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Masculine And Feminine Needs & Wants In Sacred Union

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By Jelelle Awen

The masculine wants to be needed.

The feminine needs to be wanted.

This is a sacred journey of polarities that sometimes is a crash and sometimes is a dance. Sometimes is a bliss and sometimes is a mess.

Neither is wrong in this core, underlying desire nor in the wounding that results in the human experience of it not getting met consistently.

As the masculine encounters being criticized, being judged, being tugged on, being controlled, being put demands by the ‘feminine’ (which is really more of a wounded masculine energy inside a feminine), then he retracts or he fights. He ghosts or he defends himself.

He is swimming in inadequacy if he doesn’t feel that he is meeting her needs….or especially if he feels like he has failed her in some way. He becomes often unable to speak this, to share these feelings with her….as if in speaking it, he is offering the most terrible confession.

As the feminine experiences being rejected, being unclaimed, a push-pull of desire for her by the masculine, she then attacks and blames with her inner masculine coming out to fight….or she crumples into core unworthiness and feeling so hurt that she is fused to the young child, the inner teenager within her. She is drowning in this hurt yet often can’t bring this vulnerably and in a way that can be felt by him.

This dynamic is not just from this life, yet produced from the original source wound of our separation from the Divine. And, downstream from that, separation from the counterpart pairbond that exists in our soul family monad of our other half holding the opposite polarity of masculine or feminine.

Variations of reactivity from when this core wounding gets triggered by each other play out in SO many ways. Yet, at the heart of it is a feminine who has felt rejected by her masculine and is still reeling from it. And at the heart of the masculine who has both been birthed by the feminine and yet also feels how with this capacity he doubts if she could ever really need him in any way.

As we feel this dynamic within us….from an Inner Masculine with our Inner Feminine, we are healing this polarity from within FIRST and primarily. We experience huge heart chakra expansion as these parts of us come into union. She forgives him for what feels like rejection even as she starts really getting how his protection of her has been his form of claiming. How he has always wanted her, just has felt inadequate to her.

And he forgives her as he feels that she has always needed him, yet doesn’t want to be suppressed by him or protected so much that she can’t be free, experience life, dare to get hurt, dare to risk and dare to dream. She DOES need him and he is worthy to show up for this.

And the Divine Father and Mother aspects show up to support each in the experience of receiving infinite love, infinite worthiness, infinite claiming by the Divine. The empty cups that lead to lashing out, defending and protecting become filled by this Divine love. And the feminine becomes more of a reflection and an embodiment of this Divine Mother energy in her unique expression. And the masculine becomes a reflection and embodiment of Divine Father energy.

As this sacred union happens within, so you can experience this on the outside with a mate who holds the other side of this polarity for you. You can be with the parts of you, both masculine and feminine, who get triggered by the deepening intimacy, the deepening mirror, the deepening challenge that if offered by TRUE sacred union when all grounds of relational transaction are coming together.

This download came in a little while ago, especially during our sacred union group calls in June (recordings available at soulfullheart.org)…realizations stemming from my relationship with Raphael as well and the phases of brief separation that opened out into more union and deeper understanding of each other.

Feels like this also speaks to a collective unveiling that is happening in the masculine/feminine dynamic in relationships and within…getting to the core of the separation wound created from the experience of polarity between us in which also so much desire for reunion also exists. Compassion for each other can arise in this space and also forgiveness for self and other.

Inner first, then outer approach allows the horizontal ground between the partners to be more clear and have more space. In this space, resonance can move, desire can move, attraction can move, and most importantly, love can move.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is an inner sacred union meditation to connect more deeply to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/YVgEANrF6J4

More info about free intros/sessions, private online community, group call events, my books at soulfullheart.org.

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Beauty Beyond Measure

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By  Raphael Awen

Beauty beyond compare.

It overloads our senses and we don’t know what to do with it.

Somehow beauty often triggers an impulse to do something.

But there is nothing to do with beauty really, as far as achieving the beauty is concerned, where beauty has already taken care of all of the doing.

Beauty simply wants to enter into being and it wants to do that with you. Beauty wants to experience you as you in turn experience it. Before before beauty, in a face-off kind of show-off.

We’re often stuck to show up for that, and somehow, knowing that we’re not quite getting it, we do the next best thing.

We photograph it.

