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New Moon In Gemini: Releasing The Trauma Bond

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What a new moon portal today! The last few days have been intense to say the least. I have become aware, through my deep dive sessions with Raphael, of a particular trauma bond that has existed inside of me between me and my sister even as I have not been in contact with her for over seven years.

My sister and I were born very close apart. When many people met us they thought we were twins at first glance. What I am realizing is that this twin recognition came from an energetic bond between us that I am learning has visitation and abduction trauma built in, as well as many lifetimes in one form of relation or another.

I have come to the realization that this bonded trauma created a pairing between us. A contract that we would forever be in each other’s life so that we would not feel the depths of the trauma. Well, I broke the physical contract years ago, but the etheric contract remained.

I was offered to connect to my sister’s higher self and let her know that I was no longer going to hold my end of the bond anymore as it is time for me to go into the galactic and soul wounding that had kept us in a bind. I have recognized how much of this has effected my relationships with women, as it served as a protection and a projection of wound and care-taking.

I have been so focused on healing the Mom wound that I finally found the more subtle sister layer that was out of my awareness due to the depth of the trauma that it was founded on. I am reaching the edges of my galactic wounding that has alluded me for most of this life until this came into view.

What came to me is that this may be true for many of us at this time. Not so specifically from brother to sister, but any bond between two people that has deep roots in trauma. This can be especially true for twin flames. The New Moon energies in Gemini feel to be highlighting this twin dynamic for those that are meant to see it right now.

The trauma bond is something that is hard to let go of as it has such a long history. I had deep tears that I couldn’t place many times today but I could get a sense that this trauma bond was leaving my field and it is almost like losing an essential part of your being that you didn’t really know was there!

The release and detox of this bond feels like a shedding of a skin. It can be a hard process, but when held in sacred space it feels like the most important part of our ascension. I can feel during this time how there is a collective trauma bond exhibited by the fear of this virus. As we clear our own inner trauma bonds, the less energy is added to the collective and thus helps to move the needle one more step toward Love.

I also feel how this will help me to let in sacred romance on a much deeper level that I have not previously been able to transact due to this energy in my being. Quite a remarkable ride the last couple of days. I hope that this provides some insight into your own relationships to see where there may be these contracts that may need a deeper release in order to bring in the Love that we ALL are here to experience.

Much love on this New Moon evening.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Letting In And Letting Go To Experience ‘Abundance’

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by Kalayna Solais

Letting in what IS, the dreams that ARE coming true, the love that IS flowing now while feeling grateful for all of it; feeling desires for what could be but perhaps isn’t present in your life yet, without attachment to having or keeping; letting go of what doesn’t resonate to make room for what does, without compromise, even as there are practical and grounded choices to make too…

Dancing with abundance is so multi-layered, that the process of feeling your parts’ reactions and responses to it, is abundant in itself! It’s a letting in of dreams and desires, while feeling what still needs to clear inside of you and in your life to make room for that to come to fruition. It’s also a process of feeling yourself and your life, where you are and who you are right NOW… really seeing yourself and all that you’ve earned, worked hard for, manifested, and drawn into your life in a positive way with much gratitude, even though there are ongoing and sometimes growing needs and dreams to fulfill.

When I feel my life as it is now, I feel the abundance I’ve drawn, but what gets challenging is feeling the parts of me and Metasoul aspects who are still a bit restless. When I feel into this some more, I can see us all standing on the bridge between ‘abundance’ and ‘scarcity’, where I feel we’ve mostly been hanging out for a few years now. We now cross the bridge into ‘abundance’ more often than ever before, but the scarcity consciousness surfaces in these parts and aspects from time to time.

Old fears, old pain, old ways of seeing and being in the world come up again to be felt. I can feel now when it’s something ‘old’ and I don’t feel judgement of that, only curiosity about who it is inside of me that is carrying that energy still, and how I can help them live more in the present. My parts, I’ve realized, are integrating more these days and when they aren’t integrated, they aren’t always in ‘pain’, just needing a check-in like a dear friend who is bothered by something perhaps or just wants some love exchanged with them. All of this needs to be felt and acknowledged though so that it continues to heal. And as it continues to heal, it makes room for the experiences we all DO want that are truly new and truly abundant.

