Letting In Self-Love And Appreciation, In Your Current Timeline Of You-ness

by Kalayna Colibri

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This morning began for me with writing several Thank You letters. One to my parts, one to my Metasoul Aspects, and one to my Galactic Metasoul Aspects, too. I felt the self-appreciation that this offered me, a deepening of self-love, a reflection of everything that I’ve been working to heal and indeed have been healing. I felt a ‘new’ Metasoul Sister emerge today too, who is my Avalonian guide and eager to help bridge many new and emerging soul gifts to me throughout this coming year, as we enter into what has been called ‘2018’, which feels to hold many gifts and surprises itself. I felt so touched by this process and the feeling that it was ‘me’ and also my Higher Self holding this space of letter-writing, of feeling and holding deep gratitude and also curiosity about all of these parts and aspects and how much further they will evolve, heal, integrate as more phases and processes with them unfold and unfurl. I was also struck by the sense that this is my first time addressing them all as a group, and how powerful that is for the sake of a growing union within.

Above and beyond all of the gifts and Christmas cards you may be about to receive today and/or tomorrow, it feels important to above all remember you, to remember that you are here and have chosen to be here, Now. That you also have many different parts of you and Metasoul Aspects too that need you and need the Divine love that only you can offer them. It’s a time to touch your own heart and soul, let alone those of others, who may or may not even be able to let it or you in right now. There is so much self-care that we are all being invited into, especially as so much energy of change and many reconfigurations of what life looks and feels like take place, which can leave parts of us feeling as if they are being left behind and also feeling as if their feelings, reactions and realities have no place in our emerging realities, when we actually need each of them as much as they need us… and we wouldn’t be who we are or are healing to become without them!

No matter how or where you choose to spend your day today and tomorrow and beyond too, there is so much love that wants to beacon from you to you… that wants to hold you in yourself, in your parts and in your Metasoul too. That wants to reach out to you from you, offering healing and a loving space to simply BE and BE love.

Sending much love from my heart and soul to yours. ❤

Merry Christmas! ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Drawing Fear From Others; Transmuting It Into Love

By Jelelle Awen

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Maybe you are drawing fear from others right now. This especially can happen during collective events such as the Holiday season when there is so much expectation, conditioning, and conforming to 3D going on. Drawing fear can show up as sudden and intense outbursts from others, being energetically kicked, being ‘insulted’, being judged and pointed fingers at, being unfairly misunderstood, being projected upon without awareness, being excluded. This can seem to happen ‘out of nowhere’ or is the result of increasing advocacy you’ve been doing for more connection and soul resonance with others (as I wrote about yesterday).

Drawing fear from others can happen because parts of them can feel you feeling AND loving your own fears. Because they feel you stepping into your soul purpose and truly being yourself in more authentic ways. Because they want your light to illuminate and transform them too, yet parts of them don’t know how to be vulnerable in this or just ask for it. It can be a sign of YOUR bigness rising actually and increasing capacity to be a transformer and alchemizer of fear into love…for which others are recognizing on some level (even if it is still subconscious to them).

Sometimes drawing fear from others is about seeing something in your own shadow, your Metasoul legacy showing up as karmic patterns, within a part of you that needs you. Sometimes it is the only way to see this aspect, energy, or part of yourself.

It may be difficult to digest for parts of you the drawing of this fear from others. It can bring up feelings of being inadequate, unworthy, ‘crazy’, and wrong. Their judgements may trigger the parts of you that judge you (what we call the Inner Punisher), who forms defense mechanisms during 3D life based on judging you first before others can. Their anger may trigger parts of you to be angry back too and defensive and wanting to state your ‘case’.

The drawing of fear also is happening in the collective as it NEEDS to come up and out. Those leading the way with love and healing their fear into love serve on a quantum way to heal others. Your process around this may feel very personal, yet, your capacity to digest fear and ultimately find compassion for yourself and others, to eventually and authentically feel forgiveness, serves the ALL. BEing with the parts of you that are in reaction to this, who feel sad and confused and lonely, allows the energies to digest in YOUR heart and move into love again.

