To The Inner Child/Orphan Inside

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By Jelelle Awen

To the little one inside,

The lost one that wants to be found,

The sad one that wants to be happy,

The hurt one that wants to forgive,

The earth bound one that wants to be in the stars,

The sensitive one that feels EVERYONE and EVERYTHING around them,

The overwhelmed one surrounded by energies they don’t understand,

The merging one that doesn’t understand boundaries,

The receptive one that accepts whatever truth offered to them.

To this precious one inside of you….

You are feeling their fears, easing their anxieties, and becoming a reassuring presence that they’ve always wanted.

You are shining the light on all the monsters under the bed to reveal the friends waiting there in the shadows.

You are offering the softest embraces, the kindest words, and the deepest unconditional love.

To the orphan inside of you…

You are becoming a healthy, consistent, and supportive parent.

You are healing from the wounded mother/father energies that were passed down to you through your family line. 

You are becoming the comforting authority that they most deserve and desire.

You are offering a home inside of your own heart where they can finally feel claimed.

 ~

This is inspired by the beautiful and vulnerable inner children receiving love, attention and care (sometimes for the first time) that I’ve been blessed to provide a bridge to connect with in sessions, here during our Equinox gathering/retreat that is going on now, and inside of myself.

Another aspect of my inner orphan child is coming up for attention and love during the gathering in response to the goodness of serving more in the physical with a group of ten souls moving into deeper healing waters. She is tucking more into my heart each day as she feels the resonance in others who have the same lost children inside of them that are now receiving love. I am so glad to feel her, to discover another layer of her in myself, and to love her. I feel the trust, softness, and preciousness she holds and that I then get to express with others.

As we feel the innocent and tender energies that the inner Protector, the Inner Mother/Father, the Inner Punisher are all guarding and protecting…..as they can interface more with our reality and with others, these parts of us can heal and integrate. They become our crystal children….free, magical, curious, and deeply compassionate. They sit in the seat of our higher heart and power our merkabahs.

As they find a home inside of us that they have never known, they become a bridge to our star family ‘home’ frequencies that we’ve been missing and longing for. Their bravery is able to lead us forward on many multidimensional journeys and discoveries!

Here is guided meditation to connect to your inner child:

https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Join me for a women’s group on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT over zoom where we will explore sacred arising feminine energies which definitely include healing of our inner wounded daughters and relationship with our inner mothers too. You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email – https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/sacred-feminine-exploration-women-s-group-calls-jelelle-awen

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link via email.

 

 

Surrogacy W/Kuan Yin Offers Compassion, Forgiveness, And Stillness

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By Jelelle Awen

For the last month, I have been experiencing a surrogacy with Kuan Yin (or Quan Yin), an aspect of the Divine Mother that holds a non-dualistic space and bodhisattva energy. A surrogacy with the Divine Mother is a visceral, daily connection space for a phase of time where you are letting in the specific tones that She is offering through whatever ‘form’ of Her that you will be most responsive to in the moment.
 
Kuan Yin is a beloved teacher for me, yet She is also a mirror for me. Her repeated mantra to me is often, “I am you and you are me.” This is an invitation to move beyond comparison, beyond feeling that I am ‘less’ than Her, beyond separation and into Unity. It also serves as a reminder that I am a Divine Spark in human form (as we ALL are.)
 
This latest round of surrogacy began as I started fasting and wanted to bring more prana/chi/life force energy into my body. I showed up in Kuan Yin’s etheric space, which is a beautiful oriental garden temple in the mountains of Japan. Kuan Yin connected me to a helpful mantra of “OM” (on the inhale) and “Ma” (on the exhale), which allows my mind and body to fill up with prana and then release it into my own energy field and the space around me. Om Ma is letting in the Divine in its Universal Form and exhaling Divine Mother’s expression.
 
