Tiredness Feelings As We Choose To Lead Love

By Jelelle Awen

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I’ll admit that I feel tired in this moment. I feel tired from this transition into the new for which it seems in moments SO many souls are still in the old. I feel tired from creating bubbles ‘around me’ in so many moments and ways as I try to bring my high vibe frequency to environments and others that block, distract, and resist them. I feel a tiredness from almost 15 years of seeing, being, and feeling reality so differently from mainstream consciousness, especially from the parts perspective which many souls cannot seem to let in or accept even as it offers SO MUCH healing and transformation. I am sharing this tiredness with you in this moment as I imagine you can resonate with this feeling on some level and I do feel it is being pushed UP in those of us in the lead here so that we can feel it and just BE with it.

For those of us who have chosen this transition, time in this now, and especially to lead and show the way through it….. there is an inherent weariness in the momentum it takes, the inner push that still has trust and grace…the ENERGY we need to tap into in order to lead AGAINST so much opposition without going to battle. Rather than pushing against or fighting or contending, it is so NEW to be inviting with love and to be vulnerable in that invitation…..over and over and over again and feeling it land in some hearts and not others….mostly NOT others, yet the numbers are growing slowly it seems.

It is easy to go to battle actually as this we have known as a species and is our comfortable legacy unfortunately of this current timeline. It is easier to go to rage, to tap into the OUTrage in the collective consciousness and push it out at others, compare and contrast to others, put others down, and judge without love too…I feel many doing this, even and especially those in the current lead. Or to go to the mind and to analyze and dismiss or transcend feelings and being vulnerable and just focus on the cosmic aspects of ascension. Ah, yet, it is so understandable and I feel vast compassion for us from the Universe, our higher self, guides/aspects, star BEings as we sort this all through!

Over and over, I’ve received the message from these ‘higher’ sources….. “We are so in awe of you and your species and what you are doing and being right now! This is SO challenging what you are bringing and showing and feeling in the face of so much oppositional energy. There is so much to heal, so much to face, so much to BE with. Your tears and your fears are sacred and precious and we ADMIRE them greatly! Do not feel less than us or compare to us. We are here to inspire you, yes, and serve you to arise. Yet, we are LEARNING from you with great curiosity in our hearts around how you will walk this out. And, we are here always for you when you need us!”

Sharing this message with you in this moment is providing a rush of love inside of me and the tiredness inside and the parts of me that are tired. I feel more rest coming in as I DO feel the support that is there for me and for us all. I feel the trust that lives inside of me from so long being challenged and challenging myself and getting the response of love every time.

I choose love. I choose love in this now. I choose to share and BE even as I am real about what is going for me in my emotional body and soul in the moment. I choose the HONOR of leading myself in this way and for those souls who feel a resonance with this and me, I feel grateful for your coming along on this journey with me. I choose my heart and the healing and feeling of it above all else as its energy is what leads into the unknown and holds the other frequencies that need its attention and care.

I feel the energies that are here to support this choosing of love and have been ramping up for many years, especially in the last months. The choice of love is becoming more visceral, acute, and real for so many more and I feel the possibilities that this opens up every day!

I choose love…..how about you?

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
Join us for a dynamic and heart opening group this saturday where we feel into what it feels like to be in the ascension process and share around that from our hearts: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A ReLOVEution To End Inner Violence And Violence-Based Choices

by Kalayna Colibri

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“These violent delights have violent ends  

And in their triumph die”

– Romeo and Juliet, ActII, Scene VI

 

Our suffering so often comes from violent choices.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to bury themselves, to bury their pain, covering it up, numbing it out, putting makeup on it, pretending it either doesn’t exist, or in some cases hiding it in plain sight through sabotage of this relationship or that job or through self-harm in the form of addiction of any kind.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to see the world as personally oppressive, racking up reason after reason, building a case for their victimhood, making it inevitable that an intense push-away always becomes necessary and the world feels like ‘us’ against ‘them’. As we assuage the battles within, there ARE times sometimes when we receive violence and abuse or aggression from others and DO need to advocate, to turn away, to all-out walk away from what needs to collapse for the sake of our self-worth and also at times our survival. Sometimes this has a violent playout and fallout. If this situation lasts, there is likely some deeper violence still happening within, because this relationship on the outside represents a battle raging on the inside. It is a climate that your parts have gotten used to… and have not learned how to be or even imagined how to be anything different towards each other.

