Category: SoulFullHeart Healing Process

Inside-Out Reflection

Published on by Raianna Shai2 Comments

Many things have shifted for me in the past couple of months since moving back to Canada. Moving into a new house, experiencing a new social terrain, exploring new relationships, diving into new places within myself. Reflecting on the past year I feel how much I have cultivated for myself just by going in and putting my process first.

One year ago I was living in Mexico, I spent most of my time alone or with my community, I was living in a cheap apartment that I did my best to make my own, I was focused on my process and yet parts of me were still very good at avoiding the hard parts.

One year later I am in one situation after another that pushes up process. Everything is new, everything is growing and changing. I am experiencing things socially and emotionally that I haven’t felt in over a year and through that, I can feel how much I have grown.

If there is one thing I have learned from my experiences this year, it’s the importance of going in. I have had so much fear dictate and run my life. All for good reason, but it also ran out of ground. I got to the point in my life where nothing I did felt like it had any meaning. My heart wasn’t soaring or passionate about anything I was doing and feeling, I felt like I was at a standstill with growth and lacked any sense of inspiration.

Finally, I was able to open up to something new and scary: my inner world. Now that I have begun diving deep into my emotional and spiritual body I can feel the gifts of every phase of life that I have had. The phases I miss, the phases parts of me feel shame about, the phases I honour, my current phase of being. It has all been sacred and has led me to where I am today – which is just about everything I have ever dreamed of. But I know that I would not be able to see it that way had I not healed what I needed to in order to really let it in.

It’s hard to really SEE beyond the eyes when you have not learned to see inside.

It’s hard to love another when you have not loved your own aching parts.

It’s hard to have gratitude when the shadow is not honoured too.

It is hard to move forward when you have not moved inwards.

I still have pain, fear, anger, and sadness within my shadow but knowing that I have cultivated the time and space to feel and love it all makes all the difference in the world. I feel all of the people my age that have such a strong desire to feel passion and to make something of their lives, but if I can teach anything from my own experience – it’s to heal, with love and curiosity, everything you can first.

You can change anything you want on the outside and feel motivated and inspired but what keeps that fire alive is how you feel within yourself. How you experience and notice every moment changes your outer reality. I have seen and felt this over and over again and cannot suggest it enough.

I adore my process and want to share it with you, if any interest arises. My lovely community provides sessions and support through all of this – you can read more at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Video: My Journey Into Service Of Love W/Kalayna

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by Kalayna Colibri

Recently, I chose to begin space-holding again after a several month break. In this video, I share about my most recent process and also about how I’ve related to service of love in different parts and layers of myself, for many years.

Sharing this video is a way to offer and invite ways to feel where you personally may also be needing and wanting to go inside of yourself as you prepare for service on this journey of Ascension. We are ALL needed to show up and bring our inner love flow to support one another and to hold space for others in their own self-discovery and healing. In order to do that, we need to plant and grow some inner love seeds and cultivate from our own journeys within.

I’m available to serve you in a Bridging Session if you are a young woman 25 years old or younger. For more information on sessions, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Bringing Love To War/Battle Timeline Bleed-Throughs

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

By Kalayna Colibri

Yesterday was Remembrance Day here in Canada and Veteran’s Day in the USA along with being a major 11:11:11 portal day. This doesn’t strike me as an accident or coincidence as the frequencies I’ve felt coming through in especially the couple of weeks leading up to this day felt significant and important to feel into and quite charged too.

As I went inward into meditation the other day, I felt outrage in my field. I’ve had many layers of outrage to feel through in my process, which you could say is an aspect of being an ‘Indigo’, though I don’t closely identify with that myself very much anymore. I could feel the outrage coming in from some political satire I had just taken in on YouTube that was digesting the election in the US. Sometimes I take in these videos to get a sense of what’s being digested and how. I’m realizing I did this on this day because I was being guided to for a reflection of my own soul’s process and what’s moving or wants to move in the collective too, especially around fighting this or that or choosing to perpetuate the cycle of outbound outrage instead of vulnerability and heart-centered leadership. Even the comedy around politics has an outrage to it and not a lot of/any vulnerability or genuine desire for change, for if the cycle changed, so would the comedy… so would the reason to put someone else down when you yourself are feeling put down. I’ll admit that I’ve enjoyed taking in this sort of humor, but less and less so as I’ve healed more and more of the outrage inside of my soul.