Holding space for yourself and parts of you not going too much to analyzing, thrashing, and picking apart others (another defense that has been needed in 3D) can allow the energies to move through and out as well. The Divine Feminine especially offers a beautiful, real, and catalytic space for the digestion of these kinds of experiences, which can have deep roots in your Metasoul too (especially if you have been a leader, wayshower, forerunner, in many timelines/lifetimes, etc.)

The drawing of fear is ultimately temporary, a mirror as you still need it, and, sometimes, a deep form of service to yourself, your parts, and to others. Held with self love and self worth, strong boundary setting (to not allow repeating patterns of abuse with others), it can be navigated and even appreciated for the growth it brings and the love it eventually exposes!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Winter Solstice Offers New Earth In The HERE And NOW

By Jelelle Awen

 

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This doesn’t feel like an ordinary Winter Solstice….is there such thing as ‘ordinary’ anymore? So much is accelerating in activity on in the collective, on a Galactic level with Star BEings, and from within each of of us on the Ascension path.

This Winter Solstice is the beginning of a NEW season where it feels like rapid change will become more of the new normal in the year 2018. Change on all levels inside of your bodies becoming crystal; your chakras becoming crystal; your hearts becoming crystal; your emotional bodies becoming crystal; your Merkabahs becoming crystal. Clearer, brighter, and freer, you feel more and more and on deeper levels than ever before!

You may be amazed at how much is moving from within you in just one ‘day’ and how much you are integrating, letting in, and letting go. What has previously been ‘lived with’ on some level, still anchored to 3D, is straining and fading. Maybe you are able to LET GO more quickly, more easily with less protest and resistance from parts of you and more sense of Ethereal, Star BEing/Star Family, and Higher Self support. Hiding anything becomes impossible as your frequency shifts more into 4D in all areas of your life.

The Divine Feminine opened UP even more on 12:12, illuminating us all in the glow of Her Supermoon. She continues to beacon us into the deeper regions of ourselves, into our emotional bodies, into the places inside that need the light of our love. She sometimes lights the match to burn away what is false in our lives and within ourselves, yet always, too, She is there to provide a balm of comfort to sooth the mourning pains.

The Divine Feminine makes it safer for disclosures to begin or accelerate on all levels; for the revealing of what has been hidden to come forward for healing. No more hiding. She holds and responds to this disclosure process with a steady compassion that forgives, allowing for genuine remorse from the masculine to flow. She brings out the King that has been hiding in the woundedness of the boy. She supports the continuation of the process of transforming the wounded masculine (in both men and women) into its sacred human essence.

She has invited us into Her womb to INtegrate, to yintegrate, so much of these activations and upgrades that we’ve been receiving and being gifted by the Great Cosmic Sun/Divine Masculine. Her activations are more emotional, about making space and holding space, creating a womb space for the parts of us that need us and our tender care and love. The Divine Masculine gifts seemed to come in more bounty and in earnest acceleration with the total Solar Eclipse in August, as if Her moon blocking the light brought more into alignment.

And, alignment is here during this time of Galactic Alignment over the last days and continuing through the Solstice…as the center of our outer galaxy lines up with the Sun and Gaia, so is the invitation for our inner galaxies to align through the feeling and healing of ALL aspects of ourselves in ALL timelines.

What is of lower frequency, heavy, dark, painful, and frustrated is not so easily suppressed or held away or covered over by parts of you anymore. Your Inner Protector is probably getting tired and wants deeply to rest. Things are leaking through that sometimes they would rather didn’t, yet that need to come up. Other lifetime ‘memories’ are bleeding through, along with childhood/teenage emotional energy congestions formed in parts of you that are often stuck there and want to be freed. Dreams are more intense, plus increase in what feels like ‘outside of you’ activities and energies.

