Relationship Conflicts Offer A Powerful Mirror

By Jelelle Awen

It can be challenging to remember that everything and everyone is a loving mirror (ultimately) of YOU and of parts of you. Especially when the mirroring comes in the form of what can feel like ‘attacking’ or ‘kicking’ energetically. This is happening more lately with the increasing Ascension energies coming in to support higher vibrational choices. These conflicts can come very often as a result of raising your frequency and collapsing timelines that you were previously anchored to. These kind of responses can be a sign that you are truly leaving something old behind and moving into the New…as difficult as they can be to digest at times.

The parts of others that were connected to you and yours can ‘lash out’ as the previous agreements dissolve. As you shift the ground of the relationship during your awakening, this releases the previous congestion/toxicity that you BOTH transacted with each other. They were as ‘bound’ to you as you were to them, in the sense of on the Higher Self/soul level signing up to exchange together for a phase of time. This is especially the case in 3D birth family arrangements, as this kind of ‘bound for life no matter what’ conditionality is so supported in 3D culture.

Parts of them can feel like you have abandoned them and the response is very often hyper critical judgement, disdain, disappointment, and defensiveness. Feelings of betrayal and hurt are underneath these reactions to your growth. You are offering a mirror to them of something new, a new place they could go beyond these polarized reactions and 3D living…yet, they may not be ready for it and it HAS to be chosen by them, sovereignly and in their own pacing/timing.

There are often many timelines working themselves out here in these relationships dynamics….rarely are all these energies that have built up just from THIS lifetime. Souls shift roles and places with each other in order to facilitate MORE growth and learning. You can connect to what these timeline playouts are between your Metasoul and theirs through conscious connection with them. These timelines are very often overlaying and bleeding into this one, esp. in the case of soul mates and soul family connections.

There is an invitation to feel the part of you that the other person represents. Their judging mirroring an Inner Punisher part of you. Their defensiveness mirroring an Inner Protector part of you….perhaps in shadow still or ‘off your radar’ and now this other person has brought them forward for you to get to know. Going inward in response to conflict with others allows you to clear and feel and heal the ground from within that drew the contention in the first place.

Feel these kinds of interactions as temporary opportunities for growth. Eventually, you won’t draw them at all when you no longer need the mirror of them. When you have felt and connected to your shadow aspects. When you have let go of the previous dense, 3D timelines because it is complete. In the meantime, they are a gift from your Higher Self to show you MORE you.

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

The Hearth Of My Opening Heart: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

c: September 2016

Tremors move from your heart space to mine.
An overflow. A love place.
A warm hut with a burning fire.
I seek to understand what I cannot yet,
what I may not ever,
what I may know in spite of myself.
There is a garden behind the heart door.
A secret wooden manifestation of many years of collapsing memories and ever-arising lessons.
Love waits for me there,
with more surprises,
with tourniquets,
with salves,
with the ointment of new life and renewal of my essence’s light.

As the door creaks open wide,
I feel the dust fall from my shoulders, into my healing palms Where I can see it.
Where I can feel it.
Where I can touch its textures and hold it close
As it cries full tears of rippling red shadow pulses and black and blue figures dusty in their own rite
Peeling off the once invisible armors they treasured for so long.

Disarmed yet newly anchored in the safety of my own now opening heart
I rest amongst the silk cushions and wait by the roar of the fireplace
Until you come knocking.

After filling your pockets with your own dusty past and present
And rimming your heart with the sugar-coated candy of a caramel-filled chocolate,
Bringing your sticky-sweetness out to be tasted,
I will meet you here, my love.

In brightness and darkness, with sweets and savories I will wait.
I will work.
I will pry my heart open first for me,
Then for you,
And together we will find the fumbling and not-knowing
To be the greatest fun we ever had
And the biggest challenge we have ever faced,
And the greatest dragon we have ever owned on our own, Together, and with the Divine.

