Category: Ascension

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Increased Sensitivities On All Levels Through Upgrades And Clearings

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It’s the release of our weekly museletter, offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!  Go here to read or click on the image below

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In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart teacher and co-creator Jelelle Awen talks about experiencing increased sensitivities as upgrades and clearings continue to happen during this process of ascension. She offers the importance of feeling and holding space for our sensitivities, which were previously covered over and suppressed by our Inner Protectors, coming back ‘online’ again on all levels:

“Honoring your sensitivity again is holding space for it, responding to it, not letting a part of you judge yourself as ‘too sensitive’ as you might have heard from others. This world transitioning from the insensitive, often VIOLENT frequencies of 3D to the increasingly sensitive and compassionate ones of 4D and higher NEEDS your sensitivity to keep coming back online. It needs your feeling sensing alive and vibrating, as do parts of you as well. Your sensitive response to yourself firstly allows an increasingly sensitive sense to ALL of life…and, ultimately, to more experience of life and yourself AS love again.”

The museletter also includes beautiful and thought provoking writings from SoulFullHeart facilitators Kalayna Colibri, Gabriel Heartman and several from SoulFullHeart co-creator/teacher/facilitator Raphael Awen.

The video recording of the livestream with Raphael and Gabriel on October 1st is included in the museletter. During the one hour plus broadcast, they talked about the 3D/4D/5D self, the SoulFullHeart process, and answered questions/responded to comments from viewers. Our next upcoming event is another livestream Q & A with Raphael and Jelelle on Sunday, October 29th at 11:11am CST.

We now offer a 30 minute FREE introductory session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator for you to connect what we offer in the SFH process with your life and journey. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

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We Needed The Missing

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By Raphael Awen

Calling ourselves lightworkers and wayshowers without acknowledging that we all are also darkworkers and wayconcealers is a kind of pathetic.

It’s a good kind of pathetic, like the veil of forgetfulness kind, but it leaves us out there sounding kind of tinny. We didn’t previously sound so tinny, but something has shifted and now we’re left sounding more and more shady like charlatans or overampy street vendors.

There’s whole swaths of us just now getting the memo that backlights this kind of kinship with what was an ignorant bliss. What we once believed and even knew to be true has shifted, and it’s changing everything.

Here we come to see and feel that as part of the divine, we participated in an exercise likened to an alzheimer’s patient who hides their own Easter eggs and wraps their own Christmas presents. We possessed everything there was to possess, except for the ability to experience lack, and so we asked the question of how could our completeness be complete if we haven’t known and been tested by lack? Then we figured that the experience of lack wouldn’t be real enough if we knew that it was just sitting down to an evening board game kind of simulation of reality, so we mixed in enough deep forgetting to make it effective.

We must have really battled over what the requisite recipe amount of forgetfulness would be as the whole experiment would be useless if it were not enough, and again useless if the amount were too much and most of us were unable to ever be re-membered back with our essence; somehow lost forever in the biblical language of ‘outer darkness where there is only wailing and gnashing of teeth’.

Now, we’re in a new place where both are true, both the forgetting and the remembering, both the wayconcealing and the wayshowing, along with all the aftermath. It’s anything but business as usual, and yet there is enough stability to feel and heal what is wanting to be felt and healed.

I’m reminded of the sales pitch: what better guy to show you how to protect your home than the guy who used to rob people’s homes, right?….Who’s had a change of heart, and a reconciliation with himself, and the universe, and isn’t play pretending any longer in order to manipulate those still asleep. That us taking responsibility for our own creation. We dialed up all the mess. The ‘enemy’ is beautifully us.

That’s a big waking up. We consciously feel huge desire to be shown the way and to return to the light, but subconsciously, we are being invited into the awareness that we also cocreated the darkness and agreed to it, much like kids setting up an evening of dressup games. We did it and we did it for the most profound and serious purpose imaginable, that is to live on the edge of real curiosity.

We agreed on the condition that essence could never be shaken or taken from us, while the experience would change drastically. We were assured that we would, through the use of the time illusion, ‘event’-ually, event by chosen event, come out the other side, back to being re-membered, from our experience of being dis-membered.