Somehow, we know that there’s so much more here to feel than we can feel in the moment. Hopefully, we can capture some of that beauty, preserve it for the partaking of later. We take in what we can physically in real time, and the rest, we delay into a recording, an impression upon a light sensor, stored away in pixels of digital memory, for the later time of our choosing.

Strangely then, at that moment of our choosing, the image re-presents the beauty and re-presences the beauty, and the senses that were on overload in the real time experience can now somehow take in the light codes incrementally, and be changed by them nonetheless, …and possibly even more than the less of when the photons actually made their recording that formed the graphic image, …and the original overwhelm now gets to be transmuted into all the time and space needed to fully digest what couldn’t be earlier.

Memory is like that. The image along with the imagination is often all that’s needed to feel what couldn’t be felt while in the presence of such overwhelming beauty. Feeling unlocks the beauty. The beauty is now multiplied in the heart as it is combined with time and presence.

The beauty gets to complete the path it wanted to walk with us. It gets to transmit its message in whatever ways and times that we can receive it, coinciding with our need.

Beauty gets to let go into you and I, again and a-gain, a shared gain of multiplied experience, reverence and bounty.

What images are waiting and wanting to be replayed in your imagination, the imagium of transmutation where light codes complete their trajectory and deliver to you their payload?

Yes, you have lots of imaginating to play with don’t you?

A little back story to this photo:

Here in my sunset hour walks in our village this past week, looking left and right into the tiny lanes that usually get walked right on by, I was struck by a flower pot of gorgeous sunflowers.

But between me and it was a locked gate. I hoped to encounter the owner and be ready to utilize my few words of endearing, but well botched Portuguese to gain access to the courtyard containing the well tended golden flower.

But even at sunset on a couple occasions, there was no one to be found. Lots of people elsewhere, but none here.

I did however find my landlord, Paulo, sitting 2 doors down at the bar along with Jorge, the bar owner, and moments later, I found myself following Jorge, key to the locked gate in hand.

George looked on as I photographed. I told him I’d be ‘cinco minutos’ to which he nodded, smiled, but stayed out watching me. I fumbled with focus lock and exposure adjustments, straight on and angled views, burst mode, macro mode, etc on my new iPhone 13 camera, but surely the essence of the flower itself was muted by all these urgencies at hand.

So I too, am not much further ahead than you in the experience of this flower. I didn’t even touch it, or smell it, or just put the camera away and take it in, I realize now.

Maybe together we can decipher its codes and reveal the mystery of what it still wants to say to us?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Lion’s Gate 8:8 Update & Message From Sirius: Separation Is The Illusion; Unity Is Real

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By Jelelle Awen

Today, August 8th 8:8, is the Lion’s Gateway, peak of the galactic alignment with the planet Sirius. As Sirius rises in the sky, Orion’s Belt aligns with the Pyramid of Giza. From our viewpoint from Gaia, Sirius (as the brightest star in the sky) comes closer to us. We have often called this day “Cosmic Christmas” for the gifts that it can bring on the soul level.

Sirius is a STRONG and powerful source of soul activations, upgrades, and Ascension frequencies. As we connect to our soul aspects from Sirius, we can receive codes that bring us into our next levels of awakening. They often appear as feline beings with blue skin tones, although that can vary. The veils are lifted during this gateway and the capacity to see/feel/know these soul aspects and other lifetimes and timelines is revealed.

As I meditated this morning, I connected with Sela, my blue feline-humanoid Lionness Queen from Sirius. As we touched third eyes together, She offered me waves of calm support and spacious grace as always, especially connected with my Inner Queen who is feeling relief and goodness as we settle more deeply into our ‘light ship/house’ here in Central Portugal for longer term…serving love from here.

I also felt Sela through my cat Ravyn, who is being very attached to me the last 24 hours, sleeping next to me and laying on my chest and in my lap a lot. I shared about her in my post yesterday and the temple cat and deep theta frequencies Ravyn transmits to me. Connection with a Earth Plane Feline aka ‘house cat’ is powerful today if you have one in your life.

Sela as a Sirian aspect always seems to deeply feel and understand the energies of death and rebirth going on for humanity right now, as her species has gone through the Ascension process bliss mess phases and stages as well. She offered compassion for the messy transition we are in as we stumble and fumble through the dark to find our way into the light.

Sela encourages you to feel into whatever messages you receive from your Sirius aspects on this day, offering that they are specifically connected to the Lion’s Gate frequencies and the upgrades available during it. I could sense too how in tune we were with them during the Lemurian age, precious allies and friends of ours from the stars.

