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Energy Update: Pituitary & Pineal Gland UPgrades And Activations For The 11/11 Portal

Published on November 9, 2017November 9, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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I slept 12 hours last night…the second night in a row in which I have done this. This is after resting all day and taking a deep, pass out nap at some point yesterday. The body DOES seem to be asking for rest right now as it IS already receiving downloads from the 11/11 opening and is being prepared to receive more. I was offered by my guides/Metasoul aspects that is worth it to rest for a couple of days to prepare to be ‘changed’ then to resist it or fight it with more DOing. To ‘take time off’ to prep and then receive what is being offered right now will be worth it if you feel guided to do that. Making space for the next couple of days for this process allows you to maximize the benefits of what is being offered.

The parts of you that might resist may be feeling a sense of fear about the unknown around all of this. A sense of concern around where all this headed or going. To have your physical body and very often emotional body impacted/charged/in what can feel like suffering can push up desires to block or at least modulate what can be experienced. Negotiation with the Inner Protector part of you esp. can allow for more sense of trust around the process and surrender too.

The most deep and needed activations as we go forward are related to our Pituitary & Pineal Glands. These tiny, often ‘forgotten and de-energized’ and calcified in 3D glands are turning into snowflakes of crystalline, acting as receptors and translators and integrators as we move into 4D and higher frequencies. Their activation into higher vibrational frequencies serves as an important bridge to the fuller embodiment of our higher selves, activation of all that missing DNA, unplugging from the 3D matrix AND the 4D matrix/karmic cycles too. They are key aspects of the light body shifting process, along with the opening of the crown (and higher up too) chakras.

This solfeggio frequency video I have found helpful the last couple of days is specifically designed to bridge, prepare, and activate these glands. If you find that you are getting MORE head and neck pain while listening to it, then you might stop, however, it could be parts of you that are afraid of the opening out process too. Bring love to any inner resistance that comes up. This is the video: https://youtu.be/2nazfkojMK0

We are all chatting in the SoulFullHeart Community about various body preparations we are experiencing as we go into Saturday’s portal opening of 11/11. We all live in the same building, yet different suites with Raphael and I in one; Raianna in hers, and Kalayna and Gabriel sharing one together. We see each other quite a bit obviously, usually at least once a day, yet often our main communication is through google hangouts. The messages are flying this morning around various body experiences we are having.

I feel SO blessed to be able to have these kinds of conversations with those in close community with me and resonance. I realize that many people do not have this kind of soul resonance around them, although many are finding it and drawing it through online connections. You are SO welcome to share in the comments below what you are experiencing of physical, emotional, chakral, Metasoul/other lifetimes, body adjustments, experiences, reactions as we move into the 11/11 portal. I am also happy to respond to any questions that you have around this process too and esp. how our SoulFullHeart process relates to it and parts work if you are interested in that.

MUCH love to you as we UPgrade the vessel of flesh that has been functioning on an outdating operating system for too long. The REBOOT of the body (and the emotional, and ALL the bodies) is a sacred process that does directly connect to the further ascension of us all into 5D sacred humanity and galactic human grounded in emotional maturity and health too!! ❤ ❤

Join all of us for a group call on 11/11 at 11:11am CST….we’ll be offering teachings and a guided meditation, plus time for individual sharings. The guided meditation will offer an integration of the 3D energies/shadow that are purging out with the activation energies that are coming in through the higher ascension chakras. To join us for a $11 min. donation, go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Current Energies Activating Your “Not You” True You

Published on November 7, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

The You that is Not You is getting lit up. Highlighted. Sparked by deep, layered activations in the recess of your True You. The holes in the Whole are gurgling, pulsing, calling. This can come out in so many significant ways that may be interpreted as a simple “this” or “that”. There is nothing insignificant about anything anymore. Never was. The physical symptoms, the sensitivities, the frustrations, the questions, or the sudden collapse of relationship and livelihood.

