Category: Awakening Process

Your Essence And Inner Love Sanctuary

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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There is a sanctuary inside of you. There is an essence there that cannot be lost. There is a treasure of heart, that has been protected for so long, by a part of you that feels this is the only way to ‘get through’ life. This can express as transcendence, as much as it can express as bitterness and withdraw. The sanctuary that holds the glowing orb of precious love-essence is a peaceful and aerated place, yet no-place… unless the inner protection has built a fortress around it, keeping it within confines of hard walls and impermeable energy structures too, giving it a ‘place’ instead of letting it flow and move throughout your being.

Structures of constructed ideas of ‘this is what love is’ have taken over like thorny vines. Love has become something different than what it is as it lives and breathes inside of you and inside of your life. Protection has taken over in different ways and forms… your Inner Protector has forgotten that real love needs no walls to hold it or keep it from harm. It is meant to flow, to illuminate, to permeate, to aerate. It is here to not be held down, but to move up and take us with it.

Your inner sanctuary is accessed through the portal of your heart, beyond yet with the mind as it needs and wants to be present, until that time when it can rest. It is there and you are getting closer to it, finding ways to dwell within it and be in life and the world too. It is a place of being and stillness. It is there, always, and the more you feel your parts that are afraid of it, afraid of its power, or afraid harm will come to it, the more access you will have to it in every moment. ❤

This Sunday Oct. 29, there will be a live stream hosted by Raphael and Jelelle Awen on Facebook and Youtube! Hope to have you join us… https://www.facebook.com/events/207249746478167

If you are curious to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and process, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess for more information and to feel into having a free 30min intro call.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Wounded Masculine And Arising Feminine Energies Coming UP For Healing And Revealing

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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There seem to be many themes running in the moment for us to see and BE with as we continue our ascension journey into embodiment of our sacred humanity…not NEW themes, yet more like another cycle around the bend into a deeper level and strata of healing and feeling. One theme is that the wounded masculine frequencies that have formed the foundational energy to fuel our 3D culture are being exposed and disclosed…to be seen, felt, come into the light. They have seemed so powerful, yet, are now running on fumes as the old paradigm structures start to collapse to begin transition into the new. The wounded masculine runs on compensational behaviors to cover over core feelings of unworthiness and core disconnect/separation. It operates on lack of vulnerability and lack of transparency using diversion and distraction strategies. You can feel and see this in the exposure happening now of false kings in the entertainment industry, government, banking, etc. how they are now being dethroned as their wound-based actions toward the feminine are revealed.

It can be tempting to lash out at this wounded masculine as it is exposed….to feel bitter and resentful, to turn on it. Yet, this outward outrage actually stems from inside and only feeds the fires that can hurt and burn. Going within to feel deep compassion for the wounded masculine WITHIN us is a key aspect to moving through this disclosure process with love. To feel how parts of us have felt like both perpetuator AND victim this life and in other lifetimes too. Not going to battle AGAINST these energies, yet seeing and feeling how, underneath it all, they are just seeking and want love. Being open to the recognition that these energies live inside of us and seem to express as our Inner Protector aspects, plus Inner Punisher and Inner Mother/Matriarch or Inner Father/Patriarch can help huge with this holding and response.

After many years of working with different parts of myself and with others, these are the energy tones that I feel most represent the wounded masculine as conditioned and formed into our 3D self. Working with these masculine energies is what allows the feminine to arise in an authentic way, freed finally from the warrior and overly masculine tones that are NOT hers to hold and energize. As the Inner Protector lets go of its stance of protection through inner negotiation, the feminine (in both men and women) can come into BEing as the seed of her expression receives the water of self love and love with Divine Feminine guides/aspects such as Magdalena, Mother Mary, Kuan Yin. Directly connecting with these aspects through journaling, guided meditation, and ‘dropping into ‘their energy during sessions is what we offer through our SoulFullHeart process. And, then we feel and explore this on the 4D level as the wounded masculine expresses in our Metasoul line/other lifetimes and archetypal frequencies too. More information here about our process for navigating this: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