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Q & A W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

Raphael and Jelelle were live responding to questions and comments on August 18th, 2018. We offered our perspectives on the ascension process, light body transformation, emotional body healing through parts work, and working with Metasoul aspects from other timelines. We also shared the beautiful ocean view from our new apartment!

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Celebrating The Bliss Mess Of Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

I am feeling so appreciative of the transformational crucible/ground that IS the sacred union I get to experience with Raphael Awen for ten years now. We just spent three days alone together in our new beautiful home….the expansive ocean and mountain views holding the space for our explorations into our USness.

We dove into meaty terrains and tender textures of vulnerabilities together. We experienced the bliss of making love afterglow that lasts for hours…..soaring on higher frequency waves of body-grounded and heart-connected vibrations that can only be formed and created through our union.

We navigated the mess of karmic patterns and cycles that are no longer unconsciousness and can repeat themselves out in recapitulated situations and rare conflicts between us. Being WITH the Metasoul aspects living out the timelines in struggle, in collapse, in dying (such as Atlantis)….in order to be reborn, in order to HEAL, both personally and for the collective too. We allowed these Metasoul aspects to speak to each other, to have their own emotional realities of their relationship come through our consciousness….feeling so much compassion for their experiences, helping to move their fear into love, and feeling the gifts of their connection infuse our present day one.

This dance between us is both very practical and absolutely transcendent and magical. Its range continues to amaze me…..as it is too a mirror of the multidimensional range of me that keeps opening out with this process of meeting and connecting with parts of myself and aspects from other timelines. I am aware in these ‘surrogacies’ with Raphael of unity consciousness from WITHIN primarily as previously polarized energies are able to come into alignment again as reflected by the same process happening inside of him.

This is a sacred union with a deeply resonant soul that is also working with parts/Metasoul aspects of themselves. This is a sacred union where there is transactable connection on ALL levels of heart, body, mind, and soul IN the physical here….in daily life together for as many moments as you can possible BE together. THIS kind of union invites you into the deeper depths of yourself and your Metasoul/other lifetimes/timelines, which is why it can be so challenging to wait for, to want, and to finally BE in.

I feel we ALL have the capacity to be in this kind of sacred union….within and with other. NOT settling for anything less than THIS is what allows it is to come into BEing. Engaging in the process and work to feel/heal/see/be with these parts of ourselves that SO need us is crucial to this draw.

Thank you, my love, my partner, my mirror Raphael…..for this and for many moments to come arising into the bliss mess of existence here together.

Jelelle Awen
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Photos were taken by a professional photographer who just happened to be on the beach at sunset and offered to take pics of us

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing sessions virtually over zoom and in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

When Man Loves Woman: A Tribute To Sacred Romance and Union

This is in tribute to my beloved Kalayna Colibri  on her birthday. We have shared so many together since we met 6 years ago but this is our first in romance. I wanted to honor her for all she represents to me and thus the male collective. We have been through much together and I have had my share of process around letting in a conscious and sacred romance. This is the real deal and that brings with it challenges and immense joy.

When a man loves a woman he sees Her as She is
The beauty, the pain, the innocence, the queen, the shadow
He claims her for who she is in the moment
Knowing that She is always seeking and striving for Her More

He works within himself to heal the projections
That may be placed upon Her as a reflection of His own mirror
The places that He can’t see without Her
The ones She agreed to hold as part of The Deepening, The Clearing

This woman does not come by often
She can be an epic storm
That rearranges the locks on the Heart Doors
And she is the one that has held the Key

He is not obliged to her nor entitled
Yet He climbs the trellis, scales the walls
He rides his white horse to meet Her on her own
And they ride together, heart by heart, soul to soul

She engages His bigness as He does Hers
She opens the portals and He takes the wheel
She requires the one thing that may be the hardest thing to give
His vulnerability

She is there when the journey, the healing
Become too much for His protected parts to bear
He may get lost in the doing and the creating
But He wants Her to know that She is always the beacon back to Himself

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Following Your Sacred Union Desires: Our Story

By Jelelle Awen ~

Ten years ago, I received an email from a man asking me to explore a relationship. As soon as I read his words, I felt my entire body flush with a warm, loving energy and an inner knowing. I already knew that this man’s heart and soul were SO big, generous, and powerfully good, that his intentions toward me were pure, and that his dedication to his own healing/awakening process through parts work matched my own. Before that time, parts of me couldn’t handle the mirror that he offered me of me and there just wasn’t enough self worth to claim our connection.