I felt what we call an ‘overlay’ of many Metasoul timelines coming through at once during these most recent political events. I felt many timelines where soul aspects are waging and raging in war and battle scenarios is still alive and well. I felt my own Suffragette timeline coming through to help show me how this is a layer going on for many women and men too right now. All timelines from all wars and political movements were coming through as the veil leading up to Nov 11 became thinner and thinner. It’s not a ‘bad’ or negative thing that all of this was and still is coming through. The purpose for this to come forward is for it to be felt and brought to a new layer of inner resolution and reconciliation and into the NEW timeline of something different.

As with any timeline bleed-through with any theme that’s alive for our souls such as persecution, tyrannical leadership, etc. these timelines that have been peaking and sometimes full-on bursting through the veils have been asking for our inner heart leadership to lead something different from within. We’re being asked and invited to start feeling how it can be different going forward and how we can actually work to heal these painful timelines that still affect us today.

If you have the space and especially if you’ve been feeling particularly charged during recent political and personal events, I invite you to pause and feel it, seeing if there is a specific soul aspect or timeline that wants and needs your love and attention around this. The story, partly your soul’s story, wants to be seen and felt and brought to a new place. The outrage you may have been experiencing can only lead to more outrage in the end… and not much of any resolution of these timelines that so need us to lead differently and bring them to their next place of healing, especially as the New Earth continues to birth and arise!

Much love as you navigate your own journey of soul and heart!

More on the Metasoul and other parts of you here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

If you need some deep support to help you digest and feel what has been coming through, my beloveds and I are happy to hold space with you: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Photo by Ullash Borah via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘Returning’ To Service

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by Kalayna Colibri

It was several months ago I decided to bow out of serving actively for whatever amount of ‘time’ felt right, fully surrendered to the process I was in that had to do with service and space holding and my own love overflow that needed much tending to. You can’t exactly share a harvest that is only still in its seedling stage, though the potential and power of the garden itself is there to be felt, seen, and envisioned from the get-go.

The call to serve has lived in me since I was a teenager, if not even before that. I had to go down the route of the “performer” for a while in the name of self-discovery and necessary self-absorption to some degree. I had to venture down the highway of big conferences and spiritual events, thumbing my way to the next teacher and teaching that resonated, which fed the vision of being a sort of sage-on-the-stage. Over the last years of my personal healing process I’ve chosen to really look at this and differentiate from it, especially recently. I’ve realized where there has been more of a performer present than an integrous and heart-centered healer. For some healers, there’s not much difference and in some cases they actually need to be both. This is not what I’ve signed up to inhabit this life however and I would prefer to only be on a platform if I am bringing my heart and soul integrity fully with me into the fray and even the spotlight.

I’m choosing now to step back onto the stage and offer service to others on this beloved path we call “SoulFullHeart”, taking this humbling process I’ve been in along with me. I’m choosing to space-hold for young women age 25 and under only, for this phase. My life, healing, and Ascension experience I’ve had up until now could really serve those who desire to lean into it in a collaborative and empowering space. I’m here to be a love conduit for the Divine Mother and Sister. I’m ready to serve as the needs arise in others for my flavour of service! 🙂

If you’re interested in a Bridging Session with me or one of my beloveds (who serve both men and women), visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session for more info. They are one-on-one and are a $55 USD minimum donation.

Much love to you and your journey, wherever it takes you within and without! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Healing Is A Birthright And INvestment

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By Kalayna Colibri

Healing is an investment, an exchange of energy. And offering healing space to others is the same.

We are far from entitled to our healing in this or any life, even though it’s our birthright.

The pre-requisite to healing is a claim and a willingness to invest – heart, soul, body, money – with discernment. And a surrender to the path at hand.

We are also far from entitled to express our healing gifts in this or any life, even though they are a given and are available for the claiming.

It is an honour to awaken and to serve self and others. It is work to cultivate the love overflow within that can arise in service organically. And, it takes courage to ask for what you need in return of offering service to others, to create a mutually beneficial and nourishing exchange.

This is something so challenging for wounded parts of us to let in sometimes because they want to find movement without growth, and healing without a deeper claim of the path and the needs that are present.

Yet, the more we feel these parts, the more we can move into the heart and soul bigness capacity we all have, to BE where we are, SEE the opportunities in front of us, and step into the portal of where love and the universe want you to go next – embracing the investment and the lessons, both. 