There is a deep connection in this collective wounded masculine disclosure process with the dissolving of the 3D matrix created out a fear-based (yet previously necessary for growth) collaboration between us on the soul level and some Reptilians/Archons/Anunnaki. Their wounded masculine-based timeline of dominance and suppression ‘over’ us is collapsing as more of them choose love over fear. The implants and hookups that we previously needed in our soul fields/chakras are loosening or dissolving as this choice point happens. I have written many times about the choice points they are being offered as a species on soulfullheartblog.com….relocation to a beautiful, tropical environment planet as they choose redemption and rehabilitation. It seems to be important to support this process by letting go of fear-based and polarized energies against them…this becomes yet another battle ground otherwise (that actually, again, stems from within). Connecting with your inner Reptilian aspect (which can form another layer of Inner Protector) allows for the flow of compassion and to act as ambassador to their choice points toward love with your support.

If you are in a relationship, you may be feeling the stirrings and churnings of this wounded masculine/arising feminine within your relationship. This can lead to more conflicts, disillusionment, and even desires for completion of even long-term relationships. The gaps in your transactability are revealed as what has been able to be covered over can not be anymore. If you have been awakening and your partner has not, resentment from parts of you may be growing around this and, also, authentic desire for more soul resonance, vulnerability, and to service love together (which is ultimately the reason for being in relationship at the higher soul level.) These frequencies of wounded masculine as they live inside of us and are being moved in the collective also play out in our relationships, impacting how we experience our partners, what parts of us are related with each other, and what we project onto them.  Becoming conscious of your own parts allows you to navigate the relationship in a very different way with a new level of consciousness and emotional maturity in responding to your partner.

As the wounded masculine continues to transmute and transform into a higher vibrational frequency of sacred masculinity, the possibilities for balance and union between the masculine and feminine become revealed to us. We discover and BEcome this from within and we can then offer this to a world that desperately needs it as it transitions from polarized and fear-based expressions of gender into NEW expressions of a conscious duality dance based in LOVE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

The Law Of Attraction: Being, Healing, Receiving

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Yesterday, I was sweetly asked by someone to share my thoughts on the Law of Attraction, based on a Facebook post I reshared from last year. The original post was a very short letter to the Universe, declaring only a couple of things I really, really wanted… one of them was a new laptop, the other a new cellphone and the third was a sacred union romance. I haven’t typically been someone to create vision boards or set goals or even write letters such as this one. I remember that when I wrote it, I was riding high on an influx of energy from having spent quality time with beloveds the day before. We in SoulFullHeart love to feel and talk about our desires and to feel the possibilities alive in them, though of course we also feel the trailing edge reality around this for parts of us who are fearful or anxious about ‘not getting what they want’.

When I reshared this year-old post, I did so to celebrate that these three desires actually DID come true. It was very sweet to feel this for several reasons, one being that for most people who earn much money, buying something like a new laptop or phone wouldn’t take them a whole year to manifest. In fact, the way so many still live is for instant gratification, trying to satisfy needs, wants and desires as soon as possible, so that the journey to actually living these desires out is as short as possible. It becomes a medication for the parts who actually feel that nothing will ever be enough for them, especially when what they really want underneath the desire for ‘things’ is love… the second reason is what this post proved to a part of me that doesn’t always trust in the Universe or the Divine or even me as the one who is holding and feeling her. Yes, it may have taken about a year to see these desires to fruition in my life, yet they did arrive and the work to bring them in happened both intentionally and unintentionally, meaning that without being directly dedicated to ‘finding’ or ‘accomplishing’, I focused my work within, as I always do. There isn’t anything we can truly control when it comes to getting what we most deeply want. Money, it feels like, can offer the 3D self a false sense of control, as do books and practices like ‘The Secret’. It really isn’t up to you to manifest what you feel you want most in your life. And it isn’t the fault of parts of you if it hasn’t manifested yet, either. So much of this is simply not up to us, and that is VERY humbling to let in…