Finally, after three years of knowing each other, I felt a ‘yes’ to letting him in. I felt a ‘yes’ to seeing where the reflection of ME that he offered would take me.

THAT exploration and THAT man have brought me more joy, goodness, reflection, growth, and stepping into my own bigness than I ever could have imagined! Our union expands and deepens each day, with new grounds of co-leadership and collaboration continuing to open out and offer surprisingly meaningful gifts to ourselves and others!

Thank you to my BEloved, Raphael Awen, for every moment since then and all the future ones to come! I’m so glad I said ‘yes’ and I’m so grateful that you pursued what you wanted!

~

By Raphael Awen

Ten years ago, my life took another big turn.

Today is Jelelle and I’s ‘nibble on cheese’ anniversary. I sent Jelelle an email that said ‘Would you like to connect soon? We could be like two mice nibbling on cheese.’ I knew it sounded a bit cheesy, but I was determined to be unedited and to be okay with whatever the outcome. In the three years prior, I’d brought her an attraction two other times, and though I accepted and respected the ‘no’ that came back, that didn’t stop me from trying again when another attraction arose. This time, I got a different response.

Today, I live in an ongoing honeymoon phase; a ‘pinch me’ reality. Is this really true? How can this be? What button did I push to make this happen? (part of me is still asking)

This woman who lived ten hours and a country away from was in my orbit to see occasionally over a three year period, but now, for the last ten years she’s hardly more than 25 feet away 24/7/365. We’ve left two countries behind, have plans for many more and can’t wait to walk into the next moments together to feel and experience what wants to be felt and experienced through us.

I so believe that one of the deepest things we came here to earth for, and that we chose human being experience for, was to be willing to enter the place of strong desire; to surrender and be vulnerable to having intense wants. Wanting a sacred romance is probably one of the biggest desires we can surrender to. I feel this to be true, because once you enter the sacred romance, it will call you to deeper and deeper desire and vulnerability and it won’t stop.

Your desire to admit what you want, to never deny it, even if you get told ‘no’, will be the stuff you’ll need to actually walk out the having of what you desire. Your willingness to long and pine for what you don’t have and find really hard to see anywhere in sight, will be what enables you to draw that.

You too, can have it all, for nothing more than the willingness to want it, and want it and want it some more.

~

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are Ascension Guides, Sacred Union Mates and Teachers, SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Co-Creators/Teachers. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, writings, and videos with them.

Sacred Union Looks So Good On You!

By Raphael Awen

A ‘Sacred Union’ can be simply defined as a sacrificing or giving up of your reality to make way for a new and arising reality.

Jelelle and I like to say that we are in a Sacred Union bond, and we feel that this is powerfully true, but there isn’t any spiritual ‘Sacred Union board of governors’ who can certify that this is or isn’t true. What makes it true for us is the sacredness and reverence that we bring to the bond as individuals, that then transacts mutually and opens out a bliss that we only dreamt of previously in our imaginative reach for what we most deeply desired. It is simply, our deepest dreams coming true, and then as that happens, continuing to dream deeper still.

This is the sacred sacrifice…the willingness to feel into your deepest desires and imagination of what your deepest bliss of a Sacred Union could look and feel like…in as many ways as you can imagine. The sacrifice comes into play as you are willing to let go of what you presently have (or don’t have) in favour of this deep inner all-consuming yearning.