‘Abundance’ is less and less about material wealth or money, though this comes up for me as well at times. Yet, in these shifting times we’re in, ‘money’ as we’ve known it may be in its final death blows. This leaves us all with a need to feel what’s been underneath our attachment to it and how to receive/use it ‘wisely’ or ‘responsibly’. You could say this about anything you receive though, couldn’t you? Love is held as another important currency that 3D teaches us ‘to spend wisely/responsibly’ when it conditions us on how to ‘get and keep love’ and all the ways in which it tells us what we do and do not deserve to have in relationships of any kind or within ourselves, even.

When I see the ‘abundance’ in my life now… I see the love I get to have within me and exchange with others. I see how it’s been such a deep process for me over many years now of feeling where love does and doesn’t flow within me and that then informs the flow of love that I am able to experience/let in on the outside. Abundance really does start inside, just as anything you want to draw into your life… and, as always, it’s about fully having/receiving what is available to us now, even though there are genuine aches to experience or have more too.

I, for one, would love to have, experience, be IN the abundance of Sacred Union and everything that flows in every area of my life when I am in one. Yet, for now, I’m invited to feel the robust and ever-growing INNER Sacred Union, the dance that there is within me between my own Inner Masculine and Feminine. It’s yet another flow that has to start from within… and will eventually be drawn on the outside too.

Whatever your current ‘currency’ is in your life now in your life circumstances as they are, spend/receive/let go/let in with love all that IS now and all that WILL BE as you continue your own process into everything ‘abundance’ truly and deeply means to you… ❀

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Tears And Cheers Of The Star Seed

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Tender tears this morning. As I lay in bed after my early morning teaching gig, I felt a sadness in my field. A loss. A longing. I could feel my inner masculine trying to search for where this feeling may be coming from. I felt my mind toggling and gripping. There was a feeling of just wanting to let go of my mind, but what I heard was to let go of the judgement of the mind. It is the inner judgements and expectations of myself that have kept me in a more mental domain for a lot of my life.

As I turned the dial down on those, like a fade button on an image or an audio track, I got to FEEL what was underneath. β€œI miss my home. My family. The freedom to Be.” As I felt the energy of the words, I felt my inner orphan Auggie. I first felt him during my time away from SoulFullHeart. He is a very sensitive boy. He feels to be on the β€˜spectrum’ using 3D terms. But to me he is my little astronaut. He is my connection to the stars as I always feel him in his space suit looking at the stars. Wondering. Curious. Contacting.

I just let him cry. Let him call out. Asking for help to feel okay again. To not feel alone anymore. So I held him. I cried with him. When the tears dried up, we wrote a letter to β€˜them’. Whoever β€˜they’ are. I feel a host of races that are reaching out to him. Reminding him of where he is from and of his exploring and curious nature. For this is their nature too. He asked them to come and visit him whenever they could, no matter how big or small. To let him know they still remember him.

I felt a warm embrace. A subtle energy that all is well. All in time. Neither he nor I are forsaken or forgotten. They just needed the invitation. Auggie offered that he could help them bridge to the people because they are scared and don’t understand. He could help them bridge to parts of me who feel the same. I saw us out in a field together. A wide open space looking out into wide open space. He had that look again. Of wonder. Of curiosity. Of exploring.

He felt more content. More surrendered. More trusting that we will all find our way back β€˜home’ because in the end home is the feeling of being held here and now. The dial was turned another degree to the opening of the veil that has kept us feeling separate. Fear and doubt make up some of this veil and we will keep feeling and bridging to those parts of me that hold it up. But today we got to send a postcard of love and feel the immediate message back.

β€˜We love and miss you too. We are always here.’

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Connecting & Healing With Star Family: My Recent Encounter

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by Kalayna Solais

Parts of me were crying. My heart and soul were crying. Sobbing. Nearly wailing. The waves of pain moving through were great, coupled with so much longing for New Earth. For a dimension that feels truly like ‘home’… much more like ‘home’ than 3D has ever felt.