Violence is chosen when parts of us hold rigidly onto ways of seeing and feeling others. In some cases, parts don’t want to feel others’ perspectives, or, would prefer to feign compassion rather than be in the process that allows them to feel genuine compassion for the first time. This serves as a numbing of the self. It is a focus on keeping the victim inside alive and pushing away the budding King or Queen of heart and soul. It is also violent when we try to press our point of view on another who isn’t ready or doesn’t want to take it in. It is violent too, to use aggressive energy behind our words and point of view. These examples are another way to become numb to the needs of others and the ways in which they need to walk out what they are walking out, without name-calling or unfair readouts. This is a hard thing to avoid doing when we have so much tension inside from us to us and part to part… this does move over time though and is so important to keep feeling as it comes up.

Violence is chosen by choosing to eat foods that are violent to the planet and/or to our bodies. I don’t offer this as a piece to feel shame over, but rather something to just feel into. It does feel important to let this in and to make new choices, feeling the parts of you that have resistance to this along the way, so that they can come with you and not feel as if THEY are experiencing violence against THEM, as this dynamic can happen too…

Violence and revenge in different forms have become a strong underpinning in our cultures worldwide. It is a way to see war as an option, protests as the only means of revolution, and aggressive, ambitious efforts the only way to be ‘successful’.

A reLOVEution can be and IS so different than this… than even those subtle twinges of wanting to fight fire with fire in some way. There is a way that we can stand up for ourselves through boundaries and vulnerability that doesn’t need to result in withholding love in any way. We can find a way to teach ourselves new ways of being in life and in LOVE without committing any sort of violence, suppression or oppression inside.

This is as much an ongoing process for me as it likely is for you too. I have had many years inside of a process of peeling back the layers of inner violence and battles and even recently have felt a Metasoul aspect that still lives in the era of Women’s Suffrage in the UK. Really intense timeline, that one. Talk about fighting fire with fire! She and I have been able to feel that there IS an alternative to these violent means of ‘fighting’… feeling how bringing vulnerability is actually the key to deep inner and outer change. She is still being convinced of the truth of this, as she understandably lives in an intense time and hasn’t really seen this in action, but she is trying and that is enough for me to feel something MORE wanting to come and be inside of me and thus from me to others too. I actually feel her helping me write this piece today… it’s helping her digest her reality and new possibilities that are arising for her and for others.

A new, violence-less horizon is calling, wanting to help us end our personal and collective suffering… how deeply you are able to heed this call is a very personal choice and it feels like any healing of this on any level of your being is a fantastic start!

LOVE to you, fellow reLOVEutionary!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Heavenly Energies Invite You To Feel Your Heaven And Hell From Within

By Jelelle Awen

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Heaven is Now. Heaven is within you. It lives in the capacity of your every moment to experience it AS heaven. It lives in the potential to experience yourself AS heaven. It lives in the choice points of love over fear which bring this heaven frequency into your consciousness with your every loving choice.

Feeling what is your heaven and what is NOT and making choices toward your heaven is the process of ascension. The heaven energies are inviting you to this feeling ground place in all your bodies (emotional, spiritual, energy, social, physical). As you let these heavenly energies IN, you are moved into visceral experience of what lives inside you that doesn’t resonate to this heaven. You are face to face and heart to heart with what has been necessarily lower, denser, and needed to put on to fit in with the ‘less than’ heavens all around you.

I live in heaven as now for ALL of my moments. Even those that are painful or difficult are not less than heaven because I bring them into the heaven of my heart and LOVE them as such…..and they move eventually into heaven frequency with that love. My painful or raw feelings (and aspects) don’t ‘bring me into hell’ because I choose to hold space for them and feel them and BE with them as my heavenly self. Because I embrace these energies as beloved parts of myself and honor my emotional body AS deeply as all my other bodies, there is no resistance to BEing with these frequencies. There is no fear in me toward them and so no push away toward them.

