Relationship Conflicts Offer A Powerful Mirror

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By Jelelle Awen

It can be challenging to remember that everything and everyone is a loving mirror (ultimately) of YOU and of parts of you. Especially when the mirroring comes in the form of what can feel like ‘attacking’ or ‘kicking’ energetically. This is happening more lately with the increasing Ascension energies coming in to support higher vibrational choices. These conflicts can come very often as a result of raising your frequency and collapsing timelines that you were previously anchored to. These kind of responses can be a sign that you are truly leaving something old behind and moving into the New…as difficult as they can be to digest at times.

The parts of others that were connected to you and yours can ‘lash out’ as the previous agreements dissolve. As you shift the ground of the relationship during your awakening, this releases the previous congestion/toxicity that you BOTH transacted with each other. They were as ‘bound’ to you as you were to them, in the sense of on the Higher Self/soul level signing up to exchange together for a phase of time. This is especially the case in 3D birth family arrangements, as this kind of ‘bound for life no matter what’ conditionality is so supported in 3D culture.

Parts of them can feel like you have abandoned them and the response is very often hyper critical judgement, disdain, disappointment, and defensiveness. Feelings of betrayal and hurt are underneath these reactions to your growth. You are offering a mirror to them of something new, a new place they could go beyond these polarized reactions and 3D living…yet, they may not be ready for it and it HAS to be chosen by them, sovereignly and in their own pacing/timing.

There are often many timelines working themselves out here in these relationships dynamics….rarely are all these energies that have built up just from THIS lifetime. Souls shift roles and places with each other in order to facilitate MORE growth and learning. You can connect to what these timeline playouts are between your Metasoul and theirs through conscious connection with them. These timelines are very often overlaying and bleeding into this one, esp. in the case of soul mates and soul family connections.

There is an invitation to feel the part of you that the other person represents. Their judging mirroring an Inner Punisher part of you. Their defensiveness mirroring an Inner Protector part of you….perhaps in shadow still or ‘off your radar’ and now this other person has brought them forward for you to get to know. Going inward in response to conflict with others allows you to clear and feel and heal the ground from within that drew the contention in the first place.

Feel these kinds of interactions as temporary opportunities for growth. Eventually, you won’t draw them at all when you no longer need the mirror of them. When you have felt and connected to your shadow aspects. When you have let go of the previous dense, 3D timelines because it is complete. In the meantime, they are a gift from your Higher Self to show you MORE you.

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

Preparing For Multidimensional Travel

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By Raphael Awen

For the person who’s never travelled outside of their home country, it can feel like a kind of cognitive dissonance to consider what life would be like to travel to other countries.

Likewise for those of us who haven’t (consciously at least) visited other planets or met beings from other planets, we’re kind of left wrestling with a similar kind of cognitive dissonance where entering these new domains are concerned.

I’ve been to lots of other countries and have spent a lot of time away from what I was oriented to as home. I haven’t yet crossed the rubicon of direct, physical kind of experience with other planets and the beings who reside there.

I’ve signed up for the galactic geography and sociology classes though. My appetite is growing and the awareness is increasing daily that my Gaia/earth familiarity is a very limited awareness of life and the universe. I’m about to leave the family farm and I’m not quite sure what to pack, or how the travel ports of departure and destination work. I’m willing to not-know my way to knowing.

I will be irreversibly changed at these points of experience. So will all of us. Is your appetite preparing you for what is coming and even upon us now?

My god, so many are going to be wearing that incredulous look on their faces of ‘how could I have ever bought into the notion that we are the only planet with so-called ‘intelligent’ life?’

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Beauty That Is You

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By Raianna Shai

As I watch the sunset tonight I reflect on all the beauty that surrounds me. The beauty that I alchemized for myself. The beauty that is reflected within me.

When we take in beauty like sunsets, we are really taking in ourselves. The beauty of ourselves. You can only let in the love that you have cultivated within. And from there, is where you give to others.

