Letting Go of Hell To Let In Heaven

By Raianna Shai

Eeeee! This is the first time I’ve ever filmed a video like this, sharing my process spontaneously through video but it felt so good and natural in the end. We’ve been talking a lot recently as a community about sharing like this more and trying to show what this process is like in a more intimate way, as well as how we relate to each other.

In this video, I talk about a process I had over our group weekend with a gatekeeper of mine. What I discovered is that he was gatekeeping not my own soul, but a whole dimension of masculine sufferring that my soul seemed to have tapped into. This has led to a feeling in myself of needing to save the masculine and pull these aspects out of their own hell. But ultimately, that’s their journey to take and not mine to hold.

This has led to so much relief and unanchoring inside of me that I am finally feeling a fluid and easy connection with the divine in a way that I’ve always heard about and wanted.

I hope this resonates with you or however it lands and thank you again for taking it in ♥️

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and community member of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Inner Earth Lemuria Transmission: Navigating The Edges Between Your World And Ours

by Kasha Rokshana

These edges…
Not neat and clean
Sometimes jagged and difficult
Surround the transition back
To the Motherland, our Mu
That we knew and cherished
Loved and held
As it held all of us.

All needs provided
The needs of all.
All desires provided
The desires of all.
Symbiosis ruled as a rule
And the letting go of our ends
Of tug-of-war attempts from others
Was of utmost importance.

In this harrowing time
On this globe of Gaia,
In this time of trepidation
To even leave your homes
To even let in your rightful intuitions
To even remember what you are truly worth…
You’ve forgotten what it’s like
To truly
Breathe.

You’ve been told you need
Poisons
Provided by ‘leaders’
Who care even less for themselves
Than they care about you
Or The Whole of who you are
And the The Whole they actually are part of
With you…

You’ve been told by ‘caregivers’
Who have often not truly cared,
For they themselves have not known care,
That you need them,
Need what they give you,
Need what they tell you,
Only…
Without acknowledgement
Of your ability to learn and discern
For fear they will be unseated
And their false power coming from
False senses of love
Will overturn.

Yes…
Child of Mu…
These edges between what is now
What has been
And the world you have the power to create,
Are terrain that needs preparation
To traverse and overcome.

Yet…
If these edges,
Sharp and real as they are,
Are met with the love of your being
The being that resides in you…
The being that is alive in every cell,
In every inch of skin,
In every divot and dimple,
In every corner of your soul
And its infinite edges of growth,
Dissolve they will
Back to the source from which they came…
That same source and great river mouth
Of infinite universal love flow and creatorship,
From which all of who
And what
You are,
Was created.

Despair not
For hope is key
And trust more important.

We of Mu
Await you.
We support your consciousness blooming
Your Love Self remembering
And your divinity aligned once again
With all that you’ve always truly been
That ‘they’ can never
Ever
Take away from you.

Love,
Inner Earth Lemuria

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Crossroads At The Conjunction Solstice

I admit that I do not have a lot of ‘this life’ knowledge of astrology and astronomy to get the full breadth of what this upcoming Solstice/Conjunction means from those set of glasses. I FEEL the epicness of it. I feel it in myself and what has been happening around me in community, in others processes, and my own journey of Becoming.

In all of that, I witness great opporTUNEity. An attunement to what we truly are as sacred humans, not just pawns in a sycophantic chess match of fear. In the beginning of this whole drama that is playing itself out, I could feel a sense of a bifurcation. At first, it came as some literal, external process but of course it is really just a projection of what is happening within each of us.

I have been feeling a ‘crossroads’ or ‘forks in the road’ in my meditations. One that is paved with Fear, and the other with Love. The Fear Path is one that is clear and yet subtle at the same time. On that path, I see Guilt as a huge influencer in decisions and choices. Guilt keeps us from really choosing what is in our best and highest interest. Another influencer is Unworth. Do we feel that we are worthy and deserving of Love and all it wants to invite us into in our courage, desire, and inner knowing?

As we move into and through these con-junctions, the support and the intensity both increase. We are supported to make choices, yet parts of us can struggle with them. Choices of letting go of old patterns of relating to others, ourselves, and the world. When we get to the root of our needs and wants, the choices become clearer and the rumbles get louder. We are called into choosing a road, grieving the old, and trusting in the uncertain New.

What I feel the Conjunction brings us is the Courage to go into the Unknown of Mind and the Known of Heart. The clearer we are about what serves our heart and soul, the clearer we are about how to serve from that heart and soul. Fusing to our smallness, our fear, our unworth will amplify the suffering. It is time to go into the birth canal of our choice and feel the fear along the way.

