & Masculine Activations And Healings

By Jelelle Awen with Magdalena & Christiel


The moon is moving from super full to waning to New in the night sky. Yet, inside of OUR inner skies, the moon codes continue to vibe out frequencies of Divine Feminine softness WITH Divine Masculine activations. Activated softness is VERY interesting to integrate! Are you feeling this too?

The activating (and often intense) upgrades and downloads/messages/information streaming in from the Great Cosmic Sun (Masculine) source are filtered by the feminine Moon, then grounded through Her Gaia expression. She receives these codes from the Masculine and gestates them in Her womb. In this birthing process, they seem to INtegrate more easily and more powerfully, even though it may feel like ‘less’ is going on for you in terms of Ascension symptoms or altered consciousness states. I feel that this feminine INtegration and gestation is a KEY aspect to the Ascension process being experienced by us with less pain and discomfort. This is why rest and space holding for feelings becomes so important.

These energies bring this hum of desire to create, to put together, to put out, and to passion-ate. The New Sacred Masculine does this and IS this with an open heart. This is Christiel Consciousness, the higher vibrational frequency of New Earth, that is also being activated from the collective focus on Christmas and on His energies (in whatever forms, ways, and frequencies that is being engaged with.) The masculine energies inside of us, such as our Inner Protectors, feel more support now for their kingly sides to express. The Inner Protector is invited not to just guard the feminine with overprotectiveness, yet to trust HER power and desires are safe to express and to BE. To become her partner and guide both.

These energies also bring in the hum of need to bake, to BE still, to receive, to feel. The New Sacred Feminine does this and IS this with an open heart. Magdalena Consciousness is the Counterpart Mate to the Christiel energies, even if She is ‘left out’ of so much of religion’s pictures or is distorted by them. Magdalena is the Sacred Bride within us ALL, the Sacred, Passionate Lover too. She also offers healing to the Inner Feminine that lives in parts of us such as our Inner Teenager and Inner Child.

I’m seeing these Christiel-Magdalena Moon energies in rays of Golden pinkish-red. They are showing up in my own personal meditation journeys and check-ins. And also with facilitants/clients when we engage in meditation together at the beginning of sessions to bring in purifying energies, set an intentional healing space, call in Guides and parts, and connect our Heart Chords together. These Golden pinkish-red rays fortify and support the forming of HEALTHY Heart Chords in which to transact love together.

Heart Chords are needed right now to let in and receive ALL that is coming in for us and between us. They remind us of sacred union intimacy frequencies, the WARM side of Unity Consciousness. Unity Consciousness can feel more like a concept held by our mind rather than something we can viscerally touch, feel, and experience. Intimacy is Unity Consciousness experienced by our every living cell, by our orgasms, by our passions, by our Higher Hearts.

Heart Chords can engage when the previous binds and cords with others have been released and let go. This ‘cutting of the cords’ is not just on the energetic level, yet also very important to occur on the emotional body level. This happens when previous hook-up between parts of people have been let go and moved through SELF healing and connection with them. As you connect and heal with your Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father….so, these energies begin to rest in their codependent hooking into others without consciousness. These parts come to YOU as the growing, heart open, compassionate, sensitive parental energy that can HOLD their fears, feel their tears, and allow them to transmute into their true essence. This is the process we support you in during SoulFullHeart sessions and it’s truly magical!soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

With the disclosures of so many shadow frequencies between the masculine and feminine in the collective right now, I feel these SACRED UNION codes are being offered to accelerate the consciousness expansion (which starts in the heart) of the masculine and the softening of the feminine. OUTrage at these sexual abuse revelations is an understandable phase, yet, in its expression, is still coming from wounded masculine. Outrage is the outward expression of an inner rage, truth telling, advocacy, and passions that have been suppressed on the inside from one part to another. Expression of outrage is ultimately a distraction from what is going on from within and has frequencies of powerlessness and victimhood at its roots.