All this could bring up temporarily even more vigilance and guarding from your Protector yet also can lead to burn out and overwhelm. The Protector is tired of guarding and being so vigilant and wants to transition to your guide and Gatekeeper of your Metasoul, channel to Divine love and all your other lifetime/timelines. More about the Gatekeeper healing process here through SoulFullHeart: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

Loving your physical body, loving your emotional body, loving the parts of you that are afraid and resistance, loving your 3D anchors, loving even what feels dark and demonic through these intense energies and with the help of these energies….this becomes easier in the Now. This will just BEcome more natural as we vibrate more and more out of the old fear-based frequencies and into more New Earth/5D.

New Earth is more in the HERE and the NOW on this Solstice and available in ALL moments as you continue to integrate and align from within into your Sacred Human Self!!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Continued Energies Invite Us To Deeper Healing Of Galactic Wounds

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1:11 begins this post. Nice timing. It is a gateway into a new emerging relationship inside myself (and yourself) that has been in pregnant pause. I have been connecting with my Gatekeeper on a more consistent basis to bring him more into the room of my daily consciousness. He has been very effusive most of my process yet has had played games of peek-a-boo off and on. He is moving from a guardian of my soul story and gifts to a beloved partner and guide on this journey of inner healing and discovery.
(For more information on how we hold what a Gatekeeper is you can read this article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeeper)

I found him stuck in the shadowland territory of my soul and through SoulFullHeart energy work and guided meditation brought him into closer proximity to the light of my heart where he could ‘dethaw’ from the experience. As we have connected, he has guided me to a couple of metasoul brothers in other timelines that are connected to Kalayna’s metasoul (my sacred union beloved). He was just with me in those moments being a witness to my connection with them to help heal old frequencies and dynamics in our bond together.

But as those faded and are waiting for further deepening and clarity there has been a struggle within him to feel like he actually has purpose and clarities. Everything seemed like a blurry painting sometimes. Static in the air that was creating doubt. Of course underneath doubt lies a deep fear of actually having what it is you deeply want for fear of it going away.

In the shadowlands, he was held by a Reptilian energy. It had created an open portal into my world through him. Noel, my Gatekeeper was connected to this Reptilian aspect that actually lies within us all. There was a felt sense that Noel needed to meet this Reptilian self, named Salthazar, to help heal the bind that still seemed to connect them and release them both from the downward spiral of the shadowland.

It was an amazing experience to feel this once timid and elusive guide of mine stand in the bowels of this intense energy and hold a loving space of compassion and service of love. He could feel this Reptilian’s truest heart and the source of its wounding. There was a forgiveness and an invitation to feel a new timeline for this part of me. It was quite and extraordinary process of transformation as he went from snarky pot shots to authentic tears even while in reservation that a new life awaits him.

He offered him a new family within my inner court of wayward travelers, kings, and guides. It was like being in the most captivating movie I could ever imagine. Within this BEing is a Lizard King. He held so much of my punishment, judgement, shame, fear, and control. Holding the light amidst the most unsavory within us all is what moves the darkness and births out a new gift that was never thought possible from the fear place.

There is still work to be done. Pain to be felt and trust to be garnered. But it is the first step into a series of other steps that brings new possibilities and new energy to an unending journey of what it means to be alive in this Now….moons, holidays, solstices and all.

The healing that is offered in SoulFullHeart is a doorway into an infinite world of discovery that begins with our 3D anchors and moves us into these epic and storied landscapes of our 4D consciousness that hold the seed of our Star Being connection. Each movement and step is a deeply felt and celebrated event that brings new awareness of what our sacred humanity ready to illuminate.

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 Join Raphael and Jelelle Awen for our next Livestream event this coming Saturday at 11:11am CST to digest all that is moving energetically personally, globally, and galactically. A post-solstice celebration of our continued journey into our highest timeline. Go here for more information:https://www.facebook.com/events/2067665806799213/

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: Expanded And Altered Realities As New Earth Arises From Within

By Jelelle Awen
It can be challenging to be ‘here’ and ‘here’ is expanding out in every moment, especially amped up by these December energies. My feet in the sand was soothing yesterday and yet, also, I let my consciousness take flight when it needed to. I had just gotten out of a powerful session with a facilitant/client who had been sharing from a higher frequency aspect of herself that we call the Gatekeeper. This need to hold higher frequency space for that unfolding, plus galactic sex with Raphael, plus a Metasoul aspect timeline of mine coming through strongly were all in my consciousness. In these moments, it is difficult to remain ‘in the body’ as I am in multiple ‘places’ at once.
 
