Offering My Services As A Facilitator (Once Again!)

Published on by Gabriel AmaraLeave a comment

I am super stoked to announce that I am officially back in the saddle as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator!

I am very honored and blessed to be offering this space again with a much different heart-set. Last fall things were taking off for me and it wound up triggering some much needed things for me to feel on my own. I needed to recalibrate to myself and to fully claim this as my life’s path and purpose.

Through the Dark Night journey, I held space for that in a way I had not really done for myself before, and honestly no one could have done it for me at that time. I clearly needed the time in the desert to get closer to God and The Divine within to take me where I was meant to go. It was there that I felt what I wanted and was being called to serve, but this time from a much more humble and embodied place.

I am so very grateful to Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, and Kalayna Solais for opening the door for me to restart my healing process (not that it was ever closed). I was deeply honored to have been invited to be a Collaborator and serve in any capacity that felt important.

The path back to facilitation was always the goal but being in the present with gratitude was my sacred journey. I can feel in all my time away that I had parts that did not feel they even wanted to be a leader, or maybe even deserved it. A lot of metasoul pieces to unravel and feel around this theme. Connecting my inner masculine with my inner feminine and with Yeshua have been a big part of this healing in him to really land in this new timeline and the gifts and desire I hold for service.

I look forward to continuing my own inner journey with Raphael as my facilitator, Jelelle as a mentor and guide, and Kalayna as a mentor and co-leader in our Saturday service of Love in our group calls. A big grateful hug to all of you for trusting me and seeing me when I couldn’t see myself. I love you.

And also a big thank you to all of you who were a part of this journey with me over Facebook during that time. Your connection meant the world to me and my parts.

So, with that said, I am open for a free Consultation Call to feel through any curiosities, interest, or desire you may have around this extremely catalytic work called SoulFullHeart. I will bridge to you what this work has meant for me and what it has to offer you should it feel like a mutual fit and support for your growth and healing.

You can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

I look forward to offering all that I have learned and earned on my journey back to loving myself, loving life, and loving you.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Self Loving Limitations On Our Consciousness

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By Raphael Awen

Though our conditioning can feel limiting as it predisposes us to only experience life within a certain familiar bandwidth of consciousness, it is also a self-loving thing in that it seeks to make a home inside of what is known, and also in that it came to us quite effortlessly.

As we recognize the self-love inherent in our conditioning, we can naturally allow new conditioning based in deeper trust that expands this bandwidth of our experience into the unknown.

Our conditioning is not our enemy, but a necessary part of our choice to experience to venture into vulnerable life in this dualistic reality.

The infinite experience and infinite love that you are chose this imposition of conditioning to give itself(you) certain locators and navigational abilities on the vast radio dial of infinity. In other words, infinity made a way to have the finite feeling experiences that it deemed necessary and desirable for where it was wanting to go.

And it did all of this through you and through me. We are all one BEing, having also been afforded just enough of a sense of individuated self to forget that oneness, so that we could experience the re-member-ing of ourselves back to one another and all BEing.

Much love to you in your sacred journey of remembrance.

Raphael Awen
SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Matrix Collapse Q & A W/Pleiadian Meditation FB Livestream | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

I had an intense dream early this morning where I was driving an out of control car with my partner Raphael Awen….going in the wrong direction on the freeway. Trucks and cars were swerving out of the way and I was able to maneuver around them to avoid getting hit. As this was going on, I heard a voice saying to both of us, “You need to stay grounded in your bodies. This is about embodiment and making it through chaos!” Although it was intense, I also felt this sense of deep trust that we would be just fine.

As I digested this dream after waking, it felt to me to offer a sense of the massive change and transition going on at collective levels. And also to represent those of us going ‘against the grain’ and ‘against the mainstream flow’ to offer an alternative perspective to the pervasive consciousness.

There is risk in doing this. It can be tricky to maneuver at times and even painful as relationships fall away. Yet there is increasing trust that being willing to be authentically yourself, share your truth (even if controversial), and to remain in your heart/body/soul as you do this is worth it.

