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Inner Child, Star Seed, Inner Teenager Healing – Day 32: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on February 2, 2018February 6, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 32 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about the Inner Child, Star Seed Child, and Inner Teenager parts of us. I start with the Inner Teenager, who seems to be in your teenage bedroom, guarded by the Inner Protector. The Protector is often the guard at the door and is also very protective of the Inner Child as well.

The Inner Child part has more 3D-based frequencies of hurt and shame that come from this life trauma. It takes time, patience, and negotiation with the Protector to connect to the deeper frequencies of the Inner Child because it is highly guarded and usually very shy/suppressed.

The Star Seed is the frequency that the Inner Child transmutes too as the hurt and shame heal from 3D experiences. The Star Seed is often holding wounding and trauma from being ‘abandoned’ by star family and also pain from ‘abductions’, which were actually star family visits. The Star Seed transmutes to wonder, curiosity, connection with star family, galactic heart opening, and eventually ‘sits’ in the center of your Merkabah or Light Body Vehicle.

More about these parts here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Thank you for joining me on this thirty-second day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Higher Heart and Supermoon Activation Guided Meditation – Day 31: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 31, 2018February 6, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 31 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I guide you in a meditation to bring in the frequencies of the Blood Blue Supermoon Lunar Eclipse of January 31, 2018 – the first one in 150 years. I guide you through in the moment integration of these codes into your chakras and especially your higher heart. The higher heart chakra is an important one connected to Unity Consciousness and ascension to fifth dimensional consciousness.

I speak light language that feels to be from my Lemurian Metasoul aspect named Rae-Na. I linger in the higher heart to guide you in feeling your higher heart; how open it is or closed; what its pains are; what is aches/desires are. The higher heart activation leads to unification with all aspects of yourself connecting in love, compassion, curiosity, ambassadorship.

I also offer about the shifting from primarily processing energy through your third chakra (personal will) and to processing from your Higher Heart (service of love self). Archangel Metatron comes in to represent the Divine Masculine (the sun). Goddess Sophia and Mother Gaia come in to represent the Divine Feminine (the moon and the earth.)

Thank you for joining me on this thirty-first day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

This is a link to the music in the background from Lokos TV: https://youtu.be/9cmuTetzDqs

Conscious Community And 5D Money – Day 30: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 30, 2018February 13, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 30 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my husband Raphael joins me (along with his Star Seed part named Andy as represented in a sweet stuffie….and our dog Koda.) Raphael talks about how our draw and our push away (from parts of us) is connected to gathering together around values resonance within community. Our first experience of community is our birth families, which we have both good and difficult experiences to digest in order to let in conscious community. I offer that in higher dimensional frequencies we are used to Unity Consciousness versus 3D living that is so separate and isolated.

We share our experience of living in community for the last few years and with sharing money within our small group, which has allowed for more immersion and intimacy between us as a group with very little conflict and much less tension and anxiety. We feel that money represents love to parts of us, so the sense of abundance or scarcity of ‘money’ is really about love. We share our experience of getting down to very little money and still feeling trust and Divine holding around it.

We define what we feel is ‘conscious community’, which is about bringing the emotional reality forward through parts work, leading with vulnerability, being transparent and authentic, and emphasizing relationality.

Thank you for joining us on this thirtieth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Ascending At The Pace Of Your Growing Self-Love

Published on January 30, 2018February 13, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

Sometimes it’s the baby steps that bring you the most into yourself and into healing, not to mention into an opening-out consciousness that expands and expands. There can be so much pressure coming from inside, especially perhaps from Inner Punisher parts of you, who like to sometimes make things seem as if they ‘should have’ been done yesterday, which is so based on deep conditioning taken in from being raised in a capitalist culture, where the wounded masculine rules and the RULES are what matter, not the heart, not the motive, not the roots of anything or anybody…

I feel to talk about taking smaller steps into our Ascension today, because even though in a way everything is being accelerated, it can feel at times like you are moving at a snail’s pace or barely moving at all. In fact, this judgment is one that comes from inside of you… from parts of you that are actually quite afraid of the natural momentum of it all and are having a push-pull experience, with some parts of you wanting Ascension and others not, and all for very good reasons too. If we feel a need to move faster, expand bigger, reach higher, and all in a way that goes beyond our current limits (self-imposed or not) we aren’t being self-loving and the boomerang effect of then needing to go back and redo or reinhabit different life phases along the way that parts of us have tried to skip is often in order as result. Ascension invites us to love ourselves into deep change that starts WITHIN and moves from the inside, out… not the outside, in. It invites us to let in the ways in which love has NOT been on the inner agenda and other energies have been settled for instead, especially in our relationships to each other and our relationship to ourselves and our parts.