Resistance, push away, fear, shut down, numbing, diverting, edgy or angsty without feeling the true vulnerable source underneath of the PAIN is a version of human hell. You create this hell when you don’t bring your heaven essence into feeling it ALL. When parts of you disconnect and block you from being with your own feelings, this is a kind of hell too as you are disconnected from your own heaven source. It doesn’t matter what is going on outside of you related to this heaven or hell sense as it ALL originates from within and is filtered from within.

Many souls could be ‘dropped into’ my life and may find it much less than heaven. Some of the conditions in it may not work for them or parts of them at all or they just cannot let in the love and intimacy frequencies that I experience inside of myself, with my beloved sacred union with Raphael, within community, with others that I serve as teacher/guide. They cannot let in the heaven of it or see or experience it that way because they cannot feel that about themselves.

This happened recently actually with a soul who chose to come here to live near us in community and then could only see and experience it as a ‘living hell’ even as it is OUR heaven. Parts of her could not bridge the gap between the 3D and 4D frequencies from inside and in her emotional body to create and experience a heaven here with others vibrating in higher self love and love with other 5D frequencies. She had to ‘go back home’ to where it felt more comfortable to parts of her, return to frequencies she had become more used to even as her soul and higher self were consciously very unhappy in this ‘hell’. This was a sacred choice for her on her journey and we ‘let her go into it’ even as we hold an open invitation for her (without lowering our own frequencies to ‘save’ her) to resonate and BE with us in the future when/if she is desirous to.

As you find and BE in your heaven within more first, you find that can take that anywhere with you and in any situation that you are in. You draw more heavenly situations and outside reality as you live this more inside and as you make choices related to relationships, geography, soul purpose expression that reflects this heaven inside. If you experience hell or frustration or unhappiness or lack in your outer world, so this is a reflection of this going on in your inner world and esp. sourced in your emotional body.

These heaven energies coming in through this current Lion/Lioness Portal and eclipses is inviting you into your inner heaven. They offer a taste and experience of heaven frequencies. They really are….even as they invite you to feel the hell inside in response to them. This is the aspect of the journey that just IS and what you signed up for as a soul here. Your higher self coming into your body more and more trusts this and kNOWs that it can only come in more as you surrender to this process as you let in more and more of the heavenly love that you already ARE!

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
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Trusting The Ascension Process, Leaning Into The Divine Feminine

By Jelelle Awen
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Trusting the process, trusting yourself, trusting the curiosity that comes up in response to ALL that you are feeling and starting to see and BE. Trusting the arising into the new that wants to rearrange your life WITH love. Trusting the draws and urges that may turn your previous life UPside down.

Trust the process…….This message comes through clearly today as the intense Lion energies seem to be calming down and settling in just a bit….maybe to allow us a breathing in and an exhaling out again before it picks UP again. Always does a Divine grace orchestration seem to modulate the flow of these catalytic energies so that it is at a rate and pace that we (and parts of us!) can bear. These energies are not meant to ‘blow us out’ or ‘take us down’ even if they tumble us a fair bit or bring up hard things to feel and be with. Especially if you are WITH the Divine in the process and surrendering, then you can experience how nothing is being done to you….yet rather with you and with so much care and love FOR you.

I feel something soft, comforting and feminine always there too. She is more mysterious and elusive and you may need to connect to Her consciously to feel Her. So much focus can be given to the masculine activation of this ascension process….the pushing up and the purging and UPgrading. So much trying to understand and locate what is going on. Yet, too, the feminine HOLDS the space for the process and invites us into not knowing. She is the mother that gestates the baby just in Her BEing of stillness. She is the mother allowing you to form and shape and grow while just loving all that you are and forgiving all that you are still too scared yet to be. She is the reminder that you are enough just as you are in this moment while holding all the potential and capacity of what you could someday become.

The feminine also brings you out of the mind, if parts of you have a tendency to go to the lower vibe frequencies of the mental body that want to kNOw, sort out, analyze, prove it all, track it and locate it. I feel that this mental activity is a block to flowing into feeling and the emotional body and to the intuitions of the higher chakras that allow creativity and ‘unexplainable’ experiences. It can block the emotional body awakening that wants to be felt and allowed. This can be a challenge for men, especially, as so much conditioning supports this mental body filtering. The masculine inside of women (the Inner Protector energies) can revert to this too and question what is coming through or spin out in obsessive thinking loops. There seems to be a connection to the Archon and fear-based Reptilian fusion experiment too where unhooking and unplugging from these frequencies can help with letting go of the mind more. ALL of this exploration of mind needs to be held with much love and not ‘against’ the mind energy as that is what allows it (and the parts that use it) to let go.

