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Fear Is A Form Of Reverence

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By Raphael Awen

Fear is a form of reverence.

That which we fear, we revere.

We fear and revere things that we perceive as bigger than us. We fear god, circumstances, illness, etc. as things or beings that are bigger than us and that we are thus subject to. I might want this, but god might want something different for me that I don’t want.

All of this is a product of making ourselves small.
What we really fear at a deep core level are not the things that we think we fear. What we really fear is our own bigness. Our bigness isn’t just big, it is infinitely big. Anything that we can’t define, refine or confine, we fear, and understandably so.

So we set out to manage ourselves. We manage life instead of letting in life. We see ourselves as subject to life, rather than the subjects of life. We choose a perception of a scarcity-based relationship to life because of the utter fear of falling prey to unlimited abundance.

It is actually way easier for parts of us to shut down our desire for more and just live with the dampened desire and dampened disappointment than it is to open ourselves full throttle to the level of desire and abundance that our being actually is. Here again is the deep core fear we run from.

How might we change this?

Because we live as conditioned beings, and we have conditioned ourselves to a lesser-reality which has become our ultimate-reality, then it follows that letting in new and truer reality will happen for us as we entertain and let in that new reality. We begin to become reconditioned to a new reality. Nothing happens without our consent and choice in our personal kingdoms and queendoms because we are the sovereign of our own domains.

There is still a deep place for surrender to the divine in all of this, it’s just that you can’t take yourself out of the divine equation. By that, I mean, you can’t externalize God and surrender to God. This is a form of keeping intact the small-you reality. You can’t separate yourself from divinity, try as you may.
Many will chafe at this idea of seeing themselves as god. How sacrilegious they exclaim. What we define as blasphemy is in service of the gods of our own creation. The gods we create are created out of our deepest fears that we haven’t yet felt.

Time and time again, life faces us with our infinite bigness, awaiting our surrender, our exploration, our reverence for all that is, and all that is in us, and though us, and to us….You are ‘divinity out divining’…. as you are now; as you are desiring to be; and as you will more and more come to terms with every day.

Feel your fears. They are one of the single truest things about you. So are your desires. Feel them too. Own it all. Let in the tears of having muffled both your real and deepest fears as well as your desires.

Let love collide with the reality you’ve conditioned yourself to.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

We Create Our Own Reality

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By Raphael Awen

“We create our own reality.”

We’ve all heard it said. Many of us embraced it deeply. We tried to understand and use this knowledge to change our lives. But sadly, we’ve also despaired of trying to apply this truth to our benefit.

What went wrong? Why did a truth that promised so much end up embarrassing us with its own kind of disappointment? What is this truth itself didn’t lack, but our application of it is what left us wanting for something?

I believe what went wrong in our draw to this knowledge was our point of view from which we looked at it. We looked out from an already created point of view at this truth and then hastily set out to fix something in our life. What we missed in that process was feeling the feeling that was already alive in us that something was in need of fixing.

What if there isn’t actually anything in you that’s in need of fixing? What if that conviction comes from a previous created reality that you picked up along the way?

What if you are actually perfect as you are now, even in the midst of knowing there are things in your life that are painful and that you wish would change?

I believe what life is offering us is to feel this truth from a newly created point of view. In this point of view, you get to feel yourself as perfect as you are, loved as you are, loved as you are becoming, loved as you were.

The self-judgment at root of seeing ourselves as objects needing fixing is a painful reality that we have co-created in our collective and that then lives in us individually as our personal reality. An internalized part of us takes on this fixing and punishing role as its job in our lives as it has never known and felt these feelings of its own perfection. Given the scarcity that this part of us lives from, it is very understandable that it would set out to keep its role in our lives intact. This lack of self-love and self-acceptance can only then be the highest form of love we can offer to any other, capping the love we are.

Feel this part of you. Feel the confining space that it lives in. Feel the burden of the many ‘truths’ it subscribed to and eventually despaired from in its dedication and care of you and for you.

Allow a new relationship to ‘truth’ arise in you that isn’t about fixing anything. Begin a lifelong journey of seeing yourself through the eyes of the infinite love that you are now, just as you are.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Dance And Consequence Of Ascension Energy

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

So much information/energy finding its way to the surface of our collective consciousness and activating our DNA. Energy from the Cosmos activating the Sun and passing it onto and INTO the earth. It activates the inner Earth Sun and reverberates back the surface again. I can see a symbiotic dance of this information/energy. It is all a part of the solar/Gaian ascension process that we are so fortunate to be a part of and a witness to.

We are an integral part of this process. Each and every one of us. While is continues with or without us, it is made stronger, brighter, and more beautiful WITH us. It is an active participation where we no longer have to be bulled over or suffer over the consequences of these intense waves of eLOVEution. We can consciously connect with the pain, with the fear, and with the shadow that is invariably making its way each and every day.