Raphael and I were walking around the beach area here and it felt so much like a postcard. It LOOKS like a postcard already, yet the feeling of the reality outside of us being projected FROM inside us onto a screen was very strong…..along with a sense that none of it was actually real. All the activity of the merchants and buyers. The booming music and flashing tv screens. The children playing in the waves and the people too. The sand offered more realness, along with the crash of the ocean waves, and the squawk of the birds. The people mostly felt not real, in their own worlds and consciousnesses, in their own mostly 3D filtering of life that I honor, yet cannot resonate with or vibrate at any more.
 
I had the interesting experience of all sound of people being blocked out while I was lying with my eyes closed on the beach. There was only the sound of the ocean and the sensation of Raphael’s hand in mine. For that moment, I had a visceral sense of what it would feel like to open my eyes with the New Earth consciousness in place. What it would be like if my outer reality of higher vibrational consciousness matched the outer and the timelines truly split into two realities, one of denser frequency and one of higher. I saw and felt then Raphael and I walking down the empty streets of Puerto Vallarta, with very few souls still around to meet and greet us. I don’t know if this is where Ascension will lead us, but it was very interesting to feel this possibility.
 
The Ascension energies in this December corridor of 12:12 through the 12:21 solstice are inviting us to expand and open up to altered realities. Really to claim what OUR reality is and embrace it, even as if it has been judged as strange and different by 3D. And to see and feel how the 3D reality that parts of us have been conditioned to has also been an altered reality. A reality made flatter and safer by the five-sense limited settings and visible light spectrum. So little to feel when emotions are discredited! So little to see when the third eye/intuitive sensing is left out of the picture!
 
These December energies are potent in activating the third eye and yet, too, are inviting you into your higher heart. To breathe in and out from your sight ‘beyond sight’ and to compassionately take in what you see about yourself and others through your heart rather than Punisher-based judgements and filterings. To be OPEN in your heart with curiosity about whatever comes through, even those things and energies that scare parts of you.
 
Timelines are continuing to merge and overlap in big ways. You are invited to go beyond seeing and feeling anything as ‘in the past’, yet, rather that it is alive and vibrating with energy in the Now. If it is coming up for you, it is not a ‘memory’ or a ‘past life’, yet rather something that wants your attention because it is probably stuck or in trauma and needing love. Seeing things as ‘past’ or ‘ancient’ is a 3D filtering of 4D and higher realities to make them seem safer and more distant from us. You also begin to realize that you can change and alter these timelines that have seemed to be ‘from the past’, leading to exponential healing of karma. This is the process we engage with in SoulFullHeart sessions with people, quite amazing and transformative stuff!
 
THIS is a very alive and interesting phase to BE in. We are invited to accept it as it is and trust that every step is necessary to acclimate and calibrate to the transition and transformation that is coming and is happening in this Now!!
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The photos were taken yesterday here on the beach… we were quite captivated by the stretchy clouds like cobwebs across the sky….unusual for here. This mermaid with wings ‘stuck around’ for almost an hour, hovering right over us. I felt she represented our star BEing self, a merging of the waters and of the angelic.
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Galactic Alignment Energies Align ‘Past’ With ‘Present’