When I went into meditation with Kuan Yin this morning, I asked her to feel the Law of Attraction with me. She had me feel my mind and my heart, both. I realized that my mind focuses on logistics and doesn’t FEEL the desire so much as thinks long and hard about how to ‘make’ it happen and all of the obstacles or problems that may ‘get in the way’, including money, of course. My heart, however, feels the desires, feels the possibilities, and gets lit up by them or doesn’t. I feel it’s the ‘lit up’ feeling within, that sends out beacons of possibility and draw and also gives the sense of what is most deeply desired, versus what is only a whim or vague possibility. The energy we hold around all possibility is a big part of drawing it to us… do parts of us or Metasoul aspects feel despair about wanting a sacred union romance? Do they feel as if they will never get what they want in a material or emotional way? Are they trying to transcend these trailing edge feelings and wanting to only feel that it’s possible? We draw mixed experiences to us as needed, to help us see and feel these parts more and more.

Perhaps it’s a matter of ‘gestation’ rather than ‘manifestation’, as Kuan Yin offered to me that ‘being’ your way and feeling your way to your desires is really the only path to bringing them in, at least when it comes to the deeper ones. Drawing in a sacred union romance is about BEing, giving space to parts of you, healing your way to it. Finding yourself a new cellphone or laptop can feel just as magical as letting in a romance if the time is taken to be and feel your way there and not necessarily ‘take action’ or ‘set goals’. The same could be set for weight loss or money-earning. There is so much to be and be with as we become… as we continue to shift inside of ourselves through the inner excavation process of deep feeling that we offer in SoulFullHeart.  As we do so, the steps unfold and alignment happens in an organic, flowing, flowering way, especially in these days of ramped-up Ascension energies, where this is becoming the reality more and more easily as our energies continue to move upward.

Attracting or drawing what we most want, begins with feeling the wants, working our way to feeling what’s real about them and what deeper desires could be underneath them, helping us detach from the outcome in humble surrender. We are brilliant co-creators as arising sacred humans, work consciously and unconsciously in tandem with energies in the multi-verse inside and outside of us, and those around us who fill us up with love while we offer and BE the same to and with them. If it’s really about love underneath it all, then love is what needs to be present in our hearts, in an ever-deepening way through our healing, in order to truly reach those heights of BEing that we feel called to bring in, in whatever form or fabric that takes in our unfolding 3D-5D reality consciousness. ❤

If you wish to learn more about the SoulFullHeart process, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess for more information.

Also, THIS coming Sunday, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be hosting a live stream on Facebook and Youtube! Check it out, starting at 11:11am CST (Mexico City).

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

INtegration Codes Through Sunlight; Chakras Changing Form And Shape

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By Jelelle Awen

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Grateful for these codes through the sun this afternoon as captured in this photo taken here in Puerto Vallarta….and the breeze, birds, finally cool enough temperatures to take in the sun again at the beach. Codes through sunlight, to me, are information, yet, also, they offer an INtegration of all these upgrades we are receiving through the ascension process. SO MUCH that our minds can’t track, yet IS happening in all moments it seems and gaining momentum too.

Feeling through energy can help, checking in with your energy body….not even tracking individual chakras as much as the swirls and twirls of vortexs that we are becoming as we move into more 5D ‘violetprint’ expression. I was offering energy healing to Kalayna and Gabriel in our group this morning and I was marveling at how the chakras are changing SO much. After many years, I no longer see funnels over the seven main areas…..there are now swirls of energy with multiple timeline overlaps coming up AND sacred geometric shapes showing up where chakras used to originate from (especially at the crown or ‘seventh’). There are portals too, some opened consciously through the Metasoul aspect connection process that we engage with in SoulFullHeart and some opened by guides.

