Category: Divine Feminine / Sacred Masculine

The Year Of Inviting And Loving The Dark: Healing The Masculine Heart

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It feels like a new year already. Somehow we made it through a rebirth canal. Some deep pieces were highlighted for each of us to feel and move through. As the UP ticking of energies continues what feels like a maniacal trajectory, you may be starting to feel the epicness of the year to come. The collective shadow is being drawn toward the increasing light that is being fostered within each of us as well as Gaia’s vibrational ascent.

In a recent session, a truly beautiful soul was feeling as if he was a Dark One. This label so feels like the Scarlet Letter of our inner shadow. There is a heavy judgment, a shame, and a pang of guilt that come with that. The reality, the way I see it and feel it, is really about the most forgotten and hidden aspects of ourselves that are seeking solace, compassion, and understanding underneath the heaviness and/or anger. They are timelines that have profound anchoring in our heart and soul.

This Dark One felt as if it had the burden and responsibility to hold the light due to this guilt and penance for all that it had done in its lifetime. This holding and shining the light in the name of fight or penance don’t actually serve Love. They only serve to sustain the fight and the penance. We were feeling how self-forgiveness and self-love are what hold the mantle of the Light in its purest form.

As a man serving other men, I am sensing this to be a big part of our ascension. We hold so much guilt and shame around what has happened and is happening in other timelines, to put it multidimensionally, that we have formed a layer of either penance, control, or both in order to steer clear of the Dark One inside. Neither of which offers an authentic and deeper feeling of true power WITH the feminine. It can be over and under, or a mix of the two.  

So for my own process and intention for this new year, I feel to honor and invite the Dark One into the openness of my heart. It is He that holds the humility, the sobriety, and the poignancy of the Light. It is the Sacred King in us all that seeks not to slay his dragons, but to love them. He asks for the help of his inner guides, as well as the outstretched arms of those that are here to hold that space for him when the time is right. Let us do this together and not alone. That is our next level as New Earth Men.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  

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Returning To Divine Mother: A Poem

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By Kalayna Colibri

To truly let Her in… you become the poet and the dancer of heart and the deep journeyer of soul.

To truly let Her in… the sword is dropped as you surrender to the embrace of a love and acceptance you’ve forgotten you were worthy of.

To truly let Her move you… means burning away that which doesn’t align as you surrender to the fire of boundary-setting (with care) and the illumination of that which has been in shadow.

This is what it means to be with the Divine Mother in all of her forms and faces… and to begin to understand that you are part of that too.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Gratitude For Divine Mother In All Her Forms

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By Jelelle Awen

Feeling so grateful for my connection with the Divine Mother in this moment. Her steadiness, Her consistency, Her holding of the match when certain configurations in life need to burn…..and Her BEing the balm of comfort afterwards. I have been so blessed to experience these frequencies of Her for many years now, just deepening in experience as I BEcome more Her too.

Divine Mother is my inspiration in this moment as I move through a challenging, yet very growthful phase in my life. She is there in whatever form I need Her whenever I close my eyes in meditation. She is there during the tears that are flowing of sadness, gratitude, and realization. This morning, She was sweet Maggie for me, Magdalena sister of the heart and soul. I have gotten so much comfort from Her as Maggie….feeling like I am part of an important sisterhood that I can always return back to again.

She is my challenger in this moment too in Her Dark Mother/Kali form. She destroys only to allow for the NEW to arise. She reveals what is painful only so that it can move back into love again. She presses only to support the labor pains that are already happening in order to birth the NEW.

She is there as Mother Mary for me and for you….for any parts of you that need the energies of COMPLETE acceptance, forgiveness, and reflection of your innocence in order to heal. Her energy as Mary so often comes through in sessions with women, offering support to the Inner Child and Inner Teenager parts of them in pain, especially those who have experienced sexual abuse traumas. She is the GREAT caregiver in this form and I feel honored in these moments to be her channel.

Divine Mother….in whatever forms you most need…is waiting for your heart cry, your need, and your vulnerability. As you are brave enough (as this is the TRUE expression of power….to surrender to vulnerability) and your Protector/Gatekeeper can drop the guarding enough….then you can let Her in and receive what you are most deeply needing.

