Tag: healing process

Our Beloved Bubbles

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Our consciousness is a bubble. It can be a small one or a massive one. It can be comprised of fear, anxiety, and depression, as well as joy, peace, and knowledge. We can use anything to create a bubble. We need the bubble in order to be in this dimensional frequency. It provides the necessary veil for our growth within Experience. In my opinion, even the most non-dual enlightened or galactically-activated individuals still exist in a bubble. Even The Infinite needs The Finite in order to experience Itself.

Bubbles are both mental and emotional. Our knowledge of what is ‘real’ and ‘true’ continues to shift and evolve. This happens as we continually ask questions such as “what if?” and “why?”. The same holds true for our heart bubbles. Our protective layers that are there for their own reasons and purposes, yet keep us from fully letting in the bliss mess of aliveness and love.

As this Gaian ascension process continues, we reach the boundaries of these bubbles as they are meant to be popped in order to enter the vastness of our new bubbles. New energetic frequencies that can only exist beyond the confines of the old. These moments of experiencing the boundary of our assumptions and comfort are the moments where Love is the one thing we need to lean into so that we can be born into what we signed up to experience and be. The bubble is meant to grow and become more transparent even when it feels so good to be in one sometimes.

I have become acutely aware of my own bubbles in my process that lead to new phases of questions, curiosities, forgiveness, compassion, and action. Feeling the parts and aspects of me that are coming to the surface of my emotional and spiritual reality. It is not about hunting, fixing, or shattering the bubbles, but rather about just continuing to feel where we are being invited to go into so that we are not just suffering or hiding in the world we have created for ourselves.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energies Invite Emergence Into New Timelines, Personally And Collectively

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By Kalayna Colibri

It’s that cocoon-before-the-rebirth time. Another phase of squeeze and move, let go and let in. Feel… always a time to feel and give space for the alchemical feelings emerging, the reactions in parts of you from this life but also existentially too.

Feeling this very personally as well as collectively. I feel my next steps of geographic relocation moving along now, almost at a gallop, and along with this momentum is an inner momentum and inner geographic shift that’s undeniable and real. We are all being invited into bigger things within. And it’s natural and necessary to feel how this expresses in our lives in so many ways too.

How we choose to be with and process (or not process at all) the shifts we are invited into is important. It’s this series of choices that help frame the new picture of this next life phase. How do you want to enter it and what do you want to get out of it?

We’re given these experiences of emerging into new timelines that are sometimes like a ‘slip n’ slide’. You step onto into one choice, only to realize that like rapid fire, you are being given now a series of choices and they all make up the birth canal at hand… the one that’s ultimately leading you into the new and into what you’ve dreamed of having in your life. And you get to fuel each choice with the gasoline of your needs and the fire of your desire.

It’s like each choice helps us illuminate something else that needs us inside of us too. As I personally step into the fire of the collapsing timeline of living here in Mexico and entering another phase (possibly only a few months long) of living in Canada again, I feel the parts of me in anxiety, that loathe feeling stuck in one geography or life frequency and are actually a bit afraid of being stuck in Canada for the long haul, aching instead to experience more of the world. I feel the excitement of the new and the mourning as the old moves out too. I feel this as more of an inner geographic shift mostly actually, where new emotional, spiritual and galactic territory is showing up now for me to navigate and be with as I integrate the gifts of the process of it all. The shifts on the outside of my body and being are minuscule in comparison to making shifts inside… that’s the only place we can ever really experience stuckness or stagnancy in any lasting form. If life isn’t heading where you want it to, there’s always a choice to dig in, into you… and see what’s really going on. This is what really moves mountains.

Collectively, I feel how we are being squeezed into a new trajectory, but with love doing the squeezing. I feel how there is pain, there is anguish, there are battles raging, yet I feel and see how they are all a bi-product of what’s going on within. In some ways, it doesn’t seem to matter how much we tell ourselves this… until the parts and Metasoul aspects of us that have only seen and experiencing battlegrounds and a need to be a warrior start to let in that they DO have the power to shift what they experience and how it lives in them, we will continue to see in the world what we expect to see in the world and experiencing more reasons to keep fighting instead of more reasons to go within and co-create something new.

We get to inhabit this process and watch it play out for us however we choose.

So what will you choose, very personally, as the new waits to emerge with and through YOU?

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

For Jelelle Awen On Her Birthday, With So Much Love And Gratitude

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By Kalayna Colibri

For Jelelle Awen on her birthday…

I had to write you something new this year. I was going to go find the poem I wrote for you before, but because you and I are both in such brand new phases right now, I wanted to write something that reflects our re-arising and reNEWing relationship, while honouring all of our phases together so far over the last few years and all of the challenges we have faced in ourselves and in our bond too.