by Kalayna Colibri

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The Christmas season, it feels like, is one of the most nostalgic phases of the ‘year’. It has magic and wonder and even love frequencies that have been difficult for many to access other times of the year. It can be and often is also a reminder of painful experiences. This year we have a big galactic alignment happening on top of the usual Christmas season frequencies, adding to the usual reactions and responses from parts of us during this ‘time of year’. I feel as if there is a ‘ping-pong’ ball being created by the current wave of energies, bouncing around, ‘pinging’ this memory and that memory and then ‘ponging’ us back to the present. If we feel this with a more expanded heart-lens though, we can feel how this pinging and ponging is becoming more feverish, more rapid and more solid too, quickening the pace of ‘memory’ downloads from this timeline and others, giving us the opportunity to feel how nothing is actually ‘in the past’, but that it’s ALL alive in the Now – this ‘time’ we are living in that we know as ‘the present’. These memories can be a mix of happy and sad… they can be about this life and/or other lives, including our galactic origins. It is a mixed bag of emotional reactions and realities, especially as we reflect on the year that has passed that we have been calling ‘2017’, and we feel how even what we feel being stirred up inside of us now is a reflection to us of something(s) that have been left unfelt, unheld, unhealed.

The energies of this currently activated galactic alignment feel to be helping us align with what isn’t actually in the ‘past’ as all, as so many of us have held it. Our emotional body does not ‘see’ painful or even joyful memories as ‘past’ at all and instead feels them as if they really are happening now. You may also be finding that memories you forgot you even had, especially of abuse or anything severely traumatic including Star BEing abductions, are surfacing now too, creating major waves in your body, your heart, your life… This-life wounding (and beyond) is surfacing, as many of us are experiencing, reminding us of what we have still to feel and heal, which is so important for the inhabitation and activation of our Merkabahs that are wanting to take us to NEW heights, places, dimensions, multi-verses. There is no overnight or quick fix, and the more space we can make and hold for all of this to surface, the better. Feeling these pinging and ponging pieces that are coming up now is what gives us our springboard to new heights and horizons. New soul discoveries, pains, patterns, etc are coming up now too, often linked to our this-life pain anyways, as this is how it is for beings as multi-dimensional as ourselves… everything is connected.

We are not alone in any of this, and in fact, we are so supported by guides, Metasoul aspects (including our various galactic aspects, too), and Divine love. We are being supported to continue asking for the help we need and responding to the love parts of us are needing and aching for. In SoulFullHeart, we are here to serve love with you… we feel how challenging and sometimes difficult it can be when parts of you come up to be felt, sometimes for the first time ever… my beloveds and I continue this inward journey, feeling and cultivating this process within ourselves and we really do love to be with others in it as well. So much moves in session space and group space with us, and it’s always surprising what comes up and how much inner wisdom we actually already have, just waiting to be tapped into through this healing work. I personally desire to serve more and more young women around and under the age of 30 and my heart would like to invite you to check us out deeper: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: Galactic And Personal Alignments

By Jelelle Awen

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Galactic Alignment frequencies are happening in the Cosmos and the INNER Cosmos too. These are occurring over these next days (activated since the Super Moon, 12:12 Divine Feminine INtegration energies) and extending through the December 21 Solstice and into MORE Super Moon energy integrations in January. This is an alignment of Gaia (Feminine), the Moon (Feminine), the Sun/Great Cosmic Sun (Masculine), and the Galactic Center (Feminine/Masculine Balance/Zero Point). Seemingly and previously divergent energies and timelines come together, creating a bridging way toward Unity.
 
This Galactic Alignment offers a sense of the Divine Align energy that wants to bring us all together while honoring our individual expressions, especially our gender expression. Gender expression clashes are where the deepest densities and polarizations exist in our collective and personal emotional bodies. Healing our gender expression woundings is a ripe ground right now, as represented in the collective disclosure of sexual abuse that is currently happening. This disclosure invites us to feel what has been our experiences of these kind of abuses, on both sides of the ‘coin’, from this life and from our Metasoul/other lifetimes. Feeling these textures leads us to parts of us with feelings of distrust that stem from betrayal, dominance, and suppression. Read more here about how this distrust can be held onto and amplified by our masculine Inner Protectors and Gatekeepers: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/12/14/moving-from-anxiety-to-trust-and-surrender/
 
Being ‘in synch’ at a Cosmic level provides a sense for us of what this might feel and look like for each of us as this alignment is embodied from within. You may be feeling a press from these energies, especially related to romantic relationships and the completion of them or just difficulties and increasing conflicts and tensions.
 