It grows deep within you. The connection of your Highest Self back to essence. Not to merge back into forgetfulness, but to experience the Dual Consciousness of I As All and All As I. These seemingly random occurrences are Remembrance pains. When these bubbles make their way to the surface, they off-gas into your waking consciousness causing shifts and movements. They can create havoc if you don’t have a means to hold them in a greater context.

Breathing through them is one way to let the energies find their ground within you. Self-loving acts of rest and pleasure can aid in this. They can be beyond mind and our current available consciousness. The work is being done on a much grander scale. There is also much to be felt within our capable and readied hearts. There are messages coming to us that are meant to shake things up that kick up emotional triggers in our 3D and 4D self. Our 5D nature is making its way into the fold and that creates a tension within.

It is not a press, mind you. But an offering that is hard to ignore. With each step Gaia makes, with each opening and integration the collective experiences, the more we are coming closer to what we have always been and yet have forgotten. In that forgetting there is a pain and a fear. There is a lot for our inner parts and soul aspects to feel and release. For those that have signed up for this, it can be quite a crucible to navigate all the energies coming up. The feeling that what life used to be like is not what is meant to continue.

There is a way to be with all these rumblings. This arising awareness. The pain that it may be causing. It is a process of feeling the parts of you that are these bubbling pockets of Not You (Anymore). It is a guided path of “selves discovery” that is meant to bring you back into Wholeness. Into the space of deep feeling and healing. Into a sacred relationship to yourself as Essence and to another as Union. Traversing a subconscious terrain to integrate and express all that is wanting to come into and out of you.

SoulFullHeart offers this very unique and powerful way of being with all that is arising inside and manifesting outside. It is a portal to a deeper version of You that the universe is conspiring in your favor even in the uncertainty. If it just doesn’t seem to make any sense and you need to feel a set of heartrails to see where it may take you we offer a free 30-minute session to see if it may be a fit for you and your journey.

You can get more of our energy by participating in this Saturday’s group call on Zoom. It will be led by the co-creators of SoulFullHeart, Raphael and Jelelle Awen. This is a great way to take in more teachings and perspectives as well as a guided meditation and time to share and ask questions. You can get more information by visiting http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: New Dawn Coming In And Dying To BE Prior To 11/11 Gateway

Published on November 7, 2017November 7, 2017 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Wise words offered from a friend on Facebook, Deva Anupada, about what she is experiencing of these ongoing INtense ascension energies: “During last night another huge shift occurred which brought in a deep release of illusions delivered through intense and not so pleasant dreams for those participating. Followed by a new dawn bringing forth new awareness. This really is logging off life (the programme) in order to log on to life again with a new operating system. From a new platform. Like reincarnating without going through the physical death. Dying to BE.”

This could be why I slept 12 hours last night and still felt groggy and floaty when I woke up! Logging off happening in sleep, yes, and also in waking life more and more as timeline realities merge over each other, overlapping realities of Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and also your Star BEing aspects too coming more into your waking consciousness.

Dying to BE….that feels so true to me. Making ROOM for the rebirth means allowing and accepting the purging, clearing, cleansing, releasing that just NEEDS to happen right now. This is happening on levels we haven’t experienced before during our present timeline.

I would add that the death process feels to me that it is of the 3D self versions of us that HAD to be created and formed when we came into the body here. Such density we encountered coming here! Our soul porosity had to fragment into different energies that could cope and adjust to it. Those energies we feel and offer in SoulFullHeart are primarily about protection, control, fitting into gender roles (such as mother or father), etc. These fragmented energies then form our personalities, who we THINK that we are in 3D life until our soul awakenings when we start to discover that our essence is actually so much MORE than these 3D personalities. Our 3D self aspects can be understandably resistant and afraid of the dying and rebirth process as all that they have known of life seems to be collapsing away, being ‘ripped’ away from them.

