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Inner Punisher Triggers/Projections During This Coronavirus/3D Matrix Collapse

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Levels of contention, disagreement, and making each other ‘wrong’ are really peaking at this time of unknown transition during the Coronavirus slowdown. These energies of contention have long been the case in 3D mainstream media, politics, religions, etc. Yet, the arguments right now, even amongst awakening and spiritual people that are more oriented to higher timelines, are surprisingly degrading down into exchanging personal insults, accusations of being ‘hijacked’ or ‘influenced’ by dark forces, not ‘getting it’ and not really being awakened and so on. Even amongst those who believe in and are creating the same timelines together (such as the Q movement), are attacking each other with infighting and putdowns and ‘calling each other out for being fakes’ becoming more common.

As an ambassador of love, I have been guided to ‘go into’ some of these battlegrounds even as they make me feel uncomfortable. These battlefields are so often, in our modern age, the comments sections of posts on social media and other places online. I have been stunned breathless at times at how cruel, degrading, and insulting people can be to each other. It hurts my heart to feel it as so often there is a deeper pain and fear there in the person that isn’t getting felt and CAN’T be with so much outer focused protection, defence, and judgemental energies going out.

I was feeling this too as a peak time for triggering the collective Inner Punisher/Critic frequencies and the Inner Punisher within each of us. The Inner Punisher is often ‘stuck’ in the polarized energies of judgement without love, which is often an internalized protection created to ‘fend off’ and acclimate to very judgemental energies coming toward them in the 3D experience, especially if it came from parents and birth family. The Inner Punisher is essentially a part that forms as a survival strategy and defense/protection in 3D. Empaths/sensitives/star seeds tend to have Inner Punishers that focus the judgement inward in extreme self criticism, self doubt, and low self worth rather than focusing it outward on others.

The Inner Punisher’s energy actually shifts to compassionate discernment as they are connected to in a conscious way through the SoulFullHeart process. I have experienced hundreds of previously ‘dark and judgy’ Inner Punishers shift into the noble, humble, and beautiful energies of intuitive discernment once they are ‘forgiven’ for their previous judgements and pain they have caused. Once this part of you is seen and loved with a compassionate heart by you, they can shift into being a vital member of your ‘inner’ team.

The current circumstances are triggering the Inner Punishers it feels like because the 3D/4D Matrix programs us to judge ourselves and others at a very young age. So much in 3D has been fueled by these judgemental energies. When part of us judges us or others, it immediately lowers our frequency. There is also necessary truth seeking and questioning going on right now for those in 3D and those moving into deeper levels of 4D Disclosure awakening. Clarity is being sought and informational sources are being looked to outside of the mainstream offerings. When that is primarily happening toward outside sources, there is less embodiment of your inner truth, your soul’s knowledge, and your own intuition. Yet, outside sources CAN mirror this inner knowing if they are looked at in that way.

If a Punisher part of someone is looking to an outside source though for THE truth, there will be an inner revolt going on, a personal sovereignty boundary that is breeched, an inner and outer rebellion, if you will. Feelings of resonance or dissonance with that outside source can create quite a lot of reactions inside for the Inner Punisher, who isn’t sure how to digest it. If that outer source of information is ALSO fused to their Inner Punisher (which is often the case it seems), then Inner Punisher meets outer Punisher and that is a recipe for contention, infighting, and judgemental projections both inside and outside. The Punisher Truthteller actually elicits feelings of shame and unworthiness in those who are taking in their truth…their energy is often angry, righteous and doesn’t see any other view than their own.

If you are taking in someone else’s truth and you are triggered into feelings of shame or unworthiness or even feeling ‘stupid’ for not knowing something or believing something, part of you is most likely reacting to the Inner Punisher in someone else. Your Inner Punisher may also be reacting to the Inner Punisher in someone else which brings up feelings of fighting and defending. Outside sources more anchored to higher frequencies can activate inspiration, inviting you to explore and land in YOUR own truth, yet not make you feel BAD or wrong about yourself.