The sacred human feminine heart feels with compassion WHY these actions happened while requiring TRUE remorse from those who have harmed her to be in continuing relationship. She IS healthy boundary setting as she no longer draw abuses and harm and violence from others. She is consciously healing these frequencies as they occur inside of her from one part of her to another. She is feeling how 3D parts of her and some Metasoul Aspects may have been perpetuators too and in what shapes and forms. She is feeling how, on a soul level, she choose to experience all that she does and WHY she would make these choices.

The sacred masculine heart feels with TRUE remorse the impact of his actions and energies on the feminine…both outside and inside of him. He engages in a deep dive inside himself to feel the parts of him that act out in these ways and why. He searches with true passion to find and heal the karmic binds in his Metasoul that perpetuate these abusive cycles. He feels the parts of him that actually feel VERY powerless and unworthy, for which outward, wounded expressions of unwanted sexual advances ultimately come from.

I feel both Christiel and Magdalena very available in this Now for the holding and healing of these wounded gender frequencies and for the transition of them into healthy, into the New. They are offering their hearts in union with yours whenever you would like to connect with them! They are here to bring us into deeper Sacred Union frequencies from within us. To meditate the process of healing our masculine and our feminine in relationship to each other…to then possibly draw our Sacred Union Counterpart Soulmate in response to this self love overflow from within us to be in Unity Consciousness frequencies together!

This is music I’ve been listening to the last two days that seems to help for letting them in:


A big warm invite again to join us for this coming Saturday’s Group Call with Raphael and me, offering a deeper intro into this brave new inner world of sacred masculine and feminine. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524/


Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Codes/Messages Offered By The Christ/Magdalena Super Moon Energies

By Jelelle Awen w/Christiel, Magdalena, and the moon


Woken up at 3:33am today, December 3rd, by the SUPER moon energies beaming and illuminating the night skies. All those threes with the activation of Christ Consciousness energy! I am woken up and already feeling inspiration and words being dictated to me by Metasoul Aspects/Guides. No more sleep for me, then, time to get up and receive, share, serve. Such is the amazing life of a blessed soul scribe with the Divine (which I feel many of us are actually, just perhaps remaining unactivated until the Inner Protector/Gatekeeper is ready).

Yesterday and today have been offering intensifying Ascension energies again. You can feel them picking up speed, momentum in frequency as we move into ‘December’. You can feel the Christ Consciousness energy increasing; his lovely higher heart, sacred masculine frequencies of unification and brotherhood/sisterhood. You can feel Magdalena offering her comPASSIONate sacred feminine energies too. You can feel the trinity frequency of their USness and the activation of sacred unions, the balance of feminine and masculine from within and with a partner. I will be writing more about these energies and what they offer in the days to come feels like.

You may be feeling these energies in increasing sleepiness, drowsiness in the body, that ‘here but NOT here’ sense, skipped time as timelines reboot and reset. Or, in new surges of alertness, less sleep needed, a pouring out of creative energy. Or, maybe phases of both in the same ‘day’! Access and connection with our Galactic/Star BEing Metasoul Aspects (that is fractals from our individuated higher dimensional soul source or you could say, “Higher Self Source’) is more porous, easy, and accessible in this Now. I shared about the process for deepening contact with Star BEings from the inside with healing of the Inner Child and Star Seed in yesterday’s writing.

I was guided in this early morning to gaze at the super moon, to take in the codes/information/messages. You can gaze at/let in the moon too and see what you receive as messages, images, visions. These are the ‘codes’ that are meant then just for you! And, maybe you’ll see/hear/feel collective offerings too. You can also access this moon energy in meditation, which seems to offer extra nourishment and depth of inner connection right now.

The moon codes said to me…….a message for me, for us, for humanity:

You are BECOMING illumination. You are becoming capacity to receive this illumination in and about your life and your purpose of serving love here. You are becoming illumination for others about their purpose here too as you join together, collaborate, and unify to share and serve LOVE!

You are BECOMING disclosure. You are becoming the response to revelations about your soul, your emotional body, and your continuing transformation into your sacred humanity. You are becoming disclosure of that which is fear-based and needs to revealed in the collective shadow and is being invited to be reformed and transformed by LOVE!

