Category: Change and Transformation

Our Beloved Bubbles

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Our consciousness is a bubble. It can be a small one or a massive one. It can be comprised of fear, anxiety, and depression, as well as joy, peace, and knowledge. We can use anything to create a bubble. We need the bubble in order to be in this dimensional frequency. It provides the necessary veil for our growth within Experience. In my opinion, even the most non-dual enlightened or galactically-activated individuals still exist in a bubble. Even The Infinite needs The Finite in order to experience Itself.

Bubbles are both mental and emotional. Our knowledge of what is ‘real’ and ‘true’ continues to shift and evolve. This happens as we continually ask questions such as “what if?” and “why?”. The same holds true for our heart bubbles. Our protective layers that are there for their own reasons and purposes, yet keep us from fully letting in the bliss mess of aliveness and love.

As this Gaian ascension process continues, we reach the boundaries of these bubbles as they are meant to be popped in order to enter the vastness of our new bubbles. New energetic frequencies that can only exist beyond the confines of the old. These moments of experiencing the boundary of our assumptions and comfort are the moments where Love is the one thing we need to lean into so that we can be born into what we signed up to experience and be. The bubble is meant to grow and become more transparent even when it feels so good to be in one sometimes.

I have become acutely aware of my own bubbles in my process that lead to new phases of questions, curiosities, forgiveness, compassion, and action. Feeling the parts and aspects of me that are coming to the surface of my emotional and spiritual reality. It is not about hunting, fixing, or shattering the bubbles, but rather about just continuing to feel where we are being invited to go into so that we are not just suffering or hiding in the world we have created for ourselves.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Waves Of Love And Support Through Timeline Collapses

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By Kalayna Colibri

Collapsing old timelines takes a lot of focus. It’s tiring. It’s energizing. The experience of being ‘twired’ – tired and wired – is a very real thing!

We’re in the middle of collapsing our timeline here in Mexico while inhabiting and energizing our new timeline in Victoria, Canada. We are feeling the press of the birth canal and contractions as we follow love, service, and desire to our next destination.

We’ve collapsed many, many timelines in our lives and processes, including relationships with toxic or just non-resonant others and other geographies too. It’s never entirely easy, though there are flushes and waves of ease as the universe within and without carries you through the next and next steps.

It always amazes me how even though parts and Metasoul aspects have their reactions to change and fears around it, love shows up to support and guide, reminding you and them that you ARE loved and supported by a universe that wants you to feel its love, even and perhaps especially through the loss and letting go… the willingness to let go in order to let in, work for, wait for what and who you really want. It’s actually this process of being willing to say no and let go that prepares you to really let in and claim. So often what we really want can appear in front of us and without this preparation, we sometimes bypass the opportunity or the budding relationship out of fear or because parts of us aren’t quite ready to let in the possibility of the new.

I feel how we are all connected in our very personal ways of feeling and making choices, especially in this now moment of supportive energy and love waves. There are so many to feel through and be with. There is so much love to serve and flow with. There are ample chances to land ourselves in more love within, making choices that suit our deepest sense of well-being and necessary growth, trusting in the fact that the impact of these choices on ourselves and others does ultimately serve love… even though hurt reactions may come up and pain surfaces to be felt.

Much love to you in your own growth crucibles and the intricate web of connection we all are part of as we find our way… ❤️

Photo by Tim Marshall via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energies Invite Emergence Into New Timelines, Personally And Collectively

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By Kalayna Colibri

It’s that cocoon-before-the-rebirth time. Another phase of squeeze and move, let go and let in. Feel… always a time to feel and give space for the alchemical feelings emerging, the reactions in parts of you from this life but also existentially too.

Feeling this very personally as well as collectively. I feel my next steps of geographic relocation moving along now, almost at a gallop, and along with this momentum is an inner momentum and inner geographic shift that’s undeniable and real. We are all being invited into bigger things within. And it’s natural and necessary to feel how this expresses in our lives in so many ways too.

How we choose to be with and process (or not process at all) the shifts we are invited into is important. It’s this series of choices that help frame the new picture of this next life phase. How do you want to enter it and what do you want to get out of it?

We’re given these experiences of emerging into new timelines that are sometimes like a ‘slip n’ slide’. You step onto into one choice, only to realize that like rapid fire, you are being given now a series of choices and they all make up the birth canal at hand… the one that’s ultimately leading you into the new and into what you’ve dreamed of having in your life. And you get to fuel each choice with the gasoline of your needs and the fire of your desire.