I came onto my yoga mat this evening feeling less than perfect. Less than worthy. I’ve always been very sensitive to how I am perceived and what others think of me. So one small thing can send parts of me spiralling into a suffering loop about not being good enough.

I checked in with this part of me while in puppy posture and asked why I felt this sadness every time something like that came up.

He told me “Because I know that if you feel sad or guilty enough, you’ll do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again. So we don’t have to feel the sadness. So no one can judge you. It’s for your protection.”

I felt to say back, “But why am I not perfect exactly where I am now? Why is this not good enough?”

I felt tears start to come as this part of me started to let in the reality that I was talking about him, too.

I transitioned into a new position so that I could take in the sunset amidst this process, and the tears started to flow.

Look at all of this beauty, I thought. The love in my life, the love in my soul, the love in the sky this very moment.

I know there is shadow within me. Darkness, sadness, anger, fear. But that’s all a part of the beauty.

We would have no sunsets without darkness. The colours would not stand out the way that they do.

And my darkness and shadow is not wrong, the way the night sky is not wrong. It is passion and power. It is the part of my essence that can provide me with discernment, boundaries and confidence. It is one of the strongest parts of me, especially when it can let in my love.

I make mistakes. I have the capacity to hurt. I can feel things I would never wish anyone to feel. But I am still worthy. These dark parts of me are still worthy. You and your parts are still worthy of all the love you can possibly imagine. Of every ounce of love you have to give.

It’s time now to go in, take responsibility for the shadow, feel any remorse that comes up, and then forgive. Forgive so that you can let in the beauty that is YOU.

A MANdate For New Earth Now

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Last night my friend, heart shaman, and MANtor (mentor as a man) Raphael Awen and I enjoyed a night out together for the first time in a while. It was a time we intended to connect with each other in a deeper way beyond the ‘doings’ of our busy lives as we all engage in our next journeys separate, yet together in heart.

It is easy for parts of all of us to normalize relationship to some degree and not take a moment to just be in the goodness of what is, what was, and what we intend to be more of. This also feels to be a challenge for men especially. Taking sacred time with each other in honor and gratitude, or even much-needed truth-telling, wherever that truth is coming from or needs to lead.

Raphael and I took in the goodness of our surroundings, our own usness outside our personal romances with our beloved mates, and our history together as friends and co-conspirators of this starship we call SoulFullHeart. It was a tender moment to feel all that we have been through together in our history and especially here in Mexico. We could feel how unique our bond is as men and to feel how we have had the shades drawn a bit on our own desire for other men to be a part of a larger roundtable of heart and soul kings.

So we took the intentional space to let go of what was, honor it deeply, and open our hearts to more. More real, more galactic, more men, and more More, whatever that turns out to be. It was another layer of deep healing between two men that seek to offer it to other men in search of the same. It felt personal, global, and galactic. All that was missing was the cigarette. (Yup…I said that.)

Raphael and I both open our heart and soul journeys to men and women alike who feel resonate (and even those who may not fully) to explore their own inner world, this one and beyond. To take steps to heal and inhabit the practical, emotional, and spiritual steps to enter into a new relationship with self, other, and the universe at large. To open up your own personal disclosure project, click on the link below for more information.

Thank you for being a part of our living room. We look forward to more connection with you.

Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Fogginess Continues, With Clarity On The Horizon

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by Kalayna Colibri

Today has been another day of fogginess inside, ups and downs in undulating waves, all amid feelings of movement that are leading to a greater sense of clarity and growth. It’s been a day too of feeling and letting in love and goodness… within myself, with my beloved mate Gabriel, and with our dear friend and teacher too, Raphael.

I wasn’t sure if I wanted or was ready to write anything today, but why not? Why not share a bit, just to be real and transparent, because I know and feel in my heart that I am not the only one moving through something intense and into more and more unknowns about who I am, even while I trust that pieces are falling into place too… this trust always seems to be there, even when I can’t consciously feel it!

