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The Transformational Journey Of Your Inner Mother/Matriarch

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by Kasha Rokshana

One of the many, many expressions of our feminines is the Inner Mother or what could also be called the Matriarch. 

There’s quite an arch of healing for this part of you. As you get to know and feel her more, you feel her tendencies and life strategies; her ways of dealing with other parts, with life circumstances, and with outer relationships too. 

At first, this part appears an awful lot like your birth mother or another female caregiver/authority figure, or a mix of many feminine influences in your life. In my case, she was a mix between my mother, my older sister, and even my sister-in-law sometimes. This can definitely make feeling this part very challenging at first, especially if your relationship with your mom/these feminine influences in this lifetime has been particularly difficult or abusive, even subtly so at times. It can feel like another level of being invaded by her/their energies and feeling how deep the imprint has gone into you, even with parts of you (usually the inner teenager) trying to rebel against being like ‘her’.

She can have the energy of being quite punishing or pushy, protective, dominating, and critical. She can also, on the other hand, have an energy of passivity, of overly people-pleasing and even martyrdom. This all becomes a complicated mix at times too, coupled with resentful giving, caring and also not caring about self and others, competition, etc. This part can truly represent your trailing edge as a feminine.

Yet, this part of you has also had a reason to be this way, as have all parts of you. She learned these behaviours, strategies, and ways of relating to life and even love through the influence and invasion of feminine authority figures and what they haven’t felt or healed in their own parts. She also hasn’t been shown another way to be, especially with being more plugged in a times to the Matrix and the mixed messages there about how to BE a ‘real woman’. She can be understandably reactive to these Matrix energies, overwhelmed by trying to hold and lead life as well as take care of other parts of you in the only ways she’s been modeled how. 

She’s also had to become a more matriarchal/masculinized feminine energy because of all you’ve had to respond to in your life as a woman, including being a single mom or in general having an absence of a steady and trustworthy masculine on the outside. So often this part of you is also compensating somehow for a gap there, especially if you haven’t had a loving birth father experience or a soulmate who is truly willing and able to show up for himself and in the bond. Even as I write this, I feel the feminine ache we all share around this, no matter what degree we’ve healed or felt it at this time. It’s truly a pain that lives in many parts of us, yet this part in particular usually needs quite a bit of digestion around it.

This is where you come in. As you feel her and begin to exchange love with her in deeper and deeper ways, she has the opportunity to lean into your open heart and even your own boundaries you set with her (as she so often hasn’t had boundaries set with her before). You invite her to feel her deeper pain with you over time and step by step, moment by moment, she begins to heal and open up to her own transformation – a true becoming of who she actually IS, well beyond the pains and unfelt trauma of your own mother. 

As this part of you transmutes, she begins to soften and become more feminine. Her judgements heal to discernment, her passivity heals to passion. She still may have a ferocity at times, yet it’s led differently and isn’t so much about attacking of defending or even dominating. She wants collaboration and resonance more so than to be willing to just stew in dissonance, never really resolving her suffering or pain inside or outside of you. She begins to heal into a whole new expression of what it means to be a ‘mother’ and may even begin to feel herself as another expression of Divine Mother.

The whole arch of this part of you also often requires you to take space from your own birth mother, as it’s the only way she can really be felt by you and begin to differentiate. This is also how you as a woman can begin to truly feel who you are beyond your mother’s influence… a very sacred part of your own becoming, your own embodiment of Divine Mother.

Join Jelelle and all of us for a women’s call all about the Inner Mother/Matriarch process. More info here: soulfullheart.org/divineselfseries

Also, 1:1 sessions are available with me for women and I also offer free intro calls. More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions   

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Connecting With Tender Needs Within: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Sometimes it feels 

As if the void,

A feeling of something

Or someone

Being ‘missing’

Will always be there

For part of me

Who aches to let in love

So completely

That she would feel truly,

Irreversibly,

Complete herself.