Connecting with your 3D self aspects directly that are still anchored to 3D reality processing through undigested wounding can allow for more ease, grace, trust, acceptance, integration AS you undergo the ongoing process of ascension. Even if and when MORE shadow and woundings need to come up to be felt, then you have a ways and means to BE with them. Forming a relationship INside to allow for eventual INtegration and navigation of the often very challenging choice points as you unanchor from 3D life and move into 4D transitional death/rebirth and beyond. Much more about our process offered through weekly sessions and group calls on our website if you feel a resonance with what I am offering here.

A new dawn coming in…..The 11:11 gateway opening to activate the receiving of MORE codes and downloads does feel like it is going to be significant. It could serve as a ‘marker’ for many on their awakening process for which they really felt the NEW coming more deeply into their consciousness. The inner prep to receive these codes (such as Iwrote about yesterday) is important to the degree and depth that you can receive them. An aspect of this preparation is BEing with any resistance and fear that comes up from parts of you. This could also be manifesting in crisis, turmoil, intense life events too for which you become more aware of where you are still anchored to 3D life and where you are ready to let go.

Raphael and I are offering a group call on November 11 (this Saturday) at 11:11am CST to BE with these codes through an integration guided meditation, teachings about our process to bridge your 3D self aspects to allow more integration, and space for individual sharings as well. $11 U.S.D min. donation to join us:https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647/

Energy Update: Preparation To Receive 11/11 Upgrades Happening On All Body Levels (Emotional, Physical, Mental, Social, Energetic)

Published on November 6, 2017November 6, 2017 by Jelelle Awen7 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Energies are strong today….thick it feels like and dense somehow. Not in the sense of suppressing anything, just can make you feel way sleepy, low energy, and the ‘here and NOT here’ sense of merging timelines. In this place, you may have little desire to go out, physically, and more want to rest, meditate, feel, and BE. These energies have the feeling of preparing us for the ‘date’ of November 11th, this Saturday, and the extension and expansion of the highest timeline downloads we started receiving on the total eclipse in August.

I was guided to hold a group call with Raphael on 11/11 as a way to connect to these energies, offering a bridge to the emotional body/3D undigested frequencies through our parts work process. To offer a means of integration of these high energies as the emotional body clears and heals…this is what we offer through sessions too and our SoulFullHeart process. I believe the energies will be HIGH on this day, so it should be nourishing to be in a safe, high vibe circle connecting with others in resonance. If you’d like to join us for a $11 min. donation, go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/124047068285647/

In this preparation place/space to receive more downloads and activations, body sensitivities can be way UP and acute. What you eat and drink may be really impacting you in a new way. Using certain foods to provide comfort may be now intolerable to you and just not ‘working’ for emotional numbing as the body and the emotional come into more vibe together. Effects of caffeine and sugar may be amplified. As you become higher vibrational, the ‘buzz’ of these (when you do use them, even in small amounts) can create altered states….I have experienced this lately for myself.

I’m back to eating mostly fruit again these last few days, lots of water, cutting out sugar/caffeine/flour and much rest after having some toxicity reactions when I ate ‘denser’ foods and from moving out through my body some intense yet so good emotional body/Metasoul movements last week. I’ve already been a vegetarian (almost vegan) for eight years……this would be a good time to transition to going meat-free if you’ve been feeling that as the energies will support it much more. You may even find that you lose your appetite and ability to digest eating animals at this time and are just naturally drawn to fruits and vegetables.

If you’ve been moving through some heavy emotions and integration of shadow (as I’ve been writing about for the last few weeks), then your body may be feeling even more sensitive and clearing out these emotions on a cellular level. The more connected you become in wholeness to ALL of your bodies (physical, mental, emotional, chakral/energetic, social), the more you purge and clear on ALL levels. With our social bodies (personally and collectively) being flushed out by love, you may be experiencing upheavals too in relationships with new choice points based on your soul coming in, as I shared yesterday.

It is ongoingly an INtense and INteresting time of INtegration. Go within when you find the outside is just too overwhelming and dense and especially when you have something INside that wants and needs you attention to feel it.