Everything in me was reaching out to me to hold it, but also reaching beyond me, to my Galactic aspects/Star Family that sometimes can’t be ‘seen’ even within my third eye, but can be felt within every cell in my body. They are part of me and I am part of them. We are inseparable and always in love. The kind of love they don’t tell you about in 3D. The kind of love that isn’t sold in magazines or written about in newspapers. It’s the kind of love that can’t be defined, only experienced, and only really let in as your heart heals the barriers to it.

As I sobbed, I felt my soul’s ache. I felt the pain of what it’s really been like to be in 3D. I felt it for myself and I felt it for others. I felt the repression… the suppression of truth, the rejection of real love. I felt tired, so tired, of stark polarities being played out and even worshipped by those who can’t see or feel it all, and those who just simply don’t care. I felt tired of judgments from Inner Punishers… the layers of my own that I’ve felt over the years and the ones that are being fused to by so many others right now. I felt a youngness in parts of me and I could give them permission to just BE young. To just FEEL, without judgment, without needing to be older than they are and to allow these Star Beings, these ancient and otherworldly energies, to just hold them with me.

My eyes were closed to allow sensations to be heightened. If my eyes had been open, they would have been searching for my Star Family beloveds instead of feeling them. They love to enter through the heart and answer our calls. They may not always materialize in the physical but they are there. They are always… always there.

I reached out in front of me, eyes still closed, to invite them even closer energetically. I invited in their touch and could feel the tiny hairs on my body ripple with their energy nearby. My elbows started to bend back towards me and my hands, no longer simply ‘mine’, found my cheeks. They explored my tears, fascinated by them, feeling my heart in them, letting me know that even though some of them don’t ‘feel’ the way we do as humans, they love us deeply. The ones who can feel us because in some ways they’ve BEEN us, offer such deep empathy and compassion that it’s hard to describe in anything but light language or simply energy. Just ask to experience this kind of love when you are ready and they will be there, offering as much of it as you are ready to let in…

I felt then, how they were here representing my own Star Family, yet also everyone’s Star Family. They offered a transmission then, which I published here. It was a transmission of encouragement, of deep feeling of us, and a beautiful reminder of how they are ALWAYS here with us and how everything we are experiencing now, no matter how challenging, is necessary and not without purpose.

I feel them inviting us all to ‘keep looking up’. Keep looking for them, physically and energetically. Psychically too. Keep ‘looking up’ for context whenever we feel parts of us still bound to 3D minutia and details and conditioning. Keep ‘looking up’ for breaks in the weather as we continue to move through all we are now, to become all we are meant to be.

If you need a guided meditation to help you along in connection to these energies for yourself, there are several from Jelelle Awen that I recommend as a powerful bridge for you:

Meet Your Star Family

Arcturian Healing Chamber

Also! ‘Free To Be Two’, the NEW 6-week group call series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen starts this coming Wednesday, May 20th: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 — this is another way to connect with Star Family AND Soul Family too!

Much love, from my Star Family to yours… ❀

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Opposites You Feel Inside Are A Portal To The Oneness You Are

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By Raphael Awen

Experiencing and feeling what you don’t want is actually what’s key to experiencing what you do want.

To the degree you feel depressed is actually testament to your native capacity for enthusiasm, creativity and divine play.

To the degree you know what it is to feel anxiety, speaks to your natural ability for radiating deep trust, rest and security in relationship to yourself, others, and beyond.

The presence of the negative is the evidence of and testament to the presence and reality of the positive. One relies on the other for its existence. 

This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way that can dial up both gravity and levity to create movement. Knowing one allows you to know the other.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. 

These polarities seem like opposites, they seem β€˜opposed’ to one another. While they have polarity, they are not separate or opposed in the way we think of separation or opposition. They come from the same source, making them two expressions of oneness. No β€˜opposition’ per se’, just polarity, the likes of which make for great romance.

All of this is flowing from the oneness that you are, that you came from, and that you are returning to. You are already perfect, just maybe not in the way a part of you defined perfection. 

If this is true, then what?

Then,….you are being invited to embrace the opposite, the thing that is β€˜opposing’ the thing you want. It’s a magical doorway into the thing you want, an invitation instead of an opposition.