I have also been connecting with a Metasoul aspect of mine named Lau, who is a disciple of Kuan Yin’s. As I have calibrated to the soft, gentle, delicate, and still nature of both Kuan Yin and Lau, tears have come up in moments. The tears have been about a mourning for a soft and compassionate feminine energy that I did not have or know with my own birth mother. There has also been hurt coming up for Lau in her relationship with her mother in her timeline that mirrors mine around not being seen for my soul gifts, my Divine presence, or my essence by my birth mother nor any of these gifts watered or initiated in me by her.
 
What I experienced of the feminine (as true for so many of us) was a matriarchal energy from my birth family line that had tones of control, manipulation, fear, and anxiety in it. There was little stillness, little love transacting, yet rather much frenetic energy that ‘filled the space’ and left no room for the authentic feminine to arise.
 
Over many years of processing this reality with parts of myself and having a very necessary phase of no contact with my birth mother, much of this wounding has healed. A healing that has been deep enough to allow a genuine flow of love and compassion from my heart to other women, especially those I serve in session space.
 
Yet, also this love transacts between me and my own daughter Raianna Shai at a rich and meaningful way, free from the angst, competition and controlling energies that I experienced as a daughter. When I started my healing journey many years ago, I knew that I could not authentically serve the arising of the sacred feminine in others nor be the kind of mother I wanted to be if I did not focus deeply and with complete intention on healing the difficult and painful experience I had myself this life and other lifetimes with the wounded feminine.
 
Kuan Yin’s energy offers a template for a feminine that is still, that is oriented first to BEing, that can feel the cries of the world without becoming them. I am so grateful for the Divine Mother and the many faces of Her that have been such a loving balm to all the parts of me that have needed them. And, it is Her energy that overflows to others in service of love so often when parts of them most need to feel forgiving, nurturing, and non-judgemental energies.
 
Kuan Yin reminds us that we are deeply loved for our essence….always and in all ways. We are Her and She is us.

~

Here is a guided meditation to connect with Kuan Yin and other faces of Divine Mother with Kalayna and me: 

 

I am also offering a new women’s group starting on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT over zoom for women over 18. I am honored to dive into the depths of sacred arising feminine exploration based on my experiences in my own process and serving other women for over 15 years. I am sure that Kuan Yin and other faces of Divine Mother will be joining us to hold the space for this sacred work! There is more information here if you’d like to join me live or to receive the recording for a $15 CAD donation: https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

or here; https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womengroupcalls

 Love, Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

The Bliss Mess/Push Pull Moments Of Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

Push and pull….wanting to love and then resisting love. Wanting to change and then resisting change. Opening UP WIDE and then closing in again. These bliss moments are of heart doors swinging open and your heart pouring out to touch ALL of life. These mess moments are the heart doors shutting and your heart retracting again in pain.

These bliss mess moments of push and pull ARE your awakening process of heart and soul. Why would it be JUST bliss when this is not what you have known here in 3D living? Why would it be JUST about the highs when this has not been the reality you’ve experienced here? And, what is really learned from only UPs with no downs?

It is during the climbs and the crawls for which you learn the most about the substance for which you are made….in contrast to that which you are NOT. 3D reality doesn’t honor the climb, the process, the journey….yet wants the results and the gifts immediately. It wants the quick fixes rather than the long term gains that come from unfolding process.

A patience for the process allows that with UPs there will come downs too and wants BOTH. Your soul can hold space for the part of you formed in 3D life to learn, to sort it out, to open up and then close down. Your soul has access to Infinite Patience in this process and understands that it ‘takes the time that it takes’ to heal and clear the ground of your deepest densities.

These deepest densities are valued by your soul, not seen as ‘lesser’ at all, but rather a precious aspect of your journey here with Gaia. Not judged by the soul, yet rather held with curiousity and much love so that the required densities, traumas, and toxicities needed to fit into a dualistic 3D world can be let go.

The soul helps your 3D self unanchor from what it has needed to become attached to. Your higher heart allows this process to be held with much love rather than inner battle and resistance loops that lead to suffering.

With a consistent heart and soul response from you to the deepest densities of your 3D self, it can let go of the push-pull it has known so often in your life and begin to let in LOVE more and more with less and less contraction away.

