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Feeling – The Portal Back To Essence: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 25, 2018)

Published on June 29, 2018July 6, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter features an article from Raphael Awen where he shares about his personal process this past week and invites you into the heart of your own emotional and spiritual healing process, starting with something as simple as ‘feeling’:

“Feeling is the tipping point. Feeling is the graduation point that harvests the purpose and intention of why we surrendered to our human experience, as well as why we surrendered to our perceived separation from the divine experience.

It is in feeling the sorrows where we find the direct portals back to our joy, and to our indescribable essence as infinite love.”

Raphael and Jelelle Awen share the recording of their latest live stream event where they digested the topic of relationships related to awakening, Ascension, Sacred Union, Twin Flames, etc. and responded to many questions and comments too. It was a very alive LIVE event and they will be doing more live streams soon, so stay tuned to our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience and/or Raphael and Jelelle’s Facebook feeds!

Many new writings and several new audio recordings this week for you to take in as well, from Jelelle and Raphael, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri as well. They cover topics including energy updates, invitations into intimate feeling spaces with yourself and your parts, and digestions of the Summer Solstice and newly emerging Crop Circles.

We also offer information about our five day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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As A Man…

Published on May 10, 2018May 10, 2018 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

As a MAN:

Trying to ‘be a man’ outside of a relationship to someone or something is impossible.

Manhood itself is ‘an expression in relationship to’.

There is always an arena of life in this way that the man finds himself in, that is full of challenge that calls for choice, and alignment of one’s actions with those choices.

So then life as you currently know it, is not something that needs to gottten over or around in order for you to be a man, but rather, life as you currently know it is something that needs to be embraced, faced and moved through in order for you to feel your manhood moving and expressing.

Where this gets truly rewarding is when we make this conscious and find new ways of responding and relating to all of life around us. We then see ourselves literally becoming the man of our own dreams.

We do this not by trying harder to be a man, but rather by finding and feeling the parts of ourselves that are not on board just yet for their own valid reasons with our gender and power expression in the world. Trying to be more of a man without these kinds of deeper explorations into our emotional bodies only serves to add another layer of suffering and internal war with ourselves, as a self improvement project that we tried to power our way through, is again laid to the side, on the shame pile.

Even this suffering and internal war though is not an end in itself, for as a man, we are ever finding our way and finding the impetus to our next choices. We actually needed, and many still currently need, their suffering loops to alchemize their next larger soul choices and action trajectories. There has never been a time like this time to live into what your soul came here to feel and learn as a soul who chose the MALE gender.

Manhood is EPIC, MAN! You didn’t sign up for anything small when you checked the MAN box. You signed up for it because you are up for it…you’re only waiting for a MAN picture that you can truly buy into!

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
I’d love to serve your epic arising into all that you already are!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Sometimes Love Don’t Feel Like It ‘Should’: The Rumble Of Awakening

Published on April 30, 2018April 30, 2018 by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

As you enter the vast universe of our deepest truths and bring those to the forefront of your daily and “at the moment” consciousness, the life that was created in service to that hidden reality has no choice but to rumble. As I remember the beginnings of my own awakening journey and those that I have served and am currently serving, this is a very cataclysmic part of the process to the part of us that have kept things tidy and manageable, even as it suffered over it.

As you become aware of the emotional intricacies of the current web of relationship, you can begin to feel the network of cords that were created as a result of this part’s need to conform, follow duty, and be loyal. It was what this part thought was needed to do in order to love or be loved. To protect and be protected. But when you start to awaken to the reality that many of your current connections may be based on something less than authentic to your growing understanding of what you are meant to be and experience, this web cannot be unaffected by coming to terms with your new emotional and spiritual reality.

Pulling out of this old matrix of 3D relationship can be a tough one as it tugs on our inner guilt and shame. It can be hard for the part of us that feels a responsibility in the emotional responses of others. It doesn’t feel very loving to hurt others. It can feel like you are being selfish and uncaring. Think of a spider web and you are at one of the crossings. If you pull on that it affects all those around that are connected in that web. You make waves and rumbles when you begin to realize this arrangement is no longer in service of your highest self.