These processes as they arise are visceral, emotional, powerful… not mental. Digesting it with my beloveds as it unfolds is huge and helpful, especially as another wave of intensity crests over the bough of my pitching and tossing ship. I couldn’t begin to name the intensity, but I can describe it as bliss-mess love and self-realization, supported by the goodness of my relationships and the goodness within that I’ve been healing towards for years now. It’s an overhauling of previous identifiers and a grounding into primal pain as a human being on this planet too.

Woah, right? This is deep stuff… and we’re all invited to move through whatever we need to with these themes and more.

I have had many waves of humbling processes over the years. These processes, these times of focusing inward to flow back outward again, always bring me to a new place of humility and learning about who I am and who I want to be… without any pretense or putting anything on. In fact, it’s actually been a process of taking more and more OFF, to get to the vulnerable underbelly of what’s been going on on the surface, to heal from that place and transform into something brand new.

I’m getting ready, as are all of you, to become something brand NEW.

These energies right now are offering us all much support as we reach a new stratum of Ascension on a personal and collective level. These phases of 4D darkness and purgings are necessary until they aren’t, until what has needed to be realized and felt has been. These times of fog ARE leading to clearer skies, as this is inevitable, even though parts of us may feel an existential terror or as if they are dying. This is the death and rebirth process that the Divine Mother and Father facilitate and hold space for as we continue our journeys back to full-time oneness and love-bliss consciousness, remembering all there is to remember about that too.

You and I and parts of us are not, in fact, dying… they and we are learning to live again, breathe new air again, emerge on deeper layers still from the invasive conditioning of 3D separation consciousness, the ways our parts have had to adapt and cope with that, and the pain of not being with Star Family 24/7. They never did go anywhere, yet we are energetically and heartfully finding our way back to them, and there is a lot to feel in the process of that, it seems.

Much love from the heart and soul of my process to yours. We are not alone, nor will we ever be… 

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If you’re in the middle of much process yourself, my beloveds offer exquisite, heartful, and powerful spaceholding where you can land it all and be felt deeply: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Invitation From Divine Mother: Breathe Into The Process As Clarities Unfold

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by Kalayna Colibri

“Stay with your heart in this powerful time. Allow in patience as the next clarity unfolds.”

I hear and feel this message from Divine Mother today, after a day of intense process waves yesterday that ebbed in the late afternoon. Lately, process seems to be coming up for me through what can feel like an intense inner fog and a strong desire for more clarity to happen ‘right now’, in this or that very moment… impatience abounds in moments as I feel the changes moving in and through my life, changes that are desired but also bringing me and my beloveds into the next unknown, which isn’t all that comfortable for parts of us sometimes.

I feel how this is likely a bit of a foggy time for the collective too. As more gets unearthed individually and collectively and disclosure happens in small or even large doses on all fronts, it can be challenging to see clearly what exactly the next steps are, outward or inward, or the reasons for it all to be coming up in the first place. The easy answer is that it needs to come up, no matter how messy things may get, but that’s not the answer parts of us really want to hear.

To have patience now and be ready to set boundaries or take space as needed, and to find your courage to enter into your next phase of growth and healing, is the invitation now. Trusting that everything you’re walking (or stumbling) out right now is leading somewhere. Sometimes you have to enter and re-enter your own inner woods before you can come out the other side with new clarity and an even more blissful sense of love and worth.

I know how hard it can be… how hard we all struggle sometimes to just get through the shame spirals, the feelings of not having a purpose, the feelings of, quite frankly, being ‘f*cked’ existentially and in our daily lives too. God, to even say out loud that this is all very sacred, even this intensity, is a lot to claim in moments. If even one small inch of your heart space can let this in, you’re finding your way back to grace and letting in the love that wants to support you through this so you can find out more of your personal love expression in this world.

Jelelle Awen has created many different guided meditations for you to lean into if you need a dose of Divine and self-love. I highly recommend checking out the SoulFullHeart YouTube channel, SoulFullHeart Experience, to find these and plenty of writings that can help bridge you back to your own sense of power and clarity and connection to the love that you are.