Energies that make you question yourself in a judgmental way are rampant right now. For some souls, this is effective to help them start questioning life and reality. Yet, for those who are very sensitive to energies, the empaths/star seeds/healers of the world, these judgemental energies are difficult to navigate. I feel that I have to carefully track how much of these energies I take in as, while I am curious to feel and take in the timelines going on right now in the collective (again as an ambassador of love I feel it is important that I do so), I don’t want the information at the ‘cost’ of feeling judged and ‘kicked at’ as I no longer have these punishing energies inside of me.

These energies flying around do offer an opportunity to connect with your Inner Punisher and the part of you (usually an Inner Child) that feels shame reactions from them. This meditation helps you to connect with your Inner Punisher and Shame: https://youtu.be/3XvxkuX9YYs

True Divine essence doesn’t judge you or others or condemn or punish. The Divine, especially the Divine Mother expression, is holding much love for humanity as go through our Valley Of Shadows Of Death process to emerge into the light. Connect with Divine energies that feel supportive, loving, and compassionate and they can support you to find your own truth grounding in your soul’s path and process. These loving Divine energies can begin the process of inner forgiveness and activation of inner knowing that can help your Inner Punisher transmute and heal.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

You can still join us for our ongoing six week group call series Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix to New Earth Transition. Our next group call is this Wednesday, April 22nd at 10:00am PDT in which we will discuss navigating relationships during this time, including sharings about the Inner Punisher and meditation to connect to your current relationships and shift to 5D sense of them. You can receive the recordings of any group calls you may have missed and the zoom link to join future ones at any time by open donation. There is more info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. Jelelle is no longer offering 1:1 sessions yet for more information aboutΒ  1:1 individual sessions with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls with Jelelle, writings/books, and videos, visitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Feeling Our Collective & Personal ‘Resurrection’ On Good Friday

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

Now is the hour of our death and rebirth…

The crucibles/’crosses to bear’, have been many for each of us. They’ve varied in intensity at times with some difficult phases being easier to move through than others. Every single one of us by now has had some sense of a ‘dark night of the soul’ phase, which is always an initiation even though the deconstruction and ‘burning away’ can feel deep and vast. So many are walking out their deepest phase of this yet and collectively we are ALL experiencing this, one way or another.

We are willingly being constricted, ‘nailed to a cross’, so that we can go inward and resurrect the soul, reestablishing the reasons WHY we CHOSE to come here.

Yeshua came to be a template for us in this. He worked, alongside his deepest beloveds, to master his own Ascension process and become a beacon of light, of ‘Christed’ potential inside of each of us. He knew the prophecies and saw the visions of what was to come. He knew the trials that awaited him and each one he met with more vigor and determination and even found his compassion for those who persecuted him, for it was their role in the ‘Great Drama’ that needed to unfold.

He remembered, always, his alignment with the Divine and that he came here with a profound purpose and a strong need to lead humanity in its next steps. So it is that we all came here too, though with more amnesia to work through to truly and deeply remember this.

We won’t have to move through what he did or face down the same challenges exactly, yet, when each of us look back on what we’ve been through, even recently or perhaps ongoingly, we can easily recognize our own versions of this story. Collectively, the ‘Great Drama’ that Yeshua and his beloveds lived through and found their own paths to Ascension through experiencing has continued on and we have all been impacted by it for many lifetimes on Gaia and we are continuing to walk it out together. It has raged and roared inside of each of us, between parts of us and within our Metasoul lifetimes too as well as on the outside in our daily lives. We have embodied both sides of this drama, this playout. We are all One, and we are coming to realize just what that means… and that we need each other, both persecutors and persecuted, to come together in order to heal it and move truly beyond it.

In my heart, I feel how possible this is, maybe even imminent… I feel my desire for it personally and my own ‘hiccups’ when it comes to deeply trusting this overall process at times. I mostly feel like I live in trust though, after years of feeling the mistrust. I find that I can surrender quite easily now to my own death and rebirth experiences, even when I feel parts of me digging their nails into the carpet of the old ground they cling to, as life takes us in another direction. I can quickly recognize now, after many difficult processes, when and how I’ve co-created my circumstances and the deeper reasons as to ‘why’ I did this emerge from there. There are always many layers to this and sometimes it’s quite painful to feel it all through, yet Divine love is always there from within and outside of me too to scoop up the reactions and put them in a safe container where they can be felt and processed and transmuted with gentleness and LOVE.