This leaves others wondering what the hell is going on. “Why are you doing this?” It does change their lives as they have their own agreements with you, and you are changing the game and the rules. Others will get hurt if they cannot feel where you are coming from and are not ready to go to the new places you are. There is only so much explaining you can do. Sometimes love for all involved is about feeling the pain that lies underneath it all and letting the chips fall where they may with as much compassion and care as possible. You cannot cure other people’s sorrows for they are a part of their own journey of awakening.

In SoulFullHeart we feel the parts and soul aspects of you that can feel the guilt, shame, and fear of changing the course of lives. This was all made possible by the higher selves of those involved. You can only own your own responsibility within the web and understand that there is no harm done when it is all coming from real love, the love that is aching for parts of you to be seen and felt, honored and cherished. The experience that others have are for their own learning and growth needs. That is can be difficult when there is an emotional and spiritual bind between hearts and souls.

This is the hard part of awakening and ascension for those that are still in the midsts of realizing the reality of what is before them. By feeling the parts of you INside you can create one courageous choice at a time that is meant to serve the highest good for all involved with compassion, remorse, and real love. The kind that we all have been avoiding as it leads us to worlds we have been so conditioned to fear…the largess of our infinite soul.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Loved-Up: A Sacred Union Poem

Published on February 27, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

Face-squish snuggles,

melting touches,

roll between bedsheets

of softness,

bellowing and beckoning

heartbeams of sunshine and goodness

among the sticky-hot sweetness.

My head catches up

to my heart’s warmth and wonder

at how we two

so different,

so alike,

came together

to move together as one

yet two

all over again…

Lover of my heart, soul and body,

cherisher of that which I cherish,

my everything claims this,

our space of phases

and movements together,

no matter the length and breadth

of roads we travel side by side.

The light I love in you

holds a lighthouse lamp shining

for the leadership of yours

next to the shining brightness

of my own.

From here we gaze inward,

toward ourselves and each other,

belly-laughing,

dog-sandwich, morning-bed cuddling,

sweet sunset kissing,

and daylight collaborating…

This bridge between us

made of much,

holds the truths of which

we will uncover

as we each agree to the next MORE…

and our flow of love

cascades onward

as we walk hand-in-hand,

together. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts Of Intimacy And Sacred Union

Published on February 17, 2018 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Our biggest mirrors lie in our most intimate relationships, especially those that are romantic. That which lies in the deepest shadow places can really only ever be seen and felt in those connections whose dynamics bring us to the edge of our defenses and vulnerability. We get to feel the depth of our own self and what it is that we have been unaware of in the way we relate to life and love.

True sacred union is meant to offer us the means to explore and feel the ways in which we have kept our shadow and light sequestered for very reasonable reasons. It is an ongoing experiential playground in which we get to grow and learn. Each time we open our hearts to the most vulnerable of places, the parts of us that have been so timid and sensitive to bearing their deepest fears, we bring our being to a precipice or a fork in the road. How will my truth, my needs, my love, land in the person that we, and parts of us, have so much invested in?

These investments have different roots…some more wounded or authentic than others. The true sacred union continually asks questions about what is the authentic feeling ground between both partners. Is there a deepening occurring? Is there a feeling of a new arising, both in yourself and in the other, as you continue to heal all that resists real love and growth?

I have been so used to being in my own personal healing space over the years. It has been a newer experience for me to bring that into the space that is now populated with another. It is a new level of showing up for myself and a union with Kalayna. I do have parts that have had habit of coasting in relationship, both to a mate and myself. Sacred union and intimacy pokes a stick at that to keep the fire of consciousness and romance alive and in continued curiosity and expression.

The edges come when one is feeling a chasm of relationality in the space between. What needs to be felt and expressed that can open a doorway to a more authentic felt reality? The inherent risk, of course, is that there may be a difficult yet necessary acceptance that the ground between lovers and mates is no longer sufficient to keep the current inner need for More alive and transactable.

The ground of metasoul connections, sexual compatibility, intellectual alignments, or emotional dependency are not enough in and of themselves to hold together a Love that wants ALL areas of heart, body, mind, and soul to be met with passion and purpose. The more we are willing to feel and express our own needs, truths, and desires the more we are able to attract the kind of love that we feel for ourselves. The more we are willing to take these in from another, and conflict if need be to sort out what is real, the more we are able to find new places of growth and love within ourselves.