Perhaps you are too experiencing intense dreams and feeling like you are ‘doing work’ during the night on other levels? We are moving through the Pleiadian portal still with connection to them increasingly available right now. This is offering increased activation of pineal and pituitary glands….leading to intense dreams, astral/remote viewing journeys, altered states of consciousness, foggy/loose mind states, energy flushes/rushes, etc.

As we go through these deeper stages of 3D Matrix collapse, disclosure on so many levels and converging/diverging timelines happening, there is ALSO a continuous flood of 5D high frequency energies coming in. Before this dream, I had spent hours yesterday in bliss afterglow of union with Raphael in body/mind/soul/heart, feeling closer to each other than we ever have in collaborative soul purpose and daily living.

Sometimes the bliss pushes up the mess….the water of love bringing up the oil of deeper fears. All of this is being held space for right now as the Divine, Ascended Teachers, Guides, Star Family/the Pleiadians all provide support to feel it ALL.

Join Raphael and I tomorrow, Sunday May 24th at 11:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) for a Q & A livestream here on Facebook sharing about the Matrix collapse to transition to New Earth. You can join us live or watch the recording on my facebook feed https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen or on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel https://www.youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience whenever you want to after we upload it.

We’ll respond to your questions and comments, plus offer a guided meditation to connect from wherever parts of you are right now to 5D with the Pleiadians. A helpful bridge from their lived in experience of Ascension to us as we go through our own death and rebirth process around it!

Love,
Jelelle Awen

Here is a timezone converter if you need one to convert from Victoria, British Columbia PDT time: https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html…

Here is a recent writing about the Pleiadian portal: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2020/05/16/energy-update-pleiades-portal-open-w-5d-timeline-activations-healing-of-abduction-programs

Here is a recent writing about the timelines happening during this global awakening event: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2020/05/21/bigger-picture-of-the-covid-global-awakening-event-w-diverging-timelines-to-come-into-oneness/

Join us for our group meditation and teachings call series on Wednesdays at 10:00am PDT until June 24th called Free To Be Two: Navigating The 3D Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition. You can attend all five of the remaining calls and receive the recordings for ALL six of them by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call, 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group call events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

New Moon In Gemini: Releasing The Trauma Bond

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What a new moon portal today! The last few days have been intense to say the least. I have become aware, through my deep dive sessions with Raphael, of a particular trauma bond that has existed inside of me between me and my sister even as I have not been in contact with her for over seven years.

My sister and I were born very close apart. When many people met us they thought we were twins at first glance. What I am realizing is that this twin recognition came from an energetic bond between us that I am learning has visitation and abduction trauma built in, as well as many lifetimes in one form of relation or another.

I have come to the realization that this bonded trauma created a pairing between us. A contract that we would forever be in each other’s life so that we would not feel the depths of the trauma. Well, I broke the physical contract years ago, but the etheric contract remained.

I was offered to connect to my sister’s higher self and let her know that I was no longer going to hold my end of the bond anymore as it is time for me to go into the galactic and soul wounding that had kept us in a bind. I have recognized how much of this has effected my relationships with women, as it served as a protection and a projection of wound and care-taking.

I have been so focused on healing the Mom wound that I finally found the more subtle sister layer that was out of my awareness due to the depth of the trauma that it was founded on. I am reaching the edges of my galactic wounding that has alluded me for most of this life until this came into view.

What came to me is that this may be true for many of us at this time. Not so specifically from brother to sister, but any bond between two people that has deep roots in trauma. This can be especially true for twin flames. The New Moon energies in Gemini feel to be highlighting this twin dynamic for those that are meant to see it right now.

The trauma bond is something that is hard to let go of as it has such a long history. I had deep tears that I couldn’t place many times today but I could get a sense that this trauma bond was leaving my field and it is almost like losing an essential part of your being that you didn’t really know was there!

The release and detox of this bond feels like a shedding of a skin. It can be a hard process, but when held in sacred space it feels like the most important part of our ascension. I can feel during this time how there is a collective trauma bond exhibited by the fear of this virus. As we clear our own inner trauma bonds, the less energy is added to the collective and thus helps to move the needle one more step toward Love.