I answer her questions

With one of my own,

“What is it you need

From me

Or even from the Divine

In order to truly feel loved

At all times?”

She answers me,

“Kasha, 

I just really need this time with you,

This space from every trial

That we’ve recently experienced.

I really need to feel

Divine collaboration,

Like I’ve done nothing wrong

And our Divine parents

Support us unconditionally,

Want us to truly experience

And become love…

Want us to truly embody

Our own divinity together.”

I respond,

“Ah, love…

I feel your heartache,

Those twinges

And tweaks

You so want answered

By reflections of all that you are,

The power you have,

And the love you have to give.

I feel your humble desire

To be able to open up 

And receive again

And again

And again

While surrendering deeply

To what life,

Love,

The Divine,

Is bringing you to feel into,

To inhabit,

To live into.

I love you

Right where and how you are.

I wouldn’t ever want to change you,

Just hold you,

Honour the bravery you’ve had 

All these years

To keep looking at yourself,

While learning how 

To hold, feel,

And respond to others.

I will never leave you.

Just keep letting me in.”

And together

We cry,

As we’ve done so many times before,

With needy hearts,

With a deep love exchange,

With appreciation

For this landing place we share

Within,

With the Divine,

And with beloved, resonant others.

Bringing love to every challenge,

Learning always to receive love 

Deeper,

Walking hand-in-hand

Towards the next sunrise

Where we will arise again

Anew,

In new completeness

Together.

— This is an example of the type of dialogue I had with a part of me just this morning as I checked in with her… it’s not always this easy to access a part’s needs or desires underneath their ache, angst, and protection at times, yet once they do open up to you and truly feel your heart’s intention to show up for them, be the voice and energy of the loving Divine for them, they really do respond. 

It takes so much consistency though in my experience of it, and sometimes you have to be with them through some very tough and even kicky moments as they begin to let you in. Once they do, they start to transform and truly transmute their pain.

Do get in touch with myself or Jelelle Awen if you’re a woman looking for 1:1 space-holding as you too deepen or even begin your journey of feeling parts of you. If you’re a man and drawn to this work, Raphael Awen is the King you’re looking for. 

There is more info on sessions and FREE intro calls here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

As True Courage Lives In You: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Encouragement
Is allowing courage
To live in you.

A journey of embodying
What it means
To live from the heart.

Truly living heart-fully
Means the filled-up heart within
Speaks its truth,
Holds steady its overflow,
Makes space
For filling up again
From that infinite source
Above, beyond,
Around,
Within you.

To become encouraging
Your own courage must be ripened,
Sharpened by the edges
Of sometimes challenging choices,
Darker-feeling phases
And still finding the light
That shines always upon you
Through the tunnels
Of the unknown.

If what you always
Return to
Is your filling-up heart space
Then you, beloved,
Are feeling the Great Beloved,
That Divine Love always reaching,
Always offering bridges,
Always loving you deeply
Just where you are.

Yes… just where you are.

In that exact place,
In that sense of lostness,
In that longing to be found,
In that yearning for love.

Perhaps the greatest courage
You will ever feel
Is the courage to be met
By this love always wanting you,
Always offering to carry you,
Always creating a resting place
For you
For your soul
For your parts
For everything that has ever
And will ever
Live inside of that vast being
That makes you both ‘you’
And somehow ‘One’ with ‘All’.

Receiving takes far more courage
Than resistance
For once this love has been tasted,
Nothing else compares,
Nothing else inspires,
And nothing else
Could possibly satiate
Every longing that has ever lived
Inside of every cell
That lives in your ‘self’.

So choose your courage,
Stay in your light
As you bridge to your shadow,
Love yourself in every moment
With support from that
Which will always,
In all ways,
Support YOU
As the brave arising One
Who continues to be challenged
To choose your soul bigness,
Your expression as Love embodied,
And your incredible courage
To be here now.