We connected to yin strength and power today….creating a column of yin through the laying of rose quartz stones (Mother Mary stones, I call them) down the middle of Kalayna’s body with Raianna at her feet giving energy (first time for Raianna to give energy and she WAS amazing, a total natural, no need for expensive energy attunements in my experience). I moved UP the energy coming in through this yin column and we ALL felt how new it is….we don’t really know as a collective what feminine power is that hasn’t been masculinized, isn’t coming from warrior or battle energy, that isn’t either a push away OR a fusion to masculine energy in some way. I am feeling this new feminine coming through in myself and those of us engaging in the SoulFullHeart process to feel and heal the masculine aspects of ourselves, so then the authentic feminine can arise and be revealed. It is so much about what it ISN’T until finally it can show what it is. It feels as soft and vulnerable as roses yet SO strong too.

It seems to help with the adjustments for the physical and emotional body if you are engaged in serving love with others and WITH yourself…..if you are consciously connecting with what is going on inside of yourself and asking your guides for help, your story, your why, too.

There is so much NOT to know right now with all this….to just feel, to just BE with, to just trust that love is moving it through.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Veils Thinning For Multidimensional Access; Personal Impact Of Collective Disclosure Process

Published on by Jelelle Awen3 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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The veils between dimensions have felt so thin lately, in the last few days especially. This thinning out by amped UP frequencies of light creates a sense of ‘being here and NOT here’ (best way I have come to describe it). The bleed through of Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes is strong right now too, if you are tuned into that. It can feel like you are walking around your life with the other lifetime energies suddenly super imposed in front of it.

Maybe you are standing at the kitchen counter and you suddenly see the bright glistening waters of Atlantis or Lemuria in front of you or you are in the light filled corridors of the spaceship with your Arcturian Metasoul aspect. You are in the ‘scene’ then of these other lifetimes with the aspects from your same Metasoul source that are living it out in the now….not ‘past lives’ at all, yet energizing now as their timelines merge in with yours. This can be an intense experience and is one of the ways that the personal disclosure process is ramping up, preparing us for eventual, everyday connection with star BEings. What has previously only been accessed by past life regression hypnosis states or near death experiences or taking ayahuasca or peyote is coming into our consciousness without any of these being necessary as we just tap into these realities as our vibrational frequency rises.

Along with this veil thinning, there is a feeling of ‘building up to something’ in the collective disclosure process. It may feel like a slow process, unrolling and unraveling at a less rapid pace then some souls may like or want. It feels like a leaking out of information, stories, revelations, rather than a one time BIG gush or flow. However, it feels like (at the soul level) it is being done with so much compassion and consideration for the collective and at a rate and pace that our consciousness can handle. For those souls very attached and connected to (still ‘fused’ to) 3D life and their 3D selves, the disclosure of the previously invisible and hidden shadow energies in the government, entertainment industry, suppression of star BEing connection and technologies, etc. will be difficult to digest….truly shocking and very upsetting. It will literally feel like the ‘end of the world’ for them as it is the collapse of the world that their 3D self has known and found beloved.

Even if you have long been aware of disclosure, been on your own awakening path….you may feel this shock and upset too rumble through you as it does in the collective too. Rather than staying in a ‘cave’ and remaining at high vibe ALL the time, I feel that those of us who are called to serve love are meant to bridge for and to the newly awakened. The main way we ARE this bridge is by being open to feel what there is to feel in reaction to what is happening for the collective. To feel compassion for others even as we offer heartlines and lifelines to navigate through and out of the fear-based fray.  To feel how we have aspects of ourselves that are connected to the 3D world and NEED us, no matter how high up we may see and feel reality. If we were truly meant to JUST be at high frequencies all the time, we would not have chosen to serve love and to be here in a human body with Gaia at this time of such intense transition and change.