I also feel how this will help me to let in sacred romance on a much deeper level that I have not previously been able to transact due to this energy in my being. Quite a remarkable ride the last couple of days. I hope that this provides some insight into your own relationships to see where there may be these contracts that may need a deeper release in order to bring in the Love that we ALL are here to experience.

Much love on this New Moon evening.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Letting In And Letting Go To Experience ‘Abundance’

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by Kalayna Solais

Letting in what IS, the dreams that ARE coming true, the love that IS flowing now while feeling grateful for all of it; feeling desires for what could be but perhaps isn’t present in your life yet, without attachment to having or keeping; letting go of what doesn’t resonate to make room for what does, without compromise, even as there are practical and grounded choices to make too…

Dancing with abundance is so multi-layered, that the process of feeling your parts’ reactions and responses to it, is abundant in itself! It’s a letting in of dreams and desires, while feeling what still needs to clear inside of you and in your life to make room for that to come to fruition. It’s also a process of feeling yourself and your life, where you are and who you are right NOW… really seeing yourself and all that you’ve earned, worked hard for, manifested, and drawn into your life in a positive way with much gratitude, even though there are ongoing and sometimes growing needs and dreams to fulfill.

When I feel my life as it is now, I feel the abundance I’ve drawn, but what gets challenging is feeling the parts of me and Metasoul aspects who are still a bit restless. When I feel into this some more, I can see us all standing on the bridge between ‘abundance’ and ‘scarcity’, where I feel we’ve mostly been hanging out for a few years now. We now cross the bridge into ‘abundance’ more often than ever before, but the scarcity consciousness surfaces in these parts and aspects from time to time.

Old fears, old pain, old ways of seeing and being in the world come up again to be felt. I can feel now when it’s something ‘old’ and I don’t feel judgement of that, only curiosity about who it is inside of me that is carrying that energy still, and how I can help them live more in the present. My parts, I’ve realized, are integrating more these days and when they aren’t integrated, they aren’t always in ‘pain’, just needing a check-in like a dear friend who is bothered by something perhaps or just wants some love exchanged with them. All of this needs to be felt and acknowledged though so that it continues to heal. And as it continues to heal, it makes room for the experiences we all DO want that are truly new and truly abundant.

‘Abundance’ is less and less about material wealth or money, though this comes up for me as well at times. Yet, in these shifting times we’re in, ‘money’ as we’ve known it may be in its final death blows. This leaves us all with a need to feel what’s been underneath our attachment to it and how to receive/use it ‘wisely’ or ‘responsibly’. You could say this about anything you receive though, couldn’t you? Love is held as another important currency that 3D teaches us ‘to spend wisely/responsibly’ when it conditions us on how to ‘get and keep love’ and all the ways in which it tells us what we do and do not deserve to have in relationships of any kind or within ourselves, even.

When I see the ‘abundance’ in my life now… I see the love I get to have within me and exchange with others. I see how it’s been such a deep process for me over many years now of feeling where love does and doesn’t flow within me and that then informs the flow of love that I am able to experience/let in on the outside. Abundance really does start inside, just as anything you want to draw into your life… and, as always, it’s about fully having/receiving what is available to us now, even though there are genuine aches to experience or have more too.

I, for one, would love to have, experience, be IN the abundance of Sacred Union and everything that flows in every area of my life when I am in one. Yet, for now, I’m invited to feel the robust and ever-growing INNER Sacred Union, the dance that there is within me between my own Inner Masculine and Feminine. It’s yet another flow that has to start from within… and will eventually be drawn on the outside too.

Whatever your current ‘currency’ is in your life now in your life circumstances as they are, spend/receive/let go/let in with love all that IS now and all that WILL BE as you continue your own process into everything ‘abundance’ truly and deeply means to you… ❤

***

Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Deeper Intimacy With Self Through The Explorations With Money

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By Deya Shekinah

Wow, what a topic money is. I feel so many layers and parts wrapped into the explorations with money. One of the things that Jelelle Awen offered in the SoulFullHeart Free To Be Two group call about money this week, was how some can relate to money as a false god. This landed straight away as what I experienced within my family, how earning money gave meaning to life and felt like the only meaning to life as there was no spirituality or religion in my upbringing. I feel how my Inner Masculine, David, took this on and how my Inner Child, Yazzy, was stifled by this. Since she was always so multi dimensional, she didn’t believe this to be true, but as there was no one bringing any other meaning, she became capped by that.