I am so fortunate to be in this with someone who cares so deeply for herself, her parts, and process, as well me, my parts, and my process. There is no way I get to stay stuck in something that may be hard for me to see. I am urged to advocate for my needs and for what I want and desire in her. She is a true gift of realness to me. She is the wind to my sails if I am willing to stick them out there. I get to show up for that and I am forever grateful to what she means to my continued growth, expansion, and leadership of heart for men and women in the desire for the More they have signed up for.

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This Love I Share With YOU: A Poem

Published on January 22, 2018January 22, 2018 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

gabriel bday 2018

To Gabriel Heartman on this, his (re)birthday…

Beloved man of heart and soul…

I see, feel and hear the music of your ever-expanding heart,
the grounded bliss of the love within
that I get the pleasure, the honour, the space to be in WITH you…
This flow between us as our hearts continue to entwine
in the most wonderFULL ways
brings me closer
to every cell of the skin
you kiss with such fervent desire
and beckoning strains of truthful, loving arias.

In every chapter we awaken together,
I feel the glow of a golden heart-sun
ever-stronger with each breath
co-created between our healing and feeling hearts.

To create this next chapter with you,
deeply beloved man,
is to create a whole new world
and many new vistas to explore…

….and the fact that I GET to do this with YOU
makes almost nothing else matter.

So many soul songs we have together,
so many dances of body and heart
so many phases and places of inhabited growth
and so many ‘yeses’ to each dawning of NEW day lived out
together…

I say ‘yes’ to MORE and MORE with you…
more of the bliss, the mess, the phases of ups and downs
ins and outs
inward healing and outward service.

I say ‘yes’, because I love everything that you are,
every part you have every been
every Metasoul Brother you have ever felt
and I thank them all
for making up this truly awesome mosaic
of the powerful, heartful, soulful man
that you ARE
and are continuing to BEcome.

I love you!

Love,
Kalayna

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Energies Offer Deeper Connection To Masculine/Feminine Healing Within

Published on December 6, 2017December 10, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri with Magdalena

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Painting: ‘Sacred Union‘ by Deanne Wolfgram

Ah, these energies of dancing, loving and WARM union and rediscovery of the truly sacred masculine and feminine within… that always finds its way to overflow once it has been deeply and earnestly dived into. This is alchemy, this dance of one WITH the other, acknowledgment of the places both have taken inside of you and where their wounded expressions need to be felt and held space for. There is much that this dance of love in body, heart, soul and mind, ALL, want to bring to you, through you, with you.

I’ve been feeling strongly the connection of Magdalena and Christiel in the last couple of days. I have especially been feeling Magdalena energy coming in to be with me, bake with me in her frequencies that smell like sandalwood and lavender, and feel like a warm spring sun bringing food and life to the creations it shines on. She is a light in the heart of all women and men. She brings with her the true spirit of Tantra, the sensuality of a woman in love with herself in all ways, sharing her love body, her love soul, her love heart, her love mind with her mate. She expects no perfection, for the greatest works of art are the ones often not seen as ‘art’ at first. She teaches us of true feminine unity and healing. What it means to really go inward, to heal to the far reaches of your deepest heart pain, to TRULY let go of competition with or dislike of other women by feeling the layers of why these feelings have been needed. She advocates for the inward and outward phases, both, encouraging your overflow of self love to be shared.

I feel her imbibing my words and my energy these days, as I deepen my connection with her through my process, from the heart UP. I feel Christiel as well, as they are an intimate package to be with and one is never very far from the other, it seems. They offer that our deepest healing surprises come from feeling polarity dances of wounded yet perhaps healing masculine and feminine frequencies inside of each of us. Without counterpart vibrations consciously making music within our hearts and souls, the depths of potential healing stays only as potential.