The collective has an emotional body too…I like to feel it this way even more than that there is a ‘collective consciousness’, which also feels real, yet ‘collective emotional body’ has a more visceral, relatable sense to it. We are ALL connected to the collective emotional body; we are ALL impacted by it. We feel what the collective feels. The degree and depth that you can feel this depends on how awakened you are to your own emotional body and your Metasoul expressions that hold unity consciousness/one mind frequencies. You may have pushed away from feeling the collective as you differentiated 3D from 4D, as you left the ‘mainstream’ to find your own soul stream. It is not about going ‘backwards’ in your consciousness here, yet about being open and responsive to what remains inside of you that is triggered by the ongoing collective experience of disclosure and ascension. Remaining open in this way to your own process allows you to be truly compassionate in response to what is happening for others.

As I offered in a previous writing about this, you are invited to connect YOUR own personal disclosure process with the collective one. Your disclosure process is the revealing to heal of shadow; the exposing of toxic patterns that harm you and cap your soul bigness expression; the identification and eventual integration of 3D aspects such as your Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Child. Disclosing what still exists in your emotional body (and soul) that anchors you to 3D reality, then connecting with it in a conscious way. We offer in our SoulFullHeart process a way to do that through direct access to these parts (blocked energies really) that are still anchored to your 3D reality, then we journey with you into the 4D self/multidimensional aspects and bridge connect to your Metasoul too. You can read more about that process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

The veils are thinning to allow a higher vibrational consciousness into your field, so you can remember and eventually kNOW again your own multidimensional, galactic, and Divine self. So, that we all can potentially kNOW this again. Experiencing this essence while in the human body seems to be a new phase/step for us, as previously we could only access these states while out of the body. Added onto this is the invitation for the collective to come along in this ascension process, each soul choosing for themselves what means growth for them. It is the ongoing process of BEcoming and arising into sacred humanity, together discovering what this means in lived out form…..as a collective AND as individual soul sparks too.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Showing Up For Life

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By Raphael Awen

In too much stability, we long for change and surprise. In too much instability, we look for handrails and some steadying support.

Underneath both is a deeper fear of harm or loss, just by different means.

Our souls and our creative powers will create both times of deep upheaval as well as times where no change is in sight. Both are needed in this journey through duality and time that we chose and created.

It’s kind of like trying a scary sport or travel to a foreign country. You want the thrill and the adventure, the pushing out of the comfort zone, just not too far. Each of us has a different ‘too far’, but we all have one. That too far is about our fear of losing being, our fear losing access to love.

Very few of us though have gotten anywhere close to feeling this naked fear face to face, though it lives in every one of us. This fear is one of our most common denominators of what it means to be human, maybe even ‘the’ most.

But we settle for lesser fears as placeholders in our consciousness as a way to avoid confronting this dragon. Fears about money, health, social connection all make really good distractions that leave us in an uncomfortable comfort zone, not too hot, but not too cold. It works for us while it does, even impressively so, until it simply runs its sacred course, until we have garnered the courage to let go of this familiar family of lesser fears, to re-enter life with less conditions, being born again, as it were, into entirely new vulnerabilities.

To come to feel that the content of our conscious anxieties, and what gets us out of bed in the mornings, is being driven by something deeper and unconscious is not a welcome thought, or even a likely thought during the phase of our happy well adjusted functionality and having it all together or even somewhat together. It is only when and as this phase is coming to a close and we feel that something deeper in our unconscious has us on an autopilot mode, albeit a loving one, but a mode nonetheless that we will need to get to know and feel or we will be left in a deep disconnect….as we are losing and mourning our previous way of being in life, our previous way of relating to life, the previous gas in our tank is evaporating.

What greater gift could life give you, but deepening connection with coming home to your own heart? Your days of paying rent or a mortgage on a home you don’t fully own are coming to a close. This is your home in the universe, and you’ve earned it, and no one and no thing can take it from you, as this deed of self-love is not subject to any kind of theft or deterioration. This is the true treasure stored up in heaven that our god pursuits were in search of. We wanted and needed a secure enough setting within which we could feel and heal this dragon of our deeper fears at the core of our being, a gymnasium designed to exorcise, feel and heal fear, an auditorium in which our primal screams could be heard and land in open and healed hearts.