Much love to you on this INward (and outward) journey! Offering a trust with you and to you in this now that what is coming up needs to be moved in order to prepare, ready, and, eventually, BEcome more love. ❤ ❤

When Sacred Intimacy Finds You Brother, Go In Not Away

Published on November 5, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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She comes into your life like a surging storm of passion and purpose. Or she may have been there all along waiting on the wings of your heart until you were ready to truly see her and let her in. Either way your life will not be the same because she won’t let it. She is not here to be the complacent companion or the sexy sidekick. She is here to invite you to feel your deepest fears and MANifest your greatest expression of being. You drew her because you were ready to move beyond the confines of casual comfort. Ready to inhabit your inner King and challenge the places that you have been stuck in growth.

She is the sacred feminine seeking her sacred masculine counterpart. She lights up your divine inspiration, opens and deepens your wounded and healing heart, she sparks your passion and creativity. She also brings in a mirror. A reflection of your largess that is hard to let in because you have parts that have yet to see it in themselves. Her fire highlights the places within you that are dampened and protected. You feel the places where she is dangerous to the parts of you you didn’t know you had until you went deeper into your truth.

Yeah. Your truth. What is real inside of that masculine heart of yours? Do you feel where parts of you have cordoned off the rage, the hurt, the fear of being seen in totality? There is much in the wounded male heart that has been buried in reaction to what lies in the recesses of our shadow. A collective and personal feeling of unworthiness with rumblings of other lives of suppression and dominance. Of being repressed and dominated. What would come out of your mouth if the gates were left open? This is the unknown world that sacred intimacy is guiding you into and it is a scary yet luminous journey.

She is the one I never knew I was looking for. She brings edges and mountains to a flatter world a part of me had created to keep thing the same. It is holding space for the deeper feelings of the parts of me that may not be all on board to this type of intimacy as they have been safely enjoying anonymity. She engages my leading edge while advocating to feel my trailing edge of truth in its realness. She calls for me to challenge her in her bigness as a challenge to my past care-taking. It is getting dirty and muddy when we have found ourselves at a dissonance to feel where we are truly in resonance. The end is always possible while the infinite is right at hand. This is a brave new world for me and for her.

I know my beloved Kalayna and I are just in our sacred infancy in some ways but we have been through much together. We have the blessed modeling of Raphael and Jelelle and yet we have our own challenges and uniqueness. I have much to feel and show up for in this continued deepening. As a man, there is a lot to trust and a lot to stand up for within myself. This can only be done by truly feeling the parts of us that hold resistance and passion both. This is the true passion ground of our sacred masculinity and heart-open sexuality. With Her, you and I will never be the same.

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From A Bud To A Flower: Sweet Sacred Union Beginnings

Published on November 5, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

That feeling of being in his arms… finding our way back to each other, after years of being in and out of relationship together, depending on what parts of us needed.

The letting in of his kiss… the swirl of the softness and stillness I feel in me in the receiving, that is echoed somehow in his masculine sacred King.

The exploration of sacred sexuality… the dedication and passion that opens out in every curve, every pore, letting emotions rise and fall and tears wash away the remnants of painful times, phases of less connection from heart to soul to body and back again.

So much moves in and through as I walk out each conscious moment with Gabriel. We have traversed so much terrain together over the last 5 years, sometimes in a romantic bond, other times not. This time feels more real and realistic too… though we cannot ever ‘know’ and can only feel what’s true in the moment.

Sacred Unions… they don’t happen by chance. They happen as we continue the work we are so committed to within. That commitment and that cultivated love that comes from it, flows in concert with another when we are ready for it to, the timing of which is not exactly up to us. The timing of anything truly special and unique moving into our lives is not up to us or parts of us, though parts may try and sabotage or avoid it, or work extra hard to ‘keep’ it. Love is a flowing river that gets to be shared with others once your own flow is in enough abundance that it can. Until then, your filling up love-flask needs your attention only.