As each of us goes into these arising pings and pangs, we integrate and activate a new and higher timeline of consciousness. We bring in more of what wants to be made real with Love and Knowledge beyond what we have chosen to live with until it is no longer needed and/or desired.

Our support team within the Earth, outside our atmosphere, and interdimensionally are all here to offer guidance and seek healing. They too are going through a process and as One we have our own gifts to remember and to share. Let these unfolding awarenesses and experiences to support your inner shifts, movements, and growth edges. They are the revery bells of a New Day….A New Season of life on Earth.

I feel how much our ancestors (what I would call Metasoul brothers and sisters) are reaching out through all sorts of different ways and means. Let us hear, feel, and head their messages and invitations. Go within, connect, feel, heal, integrate, share, and repeat. Support is here in human form as well which helps to fully land in the heart of your being. Much love to you on this and every other day to follow.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Intense Energy Waves Lead To Deeper Healing & Change

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By Kalayna Colibri

Been in more waves of change personally as we finally transition to a house where roots can be planted in nourishing soil… this isn’t coming through without tension also moving through, making room for the new and all possibilities. It feels like a time for this, a time for stepping into your highest timeline, and feeling the reactions and tensions moving along with that. It’s a time where stepping into your highest timeline may not look and feel like the perfect picture in the moment, yet you can so trust the vision as it’s unfolding and hold onto it as more than a wish, but something you are deciding to fully show up for… even as there are steps, sometimes many steps, to realizing it in its entirety.

There’s still density to move and be with, to acknowledge and to challenge within, especially as you continue to be invited into new and deeper perspectives. These new strata of seeing yourself, of feeling your parts and how they’ve moved in and reacted to the world, are landing in your field and waiting to be let in as you sometimes shake with old rage and deep hurt as parts of you live into their pain and in some cases have a very hard time letting in healing. Actually, this shaking and vibrating with old reactions often IS part of the healing and is just as sacred as the feeling of release and relief as you let in new waves of love into dark corners of your being that have so needed it.

These higher perspectives want you to see yourself and your parts in a more profound way, to see where the pain is and why and to feel compassion for how you’ve been in this world up ‘til now. The debris of the old needs to come loose before it can be lovingly swept up. And, the timing of this sometimes chaotic-feeling shake-up process is sacred and soulfully personal to you. You can’t know the exact timing of WHEN it will be more healed, yet you can hold onto a trust that it’s all in process and there IS an other side.

Connecting with your Inner Protector might be timely for you, as this part in particular may be quite stirred up right now. Both Raphael and Jelelle Awen have created powerful guided meditations to help connect you with this precious part of you. You can find them and other beautiful guided meditations on our YouTube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Christ/Magdalene Light Streams In To Begin This ‘Christmas Season’: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Nov 26, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

“It is a powerful choice to go inward and feel during this time instead of looking outward for quelling what is becoming harder and harder to quell or quiet down inside…It is equally powerful to vulnerably reach out for help and to courageously show up to support others in their healing too.”

This week’s Museletter is led-off by Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri, who taps into the incoming Christ/Magdalene Consciousness frequencies coming in as this ‘Christmas Season’ begins. She offers that these frequencies are supportive and meant to help push up an awareness of what isn’t love inside of each of us and inside of our relationships too:

“There is SO much light streaming in that it can’t help but bring UP what isn’t love inside of you and the ache for MORE of what you most authentically WANT in your heart and soul.”

There will be a SoulFullHeart retreat taking place February 15-19, 2019 in Victoria, BC, Canada. If you’re interested in coming, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information.

We have new writings and audio blogs to share with you this week, from Kalayna, Gabriel Heartman, and Jelelle Awen. They include energy updates and ways to feel and digest your ongoing inner process and what could be pushing it into high gear in different ways right now.

1:1 Galactic Activation Sessions with Jelelle are available for booking. They are a $55 USD minimum donation for 75-90min and will involve checking in with your parts and Metasoul/Galactic Aspects, helping you reunite with your Star Family, activating your Ascension Chakra vortexes, and much more… email soulfullhearts@gmail.com to book. For more information, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/galacticsessions

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Energy Waves Inviting NEW Alchemy From Inner Work

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by Kalayna Colibri

So many energy waves coming in recently that are wanting to give us more energy for dreaming, intending, and taking action steps too towards what it is we most want. There’s an invitation into a deeper trust within too. A trust in the goodness that waits on the other side of even some painful processes of having to say “no” to what we don’t want and/or completing with different jobs or relationships that just aren’t aligning with who we are becoming anymore. It’s been about a week or so, it feels like, of harvesting from seeds sown long ago, yet also planting new ones in new soil.