I’ve been feeling a lot of activations and transmissions from Inner Earth Lemuria as well, especially in the Hand Pan music that I’ve been listening to. And today I gifted myself with a handpan and am excited to feel the transmissions that come through me when it arrives in a couple of weeks! I was deeply guided to listen to the wombic, cosmic, playful yet deep frequencies it transmits the last couple of weeks and it felt really right to get one on Cosmic Christmas! I look forward to sharing it with you as the music and sound healing comes through (along with our crystal bowls and light language.)

Here is my favorite handpan music right now: https://youtu.be/Nf36kl9UQLM

The Sirius energy (and Inner Earth Lemuria) reminds us of the bigger picture that can be lost with so much contentious content and polarization. They form a bridge to our galactic nature and the remembering of the assistance and support that is ALWAYS there for us. As we are vulnerable and ask for it, so we can then receive it as love from the Divine in whatever forms and ways we most need.

Sela says now, “Trust the light that you are emerging into as you wake up from your long sleep.

Remember that the dark has been a necessary illusion.

Forgetting is the illusion.

Separation is the illusion. Fear is the illusion.

Love is real.

Unity is real.

The Light is real.

The Divine is real.

The rest is a play out of the illusion that is dying and being slowly reborn into what is real.

This process of dying illusion is happening within you and in your world.

As you can see this process, you can separate from it and connect to the love that you ARE in any moment.”

~

Hope you can join Raphael and I plus our whole community later today 8/8 for a Lion’s Gate transmission and meditation group call at 5:00pm (WEST/Portugal and London)/12:00pm EDT. We will be sharing energies of our Sirian aspects and bridging you to whatever guidance/messages/transmissions want to come through for you on this powerful portal day! You can join and receive the recording by offer a donation (usually $15 CAD/$11 USD) via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/events

Blessings on this Lion’s Gate, Cosmic Christmas, and may new vistas of your soul’s bigness be revealed to you that provide support to navigate the shifts and changes!

love,

Jelelle Awen & Sela

More info about 1:1 sessions, books/writings, videos, events at soulfullheart.org.

‘Can You Come Out To Play?’ An invitation from Marvin, Raphael’s Inner Child

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By  Raphael Awen

What would it take for you to come out and play again?

I know deep down, you really want to. But something has you to itself right now.

Is it a sadness that the joys you once had so much fun with are gone now?… And you don’t know how you could ever have that much fun again?

Or is it that you can’t see who would want to be with you and have your kind of fun?

I’m not trying to figure you out. You’re way too big of a being to be figured out. I just want you to come out to play again when you are ready to.

I do feel something for you, if you’d let me share it with you?

I can feel that life as you once knew it changed somehow, and you knew some really cool joys in that old life, but that life dried up and went away. You found something really, really cool, and now it’s gone. Now, you’re sad, and that’s okay.

I think I know something else too that I’d like to share with you if you’d let me. And that is that when people lose things like you lost, they don’t actually let themselves feel what they lost and how sad they actually are. They keep their tears inside. I did that for a long time. It’s like we don’t arrange and attend the funeral. I think I know something too about why we tend to do that, that it is about how we are afraid the tears will swallow us somehow, and we will be no more.

If that’s true, then it means people do actually want to come out and play again, I mean, if they are afraid of being no more, right? Because being no more, would mean never to ever play again.

What if life is trying to bring you your next kind of play that really is your kind of funnest fun, but you aren’t sure you are ready to risk losing again?,…because you haven’t seen how losing isn’t as sad as it seems, if you let yourself be sad, then the sadness moves, and you get to come out and play again…

You didn’t have to find the play that you once loved so much. It found you, and fun is trying to find you again.

I think that’s just the way it is. People are afraid to be sad because they aren’t sure they are ready just yet for their next fun, their next play.

It’s okay if you don’t think so. That’s just the way I do. I can be sad with you, if you’d like me to…., to feel what you lost and then maybe we can share tears together, which is one kind of play I like to have whenever I need to.

I’ve lost lots of things, but I always find that new things are wanting and ready to come in.

(From the beloved younger part of me called Marvin)

Raphael Awen

Join me for a free intro into what working together in session space could look like for you: SoulFullHeart.org/sessions.