Trusting the process……..this is leaning into the BIG picture and context of ascension as a collective experience, connected to the sense we are going through this (on varying levels and degrees) as a species moving into our sacred humanity and into embodiment of everything higher in all our bodies…physical, emotional, mental, chakral/spiritual/energetic, social.

This is a surrender to the masculine and the feminine aspects of this process and how ultimately they are seeking balance from within you through expression AS you.

Trusting the process may also be inviting you to seek and ask for support from others as space holders, teacher, waySHOWers, and within community too. This has been crucial to my ongoing, deepening trust in the process….I have needed many space holders, a couple beloved teachers and lived in community for many years too, which I co-lead, teach, facilitate, and offer to others. All of these ‘outside’ resources ultimately reflect you to you and help to deepen trust in yourself for however long or deep these connections go.

Trusting the process, yes,….the moment by moment walking this out and BEing with it too. Allowing change to move you where you need to go next. Most of all, trusting the love that holds it all and YOU!

I have a tender place in my heart for this guided meditation that came through with Mother Mary that offers comfort, soothing energies for all the bodies during the ascension process….many people fall asleep which is so OK as it goes in as it meant to and sometimes the conscious mind has be UNconscious for it to go in!

https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Turbulence Of Ascension

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Turbulence.  That is what it has felt like the last few days, well maybe even weeks.   I have found myself feeling some pretty intense emotional energies that have felt very related to the passing through this gateway.  I have not been much into astrology this life but I am noticing emotional correlations to these particular phases.  I am moving through this which much curiosity and even some fusion to the energies.  A feeling that I have not been totally me.  Thoughts that have brought my vibration down to a gravitational pull.  It is like our consciousness is an airplane and when we have tasted the lighter frequencies of our spiritual essence, the contrast of dipping down into the tumult of our more denser unfelt emotional body can be quite a jarring experience.

Even in the thick of the energy I knew in my core something was happening WITH me and not TO me.  It took some lifting of the control wheel to get to that space.  Getting higher than the turbulence to get some context and space from it.  An influx of mind chatter that felt very rooted in a more programmed way, connected to the Archon or Reptilian brain.  But I can not play victim to that for this energy is an aspect of me on a more soul level.  It is tending to this aspect with love and compassion.  This is what turns the nose up into the higher atmosphere of Love’s expansion.

I could feel how this part of me, so rooted in the mental body matrix, it is having a hard time letting go to what it has been used to in the name of control and fear.  The fear that it will cease to exist and that it is dying.  And really, it is.  It is having to move on to a new place that it can exist in its own vibration for it no longer can do that inside of me, for I am changing, raising.  I am no longer choosing to be brought down anymore.  To be drawn back into the turbulence of a collective and personal purgatory.

It looks like one of those scenes in a movie where someone opens a door and there are thousands of souls woooshing around in a swirl with pained expressions and awful sounds coming from them. It is real. It is out in the aethers. I see it effecting so many people as they are disconnected from it unconsciously. It fuels so much of the painful actions in the world. To be able to have a relationship to it is a gift in which you can foster a new coarse that does not bypass it, but heals it with the light of love and compassion with grounded protection from guides and the experience of those that have been there.

I feel I have been gifted in some ways with going into this “hell” many times as I am to serve as a bridge from there to here.  A part of me used to suffer in it as a curse, but now I am feeling something different.  It is time to show up in a new way as way-shower out of the darkness and heaviness and into the lightness of being that can actually feel unbearable to our more 3D Self.  It is a sacred passageway into a death that moves us from fear consciousness to Pure Love.  From suffering to Joy.  From limitation to infinity.

My heart is with those of you that are experiencing intense times right now.  There is much to be learned and moved into as we mature through this death/rebirth canal.  Each one no more sacred than then next.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Living Out Timelines, Bridging The Gap Of Emotional Immaturity And Soul Bigness (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

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I was in another timeline most of the day yesterday….you may do and BE this more than you consciously realize. I was – on one level – ‘researching’ and exploring into a shift in geography for our community and possibilities around that. It was a ‘future’ timeline in one way yet, also, I could feel, sense, taste, kNOW, what it would be like to live there. I was IN it and living it. Also, I was in the complete unknown related to ‘how’ this would happen even as some pieces of possibility seemed to be coming together.