I remembered a time when a male family member said to me that ‘money is the only thing that matters in the world’. At the time, I was blown away that anyone could believe that. As I feel it now, I feel so much density in that picture of our world, the lack of joy or spaciousness in it. As I feel David, I sense this energy within him as the conditioning he received from birth family members. 

Right now I am in a transition into a new way of being and earning money, that is bringing light to David’s relationship to money.  I hold and feel a lot of trust around money after years of transitioning and exploring money. This transition has grown into a deeper awareness and understanding of a greater meaning of life, as well as what abundance looks and feels like to me. 

I have learnt that abundance is many things. Not only money, but time, connection, vulnerability with others, space to BE. These all feel like abundance to me. I am coming to know and feel that my inner feeling of abundance is what draws abundance on the outside including financial abundance, even as that is still growing. For David, I feel him seeing this abundance coming in and seeing money coming in for offering my Soul Gifts, but he still does not FEEL abundant.

The group call has helped me feel this with him, his reality more of distrust and lack that he has been in and learnt throughout this 3D experience, sure that has been the 3D experience. One of the core beliefs I feel held in David is, ‘there is never enough money’., I see how much this creates that reality for us because he is so focused on ‘there is never enough’. He cannot appreciate or acknowledge it as it is coming in. I feel how it is the ability to be grateful for what IS, in the moment, that draws more of that thing to you, which of course is a journey, not something you can create through bypassing feeling the lack of gratitude. 

I feel how this lack of money belief is actually a cover up for lack of love, connection, communication and boundaries, it feels like. Money becomes this huge focal point when there is no other meaning to life. Money has become this huge elephant in the room, where we think about it, worry about it, are anxious about it, but we do not really honestly talk about it, at least in my experience and in this culture of my current geography. The shame, the guilt, the resentment around money is of course going to make it heavy and joyless. This feels like it creates blocks to, and a push/pull within us and our relationship to money, as well as abundance in general. 

I feel the lack of joy the Inner Masculine can hold around life in general, which then seeps into his relationship with/to everything else in life. I feel David feeling joyless, I feel him longing to experience joy as my other parts do, his sadness that he cannot seem to meet them there. Yet I feel how no one has ever asked him what he likes, what the meaning of his life is, and how he has been disempowered throughout this 3D experience too.

So now there is this new ground to walk out with him, where he is included and wanted, where he gets to feel and heal too because he is valued by me through this process. So this is where talking about money leads us, perhaps not straight away to more money, although I feel that coming in but to deeper connection, understanding and intimacy with our parts, and with each other eventually too.

You can purchase the recording of this Free To Be Two group call about money and attendance at/recordings of future group calls in this series by offering a donation of any amount. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

Love,

Deya & David

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Bigger Picture Of The Covid Global Awakening Event W/Diverging Timelines To Come Into Oneness

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By Jelelle Awen

There are three timelines (and maybe more) revealing themselves during this Covid-19 event. Even what you call this event and identify it as and how you relate to which timeline shows which timeline you are most anchored into. For the last two months, I have found myself floating into these various timelines, visiting them, dipping in to understand, feel, and share about what I see in order to digest it for myself and others.

I am mostly anchored (and have been for several years) in the New Earth timeline of 5D living supported by an awakening emotional body, soul, and galactic consciousness. From this vantage point (which is kind of like an eagle’s viewpoint as it soars from above), it is easier to feel, without personal charge, what is playing out below. You have probably felt this yourself in moments when the bigger picture context of your soul/Higher Self comes through for you, rising above the content and contention. There is a deep compassion from this perspective, yet also a detachment to the outcomes.

As Yeshua has offered me before, this consciousness state is ‘one of being IN the world, not OF the world, yet still caring FOR the world.”

