Quantum Healing With Your Gatekeeper: Video with Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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SoulFullHeart co-creators and Teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, share about the Metasoul, the veil of amnesia, Metasoul Aspect connections, and the opportunities for quantum healing of multiple lifetimes of soul pattern wounding at this time of Matrix collapse during these excerpts from a group call originally recorded on June 17, 2020. Our Gatekeeper is an aspect of our soul that remains ‘outside’ of the incarnation cycle and is the keeper of the veil of amnesia around other lifetime experiences and aspects.

In the video, Raphael goes into a ‘drop-in’ with his Gatekeeper facilitated by Jelelle to get a deeper understanding of the Gatekeeper Realm and their relationship to the human soul they have co-contracted to guide and help heal and ascend.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their process of their experiences with the guided meditation and their connections with their Gatekeepers.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on June 17 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharings from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our next group call series Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out beginning July 15: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit: http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through our shop at http://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or PayPal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen.

Energy Update: Sirius Gateway Soul Activations & Initiations Through Going Within Rather Than Outward

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By Jelelle Awen

 It’s an interesting challenge to find words to describe the energies that have been coming with the Sirius Gateway and passage opening that started around the beginning of July and extends through Lion’s Gate 8/8. You have probably been FEELING and noticing these energies on physical/mental/energetic/emotional levels. The potential that these energies offer are the receiving of more guidance and clarity coming through, thinning veils on remembering/accessing other lifetimes, deep quantum healing of karmic binds and sacred wounds, and light body cellular clearing/activation.

My own activations have been around deeper initiations into Non-dual/Samadhi and mind stillness frequencies within my Metasoul and connecting to India/Hindu lineages through connection with Metasoul Aspects (from other lifetimes), Beloved Guides/Ascended Teachers, and my own Divine Self/Inner Guru. The space within the mind expands beyond the mind, filling up with your awareness of awareness…and empties out of content, random thoughts, orientations to the past or the present, and energies of other people. In this place, you open up into the NOW with only awareness of your own awareness. It brings up quite strong frequencies of bliss, joy, and utter peace within. It has been wonderful to feel this process, to surrender to it, and just allow time to go by within it without a ‘schedule’ to follow.

I feel as if this process of going within, the NEED for it, is very heightened right now for all of us. With the peaking of fear and disclosure happening in the 3D/4D timelines, there is so much intensity to wade through ‘out there’. So much content and information that is highly charged with an agenda behind it… propaganda with an ulterior motive. So much ‘truth’ being shared that is actually from a false place of fear and control with strong sides being taken and cases being argued.

If you are taking something in on social media or in the ‘news’ and it greatly lowers your frequency without offering personally new insight/clarity/process for you, then it is most likely toxic to your energy field and not worth it. Often it can take you longer to clear out the energy of what you have read or watched then actually offer any benefit. Mindlessly scrolling online can come with a cost to emotional/physical/energy well being these days especially. Being very conscious of what you are taking in and WHY you are is an aspect of orienting to life from the INSIDE OUT rather than the OUTSIDE IN.

These 3D energies are very dense, conflictual, heavy with fear, polarized, and yet very necessary to come up and out, be revealed in order to be healed. You would only choose to take them in, to absorb them in any way, if it calls to you on a soul level for your own healing. Otherwise, finding your place of peace, stillness, quiet, even joy and bliss can offer a true shelter during this ‘storm’ for both you and those that you may choose to share with.

This is not using transcendence to avoid feeling or bypassing to tune into these places within rather than overly focus outward right now. BEing in this stillness allows you to feel whatever is needed in your own emotional body and parts of you, whatever reactions and triggers are coming up from within due to the HUGE collective purging/disclosing/detaching process that is going on. You are able to truly feel then how what you experience of the outside energies is truly a conscious choice. Being in this stillness also opens you up to receive whatever soul initiations are waiting for you and that your Divine Self wants to provide you.

The Sirius energies remind us of this still place within as their planet comes closer to Gaia…your Sirius Aspect becomes more readily available to connect with and receive guidance from. They often appear as Lion and Lioness-human hybrids. Feeling regal, wise, and strong, it can be empowering to take in their frequencies. They offer a frequency of empowerment that is not about outside manifestation or achievement (which is being heightened right now as well in 3D even as it is collapsing), yet about becoming more in alignment with and embodying your Divine Self.