And eventually you can BEcome Her more and more….both women and men as fits your soul expression….not as an impersonal Goddess or a fierce female warrior…yet simply AS love that always burns, always grows, and always sustains, expressing through your very human heart and infinite soul.

You can experience Divine Mother frequencies flow through and toward you during 1:1 sessions with me. Sessions are available during this holiday season too and to gift to others for $55 USD min. donation for 90 life changing and heart altering minutes. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I received this beautiful testimonial just today from a bridging session that I did yesterday and wanted to share as I feel the Divine Mother had MUCH to do with this result: “Thank you for such a beautiful and uplifting session… It helped me so much. I woke up this morning still feeling the relief and openness in my heart. It feels like my mission can also open up more from now onwards. The session was exactly right and exactly what I needed. Thank you for your Being!” Zureida

Beautiful Divine Mother Image is from Inner Voice Art: https://www.etsy.com/…/1…/the-eternal-feminine-great-mother…

Jelelle Awen

A Bridge To The SOULstice: The Sacred Well Of Our Vulnerability

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

On this list of reflective explorations that I am feeling into on the way to the SOULstice, I feel that the Heart is the most complex and challenging to go into alongside our social connections. It is the realm of our truth and our deepest desires and passions. It has been the one that I have personally had my biggest challenges with. Being aware of and expressing out what is real in the heart domain.

In the vastness of awakening and ascension transmissions, the heart and emotions can seemingly be covered over as something to transcend or bypassed. There is a deep protection of the Heart and Its Truth due to so much wounding that has occurred in this life and other lives, past, present, and future. Being vulnerable to what we are feeling and experiencing is a maturation process that I feel we are all a part of on this global and galactic journey. We are all in need of growing up in this department, some less or more than others.

The time of the SOULstice offers an invitation to feel what is true inside of our emotional body. The frequencies we dip into in reaction to all sorts of circumstances very much affect our ability to let in and express love. It is the messiness of our truth-telling that opens portals, completes old patterns and creates opportunities for deepening and expansion. It brings us to the edge of what really matters the most…what is the most poignant (thank you, Kalayna).

I am still in the healing and feeling curve when it comes to this one. I feel it is for a lot of men, and the masculine in women both. There is so much that we don’t know about ourselves because we haven’t given ourselves the permission, or feel the safety of, going into the depths of what is our truest North. Parts of us can easily accept the goodness of being content and “better than it was”. This may be a necessary phase in order to heal. But it is also a time to gather strength for the next levels of our truth, the beacon of our own light.

It is a time for exploring and feeling the wounds and protection around your inner voice. During this time of gathering with others, you can become aware of the triggers and reactions within and just notice the mechanisms that keep your truth at bay. There are self-loving reasons for it and those are honored. Then there are parts of the journey in which you begin to express more of what is moving through and in your heart, whether they appear “right” or “rational”.  This is done in negotiation with your Inner Protector. 

Some questions to ponder are:

*How does it feel inside of me when I have a truth to tell that I don’t feel comfortable to express?
*What is good about keeping reactions and vulnerability at bay?
*How was relating to emotions modeled to me in my family and what impact does it have on me now?
*If you are one who is free to speak your truth, what energy do you feel is underneath the truth-telling? Is it compassionate, charged, matter-of-fact?

The emotional body is like an untapped, unexplored well of parts, held by the Inner Protector, and Metasoul aspects that are in deep need of being felt and integrated. The most spiritual people in the world are only as mature as their emotional bodies, hence the news of some leaders being exposed in very unsightly circumstances. Our spiritual ascension is in concert with our emotional ascension. Going into this well certainly provides the fuel for the growth that our souls, beloveds, and star families are longing for us to embody and model for the universe at large. We are the truth we have been waiting for.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

A Bridge From 12/12 To The SOULstice: A Time For Reflection

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The recent 12/12 energies were a mark for taking stock of what IS true in our current emotional, spiritual, and physical bodies. It was also about taking a look at what wants to BE from the vantage point of the Higher Self. The bridge in between is a pathway formed. A series of decisions, choices, feelings, and actions that can bring completions and/or deepenings that my beloved Kalayna so eloquently described in her recent post.