I spent ‘time’ BEing this and then….I let it go. I have let it go today and maybe it will come back to me or maybe it will go on and unfold. I feel as if I have already lived it out anyway. The old way of manifesting and alchemizing has to do with ‘force of will’ and ‘making things happen’. The old way is dependent on money and often lots of it to fuel the way. The New Earth way is about energies coming together, sharing coming together, resources coming together and the timeline arising because it is meant to in the bigger picture. I am surrendered now to this bigger picture of serving love and find, also, that letting go of any of my own attachments to it WHILE feeling my own desires is a big aspect of this deal now. Also, I am arising into what it means to be a co-leader of a growing community where collective needs ARE, more and more, reflective of my personal needs and desires too.

I can’t put into words how to BE this way around it….this is what has arisen from inside after many years of working with aspects of me that had been conditioned by 3D reality in frequencies of lack, sacrifice, anxiety, tension, over self sufficiency, control. All these frequencies lived inside me and in parts of me and in my metasoul….still do. And the process is to keep feeling them, keep BEing with them, connecting to them in the best way that I know which is through parts work and metasoul aspect work. To BE and allow these energies to flare up and then move out. To let my higher self frequencies to come into this physical body and illuminate the now moment.

The energies really have been so intense it seems the last few days, pressing down in the ways that I’ve described in other writings. This pressing down has created a heaviness in the body and a sense of being ‘very sleepy’ or just ‘out of it’. And, we are ‘out of it’ in terms of 3D reality and it can really be felt during energy flux UP phases like now. This out of it-ness may extend to your emotional body too with the purges and surges of lower frequencies coming up as I described yesterday and even drawing of these fear-based frequencies from others in the form of conflicts, tensions, passive aggressiveness, and even outright attacks. Trust that anything that comes is a mirror for you and not ‘against you’ even if you don’t want it in your field anymore. Trust with love and set boundaries from there that you feel that you need to.

I feel a heartline extending to ALL of us from our higher selves and angelic aspects/guides, who are right there surrounding us and offering help. The degree that you can feel this support and help is related to how ‘fused’ to your lower frequency aspects that you are. This fusion creates a sort of defensive energetic shield that their love can’t penetrate. Allowing control to run or anxiety or rage without holding it and BEing with it can push your support team away from you and even into the ‘other room.’ or even farther away. Bring ALL of you in closer and what you are feeling and your loving guides/aspects can come closer too and HELP you hold it with you. Your higher self and angelic guides/aspects are amazing heart healers and want to help you with this important work of healing the emotional body.

Anchoring into your heart line even as you surrender to the ‘out of it’ reality can allow a flow UP and in and out with what is coming in to support our continual global awakening and your continual awakening too. Allow into your reality the timelines into the new that want to unfurl before you….riding them ‘out’ even as you detach from them. BE with all that is coming UP and coming in and coming out with LOVE as it is offered in so much love!

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I felt inspired to offer a video today as a digestion of these ‘megamonth’ energies of this August (already!) and how these frequencies offer a connection and bridge to your emotional body and realignments on all levels, to fill in ‘missing gaps’ in emotional maturation….. Offering much love to you and with you during this intense time of transition into BEcoming our sacred humanity..higher self with our higher heart in our higher/light body….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Responding With Compassionate Boundaries To Last Grasp Attempts Of Fear-based Energies

By Jelelle Awen
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‘Last grasp attempt’…I used those words yesterday in this article to describe lower frequencies (fear-based) that may come up as the high vibe energies increase during this now passageway/corridor that we are experiencing as a collective that is moving us into more extreme choice points of love over fear. This last grasp attempt to retract into fear again, to go asleep again (at least for a phase) can be related to with love (as can everything!) It’s not really the ‘last’, of course, but it feels like a significant turning point. The energies perhaps inside of you and from outside of you that are doing this are not EVIL, yet, rather are scared and frightened to go into the new. The new is unknown and, therefore, acutely uncomfortable.