Love,
Kasha and the Divine

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Solstice Energies: Lean Into Your Sovereign King/Queen Choices

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by Kasha Rokshana

Energy Update: With the Summer Solstice taking place tomorrow, we’re being energized by codes that invite us into some powerful choice points. These choices feel to me like the invocation of our inner Kings and Queens – aspects of us who aren’t necessarily trauma-based as other parts of us are and have been at times, yet who need activation, growth, and responding to nonetheless. It’s our growing connection with these aspects that helps us find clarity and open-hearted compassion, drawing and deepening soulmate romance/soul family relationships, our ability to relate to life as more than something  ‘black or white’, and our very sacred ‘yes’ and ‘no’ which opens up the portal for our next life/awakening/ascension phases. 

It’s all about moving into our sovereignty and power with love for ourselves which can overflow to others in profound, truly life-and-heart-changing ways.

Yesterday was the first day of our Solstice gathering here in our community, and it was a catalytic day. As the gathering began and Raphael, Jelelle, and Raianna played the sound bowls while we all closed our eyes, a gallant white Lion with a golden sun on his third eye came to me and the part of me that I’m mostly working with right now. 

He said, “I am Solstice”.

I wasn’t the only one to see and feel a lion in our circle yesterday, either. Which seems to mean that he and his majestic lioness counterpart are available to anyone who needs them and asks for their support as we all move into and through this sacred passage of deeper awakening and empowerment. They invite us to feel our way through with sobriety, feeling through all possibilities at hand, while trusting the bigger picture and the Divine love holding us all at all times. 

This is helpful if you’re feeling a choice where you may need to let go of something precious to you or part of you, or choose to let it in deeper and what that could mean. This could be about letting go into a romantic, soulmate bond where the love coming in is rumbling your world as you’ve known it and even your consciousness as you’ve related to it, and either letting that in deeper or not feeling quite ready to yet. It could be about letting yourself immerse in an experience of soul family and seeing what the love flow there pushes up for you to explore within yourself and with others. It could be about recognizing what truly makes you and parts of you happy in your life circumstances as you know them now, or what your dreams and awakening desires tell you could be so much better, more nourishing, and more supportive overall of your ongoing journey of healing and discovery of who you truly are.

I feel how much this activation of Kings and Queens is deep and needed for our inner worlds yet also for our contribution to the co-creation of the outer world. Awakening in and of itself is not enough if the choice points aren’t met and the embodiment of our Divine Self isn’t sought after. It takes our Kings and Queens and the feeling through of their hesitations and concerns about these choices we’re invited to make as well as what they would love to create and embody in all areas of life by making these choices, in order to move through each one. The only way out is through… so diving into each one, feeling what they all bring up to feel, is the ticket to the new. 

Leaning into the unknown/Limbo can only really happen for so long before your genuine empowerment asks you to make some sort of choice which your parts can lean into, clearing away any suffering while stuck in the ‘in-between’ or in a place of trying to hold your life as you’ve known it in some sort of stasis while it’s meant to move into a new phase. Even if your connection with your King or Queen is in its bud form at this time, the invitation to take the space needed with the intention of choosing something, even for just this next phase of your life, is calling to you and it’s through these choices that your sovereign King/Queen grows and finds their genuine place in your heart and in your life, neither of which will ever be the same.

If you feel you’d like support to feel your King or Queen inside of you and their personal activations and invitations at this time, we have a men’s group call and a women’s group call coming up this weekend, June 24 and 25. The men’s call on Saturday will be focused on feeling and healing the inner King, while the women’s call on Sunday will be its counterpart in feeling and healing the inner Queen. These are the last calls of our Sacred Union group call series and you don’t need to have come to any of the others in order to jump in if you feel called! Here is more info: soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries

Lots of love to you as you feel what’s moving for you during this sacred Solstice time.

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Year of the Sacred “Yes”

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By Raianna Shai

I woke up into this new year feeling a palpable bittersweet-ness. For me, and perhaps many others, it has been a big year of letting go and then deeply grieving those losses. In a sense it has been a year of saying “no”. To tired patterns, old versions of ourselves, relationships, environments, tensions, and anything that brings a sense of unworthiness or heaviness.