This is the process we find ourselves in now, a true dimensional shift, where the next phase of this board game is coming into play. Even the words we use and how we use them are wanting to shift into alignment. We need to feel and heal all the all too real sufferings we dialled up for ourselves in the previous dimensional reality, and to do that, we are given this overlay of the two realities, one upon the other.

I am perfect wholeness, and I carry reactionary wounding to this journey I’ve taken. Both are true. I have it all and yet I find myself wanting. I am perfect light, yet I am in process of incorporating light into my darkness.

This feels like the bigger deal we curiously imagined for ourselves, like privileged children, knowing they can have whatever they want, set out to want more. We wanted the more of knowing what it would feel like to be returning to love, and so we needed to step outside of it in order to give ourselves that experience.

It’s like my 13 year old once chided me ‘Dad, unless you leave, I can’t miss you!’.

Nothing’s been lost, though it often so feels that way.

We needed the missing.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Major Cellular Clearing Going On For Every Living Cell In The Body

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By Jelelle Awen
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It feels like there is a pretty major cellular body clearing going on in the moment. All those codes coming in for the last months flushing out what needs to be purged at the physical body level. In our SoulFullHeart community, we are experiencing this, seen it in those we work with in session space, and I’ve been feeling into it with my guides/aspects to get a bigger and deeper sense of it. ‘Your every living cell has be to cleared out in order to upgrade’ is the response I’ve received. Your EVERY living cell gives you a sense of the scope and depth of this upgrade process that is happening in the now.

Our physical bodies have had to be the densest vehicles to navigate things in 3D reality, such as gravity. The physical body is also the most anchored into linear time as experienced in aging connected with ‘years’ passing. Their upgrade to light body crystalline Merkabahs is a BIG thing. Doesn’t feel like this has been done before to take our bodies WITH us into these higher vibrational frequency consciousness states as our everyday living reality AND collective reality too. This is a new timeline where the body comes along during the ascension process and is a critically important aspect of the process too. This is so much beyond the previous picture of leaving the body in order to go to a ‘heaven’ experience of higher consciousness.

To live through this cellular clearing means that what is experienced as physical symptoms is somehow different than we have in the past. I have come to feel that these are more like echoes of symptoms than the ‘real thing’ when looked at in terms of vibrational density. The echo is the sense that they are familiar, have happened before, and are somehow at a higher vibe than they have been in the past.

An example is what I experienced earlier this year of a cellular clearing that happened from years of cigarette smoking in my 20s and early 30s. The lung congestion, coughing, fever I was experiencing felt very similar to what I used to experience back then. Yet, when I checked in with my body about it (through journaling with it to find out what message it had for me, which I highly recommend) I was offered that this was more the toxicity or toxic memory of smoking that was stored in my cells moving out RATHER than an actual cold or flu in the 3D sense. If you are sensitive to energy and in tune with your own body, you’ll feel what I mean as the difference here.

This perspective helped me hold loving space for the symptoms I was experiencing and, I believe, moved the process along faster. I also checked in with my emotional body to feel the deeper emotional congestions that led to the smoking habit in the first place. This is something I’ve been feeling and healing for many years with different parts of me, yet feeling it through the cellular memory channel was interesting and brought up another layer for me to respond to.

Another way to look at this is that the body is moving from a 3D-based body to a 4D one (and eventually to more 5D or higher self IN the body). It is actually, more and more, the 4D body that is relating with your physical reality, digesting the food you eat, making love, etc. The 4D body is more porous, higher vibrational, and more multidimensional. It is more sensitive to which foods you eat and the energy that they come from, especially to ‘killing frequencies’ that comes from eating animals. I don’t think the 4D body in transition is drawn to eating animals or dairy or much processed foods either. It doesn’t seem to ‘get colds’ as the 3D body did or ‘get headaches’ or any other kind of getting or catching illnesses or injuries. Yet, rather, the 4D body is in an ongoing upgrading and clearing process…which is often happening not even in this now at all but from previous timelines (as I described) and also even other timelines and dimensions. I get the sense that the 4D body is also a conscious integration of our astral body.