As Gaia’s frequency continues to rise up as reflected in all of these recent spikes in the Schumann resonance and so on, this seems to be laying new ground for us to stand on in many ways! We have NEW opportunities to plant ourselves in that are more in alignment with our soul purpose work and NEW motivation to keep moving on and moving through whatever difficulties are arising. This may even show up as NEW ways to lean into others for support too or to begin offering support to others in a more active and engaged way, whatever that may look like for you. You get to choose the nourishment of co-creation and collaboration with resonant others if it feels like time for you… and you get to wonder why it may not feel like the phase for this for you personally and check in with your parts to see what resistances may be there around it.

This sense of new ground arising is a result of ‘composting’ the ‘old’… dedicating your healing within and shedding layers that no longer feel like you as parts of you let you feel them and move more into health than injury, more into dharma than drama and a healthy integration into your unique expression of wholeness and ‘I’-ness. This has been an intense and churning process often times, just as new compost must be churned and in some cases, burned, in order to integrate into the new soil and add nutrients and life to it. There’s nothing in the multi-verse that can ever disappear, just change state. And so, your pain has the chance to be recycled and added back in as an expression of the renewed you – more alive, more present, more trusting, more genuinely loving, more human, and more spiritual too.

Perhaps it’s time for your new soul soil to be laid and planted in. Energy waves moving through are inviting you to feel what you REALLY want and to be with the process of its manifestation, in all of its ups and downs, challenges and easy flow too. ❤

Much love! ❤

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My beloveds and I would so love to hold space for you if you’re looking for support during these times. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

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Photo by Yeshi Kangrang via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sacred Peaks And Valleys Of Our Ascension

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The peaks, valleys, and polarities of our heart and souls are highlighted as we are taken on this wild ride known as ascension. Some days are high, some days are low. The question is do you continue to ride the waves as “just the way it is”, or do you choose to feel why they exist as they do?

This is a sacred choice for each one of us. There is a moment when enough becomes enough and it is time for something new. That new has a more lasting impact when it is felt on the inside from you to you. What parts or aspects are locked in this dance that seems to moving to a tune that seems stuck in a rut and skipping on that same old note?

During theses times these ruts can be found in the way you relate to your relationships, your work, and/or geography. The bristles, depressions, and physical reactions are all here to remind you that there is something that is needing the attention of its truth and the compassion of your heart.

The holidays seem to amplify what is already being amplified in this process, so in a way we are getting a double-whammy! Parts of you can be trying their damnedest to hold it all together, but maybe it is coming to the point where it all just needs to unravel.

We hold this unraveling as a gift as it enters the deep core of your needs, truth, and desire. It may burn down the house you built or it may lead to a deeper foundation and some extra add-ons you were least expecting. Either way love is finding its way and creating some more real than you felt the day, week, and year before.

Hold this process as sacredly held by the highest and most beloved frequencies you can let in and imagine. This offers the container or embrace that will guide and support you to the other side.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Welcome To The Upside-Down, The Birthing Of Golden Earth: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Nov 19, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

“This is a time of expecting the unexpected. Situations both politically and environmentally that will not follow former historical patterns.”

Gabriel Heartman invites us to feel the intense current events happening globally as an aspect of what he calls the ‘upside-down’, where not much makes the sense it used to make, and yet it’s all part of the process of birthing Golden/New Earth.

He offers that with everything occurring, the time has never been riper to go inward and be with the reactions and pain that is surfacing:

“There is a tsunami that is on our shores and that is Love. It does destroy and it does upend. It is meant to as what is Not Love can only ever be returned to that which Is Love. This is about feeling inside of you where the Not Love lives and bringing this Love Wave to it.”

We have two new videos this week from SoulFullHeart Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri. The first one invites you to join Kalayna as she vulnerably brings some important aspects of her most recent process and celebrates being once again available to hold space for others.

In the second video, Kalayna shares Divine Feminine frequencies moving through on this particular day when the Divine Mother/Feminine energies were high, via her heart and soul as well as the beautiful natural setting surrounding her in Brentwood Bay, BC, Canada. She also shares a precious message from Divine Mother about leadership and birthing into your Service-Of-Love Self.

There are several new writings and audio blog recordings from Kalayna, Gabriel, and Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They invite you this week to digest a few energy updates and take in new perspectives on current events such as Thanksgiving Day. There are also several deep messages offered from the Divine about personal process and leadership grounds opening up.

There will be a SoulFullHeart retreat taking place February 15-19, 2019 in Victoria, BC, Canada. If you’re interested in coming, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events for more information.