All of our current and intermingled dramas have led us to this epic point of the story, that we are nothing but love, but we needed the journey of being convinced otherwise and then re-awakening to what we always were, never actually lost; as a way to activate a deeper reality of this love that we are, now awakened through both the dual and the non-dual, through the sorrow of loss and the joy of rediscovery.

Your life, as crazy as it may feel at times, is a super intelligent life, finding its own way, taking its own unimaginable risks as it knows it possesses stuff it can never lose, no matter how hard it may seem to try.

You can’t actually escape love. It is what you are. You just needed to come to terms with it. Being love is not the same as being in a relationship with love. It’s the relationship that is unfolding now… that life is asking now to show up for.

This is what has really got you out of bed this morning…for both the life you currently know and the one that lives in your dreams!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Canary In The Heartmine: The Deeper Messages Of Our Physical Pain

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Physical pain has persisted for me over the past 3 weeks starting with a throat infection for a week and then neck and back muscle tension for the last two. It has brought me into a lower frequency that has been hard at times for me to try and find space around and to get in touch with as it holds many messages for me. The timing of such pain is always notable and important to feel into. Deep sacred romance opens up new deep well oil reserves of fear around the protection of the heart and what Love is truly asking us to surrender and show up for, both. This oil can arise in many forms and physical symptoms are one of them.

How we relate to the pain can block or aid in the love flow. I have felt how the pain has brought down my frequency and has sent me into deeper slides of unworth and inadequacy. Without feeling the higher frequency within us to hold a broader loving context, the harder it is to feel like you are not stuck in quicksand. Sometimes it is just surrendering to what the pain is needing from us that can see us through to the other side. I “have” pain, as opposed to I “am” pain. Big distinction.

So the pain is reflecting the fear from a part of me in response to Love. Not just with a beautiful heart and soul, but with Love itself. You cannot be in a sacred romance without also being in relationship to the greater Love That Is. It highlights all the wounds and also waters what is growing inside of you. What it is inviting you to show up for on a grander scale. This is the call that leads you to more vulnerability and not less. More transparency and less hiding. More responsivity and less passivity.

I am being told that my old ways of relating to myself and the world are drawing to a close and it is time to clear the old to make way for the new. This clearing isn’t always pain free yet doesn’t have to be torture either. Our souls have different ways of reacting and mine has tended to be on the more dramatic side. Time to uncheck those boxes for it is no longer needed or desired anymore, but I needed it until I decided I didn’t need it anymore.

The pain is the proverbial “canary in the coalmine”. It is our messenger of what is dying and what is arising if we can get above it with patience, surrender, and deep self-love and care. We are truly the creators of the pain. It is so hard to get our 3D conditioning to move out of the way enough to be able to let that reality in. Our 3D self has been in the Paintrix for so long it really doesn’t know that anything else is possible. It is a way to avoid the real emotive and soul pain that lies deep within that is just seeking the light of our compassion.

I could feel my heart going out to those with severe chronic pain issues. It is not a pleasant place to exist.  To be able to feel the hidden and fearful parts of you that may be seeking to be felt even as they appear resistant, can lead to much healing and understanding of the gift it was always meant to offer as opposed to a dagger.  Love is the hospital, you are the heart surgeon, and your pained parts are the patients. Time to go in and see what they need from you.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Needing To Be Needed VS Wanting To Be Wanted

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By Raianna Shai

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In some ways, it’s a lot easier to be needed than to be wanted. Parts of us even need to be needed, finding self worth in having a job or role to play. This way, you don’t have to involve your own needs or wants into the situation, creating the least amount of tension possible. The recipients of the caretaking in this scenario have some lack going on inside themselves as well. If a friend needs you to hold the space for them to air out their feelings and “solve” their problems, then there’s probably very little space in them that’s able to hold it themselves. There’s nothing wrong with this, it’s just what most of us have been conditioned to do, look to the outside in order to heal what’s going on within. But in the grander scheme of things, how can anyone heal from the outside what’s felt most strongly on the inside?