I feel Magdalena offering directly,

“Beautiful beloved heart and soul, you are… so many of us say this to you through others who are channels for our messages and offer distortions at times too. Yet the positive comes through more often than not that is intended to make way for what is real to fill the space within. It is as important to FEEL now, as it has ever been! It is important to feel all of the aches, the desires, the clinging-on places where parts of you have been afraid to let go and eventually let in… there is so much unknown to trust, yes, and the Divine trusts your soul to navigate this, however it is meant to, in whatever timing it chooses. It is just so, in a simple way that also has many layers and explanations that actually reach far beyond words! To all of my woman hearts and souls… now is the time to deeply dive into your hearts. There is much you have learned and much you have yet to learn too. To simply be with the real, even if it feels messy, is the invitation now and always. For what is at stake is more about whether or not you would like to experience the deepest love you possibly can in this life, or if you would like to wait for another. No ‘loss’, though each may bring you sorrow, can possibly be a loss of your own forever and your own quest for and with love. When you create the space for the awakening within, your awakenings of slumbering alchemy in your life will have room to shake and quake the life you have known, bringing you, ultimately, to MORE of what you have most deeply desired.

In LOVE with YOU my sisters and brothers… Magdalena”.

If you are in a Sacred Union and can feel these energies with your partner, this is a phase to bring them sexually to each other. It is a time to create new timelines together through love making, bringing intentional space between you as the energies caress and exchange. Of course this can be done from you to you, as well, and for many of you, this is what’s necessary in this phase as you work to bring the healing opportunities that are moving you into your own highest timelines, possibly along with drawing a Sacred Union of your own. Engaging in this with Gabriel yesterday brought us both into a space of alchemy and heart-centeredness that is connecting us both to deeper places of healing within and strengthening our bond more and more as we embark on our new timeline together that is arising and emerging Now.

Feeling these energies of Magdalena and Christiel in such accessible ways is a huge gift right now and one that it feels like will keep on giving, as you keep giving to yourself by way of space-holding for what is real inside of you and parts of you. Here we go, deeper into these exquisite energies, and deeper into ourselves too! ❤

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As Our Union Remembers, We Remember Too: A Poem About Sacred Union

Published on November 17, 2017November 17, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

There is so much to discover, recover, with you.

As I am uncovered,

lover…

and uncover you too.

The defenses shake and shimmy their way

into a thousand streams of this fencepost and that wall…

yet love is there to undermine it all.

Our union breathes

and brings with it the tides of times

Ancient, current, steady.

I see the breezes of aeration

and timelines in meditation

waiting for our reach to hold

the ones we’ve been waiting for

all this time.

And together we remember

what these mountains of relationship

have always been called

by soul-times remembered

and lived out all at once.

❤

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When Sacred Intimacy Finds You Brother, Go In Not Away

Published on November 5, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

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She comes into your life like a surging storm of passion and purpose. Or she may have been there all along waiting on the wings of your heart until you were ready to truly see her and let her in. Either way your life will not be the same because she won’t let it. She is not here to be the complacent companion or the sexy sidekick. She is here to invite you to feel your deepest fears and MANifest your greatest expression of being. You drew her because you were ready to move beyond the confines of casual comfort. Ready to inhabit your inner King and challenge the places that you have been stuck in growth.

She is the sacred feminine seeking her sacred masculine counterpart. She lights up your divine inspiration, opens and deepens your wounded and healing heart, she sparks your passion and creativity. She also brings in a mirror. A reflection of your largess that is hard to let in because you have parts that have yet to see it in themselves. Her fire highlights the places within you that are dampened and protected. You feel the places where she is dangerous to the parts of you you didn’t know you had until you went deeper into your truth.

Yeah. Your truth. What is real inside of that masculine heart of yours? Do you feel where parts of you have cordoned off the rage, the hurt, the fear of being seen in totality? There is much in the wounded male heart that has been buried in reaction to what lies in the recesses of our shadow. A collective and personal feeling of unworthiness with rumblings of other lives of suppression and dominance. Of being repressed and dominated. What would come out of your mouth if the gates were left open? This is the unknown world that sacred intimacy is guiding you into and it is a scary yet luminous journey.

