Category: Awakening Process

The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

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by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

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By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Letting In Nature’s Magic Show

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by Raphael Awen

I had a magical experience yesterday.


I had just completed a wonderful session with a facilitant, and wanted to take a nature walk and go integrate whatever had moved in me as I served.


I headed out to a nearby beautiful park that I often visit several times a week. Maybe the crow who paid me a visit the day before would also return. I had also found a painted red heart shaped rock that same day, nestled just under the bench with the words ‘Self Love’ painted on it, that I decided wanted to come home with me at least for a few days.


I also wanted to express a new mantra I had just created for myself.


The mantra I created was: ‘I let in a life of play, joy, discovery, reverence and magic along with an ever expanding consciousness with more giving and receiving of love’. It felt powerful and activating and I felt the need to just be with it to let in what is arising in my life.


I wasn’t quite prepared however for all the love that showed up next.


As I approached the bench, on the path a few feet in front was a baby bunny greeting me. She didn’t seem too startled and allowed me a moment to connect before she returned to the bushes. Then I noticed to my dismay that the bench had been used for some denser forms of meditation as there were some beer bottles, bottle caps and cigarette butts strewn about that I tidied up before getting settled.
Not long after I got out my tea and got comfortable, and began speaking my new mantra aloud, feeling it move in me, I looked out over the water, and noticed a blue heron flying out over the water in the distance, and as it glided, it’s arc came my way and came to rest, perched on the stones protruding out of the water directly in front of me, looking directly at me. He stayed a good while and offered a transmission. As I continued with my tea and mantra, I noticed in the tree beside were a whole bunch of what I assumed were chickadees, playing amongst the low branches. Then some children who were just old enough to be out of their parents direct supervision also came into my space to gain access down the slope to the beach below. More delight and exploring energy.


Next what swam right across my entire field of vision was a big white swan! ‘OK, this is getting a bit much’ I said to myself, as I continued to take in the swan’s gift of grace, beauty and solitude.


I pulled out my phone to look up rabbit, heron and swan to see what the animal totem messages were, where I found a host of timely messages for where I feel myself, my parts and metasoul aspects moving and changing in life and service.


I wondered if the magic show was over, but was kind of prepared for anything now by this point, wondering if the neighborhood eagle was gonna take a seat beside me or something! As I got up, I gathered my things and the trash, and just as I’m about to step away, sure enough, the crow returned to sit exactly where he had the day before with me standing there taking him in. He also stayed a good moment before flying away, then as I turned to leave and who was back, but the bunny in the exact spot I found her in when I arrived, kind of like the entrance greeter and exit usher!


I made my way back out of the park onto the street and guessed I may well see a deer on my way home to cap all this off as they are quite common where we are, but always still a wonder to see. As I stepped across the street, what steps in my path instead was a small raccoon making its way across the street, but because of an approaching car, it reversed course to hide out under a parked car. As I walked by the car, he retreated a bit further to hide behind a big tree out in the yard, debating whether to climb it or not. As I passed the tree, I saw his nose sticking out, so I knelt down to give him my attention. He came out fully from behind the tree, and with not more than 15 feet between us, we got to do the eye gazing thing together for a great moment until some other passerbys prompted his retreat.


I didn’t scramble to photograph it all, as it felt better to take it in, rather than capture it in that way, but the photo below is the setting and the stone is the rock I found.


Thank you for reading and feeling my magical story. I hope the moral or morsel of the story is one for you where you feel curious about and in reverence of the magic that lives in each and every one of us, that wants to transform our consciousness.

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Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with him for men/women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: Solstice/Eclipse/’Father’s Day’ Sacred Masculine Codes Illuminating Shadow Masculine

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by Kalayna Solais

The Solstice/Eclipse energies coming in are super activating and A LOT to let in, especially as it feels like they are mostly coming from the Divine Father/Sacred Masculine. Plus, on top of that, we have a blend of the shadow masculine and sacred masculine energies coming in on ‘Father’s Day’. None of this is accidental, of course, and I definitely get the sense that we’ll need to ‘buckle up’ a bit for what is being illuminating and what wants to move within.