Compassion with boundaries of self protection is the energy that I’ve been encouraged to embody when experiencing these fear frequencies in myself, in others, in the astrals and in the cosmos. Compassion is the opening of your higher heart to feel WHY the fear exists and where it comes from. Compassion is being curious about this and to lead the discovery about the source of it inside yourself and with others. Compassion is the embodiment of Divine Feminine motherly energies that our 3D world has long suppressed and been afraid of actually….because it offers a powerful frequency of transmutation and transformation as love always does. When our response is compassion to anything…… ANYTHING becomes possible.

The last grasp energies inside of us, the dense frequencies, may grab at doubts, tensions, anxieties, flare up of old core wounds of abandonment, unworthiness, and rejection…..these energies are important to come up though as they anchor us in the old and the dense and 3D. Responding to them with compassion (even naming them as a part of you and having a relationship WITH them) can move them into the new. Resisting the density and even ‘using’ spiritual strategies to transcend them usually just leads to a temporary pause on the deeper healing that wants to (and will eventually) happen. The more you have been with these lower frequencies inside of yourself and embraced them with love…the less you will be impacted by these energies coming from others and then experienced as ‘attacks’ or ‘take downs.’ We can only experience from outside what we have not healed from inside as it then needs to act as a trigger and a mirror for us.

Compassion WITH boundaries means that we are feeling what works for us and what doesn’t INside and with others in relationships……we are feeling what is nourishing and what isn’t, and choosing what serves love as the expression of our soul purpose here and what doesn’t. This may mean completion with some souls that have been BEloved to you as you just can’t be at the their frequency anymore without cost to your own growth. I wrote about that yesterday too and many times as it is such a big crucible right now.

This completion may happen with Ethereal BEings too (even those you might experience as ‘guides’) or with your own energy system as you start to feel the ‘implants’ and ‘devices’ and other things you signed up as a soul to experience in your field. No else ‘did’ this to you related to implants. You chose every object and where and how you would experience it. When you are ready to ‘remove and release them and see them’, you will and your self love will dissolve them away. You may need to consciously complete with your Archon and fear-based Reptilian self, dissolve your Reptilian brain stem, etc in a very self loving way to fully ‘unhook’ and move on from these energies…

Ultimately, there is nothing to fear of fear as it can all be transformed with love and actually wants to be! The last grasp attempts are a sign of how much we are moving into the new, into love, and into light. We can see them as a sacred aspect of this process too when we respond to them with compassion.

We can support you in this self love of ALL process that then extends to compassionate boundaries with these energies through our SoulFullHeart process too as this can be very tricky ground to navigate all by yourself:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Cravings And Food Aversions During Ascension

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This photo is of a vegan meal at a vegetarian restaurant here recently…as ‘heavy’ as it gets around here, veggie burger (with rare bun) green juice, salad….

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Finding these ‘super’ foods just super for various ascension body fluxes and changes……cacao is the big one, which grows here in Mexico and is very high in anti-oxidants, magnesium, serotonin booster..what is not to like here? Look for organic Cacao that is not baked or cooked for the most boost, punch….I make raw desserts from it and drink it as tea. Another super one is turmeric….just craving it like crazy in this amazing curry powder we get here, on popcorn popped in coconut oil with sea salt (the good kind of salt) and the other big craving is for nutritional yeast and the B-12 in it as we are now vegan around here (other than organic honey from happy bees.) The body is picky right now it seems….not wanting gluten or wheat, or refined sugar (honey or stevia is OK), only unrefined coconut oil…..and that is another craving. Although it’s not like there is much hunger and hasn’t been for a month or so since we all fasted for a week, plus.

Big shiftings going on in what the moving into light body wants and the turning away from meat and dairy (been years now with no meat and mostly no dairy over the years too) is happening for more and more awakening souls. Just can’t ‘eat’ the killing energy from dying animals as you move into unity consciousness and merge with Star BEing consciousness. Turning away from fried foods (esp. in vegetable oil which is about as healthy for the body as motor oil) and processed foods too. Things get simple then too, with mostly raw fruit and vegetables with occasional cooked food that is very basic, same super ingredients in everything. This is what has been true for me, anyway, and may differ for you and your process….