I am truly, deeply honoured by your powerful presence in my life and the ongoing love and support you ripple out to me in many levels both subtle and obvious.

I have witnessed your growth and healing as you’ve witnessed and helped facilitate my own. I am blessed to call you both “friend” and “teacher” and take neither honour for granted.

It’s not just another trip around the sun

It’s a further dip into the waves of your personal sun

The one that shines brightly

And beacons us all homeward

To our unique heart-homes withIN.

You serve love through the YINspiration

You’ve cultivated,

Worked for,

Planted within your heart and soul bed

Of growth

and dynamic leavings and enterings, both.

You YINspire my own trajectories

And adventures

Inside

And within the love flow between us

Which reflects and informs

All other relationships

I could ever have and do have

In my life and heart today.

You are the continued template

Even as you always give me back to me

And encourage my own uniqueness to shine

And evolve

And grow.

To say I’ve learned a ton from you

Would understate the value

Of everything you’ve led

And continue to lead

With the strength of a lioness

And the softness of a swan.

I love you!!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling & Reconciling The Conflict Within

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Today in the United States a decision will be made whether to approve a nomination to the highest court in the country. This will be a culmination of months of intense energy, especially over the past few weeks. It has come to a crescendo as mass protests, both physically and virtually, have consumed the information waves.

The external reasons for this energy are myriad, but there is one thing that is clear. There is a conflict going on not just in the minds of a population, but a conflict within the heart and soul. The energy that is being projected onto the scene is sourced from our inner world. No one in this drama is a victim to this circumstance. If you feel a burning fire of fear, outrage, or anxiety, those can be living inside from parts/aspects of you that are reacting to something far greater than a nomination.

I hold deep compassion for all the reaction that is out there. I want those reading this to feel what is underneath it. What is the story that is vibrating at the root of it? I had a session with a woman yesterday who could feel a connection to the men in this drama as being a representation of the men in her life. This intense conflict/battle from the inner feminine toward the inner masculine was raging inside. The inner masculine was hiding for fear of its own persecution. There was a void of the masculine within and the feminine felt as it was shadow-boxing. The only place for the inner rage to go was external. That gave it somewhere to land and have expression. By drawing out the inner masculine the reconcilation and healing can happen within.

This inner felt reality can illuminate what is real and what is projected. Yes, there is concern and issue to be had in what is transpiring. But reactivity is not feeling. It is a defense against it actually. Both men and women have something to feel in all of this that lay beyond whatever decision is made as this will linger no matter the result. What truly brings understanding and healing is how we can relate to this inside and get in touch with our own rage, anxiety, punishment, and fear that is happening among the inner parts of us, like a pinball game.

Today it is about feeling our hearts and sending love to ourselves and those that are a part of this grand drama. Let that be the guiding force to take us to a new place as humans in deep need of healing and community.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Burning Illumination Of Our Collective Shadow

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I have been following the latest drama unfolding in the US around the Supreme Court nomination. When I used to go into these stories I had something inside of me that wanted to get to the truth. Who was ‘right’ and who was ‘wrong’. I felt my own suck into the density of anger, fight, righteousness, and principle. Us vs. Them.

These days I feel a desire to step back and just feel what is at play here in the heart and soul of humanity. While I get there is a charade going on in many ways, there is also something very real. Affecting real people. Yes, there are forces on high that are stoking these fires. But maybe these fires are here to get us to see something about ourselves as a culture. As a group of souls that are acting out a greater drama within each of us.

There is a patriarchal consciousness that is feeling an encroachment on its position of power. A lash out against any claim of inexcusable and threatening behavior, no matter what level of truth there may be to it. The burning fires of our collective ‘past’ still live within us. We hold those in our psychic memory. We are the actors, conscious or not, of our soul’s karmic echoes.

There is a sensitivity to this inside of us of all that we hold in the collective. Women feeling/being persecuted by men/society, men feeling/being unjustly accused by women/society. The privileged against the other 99%. The seats of power using all they can to create division, conflict, and doubt. This whole episode clearly illuminates all that is needing healing within each of us. The body politic can be a brutal mirror of what we need to see and feel.

There is a sadness that comes over me when I feel this in my heart. There are people whose lives are being turned upside down and inside out, but it is also what they have chosen on some deep level. To be the actors upon this stage that serves as a Shakespearean reflection of the misplacement of our goodness, respect, and honesty. The heart of a nation is on fire and this event is a symbol of the rising smoke.