This ‘Easter’ weekend is the quintessential energy and symbol of ALL of our death and rebirth experiences. We are ALL ‘Yeshua’ and ‘Yeshua’ is us. We are ALL transmuting deeply what we’ve been through and choosing our next phases, co-creating them in this dance of life and Ascension.

I’ve felt deeply, even in the last day or so, how these processes are always about our great re-emergence back into ‘love consciousness’, which never left us and we never truly left either. Our parts may feel restless at times in this process, wondering what’s next or how to navigate it all in this intensely shifting, shaking world, but our souls know beyond any doubt what all this has been for and that even though the road tests our soul’s resolve to align with the Divine within and without through this intense and dense dimension, it’s all worth it and there IS a light at the end of the inner AND outer ‘tunnel’ of awakening and rebirth.

Now is the hour of our ‘Resurrection’… our next phase of Ascension, individually and collectively.

Much love to you on this GOOD Friday! We are in all of this together, whatever is revealed or not revealed in the collective consciousness this weekend and beyond…

Kalayna ❀

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A gift during this ongoing transition into New Earth reality and consciousness, is this by-donation, weekly Group Call series being offered by Raphael and Jelelle Awen: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe — Enrollment is ongoing, so whenever you offer a donation, you’ll receive the recordings of the calls already completed and the link to join in live on future calls if you desire! Much love ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Empowering The Inner Masculine, Feeling What You Really Want

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by Raphael Awen

Time now to think about everywhere you’ve given or are giving away your power.

Remaining in unaddressed anxiety over money or debt, under its suppression, is giving away your power.

Remaining loyal to an old set of values thinking that is one’s path to the good life or a better life is giving away your power.

Remaining grounded in someone else’s truth that isn’t yours (ie. all social pretense of dead relationships, compliance with others or the government’s rules or laws, that oppose your truth is giving away your power.

What do you really want?

How are you going about owning that?

Who really knows your truth? Who needs to know it? Who doesn’t?

This is the empowered masculine arising within you. He knows that in the end, you can and will have what you actually want. He just needs reassurance that you are ready to have the truer things of what you really want. He doesn’t want to be your downfall. He doesn’t really want a shitstorm of reaction either from any part of you that might well get upset about losing their comforting game of victimhood. He wants to provide and he wants to be acknowledged. That’s what he’s built for. It’s up to you to lead the show, and then he can show up for a game truly worth playing.

You host this new game by beginning to feel what’s really going on inside, awakening your Inner Masculine, and awakening a swooning Inner Feminine. From there, anything and everything will change at a pace that can be negotiated and self-loving, without needing to disown anything, without needing to deny anything.

This is the opportune time that is here now where the game isn’t only changing but being reinvented by you and I as we come to terms with what we really want.

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Jelelle Awen and I would be so honored and blessed if you would come join us for a six-week group exploration over Zoom starting next Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many.

You can join us live and you can also receive the recordings at any time after the calls. We have some amazing soul family already signed up to come to this and we see a virtual community forming around these calls of resonance and support…MUCH needed during this time of so much shifting timelines and possibilities!

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much love to you during this time of dynamic transition into the NEW!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

“You Are Moving Into Love’s Reply To The Darkness” – Yeshua

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by Raphael Awen

Raphael – Yeshua, this is Raphael. I’d sure like to ask your take on this Corona Virus reaction around our planet.

Yeshua – Hey, Raphael. Thanks for asking, but what is your question more specifically?

R – I feel how surreal this all feels for me personally. I feel parts of me wanting to stay ahead and be in the know of what’s really going on, and I feel reality itself being changed on so many levels. I feel hope for a true new world order of things and yet, I also feel how deep the conditioning goes around living under the taken-for-granted oppression that has been here my entire lifetime. How do you see all of this from where you are?