Feeling these ‘ascension symptoms’ from the sense of what cellular memory toxicities may be moving through through 4D body, why they are there, and the 3D and 4D emotional wounding root cause can bring an empowerment, less resistance, less pain, and more grace to the process. It is an invitation to be more of your own love detective, loving your body’s processes of upgrading, while surrendering to the Divine align alive and at work in it ALL.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Energy Update: Increased Sensitivities On All Levels Through Upgrades And Clearings

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By Jelelle Awen
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Increased sensitivities on ALL levels as the upgrades and clearings continue coming in. Experiencing ascension upgrades and the clearings that they push up at the same time WHILE becoming more and more sensitive to the process IS intense! You may be experiencing this through increased emotional sensitivity in the form of new outbursts and more intense reactions from formerly suppressed aspects and emotions that you thought that you were ‘over’ or ‘beyond.’ Activating DNA and your ascension/higher chakras opening up can lead to more sensitivity to missed or skipped time experiences; more ‘loose’ mind and non-dual moments; receiving repeating number sequences and synchs; and increased clairvoyance/vision/psychic abilities and sense of your higher timeline AS your reality in the now.

The densest aspect of our BEIng, our human body, can be the most sensitive right now as it transitions to running on more light, less carbon. The foods that previously brought ‘comfort’ can be more difficult to digest now with sensitivities kicking up toxicity clearings from all those times of previous digestion. Something like ‘lactose intolerance’ can be truly not tolerable anymore as you tune into how sensitive your body really is to the energies in foods you digest. Previous comforts like drinking alcohol or cigarette smoking may lose their appeal as the body protests whatever frequencies of self harm (and the emotional body too) and your cells try to clear the toxicities.

It feels like one of the upgrades we are being offered right now is to feel/remember how sensitive we really are. Our sensitivity is revealing itself again, coming back, and being uncovered. Sensitivity to our own hearts and what lives in them of undigested everythings from pains to goodnesses. Sensitivity to our own souls and what exists in other timelines of our fractal, Metasoul expressions, and to feel how they are happening in the now and not in the past. Sensitivity to what we can remember more and more of our multidimensionality, our links and roots to the stars, our languages of light reactivating again.

We always were sensitive. To our environments. To foods. To energy. To emotions. To metaphysical realities. To each other. To Gaia. Yet, we were taught and conditioned to be insensitive. To numb and to dull down. To cover over. To push away and deflect.

Our Inner Protectors learn to lead with this insensitivity as a main way of protecting us. Better to be insensitive than SO open to feeling and being impacted by it all which could, potentially, lead to harm and hurt. Connecting with your Protector and other aspects of your 3D self can help to navigate this sensitivity remembrance…with reassurance and compassion for what they have had to guard against.

Honoring your sensitivity again is holding space for it, responding to it, not letting a part of you judge yourself as ‘too sensitive’ as you might have heard from others. This world transitioning from the insensitive, often VIOLENT frequencies of 3D to the increasingly sensitive and compassionate ones of 4D and higher NEEDS your sensitivity to keep coming back online. It needs your feeling sensing alive and vibrating, as do parts of you as well. Your sensitive response to yourself firstly allows an increasingly sensitive sense to ALL of life…and, ultimately, to more experience of life and yourself AS love again.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

How The 3D/4D/5D Self Experiences Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Each dimension of our ‘self’ feels and experiences love in different ways. The many parts of us that have formed in order to navigate and be in life as we’ve known it so far, each have their own relationship to love. As we continue to awaken and heal, their perspectives shift and heal too, especially as the growing authentic you that holds and feels them, lets in more and more real, pure love and learns to trust it and what it wants to offer you in every sacred moment of your life.

The 3D self, says, “Love, I don’t trust you and I want to control you, though I also feel you get the better of me and we are constantly at odds. I feel like I will never get what I want, though sometimes I can’t even feel what I truly want… and am pretty afraid to find out. I don’t feel I deserve you in any form and I conspire to push you away. What I have known to be ‘love’ is not something I find very appealing or gratifying in any way.”

The 4D self, says, “Love, I want to trust you more and don’t always get how. I feel you offer more than I have ever thought or felt possible. I feel I want to serve you and be with you and flow more easily with you, though sometimes this feels so frustrating and hard too… this world I live in mostly seems not to have caught up to the reality of YOU yet and what YOU really offer all of us and beyond… I get somehow, or am starting to let in, that you are something very different than what I’ve been conditioned to think you are. I feel something different about you, though I’m not sure what that is exactly.”