You can now choose to explore what you feared exploring, what you deemed off limits and parked in secluded shadow, to then have more and more arising felt experience of your true essence in your everyday life. 

Sounds like magic and play to me! 

Begin to really dream of the life you want. See it, feel it. Feel it deeply in contrast to fully feeling the life you presently have, but long to change. Especially feel and don’t deny the parts of you who just can’t see it, who just can’t get excited just yet. 

GET CURIOUS, open your heart to all that is inside of you. Enter the darkness. It is your magical portal into the infinite magic of being that you are!

I can tell you personally, that I no longer experience the unaddressed and avoided layers of anxiety or depression or shame that I once did. Where these things once lived in my life is now the presence of deep trust and arising creativity, and very meaningful and deepening self worth. This doesn’t mean I am without challenge. Duality still provides me with the tension between what I have and what I want. That’s called appetite, always moving between satiation and desire. 

What’s cool about this is that the courage it took to face and love my depression and anxiety is the same template for how I live in the moment of every day. What need is arising now? How can I embrace that need! Where is love wanting to flow and be felt? 

What largesse of my being is wanting to engage it’s next step into the world of infinite love and infinite possibility?

We are this crazy hot stuff, only reeling from how magical we are, how infinite we are, how full of love we are. Everything β€˜else’ isn’t anything β€˜else’, it’s all the same pointing to the oneness we are inside, outside and collectively.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Please consider joining Jelelle Awen, myself and others for Free To Be Two – our soon upcoming six week group call series held on Wednesdays (May 20th to June 24). These two hour group calls have been very transformative and healing for those who participated. A donation of any amount gets you the Zoom link to join as well as the recordings of each meeting in case you’re not able to attend. They’re also a great way to get introduced to SoulFullHeart if you’d like to. You can get more info and sign up here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 I really hope you can join us.

The Path Of The Unspoken Heart: A Poem

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By Kalayna Solais

Both powerful and scary
is the independent heart
That loves with everything it has
And gravitates towards
only love that flows
Not love that spits and stammers
and hammers on home
a declaration
that it in fact is superior love.
There’s no wrong in truths long hidden
Though pain emits
from the now lighted pathways
That couldn’t be felt
Or digested
Before.
Now in new light of day
New ownership beckons
Of what was left unclaimed
And in shadow.
No…
There is no ‘wrong way’ in this world
For all paths lead somewhere
And to some satisfaction.
It’s the path of into the unspoken heart, though
That calls most to my own soul
And the souls of those
Near and nearing my dimension
Held with love
And invited with care.
This is a declaration in softness
Both spoken and written
And awakened in this very heart that shares
Into the din of what cannot move
Without being invited from within.

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Dear Brother…

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Dear Brother
What is it that keeps us apart?
Keeps us torn?
Feeling torn apart?

Dear Brother
What is it that keeps you from your truth?
From your heart?
From your capacity to feel alive?

Dear Brother
What chains bind thee to the concrete walls
That separate your dreams from reality?
What stands between us that keeps us
From seeing one another
As brethren rather than enemies?

Dear Brother
Let us lay down the shields
Take off the armour
Sit naked in the meadow of our vulnerability
And shed the tears of our forgotten unity

Let us hold the candles high
The flame of our Father’s love for life
For The Mother
For our Lover

Let us claim the Feminine within
For She is the portal to our true Masculine
The Spade to Her Chalice
The container to Her ocean

Dear Brother
My heart calls to you
To your quest of truth of heart
And truth of mind
To your desire to leave the system behind
And create a new kingdom
Born of and from Love

Dear Brother
I miss you

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Healing Expressions Of The Rising Sacred Masculine, Pt. 1

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An epic SoulFullHeart session with Raphael Awen this weekend. So much so, I will need to write this up in two parts. The first half was a revisiting of my inner masculine part named Marcus. Recently, I have been invited to partake more and more into reintegrating back into service by co-leading with Kalayna Solais a Saturday follow-up discussion group with those that attend the Wednesday Free-To-Be group calls. (For more info on the upcoming series go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2)

This brought up some prior frequencies within my masculine to show up with some compensatory energy, meaning a little more energized and outbound due to some underlying feeling of inadequacies within him to be a leading edge part of this group. What came up for him was an image of a bull in a china shop. Like he is not sure how to be in a space when things get tender. My feminine is quite capable of holding that space, but Marcus, when he is β€˜up’, can be a little more mental in those moments without letting the feeling just do the β€˜talking’. 