Y – I say β€˜pinch yourself’ man! This is real. It is what has been longed for, for so long. The longing is and was part of the manifestation, so was the suffering and the deep darkness – all of it is connected and vital and all of it is love’s awakening journey. Love couldn’t be known, not to itself and not to an other, were it not for fear and what is called evil. Evil itself, and harm originated when love birthed both duality and other out of its original state of oneness. Love needed both contrast and β€˜other’ to know itself.

R – It was hard to type those words just now, that harm and evil originated from love. I can’t see that being very popular of a message, Yeshua. Aren’t we intended to right the wrongs, to stand for the good, and oppose hate, fear and harm?

Y – Raphael. You were birthed into duality and individuality out of oneness, but you never were separated from love in the process, it only felt like that, understandably so. The great fall was a fall in perception, yet all too real at the same time. The great awakening is equally an awakening in perception, that similarly creates a new reality.

R – But Yeshua, the pain, especially to the innocent children feels so off the charts, so evil…

Y – The children are the greatest testament and trigger to the awakening – there are so many tears that are needing to be cried and cried.

R – I recall the text where you told the disciples β€˜Suffer not the little children to come unto me, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.’

Y – Heaven has registered every last price paid in this awakening journey of love itself to itself. The children, like we all were, and yet are still at heart, are heaven’s biggest debtors and creditors both. Those who have suffered the most will know the greatest fullness and all will be forgotten and forgiven. Their debt will not and does not go unacknowledged. It simply cannot. When β€˜evil’ makes a stride, it invites love to meet it. You are moving into love’s reply to the darkness that has held a long and deep hold.

R – So it’s like then, the evil or harm is the agent of love, the agent that calls love forward?

Y – This is so new to feel, and even new to me, so don’t feel bad. I had a big deal investment into fighting the evil for a long time too, until I no longer did. It’s a big, big piece to awaken to, but when you do, it changes the foundation of everything. It’s all love. There is no evil in the sense of something separate from love.

R – …but there’s still big contrast…

Y – …bigger than ever…

R – …in this heightened drama of duality

Y – …where love is wanting to complete what it started, where love IS completing what it started, where love itself is suffering, where love is birthing an expansion of itself, a reconciliation to itself, and you get to watch it all, and be a part of it all….and even more, You are this unfolding. It’s all you.

R – You’re like too much sometimes, but in a good way.

Y – I’ll take that as a compliment then.

R – Thanks, Yeshua. You always help so much!

Y – Good! Stay in touch!

R – I will!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Inner Love Ambassador Is Awakening As The Cabal Collapses

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by Kalayna Solais

Dream time lately is becoming fuller and more active. Lots of souls are visiting each other in this ‘dream state’ where we can connect even through the ‘social distancing’ measures happening in our waking lives. In a way, it could be because we really are missing more social connections and also detoxing from them too, while letting in ‘new’ ones, even. I feel these visits are also happening because of having more space to go inward and feel, to awaken the heart and enliven the soul in new ways, healing trauma that has lived in parts of us, especially the Inner Child, for a very long time now. This clears the way for us all to unify more within ourselves and with parts of us that maybe we had forgotten about or never knew were there in the first place, and also makes room to connect with others in new ways, from the more authentic places within, rooted in our opening and awakening hearts and souls. We are coming together, and it’s really beautiful and dynamic!

Last night it was pretty ‘crowded’ in my dreams! I had visits with some people I recognized and others I didn’t. I felt some people I’ve been connected to on Facebook but never met before, and some celebrities too mixed in there. If you’ve been going down ‘Q’ rabbit holes and feeling what is now shifting quickly from ‘theory’ to ‘fact’, you may especially be feeling ‘busy’ in your dreams was your inner Love Ambassador becomes more awakened and activated and your soul starts to bring you to higher consciousness states while you digest the heaviness and hope too as you sleep. This is where we all seem to be congregating and unifying more, meeting and reuniting. Interesting!