So, the people and parts that choose to be the ones to focus on “fixing” others end up feeling like their needs are getting met because everyone else is happy. For myself, a part of me loves listening to everyone’s pain and trying to sort through it in order to help them. That way, this part did its “duty” of being a kind person and remaining in good graces with the other. And at an even deeper level, felt like it didn’t have to address the issues going on inside me. I would spend so much energy with this part feeling how to help the other person that there would be no room left for me – or this part!

Recently in session I felt into the idea of being wanted instead of needed. I wanted to feel why it scared this part of me so much. What I came to is that being wanted is vulnerable. Asking the question – does this person want me? – is even more vulnerable. The pain of realizing that the answer could be no is so much to bear that this part of me kept me at a very surface level with everyone so that I didn’t have to feel it. And I felt the deeper pain from this part of not being wanted by me – therefore projecting that out onto others. I remained a nice and smart person and couldn’t let anyone see any deeper than that, securing my identity through those two adjectives. Because if I’m nice and smart enough to be liked and needed, then why ruin that?

When you shift the tables on these parts of you and energize that you want them, not that you need them, an interesting reaction can take place. This part of me felt overwhelmed that he could have his own needs, and not fade into the background. That I want the mess, the contention when necessary for growth, the depth, the gifts, everything that comes with feeling this part as an individual entity, not as a role to play for others. Releasing the hold on this identity and role creates a lot of fear around who you actually are, behind all of the masks.

Asking yourself, am I wanted?, is both terrifying and illuminating. It can also be empowering, to realize your worth and decide that you want more. That you no longer want a relationship that thrives off of the skeletal outline of the bigness you actually are. When you choose to only be wanted and healthily needed, you draw so much more of this. More of what you want and need, more of what you deserve. We all deserve to be felt, to let in and to give love, to know each other’s deepest pains and biggest heart desires, so long as we ask for it and feel the pain that goes along with any possible outcome.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, retreats, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

All Reality Is Made Up

Published on by Raphael Awen5 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

‘You can make anything out of anything.’

These words come to me this morning and my curiosity asks for more as I feel a download from my higher self wanting to come through:

‘Any created thing created in any dimension contains within it an energetic blueprint of the source materials and technology used to create the thing. It can be back engineered as you say. However, you don’t need to create the thing in the dimension it was created inside of. By that I mean, you can create it from a higher level of consciousness without going through 3D creation processes that you are more familiar with.’

I listen in with a deepening sense of curiosity along with an ache to experience what I’m being given.

‘A woodworker sees something made out of wood that he has never seen before and given his understanding of working wood, he is able to recreate the thing from his place of familiarity. From a higher dimensional place however, everything is made of energy, and everything IS energy, including energy itself.

‘As you become more and more familiar with energy, you can utilize higher dimensional awareness of being as an energy worker to create and fashion with energy, be it the energy of a simple wooden spoon, to something more complex as a computer, to things beyond not yet known in common collective consciousness.’

I’m reminded yesterday as I needed some longer screws to put up some shelves, how cool it would have been to have ‘energy worked’ them into being rather than the more familiar trip to the hardware store to purchase the ones created and made through 3D channels. My guidance continues:

‘The reverence you have for 3D means and methods is what makes them feel real to you and this is how you have gone on to assimilate them into an unquestioned view of reality. But this ‘is what it is’ is what it is because it was caused into being in a stunning movement of energy creation, albeit one that has been normalized into normal waking consciousness, which surprisingly puts people to sleep to the underlying energetic and creative nature of reality.

‘Reality as you know it is always made up. You have been conditioned to see reality as something outside of it having been made up, as something outside of creation itself, however everything in every dimension is created and is constantly being re-created.

You have an emotional reluctance however to see and feel this as it feels insecure to feel how fleeting life feels as you are this fleeting and changing life energy. This reluctance energizes a resistance for you of seeing, feeling and participating more consciously in this higher dimensional ability to create and recreate.