Here is a transmute any trauma with a loving response and energy teaching and guided meditation with me: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Jelelle Awen
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This writing is an excerpt from my book Bliss Mess: The Wonders and Challenges of Ascension, which you can purchase here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Mother Aphrodite Message Of The Catalytic Healing Power Of Falling IN Love

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by Kalayna Solais

“Falling in love IS serving love.

It’s inhabiting its textures, its fragrance, letting it rumble through the chakras, feeling it raise questions about your next life steps, such as they are.

Falling in love can happen in any moment.

On the inside with parts of you. On the outside with a beloved soulmate or a friend or even with a complete stranger just because you feel their uniqueness in your bones.

Falling in love happens with nature, with the energy of the planet on which you live, with the forces of life and abundance and eternal movement with the galaxy surrounding you and the multi-verse you reside in at a larger scale.

All of this serves LIFE to happen in enriching ways that open up to MORE love… and that… that is serving love in a grand form that brings it inward, moves it in a flow that floods the heart of you and reaches toward the heart of others. It brings love to this planet, lets it download through the conduit that IS your soul and why you are here at this time.

And, with that, love cannot help but impact the world you live in in GOOD ways and boost the ongoing Ascension process of all that lives within you and everyone ‘outside’ of you.”

~ Mother (Goddess) Aphrodite

 

This message came to me yesterday as I connected with Mother Aphrodite (as I am feeling to call Her) in meditation yesterday. She is yet another face of the Divine Mother that we can connect with whenever we desire to. In fact, She does love to respond to our heart’s desires, as that is part of Her purpose and the archetype she IS.

I have been connecting with Her through and with a new Metasoul sister connection that I’ve made recently, who was a courtesan at the Temple of Aphrodite, offering her body in service to men who desired transcendence and also a connection with the Divine Feminine that they could not access themselves. Connecting with this ‘sister’, named Lysandra, has bridged me to this powerful and tender energy of Aphrodite, who feels very catalytic and who also seems to encourage us to go INTO love, not shy away from it, even if that means that the intimacy brings us to some messy places where we are in a soup of triggers and reactions or even ecstasy. I feel Mother Aphrodite in a more ascended form than She has been depicted in ‘Ancient Greek’ texts and so on. She even appeared quite blond to me instead of the usual red or strawberry blond hair colour that you most often see.

This message came as encouragement to continue to fall in love… whatever that means in any moment. It was an invitation to keep the heart open, to stay in curiosity, to hold patience for others as you bridge them to love too, and to trust that if you do feel genuine love flow between you and another being, human or otherwise, there is something more to surrender to in that experience… especially whatever this connection seems to be bringing up inside of you to be held and felt. I would not have access to this energy of Mother Aphrodite or this new Metasoul sister connection had I not been in a process of opening up my heart wider to others and feeling the kickback and defences of parts of me in doing so.

Mother Aphrodite is a bridge to both the glory and the gory when it comes to the passage and flow of love. She is a Divine poultice who it feels like can hold both the balm that love can offer and the catalytic craziness in moments that love can offer too as it stirs up so much inside of us, so much that we couldn’t have felt or healed without it being brought to the surface. Of course, there is also much She offers us in sexuality and sexual healing, honouring the pleasures of the body yet holding boundaries as necessary too to truly honour where you ARE right now and what feels good to explore and what doesn’t. This is something that has often been distorted about the energy She brings with Her and it feels like She would love to see this shift in the collective consciousness!

Much love to you and with you as you feel your own journey and recognition of the catalytic nature of love, especially ‘falling in love’, and the deep healing it can and wants to offer! ❤

~

Art by Emily Balivet

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Reflections From Our Interconnections: A Poem

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by Kalayna Solais

Digging IN
my heart remembers
what it only can with you.
And what’s always true
is the plan of living
and the exquisite pain
of letting in
while also letting go.

Ecstatically
the heart opens and closes again
echoing thoughts and words within
the pulse of beating hearts
and timelines crossing timelines.