 

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All that said, if you’re curious to check out the offerings and powerful space holding of the healing path I am deeply a part of, check out this page on our website here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo by Joshua Reddekopp via unsplash.com

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Beauty That Is You

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By Raianna Shai

As I watch the sunset tonight I reflect on all the beauty that surrounds me. The beauty that I alchemized for myself. The beauty that is reflected within me.

When we take in beauty like sunsets, we are really taking in ourselves. The beauty of ourselves. You can only let in the love that you have cultivated within. And from there, is where you give to others.

I came onto my yoga mat this evening feeling less than perfect. Less than worthy. I’ve always been very sensitive to how I am perceived and what others think of me. So one small thing can send parts of me spiralling into a suffering loop about not being good enough.

I checked in with this part of me while in puppy posture and asked why I felt this sadness every time something like that came up.

He told me “Because I know that if you feel sad or guilty enough, you’ll do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again. So we don’t have to feel the sadness. So no one can judge you. It’s for your protection.”

I felt to say back, “But why am I not perfect exactly where I am now? Why is this not good enough?”

I felt tears start to come as this part of me started to let in the reality that I was talking about him, too.

I transitioned into a new position so that I could take in the sunset amidst this process, and the tears started to flow.

Look at all of this beauty, I thought. The love in my life, the love in my soul, the love in the sky this very moment.

I know there is shadow within me. Darkness, sadness, anger, fear. But that’s all a part of the beauty.

We would have no sunsets without darkness. The colours would not stand out the way that they do.

And my darkness and shadow is not wrong, the way the night sky is not wrong. It is passion and power. It is the part of my essence that can provide me with discernment, boundaries and confidence. It is one of the strongest parts of me, especially when it can let in my love.

I make mistakes. I have the capacity to hurt. I can feel things I would never wish anyone to feel. But I am still worthy. These dark parts of me are still worthy. You and your parts are still worthy of all the love you can possibly imagine. Of every ounce of love you have to give.

It’s time now to go in, take responsibility for the shadow, feel any remorse that comes up, and then forgive. Forgive so that you can let in the beauty that is YOU.

A MANdate For New Earth Now

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

Last night my friend, heart shaman, and MANtor (mentor as a man) Raphael Awen and I enjoyed a night out together for the first time in a while. It was a time we intended to connect with each other in a deeper way beyond the ‘doings’ of our busy lives as we all engage in our next journeys separate, yet together in heart.

It is easy for parts of all of us to normalize relationship to some degree and not take a moment to just be in the goodness of what is, what was, and what we intend to be more of. This also feels to be a challenge for men especially. Taking sacred time with each other in honor and gratitude, or even much-needed truth-telling, wherever that truth is coming from or needs to lead.

Raphael and I took in the goodness of our surroundings, our own usness outside our personal romances with our beloved mates, and our history together as friends and co-conspirators of this starship we call SoulFullHeart. It was a tender moment to feel all that we have been through together in our history and especially here in Mexico. We could feel how unique our bond is as men and to feel how we have had the shades drawn a bit on our own desire for other men to be a part of a larger roundtable of heart and soul kings.

So we took the intentional space to let go of what was, honor it deeply, and open our hearts to more. More real, more galactic, more men, and more More, whatever that turns out to be. It was another layer of deep healing between two men that seek to offer it to other men in search of the same. It felt personal, global, and galactic. All that was missing was the cigarette. (Yup…I said that.)

Raphael and I both open our heart and soul journeys to men and women alike who feel resonate (and even those who may not fully) to explore their own inner world, this one and beyond. To take steps to heal and inhabit the practical, emotional, and spiritual steps to enter into a new relationship with self, other, and the universe at large. To open up your own personal disclosure project, click on the link below for more information.

Thank you for being a part of our living room. We look forward to more connection with you.

Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Introduction To The Parts Of Yourself And Soul: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 3, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week’s Museletter features a piece by Jelelle Awen, where she offers the perspective of connecting to different parts of you and invites you into a new reality of feeling them more specifically, even outside of sessions with SoulFullHeart. She describes the benefits of connecting to parts:

“Separation from these parts allows for a collaborative relationship to form. The original traumas and woundings happened in relationship and heal in relationship too. You become a loving, compassionate, and curious higher vibrational frequency of love that can rescue, save, feel, and BE with the parts of yourself and soul that most need you.”

There is a brand NEW guided meditation offering from Jelelle this week as well. A quick one that offers a way to clean and activate your chakras.