Pics below are from Jelelle and I’s recent trip to Nazaré on Portugal’s silver coast.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 
The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

The Desire For What Really Matters In The Ascending Masculine

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By  Raphael Awen

I know some things about the ascending masculine, if I could call it that.

Men who feel a conscious desire to excel and grow and matter in life, in love, in their relationships.

I know these things about you, because I’ve come to know them in myself.

There’s always much more to come to know, and one of the growth points for this ascending masculine is the challenge and willingness to feel like a beginner over and over again, to admit that there’s so much that can’t be delineated, measured or accurately described with the mental body.

It can only be felt with the heart.

My heart wants to grow beyond what feels like present limitations. I want to grow in being transparent with my world, to hide my real self less and less and less. I want to radiate that presence in the physical world around me and into all the soul connections and timelines I’m a part of.

Nothing else ‘matters’, for all that matters comes from the divine ‘Ma-ter’, from where we derive our word ‘Mother’. She Ma-ter-ializes all things that matter to me. In union with divine father, we have a template for reparenting all the parts of us who long for reunion.

What is it that is calling for your heart attention and choice? Do you have a sense of what wants to be next for you? Are you willing to be transparent with yourself and your world about what’s not working, what hurts like hell and what you do know about your calling and being?

I’d love to serve you in that. I offer a free intro call as a way for you and I to connect to feel if the work I offer, along with my heart, feel like a fit for you. More info about that here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

It is so interesting to feel how the feminine has been willing to lead in this domain of really feeling and really healing. I personally know of several women who’s eyes are on the horizon for a man who’s ready to choose himself, his calling and purpose. Mateship offers a huge growth ground, especially when it’s mutually chosen for one’s deepest growth and learning. Maybe that’s a big one for you as it has been for me.

I very much welcome hearing from you and would love to host my free intro with you to help you feel if working together ongoingly feels like a fit for you. If not, no questions asked or anything further expected.

~ Raphael

I just got back today from a few days at the ocean with my beloved, Jelelle Awen.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

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By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said “You are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

From Warrior To Ambassador: The Illusion Of Good vs. Evil

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By  Raphael Awen

As more and more of us become aware and convinced that the world is not as we thought it was, we’re collectively left in a vacuum of cognitive dissonance, confusion and chaos.

Personally, I’ve been convinced for many years of the horror realities of human trafficking and the depopulation agenda, and all the surrounding phenomena, but I’m finding a new layer of emotive dissonance arising inside of me in coming to terms with what’s at hand now, energized by the tsunami of collective awakening happening underway, along with the collective’s sorrow and the v. injuries and sudden deaths coming to light.

What might the scope of all this end up looking like? How long will the darkness seem to prevail?

If you also find yourself in this restlessness, whether in moments or in largely complete endless overwhelm, know that your being has a range of expressions and parts that span 3D, 4D and 5D realities. Parts of us have totally familiarized and adapted ourselves to everyday consensus reality of linearity, lack, etc that we find in 3D. But we also have parts of us that see beyond what once felt like 3D was all that there was into the realms of the chaos and transformations of 4D. Then we also have parts of us that remember the joy and harmony of union with the All, where both sorrow and joy weave in a deep aliveness expressing as the divine beings that we are in our true heart home of 5D. No need to get hung up on the definitions and labels of these dimensions or the numbering of them, but just a way to offer a sketch of a map that your heart and soul knows.

You already are and always were a multidimensional being, even as you are becoming more conscious of and in flow with this truth that always was.

There’s one piece I’d really like to share with you today in all this that I feel lays the groundwork for some real digestion of the craziness at hand. I invite you to come with me into an exploration for a few moments.

I’ll just spit it out and then take a longer look at it:

Love is the one and only source of all that is, including the darkest horrors we can imagine or witness.

We are not in a battle of good vs. evil where we must cheer on and support the good to overcome and destroy the evil.

The battle of good vs. evil is an all too real illusory reality of 3D, but one we must come to a higher vantage point to relate with if we want to navigate the horrors we are witnessing now unfolding.

Allow me to toss in a few more points here to land in your intuition where they will…

What we are at war with externally evidences an internal war happening inside of us. If the evildoers must be punished forever, then that dynamic is alive inside of us, between our Inner Punisher and other parts of us, albeit just off our radar.

What if the whole all too real reality of good vs. evil was part of the divine’s experiment and expression into duality from an original state of oneness? Very beautiful, yes, but without duality, it couldn’t be known, felt and appreciated…

What if the ratcheting up of the tension in this good vs. evil dimension is part of the divine plan for a full circle reconciliation of this experiment where the heightening of the duality creates and is necessary for our divine awakening into the love that all of us are and always were, including the ‘evildoers’?