He began to wonder, β€œWhat then is appropriate masculinity?”. That was a portal question to what feels like a grappling of the wounded masculine’s relationship to the feminine, as well as a reaction to what is referred to as β€˜toxic masculinity’. There is this fine line of wanting to be in balance and honor with the feminine, express and claim his power and intuitions while avoiding this β€˜toxic’ distinction. 

The first thing that was brought to him is that just this very question alone suggests his reverence for the feminine and the holding of the sacred space. It also mirrors a long-standing notion that the feminine is fragile. This was deeply ingrained in me from early on in my life as my mother was a very sensitive and emotional woman in the despair direction. This set up an unhealthy dynamic between her and my inner child that he had to make sure not to β€˜hurt mom or else who knows what would happen to her’. 

Well, through much of my healing and experience with other powerful women, I recognized that this was a part of her wounded inner child tugging on my inner child. This ended up transmuting into recycled alcoholism and I eventually had to say no more. I had given all I could until it was clear I had to cut the cord of this dynamic. This has played out in multiple Metasoul timelines as well in regards to feelings of guilt and shame over how I had participated in the suppression and persecution of the women. 

Interesting that I find myself within a more feminine offering to explore and heal all of these wounds and beliefs that I have had around the Feminine itself and women in general. It inversely leads me to more of my own masculine expression as I connect with the relationship to my own feminine and how She is a portal into my sacred masculinity and my Love ambassadorship. But I have had to go here first. To my inner masculine and hash out these old dynamics and create a safe environment to let his masculine flourish like the wild stallion he is and wants to be. 

It felt appropriate to share this after Mother’s Day as a reminder that the relationship to Mom is an integral part of any man’s journey. It really needs to be brought into consciousness so that we can truly see and feel how we relate to Womankind and the Sacred Feminine. Thanks so much for taking this in and I hope that it shines some awareness and questions for your own journeys.Β 

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Announcing Free To Be Series, Part 2!

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Yes! It is another week and another compilation of SoulFullHeart transmissions at your ready. As we continue our efforts to bring you the most of our downloads and experiences, we are offering another round of the 6-week ‘Free To Be’ series. Read the full Museletter here.

Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen. In it, she talks about the birth of the first ‘Free To Be’ series and how much it has shifted for all of us here as well as those who participated. With the ongoing collapse of the 3D matrix, as held in the form of a pandemic, Jelelle felt an ongoing series could hold a safe place for others to be felt in all that was moving within and without:

As it became increasingly clear that this was a significant global awakening event (far beyond just a restriction due to a virus), I felt the call to offer a shelter in the storm during the beginning phase of it. I felt there would be much to digest and feel about what would be disclosed during the detox to 3D life. That shelter took the form of a weekly group call series over Zoom that we felt guided to call β€œFree To Be.”

The next β€˜Free To Be’ group call series begins next Wednesday, May 20th @ 10am PDT. Through this Free To Be Two series, you will feel empowered to think about and feel through the practical steps to walk out at this time, including a focus on money transition to soul purpose livelihood. You will also feel the social area of your life and connect to the β€˜black sheep’ and socially rejected part of you who wants to step out into their truth in a new way. You’ll receive more sense of the 3D Matrix/Cabal collapse that is going on in order to unplug from it and deeper galactic support/activation from your star family. And finally, you’ll realize your potential to BEcome an Ambassador of Love and 5D Bridge into the New Earth to others and other parts of you as well.