You are BECOMING comPASSION. You are becoming the holding of a compassionate response to these illuminations and disclosures, both personally and collectively. You are becoming passion expressing in creativity, in desire, in heart/soul/mind clarities, inspired to feel so much more coming into the light of LOVE!

You are BECOMING sacred humanity. You are becoming the arising of what you’ve been meant to BE as your potential and capacity originating from Divine Source. You are becoming the crystallizing of your body, the awakening of your soul, the INlightenment of your mind, the enlovenment of your heart. You are becoming in this now….ever more….Infinite Love in human form!


I’m already feeling how Raphael and I will be offering teachings and activations around integration of these codes with our emotional bodies during our next monthly Group Call on Saturday, December 9th! More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524??ti=ia


Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Arising From The Ashes: Poem For Easter

By Jelelle Awen with Christ Consciousness/Yeshua/Christiel/Jesus

Man rising from the ashes, energy, aura, power,reincarnation

You are arising from the ashes of your purposefully burnt up life, choosing the match, the heat, the way in which your now feeling false world will burn

You are BEing reborn from that which has been cast off, birthing out from that which is true as the only REAL thing that can remain

You are resurrecting your form out of a dying and collapsing reality, claiming a new way of BEing as your sacred humanity

You are serving love as your greatest purpose, feeling in every moment how you can BE THIS MORE

You are moving beyond fears of an unenLIGHTened soul, accessing your awakening soul’s courage and desire for UNION

You are co-creating a NEW golden earth possibility, feeling in every moment how you can BE THIS NOW

You are opening and healing your higher heart through PURE love, connecting with the energy of your star BEing and angelic origins

You are awakening from the deep sleep of the forgetful soul, remembering the LOVE from which you came and already ARE ~


Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, love ambassador, way-shower, and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.


The Game Of Life Is Rigged In Your Favour


Dissonance is simply resonance’s way of remembering where we came from, and guiding us back to essence.

Stress, anxiety, fear, or any other ‘negative’ state cannot ‘negate’ us out of the overwhelming ocean of resonance in which we live and move and have our being.

This bliss that we are only awaits our conscious acceptance and increasing awareness of it. There is no other journey, but this inward one. You ARE God millions and billions of times over, and over, and over.

Now this, I am well aware, is not most people’s felt reality, as it admittedly has not been mine for many years. It may even stir feelings of anger for some to read such a far-fetched sounding declaration. For others, who sense these words are true, about the deep underlying resonance of all things, they are able to accept the words mentally, but are left longing to feel this as a deeper lived in reality, and in turn create a state of ever deepening bliss, for themselves and their world around them.

Both of these reactions, of either accepting these words, or rejecting them, are testament to the truth of the underlying perfection of all things. War, racism, hatred, and any other ill you can name are also evidence of our deep seated longing, as well as the means, to find our way back to the bliss of our origin, our essence, and to where we are returning. Even our exploration of ‘evil’ is ultimately ever and only a coming to terms with an infinite love that has already won.

Our truest state of grounded fulfillment in this journey is simply reverence, and the stuff that flows from that, like gratitude, kindness (acknowledging that all are ‘kin’), joy, creativity, love. And all of these are more reflections and resonances of where we came from, what we actually are, and what we are also becoming.

The deck is so stacked in our favour that the game of life rides a razor’s edge of losing its legitimacy as a game. Hell, if we’ve already won the game, why set out to play? There’s only one valid and profoundly true answer to that question and it’s this: the only valid reason to play is simply for the fun of it, and for the community of it. Nothing else…(near as I can tell). The universe wants to play, and it wants to play with you.

Now, there are only a few things that the universe set out as essential ‘rules’ to this game. Bear in mind though that the only point to the rules is the preserving the whole point of the fun and the community.

Free will is the one big rule. Nothing can or will be pushed on you. The universe doesn’t offer any unsolicited advice, but yet longs for your inquiry to share what it has and what it knows. In fact, it’s all yours to begin with, only being held in trust until you are ready to claim your heir-ship.