The phase of saying no is SO sacred and tells all the precious parts of you that they are worthy of love and deserve all the desires and needs that live in their hearts. Letting go and deeply feeling the grief of it is something that not many are taught to do. We are taught to let go and forget or hold on for good. But to feel every inch of sadness, relief, confusion, heartbreak, or deep despair that comes up from letting go is so much more meaningful than letting it all sit underneath the surface.

Feeling the depths of these emotions allows more room for all everything you want to say “YES” to. That’s how I feel 2023 will unfold, the year of yes.

Yes to healing
Yes to love
Yes to the divine
Yes to transformational relationships
Yes to inner growth
Yes to opening out the heart again

Saying no to so many things can feel so depleting and disheartening. It’s hard to open yourself up again to the new possibilities that can fill the void that has been left. In the meantime, we can fill the void ourselves with our own inner relationships and inner growth. But soon we can open up again and let in the magic of the new.

Everything we’ve dreamed of is on the horizon just waiting for us to be ready for it. We can hide in the shadows in fear of hurting again, or open our hearts to love and loss knowing that we’ll always find our way back to love. I feel so much honouring of all that has been let go of this year, including an old layer of myself that is ready to move out. And now I welcome in more alchemy, flow and intimacy than ever before! Wishing a REAL New Year to you all ♥️

✨ The pictures attached is an incredible creation by Kasha as a Christmas card this year!✨

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Opening To Love With Every Part Of You

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By Jelelle Awen

You keep opening your heart to love. You do, because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like…..your heart is breaking into pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, saying, ‘This is me, all broken up. Will I ever come together again?’

These parts of you speak of hurt and loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually help them be FREE from these frozen in fear moments.

These parts of you cry with you their tears that often weren’t allowed, permitted, or felt in the moment the pain was caused and harm received by others. These parts of you…..sometimes so, so young, precious, and innocent….can then be held by your and the Divine Mother’s forgiveness and compassion. They can become pure again under the light of your loving sun.

You keep holding the space for this process….being with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL with ALL parts of you. You keep feeling because, on the other side of this pain, is the joy that is contained in every part of you.

On the other side of the fear…..is the love that is the essence of every part of you.

On the other side of the shame….is the innocence in every part of you.

On the other side of the judgement….is the acceptance of every part of you.

On the other side of the unworthiness….is the sense of your innate goodness as a reflection of the Divine.

Your Divine Self keeps finding support to trust this transmutational process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning.

You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so parts of you do, your previously occupied heart now empty, vacated, and ready to be filled up again by love…

You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you and these parts do too until they become more and more whole and integrated.

You keep listening as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here……waiting until you are ready to receive it.”

~

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This ground of feeling, healing, and being with parts of you and soul aspects is what we explore with much tender and deep initiation in 90 minute 1:1 sessions over zoom, which range from 55 to 100 USD/Euros depending on Facilitator. For more information about a free intro and sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

This is our Deepen 2022 meditation series that I recommend for opening up access to many parts of self and soul aspects: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

The Inner Daughter Process Of Feeling Claimed & Loved

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by Kasha Rokshana

As women, we all want to be chosen, claimed, initiated, and above all, deeply loved.

Even if parts of us feel scorned and in pain and claim this is NOT the case… underneath the denial of these desires is the ache for more than what they’ve been given and for an answer to all they’ve felt unworthy of receiving, let alone dreaming of.

As women, we don’t just experience these desires in our ache for a masculine mate to meet us there. We also feel these desires in our ache to be claimed by our caregivers, authority figures, and most importantly, our mothers and fathers. 

Many of us did experience some kind of claim by our parents or guardians, yet it was so often mixed in with their own pain living in parts of them, of not being met in their own desires to be claimed by those who parented them. Or it was altogether an experience of being left abused, confused, neglected.