The priorities of your life and where you put your energy and focus become clearer during this passageway. Relationships fall away and let go that are no longer resonant and can no longer transact even those with strong soul capacities on their ‘leading edge’. There can be quite a lot to grieve in this process of letting go. This is particularly happening in romances and friendships during this passage and coming out of this Matrix collapse/Covid Event, which is revealing areas of resonance and dissonance quite strongly. Service of love and soul purpose expression becomes more purified and false expressions fall away and collapse.

Connecting to your Divine Self Within…the bigger space holder and compassionate witness of your life provides a powerful support right now. Your Divine Self can help you with discernment and what to fill your heart/mind/body UP with right now that will most serve you and LOVE.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Raphael and I will be co-hosting a livestream on Facebook on Sunday, July 12th at 10:00am PDT offering an expanding energy update, answering/responding to questions, talking about the Matrix collapse/disclosure process, providing a brief guided meditation, etc. You can watch it live on https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen and we will share the recording on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel https://www.youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience.

Raphael and I will also be starting a NEW six week group call series on July 15 called Free To Be 5D that is an accompaniment to my new book called Free To Be 5D as well offering teachings, personal sharings and guided meditations to create a deeper experience of the content in the book, with links to purchase as PDF, ebook, and print edition here: soulfullheart.org/books.
More info about joining us for the group call series by donation at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

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by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❤

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❤

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Initiation As A Rite Of Embodied Self-Realization

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We are always in phases of initiation whether we consciously choose them or not. The cycles of initiation lead us to Realization. We may spend years in a cycle until we are ready to graduate and move on to integration, only to be met by another cycle of initiation.

The Initiations are varied, specific to your soul needs and wounding. Crucibles arise when we are ready to fully embody the lessons of the initiation itself. We face intimacy initiations, leadership initiations, truth-telling, boundary, and courage initiations. All of them meant to challenge our way to the next level of our growth and maturation as an ego and a soul.

Sometimes we choose our initiations and sometimes they choose us, all orchestrated by the soul. These are meant for the parts, or Metasoul aspects, of us still stuck in a suffering loop or pattern. These loops are centered around something usually very traumatic which makes it that much harder to go into to heal free from.

The emotional body is where you may find the biggest anchors, the largest obstacles to these graduations and self-realizations. We can all achieve temporal states of bliss and Oneness, but the bigger plan is to fully EMBODY Samadhi in the physical. To be walking, conscious Divinity in the Now.

So from here to there, we have work to do. Things to feel, trauma and fear to heal, desires to express, and dreams to manifest. We have initiations to attend to, graduations to celebrate, and integrations to soak in. This is a journey, not a rocket launch. Yet the more you let in what the heart and soul needs and wants, and walk out those initiations with self-care, the faster the healing and shifts can occur.

As has been said many times, it is not the product but the process, and that process is Initiation.

For more about the SoulFullHeart Process and Paradigm, I highly recommend Jelelle Awen’s new book, Free To Be 5D. Visit soulfullheart.org/books for more info.

There will also be a 6-week Zoom call series about the book beginning next Wednesday, July 15. For more info go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: CATalytic Sirian Gateway Creates UPsurge And Clarity

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The Ascension train keeps rollin’!

This week we have found ourselves in the midsts of the beginning of the Sirian Gateway that looks to take all the way to August. Lots of energies coming at us and within us for feeling, healing, and integration. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle and Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais share about those energies and more in writings and videos from the week all gathered together in one place below in our weekly museletter.

We also share about upcoming events, including a NEW six week group call series Free To Be 5D starting on July 15th, based on Jelelle’s new book of the same title that you can purchase at soulfullheart.org/books

You can subscribe to receive this weekly update museletter automatically every Monday via email at soulfullheart.org/writingmuseletters.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart!

You can offer a donation to SoulFullHeart via PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Check out the latest Museletter below:

https://mailchi.mp/63f6a4f2ef66/soulfullheart-muselettercatalytic-sirian-gateway-creates-upsurge-and-clarity

You Are Infinite

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By Raphael Awen

As a being, you constantly express this infinity that you are, whether you are aware of it or not. This infinity manifests in you as both the desire for all things as well as the deep gratitude for all things. There is nothing in the universe that is not you, nothing that is separate from you.

Even the apparent created reality of a separate and distinct self, a finite self, is a created reality that we dialled up from our infinite self, to learn within. The finite was parented from the infinite.