‘Now, I will ask you to open your mind a bit more and feel how a woodworker, has many tools and methods for working wood, so an energy worker has many means and methods for working energy. The woodworker intuitively knows grain, pressure, species, soundness, hardness, softness, how the wood responds, how it can and cannot be tooled successfully for the desired purpose, and with what tools. In short, he or she learns the will of the wood, and feels what it is wanting to become. It can be reverently done as a one of a kind piece created by a master and it can be irreverently mass produced and monetized in a factory, (but at a significant loss of quality and corresponding imputed value).

‘So it is with an energy worker. He or she is introduced to the world of energy and begins to gain some of his or her very first and initial insights into energy the same way a baby picks up and waves a stick, not yet knowing anything by name, but only by its energy. From there, new insights and familiarities are then also normalized into ‘reality’ that wasn’t there before. The stick hurts when used to hit or poke…ouch, noted. That can be a helpful thing or not so helpful…noted.

Energy is the upstream nature of all reality. And love is the upstream nature of all energy. Both love and energy are responsive to love and energy and in this way can be worked, but only when it is seen, noted and revered for what it is, to know and feel it’s deeper why and will.

‘You are nearing a time when great advancements that have been held back from collective consciousness will be revealed. Understanding and feeling what I shared with you above will greatly aid you and others to assimilate your own adaptation and participation into this new and infinite dimension of creation.

‘Love itself wants to take you on a grand tour of stunning discovery and almost more excitement that you can bear, but only if it’s not an imposition on your creative will. Your choice and curiosity are the energy that enrolls you into this university’s kindergarten of never ending discovery.’

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Entering The Loops Of Core Wounds

Published on by Kasha Rosa3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

core wounding

Core wounds play within us like looping lyrics to a song which you can’t remember what it’s called, but you really wish you could… it’s an unfolding mystery, wrapped in clues of layers of reaction and tears too as you make space for the parts that have been holding on to so much, for so long.

Sometimes these lyrical loops last for years and years, sometimes even lifetime within lifetime too. The same messages, the same patterns, are highlighted for us over and over again by parts within us – some that want to keep paving it over and some that want to be felt for the reasons why they’ve been holding this loop in place… and why they find it so hard to let it go.

It takes very specific life circumstances, a certain amount of love surrounding us and flowing within from us to us, for these loops to become more apparent, amplified, even to the point where you feel as if you are going completely crazy or that there really won’t ever be another side to the endless abyss of it all. This is often when we enter the darkest forest of our lives, the Dark Night, yet also the most brilliantly dawning Bright Day approaching. So many identity fragments coming apart at the seams, so much that has been buried deep within, now comes up and out, all held blessedly in Divine Love. These are the times when your closest possible relationship with the Divine can come in and be with you… when new awakenings arise, letting the purest frequencies of love in, so pure that the mind cannot track it, as it’s not something experienced in 3D life.

The bruises at the core of your heart… these are being touched now, as much as parts of you are ready to let in, even when they don’t think they’re all that ready to do so. Life finds a way to be a conduit for this healing, bringing you healing paths that could help you go into it, either by bringing the wounding more forward through taking in abuse from false or unhumbled healers, or by taking in pure love frequencies that can flow to you through the hearts of healers and leaders that are doing the same work they are leading you to do. Either way, there is an opportunity for deep empowerment and letting in of YOU, of the you that wants to birth into and through your heart, providing a balm for all that has been painful and hard within… the cycles of inner punishment, inner belittling, inner bullying, inner battles, that want to come to new conclusions or inconclusions, and a letting in of the wonder of life, the wonder of the world, the wonder of YOU.

Step by step, layer by layer, Divine invitation by Divine invitation, you can and will find your way in deeper… whether this completes for you in this life cycle or in another one to be realized. ❤

 

The work we do and offer in SoulFullHeart, reaches into these hard-to-feel and often hard-to-really-see places inside of us and inside of you. There is so much we can illuminate together through session space and other offerings as well. To learn more about the SoulFullHeart healing process and the 30 min free intro we offer, please visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.