We weren’t shown that our aches could be met, or taught how to answer them within ourselves, or especially taught that these aches are really about a desire to return to a feeling of being claimed deeply by the Divine, as the sacred daughters we are… which our souls SO remember the experience of. 

Such sacred daughters are we in fact, that we have nothing to prove to earn this claiming. We have nothing to change about ourselves to be embraced by our Divine Parents. We have mirrors to look into, but with support and care, and those parts of us who have denied themselves access to true love can be felt as this process is offered us by our Divine Parents. 

Yet… our birth parents have often had no way to show us this, to overflow from their own realizations and embodiment of this truth. Instead, they overflow to us their embodied self-criticisms, their sense of unworthiness, their fears, and their longings that have never truly been answered.

Divine Mother especially has been so important for me to bring my parts to who have felt these missing pieces, these pains of not being truly claimed as a feminine daughter. Under Her loving gaze and in Her loving arms I feel the puzzle come together, the cob-webbed corners of my soul and gifts swept up and rediscovered in due time, the nectar of nourishment that only She can provide, even during the darkest times. 

Sometimes, She presses into my wounded places, bringing waves of intense inner processing with parts and soul aspects as I venture back into my shadowland to retrieve another long lost diamond. At other times, the intensity is dialed down and the love waves and balms are much easier to feel and let in. The Kundalini rushes up from the base of my spine and I feel at home in myself, in my feminine body, all in Her midst. I feel inspired, enlivened, and whole. I feel more solid in my reasons for being here, no matter the adversity, and I feel supported to keep FEELING it ALL.

Divine Father has been so vital to my sacred daughter inside as well, in order to feel a template of mateship claim on top of being claimed as a daughter. His arms have held my heart and my parts through so many difficult phases and His hands have guided me through some intense periods of awakening. His support of my feminine spine has been just as important as Mother’s, as has his watering of my feminine heart.

My Inner Daughter process has been vast, deep, and involved the necessary movement out of relationship with my own birth parents and family. It’s been necessary to let go of other forms of the ‘false mother and father’ as well and to get very real about what is most nourishing for this essence within me and what simply isn’t. This is one of the most challenging truths to realize and reconcile with, as it can be a lonely road. Yet the void is filled up by the Divine when and if you and you parts feel ready to let in that energy and level of claim. 

✨Join me and Jelelle Awen as we explore the Inner Daughter connection and deepening process in a group call for women this coming Sunday, Nov 27 at 5pm WEST (Lisbon/London), 12pm EST. ✨

You can find more info here. It’s by donation to join us or receive the recording and you can donate via our shop or PayPal.

Looking forward to having you there with us if you do feel to join and explore this precious process for yourself.

Love,

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feminine Shadow Exploration: A Piece Of My Personal Journey

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by Kasha Rokshana

“It’s October 2019 and I’m spinning, whirling, wondering what’s really going on within me, why I can’t seem to help parts of me truly let go of comparison, of feeling ungraceful and ungrateful, of feeling unworthy of the love of my intimate community, let alone the love of the Divine within and around me. I’ve been asked to take space from my community of beloveds to go into and reconcile what has continually been coming up inside of me and not yet been truly held, let alone felt, by me as a centred, adult woman, who is calling herself ‘Kalayna’.

I am in a panic, feeling an avalanche of self-doubt and absolute heartbreak, knowing that this space-taking is likely leading to leaving my beloveds for at least a phase, if not the rest of this lifetime, if I can’t find my way into more of my own bigness and inner ‘home’. I feel the love that would always flow between us as souls, even if I need to go off and be with myself to reconcile something quite deep in my own shadow that they can’t be impacted by so harshly anymore.

I am in some deep self-punishment and shame, but also recognize after years of this inner work, that this pattern of suffering is keeping me from experiencing the depth of love I really want and need within… a depth of love that can then overflow to others with more grace and ease, even in the messiest of conflicts or the burning up of old relational ground.