Even the relationship you have with life wherein lack has been made the main story and conscious  waking reality are also a powerful manifestation of the super-abundant reality that you ARE. You, AS INFINITY, dialled up an all too real feeling storyline of lack in which parts of you are the main characters living out something so far removed from the super abundant infinity that you are. Your waking conscious reality is actually one still very much asleep possibly.

Your soul knows that the letting go of the original conscious awareness of this super abundant infinity of being in order to enter an amnesia and subsequent awakening/re-membering process IS where the true gold of being is found….where each of us is reborn into something so much more than we were, even compared to who and what we were before we chose the amnesia. Even our original bliss state was undiscovered and immature. 

Many dream of winning the lottery only to find that those who do cannot digest the instant rise to super abundance as they have not had a process of acclimating themselves to the wealth. The dream of ‘having it all’ comes from a subconscious knowing that they already ARE and have it all, and the inability to hold the All (lottery winnings) also comes from the unintegrated subconscious deep storylines of lack.

If you and I already possess it All, but we are living in a self-created story of something less than the dawning realization of that, then the present story we find ourselves in is the creation of our super abundant infinity.

And if we created this and are creating this, then we did this in order to awaken to THAT, and to feel all there is to feel in relation to the present created reality. Like a movie producer and story writer, we gave ourselves these dramas in order to feel the things that we as a soul knew we needed to feel in order to realize what we set out to realize. We are out and about ‘real’-izing the infinity that we are.

If this is true, then we have our work cut out for us. The ‘work’ has up till now gone on even in our unawareness and unawakened state, as we now awaken to an ever more conscious state of choice, intention and effort towards inhabiting what we most deeply and truly want. We discover that our waking reality is actually a bad dream and a sleeping reality that we wish to awaken from, that we get to awaken from, and that as unpleasant as this bad dream was and is, it is actually all originating in love, and part of love. 

We’ve been given the seeds, the soil, the sun and the water, and now, the awareness that we ARE the gardener who is growing the garden of self, of love, of surrender to the divinity and infinity moving within our souls.

Our mandate now is ‘just feel what there is to feel’ and thereby to let-in this transmutation of our being that we are living out in each moment.

Each of us has new and powerful story lines awaiting our choice and appetite to step into. We chose this. Infinity itself is watching you with wonder and awe at what you will choose next.

If you are seeking a conscious awakening into the more that you already are, I offer a free initial consult into what ongoing sessions within the SoulFullHeart process could look like and feel like for you. Please check us out at our website below and be in touch.

Much Love,

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

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by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing To Access Love Flow

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Letting Love in is to let Love flow. To let Love flow is to open up to all possibility, to our vulnerability. I felt myself a bit constricted this morning after being in so much goodness. It is an interesting mechanism to keep feeling.

As I bring my awareness to the part of me that is still needing to govern the flow of Love, I feel compassion and to say ‘I Love You’ even in the constriction. In that, they loosen. My masculine and feminine. They see each other anew. Not in conflict, but in union to open the curtains more to let in and let out the flow of Divine Love that is inherent in us all. Universal and Eternal.

Feeling leads to alchemical healing. Healing opens the gates to more Love, more Truth, more Joy, more Passion, more Intimacy. The Infinite at our doorstep.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Healing False Mother To Let In Divine Mother: Women’s Group Call July 5

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By Jelelle Awen

When I shared on social media previously about my upcoming women’s group call tomorrow where we will be feeling into healing the Motherhood wound/False Mother to let in Divine Mother, a question came up around, ‘who is the false mother?’ Exploring the answers to this question is where we will go within the call space….as it is truly unique to each woman and her Metasoul experience/lineage as well.

In general, the False Mother is any projections/archetype/’lineage’ and legacy/birth family line and other lifetimes experiences/karma that block and limit access to experiencing and letting in the energies of the Divine Mother. False Mother can show up in ‘presentations’ and packages of Divine Mother that are used in strategic and dogmatic ways, such as in religions, some spiritual practices, and even in New Age offerings. These energies can have a warrior energy to them, be seductive or overly pious, and fused to other lifetime archetypal expressions such as Priestess/Witch/Sorceress/Shaman.