I shared recently about feeling into what your ascension body symptoms are trying to tell you from an emotional body place (by journaling with the symptoms, connecting in creative visualization meditation, etc.) and putting on your love detective ‘hat’ to discover it. Same can be offered for food aversions and cravings….some foods are really about comfort associations for parts of us and feeling why and how can help to discover what is going on. Light body doesn’t seem to look to or associate food with comfort as much as just wants FUEL (mostly from light and energy) yet pure food sources as much as possible too. https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/discovering-what-your-emot…/

As the energies rise, the body wants some relief from digesting heavier and denser foods (takes a lot of energy to digest then) and it wants to focus on UPgrading. If you need a food reboot, you might try just having fruit smoothies for a few days or with light fruit or with just juice….see what you actually want and don’t want on the other side of it and feel it through from an ascension/energy output and input perspective. Love in the form of food ….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Listening To The Lion: Time To Lead With Feeling

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Painting by Gabriel Heartman

The last few nights have been super intense emotionally for me.  I have had waves of doubt, self-punishment, and anxiety arise in my field that began to overwhelm me.  Hard to fall asleep with the intense energies and I needed to connect with the Divine energy to move through some of it.  Through my SoulFullHeart process I know they are not mine but coming from something within me that needs to be felt.

It has taken form of a MetaSoul aspect of mine that is living an Atlantean lifetime.  I had a beautiful group session with the help of Jelelle to feel this aspect and begin a more balanced relationship with him and his intensity.  Last night I began to feel energies that didn’t feel connected to him and could be another aspect of my soul coming through around anxiety.

What the heck is going on?

I felt to tap into my guides and intuition since I couldn’t sleep and was told that this is a very intense time for many.  I have known about the current lead up to the Lion’s Gate portal for a while now, and I am starting to piece some things together for myself around it.  What I received is that this is a time of great confluence.  Many energies are coming together that may feel like a squeeze to some.  It is thinning out veils and the gap between what is authentic and not.  It is bringing in codes that feel to be bubbling up old unhealed lower frequencies that are preventing us from moving into our next growth places.  These frequencies are held by parts of us as well as Metasoul aspects that are bleeding in at this Thinning.  It can be a crazy-making time if there isn’t a larger container to hold all of it in.

It may be advised to just ride out the wave and be kind and gentle to yourself.  I agree with being self-loving to yourself is key right now.  But I also feel there is great opportunity for growth and letting in more of the love we came here to experience.  It all brings up the unloved energies within us that are needing to be held and felt to make room for more.  It is like the altitude is changing and the old denser energies are needing to fall away.  But there is an invitation to actively participate in this process, and not just passively let it go by.  This is the leading edge of consciousness we are stepping into!

I feel that this is the message of the Lion.  He is inviting us to lead ourselves into a new relationship with our experience of life and Gaia as we have known it.  He is about finding our courage and strength and feeling all that we need to feel during this highly transformative time.  What wounds and pains, both this and other lives, are looking to be heard and felt at this time? What resistance is showing up inside of us that keeps us from fully inhabiting the largess and love sponges we are?  This is not an easy choice to make going INto the pain, not to suffer, but to heal.  To reveal. To discover.  It leads us into our jungle and arise as the king and queen of our truest dreams and inner knowing.

You may be pressed to make some difficult choices along the way.  We can not have things stay the same and expect them to be different.  Leading your way into your next emotional and spiritual growth terrain is what Leo is offering and guiding us toward. Healing your way to passion, purpose, and the remembrance of magic.  From denser energy to higher vibration. From care-taking to self-actualization.  From being alone to being in community and sacred passionate romance!

SoulFullHeart offers a pathway and a community that serves this growth and expansion of love.  We are here to lead this way of life into the world to those that it resonates with. The Lion is a huge totem for us and what we came here to do and be.  I am listening closely myself and feeling what it is that needs my attention to enter into more expression of Love and Serviceship.  We invite you to do the same.  Be kind and gentle with yourself during these days and months to come.  And we are here to serve all that is arising in you should you feel the call of the wild of heart and soul.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Narrowing Energetic Corridor Offers Movement Into The New

By Jelelle Awen
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All night long during my brief conscious moments and during sleep too, I was walking down this corridor….a long hallway. The ceiling was getting tighter and the floor rising up to meet it. Not a pleasant feeling…this ‘narrowing’ passageway feeling. Yet, also, I could feel there was LOVE in this movement somehow and that at the ‘end’ of the hallway were wide, OPEN spaces filled with Infinite Possibilities.