This awareness and intention can have deep rumblings that manifest in many ways from emotional outbursts of joy or anger, intense dreams or downloads, and physical symptoms from the flu to headaches. When you are consciously in touch with your journey, none of what happens on the outside is a result of “the time of year”. It is a reflection of a whole lot happening on a plane that we have different levels of conscious connection to.

I am feeling how we are on a continual conveyor belt of feeling, experiencing, choosing, releasing, and integrating. While 12/12 marked a time of completions, the path to the SOULstice is one of renewal and rebirth. This is a lived IN and lived THROUGH process. It is a gestation period of going in and coming out. Letting go of all the energetic in our lives, both inner patterns, and outer anchors that no longer serve the love and light that want to birth into the world.

This feels like a prime time to take a deep penetrative yet compassionate look at your life to feel what is flowing and humming, and what feels stuck and difficult to feel. It is a time for some self-reflection that will lead us all into the New Year of New Light. This can be done at any time of the year, but when we choose to do it as a collective the shifts are exponential. This season is embedded with the energy of renewal and birth so why not ride the wave! Your energy is My energy which is Our energy.

Over the course of the next week, I want to feel into the areas in our lives that have the deepest impact on our growth, well-being, healing, and overall embodiment of the Higher Self in the service of Love. I will explore the emotional body, spiritual/galactic activations, physical health, money & livelihood, creativity, and social relationships. It will be capped with a live stream with myself and Kalayna on the Solstice, December 21st to digest all that was illuminated and what can be done to bring those lacking or difficult spots into a compassionate and transformative process of healing and integration for the year to come. I will be supplying a small list of some reflective questions for you to ponder and digest that you can use to help focus on what is in need of attention, growth, and love. I look forward to your comments and questions along the way.

Much love and honoring of process and celebration during these Christiel and Magdalena energy baths.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Christ/Magdalene Light Streams In To Begin This ‘Christmas Season’

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by Kalayna Colibri
Today… today it feels like Christ Consciousness is coming in to be held and to hold us too. It’s the ‘official’ kick-off of the Christmas season here in North America, so there’s that, yet increasingly as we approach 12/12 and perhaps especially with all of the ‘current events’ ongoing, Christ Consciousness is coming through with a palpable Divine Father/Masculine energy.
 
Today may be a hyper shopping day for some, which promises a gateway to much debt as many choose to invest their energy and resources into making purchases to perhaps try and please the unpleasable, both inside and out. Yet, almost as if to try and help us learn to hold and BE with these emotional highs and lows instead of spending scads of money and emotional energy to placate something, there’s all this warm, golden Christ energy coming through to hold us and remind us that we ARE more than this by birthright and soul-right.
 
The Divine feels us in this emotionally and spiritually-charged time we call the ‘Christmas Season’ and offers space for parts of us to land and lean more into the glow of the Christ Consciousness light waves coming in what look and feel like golden and red glittering bands of light. This is the Christ/Magdalene love coming in to encourage us to feel all there is to feel and move even more towards a unified inner community as well as resonant soul family/community. There is SO much light streaming in that it can’t help but bring UP what isn’t love inside of you and the ache for MORE of what you most authentically WANT in your heart and soul.
 
It is a powerful choice to go inward and feel during this time instead of looking outward for quelling what is becoming harder and harder to quell or quiet down inside. To explore the parts of you hurting and reacting during this time, to help them and to be with them as the most important ‘family’ you could ever work to love and hold dear. It is equally powerful to vulnerably reach out for help and to courageously show up to support others in their healing too. This is an aspect of Christ Consciousness that begins, as always, from within… and we are invited as this ‘Christmas season’ (which is really ‘Christ-Consciousness Season’) begins, to truly land in our hearts in a new and renewed way, whatever that means for us in any given moment.
 
Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Transmuting Sexual Abuse Trauma Experience With The Divine Mother

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen

The invasion, the confusion, the PURE obliteration of personal boundaries that is the experience of sexual abuse where another person engages in unwanted sexual activities with you. Whether as a young infant, child, teenager, or adult….whether from a woman or a man …..from a parent, grandparent, mate, or peer…….the digestion of sexual abuse is one of THE most challenging experiences to transmute from trauma-based frequencies into love again.