Everyone can do ‘work’ on themselves and draw different sorts of mates to them… yet I don’t know of any other work that draws Sacred Unions in the way this path of SoulFullHeart does. Working with parts and soul aspects is instrumental to the understanding of who you are and have been in relationship as well as who you could become. It is an incredible way to get to know a partner too and to let them know you. It is an unending path of discovery and re-arising for each other, again and again and again. Nothing can stay the same for long, for there can be no stagnancy in this work. As you heal and awaken, your partner is asked to go with you and you with them, frequently changing the ground of the relationship. Nothing at all can become ‘boring’ in this sort of relationship, where the mirror is constantly there, though sometimes at very awkward angles, and you are invited to care as much if not more about YOU as you do about the other.

I am blessed to be where I am with Gabriel right now… the experiences of deepenings and openings too, that come sometimes on the other side of tension and process both together and separately too. We have frequencies of all sides of relationship… best soul friend, deep heart lover, hot body talk and sexuality, sweet tears of feeling one another, times of merging, times of feeling separate. There is so much here to feel and be and be in. I am blessed, yet we have both worked hard to be at this level of process too, where we can let this bond in… though there are parts of us that resist it at times, that can feel how challenging this sort of relationship can be, that would perhaps rather just be single. Yet the hearts of both of us are committed to this NOW and the next NOW, allowing the romance to arise and move as it needs to, with no knowledge of how long it could last, and no expectations around this, though there are conscious desires too.

To be in a budding and emerging Sacred Union is a gift that comes with a process, that comes with yummies and challenges, both. And without this healing path called SoulFullHeart that holds and calls to each of us continually, we would be caught up in a net of unmoveable binds instead of illuminating bonds that can heal these binds. This is one of the golden trophies we hold very sacredly in SoulFullHeart… the light at the end of a long tunnel of necessary singlehood, that has also been held as good and sacred and blessed. Sacred Union is worth the precipice and trust fall within that allows you to let YOU in and eventually another too. And it is one of the most profound gifts of our sacred humanity expressing in conscious duality. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Magical Experience Of Sacred Union Through The SoulFullHeart Process

Published on November 4, 2017November 4, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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This man….this soul choosing to BE in life with me. As partners in this dance of feeling and healing. As co-creators of a vocation that offers a service of love with others that arises as a genuine passion. As journeyers into the depths of ourselves and all the aspects that live inside of us. As co-integrators of shadows that live in our Metasouls and our counterpart pairings in different timelines: Lemuria, Atlantis, ‘ancient Greece’, Arcturian, and more.

This kind of partnership is not what we have been conditioned to believe about relationships in 3D life. 3D offers us not templates of two souls moving into health in ALL areas of their lives individually AND together…yet rather examples of unhealed and congested wounded places inside of each of them that often clash and burn or cling and bind….. until whatever love they had between them runs out of ground.

More scared unions than sacred unions are these, formed from undifferentiated parts of the 3D self ‘hooking up’ with each other. These hookups can look like two Inner Protectors guarding and ‘fighting’ each other; an Inner Matriarch (wounded masculine in the woman) with the Inner Patriarch (wounded masculine in the man); and many others. We need these reflections in others (that includes all relationships actually, with birth family esp.) until we no longer do in the same way.

The TRUE authentic selves, the higher selves coming into body of each partner may not claim much space on the dance floor of the relationship as it is so rarely safe enough INSIDE to allow for this overflow of genuine expression to come out. Lust then supplements for awhile and karma drama from other lifetimes and timelines, all without much consciousness around it. Duty and obligation can come in there too, along with needs to feel safe and secure.

This can be the experience of polarity and push-pull in 4D relationships. There is this sense of soul mating, of soul resonance, of belonging together in 4D consciousness around relationships. There are moments of genuine connection and even grounded bliss. Moments where two hearts can feel each other. Two bodies can connect with each other. And, yet, there is still the unfelt 3D stuff/wounding that anchors each partner into suffering loops and patterns. It anchors them into moments of fusion with 3D parts of themselves again. They go up and down in this unconscious cycle of push-pull together and the ceiling of good will, respect, and mutuality often crashes down around them eventually.