As Divine Father/Masculine energies come through, you’ll feel illuminations of your own shadow masculine expressions in this life and others. You’ll likely feel the grab at old relationships to others, to soul purpose work as well that your masculine has needed for a sense of ‘worth’ in the world. You’ll feel the outrage of your masculine and even masculinized ‘warrior feminine’ coming forward in some cases, wanting to set fire to everything in your life and to the 3D systems still collapsing.

None of this is ‘wrong’ to feel and all too often the necessary waves of rage, which is really passion when felt in its leading edge, get put down or therapized instead of heard and deeply felt. These are necessary pieces to feel as the world continues to shift and change and your parts/aspects are figuring out how to respond to it all. Do they conform to what the popular opinion or action-taking is, or do they rebel against it? Do they feel to stay in a polarized position and argue, fighting to convince others of their side… or do they choose to go inward, to drop the sword, to have their truth validated by YOU as a growing and healing ‘self’, and feel their vulnerability in it all?

When the Divine/Sacred Masculine moves through our heart spaces, it penetrates. It pierces through the din within. It creates a poultice because of the potency of its love, to draw out the parts of you that need love and that are convinced that the outside world has to change first before they can feel loved. It’s an energy that shows you its truth and helps you feel your own. It’s an energy that wants you to be empowered yet invites you to heal any need to seek power over anyone or anything else.

This weekend is going to be VERY powerful! It’s a potent time to go inward, connect with the Divine Father face/expression that most resonates for you, and to connect with your own Inner Masculine and what may be rumbling within him/them as well.

Here is a meditation led by Jelelle and Gabriel to help you connect with the Divine Father: https://youtu.be/QTWxFux2KA4

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Alignment Of Love And Light Within The Shadow

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There is no doubt we have reached a new level of awakening. More Light is coming in and we will be going through an alchemical portal the next few days. What happens during these times can be conscious and unconscious. That which we are conscious of we have the ability to meet it with courage and intention.

Light doesn’t always look or feel loving. Light is meant to show. To reveal. Activate. Awaken. Our Shadow, both collectively and individually, is being brought into more consciousness. You can run, but you cannot hide from it. You can fight it, but you cannot defeat it. It can only be confronted, embraced, and loved.

In The Shadow are all the things that have been packed away, repressed, suppressed, and forgotten for very good reason. We even pack our bigness and truth in The Shadow. Pain and Pleasure both. It is a bubbling well of death and rebirth. Destruction and Construction. You can hold the course the best you can, but this is usually a part of you that is navigating the chaos by just getting through it. Or there may be a part that thrives in chaos to the detriment to the parts of you that are not too thrilled about being on the rollercoaster.

Social relationships and body reactions are big indicators of whether Love and Light are in cahoots with each other. Love without shedding Light on what real is Transcendence. Torching the Light without Love is Violence. In the middle, is sacred humanity.

When you take time to breathe and feel yourself in the midst of the Fire, you may feel many conflicting energies that can create a multitude of emotional and physical reactions. The Heart and Body never lie. The question is, are they talking to each other?

If you feel a wobble and procession with these energies, it may be time to find a source of stability where you can grab hold of a center. This can be done by accessing the parts of you that are in pain, reaction, and dis-ease. By relating to them as a part, you increasingly become the center pole, capable of more than just weathering a storm. You are transmuting and reclaiming the Power and Lovelight that you are at your core. The weather patterns begin to calm with each movement and your outer world can’t help but to need to reflect that.

I have been through many of these deaths and rebirths in my process during very intense energetic times. I offer my heart and experience as that center pole for a time until you feel more of yours. I am a part of a community of others who are doing the same, so you are not on your own on this. You get support and recognition for who you are as an emotional, spiritual, and physical being.

If that sounds like an interesting invitation and would like to explore more, please check more about our free consult calls with myself, Raphael Awen, or Kalayna Solais at soulfullheart.org/sessions. There is also Jelelle Awen’s new book Free To Be 5D that lays out the whole paradigm and process at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. There will be a group call series about the book beginning July 15. More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Many blessings to you as we continue this continued ascension and maturation process.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gatekeeper As An Essential Part Of Our Awakening And Ascension

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The timeline gates have widened. Gaia is continuing Her ascent. Love is doing its Work. It is not pretty or neat. It is real. What has been in Shadow is coming to the Surface. It will continue to do so. There is no more ‘normal’. There only navigation, surrender, and self-love. As chaotic as it appears, it is necessary so we can find ourselves again.