Men are more wired (so we’re told) to do this sexually, and for men, that’s as good a place as any to open the imagination. What would heart and mind blowing sex look and feel like to you, and then because there are another 23 hours left in the day, what would being in life and love and that drippy sex glow look like and feel like to you? How willing are you to admit that you really want THAT? How willing are you to be ‘pierced through with your own desire’ and to pursue that… in real life, in real time, with a real woman? Only in that willingness are you willing to sacrifice your present reality to own and enter and alchemize a new one.

As a woman, what would it feel like to be with a man who is so into you, as the woman of his deepest dreams, who fully claims you and your arising life together that nothing comes a close second to the bliss of your Sacred Union bond?

Can you feel how you are the creator here? Sacred Union is not some spiritually attained place that you somehow pop into and suddenly you are hereafter declared enlightened. You ‘enlighten’ your path here one grounded and ever so fulfilling sacred step at a time.

When others look at Jelelle and I with admiration, they may feel a contrast between where they are at and where we are at and see us as having what they want, but this is them projecting their own heart and soul bigness onto us temporarily for safe keeping while they ‘go-in’ to their own heart and soul work to make the choices and feel all there is to feel to take this journey. The exciting thing in all of this is that once you begin that, you are on the Sacred Union path that IS the bliss, even if you are single, regardless of what your ‘attainment’ is or isn’t just yet. The humility and reverence you bring to the opportunity to be in this mutual reverence is what brings the ongoing deepenings.

You’ll have plenty of your own ‘out of this world, and don’t quite know where to file them’ kind of experiences soon enough, along with deepening healing challenges as well to invite you deeper into Sacred Union. You’ll need the conditioning too of these first initial courageous claims of what it is you most deeply want, to be in shape, so to speak, for the next steps. You are entering and choosing the domain of taking the sacred responsibility of manifesting your deepest dreams, knowing this is your sacred calling in the universe.

Can you think of anything more fun than that? Even whatever hell you need to go through to get here pales in comparison. You, in Sacred Union bliss are worth it all!

Sacred Union looks so good in you and on you!
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Energy Update: Heightened Solar/Lunar Energies Offer Balance

By Jelelle Awen

SOULar wind speeds have been high lately, close to 600 km/sec the last two days. With winds THIS high, anything you are experiencing seems to be amplified. The highs and the blisses. The ‘lows’ and the messes. The fluctuations of emotions created by the waves and movements in between the two. If you are taking in denser, harder, more difficult energy it may feel like it is more challenging to move it out and return to your ‘normal’ flow. OR you may be feeling that you just are much more sensitive to the energies and frequencies around you.

These higher winds bring in SOULar frequencies of sacred masculine activations and continual UPgrades on all levels. That seemingly growing coronal ‘hole to make us whole’ (as I like to call it) is releasing SOULar energies and the winds bring them into Gaia and us….also creating some active, in this moment, geomagnetic storms. The geomagnetics seem to work on/impact our INNER poles too, creating a shift toward ultimately MORE balance on all levels and all bodies – physical, emotional, hormonal, social, mental.

Gaia’s frequency responds to these geomagnetics with spikes and pulses upward too in the last few days especially. If you are used to ‘grounding’ into Gaia’s frequency, this continues to be a fluctuating experience as her frequency moves up and down in new ways.

The FULL moon offers another aspect of amplification….this time by the Divine Feminine frequencies of lunar love. We know full moons are coming every single month, yet where we are in our personal journeys/processes can be impacted by these frequencies in varying ways each time. The feminine is about coming into more BEing, more stillness, more FEELING…being real about what you are feeling and not denying the pain/suffering/unhappiness that is there in the heart and soul. The feminine holds the space for traumas from this life and other timelines (your Metasoul/Higher Self Source) to be responded to with compassion and self love. The feminine doesn’t deny emotion, yet rather INVITES it in with vulnerability and compassionate accountability.