During the last two years especially, I have been SO honored to meet with many women during sessions who have gone through this experience and seek me out to have space holding around it. It feels like they are particularly drawn to the Divine Mother frequencies that I am blessed to have flow through me. Divine Mother (especially her Mother Mary aspect) offers MUCH needed pure tones of forgiveness, compassion, and understanding to move back into a sense of innocence around your sacred sexual expression again. As they feel this with me, they are reminded that they have this connection with Mother too and can offer a bridge to Her energies for all the precious parts of them who need it, especially their Inner Child and Inner Teenager. They can then separate from these parts of themselves who are in trauma and become their OWN spaceholders to digest the pain.

These women come often from very divergent cultures, economic statuses, and backgrounds. Yet, they are unified by this experience of sexual abuse and the VERY difficult process of accepting it as a soul’s choice. It is ultimately a soul’s choice to go through this….and it connects intimately with that soul’s purpose of serving love for themselves and for the collective too.

Sometimes the sexual abuse experiences are already conscious to them and they have engaged in years of therapeutic process around healing it already. Sometimes there are glimmers of memories that offer portal doorways to go through in order to remember more clearly what happened….after negotiation with their Inner Protector to gain access to the memories again.

Negotiation with the Inner Protector to gain access to feel the parts of you that ACTUALLY experienced the abuse is key to healing it. In sessions, we go into the experience again during a ‘dropped in’ meditative state and are with the part of you that experienced it while it is happening. We are loving witnesses to the experience, so that the part of you that experienced it can finally feel supported, protected, and safe. This sounds intense and there are often many tears that flow….yet it is all held in a safe container of MUCH love with the Divine Mother. To go into these experiences with your heart open and full with compassion for yourself allows the trauma to finally transmute and all the corresponding emotions of rage, shame, and hurt to heal too.

Sexual abuse is up right now as a healing and transformation ground for the collective consciousness as the 3D density veils of suppression and denial are dissolving. A 3D culture that long supported sexual abuse by keeping it in the shadows is now shifting to a 4D one that exposes the dark in order to bring it into the light. Higher frequency transmutation of this wound is about moving beyond women vs. men or anyone being ultimately ‘at fault’. It is about feeling deep compassion for ALL of the souls involved in these situations and understanding that their souls each had ‘roles’ to play that allow them to learn and grow. Compassionate forgiveness is a frequency that offers love ambassadorship to all involved.

Those of us who draw sexual abuse experiences this life have MANY timelines where our Metasoul sisters/brother are experiencing them and/or perpetrating them. It is a repeating karmic pattern until it is healed and transmuted and no longer ‘needed’ to be experienced by our soul. Connecting to these timelines and those experiences also helps with the digestion of this-life sexual abuse. It is very often these other timelines that are actually the root cause of the pain and suffering loops experienced in this-life. We also go into these timelines in sessions to feel and heal these timelines through connection with your Metasoul sisters/brothers who are experiencing them.

The Divine Mother offers SO MUCH love and support for the feeling, remembering, and healing of these experiences. Reach out to Her and you’ll receive infusions of the courage you need to go in and through it!

There is more about parts/Metasoul aspect healing process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with me to digest these experiences and much more for women. Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman provide sessions with men. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about galactic activation, bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Being In Response To Your Path

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By Kalayna Colibri

We cannot know what will call us next. We can only arise and respond.

We cannot attach to the outcome of that calling, or even how the path will look. We can only trust that it serves, somehow, from within us to us and to others.

Love moves us in ways we cannot predict, though parts of us want to and try! It does not tend to be easy to be with the kickback that sometimes happens inside of us from these parts who are afraid of what your next level of leadership and service mean. They may be afraid of going inward to heal or going outward to lead from the healing inside. Yet they too want more than they’ve experienced of love. They too want to dive in, they just need you to come be with them and show them that the way through the forest is not unknown, just unexplored.

I feel the Divine Mother offering today, “the way is designed yet untried. The path is aligned but untrodden. This is the first experience you’ve had of being in this consciousness, this cultivated Self. You are born and reborn many times in this lifetime alone, to continue to gather up all pieces and parts and find that pure expression of love you’ve always been and always will be. From this you serve. For this you are here. With this, you heal and you ascend, and you intimately join with others in this same dance relationally.