There is no ideal pace in this ongoing process and in fact it feels like it is quite different for everyone. As you continue your inner healing, the anchors to 3D let go one by one in self-loving ways… the inner walls are dismantled brick by brick, while being held and honoured for all they have been needed to protect and keep sacred inside. As this all heals and lets go, the hot air balloon begins to more powerfully move us upward into organically arising moments of expansion in our consciousness and awareness of our multi-dimensionality!

There are so many ways and opportunities we are given to ‘pop’ into a new awareness or awakening experience. Some experience this in tremendous moments of momentum and others’ souls opt for the ‘drip line’ experience, where awakenings occur in some doses and in a way that is easy to digest. Some will have a mixed-bag in their ongoing process, as has been the case for me. Yet it all needs to be self-lovingly integrated or parts of you will go off the rails quite literally, which in some cases is actually what’s needed, yet the more self-loving we can be with this integration and the more tenderly we can hold our precious parts in the process, the better.

In a way, we actually owe it to parts of us, whose worlds we have dismantled and reassembled in many ways as we experience Ascension and deep healing processes, to really BE with them in all of this and give them the space to breathe around what they have experienced and what is being shaken up for them. Parts of you are what have made you, YOU… they have given you the gifts of personality and their increased sense of rest is what helps bring them back in, into integration with your heart and soul, which is ultimately not a part but an arising BEingness that can continue ascending in an authentic and ever-expanding way.

No matter if we choose the baby steps or the giant leaps, we are invited to feel ourselves, to be as self-loving as we can be in every moment, and to feel what that even means through a process of being with what HASN’T been the most self-loving response to life (or love!) inside of us. No matter what we choose, we are on a trajectory of healing and returning to the love that we are, so why not find ways to embrace every step, every part we encounter along the way, and find the fountain of self-love, reverence and appreciation that we are being pointed to on our very individual and powerful journeys?

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Awakening Journey/Story – Day 29: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 30, 2018January 30, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 29 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I share my own awakening journey, especially over the last 15 years or so since I was introduced to the parts process through a emotional and spiritual healing group based in Ashland, Oregon. I share about my ‘make believe’ or fantasy life which actually felt more real than ‘reality’. I feel now this was a sign of my third eye especially being quite open, traveling to other dimensions, and communicating with higher selves of other people even as a child.

I also talk about my experiences in jobs and careers that reflected my soul expression coming through (as it always does in some way), such as being a medical assistant/nurse in a cancer center; a small business reporter/editor; and a life/business coach/manager. It can be interesting to look at our ‘job history’ this way and connect it to our soul purpose expression now.

My main soul awakenings really began with the parts process and have expanded and deepened over the last 15 years with dark nights, bliss and Oneness, non-dual and kundalini and cosmic awakenings, Divine Mother connection, conscious community, falling in love with Raphael, healing abduction wounding and my star seed, creating and offering SoulFullHeart, etc.

Thank you for joining me on this twenty-ninth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is a link to purchase my books such as the one I mention, Keep Waking Up!: my memoir of awakening experiences while living on a remote ranch:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books
And the email I mention if you’d like to pre-order to receive my book sharing my early awakenings to re-released soon called Under The Bloated Banyan is soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page:https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Healing The Wounded Masculine – Day 28: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 29, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 28 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me to talk about healing the wounded masculine to embody the sacred masculine; connection with the Divine Father; and healing wounded masculine templating.

He shares about his process with healing his Inner Teenager to bring this part into healthier frequencies of masculine and to integrate (and not suppress) the inner feminine. What Gabriel shares here can also apply to a woman’s process in terms of healing her wounded masculine aspects.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-eigth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is the previous video that I did with Gabriel: https://youtu.be/6q2KnYh9dSU?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Here is a playlist of all the videos in this series: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Embodying Inner Feminine and Connecting With Divine Mother – Day 27: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 27, 2018January 27, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 27 of this 33 Days of Metamorphosis, SoulFullHeart Facilitator (for women under 30) Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about healing the inner feminine through feeling masculine aspects such as the Protector and the Punisher. As these masculine parts of us rest, then the feminine can arise. It is usually embodied in our Inner Teenager, who is guarded over by the masculine. Our Inner Teenager holds our waiting to be initiated healthy sexuality; latent emotional maturity; soul gift expression capacity, etc. Kalayna shares about her process with her Inner Teenager and the Protector.

We also talk about the layers of wounded masculine that we’ve been conditioned to in 3D culture and receive as templating from our birth mothers. To heal these layers is about connection with the Divine Mother and receiving new templating of authentic femininity.