As your Love Ambassador awakens, you are able to be with the parts of you in reaction to what you’re taking in from a place of curiosity and love. You can feel the trauma of those you’re reading about, the children who have suffered from child trafficking for so long, with tears of remorse for not having seen this all sooner and sheer sadness for what they’ve had to endure. You can feel how hard it is to imagine forgiving the perpetrators while also remembering that cycles of retaliation and ‘eye-for-an-eye’ don’t ever work out for the better. We’ve all acted from our deepest wounding and trauma in ways we’d rather forget about altogether. The Ambassador within though, can face and feel what’s been true inside of you and your own Metasoul without losing faith in your own deep GOODness and God-child self… and likewise, your Ambassador can offer this bridge to others too.

I feel we’re all trying to integrate what we’re reading about and intuiting too while reconciling all of this to the world we’ve just been told we need to ‘stay away from’ for a phase, the world so many parts of you may have trusted was the ‘real one’ until now. Being told we need to pull out of the life we were leading on the outside is actually a deep gift that keeps on giving, even through the hazy moments of detox from 3D consciousness where almost nothing makes sense and reactions within are plenty. We’re taking a step back so we can see the bigger picture (if we choose to). So many of us are glued to our internet connections as a way to take in each other and the outside world, which makes for the perfect opportunity to dig deeper into the endless evidence and information out there that is coming even more to light. Our Love Ambassador selves come ‘online’ with us through all of this and I feel we’re heading into a time when we need to embody this ‘self’ more than ever before!

As exciting as these times are, there is still much to digest as we feel compassion for the pain of those around us who have been suffering in the systems now collapsing and also the pain of those not yet ready to awaken to the bigger picture. One thing feels certain though, we can’t help but all be in this together, because even in whatever ways parts of us are still convinced we are ‘separate’, we are not.

And as Q says…. ‘Where We Go One, We Go All’ …Ambassadors, parts, Metasoul aspects, polarized points of view… et. al!

Much love,

Kalayna

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are going to be offering a 6-week group call series that you can join by donation! It starts this coming Wednesday, April 1st, at 10am PDT on Zoom! Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe for more info. ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

 

 

 

Inner Child Ambassadors Of Forgiveness For Our New Earth

Published on by Raianna Shai2 Comments

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t said much yet about the current situation that we’re going through as a collective. One part of me worries about what others would think, but mostly I’ve just been enjoying the process of digesting all the odds and ends with my community. I truly believe that this is all happening for a much bigger reason than just a pandemic or a virus. We are about to enter an era that I feel in my heart will lead to an entirely new way of living. With love, peace, compassion. New money systems, new forms of true news and media, and more transparency.

But one of the biggest changes coming that touches my heart is the return of so many children that have been sold into trafficking, abused, sexually exploited, etc. There are loads of proof of these heartbreaking things happening as well as many supported theories that these children will be returned in the midst of this pandemic.

I had the most comfortable and satisfying bath today that brought my heart and mind to a new level of understanding and digestion of this reality. My sweet inner child really wanted to process with me everything we had just learned about these children. We both had tears the night before thinking about all of the harm done to them but also about how naturally forgiving children are. We both know that the return of these children would not mean revenge in their hearts, but forgiveness and moving forward.

While in my peaceful bath I imagined these children in my place, washing away the dirt, the blood, the sexual assault and abuse. I imagined them feeling free and safe for the first time in a very long time. I could feel the relief but also the built up, raw trauma. I had the idea to help them wash, as a loving and motherly figure. But my inner child stopped me, helping me realize that this is the first time they will have control over and love for their own bodies. That even a loving touch will be a triggering one for a while.

This experience reminded me of how intuitive and compassionate children truly are. I have a hard time imagining even yelling at a child, nonetheless abusing them. The beautiful thing about this though is that these same children will be the reason that we can all forgive. They will be the ambassadors to show us the way to purity of heart and raw forgiveness. Every soul has a Divine source, no matter how far into the dark they’ve gone.