The sovereignty of the individual is another rule (maybe just another way of restating the first rule) of the game. The universe set up this game with the deepest respect that you and I would be subjected to pain and even the loss of our awareness of our true original identity. The only way it could justify doing such a horrid thing was to make us not only reflections of itself, but also literally make-us-itself, at the outset of the journey. We are the divine out feeling anxiety, hatred, fear when we do. It was only in this way that the divine could subject us to such horrid experience of perceived loss. It was only in this way that we would never be earning our way to back to God-hood, but instead only learning and returning our way to our full birthright experience of our God-hood essence.

You are infinite wonder. You are the sacred experience of divinity out journeying and journaling its way through its own capacity and its own polarity for bliss and reverence.

Possibly this is what makes God, God, this incredible capacity for reverence. All that it knows, it knows in and through you. You need no other, for all other is you. Your mind struggles to comprehend, but this in no way excludes you from the knowing. This knowing lives in you as fully as it ever will already, now, present tense. The only thing, and this is the point of the whole game, the whole journey we are on, is your and my awakening to this that already is, and all of that, simply for the fun and the community it.

So what are we left with now? In light of all this that is (which is way more than you and I can begin to digest it seems), how then shall we enter the next moment? What will take us from our present consciousness of perceived lack, exclusion, separation, and return us to the fact of this bliss?

Those questions are the quest! Just asking them and feeling them creates longing. This longing is the propulsion that is necessary to authorize movement and rememberance. This heart open quest is what opens you to all of the guidance, strength, and healing you need.

All that is ever in front of you, regardless of the content, regardless of the time needed, can never be outside of your journey back to source, awakening to the source you already are.


Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Feeling The True Message Of Love Within The Christ-Mas Story

By Raphael Awen


From my heart to yours during this Christmas season…

If there ever was a time that the line from the Christmas song “O Holy Night” seems to apply so deeply, it feels like now.

“Long lay the world in sin and error pining…….”

Many of us are embracing a time with family or friends at Christmas as a way to escape the pain and disconnect that surrounds us on all sides in our world. We deeply know another reality is possible, but collectively, at least, we haven’t found it yet.

And regardless of the bliss you may have found and that you treasure personally, some aspect of it isn’t complete until that realization of bliss or joy rings through every heart in consciousness. And that alignment with life and love itself that you (or what you call you) have found also doesn’t mean it lives in every part of you. Love, by its very nature, wants to find its way into infinite realization into every nook and cranny of our beings, our world, our solar system, and all the ones beyond.

Could this dark night that we are collectively going through somehow be the ‘O holy night’ that we have long pined for?

I’m going to ask you to come with me on a few minutes journey into some words and heart that, if we feel it together, can be a profound awakening of love in the world.

I’m going to show you that the Christmas story is both the most real story and completely made up story at the same time. I know that doesn’t sound possible to our ears, but I assure you, anything less than this realization is part of the ‘Sin and error’ that we’ve been pining in, and what has buried our hope.

Nothing changes a heart like a story can. In one way, what you are is a story who is out seeking a story to understand your story. We seek others who align with our story and our lives and we are changed through others colliding with or resonating with our story. Everything of love and hope and joy and peace that I believe in and live for can rightly be said to be nothing more than a story, albeit a true one.

Because something is a story, doesn’t mean it is anything less than real as real can be. If you ever felt deeply moved from a novel or a movie, it is because the energy of the story resonated with the story of you. You and I are walking stories, seeking interpretation while the climax and plot are still unfolding into unknown infinite possibility.

For a big part of my life, until my forties, I subscribed to the Christ birth story as being a literally true story. I would have said then that this may be called a story, but it’s a factually true story that really happened. That’s the way my consciousness was moved by it and felt it to be real. It brought me genuine tears and love. My feeling-based interaction with the story satisfied any quandary over the opposition from people claiming it wasn’t real. That’s the power of a story…it creates deep feelings and emotions that go way beyond a mental debate of whether it really happened or not.