We are leaving it behind by feeling it. Grieving with it. Dying and birthing with it. Love is both a death doula and a birth doula. I have been bridging this within myself from part to part, aspect to aspect through Divine holding, connecting with Yeshua, and leaning and learning from my community. I see and feel the future inside of myself. I can taste this Golden Earth when I turn off the static and tune into Soul. It lives Here Now within each of us.

We are presented with challenges as this ascension train continues on its foretold path. Those challenges are met from the inside out and then put into practice in this training ground we have all co-created. What a spectacle of Love when you can see it from that perspective! We are all seeking love even in what may feel in the darkest of times. There is support in so many ways for you to reach for should you feel the need. Consider myself and SoulFullHeart as one of those. This is what we have come here to do and be in this world.

Sacred humans rising and loving.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Use Your Illusion During This 11/11 Gateway

The world is filled with false gods, paper tigers, smoke and mirrors, and karmic binds. As we all start to awaken to these illusions and conditionings there can be a deep disillusionment. It is this disillusionment that is a marker of growth and potential liberation.

I say potential because there is a choice. Always a choice to go back into the illusion, rearrange the furniture, or just leave the damn thing altogether. Each is a sacred choice. There is a profound courage that is needed to let go of each of those, whether it is personal relationships, dependencies, routines, or ideologies.

There is a plethora of externalities that will support our sacred projections, cows, and illusions. I don’t see it as my job to shatter those. I see it as my mission to bring love and context to what is happening in the world, just as my beloveds and my guides do for me. I offer heart space and my community offers a shelter from the deluge of sacred bullshit that is spewing from the mouths of those that are supposedly in the ‘know’.

The reality is YOU are in the Know when you are in the Now. The Now is pregnant and overflowing at the same time. Your expert, your news anchor, your leader is already inside of you. They can be overrun by all the drama trauma that has occurred in this and many other lives that are still cycling on tumble dry.

The reality is that you are the King and Queen of this co-created chess game called Life. Sometimes you have been the pawn, sometimes the Bishop, other times the Knight. There is a greater game of reconciliation happening right now that trumps it all. Vulnerable feeling is the Checkmate.
Once you get to the root of your own pain, fear, and rage, face it heart on with compassion and forgiveness, you begin to see and feel how it has always been an illusion, a game, and a process of coming home to your true power of Love.

We find ourselves on the eve of our next levelling up on 11/11. A powerful portal into New Earth that starts with you, not with them. Then you get to bring that you into a new community of Other that can see and feel you for who you truly are. An ambassador of love and creation.

If you are seeking some resonance and support into a new timeline that is re-illusioned into a Golden Earth frequency please join Raphael and Jelelle this Saturday the 14th for a group transmission and meditation space via Zoom. Visit www.soulfullheat.org/groupcalltransmissions for more info.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Your Sacred Human Sovereignty Dismantles The Matrix

Europe is in increasing lockdown and the US is in increasing tension. There is a storm brewing in the Northern Hemisphere as we enter into the middle of Fall. So many swirling energies that can take a toll on the subtle bodies. Division and derision are fomenting as well as resistance, confusion, and frustration.

As Jelelle Awen has pointed out in her recent posts, there is really no ‘there’ there in deeper realms. What we are experiencing is really the death throes of the old guard. There is still a lot of power left in the tank (or the bank, if you will) yet when placed in the greater context it is a last gasp effort at control.

The power has always resided in our own Sovereignty. Our freedom to choose how we need/want to relate to these times we are in. I don’t have the gas in me to rage or convince anymore. I did that years ago during the financial boondoggle of 2008. What I do have in me is a passion to create my own reality by healing my fears, my shadow, and my karma.

We are all in the image of the Divine. We ARE the Divine. As such, we are therefore Creators as well as Players in the Great Drama of humanity. That is a LOT to let in. It is easy to be convinced that we are like pawns in a psychopathic chess game. Or are we the Kings and Queens that have chosen not to participate and be the beacons for others to choose the same?

Maybe you are like the Knight and need to continue the fight for the Truth and for that I hold no judgement. I feel the deep need for that as we walk in what feels like dark times. I personally feel the mission to provide my heart and soul gifts as a way for others to access something new inside of themselves that is not transcendent to what is currently real, but to envision and embody what is also another reality that only feels like a possibility in comparison.

Love is my resistance. My protest. My sovereign power to choose and create. It is not all nice and pretty. It is scary and messy, yet it is also alive and aware. It can never be taken from me, I can only give it away. I am choosing to reclaim that which has always belonged to me, has always BEEN me, and always been you.