1:1 Galactic Activation Sessions with Jelelle are available for booking. They are a $55 USD minimum donation for 75-90min and will involve checking in with your parts and Metasoul/Galactic Aspects, helping you reunite with your Star Family, activating your Ascension Chakra vortexes, and much more… email soulfullhearts@gmail.com to book. For more information, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/galacticsessions

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 25 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy receiving whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Your Inner Thanksgiving

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Today is Thanksgiving Day in the US. This day does not have the same energetic impact on me anymore as I am not currently in those grids. BUT, it does bring up a lot of memories and reflections. I know that it is a day for feeling gratitude for all that we have and had. It is good to do that. To have a reminder; to take a breath and just be grateful for it all, even the not-so-good as it can lead us to the healing places where there is more good.

However, there is an authentic gratitude and a false gratitude. One that covers over the truth that parts of us hold about all aspects of our lives from the people we are in relationship to, to our jobs, to our health, or to the circumstances in our life. A part of you may not be so damned thankful. Maybe he/she is frickin’ irritated, hurt, angry, or just plain apathetic to it all. Whatever authentic joy that does exist inside can be neutralized by these parts unless they get a place at the table too.

Yeah. There is a Thanksgiving table inside you. Around it lies all the aspects of you that have all sorts of opinions, truths, reactions, and joys. Your inner child can be relegated to the kid’s table by the parts of you that don’t want to feel certain things from pain to joy. They can be judged and ignored. There is an inner patriarch or matriarch that has it all under control and knows what is best for everyone. There is a protector at the door making damn sure it doesn’t get too out of hand or that no one accidentally slips and tells is like it is. A gatekeeper that is holding the cap on a plethora of metasouls that are popping in and out of consciousness. Wow! This day is full of so many trans-dimensional dynamics! No wonder we just eat like crazy and fall asleep!

I know this is a general and typical representation, but it is a great way to feel what may be happening inside of you on this day and the days to come this holiday season. It is actually the best time to really feel what is real and true inside of you. Making contact with this inner family is the gift that keeps on giving. It leads to the real source of inner peace and gratitude. You get to be the Head of Household and create a new way to celebrate on the inside. Listening, feeling, and holding these parts and making new choices of relationship, vocation, and geography that are more aligned with this healed and more authentic state of being.

To get in touch with these dynamics inside of you that may be creating a lot of stress, anxiety, or depression inside of you this season, all of us at SoulFullHeart are here to hold space and offer a heart-open reflection of the aspects and lives within you. To help bridge to a new world of self-love and self-leadership. I send you much love and blessings on this day and may it be the most real day of them all. That is something to be grateful for.

Painting by K. Amelia Bates

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Life After 11/11/11: Time To Fall And Flow In Love

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Falling in Love is probably one of the most triggering experiences we can have. The feeling is not just related to two individuals but it can also be related to a geography, a vocation, a craft, a community, or a perspective. It also doesn’t have to be outbound. It can also about falling in love with yourself. That one feels like it takes a bit of healing to get to as we are so conditioned to loving Other rather than Self.

I feel as if these current codes coming at, in, and through us are advocating for us to fall in love. Just fall. Surrender. Risk, Explore. When we truly “fall”, we are letting go of all that we have been conditioned and taught what Love is supposed to be. We are also confronting all that we have experienced love to be or not be and how we have been hurt by it.

But this fall is not just a reckless abandon. It is a moment-by-moment feeling through. Not so much managed but rather lived into with an open and transparent heart. Connecting with all parts of you that are in fear and joy both. Or fear of joy for that matter. The deepest fear can be of losing it all, being rejected, or losing yourself altogether in oblivion.

I write this as I continue to check in with myself and my emotional body. Doing a spiral scan that is seeking deeper ground with my heart and soul. I can feel the edges of my next steps both in regards to outer leadership, romantic relationship, and deep self-love. I feel the part of me, my Gatekeeper/Protector, that is so very much confused and uncertain about this “falling”. It feels existential and alive at the same moment. Like standing at the edge of a giant orgasm that could swallow you whole. Fear and ecstasy both. What does it truly mean to “fall in love”, especially with yourself that gets to overflow into and for others?

This is beyond egotistical selfish vanity. This is a deep meeting of yourself in a way that is like meeting your favorite star, heartthrob, soulmate, and guru all in one package…and its YOU! What the hell? It is also surrounding yourself with those that see that very thing and honor it deeply as they honor themselves. You are doing “work” that can only be described as “Love In Action”. This feels like daily life in 5D. It is moving from Falling In Love to Flowing With Love. Yum….

But it takes some deep healing and inner work to get there. It is why we are here. It is part of our DNA to do this work (more on that later). What does falling/flowing in love look and feel like to you? Where does it get constricted by fear and doubt? How can we get to a place where the greatest love of all is truly inside of us? Feel all the parts of you that need love and that is a good place to start.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.