The 5D ‘self’, says, “Love… this is what ‘I’ am. And as ‘I am’, ‘I’ serve love in constant, unending flow. The container is ‘me’ as the container is NOT ‘me’… the ‘me’ of before, that related to love as not my very substance, has been healing and tastes of higher dimensions where it all simply is in is-ness… this is REALity. Love is the only real. Life-giving, ever-flowing, always showing us the way inward and back out again. Love melts all ‘I’s’ into oblivion and heat-warmth, in the sweetest way, though the storms of love’s lightning flashes of where it cannot flow within must also be weathered. Love dies not, withers away not… only IS, only ever loves. ‘I’ trust love above all else. ‘I’ can hold the truth of this unendingly, without the need to transcend any doubts of this in parts of ‘me’ that remain in lower dimensional frequencies still. ‘I’ can’t always see the bigger picture, as ‘I’ also control none of it, but ‘I’ can feel it, hold it, tap into it. ‘I’ AM it, ultimately, as ‘I’ AM part of the love that makes up all aspects of it, dark and light…”

As you heal the parts that make up each of these ‘selves’ within you, the level and depth of love you are able to experience shifts in a big way. To actually feel and own that there is something very real about swinging between sometimes all three of these perspectives in a short period of time, is to humbly let in that there is more to go into, inside of yourself… and that there is no ‘perfect’ way to be with love or to be love itself, especially as we grow and learn as sacred humans arising.

To take in more about the 3D/4D/5D selves and how we hold and feel them in SoulFullHeart, you can take in this piece about how each ‘self’ relates to each area of life: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

In The Aftermath Of Violence: Continuing To Personally Choose Love Over Fear

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By Jelelle Awen

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More underbelly it seems of 3D human consciousness coming up to seen, felt, experienced…to move from and out of the shadows into the light. During this transitional phase, this death and rebirth…there is loss, there is pain, there is chaos…..as we have known this for so long and it is stored in our collective consciousness, it has to come up to purge, to move, to be reshaped and reformed with and into love.

This is when and why the choices of love over fear means so much…on a personal level, very personal, and in every moment. To love the fear that comes in response to the violence on the outside (that always stems from the inside). To offer love to the parts of you that have been baked in this violence and are just so USED to it that it has somehow become a form of love. To love the violence inside so that it will transform into love…this is the personal act of BEing that shifts the world too.

The outer terror-ism is sourced in the inner terror-ism…the emotional states inside fueled by undigested shame, trauma, self punishment; and the soul states in the Metasoul of unintegrated shadow, karmic binds, other timelines playing out of suppression, dominance, war, battles. Consciousness states of terror that can live in the most innocent of places inside of us…not causing it, yet experiencing it, and ultimately deciding to learn from it and move beyond it.

It can be hard to see in the aftermath of violence that every soul signed up to experience it and had a ‘role’ to play. Difficult to reconcile that each soul is in the process of learning and growing and, this, is their journey of ascension.

With compassionate heart, we can feel how difficult this choice is, yet, honor, that all are powerful creators of these play outs. All will return to their love essence eventually. All will return to Divine Source ultimately. All will chose love inevitably.  

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Energy Update: Unanchoring From The 3D Matrix To Arise Into The Bliss Mess Of 4D

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By Jelelle Awen

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I feel sometimes like I am looping…saying so much “these HIGH frequency energies right now are offering us…..” When I feel into an energy update to offer, this is what always comes…there are ongoingly high frequency energies of photonic light, the Schumann Resonance is rising higher and higher, ongoing solar flares coming in from our sun and the cosmic sun that just KEEP coming in. There are high frequency waves of PURE love too…they are golden, pure white, rainbow, whichever colors you are meant to see and feel and receive that is uniquely for your soul. You may feel the reception of these energies in all your bodies…emotional purgings and detoxes, physical manifestations, social shiftings too, and chakras morphing as well.