With Raphael, over our nine years together, I experience that we can navigate the murkier grounds of reactions and triggers together WHILE maintaining a larger container of love and goodness in the process. We don’t avoid what is in shadow or what is difficult. We don’t float in bliss together at all times (although many times we do, especially when we experience deep heart openings that come from moving through something difficult and come out the other side of it with MORE love.) We have been able to show up in relationship with each other this way because we have shown up for ourselves and parts of us in this way. With curiosity, we hold space for the energies that move through us. We feel them as very distinct and even commonly definable parts of ourselves that we have felt in so many others too.

Raphael and I can sit in conflict and tension together, as we did the other day for almost eight hours. Not to suffer in this space or to ‘beat each other up’ emotionally. Yet, rather, because we honor the energies inside and in our Metasouls that NEED this space to express and be relationally with an intimate other person and soul. The trust and love ground that we have between us and inside of us and in the Divine holds the space. We stay in the room together through it, allowing, and BEing with the fears that can live inside about the relationship completing, running out of ground, etc. Yet, we find the next going on place together and the next….AS we are willing and open to let go EVEN AS we are deeply committed to the union.

This IS possible through the parts work process, through the SoulFullHeart way of life and process that we offer and have been very deeply, personally engaged with for ten years. This understanding and feeling space that we create inside with parts of ourselves allows for the transaction together in an increasingly high frequencies of soul, body, heart, and mind AND integration of shadow too.

Someone commented the other day when I shared a joy moment that came after more Metasoul pairing integration with Raphael, ” I love how you’re really doing this – for real!” Yes, we really are and so can you….starting from inside of you, creating an inner sacred union with ALL aspects of yourself…..and this eventually drawing the your mate of soul, body, heart, and mind to be in it WITH you too!

Raphael’s comment on this post: “The challenge that arose between us a few days ago that Jelelle refers to was for me the most challenging yet, encountering a part of myself that has lived in my shadow…, something I don’t think would arise were it not for an intimacy as deep and ‘strange’ as ours. I say strange because the intimacy and magic I have and do experience with Jelelle still feels incomparable to a part of me, incomparable to anything I’ve seen or known or saw portrayed. I’ve tended to feel that strange magic in very private places, feeling also the vulnerability of it ending.

Now the universe is inviting us to self permit ourselves to offer to serve others in leading with what we have in deep transparency, feeling how opaque leaders and murky spiritual offerings are a thing of the past for so many souls now.

And….I’m feeling a ton of relief to be coming out the other side of an intense integration, or to the beginning of an integration in another way…

We are all being invited to a place where our life’s message is ‘I am the real thing, and if I ever feel less than that, I’ll be the first to admit that’.”

We offer a FREE 30 minute introductory session with us to get a sense for how the SoulFullHeart process could apply to you, your life, your desires, your frustrations, the parts inside that want and need you:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This photo was taken during an energy session with Raphael where I acted as midwife in moments, teacher in moments, student in moments, lover in moments, friend in moments….such is the multidimensional way we are with each other..

Energy Update: Revelation, Healing, And Integration Of Shadow Frequencies

Published on November 1, 2017November 1, 2017 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

The energies ARE personal. As personal as it gets as you ARE energy. You are a multidimensional, galactic BEing inside of a human form. You are connected to higher dimensional expressions, star BEing aspects of your Metasoul (soul source). You are BEcoming and merging with the consciousness of these star BEings from other timelines, other dimensions, other planets, other galaxies more and more in a process that is MEANT to impact you personally as this happens.

Does it feel sometimes like the ascension energies are outside of you? The gateways and vortexes opening? The stargates activating? The sun flares and geomagnetic storms churning? Does it feel like these things are happening outside of you in a distant, vast, and irrelevant outer space with little impact on your daily reality? If so, this can lead to a sense of distancing from the ascension process and that it is less meaningful on a personal level.