The ‘past’ is finding its way to the present. That ‘past’, or other timelines, are weaving in and out of each of our fields. A great final act is underway. So how can you navigate all of this intensity and increased Love Bath at the same time?

The Gatekeeper is an aspect that holds many keys to our emotional and spiritual healing and ascension. It is the Purveyor and Guardian of your deepest traumas and gifts, both. Through access and relationship with the aspect of you, you get a wider view of what is going on inside and outside of you. How does your soul story relate to what is happening now? Where does all the pain, fear, anxiety, depression come from?

This is where your Gatekeeper can be a guide alongside your humanity. Many times we can fuse to this energy and it is INTENSE! More than our human bodies and hearts can handle at times. A deeper connection and separation from them can help to feel your sovereign self among the chaos.

I made the top image below to represent what a Gatekeeper may feel like to some. This is how he came to me in the beginning stages of my process. With much work and inner process he has changed quite a bit to a more angelic presence. They do, and can, hold many varied frequencies. For more info on this aspect you can read this great article here:https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Remembering Our Starseed Essence

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By Deya Shekinah

Every week the parts and themes we are feeling and connecting with through the ‘Free To Be Two’ group calls seem to be naturally interconnected, offering me a much bigger picture of myself, the world, and the Universe. 

My Inner Teenager, Yasmin, feels so connected to the collapse of the 3D Matrix. Feeling her is helping me collapse the matrices inside at the same time as I’m witnessing them collapse on the outside. Feeling where she was ‘plugged in’ through the school systems and birth family templating is helping me unravel all the beliefs and ideas she holds about who she is meant to be. 

Last week I could feel her in the school corridors, overwhelmed and unprepared for the huge transition that it was. I could feel her innocence, as she carried my Inner Child in her arms wearing PJ’s and holding a teddy bear. She quickly learnt to ‘grow up’ and hide her Inner Child and innocence so she could ‘fit in’ and ‘survive’. This created so much depression which I can still feel here now, as hidden with her childhood innocence was also her curiosity, her creativity, her sense of purpose, and her multi-dimensional connections.

Something that feels so rich within my Inner Child is this connection to the magic, to the mysterious, and to the stars. As life got denser through living in 3D, I forgot about the magical essence of my Inner Child as she seemed to get further and further away. I am now remembering her and feeling how she has been there all along as the one who was questioning everything and longing for Home. 

She feels like my Starseed, who is revealing herself organically as Yasmin is deeply digesting her experiences this life. She feels expansive, curious, and open to all the possibilities in this Universe. She restores the magic in this existence and reminds me of the bigger picture of all that is happening in our world right now. 

Connecting with my Starseed brings me into a deep peace within, as she helps me remember I have never been alone and that those who I have longed to go home to were always here with me, inside me, every step of the way.

You can join Raphael & Jelelle Awen today for the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series, Navigating The Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition, at 10:00am PDT with teachings and a guided meditation to connect to your Star Seed within, Star Family, and galactic consciousness. You can join live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Much Love, 

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Matrix Deprogramming & Divine Recoding Process (video) |Raphael and Jelelle Awen

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Video of Raphael and Jelelle Awen

The Matrix is collapsing during this global awakening event and we are becoming more aware of programming we’ve received from it on 3D and 4D levels with opportunity to let in more Divine recodings as we deprogram. This video provides quick excerpts of teachings from a Free To Be 2 group call on June 3 with SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen sharing about the programs that we receive in birth family relationships, education/indoctrination, food and body, false light, and more. Raphael and Jelelle also talk about how Divine codes are differentiated from programs and how to let them in more.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their process of unplugging from the Matrix and their experiences in the guided meditation during the call that offered a connection to part of them that may still be receiving programming.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on June 3 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharings from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our this group call series Free To Be 2: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen.