I don’t feel to weigh in on what ‘side’ I am on. I am on the side of Love if there is to be one. Maybe it is love that is illuminating this one for us all to see. Maybe it is Love that is the fire itself. The idea of ‘justice’ is being highlighted and what it truly means to each and every one of us, both man and woman. We all have a relationship to it that goes far deeper than what we may fully understand and it is seeking its resolution sooner rather than later.

For me, it is a time of feeling the conflict within, holding my center in Love and as Love. That I believe is what is being asked of us. The fate of a nation lies not in the outcome of a committee but of the desire and choice of each to heal the pain that it reflects within.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Feeling The Existential Part Of You To Heal Beyond Medication

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I felt to share a response I gave to someone around the use of medication to alleviate deep depression and even thoughts of suicide. There is a lot that has been done to help many with this crippling and tragic dynamic inside, yet it is a way to get on rather than truly go IN and get to the deep roots of this very existential situation. I honor what medication has meant to those that have needed it, I had my own. If the desire is there to be curious and courageous then that is the first step in living a life of authentic feeling and joy:

“You are tapping into some deep existential territory. In my personal opinion, psychology has a hard time grappling with this existential quandary, so drugs are prescribed as a runaround. I don’t feel it as evil per se, just the only way to provide relief and a sense of control. But ultimately we need to reconcile this within ourselves so that we can feel what is the root in our souls around this.

The particular story is different for everyone, and we all have our own bone to pick with God. A fear, a rejection, persecution, abandonment, etc. We are to feel what our relationship is to this feeling if we want to ‘get back to God’, so to speak. If we truly believe or even want to believe that God is Love and that It/He/She exists in all things and has never abandoned us, then there is a story there. A reason for this feeling of being tried, tested, or played with. It is up to us to ask the questions, hold the space, and go into the murky territory that is this sacredly difficult place.

I believe that true awakening is a challenge but not one that we are in alone or outside of God’s Love. I feel this burden of proof from God needed by a part of you. Feeling our Higher Self and tapping into its own knowingness is what can bring us the much-needed space to go into this journey if we are willing and ready.”

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Galactical In The Practical

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After a blissful weekend with my beloved, I found myself immersed in the practical dimension yesterday. Filled with traffic, money, and sundry technicalities. Sometimes I could find myself starting to get prickly inside. From where I was energetically over the weekend, it could feel like a clash of dimensions. Sitting in dense traffic, I could feel how maybe there was a larger dynamic at play.

As Gaia continues Her ascent, so do we by proxy, or in proximity to Her. We are all inextricably entwined in this mysterious unfolding. The galactic cloud that we are passing through is creating all sorts of consequential havoc. It is triggering so much in the psychic soup we are all a part of. If we are fortunate enough to be aware of this, through reading and/or our own inner guidance system, we can get a perspective on it all and move through the emotional reactions as they come up as well as give them a context.

It is this context that carries us into new lands of consciousness. To just sit in a traffic jam, letting the irritation build and fester is a recipe for a frequency downer. What if instead you could feel the parts of you that have the irritation and feel what the bigger issue is? Underneath you may find a galactic aspect that is getting a bit worn down and tired of it all. The clash of dimensional dissonance. You both belong here and don’t at the same time.

Then when you see that we are all having that same experience at different consciousness levels and different rates you begin to see how extraordinary we truly are as humans. This is why we are so fascinating to our galactic ancestors, and frankly ourselves. We are all Star Beings trying our best to make sense of what we are truly doing here, some more clear than others. How we end up reconciling all of this is the Divine Mystery. Even God has Its popcorn out curious how this Grand Netflix show called Ascension will play out.

Here is where you get to feel the how the most mundane practicality can be the gateway into the most awe-inspiring reflection of your own greatness of BEing. Go meet yourself again for the very first time. It will surely take you beyond the practical and into the Galactical.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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It All Comes Down To Letting IN

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It all comes down to letting in. Letting in what wants to come to each of us when we are ready for it. When we can feel and love the parts of us that resist it so. Hard to believe that could be true! But when I sit with my selves and really tap into my heart I can feel and see the places where love and worth get stopped up. There is a so much in our soul’s merkaba that we are not totally conscious of that can create this block out of fear and unworth.

Kalayna and I are taking this all in during our anniversary time together. It is a gift to ourselves and our parts. It fuels the inner hearth so that we can offer the overflow back out into the collective through those that we serve both physically and virtually. We chose a path of actively collapsing timelines to re-emerge into a new one that lets in more trust, gratitude, love, and abundance in the name of service and ambassadorship. No longer will we accept anything less than what we feel we deserve and desire.