These energies are always personal. They can be taken in and applied in a personal way by asking questions like these, “How do these energies relate to me and my ongoing awakening/Ascension process? How am I (and parts of me) being impacted by these energies? What are these energies inviting me (and parts of me) to feel?”
 
This inner alignment shows up in healing the splits that exist in the emotional body from unhealed traumas from 3D childhood experiences from this life. Inner alignment occurs as you are with your Inner Child or your Inner Teenager that still need you and are stuck in energetically charged scenes that keep their frequencies from being current and in the flow of Now. You can tell what these scenes are by the stories that come to you (with usually newly fresh feeling tears and emotions) when someone asks you about what causes pain from your childhood/teenagehood. These are fresh emotions because the traumas still exist in the now; they are not ‘past’ at all; and parts of you are living them out in seemingly endless loops of suffering. These loops of pain complete and end when your love is able to shift the energy through connection and separation from the parts. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
This inner alignment also expresses in the healing of the other lifetimes in your Metasoul (individuated soul source) of persecution and, again, the betrayals of trust and love that led to them. This is coming up for me with the revelation of a Metasoul pairing between Raphael and I offering these themes for us to feel into. The two Metasoul Aspects that we are starting to feel bleed through are needing our healing, feeling, and BEing with them in order to shift their timeline and heal some karmic binds between our Metasouls on a quantum level. When I feel this timeline (which is in the early 100 AD’s in Ireland), I can feel the sadness and loneliness of my Metasoul Aspect named Beatrice who just wants to experience love and the offering of her Celtic healing gifts, which are very controversial and forbidden by the Christian Roman rulers. Beatrice is in love with a man (from Raphael’s Metasoul) who is ‘destined’ to betray her and she risks this in order to experience even temporary moments of bliss with him…especially in bed with their ginger-colored cat lying between them.
 
I’ll be sharing more about Beatrice in the future as her timeline becomes clearer to me and our connection together deepens. I like to share what my personal process is around being with my Metasoul Aspects (and other parts too) as it offers a window into how you could work with these energies yourself and become your own space holder for these movements that bring such gifts of inner alignment. And, also, to give you a sense of what it feels like to receive support from us as facilitators to bridge to these places inside yourself during SoulFullHeart sessions.
 
Our Metasoul Aspects also express in projections into higher consciousness timelines, such as I shared about this week in connecting with my Blue Avian Metasoul Aspect named Beslopah, who awakened me in a deeper way to my Merkabah or 5D (and higher) light body vehicle. Both Beslopah and Beatrice have gifts for me and for each other, even as one is in higher vibrational frequencies of consciousness and the other is in lower ones due to undigested karmic wounding. Alignment happens from within as we embrace these divergent frequencies in our Metasouls and bring them together with love.
 
Alignment from within creates a space where love can bloom, grow, and show us that the previous misalignments were only temporary and served our growth. Love wants to align us. To bring us into flow with our Divine Essence again. To bring us into the Now moment as a unifying Sacred Human consciousness that celebrates the gender form that have chosen to express and BE!

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I am releasing a new book called Bliss Mess on January 1st, which offers more sharings about my Metasoul Aspect awakenings and unifications, along with more context for this process. You can also read more about my openings, journeys, and how I respond and hold them through the SoulFullHeart process/way of life in my book Keep Waking Up: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Your Light Body/Merkabah Is Waiting For You!

By Jelelle Awen

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Your light body vehicle is waiting for you. It is shining, glimmering, vibrating with energy, and pulsing with life. It is a reflection of YOUR life force and essence at a high frequency. In this now, our light bodies are ‘in the shop’ getting upgraded, getting ready for the many multidimensional journeys to come.