Desire & Hope For A New World: A Poem

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By Raianna Shai

I feel the polarities in the world right now
Power and pain
Passion and heartbreak
Love and fear

I hope for a change
For our parts to be felt
For our hearts to be healed
For our voices to be heard

I dream of a new world
Of peace and joy
Of compassion and understanding
Of healing and awakening

I see us hand in hand
Fighting no longer needed
Shame and guilt fading away
Unity and community in spades

I believe in us as humans
To dive into our shadow
And rise into love
To reach our collective ceiling of fear
And burst into the unknown of trust

I desire so much for humanity
To feel the violence inside
And the violence towards others
To heal it with kindness

For…
I am LOVE
YOU are LOVE
WE are LOVE

Incredible painting by Josephine Wall 💕

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Free To Be group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

The Sovereign Process Of Freeing Yourself From The Matrix

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by Kalayna Solais

Our unplugging from the already collapsing 3D Matrix and even the 4D Matrix and all of its shadowy soul themes too, is always a sovereign choice. There are many different phases and stages and they come around when we’re ready, as we’re ready. We’ve spent more ‘time’, more lifetimes and timelines attached to it and its workings than parts of us often realize or appreciate, so there’s a lot to have patience around and a lot to process and feel through as well.

When I ‘look’ at the 3D Matrix, I see a gilded cage with an open door, showing me that we are all free to leave it but then again, some parts of us have been so used to the ‘cage’ that it’s hard to do so.

Behind that gilded cage is a giant, sticky spiderweb, which is what the 4D Matrix looks and feels like to me. It’s so challenging to free ourselves, our Metasoul aspects working/living out some very charged and painful soul themes, from its grip and the more they ‘fight’ to free themselves, the more ‘stuck’ to it they become.

What we’re moving through now has a lot to do with this stickiness and this open cage door. We are fumbling, as a collective, toward the light being cast through the openings. Individual souls are awakening to their deeper trust in the invitation and initiation being offered. It’s so easy to lose heart when things get hard and all we see on the news is more pain, as if the pain is all there is to validate. Of course this is, in a way, a game of mirrors from the Matrix itself and those who are invested in it staying intact somehow creating optical illusions meant to try and keep us in the ‘cage’. They also flex their influence by showing that the solution to the ‘problem’ at hand is one thing, usually whatever popular/mainstream opinion says it is, when it’s really another.

There are necessary phases of anger. But we aren’t truly evolving and ascending beyond the Matrix if we don’t also make our way to compassion. It’s this process though that is THE most humbling. Anger is not vulnerable or humble in its energy, but the hurt and the unexpressed soul and heart passion beneath the rage are. These are the energies that, when accessed by feeling and relating with parts of you like your Inner Teenager and Inner Punisher, for example, really DO create a deeper sense of emancipation from everything that isn’t you and never has been you and moving into the embracement of what IS.

There is also a lot to feel in the Metasoul, with all of these themes being activated because other timelines are bleeding through onto your current one. Everything you feel in reaction and response to any current event runs through you because of the experiences your parts have had in this life and the experiences your soul has had in other lifetimes.

The good news is, it’s all moveable. You’re feeling it because you have the growing capacity to BE with it, feel it deeply, make a home for these parts and Metasoul aspects inside of your heart, and move with genuine gusto into a NEW space within and in response to the world. Compassion for others, which is so needed right now and always, can only really be birthed from growing compassion within.

The Matrix, which is crumbling with even greater pacing now it seems, doesn’t stand a chance and never DID stand a chance against our awakening souls and healing, opening hearts. It was never meant to. Our approach to this healing is individually and sovereignly chosen, but it IS being chosen even when we don’t consciously realize it.

We are already free. Free to choose our path to even greater freedom from deep within ourselves. The layers to this are colourful, fascinating, and never-ending.

The cage door is open. The spiderweb is only there to hold you until you feel able to stop struggling and just keep feeling. The invitation is always there and the choice is always yours if you feel ready to see what’s possible and move consciously and curiously toward that, with even more embracement of each step, of each and every feeling there is to feel along the way.

Within this process lies the rebirth of your Divine trust, through which you can experience your deepest healing yet. And eventually… you find yourself flying. You find the ‘cage’ laying dismantled on the floor and the spiderweb swept away or at least much less intimidating as it can now become a curious place to visit as needed or desired.

This is what it means to become free of the Matrix in all its forms and energies. This is what it means to truly be free, to lean into love, to remember who you really ARE. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.