As I lean into myself more and more each day, and feel the Divine within supporting my ongoing process, I begin to open out something so deeply ingrained in my inner shadowland. I find an aspect who calls himself ‘Hades’. Hades doesn’t care much for others, let alone other parts of me. Well, he does, but his care is complicated as it involves trauma-bonding with these other parts, making them need him somehow and find comfort in his more twisted way of feeling things, his way of making the uncomfortable, the suffering loops, feel somehow ‘normal’ and even necessary.

It turns out that Hades is one aspect while there are a few others for me to feel, and that he is the Gatekeeper holding the veil to feeling them. I begin to feel them all, one by one, and where they live in my Metasoul and my being in this life too. I feel patterns of being a scorned priestess, even a Queen who couldn’t make it work and was shunned, and a few different lifetimes of not quite being able to get up and out of a fear of my/their own bigness and power and truly live into it. I feel the pain of these aspects and how fusing to them has played out in my life many times. I also feel the frequency of having killed others for the sake of power and jealousy… something that is excruciating for me to feel.

I feel how humble I’m becoming as I feel all of this and how I’m learning to surrender to my own unknown inside of myself… how I just can’t know what the Divine truly wants me to do or become. Even as I surrender to the unknown however, I begin to feel clearer and clearer about the energies I am learning to love inside of me and what my true potential is.

It takes me a few months to truly live into this daily healing journey of diving deeply and even finding a renewed sense of joy, all while still showing up for daily life and holding jobs. I still miss my beloveds so deeply, especially as I go on to spend Christmas alone, but I feel my icebergs that were once parked in my shadowland melting day by day and my growing clarity about what I want in my life and the sort of soul family energies I want to be intimate with on the outside coming up so strongly. I also feel who I want to BE as I let in those energies and relationships and the ache for living into that from the inside out.” ~ Kalayna

It’s now 3 years later and here I am, as ‘Kasha’ and no longer ‘Kalayna’, having graduated not only that heartbreaking and heart-opening phase of my life, but also several other challenging and growthful phases in different geographies, different relationships, and in service of love expression too. All because I’ve been willing, even through deep pain, to go into my shadowland AND work my way through to the other side.

It is a huge honour to now be leading a women’s call with Jelelle that will focus on shadow exploration for the feminine… serving alongside Jelelle was always the dream and even as this was starting to happen back in 2019 with the very first women’s call we ever led together, I could barely let that in. I had so much pain and unworthiness come up that it was sabotaged… my dream was sabotaged. My shadow came up to be felt and when she came up, she was practically screaming with frustration, mostly at herself.

As we explore the feminine shadow, there’s so much power packed in there. There’s so much to these energies of self-punishment, shame, and blame, that actually wants to become the flip side of that… that actually wants to become genuine heart-based service of love within and without and wants to have nourishing relationships as much on the inside as on the outside.

The feminine shadow has a LOT to unpack, not just in these trailing-edge energies that can keep us in smallness and pain, but also in leading-edge energies, access to feminine magic and alchemy, not to mention DEEP access to discernment, clarity, and care.

Join Jelelle and I on Sunday, Oct 30th for a by-donation women’s group call, focused on discovering and feeling your Shadow Feminine, however she shows up now! The call will be at 5pm London/Lisbon time and you can donate via our Shop or through PayPal or via Wise (formerly TransferWise). You can find more info about this call here.

Sending so much love to you and your ‘shadow’, your hidden seats and seeds of empowerment and heart, even if there is also pain and ache to wade through and feel along the way!

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Allowing the Waves of Grief

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By Raianna Shai

Grief is a much bigger part of our lives and our emotional bodies than I think we realize. We don’t just grieve passed loved ones or the end of relationships. We grieve old versions of ourselves, nostalgic places, past habits, other lifetimes, the state of the world – really anything that is coming to an end. It’s also one of the most complicated and pushed away emotions we can have as humans.