All of these energies swirling around in the cosmos, all this galactic activity, is also represented inside of you. Making it personal, taking it personally, is where I feel the REAL gift of awareness about cosmic energies comes in and goes in. Connecting what is happening ‘out there’ with how it is impacting your emotional body, your process, your experience of experience leads to more self awareness and capacity to digest what is happening. Providing some context and overall picture to hold what you are living out can help with the digestion of the experience.

There is A LOT happening in the now, in the cosmos, that impacts us as a collective and on a personal basis. It is a major phase of transition for us as the shadows, the darkness, the underground and underbelly, are disclosed and exposed. There is no ‘going around’ this process as what has been so polarized during the 3D experiment needs to come back into balance. The only way is by going through it with manifestations of chaos, upheaval, and death and rebirth happening through intense weather patterns and political/social/cultural crises.

Finding our balance again requires the revealing and eventual release of the dark energies that have had so much underground influence on our culture and the formation of our 3D self AND on our Metasoul too. Making this process personal is feeling and BEing with the traumas created from all this polarization to fear-based frequencies. These traumas can remain undigested in your emotional body in your 3D self AND also in your Metasoul through repeating loops of suffering patterns and cycles and karmic binds.

All the photonic light generation activities in the cosmos creates a SAFE container for the revelation and healing of this shadow on a collective and personal level. The HIGH frequencies provide a padded room for the bombs to explode when needed; the fuses to ignite; the storms to roar….until they run out of fear to fuel them. This padded room of pure love and light is also provided to YOU as a shield from these necessary outgasses. You can connect with your safe padded place through meditation, through connection with your Ethereal guides/aspects, through commUNION with the Divine (and the Divine Mother esp.), through service of love, through BEing in relationships that are nourishing, soul resonant, through drawing the support that you need. Through our SoulFullHeart process, we provide a heartline through aprocess for you to explore the aspects of your 3D and 4D selves, your shadow, your Metasoul/other lifetime expressions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

This doesn’t mean that you transcend out of whatever necessary shadow revealing and integrating process that you need to go through. Yet, rather, you have a sense of being held WHILE you are in this exploration. You are not just becoming the shadow or the darkness OR suppressing it either (that is the old way), yet you are holding space FOR the aspects and parts of you that are overly polarized to it. You get to know and connect with these aspects and invite them into the safe, padded room of your HEART and soul, where they can finally feel safe to share, to be felt, and to BEcome something real….and, eventually, then to heal.

As you digest the shadow revelation that is happening ‘out there’ feel how it is impacting you on a personal level. Feel your reactions inside to what comes out. Feel if your ‘safe padded room of love and light’ is available and if you are using it. Feel what support you need to navigate your own process of shadow revelation. Feel the taking of it all personally and what that means for you in a way that also allows you to FEEL held by love during the process. Feel the integration that wants to happen inside of you as the shadow meets the sun of love and finally finds it way home in your heart.

Emotosomatic Healing: The Deep Roots Of Parts Work

Published on October 31, 2017November 3, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

My recent back and neck pain has found a home in my heart. What I mean by that is that through a deep emotional movement and process with my beloved Kalayna, and energy sessions with Jelelle, the intense spasms and stiffness got felt in a deeper emotive root. The part of me that was using the pain as a protection and a way to get my attention was able to surrender into vulnerability and trust in the open hearts of both myself and my mate. It was an experience that demonstrated the power of our emotions and intimacy to transmute and heal.

Though the term “psychosomatic” is more commonly used, we feel that it is the emotional body that is ‘upstream’ of the mental body. Our emotions are energy in motion that translate into thoughts that have their own waveform and power. So, yes, what I was thinking was having a huge impact on my body, but what I was thinking was stemming from an emotive ground. So more specifically our physical ailments are “emotosomatic”, as coined by Jelelle. This is an agreeably mental distinction, but it feels important to highlight how physical pain is framed in SoulFullHeart without a claim that we have THE answer. It comes from our experience. One that is very evident to me.