The fuel for your Merkabah is LOVE. It is light. It is the joy, magic, and innocence that comes forward and through as you heal the trauma from and with your 3D Inner Child. This Inner Child transforms to your Star Seed through this conscious connection with you, revealing your Star Seed essence, as the experience of abductions (which were actually visits with your Star Family) come up and are healed. Your Star Seed’s energy is what powers your Merkabah and their freed-up curiosity to FLY and to journey. Healing of your Inner Child and your Star Seed (abduction wounding/abandonment from Star Family) is not just therapy or a psychological practice….it is critical and KEY to the ascension process.

You BEcome your Merkabah as your emotional body unanchors from 3D reality through the healing of the aspects/parts/energies that still live and resonate there. The Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Teenager are the 3D parts that we identify as most anchored there. These parts remaining undifferentiated creates a ‘drag down’ on your frequency.

Your light vehicle looks and feels like what is right and best for you. There are no rules about what it looks like, specific forms and shapes that it needs to take. You may see and feel it as the usual sacred geometric form such as in the picture I shared. You may see it as a space ship. You may see it as a many petaled lotus flower.

It is as intimate as your fingernails, your hair, your skin. It is not actually outside of you, yet generated from WITHIN your higher heart especially and projected from there. The higher heart vibrates at this place to generate it with the more love that can be received and let in, the more parts of you can let in love, the faster it can then ‘spin’.

The places you journey….the galaxies, the dimensions, the timelines, all exist from INSIDE of you and originate from this place as well. They are states of consciousness. Your inner space program and process launches from this ground!

This comes to me through the guidance and connection with Beslopah, my Blue Avian Metasoul Aspect. The Blue Avian Star BEings are here to hold the spiritual energies of the Ascension process. They are galactic ambassadors to the soul, and they are WARM feeling too. Their feathery bird hugs are AMAZING. They are here, very close, as we head into Galactic alignment in the Cosmos and from within.

I am in joy to connect with them, as is Aurora, my Star Seed child, who is healing to 5D Crystalline Child essence. Aurora took a seat on my lap in my pulsing, rotating Merkabah today after a beautifully teary reunion with Beslopah. It was a symbolic moment of feeling our connection to each other, Aurora and I, and all the healing we have done together of her pains and traumas from abductions and before that my Inner Child and her experiences from my mostly painful 3D childhood-teenagehood.

I realize today that I am BEcoming my Merkabah. It is becoming constructed and formed as my sacred humanity is arising. One part at a time becoming integrated and unified into the wholeness of my Arising ISness and I Amness. This is a beautiful process. And, it awaits us ALL at whatever level and ways we can let it in!  !

Here is more about connecting with your Star Seed child as a bridge to Star BEing contact: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/preparing-for-contact-with…/

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

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Moving From Anxiety To Trust And Surrender

By Jelelle Awen

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What seems to be UP for healing in this now is the distrust that LIVES in parts of us that really have very little reason to trust life, us, others in relationships, or the Divine. This distrust expresses as anxiety, sometimes so acute as to make it difficult to even BE in life and be social with others. Definitely making it challenging to let in and receive love.
 
Feeling this kind of anxiety is not a ‘disorder’, not something to be medicated with the latest pharma drugs. (same with depression, what is labelled as ‘bipolar’, etc. etc.) This distrust is rooted in the emotional body, the 3D Self aspects such as the Protector who HAD to come in when you were born here and create a shield to protect you from the harsh energies around and surrounding you. This protection was formed, to some degree, out of a distrust that you would actually be safe in 3D if you remained vulnerable, unexposed, innocent, pure…which is highly likely that you wouldn’t have been. This protection couldn’t prevent ALL harm from happening as your soul signed up to grow and to learn. The Protector can feel so guilty about this, like he/she failed you and the precious ones inside you that it feels like it was supposed to protect from all harm. The distrust can come from this place of guilt too. More about the Protector here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Distrust also stems from existential, soul roots too. Can be deep in the Metasoul timelines and lifetimes where betrayal and persecution and backstabbing are so common. You have Metasoul Aspects that are living these scenarios out in the now (not past at all, not ancient at all.) The energetic karma trauma created from the playouts of this distrust can run deep. It can greatly impact your romantic relationships especially as wounded masculine expressions create ‘no go’ zones related to intimacy, sexuality, and sacred union.
 