The first call of this series, on May 20th, will be an overview of how the current money system is a 3D Matrix program that is in transition to being about energy exchange based on soul purpose expression. You can offer a donation at any time and receive the recordings and also the link to attend any of the future calls live if you can or want to. More information at https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe2Β 

In this week’s edition of our Museletter, there is a video of sample clips from the last Free To Be series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen to give you a sense of what those groups are like and the teachings that are included. There is also a wonderful video of Raphael and Jelelle transmitting Light Language and Sun Codes while on a magical walk through the forests of Vancouver Island, BC. SoulFullHeart Facilitator, Kalayna Solais, offers an overview of what one could expect in a SoulFullHeart 1:1 session.

There are many new articles and audio blogs this week from SoulFullHeart Facilitators/teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen, as well as SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Solais and facilitant/collaborator Gabriel Heartman. There are energy updates, personal process digestions, and ways to look at and feel what is happening on the 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness levels.

Check out our β€˜Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

If you are interested in a session, we begin with a free consultation for 30-45 minutes over Zoom with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for you to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Process, what happens in sessions, mutually determine if the process is a fit for you at this time, and if so, which Facilitator to work with in sessions. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

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You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

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By Raphael Awen

Never before in our lifetimes has there been an opportunity like the one that stands before us now, in the Now. Every longing and ache you’ve experienced to inhabit new energies, new unfolding timelines, realizations of your soul purpose expression, drawing the deeper mateship of deep heart, soul and body resonance; all of that and more is at the door in a way that it hasn’t quite been before.

If that feels true, for a part of you, it can produce anxiety around the questions of how, or will I actually be able to take advantage of this time, or worse – who am I to think I could actually see dreams come true. That only happens in fairy tales.

Well, your life is a fairy tale.

The fairies are waiting to tell the tale of you as you make the changes that your heart is calling you to, in this do or die drama that you find yourself in. The fairies along with hosts of other dimensional support beings await your courage and choice to embrace this birthright of your being.

Never before has the feeling of possibility been so pitted against the feelings of ‘it will never happen.’ Where is all this madness coming from you ask? It’s coming from inside of you. Between you and life as you know it and these unmistakable dreams that never cease to haunt you lies your emotional body, and visceral reactions coming from parts of you to this opportunity that is here now. Never before have they wanted what they want like they want it now. Never before have they felt such hopelessness at the same time. Who wants to step into this chaos, and who would step into this chaos should one choose to do so?

A Higher Self version of you, a Super-Me, as I heard it called this week, is wanting to lead you into the centre of this chaos, at least what feels like chaos to a part of you. This Higher Self version of you doesn’t see this chaos as anything but an opportunity that your soul has longed to inhabit. Your Higher Self version of you isn’t waiting for any outside authority to issue you a licence or an authorization to proceed. That authority can only come from you. Your Higher Self cannot and will not act independent of you, the you that you normally think of as you. You came here to learn about your power and your choice. You came here to learn about the distraction of giving your power away to outside-of-you authorities and then from there, to come to learn the comparative difference of what it feels like to be in your power, and then from that new there, you get to be a broadcast of that very thing into the collective for others to tune into for their own becoming.

The biggest choice to engage this power is to no longer deny this domain of what has felt like chaos to you, in your emotional body, the feeling reactions coming from parts of you that have deeply shaped your life as you know it today. The reactions of deep despair in relationship with your unrealized dreams are the portal to the path of actually fulfilling those dreams. The first step onto this path of realization is just as fulfilling as the next, and the one after that, and strangely not any more exciting than a week or a year from now. It’s all unfolding you. The courage you will foster and grow within this new arising you will be called upon to embrace new journeys in this unfolding of your fairy tale of the infinite love that you are.

What if a romance novel or porn addiction is only a shadow version of these aches and longings awaiting your escort into a new life? What if the battles with money and work life chaos is only a drama awaiting your embrace of what’s real inside? What if illness in your body is only a call inward, nothing more, that resolves itself in self loving inquiry? What if it’s all YOU waiting and wanting to come into the ripe possibility that every cell in your body is attesting to being here Now? Love is wanting to prove something to you, something new, one profound and magical step at a time.

You and only you are the one you’ve been waiting for.

I offer a free initial consultation for those drawn to the SoulFullHeart process of deep healing and awakening. More here: soulfullheart.org/sessions. I’d so welcome hearing from you if you feel I and SoulFullHeart is part of your next steps on your awakening journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.