But I’ve since come to the painful intersection of other stories colliding with my literal-Jesus-Christ-birth Christmas story as offered and sanctioned by the Roman Catholic Church, extending all the way down into present day Christianity. It began some time prior with the eroding conviction that God himself had protected the bible from any human tinkering. I was then introduced to the now very widely known and easy to see reality that prior to the Jesus in a manger story as being literal and unique from 2000 years ago, there were, in fact, many other birth of Christ stories. Okay, but so what, you may say, the devil always tries to counterfeit the real?

Well, these other very pagan Christ birth stories came from several different cultures and religions in times thousands of years prior to the Jesus birth story. Horus, the sun god of Egypt, or Mithras of Mithraisim along with several others (Krishna, Osiris, Dionysus, Adonis, Attis) all come up with stunning similarities. We find (and bear with me, this partial list goes on) that these mythical Christs are also not only born of a virgin, but also on the same date, or the nearby solstice of December 21st, fathered by carpenters, attended by wise men along with bright shining stars and manger births. The Christ child in some of these other stories went on to have 12 disciples, be a saviour, be crucified, and resurrected.

My God, I could hardly believe what I was undeniably seeing. An atheist leaning brother-in-law from my previous marriage had once mentioned the book, (right in the middle of our living room, no less), ‘The Pagan Christ’ by Tom Harpur and back then, the very title was anathema to me and my ex-wife. I was very surprised a few years later to have my world expanded by that very book.

I had to simply shelve the whole thing and seek to find my own way. I still felt a god connection but didn’t want to be around anyone any longer who claimed to have it all figured out. It’s a bit ironic, because from where I sit today, I still, you could say, ‘believe in God,’ but this god/God, itself/herself/himself/source energy field, is the one actually trying to ‘figure it all out’ and it’s doing this through you and I through ongoing infinite discovery and expansion, and with all of us as fragments of it.

So, why then did the literalist Christians of recent fame get the corner on this story and why? The Christ story as it existed in mythology was a powerful story that many ascribed to, but left in its mythological form, it offered the Roman authorities of Jesus’ day no control over the people. For control, a literal story was needed, and one that was rolled out by Roman authorities. It was rolled out in strategically time appropriate/ripe stages long after Jesus’ death.

The man, Jesus, was made into the one true manifestation of the long, and through many channels, prophesied coming Christ. It began with the apostle Paul who had hardly any use or interest in the man Jesus, and complete disdain for his actual followers and sought only to fashion Jesus into this one true literal Christ. It is a lie of truly epic proportions, and interestingly (but this is a story for another time, see ‘The Event That Created Created Christianity’ by Eric Zuesse for more) the evidence for thee event that created this version of Christianity is contained irrefutably in the very writings of Paul in his letter to the Galatians. Long and winding story short– Jesus of Nazareth rolls over agonizingly in his grave that his life and teachings could have been used to construct a lie to keep souls in stumbling darkness.

This is all coming to light in our times now. What we (many of us at least) simply found so hard to see before is now revealed in plain sight. One of the tenets of literal Christianity is that once you accept Jesus as your personal saviour, you’re good to go. Literally. You’re ready for the afterlife, now that you successfully handled the one and only purpose for your supposed single incarnation.

Well, if you really need something to do, you can work on the fruit of the spirit –good works, because that’s a good thing and God likes that. Or, if that all lacks some juice for you, like it did for me, you can get into the power of the Holy Spirit, and seek out deeper manifestations of gods power. I can honestly tell you that within literal Christianity, I have never seen more corruption and shallowness (up close and personal at least) of heart and soul than within the leaders who most strongly push the signs and wonders, Holy Spirit etc. agenda. The power is real, but is being used for the overall agenda of literalist Christianity…, control. God is out to control, using final authority, and we’re just rooting for him. True godliness.

This shadow expression may look alive and well, but is actually falling apart at the seams in our day. It’s been a long time coming.

‘Long lay the world in sin and error pining’ now takes on a different meaning doesn’t it?