It’s like each choice helps us illuminate something else that needs us inside of us too. As I personally step into the fire of the collapsing timeline of living here in Mexico and entering another phase (possibly only a few months long) of living in Canada again, I feel the parts of me in anxiety, that loathe feeling stuck in one geography or life frequency and are actually a bit afraid of being stuck in Canada for the long haul, aching instead to experience more of the world. I feel the excitement of the new and the mourning as the old moves out too. I feel this as more of an inner geographic shift mostly actually, where new emotional, spiritual and galactic territory is showing up now for me to navigate and be with as I integrate the gifts of the process of it all. The shifts on the outside of my body and being are minuscule in comparison to making shifts inside… that’s the only place we can ever really experience stuckness or stagnancy in any lasting form. If life isn’t heading where you want it to, there’s always a choice to dig in, into you… and see what’s really going on. This is what really moves mountains.

Collectively, I feel how we are being squeezed into a new trajectory, but with love doing the squeezing. I feel how there is pain, there is anguish, there are battles raging, yet I feel and see how they are all a bi-product of what’s going on within. In some ways, it doesn’t seem to matter how much we tell ourselves this… until the parts and Metasoul aspects of us that have only seen and experiencing battlegrounds and a need to be a warrior start to let in that they DO have the power to shift what they experience and how it lives in them, we will continue to see in the world what we expect to see in the world and experiencing more reasons to keep fighting instead of more reasons to go within and co-create something new.

We get to inhabit this process and watch it play out for us however we choose.

So what will you choose, very personally, as the new waits to emerge with and through YOU?

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Beauty That Is You

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By Raianna Shai

As I watch the sunset tonight I reflect on all the beauty that surrounds me. The beauty that I alchemized for myself. The beauty that is reflected within me.

When we take in beauty like sunsets, we are really taking in ourselves. The beauty of ourselves. You can only let in the love that you have cultivated within. And from there, is where you give to others.

I came onto my yoga mat this evening feeling less than perfect. Less than worthy. I’ve always been very sensitive to how I am perceived and what others think of me. So one small thing can send parts of me spiralling into a suffering loop about not being good enough.

I checked in with this part of me while in puppy posture and asked why I felt this sadness every time something like that came up.

He told me “Because I know that if you feel sad or guilty enough, you’ll do everything in your power to prevent it from happening again. So we don’t have to feel the sadness. So no one can judge you. It’s for your protection.”

I felt to say back, “But why am I not perfect exactly where I am now? Why is this not good enough?”

I felt tears start to come as this part of me started to let in the reality that I was talking about him, too.

I transitioned into a new position so that I could take in the sunset amidst this process, and the tears started to flow.

Look at all of this beauty, I thought. The love in my life, the love in my soul, the love in the sky this very moment.

I know there is shadow within me. Darkness, sadness, anger, fear. But that’s all a part of the beauty.

We would have no sunsets without darkness. The colours would not stand out the way that they do.

And my darkness and shadow is not wrong, the way the night sky is not wrong. It is passion and power. It is the part of my essence that can provide me with discernment, boundaries and confidence. It is one of the strongest parts of me, especially when it can let in my love.

I make mistakes. I have the capacity to hurt. I can feel things I would never wish anyone to feel. But I am still worthy. These dark parts of me are still worthy. You and your parts are still worthy of all the love you can possibly imagine. Of every ounce of love you have to give.

It’s time now to go in, take responsibility for the shadow, feel any remorse that comes up, and then forgive. Forgive so that you can let in the beauty that is YOU.

A MANdate For New Earth Now

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Last night my friend, heart shaman, and MANtor (mentor as a man) Raphael Awen and I enjoyed a night out together for the first time in a while. It was a time we intended to connect with each other in a deeper way beyond the ‘doings’ of our busy lives as we all engage in our next journeys separate, yet together in heart.

It is easy for parts of all of us to normalize relationship to some degree and not take a moment to just be in the goodness of what is, what was, and what we intend to be more of. This also feels to be a challenge for men especially. Taking sacred time with each other in honor and gratitude, or even much-needed truth-telling, wherever that truth is coming from or needs to lead.

Raphael and I took in the goodness of our surroundings, our own usness outside our personal romances with our beloved mates, and our history together as friends and co-conspirators of this starship we call SoulFullHeart. It was a tender moment to feel all that we have been through together in our history and especially here in Mexico. We could feel how unique our bond is as men and to feel how we have had the shades drawn a bit on our own desire for other men to be a part of a larger roundtable of heart and soul kings.

So we took the intentional space to let go of what was, honor it deeply, and open our hearts to more. More real, more galactic, more men, and more More, whatever that turns out to be. It was another layer of deep healing between two men that seek to offer it to other men in search of the same. It felt personal, global, and galactic. All that was missing was the cigarette. (Yup…I said that.)