Instinctually
the forbidden mind
starts to mine
the experience of the heart
and integration of lined-up soul pieces
that flow and flee and double-back
into the next full circle
of healing miracles
within.

Reflections, ALL
move inside the current being
now seeing
what couldn’t be seen without them
moving into the heart space and out again
leaving me with more gain
than loss.

No matter the next
and next
and next
reflections and reactions and reactivations
the following places
pace in a dance
that races then recedes
in a way wild
uncontrolled
and absolutely
ALIVE.

~

Art by Rassouli

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

9/9/9 Portal Opens Up Access To Lower 4D Matrix/Karmic Healing/Metasoul Timelines: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 9, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

The 9/9 portal this week has opened up many doors to our soul patterns and karmic cycles that still need our love and attention in order to heal. In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Co-Creator, Jelelle Awen, invites you to feel how the thinning of the veils through this portal have been inviting you to feel your own Metasoul timelines and how they are influencing your life now, in order to truly go into them and heal them. She offers:

“Conscious healing of these timelines and lifetimes is a crucial phase in our ongoing Ascension process. We now have the opportunity to heal karmic patterns that our Metasouls have been playing out for infinity. We truly can complete the need to incarnate into 3D and lower 4D timelines at all anymore if we don’t want to or need to. We can truly end the suffering of repeated traumatic and traumatizing situations in all their different forms and expressions.”

Tomorrow, September 14th @10am PDT, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-leading an online group transmission over Zoom. The purpose of this group is to learn more about karmic healing through unplugging through the lower 4D matrix, which is the control matrix created by the collective unconscious’ unprocessed and undigested karmic soul woundings, trauma playouts, good vs. evil battles, and archetypal projections. Unplugging from the Lower 4D Matrix is the ‘next step’ in awakening as you consciously life your veil of amnesia with the help of your Gatekeeper, an aspect of your Metasoul that guards and protects all the timelines/lifetimes that your soul has fragmented into.

SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Divine Feminine bridge Jelelle Awen will host a virtual group for women over Zoom on September 29th @10am PDT to provide a transmission of codes to assist you in your ongoing process of sacred feminine embodiment. You can receive these frequencies live with her (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with her what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from her.

On Tuesday, October 8th @6pm PDT, join us in Victoria, BC in person for a FREE guided meditation and sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation. Raphael and Gabriel will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

There will be another Group Transmission in October. The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12th at 10am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We have a brand NEW guided meditation video offering this week from SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Kalayna Solais. Kalayna says this about the video:

“I wanted to offer this video today as a digestion of something that has recently rumbled through in my own process in an effort to offer some of the important things I have been learning about navigating non-resonant situations and being a bridge for others yet having good boundaries and self-care too. It’s as much of an art form as it sounds like and the way you choose to navigate this for yourself will depend on your own parts and Metasoul aspects and what you are walking out personally.”

There are several new articles and audio recordings this week from Kalayna Solais, Raphael Awen, and Jelelle Awen, all digesting the incoming energy waves around 9/9 and beyond!

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

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Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Karmic Timeline/Lifetime Healing Group Transmission Event Over Zoom Tomorrow September 14th

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By Jelelle Awen

Feeling the energies coming through already to share with you during our group transmission tomorrow! These energies support the exploration of soul themes, timelines/lifetimes, relationships and dynamics…it’s the exploration of how soul patterns show up and express in your current life. Making these conscious connections and feeling/healing these dynamics can HUGELY transform your life and your experience of it.

Much of the suffering loops that you may experience in your life are recapitulations of these soul themes, trying to get your ‘attention’ in order to heal them. The veil of amnesia remains down, access to these timelines/lifetimes fuzzy, until you choose to KNOW and to remember.

Tomorrow during the group transmission, which you can join us live on zoom (highly recommended) at 10:00am PDT for two hours and/or receive the recording afterwards, Raphael and I will teach more about how quantum karmic soul theme patterns from multiple timelines is not only possible, it is being supported by all these Ascension energies. We will introduce you to the aspect of your soul that we call the Gatekeeper, who in working with consciously allows and opens up connection to other timelines/lifetimes for you and with you.