Though I can’t condone killing anyone in my hearts, the souls of the abusers may have signed up to die after all of this comes to light. Others may have the opportunity to raise their frequency, especially if we are open to it. I highly recommend connecting to your inner child at this time as they are the most vulnerable and sensitive to times filled with fear and anxiety. But they’re also the part that will become the love ambassadors inside of us in order move us into this next phase of our New Earth.

Feeling & Processing Current Events With The Inner Child

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by Kalayna Solais

As I went into meditation this morning, members of my Star Family were right there waiting for me and for a very precious part of me, especially.

I’ve been closest with my Star Family aspects from Sirius over the last few years. I think in some ways this is because, well, they are feline and look like “lion-people” so that makes them easier to let in for my young parts especially, but also, they are among the groups that have been working the closest with humanity. You may especially feel them nearby, energizing love and support to you around “Lion’s Gate” every August 8th. They’re also accessible because they’ve been where we are now and they understand the Ascension process well from their own experience of it and of the sacred yet often ‘bliss-messy’ steps along the way.

My Sirian-Lyran (that’s a sort of ‘star being name’ I’ve been offered to call them as it encompasses their origins) aspect named Ineerah and her masculine counterpart named Ortho wanted to connect with me and with my Inner Child, Lilly. They have been feeling her and MANY Inner Children a lot lately with everything going on. The Inner Child seems to be THE seat of sensitivity and deep reactions to what is going on right now, alongside the deep soul rumbles that everyone is feeling as the ‘collapse’ happening around us in different ways is very reminiscent of other timelines our souls all know very well (which our Inner Children are also impacted by to some degree).

Ineerah and Ortho wanted to connect with Lilly and feel her in this heightened sensitivity to the world. She is (as they always seem to be) very empathic and even a deep layer of all of us who feel we are ‘healers’ in some way.

Just yesterday I felt deep tears with her about the ‘meanness’ of others, not just towards her, but towards each other. She doesn’t like the judgements everyone has of one another and the harshness too. She doesn’t like how intense parts of people can be about ‘rules’ and ‘health regulations’, especially while she feels all of this is about SO MUCH MORE than a ‘virus’. She hasn’t felt much about what’s happening/not happening in our world right now and is actually quite happy to hear that animals are returning to places like Venice and that China’s skies are clearing. She hopes for a better future, just like all of our Inner Children do. And in that, they need presence, especially OUR presence. And, they need a voice. But, their voice cannot be heard, let alone land, in a world that remains as chaotic and out-of-touch with the real heart of things and their own individual hearts too, as has been true up ’til now.

This is what my Sirian-Lyran Star Family told her this morning, in light of this,

“Lilly,Β  the world is going through what it needs to right now so that you and parts like you can come out and feel safer. You WILL feel free to love and let in love in new ways as has been very unimaginable sometimes beyond your soul family connections. We know how much you ache to love and to have it be as simple as that… adult relationships, as you’ve noticed, are so complicated sometimes, but in a world where you get to be you, in all of the magic that’s within you, you get to be part of the celebration of what’s coming. You and all other parts like you are a light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel! And there’s nothing you need to DO to BE this, you just simply ARE this.”

They’re emphasizing to me now to share that our Inner Children are not a ‘solution’, but they are a ‘result’. Meaning, they are not (though sometimes this happens) meant to be actively ‘used’ as a means to an end by other parts of us to ‘solve’ issues on this planet or in our relationships, pressing on and using their hurt and pain somehow instead of healing it, which can only happen if/when we scoop them up and hold them close as us, ourselves. Their ideal alignment is with love and deep soul and heart freedom and they are freed up by the work you do with other parts of you and within your soul healing as well. They are not the labour pains of birthing the new reality, yet they ARE a new reality, especially as their essence of innocence, empathy, and trust in the Divine get to be re-discovered and unearthed.

In all of the sensitivity arising in just about everyone right now, whether it’s showing up mostly as fear, or sadness, or even excitement about what’s possible after all of this is over, it feels important to remember that this sensitivity was always there, just buried in busyness, which is now falling away. The real feelings of the heart can no longer be medicated or hidden in the same ways now that the outer world has been ‘locked down’. This can lead each of us into many deep processes yet these feelings are all meant to bring us into our truest anchoring from within of the New Earth that is in the middle of birthing into our reality.