To read more about the Inner Teenager and Punisher and other parts go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
To read more about sessions, including a free intro, go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you for joining us on this twenty seventh day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Healing Inner Punisher And Shame – Day 26: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 26, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 26 of this 33 Days of Metamorphosis, I talk about the Inner Punisher part of the 3D Self. This Punisher energy can show up in spirituality in terms of ‘battling’ the ego, annihilating the ego, obliterating the ego, and going to ‘war’ or against something else from inside, etc.

The Inner Punisher forms in response to the 3D culture that is polarized to going outward to judge others or turning the judgement inward or both. This is templated from caregivers/parents that hold these energies toward us.

Your Inner Punisher can be quite strong and you may not even notice it at first until you start tracking this energy and how it suppresses, judges, and pushes up shame reactions. One main suffering loop that you may experience is between the Inner Punisher and shame reactions that come up from the Inner Teenager/Inner Child usually. The feeling tones of shame are ‘I am wrong’ and ‘I deserve to be punished and judged’.

We don’t go to battle with the Punisher in the SoulFullHeart process, we actually help it transform to its higher frequency expressions of discernment, intuition, and guidance with love. It also helps to set boundaries with love; discern with love; offer guidance with love. Eventually the Punisher integrates into your growing 5D Self and is able to offer forgiveness and compassion inside and to others in an authentic way.

This is the writing that I mentioned today: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2018/01/25/loving-your-ego-into-healing-letting-go-and-surrender/

To read more about the Inner Punisher and other parts go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
To read more about sessions, including a free intro, go here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you for joining us on this twenty sixth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Parts Process, Setting Boundaries – Day 25: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Raianna Shai (Video)

Published on January 25, 2018 by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 25 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk with my daughter Raianna, how has been engaging with the SoulFullHeart parts process for more than a year. She brings the perspective of her generation at 22 years old and how it feels to incorporate the parts perspective (and SoulFullHeart way of life) into her life.

Raianna shares about the first Protector part that she met and how she digested a process of punisher/protector-shame reaction that happened in reaction to a social setting. She talks about how hard it was to get ‘away’ from the shame reactions in order to feel why she felt that way until she could feel them as separate parts and energies and sort them through with her SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri.

She also talks about how as you feel more of your own parts, you can feel more of these energies in others, especially as an empath. She shares about her experiences in boundary setting with others and her process around that.

She shares too about living in community near us, engaging in the SoulFullHeart process, and relating with me as her ‘mother’ and more and more on a soul level rather than the ‘roles’ of mother and daughter.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Awakening To Your Self-Worth Healing Process Within

Published on January 25, 2018January 25, 2018 by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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Perhaps the deepest, most powerful, most emotional and yet also the most spiritual awakening we can have, is to how our self-worth has been measured within.

We were given these measuring tools by a culture fraught with pain and unworthiness. We were led here by caregivers and confidants, mentors and leaders. We were messaged from birth (in this life and other lives too) that our worth is dependent, conditional, finite, and above all, quantifiable. We are told subliminally, unconsciously, that we need to have, be, do, say, many different things that aren’t authentically us in our hearts. We are a species in incredible pain that goes deep. Even if you seem to consciously be choosing to ignore this inside of you, it’s still there. It lingers and pricks. It perks up when the opportunity comes, when it is safe enough to truly awaken to it, feel it, make space for it to continue arising.

It doesn’t matter how often some others may tell you, ‘there is nothing wrong with you’, when there is so much living in the buried basement of your heart’s cries for love, for a connection with All-That-Is, to genuinely feel One again with yourself, with the Divine, with everyone around you. Our separation and abandonment wounding lives fathoms deep inside of us and our parts. It lives and breathes within, it pops up whenever it can, and it does certainly inform your daily experience of life.

To truly find and feel our worth again, we must be willing to feel through the process of it… to be with the parts of us, the pain, the anguish, and the anxiety which all make up our experience of not truly having our worth intact. The fact is that we could never lose our worth… yet to deeply feel it and live from it is a whole other choice that involves feeling what ISN’T it and making room to feel all there is to feel about that.

To be in this process is to slowly begin to come home to yourself in a way you’ve never imagined. And once you get there, you realize that the light was left on for you by your soul and your infinite Divine connection that never left you. YOU truly ARE the love you and your parts have been searching, waiting, aching for. And when this can really be let in, nothing else matters but making sure that you have the things, people, relationships, intentions, that truly reflect this worth and love back to you. It is worth all of the inner-mining and the years of deep-diving within. It is worth it because YOU’RE worth it and the love you are meant to serve is worth it too. ❤

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