Raphael and I both open our heart and soul journeys to men and women alike who feel resonate (and even those who may not fully) to explore their own inner world, this one and beyond. To take steps to heal and inhabit the practical, emotional, and spiritual steps to enter into a new relationship with self, other, and the universe at large. To open up your own personal disclosure project, click on the link below for more information.

Thank you for being a part of our living room. We look forward to more connection with you.

Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen
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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Message From On High

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

It is time

Time to be free

Free of the ties that bind

The binds that have kept you safe, unknowable, and small

The relations, the assumptions, and the fears

That have all appeared as Love and Truth

Until they no longer did.

It is not so much your Mind and Beliefs that need to be examined or retrained,

But rather your heart that needs to be felt

Your soul that needs to be explored

And called into the court of your curiosity and divine compassion

What storylines have you still in chains, in regret, and in suffering

It is going into the deep well of your hidden, veiled, and protected caverns

That bring the greatest gifts to your arising awareness

That you have always been Free, been Loved, and been Alive

Feel and free yourself

You wonderful, glorious, and human expression

Of power, creation, Love, and beauty.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Owning And Transmuting The Prison That Lies Within

Published on by Gabriel Heartman3 Comments

When one has been denied freedom, whether in the form of prison or being captured, for a very long time, there is something that happens in the mind and heart of said soul. It is like a form of The Stockholm Syndrome where you have identified with the captor/imprisoner in the name of survival. Only, in this case, the bars are no longer in front of you but they continue to exist energetically anyway. They were all that was ever known.

I have been digesting this inside of myself the last couple of days, where I can feel aspects of me that have been used to a particular consciousness, or way of relating to the world both inner and outer. There are goggles that are placed on them that were not put on them against their will, but so that they could ‘deal’ with the very real reality of True Freedom that stands right in front of them. They are not oblivious to this reality. It has been a necessary part of a healing process.

If there is no matrix, or if there was never one to begin with, we are left to address our own ownership of that which we feel like is imprisoning us. We are left to reconcile that we are the captor and the captured both. We are highly efficient and powerful creators that can manifest more than we are able to let in so we can use the power of our projection to devise all sorts of excuses that can buffer us from that reality, that I hold as my personal truth.

As the dawn of the New Era is shining is a powerful Divine light upon us, the shadow of those prison bars is becoming increasingly clear. The truth behind their existence needs to be taken responsibility for or else they will continue to stand right where they are at. I hold that these limitations, these projections, these fears have all been necessary but no longer serviceable. They are held inside by parts of you that have a long and varied history with both persecution and being persecuted. Captor and being captured. Find, feel, and release the chains of these heart and soul beings so that they can be transmuted into the grandeur of love they truly ARE.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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A Love Transmission For These Times Of Chaos, Change, Evolution (Poem)

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by Kalayna Colibri

Swirling, changing, 
Ever-shifting sands
Of foundations won and lost,
Forged and fought for,
Brought in on waves of alchemy
And set to sail away again.

The ship of your homecoming
Finds those resonant tides
Of needed and necessary movement
Toward everything
Every part, piece, aspect,
You have, are
And will yet uncover yourself to BE.

Life is a recovery dance
Of unknown,
Magic-pitched pipes
No one has ever played before
And yet they are being played just the same
In every cell of your being
In every dimension of your soul…

Love, catch the wave before you
Or wait now for another.
At every turn
The maybes move
As the drawbridge beckons you homeward.

Beloved, now could be your time
The war is over if you choose it.
The battles fought and won
Are reconciled
In the depths of healing soil
Built to bring more depth within.
Your time to re-anchor in new horizons
Could be now…
Or the next now.
Any now of your choosing
As you cannot help
But engage in the process
Of the healing waves coming
In whatever ways felt into.
You’ll know your time,
Your chance,
Your phase,
In ways your mind won’t grasp
Yet your heart will sanctify
And claim…
You’ll know, beloved,
That it’s your growth moment
And the pulse of new blood
Will be unavoidable.

Yet beloved,
Feel this…
You are loved beyond the love you’ve known.
You are needed beyond the needs of others.
You are held beyond the scope of your beholding.
And you are brought into your power
In every step you take towards more love
More worth
And more beyond all you’ve been taught
Is all you’ll ever have…

Much… much love… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Ascension Q & A, Guided Meditation W/Raphael and Jelelle Awen (video)

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Raphael and Jelelle, co-creators and teachers of SoulFullHeart, were live responding to questions and comments that came over FB on September 7th, 2018. They offered their perspectives on the ascension process, emotional body/soul healing through parts work, and working with Metasoul aspects from other timelines.

They also co-lead a guided meditation to connect with high vibe energies and your Inner Protector at around 40 minutes in.