Your being here is enough. Your choice to continue is a miracle. And your heart and soul know the way… always”. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Honoring The Courage To Feel: A Gatekeeper’s Journey

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

Tender tears flow. This is the moment of feeling. Healing. Letting go and letting in. In recent weeks I have been connecting with another layer of my defenses, my protection, in the form of what we call the Gatekeeper. They are the holders and guardians of our soul story and soul pain. I have had several incarnations in my healing process and this latest one has been one that has been like the Wizard of my Oz. He was found in deep resistance to feminine intuition and guidance. It was a subtle energy that was very much closely connected to my waking consciousness. A cognitive dissonance arose in me and I began to feel a bit lost in what was me and what wasn’t.

As I began to commune with this energy more and receive space-holding from Jelelle and reflection from my beloved Kalayna, I could begin to feel a conscious separation that is all part of this work of differentiation. The energy became less unknown and more knowable. More willing to be seen and connected with. I could feel how this aspect of me has been so closely entwined with me most of my life and came out in bits and pieces over the course of my healing.

But this has felt core to me. The themes he has shared with me have been themes that have pervaded my consciousness my whole life. Guilt, shame, cowardice, judgment, rejection, fear, doubt, hopelessness, and even rage. Our Gatekeepers are like sponges that hold this vast arena of our soul in a what appears as a finite container of energy. This provides a huge feeling of burden and responsibility. I have equated it to the image of Atlas in past writings.

He was originally found in a large cavernous space under my castle as a dragon protecting my inner treasure of heart and soul. But this was mostly a projection of defense he has since shown himself to be more human in form as the lifetimes on this planet would have him, and me, accustomed to. We have been in contact daily but he has been a bit elusive due to his own distrust and acclimation in being seen. Today he let me in a bit more to feel the deeper pain of creating a wall to his angelic home.

From his words, he felt how much he had fused to this dimension and assumed the role of responsibility of what happened to my soul, rather than the intended choice of being a guide. The experiences of myriad timelines had shuddered his heart through the volatility of human pain and emotion. He chose a life of hiding and self-sequestering that only acted as a barrier to receive the Love from whence he came. I was guided to play some piano music that has always brought this feeling of missing home into my heart. As I played it, the tears came and the heart opened even if just slightly.

He could feel the waves of love coming from “beyond” yet are very much right here, right now. It has been hard for him to let that in as it means to feel the pain of putting up the walls in the first place. So the tears are bittersweet, but tears nonetheless. They are the process of Love finding the pain and giving it the healing that it wants and needs in order to move on and move up to new frequencies and timelines that offer more ease and joy and less heaviness and difficulty.

It wasn’t a full dam break but a good start to begin to shift something so profoundly core in my life. In my quest for wholeness, self-love, and service of love. The image that I chose below is one that represents my Gatekeeper and his lonely search for Love even when he has resisted it so. It looked as far away as the stars but forgetting is had always been there right there under his feet and in his heart. This is my honoring of him and his courage to keep marching on.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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For Jelelle Awen On Her Birthday, With So Much Love And Gratitude

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By Kalayna Colibri

For Jelelle Awen on her birthday…

I had to write you something new this year. I was going to go find the poem I wrote for you before, but because you and I are both in such brand new phases right now, I wanted to write something that reflects our re-arising and reNEWing relationship, while honouring all of our phases together so far over the last few years and all of the challenges we have faced in ourselves and in our bond too.

I am truly, deeply honoured by your powerful presence in my life and the ongoing love and support you ripple out to me in many levels both subtle and obvious.

I have witnessed your growth and healing as you’ve witnessed and helped facilitate my own. I am blessed to call you both “friend” and “teacher” and take neither honour for granted.

It’s not just another trip around the sun

It’s a further dip into the waves of your personal sun

The one that shines brightly

And beacons us all homeward

To our unique heart-homes withIN.

You serve love through the YINspiration

You’ve cultivated,

Worked for,

Planted within your heart and soul bed

Of growth

and dynamic leavings and enterings, both.

You YINspire my own trajectories

And adventures

Inside

And within the love flow between us

Which reflects and informs

All other relationships

I could ever have and do have

In my life and heart today.

You are the continued template

Even as you always give me back to me

And encourage my own uniqueness to shine

And evolve

And grow.

To say I’ve learned a ton from you

Would understate the value

Of everything you’ve led

And continue to lead

With the strength of a lioness

And the softness of a swan.

I love you!!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.