The original source came from waking up one morning, after Kalayna and I had decided to move in together, with slight neck and back pain. This grew in intensity without an experience of an outside event such as a fall. It grew so fast and so intensely that it rendered me on the couch, as even walking in the neighborhood felt painful. Kalayna and I were not able to really be close to each other as the pain found its way between us. While it is easy for our 3D self to take it at face value and just deal with the reality at hand, if we are to truly embody that what we experience IS a creation of our own power and making, then what was the suffering and pain all about? This is the place to go in curiosity and true self-awareness.

A part of me was using the severity of the pain as a way not to really feel the deeper root underneath it all. I found myself fusing to the pain, meaning I wasn’t able to see outside of it. For those that have major chronic pain, it is understandable and I get it. BUT, if we are to truly get through the pain it needs be gotten under. This is where conscious intimacy, especially romantic, can have such a powerful effect. Kalayna, and a part of her, had to be honest with its impact on us and her.

It was hard to feel that, and not feel the impulse to be defensive and resort to a state of powerlessness. In the tears, we felt our romantic past and how a pattern was repeating itself. I could begin to feel the difference between me now and me then and how much I, Gabriel, needed and wanted a sacred union but another part of me was in resistance for various reasons. Using her gift of intuition, she helped me to feel some other dimensional layers that resulted in a vulnerable holding of an aspect of me that has been in isolation for so long. The touch of another brought significant tears that held the energy of trauma and loneliness.

The next day I found myself in a dramatically different physical space and was even to go out to dinner and enjoy some walking around town. Totally unimaginable the day before, as I could barely get off the couch and walk around the apartment. More poignantly, I am feeling this aspect of me in my heart and not in my spine any more. The pain was felt at its root and is now a process in my heart that I can be with consciously. A deepening occurred between Kalayna and myself and we can now start to feel what else is there for us to feel with the pain out of the way. It brought us to a vista of what lies between our hearts and souls to heal.

I felt very inspired to share this personal experience to demonstrate the power of parts work and the nature of pain as based in the emotional body. There is so much to learn about ourselves and what lies in between us and real love. There are souls that have taken on huge physical challenges that are meant for their own growth in ways that can only be illuminated by going into the heart and feeling the hidden pain that lies in the deep emotional and spiritual roots. What is it that your soul is wanting you to finally heal? Ask your pain. Ask for help.

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A Part Of Me

Published on October 31, 2017 by Raphael Awen3 Comments

232 Painting by Cianelli Studios

By Raphael Awen

Are you about ready for a serious leap in your emotional and spiritual maturity?…

…Begin to see yourself as a makeup of more than one persona, and then seek to find ways to show up to get to know and feel these aspects of what you call yourself.

This is my truth about the makeup of our being, but I don’t want to pound the pulpit claiming and arguing, but rather invite you to feel into if this feels true for you. If it does, then you’ve just given me the pleasure of being the tour guide showing you your truth, which also happens to be mine!

I don’t know of any other growth or discovery piece that comes close to this huge contextual piece of what we call Partswork. Not only that, but without this piece of CONTEXT, the CONTENT of how you relate to other spiritual and emotional growth steps or practices are called into question.

‘You’ learning to meditate, or to ‘live in the now’, or ‘to live for God’, or getting all jacked up about ‘being a lightworker’ isn’t contextually grounded until you find the differentiated part of you drawn to that practice or way of life and WHY they are drawn to that way of life. A whole new world of magic opens up as a mature growing authentic self comes to intimately know these polarized and very different energies that make up what up till now, you’ve related to as ‘you’.

Until you enter this awareness and unfolding deeper reality of your multifaceted makeup, you are fused with the picture of being a single personality, I call it SPD – single personality disorder, your best explanation for diverging desires is mood swings, or some energies external to you, or astrology, or Ascension, or an illness in the body, etc.; all of it true on one level, but none of it that you can get really get intimate with and take responsibility for, left trapped in SPD land.

SPD is the perfect cover for staying stuck, and easily clung to in the collective until one’s tipping point and choice points come to value their own healing over fitting in; their own true fulfillment as a sacred calling over the false and futile pretense of serving others with a fulfillment you don’t actually possess.

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