In the 3D timeline, there is holding onto the programming and conditioning that has always been there, a comforting presence of False Parent/False God that provides/dictates guidelines about how to live, how to be, and how to think. The Matrix that has produced this consensus reality is collapsing on 3D and 4D levels, yet those who are still deeply plugged into it are not aware of this yet. There is still the automatic mode in their 3D Self of obedience, of conforming, of believing what is told to them by 3D sources. To move out of this place of limited consciousness is each individual’s sovereign choice. They cannot be forced, pushed, dragged, convinced, or fought with in order to leave it.

The soul choices when this crucible of 3D obedience to the Matrix system experience is complete and when to unplug from it. Gaia will no longer offer the opportunity of this 3D Matrix experience in the future (including the unique crucible of money) and is already moving more deeply into 4D. Souls are choosing whether to move into the next phase of awakening or whether to leave this Earth plane now.

All of us who came to Gaia at this time have chosen to experience a phase within this 3D Matrix consensus reality for the growth it offers to go through it and emerge out of it. Some of us became more bought into it than others and sometimes have been deeply plugged into it for multiple timelines. Before you would judge and condemn others who are still ‘asleep’ or label them as ‘sheep’, you can feel with compassion the parts of you that needed to go through that phase too and WHY they did. For many awakening souls, it is possible that they STILL have parts of them that are plugged into/corded into this 3D Matrix (for example in birth family relationships, mateships, and jobs). You can lovingly invite these parts of you to be felt and help them unplug through healing the emotional/soul traumas that may be keeping them stuck and plugged in.

The other timeline is one of 4D Death and Rebirth, awakening and questioning, battling tyranny vs. liberty, being imprisoned and finally getting free. There are the dawning realizations in this timeline that become quite exciting. There are rabbit hole searches that lead to more discoveries. There is the waking up and not able to ‘go back’ to not knowing. It is as if a mask is peeled away from your eyes, a veil lifted from your soul, and layers melted away from the 3D Self facade/self image.

This can also be quite a painful and difficult timeline to be in for many souls. There is rejection here, being socially ostracized by birth family and friends, and relationships moving into more dissonance than resonance. No longer accepting the 3D Matrix narrative provided by the Global Elite, your Inner Teenager may be activated now and wanting to rebel against it, sharing alternative and countering viewpoints that go against this narrative. This can draw scorn, kicking, and even accusations of being ‘crazy’, ‘insane’, and other insults from those still in the 3D Matrix. This is a painful process. It hurts parts of us to be labeled this way and it pushes up lifetimes of being persecuted for being different, being ‘witches’, being something other than what is acceptable.

You can feel the pain of this even in those who seem so clearly and squarely in their alternative truth telling with righteous and passion. The cost to many of these truth tellers on a personal level has been quite high and yet their soul compels them to keep offering a countering viewpoint to the norm. The ones who can move into compassion in their hearts for themselves and others experience less suffering than those who are constantly going to battle, within and with others. Yet, that is part of their journey too.

The areas of truth telling that are currently receiving disclosure from the 3D narrative are as follows: the Global Elite’s previously hidden agenda that reaches into many areas of our lives; the blatant programming by the 3D Mainstream media and entertainment; the dark underbelly reality of pedophilia, dark rituals, and sex trafficking; the greediness of 3D pharmaceuticals and suppression of natural remedies; the distortions of the Divine in mainstream religions, and MUCH more. There is SO MUCH that is being disclosed right now that had previously been in the shadows.

This Global Event is shining a very bright light into the dark. It is waking up masses of people out of the 3D timeline and moving them into the 4D death and birth of awakening. This is about much more than just a virus…or even about tampering with an upcoming election in the U.S…..or even about the Global Elite and their agenda. This IS increasingly feeling like the Global awakening event that we have been waiting for. It might not look or feel like we expected it to (or perhaps wished it to), yet with where collective consciousness AND unconsciousness is currently at…it seems to be exactly what we needed in order to go to the next level of our Ascension.

The higher timeline here, that soaring eagle viewpoint, offers the significance of the global awakening that is happening now. You feel then how momentous this so is, beyond the temporary inconveniences and restrictions it is causing. You can feel how love has ALREADY WON and the current reality is a play out of a messy necessity to getting there in more of our collective experience.