Many new articles and several new audio blogs this week from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna. These include digestions of energy updates, feeling your life and your relationship to life, yourself, your parts, your desires, and ways to be with your emerging emotional reality.

Raphael, Jelelle and Gabriel offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $77 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

How To Be The ‘I’ Of Your Inner Storm

Published on by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

I am going back into my writing vault to bring back a series I did about art and my healing journey. It was a time of going deep into the bowels of my pain and using a charcoal stick to bring out what was lying within. Though the subject matter looks and feels unsavory, the light of a new awareness and relationship to myself was unmistakable. It has taken the time it has taken, but it all began with a movement, a choice, and a desire to own and love my pain. What I am now discovering as my inner feminine seeking her place within the court, and core, of my heart.

You don’t need to consider yourself an ‘artist’ to simply draw what you feel. It is energy and energy expresses itself in a multitude of ways that doesn’t always look like something in particular. The stick figures I drew were perfect for what I needed to express what I was feeling. If I let a punishing or critical voice expect something more I would not have gotten to the real purpose of the drawing.

This one specifically centered around the inner critical voice I had at the time. It was one that had been with me for as long as could remember and does come out at times to be felt. This was an energy that I deeply desired to tap into as it created extreme energy drops and reactive fusions. As we awaken to the largess of our being, we inevitably wake up our inner demons and dragons. The way we relate to them is what brings about the deepest change. Here is a guided meditation I did to meet and love your inner critic/punisher:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cTe6ayIAWk

When this energy would come up it would kick up all my other parts inside me and whirl through me like a tornado wreaking havoc. I did not see that at the time but needed the eyes and open heart of another (through Jelelle and Raphael) to reflect that back to me so that I let that in because I WAS the tornado and not the ‘I’ of the storm. If you wish to read more you can go here:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/healing-art-day-1-critical…/

Art is a powerful tool to access the nooks and treasure troves of our heart and soul. It is the feminine act of creation and intuition that births the mirror of what it is that we are meant to look at and receive with our heart-eyes. It is not just drawing but any form of creative expression that is the gift of our humanity to cultivate and explore to the depths of our being. If you are curious to feel more into the integration and exploration of your own creative healing journey, please contact me or visit the link below. It is a journey that promises to take you to where you need to go, not necessarily where parts of you may expect to go.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Art As A Mirror And A Doorway Into The Heart And Soul

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Bringing outside what lives inside can be the beginning of a vast exploration of the myriad energies that make up the wholeness of You.

The picture below was done during a time (around 2014 I think) when I was feeling a deep depression that felt almost immovable. While I was in it I feel like I needed to get it out rather than letting it envelop me. I can remember the feeling of barely getting the paper on the table and grabbing the charcoal stick. It needed to be charcoal because it looked just like I felt. Dark and grey.

I remember having no clue what I wanted to draw and just let the feeling travel from my heart to my hands and it translated to a swirl of grey in the center. I was swirling on the inside so it matched. Then it got darker and darker. I smudged the charcoal because that is what I felt like too…smudged. As I stared at the picture a began to feel how I was in this tunnel like environment, on the inside looking out. Wanting to feel something different than what I was feeling. Wanting to feel lighter. Freer. Less confined and dismal.

Then as I felt this energy leaving my being and bleeding its way onto the paper, I felt to draw the figure sitting on the floor of this tunnel staring out. Looking…watching…waiting. I could feel this being as different than me at that moment. He was me and not me at the same time. He was a part or aspect of me that felt this way. He was looking for someone to connect with him so he didn’t feel so hopeless. This is when the depression became not who I was, but held by a part of me that had a story and a reason.

This act spurred on other pictures that were not all that detailed. They were simple yet had emotional substance and a reality held by something inside of me that was not all of me. It became less about depression and more about self-discovery. The sunrise of curiosity was breaching the infinite ocean of despair and I had a relationship to it….to him, or maybe it was always Her. My hidden and disowned feminine wanting to be claimed by her King. Either way, it changed my relationship both emotionally and physically to my depression.

Even if you don’t fancy yourself an ‘artist’ the act of moving something on paper, canvass, or computer screen, can open a doorway to your heart and soul that invites a relationship, a curiosity, and a compassion. This is more than just art therapy, but a beginning to discovering the lost and hidden aspects of what and who you really are in both the shadow and the light. It moves from the paper back into You in a whole new way that doesn’t just provide relief but a new consciousness that can lift you into new technicolor timelines.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.