She is the one I never knew I was looking for. She brings edges and mountains to a flatter world a part of me had created to keep thing the same. It is holding space for the deeper feelings of the parts of me that may not be all on board to this type of intimacy as they have been safely enjoying anonymity. She engages my leading edge while advocating to feel my trailing edge of truth in its realness. She calls for me to challenge her in her bigness as a challenge to my past care-taking. It is getting dirty and muddy when we have found ourselves at a dissonance to feel where we are truly in resonance. The end is always possible while the infinite is right at hand. This is a brave new world for me and for her.

I know my beloved Kalayna and I are just in our sacred infancy in some ways but we have been through much together. We have the blessed modeling of Raphael and Jelelle and yet we have our own challenges and uniqueness. I have much to feel and show up for in this continued deepening. As a man, there is a lot to trust and a lot to stand up for within myself. This can only be done by truly feeling the parts of us that hold resistance and passion both. This is the true passion ground of our sacred masculinity and heart-open sexuality. With Her, you and I will never be the same.

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From A Bud To A Flower: Sweet Sacred Union Beginnings

Published on November 5, 2017 by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Colibri

That feeling of being in his arms… finding our way back to each other, after years of being in and out of relationship together, depending on what parts of us needed.

The letting in of his kiss… the swirl of the softness and stillness I feel in me in the receiving, that is echoed somehow in his masculine sacred King.

The exploration of sacred sexuality… the dedication and passion that opens out in every curve, every pore, letting emotions rise and fall and tears wash away the remnants of painful times, phases of less connection from heart to soul to body and back again.

So much moves in and through as I walk out each conscious moment with Gabriel. We have traversed so much terrain together over the last 5 years, sometimes in a romantic bond, other times not. This time feels more real and realistic too… though we cannot ever ‘know’ and can only feel what’s true in the moment.

Sacred Unions… they don’t happen by chance. They happen as we continue the work we are so committed to within. That commitment and that cultivated love that comes from it, flows in concert with another when we are ready for it to, the timing of which is not exactly up to us. The timing of anything truly special and unique moving into our lives is not up to us or parts of us, though parts may try and sabotage or avoid it, or work extra hard to ‘keep’ it. Love is a flowing river that gets to be shared with others once your own flow is in enough abundance that it can. Until then, your filling up love-flask needs your attention only.

Everyone can do ‘work’ on themselves and draw different sorts of mates to them… yet I don’t know of any other work that draws Sacred Unions in the way this path of SoulFullHeart does. Working with parts and soul aspects is instrumental to the understanding of who you are and have been in relationship as well as who you could become. It is an incredible way to get to know a partner too and to let them know you. It is an unending path of discovery and re-arising for each other, again and again and again. Nothing can stay the same for long, for there can be no stagnancy in this work. As you heal and awaken, your partner is asked to go with you and you with them, frequently changing the ground of the relationship. Nothing at all can become ‘boring’ in this sort of relationship, where the mirror is constantly there, though sometimes at very awkward angles, and you are invited to care as much if not more about YOU as you do about the other.

I am blessed to be where I am with Gabriel right now… the experiences of deepenings and openings too, that come sometimes on the other side of tension and process both together and separately too. We have frequencies of all sides of relationship… best soul friend, deep heart lover, hot body talk and sexuality, sweet tears of feeling one another, times of merging, times of feeling separate. There is so much here to feel and be and be in. I am blessed, yet we have both worked hard to be at this level of process too, where we can let this bond in… though there are parts of us that resist it at times, that can feel how challenging this sort of relationship can be, that would perhaps rather just be single. Yet the hearts of both of us are committed to this NOW and the next NOW, allowing the romance to arise and move as it needs to, with no knowledge of how long it could last, and no expectations around this, though there are conscious desires too.

To be in a budding and emerging Sacred Union is a gift that comes with a process, that comes with yummies and challenges, both. And without this healing path called SoulFullHeart that holds and calls to each of us continually, we would be caught up in a net of unmoveable binds instead of illuminating bonds that can heal these binds. This is one of the golden trophies we hold very sacredly in SoulFullHeart… the light at the end of a long tunnel of necessary singlehood, that has also been held as good and sacred and blessed. Sacred Union is worth the precipice and trust fall within that allows you to let YOU in and eventually another too. And it is one of the most profound gifts of our sacred humanity expressing in conscious duality. ❤

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