False Mother usually feels impersonal, transcendent, non-relational, even punitive/punishing in frequency. False Mother can show up even in Goddess worshipping practices in which you tune into and even ‘obey’ the “Will of the Goddess.” False Mother is also something you are looking to on the ‘outside’ rather than experiencing from the inside in deepening ways.


These False Mother energies are actually usually coming from the lower 4D wounded/unhealed masculine energies and the AI Matrix. A Matrix is actually a womb yet the 3D/4D control Matrix has been about programming, conditioning and conformity and distorting light/love into a false version in order to keep many souls ‘stuck’ at a certain tier of consciousness. In a way, the Matrix has also been a False Mother to parts of us and soul aspects as well.


As the Matrix continues to collapse and the wounded masculine heals, there is more opportunity to connect with the pure and authentic energies of Divine Mother. The False Mother frequencies become revealed from within (such as those expressing in your Inner Mother), in relationships (with birth family feminine caregivers and in your Matriarchal family line), and in your Metasoul experiences.
As you identify, feel, and heal these false mother frequencies, you then experience the REAL Divine Mother of PURE unconditional love, compassion, authenticity, range of expression (from still to fiery as needed…..from deeply compassionate to unsentimental, etc.), passion, and template for embodiment within your sacred feminine human body.


You feel then the Divine Mother within YOU and come that much more into embodying Her AS you. As Divine Mother has told me so many times, “I am you and you are ME. Now, let THAT in!”


We will explore this more tomorrow in my monthly women’s group call over Zoom at 10:00am PDT through teachings/sharings with me, a guided meditation to connect to your Inner Mother/False Mother within through a bridge with Divine Mother, and personal sharings for those women who would like to. We will tune into the loving sisterhood circle created during the call to generate more of the Divine Mother energy.


You can attend and/or receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/womensgroupcalls and https://www.facebook.com/events/425536431663247/


You can purchase the recording of any of my previous women’s calls where we explored Healing the Sisterhood Wound, bridging to Divine Mother (two calls), Sacred Feminine healing, healing the inner masculine and more at the same links as above.


I also recommend my new book Free To Be 5D, where I describe much more about the False God/Mother/Light Matrix and how it expresses and the SoulFullHeart process to heal from it: soulfullheart.org/books

Mid-Year Energy Update: CATalytic Sirian Gateway Creates UPsurge And Clarity

Published on by Gabriel Amara2 Comments

Half of 2020 is ‘in the books’. This roller coaster of a ride feels like it is honestly just beginning. From what I understand from an astrological perspective is that this is something that may be a ‘new normal’ for some time to come, through next year possibly.

When I tap into that from my guidance as well, it feels very true. The amps have been turned up and the field we find ourselves in is quite catalytic and rumbling. What I saw in meditation was a lighthouse among an onslaught of waves that was being influenced by an intense energy field. I made an image to represent the feeling tone of it.

I feel we are entering a 4D upsurge. The Subconscious, concurrent timelines, and archetypal dynamics are all making their way to the surface of our waking and/or physical reality. It is causing waves, both inner and outer.

This Sirian Gateway is adding to that overall mix. It is quite a potent time to be here now. If there is any guidance, it IS to Be Here Now. To find the lighthouse within. To connect to the Sirian energies of clarity, boundary, purpose, and play. They give us the ability to stay focused, be real, and be fluid.

The Lighthouse represents how I want and need to be during this times. I feel more solid than ever in my soul’s purpose and heart’s desire to serve, however that manifests itself. If there are others that feel to be tossed and torn during this time, I feel to offer my heart space or at least my own clarity of what is happening collectively.

This can be hard to navigate these waters alone, especially if you find yourself further from the shores you once called ‘home’. A lot is changing and will no longer be the same. We are all in a birth canal in one form or another. Finding a life preserver along the way is not a sign a weakness, but a sign of willingness not to suffer in the storm.

Beginning July 15th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be offering the next Free To Be 5D Group Call series. This will be focused on Jelelle’s book of the same title. The series will be a great opportunity to connect to all of the parts and aspects of you that are in trauma and/or confusion. It aims to be the Lighthouse in the storm. Opportunities to digest the calls and to connect with others will offered by myself and Kalayna Solais on Saturdays beginning July 18th.

For more info visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

For info on Jelelle’s book: soulfullheart.org/books

I also offer a free 45-minute Consulation Call to feel if and how SoulFullHeart can serve you during these catalytic times.

Sending much love to you and all that you are navigating at this time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.