If you feel ready to try and be with or even meet your own sweet Inner Child, you can try this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help you get in touch with them: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

And, as always, my beloveds Jelelle and Raphael are available for 1:1 sessions if you would like to receive some mega-hearted love and support at this time: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❀

Much love from my heart and parts, and Star Family too, to yours!

Kalayna ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Demonstrate Trust By Admitting Your Fear

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by Raphael Awen

My easiest access point of connection to self, other and the Divine is the owning of my fears, my needs, my confusion. Anything else is a stress-filled, very tall-order-kind of posturing and hiding. In my weakness, I am strong, and in my strength, I am weak.
When the collective rumbles and activates the resolve of its deeper shadows with these Coronavirus playouts and reactions, it’s going to activate something for each of us to feel and be faced with personally, no matter how attained (and beyond fear reactivity) I might consider myself to be. We all created this together and I don’t actually have an option to not participate. I do however get to choose the set of my heart-sail.

In this time of business as unusual, I get to demonstrate my trust by admitting my fear. I get to access love by deeply feeling and admitting my fear of its loss, and how that fear shows up. I get to connect with you around owning the weakness of my fear of connecting with you and then wanting to disconnect from you.

I am love out learning its way. I am the Divine out divining. Fear, panic, hatred, anxiety, shadow, and even the darkest and most despised acts of suppression and violence are a part of the Divine learning of itself, and come from the Divine, which I AM. There is no battle of good vs. evil except the one we create in our own minds and reality because of our disowned fears. What we call evil is only and nothing more than love’s opportunity. All evil wants to finds its way back to the full embodied remembrance of love, from where it was born and to which it is in process of returning, while never having lost its essence of love. Love birthed everything. Consciousness is finding its way through you as you trans-parent it with your transparency.

If this wild picture of reality is true, then how does that apply to the current news cycle and where you are right now? It offers you the courage and opportunity to feel your deepest fears that up till now have in all likelihood been off your radar, understandably. It offers you the opportunity to feel, admit, and be nourished by and because of your deepest need for love with self, other and the Divine.

You get to cry the uncried tears of many lifetimes that you’ve never cried before.

Now you get to feel like the real champion you’ve always wanted to feel like. Now you get to all that you’ve so longed to become.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Feeling What You REALLY Want And Need During These Turbulent Times

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by Raphael Awen

When the rumble of the collective fear of death goes viral through the collective by the aid of a media-hyped and created event, we do well to feel each and every part of us that resonates with that rumble.

Trying instead to stay β€˜high-vibe and positive’ invariably proves to be an exercise in denial and lying to oneself and others if we are not willing to be honest about the parts of us that actually are freaked out if they in fact are. You can’t stay high-vibe if you aren’t there already, and you can’t get to high-vibe if you’ve denied yourself a way to feel the parts of you who are low-vibe at the moment.

You were given a range of vibes for a divine creator reason and as a divine creator. That reason becomes very obscured and flattened when you are only permitting one polarity to live in you. What good is a piano with only the high notes?

What this Coronavirus actually is in terms of any real threat and in what scale is something that will only be known in hindsight. What is real is the fear that you feel that is kicked up by the story that is being spread far and wide. Our collective is so long overdue for a collective bowel movement and this one may well be one big dump, one that relieves so much. We’ve all had a hand in creating this need.

Because we are all one in a higher level of reality, we also do well to feel what this collective shift in consciousness is opportuning us to feel personally.

When I feel parts of myself, I feel aspects of me that want the future to be safe and bright and exciting and alive. I feel the parts of me that want purpose and engagement, as well as creature comforts. All of these goodies are threatened by the looming Coronavirus story – asking me to pare down my desires and settle for the story of the goal of survival. I feel the parts of me that aren’t yet assured of a bright and exciting future and wonder if we shouldn’t just settle for an outlook of mitigating disaster rather than full-on thrival.
Now grounded in what’s real in the inside, I get to actually process and create movement inside of myself from fear to love. I couldn’t actually get to the love were it not for the fear as my starting place.