We are embarking on something new together but also with those that are on similar paths and trajectories. Our passion is to steward and bridge New Earth Now into our heart, body, and soul and serve that back out into the grids. Thank you all for being a part of this journey with us. We continue to offer the healing path that has given us so much in return. Much love to you from our soulful hearts to yours.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Our First ‘Year’: Celebrating A Year Of Sacred Union Romance

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By Kalayna Colibri

I wrote this poem last year, as Gabriel Heartman and I began to revisit the romantic love we once had for and with each other…

It (re)started one year ago. We were sitting on Jelelle and Raphael’s sofa on opposite ends. I don’t remember exactly what we were talking about but then Jelelle looked at us both and said, “why don’t you two explore together?” We knew what she meant and as we let this invitation sink in, I couldn’t help but feel myself trying to suppress a grin.

Since this day, Gabriel and I have been in sacred exploration of sacred union. We have experienced quite a bit together in this past year, both within us as individuals and within our ‘Us-ness’ – the bond that forms between two lovers in sacred union commitment. Neither of us are the same as when we began to dive into this a year ago. Neither of us can know just how much more we are both about to change deeper still…

I love this man… so much so that it’s hard to be away from him. In some moments I have to check in and see if this is a codependency between us, and yet, lately, the missing has been sweeter and deeper, not one of a longing or ache for fulfillment that can only come when the other is around. This is what it would have felt like for me in the past. But no, not so much now. Now it’s more of a missing of his entire being. Of everything that makes him him and makes me me in dance and contrast to him. Of the deep bond we have cultivated together since our first meeting back in 2012, while going in and out of relationship both romantic and otherwise.

Gabriel… I love you, appreciate you, and can’t wait to see where our path together brings us now, both in ourselves and in our shared life. Sometimes I can’t believe I get to be with you. And then, when I do let it in, I feel myself breathing with hot desire and cool passion, both…

Happy Anniversary, beloved. ❤️🔥

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With ease we love.

As love we breathe.

In each moment with you
with us…
a place of golden hues
and sinews of silky love tones
uniting our hearts, souls
and bodies too…

Years, lifetimes
and no time
bring poignant everythings
and love flow
like crashing waves upon a hungry shore.

In you I see me and the mateship within
With you I feel us and the starships of all
and in constancy the ceiling above
continues its upward flight
on cotton clouds of whispered rememberances
and newly arising constellations.

May we love until the stars fall backward
into laps of ancient gods unknown.

And our inward glances
bring new tidings
of a love that is meant for all!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling And Healing The System Within

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The past couple of weeks has been sprinkled with interfacing with “The System”. The legal matrix that requires each of us to have our T’s crossed and our I’s dotted in order to go about our lives in a state of unencumbered “freedom”. There was a time where I felt myself to be a warrior out to slay the dragon of said System. I found myself on a mission to free myself and shine the light for others to do the same.

At the time it felt like my purpose. Energetically I felt myself in states of rage, fear, and anxiety. I would get pretzled into so many knots around what I could and couldn’t get away with in regards to taxes, travel, social expectations, and debt just to name a few. When I began my own journey of feeling myself as a hub of fractured selves, I could then see and feel a picture of this System inside of myself. There were multiple metasoul lives that were reacting to this feeling of imprisonment and control. It was happening from me to me first. The outer was just reflecting the inner.

At the core it comes to “I can’t have what I want”. Even underneath that is “I am not worthy to have what I want” so I create the matrix outside to validate the one on the inside. I have been getting guidance from a Reptilian aspect of mine that I have connecting with recently. He has been helping me to see how the matrix is energized and co-created within the collective. It starts with a whisper, a meme, that builds its strength on the wings of our fear and unworth. That which was created when we found ourselves separate from Source.

When we find ourselves in moments where we are in the belly or on the radar of this system, there is an internal reaction. An energetic frequency that builds upon the largess of the collective. It feeds it and helps to make manifest the very thing we are afraid of. As I have experienced in my own process, as well as this guidance from my reptilian aspect, it is the inner work of transforming our own fear places, our own control centers, our own inner matrix that begins the process of a wholesale transformation of a system that actually no longer exists on the outside.

If that is the case, then it becomes clear that we are the heroes that we have been looking for. We are the leaders that can take our selves to new places of freedom and joy that we could only previously dream of. A new layer of trust comes when we start to unanchor ourselves from the collective conscious paradigm we actually co-created. To fight the System is to really only continue the struggle within. Going IN and bringing love to all of your shadow places, including your inner Reptilian, is what helps clear a path to a new economy of gift, passion, and true personal empowerment.

I will be continuing this exploration in further writing and live streams as the arise.

What do you feel is preventing you from fully living the life that you can see and feel within?

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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