Much, much love to you as you keep courageously feeling and navigating the pain and fog that comes up from just BEing in this world sometimes. The Divine in all forms and faces, including your own, hears you, feels you, and honours the depths you’re willing to go to in each powerful moment of your choosing. 

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My beloveds offer space holding sessions if you need something, someone, to lean into now or any time:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Healing The Feelings Of Abandonment W/Your Star Family & Star Seed Child Within

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By Jelelle Awen

I am letting in, soaking in….connection with my star family and Metasoul aspects/sisters/fractals that I know of now and have become so close to. These kind of weepy tears come up as I feel their TOTAL love for me that is expressed without effort, boundary, or conditions. I recognize this feeling of weepiness….it is deeper need for resonance being met and being let in that can only truly happen from within the self and one’s own soul and with the Divine. No other person can provide and meet this need FOR us…although they can transact love WITH us from the overflow we both are experiencing from self love.

Star family for me is not a concept, yet a visceral and real supportive energy that is transactable through BEing with them. It is feelings of coming home, no longer feeling alone/abandoned, sense of bigger soul purpose here. Reunion feelings can be bittersweet, as they so long went unmet and unfelt. An itch being scratched that you didn’t even realize was there. It is feeling an acceptance of your alienness that makes up the substance of so much of our DNA. This is when ‘activation’ truly happens…when it is offered through your own soul and can be let in through a needing heart/soul to receive it with transactable love.

I feel this pain so often in others of feeling ‘left here’ and not feeling like they truly belong here on Gaia. This is amplified by estrangement and being misunderstood by/with birth family. Experiences of abuse (emotional, physical, mental, energetic, sexual) just compound/reinforce this sense of not belonging here in this 3D harshness and polarized density. Deep feelings of depression, suicide/wanting to leave, panic attacks/anxiety goes along with this. Parts of us BEcome the frequency of wounding from these experiences and there isn’t a bigger container there of compassionate resonance to digest and transform the pain into love/light again.

Our Star Seed aspect is an awakening inner child that can unanchor from 3D as their traumas are processed and a galactic awakening occurs….an innocence and purity lives in the heart of this part of us. They are so often in deep longing and loneliness to feel their star siblings again, to feel the wonder and magic of multidimensional and porous relationship to life that this galactic union offers. Processing undigested trauma/terror from what they felt as ‘abductions’, which were actually visits with star family, they can arise into becoming the magical fuel for our Merkabahs or light body vehicles.

As you connect with these aspects of yourself that most NEED you and receive support from your star family, you can truly LAND here with a filling up heart and soul to receive, to give, and to BEcome love!

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your star family: https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

More about parts/Metasoul aspect connection here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging sessions to connect with star family, activate light language, meet your inner child/star seed available for $77 USD min. donation for 90 very full minutes! With me for women and for women/men with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Energy Update: Pre-Equinox Geomagnetic Storms Amplify Timeline Bleed-Throughs And Galactic Awakenings