It’s deep, existential, nonlinear and shows up when we least expect it. Everyone I know who has experienced the deepest versions of grief have described it as coming in waves. It crashes over you and suddenly you feel like you’re drowning. One day you’re the happiest you’ve been in a long time and the next you’re weighed down with an intense heaviness.

I know that grief is not exactly easy to feel but I also know what happens when it’s left unfelt. It harms us in our physically bodies through different aches and illnesses, it causes us to push down any emotion that comes up in fear that it will uncap all of the unfelt grief we’ve left bottled up and it can keep us from connecting to the deeper parts of ourselves that are beyond the grief.

Grief is deep but it does have another side. It is tender, real and honest. It shows us what we really care about and where our deepest fears and desires lie. It shows us so much truth and if truly allowed to come to the surface when it needs to – it can help us love deeper, trust more easily and stay current with every new emotion.

This has been the biggest emotion that I’ve felt this last month and though it’s been painful, it’s also taught me so much about myself and all the varied and important parts of me. It’s shown me that I can feel 50 emotions in one breath, 100 thoughts in each tear that falls from my eyes, a depth so vast it feels like I’ll never feel anything else.

And then I do. I keep moving, keep feeling, keep letting myself dive into this well of despair and come back out feeling even closer to these parts inside of me. Letting go of every hope and dream I’ve had and making way for new ones. In allowing these feelings to surface, I’m telling these parts of me that they are valid, real and loved. And that is where the healing really happens.

Pictured is me feeling real grief during a recent group circle with SoulFullHeart. The community support and love was huge for allowing myself to go to these depths

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming In Your Sacred Inner Homecoming

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by Kasha Rokshana

Through being born into this Matrix, we are taught to be concerned, always, with the opinions that surround us. We end up scattered, shattered, divided inside. This division has created ‘parts’ that formed in response to this mandate to always look outside of us for answers, for the modeling of ‘best behaviours’, for learning how to be compliant or even how to rebel properly, and certainly for any sense of ‘home’, belonging, or reconnection with the Divine. 

It has been such a huge part of my personal process over this last decade to truly bring ALL of that back inward, to follow the threads of pain that have led to parts of me, and to then untangle those threads from other parts and find integration over time. These pain threads have been complex, not straight forward, and also have been co-created and maintained by outer relationships, jobs, etc. They have also been tugged on and at times entangled with the threads within others and their own parts, making the sorting out a process of what’s mine and what’s someone else’s quite messy in moments. 

The only way I’ve been able to deeply address and heal the pain and parts has been by bringing them back inward, to my own heart, to the home/nest I’ve been creating and cultivating there for so long, which now also overflows to others in 1:1 sessions as I hold space for other women’s own parts to come forward and their own inner ‘homes’ to be created.

There is always an invitation to create this inner heart and soul home inside of you and so much support being offered for that from the Divine within you, from your Metasoul aspects, from Star Family, even from all the beings in your inner world also known as ‘parts of you’ – though many of them may have a really hard time letting in that this home within is even possible at first, as they’ve had to have so much outer focus for so long. 

The codes of Homecoming that are steaming in these days are an opportunity to re-code what it means to truly take care of yourself, your body, your emotional and spiritual realities, and not only within you… they are also supporting you to draw to you those resonant relationships you’ve maybe only dreamed of, or only experienced virtually so far. If there’s a resistance or reluctance in your heart toward truly embracing your beloved online relationships in the physical, there are very likely some parts of you that feel afraid perhaps of the cost to your life as you’ve known it… for nothing ever changes us like letting love in, especially love for ourselves and especially, also, saying ‘yes’ to love’s flow as it moves between us and others in ways unpredictable. 

My beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading a group call this coming Sunday, Oct 16th, that will be focused on these Homecoming Codes – letting them in, feeling what they mean for you personally, and connecting to your inner ‘home’ in a deepening way. The call will be by donation as always, and held over Zoom. If you’d like more info, visit soulfullheart.org/events. 

So much love to you and with you as you feel into these Homecoming Codes and what they mean to you at this time!

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.