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Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for their monthly group call transmission on Saturday, November 14th at 5:00pm GMT to connect to much needed Golden Earth/5D frequencies within. These are the seeds within us that hold the templates for the new world based in love that CAN emerge out of all this messy collapse starting from within us and eventually manifesting in the physical. They will offer teachings, guided meditation and some personal sharing space. You can join them live and/or receive the recording for whatever donation you can offer. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/357124312188561 or soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Relating And Responding To Global Death And Rebirth

My heart is still swirling from the event in Beirut a few days ago. Add to that a larger Event at hand with a pandemic of fear, hate, and rage making its way around the globe currently, it can be easy to feel an apocalypse underway. The narratives of Good vs Evil, Us vs. Them, Just vs. Unjust are all coming to a head on the world’s stage and the collective psyche.

There is no doubt in my mind and heart that a collapse and a revealing is underway. The bigger question is how are we relating to it? When events like what happened in Beirut occurred in my past, I would find myself in a sudden shock and heart pain, but then not too soon after rushing to analysis and conspiracy. There are also many who go down the despair road where the totality of the world’s ills cover them like a dark cloud. I have had those times too.

I choose to honor the deep emotional reactions to these events so that I can be with the feeling first. Let them be held by a ‘bigger’ me that is rooted in a greater context, yet doesn’t go there to bypass the feeling. There is something that gets lost in the analysis/finger-pointing and the despair. There is a personal relationship to what is happening externally as a portal to what is occurring internally.

That may seem like bypassing for many. Sticking our head in our heart is not the same as sticking it in the sand. It is about seeing where our wounding and fears lie in the soularium of our being. What timelines and aspects are triggered with all of these events and information coming at us at warp speed? When we react without first feeling the root of the reaction, we fuse to these timelines and aspects and wind up recapitulating the same scenario all over again.

For me personally, it is this feeling that we, as a collective family, may never heal into our most divinely-appointed timeline. That the fear and hate will envelope us all into a dystopian pit. Then I take that even more personally and can feel the timelines in which I have had aspects in apocalyptic/dystopic timelines. Lots of fear and trauma.

As I connect with them and get to feel what is theirs, then I can feel more of me, and what is mine. This sorting out brings a different perspective and energy from which to act. More love can enter the space and that helps to create the timeline we ultimately want, even the ‘evil-doers’, believe it or not!

We are responsible for our own apocalypse (revealing). We are responsible for which timeline comes into our reality. We get to choose how to relate and how to respond. If we don’t believe that (and I can understand why) we have given away our Divine-given power to truly create a heaven on Earth in the name of righteousness and fear.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc. 

Neowise As A Harbinger Of New Earth Wisdom

Photo by Liron Gertsman Photography

What a stunning cosmic display and harbinger of things to come this Neowise comet is. These ‘once-in-a-lifetime’ events are happening more and more in this lifetime! That feels eerily and beautifully significant.

When I saw the name of the comet I interpreted is as ‘New Wisdom’. Maybe new to our current consciousness, but not new to our Essence and Star Family lineage. This cosmic messenger feels like it wants to impart and inseminate New Earth possibilities. Almost like galactic sperm. A little crude maybe but feels true!

With these possibilities come responsitivities. I felt not to say ‘responsibilities’ because that can have this punishing edge to it. We are being invited to respond. To make choices that are in alignment with our Highest Calling and Being in the world. This invitation asks each of us to feel how we are responding to the energy around us. What are we choosing to allow into our temple of Light and cause static to the Love that is inherent in us all?

This comet raises our heads, hearts, and souls to the skies so that we can look into the mirror we have forgotten was a mirror. The Universe! The Infinite Expansiveness that is Consciousness itself. It is like a timely reminder for each of us to do the work necessary to clear and upgrade our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies.

We are part of that process. We do not just receive the upgrade. We must consciously work with it to integrate all that comes up in the process. Ascension is not a passive process. It is contingent upon us to show up to the very things that are in the Shadow and Fear Body so that we can make room for the expansion and the Love that is at our door step. Literally!

As a path or a means to this work, I encourage anyone to join the current SoulFullHeart six-week group call series, Free To Be 5D with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. You can join live every Wednesday or via recording for a donation of your choice. For more info visit:
soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

The first call was a great overview of the context of the work. The remaining calls will focus on the ‘nuts and bolts’ of the process and how it is connected to the greater context of Ascension.

I also offer a free consultation call for those that feel they want to know more on an individual level and how the process may resonate and support you in your next steps. You can visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

This is a time for bold choices and self-loving action. Neowise is meant to deliver each of us a message of our own ‘things to come’. Closing the eyes, opening the heart, and tapping into the soul is the portal to all of it.

Much love to you on this epic ride towards the Lion’s Gate.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.