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By Jelelle Awen
Timeline bleed-throughs and overlaps are becoming so much more prevalent and obvious with waves of plasma light geomagnetics flowing in from an increasingly expanding and jagged hole (to make us whole!) in the sun’s surface. SOULar winds are blowing these waves in today (9/17) and tomorrow (9/18) and are amplified by Equinox cracks in Gaia’s geomagnetic field, according to spaceweather.com.
These cracks allow even MORE light to come in as we head into the Equinox passage on the 22nd-24th. This flux of magnetics is bringing intense auroras, including rare pink ones – a sign of nitrogen molecules that activate at the lower levels (as captured in the photo below).
All these plasmas to activate our multidimensional consciousness can cause sensitivities and even pain/aches in the crown (top of the head), third eye (forehead) and causal (back of the head and brain stem area) chakras yesterday and moving into today. You may feel an overall, total body tiredness/fatigue as if you’ve been exercising a lot. Feeling drifty and just not ‘here’ is an aspect of calibrating to the altered sense of REALities that these energies bring in.
Awakening your galactic consciousness through reconnection with your star DNA and star family is the next level phase of Ascension for many more souls now. A visceral, supportive, and conscious connection with your star family provides a HUGE support as you experience so much shifting and changing inside yourself and in your world too. Star family connection can be blocked by undigested fears/traumas from visits (what feel like ‘abductions’ to parts of you) and also polarized fear reactions to ‘aliens’ that we’ve been conditioned in 3D to fear. Here is a guided meditation to connect with your star family w/more coming soon: https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s
Embracing these timelines that are trying to bleed through by consciously connecting with your Metasoul aspects who live in them really does create a huge, positive shift in how you experience REALity. These aspects ARE you ultimately, coming from the same soul source….fragments that are waiting to exchange gifts with you and heal/end karmic patterns and to become unified again. This kind of work is becoming easier, more accessible with all these higher vibrational frequencies holding the space for it. More information here about 1:1 life changing bridging sessions to connect with your star family with me for women and with men/women with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
NOW is the opportunity to step into your next level, every day experience of your multidimensionality. This Equinox passage holds the space for the remembering, the returning….AND the arising into your sacred humanity and its galactic roots/origins/DNA!
MUCH love to you as we unify, merge, and activate!
Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
Photo of the auroras yesterday by Martin Male of Yellowknife, Canada.
Jelelle Awen is a Parts Work/Metasoul & Galactic Aspects/Sacred Union Teacher & Facilitator, and Ascension Guide. She is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life awakening/healing process and community. She has written four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about bridging and ongoing individual/group sessions over zoom with her for women and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators with men and women, events/retreats, videos, books, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Message From On High

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

It is time

Time to be free

Free of the ties that bind

The binds that have kept you safe, unknowable, and small

The relations, the assumptions, and the fears

That have all appeared as Love and Truth

Until they no longer did.

It is not so much your Mind and Beliefs that need to be examined or retrained,

But rather your heart that needs to be felt

Your soul that needs to be explored

And called into the court of your curiosity and divine compassion

What storylines have you still in chains, in regret, and in suffering

It is going into the deep well of your hidden, veiled, and protected caverns

That bring the greatest gifts to your arising awareness

That you have always been Free, been Loved, and been Alive

Feel and free yourself

You wonderful, glorious, and human expression

Of power, creation, Love, and beauty.

*****

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Owning And Transmuting The Prison That Lies Within

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When one has been denied freedom, whether in the form of prison or being captured, for a very long time, there is something that happens in the mind and heart of said soul. It is like a form of The Stockholm Syndrome where you have identified with the captor/imprisoner in the name of survival. Only, in this case, the bars are no longer in front of you but they continue to exist energetically anyway. They were all that was ever known.

I have been digesting this inside of myself the last couple of days, where I can feel aspects of me that have been used to a particular consciousness, or way of relating to the world both inner and outer. There are goggles that are placed on them that were not put on them against their will, but so that they could ‘deal’ with the very real reality of True Freedom that stands right in front of them. They are not oblivious to this reality. It has been a necessary part of a healing process.

If there is no matrix, or if there was never one to begin with, we are left to address our own ownership of that which we feel like is imprisoning us. We are left to reconcile that we are the captor and the captured both. We are highly efficient and powerful creators that can manifest more than we are able to let in so we can use the power of our projection to devise all sorts of excuses that can buffer us from that reality, that I hold as my personal truth.

As the dawn of the New Era is shining is a powerful Divine light upon us, the shadow of those prison bars is becoming increasingly clear. The truth behind their existence needs to be taken responsibility for or else they will continue to stand right where they are at. I hold that these limitations, these projections, these fears have all been necessary but no longer serviceable. They are held inside by parts of you that have a long and varied history with both persecution and being persecuted. Captor and being captured. Find, feel, and release the chains of these heart and soul beings so that they can be transmuted into the grandeur of love they truly ARE.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.