The Gatekeeper provides a bridge to both denser timelines (including those still connected/anchored to the Lower 4D Matrix – which we will teach more about) AND the higher frequency ones anchored to Unity Consciousness, Galactic consciousness, angelic realms, etc. Whenever you are ‘channeling’, you are connecting to an aspect of your soul….sometimes this is a conscious and desirable connection and sometimes it is resisted and not experienced as a good thing (although it is a shadow aspect that needs/wants your love.)

If you are feeling like you want to go the next level in your exploration into your own soul led by YOU (not read out by others), this is a transmission that will bridge those possibilities into your reality.

The energy exchange for the transmission is $15 CAD, which you can offer through purchasing here to receive the zoom link: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/6-4d-matrix-karmic-healing-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

Or through paypal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Hope to see you THERE in the space where self discovery miracles can happen!

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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Energy Update: Full ‘Harvest’ Moon Supports Recovery/Moving On Process

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by Kalayna Solais

Energy update: DEEP tears last night before going to bed… Felt so fully held in the arms of the Divine, especially Divine Mother, bringing more waves of them to feel and help clear the cluttered heart. Tears of purging and detoxing, rebirth and renewal, they were. Body shaking, quaking, sobbing. This is the state I so willingly went to as I returned last night to my tenderness, femininity, woman’s heart after an intense journey interfacing with this new life phase that seems to be opening up wider this week… and had my masculine activated in a more defensive or protective way than a way that lets my femininity BE and be vulnerable and breathe more too.

Today’s Full Moon is bringing something to full illumination inside. Sometimes these moons bring these tides of tears that aren’t always about pain but simply about rising again for yourself, to yourself. Sometimes parts of us get so backed up in our busyness throughout our work weeks, explorations of connections with others (especially any new connections where parts will likely feel especially self-conscious and reactive), that once the more feminine space within can be accessed, they can burst open again like a broken water pipe, sharing everything they’ve been feeling this whole time, and the Divine is there holding the bucket that catches it all.

Friday the 13th energies feel like a wrap-up and renewal opportunity that also comes with the Full Moon energies bringing pieces to full circle. It’s definitely a time of rebooting. Of completing one phase and beginning another, even just internally. It could be a time for you of ‘harvest’ as this is the Harvest Moon, which brings in energies of encouragement and support to feel who you truly ARE right now after the journey you’ve been on so far.

In all of this deep feeling release that’s possible right now, there is an opportunity to continue to move on, to move UP in frequency and upgrade your desires for more love in all areas of your life too, especially within, because without that harvest, that cultivation of deepening inner love, the deepest and most healing movements cannot be what they most need to be.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be co-hosting a very powerful group transmission over Zoom tomorrow. I highly recommend checking it out, especially as a way to explore deeper what could be moving for you now. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Palindrome Dates, Friday The 13th Harvest Moon, 9/11 Digestion/Disclosure, Plus 9/9/9 Portal

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By Jelelle Awen

This is a dynamic and intense time for energies right now! September is already creating a sense of momentum and acceleration. It is a high frequency month geomagnetically due to the Equinox and we’ve already had some strong geomagnetic storms and high SOULar winds moving through with more to come.

I already shared about the 9/9/9 portal gateway that extends through September 18th and how it is offering more access to clear and feel karmic binds and energies from Lower 4D timelines and lifetimes. There is more about that here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/09/10/energy-update-9-9-9-portal-opens-up-access-to-lower-4d-matrix-karmic-healing-metasoul-timelines/

Also, starting yesterday and through 9/19/19, this is a week of palindromes for those who use the month/day/year format, where the numbers of the dates are the same forwards and backwards. Example…. 9/11/19 is the same forwards and backwards (such as the word ‘madam’.) This is considered a blessed and fortunate energy that offers the opportunity for karmic reset and completion of soul patterns that have been playing out in this-life situations.