High frequency energies from the Great Cosmic Sun and our sun are flooding in right now to support those who need them with Schumann/Gaia resonance waves. Activations of the pineal gland, the causal chakra (back of the head), and the solar plexus/third chakra are especially happening now. I’ve been sharing about galactic activations and contact experiences (physical and non-physical) that are increasing in amount and intensity during this event.

Through this all, a sense of Divine support and holding is constantly here to be connected into and with. Whatever timeline a soul is sovereignly moving through, there is no judgement from the Divine about which is better or best. ALL will ultimately arise into their Infinite Love essence, having gone on a truly sacred journey to get there in the meantime.

love,

Jelelle Awen

Join us for our group meditation and teachings call series on Wednesdays until June 24th called Free To Be Two: Navigating The 3D Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition. You can attend all five of the remaining calls and receive the recordings for ALL of them by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Here is a guided meditation to experience an Arcturian Healing Chamber: https://youtu.be/vkbPpXNgPnI

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about a free consultation call, 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group call events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Becoming Conscious To Our Relationship To Money As Love

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The first topic in our upcoming SoulFullHeart Free To Be series (beginning tomorrow) is about money and soul purpose work. It feels like an important piece to feel through, especially during these very volatile times. 

There are so many facets to money and our relationship to it, like a multi-headed hydra. It is called a ‘necessary evil’. It is said to be the ‘root of all evil’. There is no doubt money itself has a big impact on our lives. It is the 3D currency of exchange…for now. A big topic right now is that of a UBI, or Universal Basic Income, as well as a Global Currency Reset. These things are certainly making their way through consciousness, yet they are not here in the physical quite yet. 

Instead of going into the minutiae of these specific ideas and plans, I wish to turn the spotlight inward. What is your current relationship to money? Let’s take the paper and digits out of the equation and focus on the energy and feeling. 

Money represents basic survival in its lowest common denominator. This could be held by our more 3D parts such as the inner mother/father, Inner Protector, or even the Inner Teenager if they had to be self-sufficient at an early age. All of these parts have their own concerns and needs that tend to go to a very existential place. Meeting them there helps to get to a bedrock of existence that has been projected onto money itself. 

Energetically, with that fear in our field, the ebb and flow of money itself will morph to that narrative and belief system. It will make the case for this part of you that it is scarce and difficult to attain. If you dig deeper, you may find that what these parts of you are really after is to feel loved. For what we really want is more than just to survive. It is to feel alive and it is Love that provides that, not money ultimately. 

This may be compounded by many Metasoul lifetimes that are currently living in scarcity, poverty, and/or squalor. Meeting these aspects and bringing them into a higher love frequency, held by You and your Higher Self, can help the flood of these energies into your Now. 

One way to get to some bedrock places around your relationship to money is by completing a simple sentence frame in as many different ways that come to you. They may seem varied because each part of us holds a different relationship to it. You can parse that out later but for now just write.

Money always….

Money never….

Now those are very polarized sentences but it is on purpose. It is meant to draw that out if it lives inside of you. An exercise like this really helps to separate You from your Reaction. The Reaction is a fused state of consciousness. It is really unconscious. As you take a step back you begin to actually become more conscious of it. THIS is where your power is. Not so much how you can earn more or get more but how you relate to it that really gets the wheels of manifestation greased. An interesting thing to do when you are done is to replace the word ‘money’ with ‘Love’ and see what happens. 

Love and money are strange bedfellows. They seem like they live in different universes let alone galaxies. The thing is everything lives within the domain of Love. Money, sex, violence, joy, bliss, scarcity, abundance, and, yes, evil. The quest is, can we start to unravel the story that parts of us have fused to around money and truly feel we live in Providence…the state of being provided for by The Divine. If we find ourselves gripping on money, we need to feel the part of us that does not believe that Providence exists. 

This is my journey as well. It is ongoing. I want to go on it with you. If you feel this push-pull around money and living in a world of purpose, joy, and providence then please join us on the call tomorrow. It aims to shed light on this very human story.