The aspect of your Metasoul that is in charge with guarding and keeping the veils in place until there is enough YOU there to handle the remembering is what we call the Gatekeeper. This Metasoul Aspect often has deep layers of distrust in the Divine especially, who it feels has left it, abandoned it, and given it a near impossible mission to protect you (and the other Metasoul aspects) in difficult densities. Even if you feel a trust in the Divine, this Aspect may not at all, which can be interesting to feel how this polarity lives inside. More about the Gatekeeper here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
The Divine Feminine is here to hold space for these masculine aspects to begin to rest. To infuse you with feminine compassion for these energies and what they have so vigilantly DONE and BEEN for you. Inner negotiation opens up as you become ambassador to all these aspects of yourself, supported by the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine too. You become loving witness to their distrust, understanding and feeling the reasons why.
 
Distrust can be moved to trust with love and by love. What previously felt like resistance and fear moves into acceptance and surrender. What was before shut down, now opens UP to receive LOTS more love!
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

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The Portal To Your Wildest Dreams Lies With(yin)

 

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Taking in a new arising desire for creativity after yesterday’s deep rest gestation gateway. It has a more balanced masculine approach to it. In a state of creation without production. This writing may not see publication. Who knows? I don’t even really know what I am focusing on today. Just being in the Now with what is moving through me. Letting feeling and intuition guide the way.

This creative motor is the root of our BEing. We are constantly creating. Responding to our inner emotional needs, fears, and desires. I desire to serve others in the name of Love through and with the SoulFullHeart process. I respond to that desire with writing, recording, meditating, connecting, and living the process in my daily life. I desire to heal, so I respond to that with feeling my inner world of parts and metasouls as the need arises in life and relationship triggers. It is not always neat and tidy. Matter of fact, it is rarely so because emotions are just not meant to be that way. If our Higher Self didn’t want to feel and experience all of this, you and I just would not be here. This is still a bit to swallow, especially if you have had, or are going through, some really serious shit.

There is a deep desire for geography change as part of this new timeline of “What is it that you really want?” comes into full view. So many desires sitting at the docks of our harbor waiting for sailing. I can feel myself in new lands, taking in new vistas, and new people to serve in Love. A mobile, responsive healing brigade of Love lovers spreading the gospel (good news) of parts work, metasoul healing, and practical ascension. Love wanting to heal the shadow into more Love. I respond to this by dreaming, imagining, and feeling the resistances and doubts within.

This gift of dreaming is what carries you through each day. It can also be what burdens a part of you too. Like, “How in the hell can I make THAT happen when there is THIS in my way!”. Yeah, good question. Well, the way is feeling what part of you is actually saying that because it ain’t you. If you are seeing the dream, feeling the dream, you are already the dream. But is just doesn’t feel like it because you are still ‘here’. “How can I be there if I am still here?” Yup…good question.

I would ask you where ‘here’ is. What does it feel like emotionally? Not situationally or geographically. Then you would respond to this feeling as being held by a part of you. Most generally an Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. Gaining separation from it so you can have a relationship to it. It is your Relation Ship. The one that you then unanchor from the dock and start sailing the tides of your emotional body with You at the helm. It ebbs and flows but you make forward progress each time to the destination you are dreaming about. In reality, you are already there, it is just these parts of you that are catching up to you. Feeling it that way gives you an empowered process rather than feeling stuck in the mud with your wheels turning. Alchemical traction.

Feeling through all the things that keep you from manifesting your dreams, feeling an inner joy, or discovering your passion purpose is what moves you to the next serendipitous moment of ‘coincidence’ and draw. Thinning out the distance between your heart and your imagination. It is not about HOW you are going to make it happen in a 3D sense, it is about WHAT you want, or are going to make happen. The timing is not up to you, but the choice to feel and heal is. Taking that step to transform your inner world is portal that takes you where you already are…in your wildest dreams.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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