Yesterday was September 11th as well….a date that holds a lot of energy in the collective memory of sorrow, loss, and outrage for those in America and around the world. The September 11th violent events bring up a mix of mourning, loss of individual privacy/invasion of governmental monitoring, AND disclosure of the true causes of them beyond what has been reported by the ‘mainstream’ 3D media. 9/11 is one of those ‘lynch pins’ that as it is pulled by more and more awakening souls begins to reveal the true web of corruption, control, shadow-based Lower 4D energies that exist behind so much of the governmental, banking, and cooperate structures in the 3D world. Many more souls will be following those bread crumbs of discovery as guided to by their Higher Self.

We also have Friday the 13th tomorrow and a harvest full moon occurring on that date or on Saturday, Friday the 14th (depending on where you are in the world.) Friday the 13th amplifies whatever energy is coming up for healing due to the collective focus and projection on it. Good or bad, unlucky or blessed….this day can be a matter of the collective consciousness creating its reality. A full moon then, as always, offers illumination of this energy that needs to come out of the shadows in order to be seen and felt.

All of these energies may be creating a feeling in you of being unsettled, disorientated, and just ‘off’ from how you normally are. Because what is in the subconscious is being amplified, it IS an opportunity to learn and feel something new about yourself and your soul. It can be helpful to move into personal exploration during intense energy times like this rather than tune too much into the collective energies that are moving through.

For those of us who are so sensitive to ALL energies, the collective process of disclosure and digestion can be VERY intense for us to feel. The push and pull of the newly awakening (although we have been through it ourselves) can be overwhelming as we hold and make space for more of our own veil to lift and more karmic healing to take place from within our own souls.

To radiate love from our higher heart space, to feel compassion for those who are newly learning about difficult realities, to forgive those who have chosen to play the challenging and polarizing roles in this experiment. These are ambassador of love energies we can offer to ourselves and to others, as templated for us by the Divine Mother. Trusting the Divine on the timing of all of this as an alignment (even if it feels like a misalignment) that the collective needs as we move into the higher timeline year of 2020.

To go into the more feminine heart space offers more sense of inner peace right now. To be in the overly masculine mind trying to ‘figure it out’ can be challenging and lead to more distrust coming up, more anxiety, more reaction from your masculine Inner Protectors. Connecting to sources of compassionate calm in the storms both inside of you and from outside creates a beacon for others of how they might navigate through it too.

Much love to you as we navigate these intense yet very necessary energies!

Jelelle Awen

You are so welcome to join Raphael and I on Saturday, September 14th at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, BC time) for a powerful group transmission to create a bridge within you for quantum healing of Lower 4D Matrix (collective unconscious) and karmic healing! More information here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/6-4d-matrix-karmic-healing-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

 

Becoming The Author Of Your Own Story

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By Raphael Awen

When you are no longer controlled by outside forces, you are the author, possessing the author-ity for what your life is about.

Becoming the Sovereign of your own life in this way is a scary proposition as it leaves us completely responsible for own lives, leaving us the challenge of owning all of our lives – all that’s in our lives, and all of our lifetimes.

There’s no one to blame. There’s no circumstance to point the finger at; no lot in life, that doesn’t originate in you.

The idea of having whatever you want is only novel and exciting until you realize that’s what actually been going on this whole time. The challenge is coming to terms with your authorship, deciding the story that you actually want; deciding and negotiating between the parts of you that want different things.

You are not your circumstances. You are not your relationships. You are not your job. You are not your bank balance. You are not even your health. You created all of that, but you are not that.

You are the creator.

Maybe like me, you set your sights on healing your anxiety or your depression. You did that, only to realize this was much to small a goal for the Sovereign you actually are. No longer being in the depths of anxiety or depression is nice, but that alone can’t fill the expansive sails of your being.

You are called to experience yourself in continual curiosity and childlike wonder and learning. You are ever called to more.

What does your more look like? What is wanting to mature and manifest in your life, in your world, in your magical story?

What have parts of you been afraid of, in order to enact the changes that you know are ripening in your story?

How can you lovingly reconcile and negotiate these inner differences?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.