As I digest this in the now moment, it feels like a pretty good metaphor for what is happening energetically on the inner and outer cosmic levels. In this now called “August 2017” is a ‘mega month’ of energy activities…eclipses and the lion’s gate opening that peaks in a week on August 8th. There are many writings about this cosmic activity and its impact, messages, and what it is offering us during the ascension process on sites such as Lovehaswon.org. My focus and soul purpose service of love is about bridging the emotional body with the spiritual and soul awakening process while being aware of how what is happening in the cosmos may be impacting this ongoing process, specifically from a parts work and Metasoul aspect perspective. I am actually surprised that so many souls seem to resonate with this perspective as it is certainly different, yet perhaps also deeply needed and been a ‘missing’ piece in the ascension picture.

The narrowing corridor I was shown feels like the old life and the previous versions, the 3D self versions and masks and personas, are being ‘pressed down’ in order to move them along. It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and cramped to be less than who you are and you are feeling it more acutely now on all levels. The physical body is releasing pain and resistance in the form of ascension body symptoms such as ringing in the ears, changing sleeping patterns, dizzyness, nausea, appetite changes, body aches, hot flashes, etc. Some of this is resistance and some of this is just transition and adjustment to so much more light coming into every cell and igniting previously sleepy DNA.

It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable too within relationships where previously you were the ‘big fish in the little pond’ or the ‘tall one in the rooms with shorter ceilings.’ What this means is that the settings, relationships, and careers where parts of you feel VERY comfortable within your comfort zone are now feeling cramped and confining. Your soul self (higher self coming into the body and healthy emotional body) wants to fly, wants growth, wants to be challenged, wants mirrors to see yourself, wants to stand tall, and is ok to be the big fish in the big pond with other big fish.

There could be a feeling of crawling right now as you travel down the corridor of this old, feeling your way through as previously suppressed pains and wounds from your emotional body and Metasoul greet you and come up. Crawling is ok though, as is pausing and just sitting still and BEing with the discomfort. Crying the tears that need to come up. BEing with the fears too. All this is temporary….a pressure cooker, compression point, narrowing corridor reality that invites you to keep choosing love in every moment in order to keep moving through it.

Some souls will become immobilized, stuck, or choose to leave their bodies. Even those who are more awakened or newly awakened may lash out with fear and retreat….going back down their hallway and into their comfort zone and safety again. In this case, all you can really do and BE is compassionate love for them, invite them to come with you and keep going forward yourself. If you try to ‘go back’ for them or stay with them, you will lower your vibrational frequency to fear and potentially ‘fuse’ to parts of you that will put you back to sleep again. There is heightened temptation to do this as the fear-based energies reach out in a ‘last grasp attempt’ at our trailing edges of BEing.

There is actually something at stake and at risk in relationships right now. It is probably the stickiest ground when it comes to the ascension process. ‘Going down’ with someone in order to ‘save them’ is a trap that could keep you looping in suffering and co-dependent patterns. Clinging on to ‘capacity’ rather than being real about transactability can keep you hanging on to others, staying stuck, and even parts of you in delusion, such as what happens often in the Twin Flame paradigm. Really asking yourself what you want in relationships of all kinds, what is healthy and nourishing for you, who is a healthy mirror of you and being open to feel all that comes up in parts of you that cling and why can help you navigate this sticky ground.

Better to mourn the completion of these lower frequency relationships, let go, and keep BEing the light that you are, feeling yourself and your own healing as your first priority. This choosing of yourself and your own heart creates a beacon that draws the souls that are in your soul family tribe to join you and your TRUE sacred union mate as well. You may be walking, crawling, and BEing alone for a phase though as you truly leave behind your previous life to enter your new one.

It is a time of choosing love over fear in every moment in ways both subtle and perhaps very dramatic and profound. It is a time of change…both on a very personal level and as a collective. It is a time of a waking up on a grander scale then we have seen before since choosing our collective slumber and amnesia. At the end of each of our hallways is VAST, open space filled with Infinite Love and Infinite Possibilities. The Divine waits there to embrace us in Love again even as It is with us always in every moment as we crawl and find and arise into the love that we ARE.

 

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 Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.