In the journey toward balance INside of masculine and feminine is the feeling and experiencing what is currently OFF balance. These kinds of heightened energies invite the feeling INside of your inner masculine (usually the part that we call your Protector) and how he relates with ALL parts of you, esp. your feminine. Deep polarization can exist between these parts of you and much tension too. These SOULar/Lunar energies can illuminate that tension…..as can this polarization be reflected in relationships too with others. If you are experiencing heightened difficulties and conflicts in relationships with others, this is offering you a need to explore/discover how these frequencies exist from within you.

Relationships INside and outside are wanting to come into balance, into resonance, into transactability. The previous cycles and patterns of conflicting, disconnecting, not being in alignment, avoiding and denying, codependence……these are wanting to shift and heal. As you feel how these patterns in relationships with others are a reflection of relationships INside of you from one part of you to another, so your draw and experience changes in outer relationships.

Raphael and I did a livestream yesterday where we answered questions from viewers about sacred union, what transactibility looks like in relationship, parent-child dynamics, and much more. You can watch the recording of it here: https://youtu.be/fB9XCEWBWII or on my facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

With high SOULar winds and a full moon, it is a time to be self loving…..even as it is an opportunity for inner unity in ways/means that we have never known before as individuals and as a collective. Be sensitive to the energies you are taking in, around, and contributing to as the impact will be amplified right now. Start to connect with your inner family as first priority above all others as now offers a beautiful frequency of masculine/feminine union to truly explore the gifts of inner sacred union.

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

MUCH love to you as we move through this magical, growthful, and ALIVE phase of ascension together!

Jelelle

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Reach out. Ask for what you need. Get ready to receive!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

Relationship Shiftings/Openings/Completions Q&A W/Raphael and Jelelle Awen (Video)

This is a livestream on June 26th with SoulFullHeart Teachers, Ascension Guides, and sacred union mates with Raphael and Jelelle Awen talking about relationship shiftings, coming togethers, and completions of all kinds during awakening/ascension. They answered questions and responded to comments about sacred union, transactilibity and resonance in relationships of all kinds, parent-child transition into adulthood, soul family, and more.

You are welcome to ask a question or leave a comment on the recording of the broadcast and they will respond to it! They were also streaming onto Facebook so if you want to see the comments they were responding to, please go to: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women over 35 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Frequent Ascension Live Streams On Facebook/YouTube W/Raphael & Jelelle

By Jelelle Awen

Raphael Awen and I feel inspired to offer regular livestreams on Facebook  to connect with you in an organic way with whatever is arising to respond to from our hearts and yours. It will probably be at least three times a week and maybe more. The broadcasts may be only a few minutes (probably not likely once we get started talking lol) or much longer depending on what your questions/comments are and what comes UP.

We will be talking about current ascension energies, emotional and spiritual healing, our powerful and unique SoulFullHeart parts work/Metasoul aspect connection process/way of life/community, light body transition, sacred union/scared union relationships, and much more. We will also be sharing transparently about our current processes with parts of ourselves and with each other. We will also be offering in the moment guided meditations when inspired to!

The livestreams will usually be around 10:00am CST and we’ll give you at least two hours notice on the days we are offering them so you can watch it live. We also broadcast live at the same time on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel and all of the recordings are shared there: https://www.youtube.com/…/www.you…/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

Posted on youtube now is our livestream together from this week where we talked about 5D higher timeline manifestation shiftings (personally for us and collectively a bit), feminine/masculine balance, parts work and MUCH more! Or you can watch it here: https://youtu.be/FkbWU-5cZUE

Today, June 13th, we’ll be offering a livestream at 10:00am CST responding to these two questions that we didn’t get to yesterday: “After I awakened why do I attract so many souls with such low self esteem? Is it like a transmutation or something?”

“In relationship, how can the feminine best support the masculine through this current healing?”

AND we will be celebrating Raphael’s birthday tomorrow too  !

So join us if you can or catch it later!

MUCH love,
Jelelle and Raphael
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