And I also can’t get to the love I’m needing when I’m spending all my time staying up on the agenda of the Dark Illuminati/Cabal/Black Hats versus the Alliance/Q-anon picture of things as a way to distract myself from what’s really going on inside of me to me.

And when I don’t actually get to the love I’m needing and wanting, my vibe is invariably lower, I’m broadcasting that vibe as a reality generator to those around me before I utter a word or take an action. In other words, your and my greatest service to others begins and ends with the greatest service to self. β€˜Selfishness’ isn’t a bad word at all in 5D.

Whoever gave us the β€˜service to self’ versus β€˜service to other’ dichotomy was still living in the reality that there is actually any separation between self and other. This is the old picture of separation of spirit and matter, the separation of good and evil, the battle for supremacy that is being found more and more to be the root of all conflict inside and outside. There isn’t actually a β€˜whoever’ to blame here; we gave that picture to ourselves as a way to live our way to and through a movement of our reality.

We are this big, and our lessons are this epic! We get to do this and we get to do it as a collective and as individuals at the same time.

Allow what you really want, feel, and need, without denial, to guide you through these waters.

I’d be delighted to help you through your personal rumbles if what I’m sharing resonates for you. More here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Energy Update: Ripe Time For Awakenings, Deeper Connection With The Divine And Within

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by Kalayna Solais

Yesterday, I paused to feel the panic moving through the collective, how it could easily echo something that needs me inside of me, yet doesn’t seem to at this time…. At least not in the same way as it seems to be for others.

It rippled and ripped around where I stood. It told me, asked me, to keep being as still as I can, to keep holding space for it, to keep being a beacon of love and surrender during a dark time.

Having been through dark times in this life and many others, I know I can do this. I can be the lighthouse on the dark and stormy waters, whether the ships can see me or not.

My soul knows the solace, the solitude, the loneliness too, of being a β€˜healer’ in the midst of chaos. My soul also knows the beauty of the beaconing, the beckoning towards brighter shores of possibility and deeper connection within and with the Divine during such times as these when the death knoll (literal and figurative) sounds and there is an added poignancy and consciousness/awareness in our daily interactions and activities that we couldn’t get to otherwise.

My heart knows that this is all leading us to deeper connections to each other and ourselves as well as our beloved Gaia, as what is rebooting completes its reset cycle, bringing the collective into many different strands and strata of awakening.

All lenses are valid, all viewpoints need acknowledging. None are β€˜wrong’ and none are absolutely ’right’, for this world is not now nor could ever be black and white.

I think the deepest gift we can offer ourselves if we choose to isolate, to pull back and out from β€˜work’ or from β€˜social’ as a precaution is to go inward and feel. The world is on a sort of β€˜pause until further notice’ which is extremely rare. This is an opportunity to see what’s been brewing and moving on the inside of each of us. Where is the stagnancy and stubbornness toward love and surrender? Where is there a poignant fear of death or loss or both? These are existential questions, I know. Not everyone will be able to ask themselves or parts of themselves these just yet, but the invitation is there as always. And, as always, the Divine is here holding us all in whatever explorations we’re having inside and out and in whatever it is we are discovering about ourselves and our worlds, both inner and outer.

We are being invited to see our capacity to create the life we actually DO want and how this all comes from inside of each of us… from these places of panic and worry that are rooted far deeper than simply just being what β€˜is’ and therefore accepted as only what β€˜is’. There is SO much that needs our LOVE in these places. There are so many parts feeling their beloved 3D world being shaken up and so many Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes feeling a recapitulation of what they’re going through as well. Indeed, there are MANY layers all happening at once, so the need to pull it all back inward and make space for feeling it all is very, very real.

In all of this… there is nothing to β€˜vanquish’ but there is a lot to be with and love UP.

It’s from this inward place that it can all change for the better, starting with the chaotic INNER world, the one that tends to get brushed aside or buried far too often.

Much love to you all and everything inside of you that may be in deep reaction at this time….

Kalayna ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.