Consciousness itself is sponsoring the entire show we are seeing unfold right now. Love is holding it all. Many souls chose on a soul level to be a part of the suffering in the 3D and 4D expression of their being as part of the contribution to this experiment that love undertook. Love knew that duality would entail suffering, but it knew that suffering would take us somewhere beyond where it was in oneness bliss. Love wanted to journey. Your and my suffering is part of the fuel of this journey.

Deep in our psyche is the awareness that sacrifice is necessary for movement into fullness. In the Christian faith, we have the teaching that ‘without the shedding of blood, there is no remission of sin’. Something has to die so that same something might come alive. In our limited 3D vision, we made that about a sin filled and separated-from-God humanity needing a personal savior from the results of a ‘fall’ into sin and God’s wrath. But what if all we actually ‘fell’ into was this chosen experiment of duality along with the attendant and necessary forgetfulness?

If that’s accurate, then those participating in the darkness are the divine’s agents as much as are the lightworkers; then the darkest deeds in your own this-life and soul history are also all part of this divine expression from oneness into duality.

And if that’s accurate, then the trajectory we are on is into remembrance, reconciliation, restoration of the All that was ‘lost’, and MORE.

This more is mysteriously unfolding in you and I, in this collective darkest night we’ve seen to date. Love is inviting us to hang around for the more, as an infinite unfolding of all that we can handle.

What can ease the intense discomfort of the moment is making for personal reconciliations within, with the parts of us who feel the deepest despair or shame, for harm caused, feeling how a divine amnesty and forgiveness extends over all of it.

Then from there, a natural and effortless expression of ‘as inside, so outside’ begins to extend from us to others. The darkest darkness is also wanting reconciliation and is spring loaded by the heightened tension and the tug of war of good vs. evil drama and trauma to return fully and suddenly to the love that it is sourced in.

Both the warrior within and without are now being invited, if and when they are ready, to lay down their weapons, reconcile the harm they’ve participated in, all the while believing they were fighting for the good, and then to accept the mantle of Ambassador, with a heart broken open and vulnerable to the great sadness, sorrow and loss that is still unfolding. All self righteousness extinguished under the infinite love and forgiveness and reconciliation with the divine experiment and journey we are all a part of. Sorrows felt, rather than medicated down or avoided. Tears wept.

Now your life, exactly as it is right now, takes on the most exquisite poignancy and meaning as a place from which to transact and make real this reconciliation within and then without. Every anxiety and depression in ‘circumstance’ a standing stone circle portal entry into this All That Is, that awaits your sovereign choice of ongoing continued awakening, at a rate and pace that allows for feeling and healing all that wants and needs to be felt and healed. Savoured, not savioured.

Jelelle’s book and audio book ‘Free To Be 5D’ are a great exploration and attunement to this more that wants to arise in you. You can find it here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dexcerpt

And there’s two upcoming group calls to be a part of if you’d like, Sunday, the 17th and Sunday, the 24th:

https://www.soulfullheart.org/events

If we can be of assistance here at SoulFullHeart, please dig into our free resources, connect with us in whatever ways you are guided to, and if it feels like a fit, ask for a free intro into what personal one on one sessions can look like for you. More info on that here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

May you arise daily into more and more of all that you are meant to be, even amidst the moments that feel like falling.

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Less Food and More Prana/Light – Day 16

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By Jelelle Awen

I left the house yesterday after a two week seclusion in a ‘temple womb space’ here that has brought me to new depths within me and with the Divine. Raphael and I went to visit Bey where she lives in the nearby town of Coja, a sweet town near a river with cafes, park, and stores to visit. I felt guided to emerge out of the cocoon space that I have been in during these initial weeks of not taking in physical food and juice/water/dry fasting in order to transition to/calibrate to living on more and more prana/energy and less physical food.

Unlike previous extended transitions/fasts, this one has been easier from an emotional digestion place. All of my parts and soul aspects seem to be accepting and surrendering to the journey, which has taken lots of negotiation over the years as our relationship to food can be such an emotional comfort, a habit, an ingrained program, defining social connection, and much more for parts of us.