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Journal With Nine: Healing The Symbol Projection

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I felt inspired to have another go at conversing with the number 9 this morning. I felt a personal connection to its message and felt there was more to feel into with it. There was such an interesting response to it that I wasn’t totally expecting. I have not had a real deep relationship to numbers in my past and I haven’t taken to doing much ‘research’ on the matter. In a way, it keeps it pure and just arises from whatever comes from my heart. I encourage anyone who has a more intimate connection with numbers to do this very same thing and see what arises.

On that note I will check in with Nine and see how it is feeling today and where we might go:

Good morning Nine. Do you prefer the word or the number?

9: That is an interesting question. I guess it all depends on which perspective you want to come from. A more literary and poetic heart space or a more mathematical, paternal place.

Hmmmm….so you have a masculine and a feminine?

9: Well, don’t you?

Yeah, I do. I guess I never really thought of it in regards to a number, but when you put it that way it totally makes sense.

9: It also doesn’t have to make sense either. It is a question that leads us on a quest, just like Raphael always says.

Yeah, I like that. So we are questing. Getting to feel and understand each other and how we relate to each other through this dialogue.

9: Sure. Why not? You gotta hot date with Kalayna?

Well, every moment is a hot date with Kalayna. She is into this too so it is all a part the dance.

9: Yes, a dance. (Good answer with the hot date thing… 😉 That is what this exploration is. You and I are both a consciousness. I get my awareness and aliveness through you and I thus affect you. We can spend a lot of time exploring the technical nature of my numerology and that has its value and purpose, but taking that understanding and diving a bit deeper into how I, as a number, have an effect on a particular heart is a feminine approach.

I was feeling that distinctly yesterday in our conversation. I could feel a part of me wondering if I needed to do some research into what you ‘mean’ and yet I got a whole lot of meaning out of our encounter yesterday. I could feel how others who responded had their own intimate relationship with you that spanned a spectrum of reaction.

9: I do seem to have that effect on people. I am a very intense yet magical number if I do say so myself. I have a lot of stuff going on! Mathematically speaking I have a lot of parts! I house a lot of powerful energy and that be like riding a bucking bronco. So I understand the intense reactions that others have about me showing up in their lives. Or even being identified as me.

Yeah, I wanted to ask you about that. How do you feel about that?

9: Well, of course, there is an honor in it. But there is a lot of projection and over-identification that can arise. There is something that is meant to be understood about the nature of being drawn to a number but it doesn’t mean that one is meant to be determined by it. I only hold the power that one gives to me. If I represent chaos and that is all that one chooses to relate to me as then there is no room for what else I stand for which is the process of moving beyond into the new. This is where the feminine side of feeling wants to come in and hold space for the fear that is backed up in my name. I don’t want to be a reason why people are suffering. That is not what I am about.

Wow. I feel some of your own backed up truth in there Nine.

9: Yeah, I can feel that too, Gabriel. I can feel that for any idea/concept be it numerological, astrological, angelic, etc. We get all bound up in this intense energy that is not the nature of what we are meant to represent. We are change and stability both. Never meant to stay in a rut. I got this yesterday from you when you mentioned my curiosity of what it is like to be 10. I am not a victim to my location on a number line. I am more than that. I am energy. I am a symbol that is not set in stone. I can shift. Hell, turn me upside down and I am a six! How is that for multidimensionality? Thanks for letting me feel that Gabriel. I feel how I may have been holding a lot more than my share of this dynamic. An inner need of mine to be seen as valuable and wanted. I want to feel that in and of myself. And my parts. All 9 of them! Hmmm…9 lives.

I had no idea that we going here today Nine. I still have so many other curiosities about you and maybe we just needed the space to feel into this together.

9: I feel open to where this is meant to go Gabriel. I feel a big release here and that helps me to feel more of my own value as a number in relation to the human heart. Whew!. This is powerful work you are doing, my friend. I think it is time to let this breath and we can catch up tomorrow if that arises. I can feel how all these symbols could use a good cleanse, Gabriel. This could be your thing!

That would be interesting. Not sure I can make a living on holding space for symbols but I am open to what it offers us. You are magical being and I am blessed to have stumbled onto this with you. All in Divine Nining.

9: Hmmm….not sure about that one there, Gabriel. I like the effort, however. Before we leave I did want others to know that having their own personal connection with me would be very healing. I am open to connecting with them through their own hearts and computers. I am good with pen and paper too. Brings me back to the old days.

Ah, that feels like a great invitation Nine. Thank you. I look forward to what arises next in the space between us. We have a whole month in your honor!

9: Oooff! That is a lot of change coming our way. Okay! We got this!

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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