You can join us live for this call and/or receive the recordings if you can’t make it live by offering ANY donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. You will also then be able to attend and/or receive the recordings of the next FIVE group calls in the series! The content is laid out here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Welcoming Everything In Closer, Sacred Union Within

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By Deya Shekinah

This past month has been a deep dive with my Inner Teenager, Yasmin. We have been digesting so much together and navigating many timelines collapsing and arising. 

It has been a very tender time of feeling the reality of her experiences in this life, especially how she has been in relationship with others. Yasmin has always been such an open book, I have felt in this time of less sharing how her openness hasn’t always come from a place of self love. I’ve been feeling how she has shared such deeply intimate details of her life with others, with anyone really, because she so deeply longed to be felt, seen and heard… something she didn’t receive much of.

As we digested together, I have been writing but when it has come to sharing publicly, I am becoming more sensitive to her vulnerability. I am learning that instead of sharing, I can let her land more inside of me, letting her feelings be felt and validated by me, by Jelelle Awen and by those closest to me, who I feel safe with. Rather than trying to understand, I am learning to listen. To listen to her stories, the ones she has buried deep down and disconnected from. Feeling all the things she could not feel in other times of her life because she wasn’t safe to.

I am realizing all she has ever truly wanted was to be welcomed in all that she is and all that she feels, rather than only being desired, wanted or welcomed in certain energies of who she is. Her tears were so close this morning. I feel how other parts of me have learnt to try to fix her or push aspects of her emotional reality away. I feel how she also experienced this in all of her relationships to varying degrees.

As I moved and danced, I welcomed all of her in closer than ever before, all her tears, all her longing. She felt unsure at first, as tears have always been hard for her to feel without someone else holding space. As her tears were always hidden and not welcomed, it has taken me a long time to realize that they can be. As I grow through this process as a space holder, I am able to offer her a new narrative around tears and sadness, as I see more and  more how her longings and tears are the doorway to our desires for life.

She cried. She let go into me, resting more into the pain in her heart. It felt beautiful. It feels like the beginning of a new relationship, except this one is just with me. I want all of her because I know how much she has held alone, how much wisdom she holds because of that. I feel how deeply she loves when she is welcomed in all of who she is, and how the pain of not being welcomed has broken her heart open to life.

I sense some deeper layers of heartbreak arising, feeling the pain of relationships that didn’t work out and the times it has felt to her that people wanted her but only certain parts of her. The feeling of not being wanted in her fullness touches these tender tears. There is a growing sense of gratitude to those people who weren’t ready for all of her. I am a stronger woman because of it, who feels love for and loved by every aspect that makes up this expression of me. I no longer have to be more than or less than. I can be me, this beautiful bliss mess embodied as a woman. Trusting that as I love myself and see myself more and more, I will attract others who can only show up for the same.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Free To Be Two Six Week Group Meditation Call Series Starts May 20th W/Money Transition

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By Jelelle Awen

THREE more days until the launch of our NEW six week group meditation call series, Free To Be 2: Navigating The Matrix Collapse To New Earth Transition!

Our first call this Wednesday, May 20th at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) will dive into a topic that is one of the most triggering for all of our parts….money and navigating our relationship with it! Money is such a uniquely 3D Earth timeline experience. A program designed to push up so much for us to grow and learn from! I feel many souls have chosen to come into 3D Earth timelines JUST to experience the crucible of money and what it brings up…interesting eh?

Raphael Awen and I will share in the call about our experiences and processes around money, how we have related to it, how we have had MANY phases and stages of shifting it….including declaring bankruptcy, going from quite abundant 3D money earning to living on hardly any to transitioning to earning our money from our soul purpose expression more and more in the last few years. We will offer a higher perspective and context about money as energy exchange and help you explore your relationship to it (including what templating you received around it).

We will also provide a powerful guided meditation for you in the Unity Consciousness vibe of the group to connect to the part of you that is most connected to and reactive to your money situation, which seems to always be about how parts of us relate to love.

You can join us live for this call and/or receive the recordings if you can’t make it live by offering ANY donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. You will also then be able to attend and/or receive the recordings of the next FIVE group calls in the series! The content is laid out here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2

Hope you can join us for this dynamic transition that calls for a deeper sense of the inner relationships in order to navigate it from a higher perspective and New Earth timeline!

love,
Jelelle Awen