And, these energies are ongoing because, boy, do we NEED them right now! The grip on 3D life and the matrix that is created from mainstream consciousness can seem so strong, prevailing, with sllllllooooooowwwwww progress being made in loosening it. So many millions, perhaps billions, of souls still in the process of it, needing the 3D reality as their growth and learning ground….until they don’t anymore.

I feel there is a fourth dimensional (4D) matrix too….it is less solid perhaps, less structured, with less conscious purpose or collaboration. It is more likely created, arising, from the personal UPheaval that happens when the soul starts to wake up, the veil of amnesia is lifting, the higher self connection deepens, and the aspects of your multidimensional self/fractals from your Metasoul come into your consciousness. It is triggered by ‘peak experiences’ brought on by near death, drugs, soul mate clashes and goodness, kundalini and non-dual frequencies. Souls engaged in the valley of dark nights and peaks of light days all contribute to the creation of the fourth dimensional awakening bliss mess storm.

The 4D matrix (if we could call it that and at least in the definition that we offer in SoulFullHeart) has both firestorm energy and calming/balming energy too. It is back and forth, up and down, openings and closings….chaos and finding center BOTH, sometimes in the same moments. It is made of both fear and of love, with the modulating choice points toward each represented in every moment. With the 4D matrix being such a tumultuous experience, it makes sense that parts of us would want to remain anchored to 3D reality…to the known, the safe, and the comfortable even as it feels also flat, dead, and limiting to our awakening soul.

These energies of love and light, though, they want to pull the 3D anchors out that show themselves in guardedness, defensiveness, anxiety and tension, conflict, self punishment. We feel in SoulFullHeart that these anchors are represented by primary parts and energies that we’ve identified as the Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Teenager, and Inner Mother/Father (depending on gender.) These aspects can be quite dominant in a personality or less so, depending on what our conditioning has been and stages/phases of awakening. They definitely seem to operate at some level in all of us as we all have needed for our own survival to create them. We’ve created a process to identify, connect, and differentiate from these core 3D energies (that often get bypassed or tried to be with spiritual frequencies) that we offer through weekly sessions with a SFH facilitator. I’ll be sharing the map of the process outline soon….More here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The main frequency differences from 3D to 4D seem to have to do with the signatures of the soul coming into your awareness in 4D and that, ultimately, it WANTS to grow, change, and transform. It wants to see life differently and beyond what is offered by the 3D limited screening. It wants to be more than entertained and distracted and finding the next things to do as the 3D self is….it wants to go within, discover, BE, feel what is real, and let go of the anchors that densify reality. The 4D can be both the cocoon and the discarded carcass too….as the butterfly of YOU takes flight, finds wings, and experiences more and more the Infinite Love that you ARE.

 

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Letting Love Flood Within You

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Sometimes it feels like the heart opens, only to close again…

The waters of love can come in like a WOOOOSH that plunges through the already opening heart door, flooding the inside of your being on many levels… soul, heart, body, astral body… it’s a feeling as if the sky above you and the ground below you is opening up and all limits parts of you have held for yourself and your life are moving, floating away… out of reach.

Then, as parts of you begin to breathe into this new reality, the oil of past pain and trauma comes up as well. Sometimes it sits in your heart-bed, feeling unwell, feeling unfit to really claim and hold and have all of this goodness. It wants to shut it down somehow, or try to. And sadly, without consciousness around parts of you and how to be with them, it can feel nearly impossible to feel as if this desire to push away is really ‘you’ or not… and so, the goodness sometimes gets shut down, and life goes back to ‘business as usual’… or tries to!

Love wants to fill your being. It wants to flood you with its waters that are meant to bring up the oil of pain that still needs to be felt and healed. It wants to bring you to new places of Divine connection and experience. It wants to experience itself through the sacred human expression of YOU that inhabits its dualism and feels its oneness in incredible opening moments too. It doesn’t care or mind if you have parts that are afraid of its power, it wants to find its way to you anyways. And so, life circumstances continue to press you, inviting you back into you, to find the parts and seek your answers deep within, to find and feel why and how love has been kept out.

What is love inviting you to feel today? How is it pressing on the sacred door of your innermost and most vigilantly protected BEing? The INvitation to feel all of this more and more, is a constant and ever-moving one… and something that can feel like it has no final ‘goal’ or ‘end’. The truth is… it doesn’t, really. The potential for healing is endless, as you are endless, and the love that flows can only ever be endless too… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are A Universe Of Feeling

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By Raphael Awen

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You’re feeling a lot right now.