What might this all mean to you and I this Christmas?

Literalist Christianity is now being seen as the story that it is, whose time and purpose is now completing, and people all over the world are exiting their role in the story. It was a necessary story, but now a much larger story is sweeping over us that is calling us to a renewed vitality and role.

Who Jesus was and what he advocated for and taught is a far cry from what we are left with in the gospel accounts written many decades after his death, and overlaid writings by the deeply anti-Jesus Pauline writings. Jesus knew the real goods on the divine purpose in the very fabric of the universe itself that calls us to raise our consciousness of love and its desire in the world.

Our Christmas carol goes on:
“Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.”

What is appearing now, in a way it hasn’t before, is a wave of Christ Consciousness that lights up the grand scale of the utter indescribable worth of the individual soul.

You are an actual soul fragment of God. God won’t no more rest with you being tormented in hell for an eternity than it would rest with you being outside of its full love revelation for a millesecond. You are the point of the whole deal. You are the reason for the universe. And you are the saviour of the world.

As long as you see yourself as anything less, you magnify the very purpose of the creation of space and time, which isn’t a bad thing, but there is a higher thing. You and I came here to remember and to awaken and to inhabit deeper and deeper expressions of our God-laden-selves.

This is the ‘yonder breaking new and glorious morning’. It literally knows no bounds, unending rejoicing.

The song goes on:
“Truly He taught us to love one another
His law is love and His gospel is peace
Chains shall He break, for the slave is our brother
And in His name, all oppression shall cease.”

There is only one story that unites all man-kind, along with every other kind, and that is the story of love. Here, that story is told through the lens of the Christ story. It is this story of love that introduces hearts to love itself. The story is the gospel that God is utterly at complete and total peace with ALL. That includes you, me, every part of me, Trump, the devil, all the extra terrestrials and all the angels in between. You and I are this ‘God’ coming to know this ‘God’, and we are already at peace in our highest expression, and are just in process of coming to terms with what we are.

What comes next is the ceasing of all oppression. Much of the oppression in the world is centred around fossil fuel energy, food control and the sick-care industry. There already exists waiting in the wings the technology and ability to deeply address super-abundantly everyone of these ills. (See the movie Thrive on you-tube if you’d like to doubt your doubts on any of that.)

But we actually don’t need to wait to enter our own personal golden-earth or fifth dimensional consciousness for everyone to be on board. It’s here now and very available. In fact, for all of us to go here eventually, the universe needs you to go there first. And the universe won’t actually rest until every last one of us find our way back to our true soul home.

Talk about a high calling.

There isn’t anything that compares.

In fact, every portrayal in every story ever told or depicted throughout all time attempts to get at and under this deep knowing deep in our souls that we have eternity in our hearts and an infinity of love to explore that.

This is the very true story, offered through one lens,…that consumes every other story!

So what’s left?

“Fall on your knees and hear the angel voices!

This is the time of our dear saviour’s birth …”

Noel, Noel, Noel! Rebirth! Rebirth! Rebirth!

Much love to your heart and mine…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Be IN the world, not OF the world…..yet care FOR the world

By Jelelle Awen with Yeshua

Be in the world, not of the world…..yet care for the world. ~

You are in the world, bring your heart with you, feel your surroundings and those who call you into connection. You are in a human body, bring your health to it, feel your embodiment as sacred and the desires that flow from it. You are in a culture, bring your celebration of it, feel how it impacts you and forms you.

You are not of the world, it is not a reflection of that which you are really made and ARE. Participate in the world even while remembering that you are not just it…not your name, your occupation, your body, your income, your home, your history, your culture. Remain with some separation from it so that you can retain the essence of what you ARE as Infinite Love.

You are care for the world, bring your compassion with you, feel the tears of the world and those cries that call you to respond. Serve love as the greatest gift for yourself, others, and with the Divine God in all Its glorious forms, including YOU. Remember to respond to fear with love, not more fear, and you offer a new possibility to each moment. ~

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about awakening and healing sessions with her.