The only emotional reaction that really came up was when I went into dry fasting or not drinking anything for 12 hours. Then, I felt resistance and fear come up plus the first time of feeling truly dizzy and weak. I connected this to another lifetime and a soul aspect who had died of thirst in the desert under sad circumstances (more to feel of her in the future.)

I felt Divine Mother guide me to drink again and also go back on drinking juice the next day as well. And I felt how much I am truly holding this with Her in love and goodness for myself and my body, not in ANY energy of forcing, pushing, or will powering my way through it. A deep gratitude-based connection opened out with my body then and I could clearly hear and feel it, what it wanted, and what it was truly ready for….which has been a moment by moment feeling it out process.

Being held in self love and Divine Mother’s love is what allows the energy to flow in to supplement the food. There really does need to be a supplement that is connected to through various channels such as deep breathing, yoga, meditation, prayer….otherwise it isn’t possible for the 3D conditioning mind/body and just isn’t the time yet either. Divine timing and soul timing is a big piece of this as well.

Yesterday, I was amazed to feel these waves of goodness, joy, and magic in being outside at the park and even inside of a fairly noisy cafe. I was curious about what the people around me were eating, not desiring it myself to eat. Yet I was able to merge with their consciousness AS they ate it and feel what they did. Sadly, most people are not in reverence and joy when they eat food yet rather in an automated mode of ‘having to’ or medicating this or that emotion that they don’t want to feel.

Yet, still, I throughly enjoyed what I got to partake in this way, including gazing in awe at the gelato ice cream offerings and the Portuguese pastries too! Not with desire to eat them myself, yet to just take in the marvel of them. This was amazing and I so see how being around other people eating will not be a problem yet rather a joy (as I have heard from other people living mostly on prana as well).

I also felt much softer, receptive, and overall more feminine in my social space as well, which is made easy being with Raphael and Bey, two beings who truly let me in and see me. It was more acceptable within me to be quiet, to be still, to be in receiving mode. I love the feminine that this is bringing out even more!

There have been low energy dip moments and even moments of some muscle cramps, indigestion, detox etc. But, overall, the experience has been joyful and a wonder….a sign of it being right timing for me, at least in this moment. I even went through my period cycle last week with no PMS and way less cramps and hormonal dips, which is big for me as that was worsening in the last year.

I am not sharing all this to ‘sell’ you on anything or even to promote fasting for a phase for you, yet to offer what my experience has been so far. Your Divine Self will take in what it is meant to about it for you, be inspired or not, feel resonant or not….and see where that takes you. There are so many phases to this transition and ALL of them are sacred.

There is no goal or ‘end game’ yet rather more opening out into the Now and your own Divine essence expressing through your body vessel that is getting brighter, cleaner, and lighter.

You are welcome to ask any questions you’d like in the comments, just please no ‘kicking’ at me out of fear or suspicion, yet leading with curiosity and openness is always welcome!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I share more about this journey at: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/ascension/light-body-body-consciousness/living-on-prana/

If you’d like to talk more with me about this for yourself or other diet/body topics and themes, I offer free intros and 1:1 sessions, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions or PM me.

Energy Clearing Crystal Sound Bowl Transmission (Video) | Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Some spontaneous crystal sound bowl healing sounds for you! The bowls have been super helpful during my days of fasting (12 days now with only juice/water and now moving into some dry fasting) when I need to tune into higher frequencies for my chakras and light body! Also helpful, especially during those times of low energy dips, has been epsom/himalayan salt baths, pranayama/deep breathing, sun gazing/bathing, light yoga stretching, meditation and prayer with Divine Mother.

Overall, it has been a joyous process that feels Divinely held! I’ll share more in depth about my fasting/transitioning to living mostly on prana process for those who are curious and resonant coming up eventually. I wrote more about it here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

I have been in such a deep inward focused surrogacy with Divine Mother during this time, receiving stillness and yin recodings from her on all levels to support this shift! And galactic support, soul aspect support, and my beloved soul family support too!

It’s a supportive time too as we go through the Pleiadian/Star Seed Activation portal these next few days. You can feel them so HERE and ready to help us upgrade and connect to our soul purpose here during this last 3D timeline on the Earth plane!

You don’t need to be a Pleiadian star seed to feel this portal! Whatever ways you are meant to receive the galactic upgrades will come through. Here is a guided meditation with Raphael and I to connect to your Star Seed/Star Family https://youtu.be/LrKnyFKk1xM

Enjoy the bowls and wherever they take you!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

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by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.