You may not think you are, but thinking is different from feeling. It comes from a different apparatus, one being the head and the other being the heart.

If you pause in any moment (like this one), for a moment….. to feel …..you can immediately get a sense of what you, or what a part of you is feeling, or maybe rather, resisting feeling. Being on Facebook is a big world of feeling, that you, as another big world of feeling are interfacing with.

But what specifically are you feeling right now?

What are you hoping to feel by continuing to take in my words? What drew you a moment ago to ‘go online’?

If you’ve been numbing down what you are feeling then asking that question will begin to open out your awareness to the world of feeling that you haven’t been feeling. It would begin with sensing the rumble of unfelt feelings from within, admitting desire, admitting boredom, or need, and admitting the feeling of not wanting to feel.

Every last one of us are a universe of feeling. We are energy, and we are in motion, and when you put those two together, we are e-motion, and then we get to our e-motives, the deeper stuff beneath all of the who’s, why’s, where’s and what’s content of our lives, to what is really going on at a deeper contextual core level of being.

What you are feeling is running your life, and while a part of you may feel that what you feel is ruining your life, those so called negative feelings are the first portal you are being given to enter your e-motional body, the primordial awareness ground of your being.

So there you have it, no special moment per se, but yet totally pregnant and interconnected with all that is, even as, and even especially as, it doesn’t feel that way to a part of you.

You are sooo much more than you’ve consciously known, but parts of you are in touch with this, and this explains a whole lot about the suppression and management of e-motion that’s happening in the background just off the radar.

Time now, to love it all with a generous curious heart that really wants to learn, love, and feel all there is to feel.

Nothing to fix or even to heal really, just a lot backed up waiting to be noticed and felt, and then whatever shifts occur as a result just lead to new feeling and new noticing…. In a world of infinite love, you’re not broken, and you’ll never actually be fixed or even finally declared healed, as you will always hunger for more of the infinity that you are and long for.

I felt a wanting to share today after and during an unusually intense few days of ‘working’ doing an online money gig doing some data entry. I was feeling all the feelings held by a part of me fueling this energy to work, wanting to be felt more than anything, and now I feel opened out and expanded to hold this part of me as I re-engage in the work, feeling the more that there always is to feel.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Journey To New Pastures Of Growth And Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There is a new ground wanting to ripen for you now. It’s calling your roots out of hiding, inviting you to plant them firmly in new soil. ‘New’ only in the sense of not having been lived in by you before… yet not ‘new’ at all, for there are others who have tilled it for themselves too for so long.

Out beyond everything parts of you have expected of themselves, well passed the flat expanses of ‘normal life’ that have held you in stasis, is a reality you’ve only begun to imagine for yourself… a reality where love flows and flourishes freely, pausing only to flood you and help you feel more of where it can’t quite get in. There are stuck places inside you of immaturity, of push-away towards goodness, of disbelief that love actually IS different than what parts of you have been taught it is directly and indirectly. In a pasture that you haven’t yet known, are your deepest, farthest-reaching places of healing and growth. It’s not a mental concept or construct, it can only be felt and experienced and lovingly challenged into being.

Those souls and hearts who have been in this soil before you, want to empower you beyond what parts of you have ever felt possible so far in your life. They want to empower without enabling, without caretaking what needs to be looked at, felt, deconstructed, loved UP… your soul somehow kNOWs the way, understands that it needs to lead and feels how much it wants to. It’s up to your parts, your personas, your willing heart, to feel what needs and wants to shift, what areas of life you especially need help with and illumination for, where love doesn’t seem to be flowing abundance and why love doesn’t seem to feel very nourishing, based on what you’ve lived of it so far.

It takes a lot… it takes a big soul, like yours, to say ‘yes’ to the desire deep within, that wants something different, wants transformation, wants fulfilment in the sweetest way. It takes a capacity to be with what isn’t desired, to find it within your heart to love it for what it was and what parts of you needed it for, and to move on to what awaits you next in the greener pastures of soul family, ever-expanding heart wisdom, and exponential service of love. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.