Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – Financial Area Personal Process

by Kalayna Colibri & Gabriel Heartman

In this second video on the financial area of life, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer their unique perspective that is based on their own personal processes in this area. This area is one that parts tend to have the most reaction to and therefore it is an excellent area in which you can explore who you are now, have been so far in your life, and who you’d like to be as your process deepens.

The financial area challenges you, like all other areas of life, to feel what you are truly worth and what it is your most deeply want. As Kalayna and Gabriel share in this video, the process in this area is one with many steps and layers as you wade through, feel, and negotiate ongoingly with parts of you that are invested in it in one way or another.

In her personal sharing, Kalayna talks about layers of entitlement that parts of her have had around money-earning or being able to somehow automatically live a life dedicated to her vocation as a healer and have that be the main source of income. Her process has been one of digging deep within to feel and be with the parts who have held this energy of wanting to skip the step of finding financial stability that could provide her with the means to truly invest a growth process that she very much needed. She offers that parts have deep conditioning around what it means to have to work a β€œ3D job” even while you are having profound awakening experiences.

Gabriel shares about his personal process with moving out of a 13+ year career as a tenured elementary school teacher and the dwindling nest egg of savings that part of him had great attachment to and anxiety around. He offers some key pieces to feel around the idea of letting go of 3D-based money-earning and savings from a 3D-based job or career in order to let in the new possibility of earning money with the intention of deepening your awakening experiences and helping them integrate into your life, not dampen them or try to shut them out.

Both Kalayna and Gabriel are part of the emoto-spiritual conscious community of SoulFullHeart, earning income as online ESL teachers online while also earning donation money through their work as SoulFullHeart Facilitators. This money that they earned is shared among the core Facilitators and Teachers and somehow they have found their way in this picture for almost five years now!

If you’re curious to learn about more about how SoulFullHeart digests and feels money and true abundance, you can take in any or all of these videos also from the Youtube channel:

SoulFullHeart Group Call – Money, Abundance, Soul Purpose, Guided Meditation

Conscious Community & 5D Money: Day 30 – 33 Days W/Jelelle Awen & Raphael

SoulFullHeart Patreon Page Launch, Conscious Money, Gift Exchange

And there are many audio blogs too!

There are also many articles written about this topic here on the blog. πŸ™‚

Kalayna and Gabriel work for a company called VIPKID. If you’re interested in applying, they’d appreciate if you would use Gabriel’s referral link and code:
Link: https://t.vipkid.com.cn/activity/popup?refereeId=1395340&refersourceid=a01
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If you have any questions about the application process, please feel free to contact Gabriel directly: gabriel.heartman@gmail.com

7 Key Areas Article w/Questions from the website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread on Youtube, here on the blog, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

More on Gabriel and Kalayna:

Gabriel’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel-heartman

Kalayna’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.Β Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β 

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Resisting The Natural Flow Of Change

The new worlds that await us are patiently calling to us even as a part of us is so longing for that new world AND feeling like it will never come at the same time.

Part of us can use the feeling of hopelessness and despair as an anchor to hold back the natural flow of change that life and the universe is bringing.

In the first years of our lives, we marched through one huge change right after the other, with no time or open hearted other there to really feel what we were feeling through all of that. This leaves parts of us very resistant to change now as adults. For parts of us, change just isn’t safe.

Problem is, life is too big to not change, and even if we resist change and slow it down, change is ultimately unstoppable. This can leave parts of us so overworked, stressed and even angry at life, or the universe, or God, while our life looks stranger and stranger as we resist and pretzel ourselves to its natural flow.

The entire universe is feeling you as you feel this challenge. You’re not the only one. In fact, you are feeling exactly what everyone and everything in the entire universe is feeling. That’s why it’s so big to feel. There’s TONS of it to go around.

In a session with a woman yesterday, we got to feel together and begin a real time conversation with the Inner Protector part of her who’s been tasked with holding and managing this HUGE undertaking navigating change. A big heartfelt β€˜thank you’ was felt and expressed from her to this part of her that was anything but perfunctory or polite talk. A transactable feeling wave went through me and her and her Inner Protector at her words of gratitude for its role and work.

Until we find and feel the parts of ourselves who are in this push pull relationship to change, there is only the part themselves striving valiantly to manage change. Everything changes when these parts of you feel your relationship with them, your curiosity, your opening heart, your desire for real relationship.

You may not have known of this inner family inside of you, but they know you and long for your attention.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Spoiler Alert: It’s The Journey That Counts

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At the end of your story, YOU WIN! You win a hundred and ten percent, hands down! ‍‍
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You actually already know this.

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The reason β€˜it’s the journey that counts, not the destination’ is because the end is already finished, complete. All that matters or has relevance now is the journey – feeling all there is to feel, seeing all there is to see!

You are in fact so perfect, and so much so, that you, knowing your fullness and completeness came here to try on being messed up, to experience lack and loss, even forgetfulness of your origin and essence.

You came here for the journey. You came here to be curious and open hearted to every part of you who hasn’t yet gotten the memo on all of this. That’s all there is to the whole entire friggin’ deal!! This is how the game is played.

What could be funner than waking up from the dream of amnesia. Wow, it was only a dream. You are β€˜God as God can be’, always were, always will be!

Go figure!!!

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey atΒ www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Recreating HIStory: Day 3- Atlas Loved

In my journeys inward I have connected with several different archetypes. Kings, knights, soldiers, warriors, artists, magicians, and many others that we all know about. These archetypes can be related to on a personal level as a part or an aspect of us that holds the specific emotional tone. In my last blog post, I connected with multiple warrior/soldier timelines, taking them from the battlefield and redirecting them to the lovefield of New Camelot.

There has been one archetype that has stood out quite a bit in my life and that has been Atlas. His story is one of rebellion against Zeus, and his consequence of holding up the heavens. It is the image of Atlas that holds the frequency of what feels so embedded in the male collective. It is also representative of the masculine in women as well. There is the energy of burden, consequence, responsibility, shame, guilt, control, and lack thereof. He seems to reflect the underbelly of what our inner protectors really feel when they get a chance to actually be felt.

As men, our inner Atlas has taken on numerous duties and obligations in the name of providing, repentance, and distraction. He bears the weight of our light and our shadow. He is a Titan that has been quarantined and sequestered as a result of his transgressions. These can show up in 3D life experiences and those in the metasoul. A deep sense of wrongdoing from a great inner punisher. He is destined to serve out his eternity in debt.

This service of debt is a karmic burden that weighs down the soul of man in his greatest expression in the service of love. Love for himself, for others, and the divinity within. He is in conflict with himself as he IS the stars and the cosmos. Atlas has been in this semi-frozen state for a very long time. He longs to be felt and released into our huMan heart. He embodies strength, courage, passion, and resilience without suffering in its purest form.

See him inside you. Imagine where he lies in your heart. Maybe hidden away in a far-off land or maybe front, center, and undeniable. Look into his eyes and let him into your heart. What does he say to you? What does he not say to you? Maybe he just needs you to be present in his Jesus Christ Pose. Your willingness to be there and feel is what helps him to let go. To give you his fears and his reasons. There is something so powerfully beautiful about this β€˜broken’ man.

Feel him as separate from you, yet a part of you just the same. He can put down the World he has created in the name of Love. The World that was never his to begin with but was assumed over time. Be with the tears, the pain, the guilt, the fear. Let the flood of your love and the Love of the Heavens reign down upon him, and hold the axis upon which his shoulders once rested. Fold him into the bosom of your feminine and begin the healing of so much Time.

In his recovery he will arise as the center of all that you had forgotten was You all along. Let that be a sacred healing that extends to all the hearts and souls of men everywhere. He will need to reconcile with his Punisher, but for now, he needs to let in all that he received from your courage and grace. Atlas no longer shrugged. Atlas loved.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Recreating HIStory: Day 2- Seeking The Brothers Of The Battlefield

This is the second in a series of writings that I am feeling guided to share about my personal, yet very collective, journey into the shadow of the masculine heart, and the soul aspects that are contained within. The purpose is to feel and heal what has still been hidden around power and leadership in the service of Love to Self, romance, community, humanity, and Gaia. I look forward to any engagement that you may feel guided to express along the way. You can even recommend a place for me to go that may have some significance for you. I feel this is a co-creative journey between myself and those that take this in. You can find the beginning of the series at https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-gabriel-heartman/recreating-history/

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A few days ago, with the assistance of the divine feminine guidance of Jelelle, Raphael and I took a meditative journey into lands that seemed to shift and change. It was difficult for me to determine a specific timeline. It was as if multiple timelines were presenting themselves at once. But the theme was the same. A carrying out of orders for an emotionally and spiritually devoid leader. Not following our own heart, but projecting our own power unto the throne of dictatorship.

Death was all around. Bodies strewn across a battlefield. The energy in comparison to my own frequency was quite intense. I saw my own β€˜brother’ taking things from other fallen men. We were guided to turn β€˜off’ the scene, remove the war vibe, and connect to these souls in trauma. In their eyes, I could see and feel the PTSD. The insanity of it all. The vibration of the violence still lived inside. To feel the serenity of the stillness was a stark contrast. At that moment, these men could feel the depth of how far they had β€˜fallen’, how much they had given away in their own search for power.

It was important to stay separate from the scene. I have tended to dwell on the story when all that was needed was to β€˜grab’ the brother out of the situation and place him in another frequency that is much lighter and higher. It is not about just releasing the energy either. They needed to be placed almost in an ICU environment that Raphael and I are calling New Camelot, a more 5D frequency. This gives these lives a new lease on a new life. A new timeline to integrate.

What I learned from this experience is that our β€˜past’ lives, which are really happening right Now, are energetic imprints in time/space. That is where the karma lies. In this rescue mission, led by our Higher Selves, our Protectors/Gatekeepers, and other guides such as Metatron and others, we are seeking out this karmic energy so that it can be transmuted into love and integrated back into the Metasoul. The gifts of these lives, no longer stuck in the karmic swirl, are the increasing sense of true power that is centered in love and not fear.

Raphael felt, too, that it will be important to bring these lives back to their original timeline(s), so that there can be a completion of the ties that bound the hearts and souls to the leader. A loving β€œfuck you” and an invitation to bring them and the other men into the fold of our Higher Heart. That is where shit gets collective!

Wow… I am seeing this whole new world of what our imaginations are capable of! We truly have the gift of recreating the world from within, one cluster of lives at a time. This is going to be a wild ride. I feel a possible series of writings coming from this experience that will invite other men to seek their own inner quantum multidimensional healing journeys. That is a mouthful, but more importantly heartful and soulful. I look forward to what is arising and will arise in me as we continue to unfurl what lies at the core of our male story.

More to follow…..

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Recreating HIStory: The Journey Of Healing The Heart And Soul Of Men

This is the first in a series of writings that I am feeling guided to share about my personal, yet very collective, journey into the shadow of the masculine heart, and the soul aspects that are contained within. The purpose is to feel and heal what has still been hidden around power and leadership in the service of Love to Self, romance, community, humanity, and Gaia. I look forward to any engagement that you may feel guided to express along the way. You can even recommend a place for me to go that may have some significance for you. I feel this is a co-creative journey between myself and those that take this in. You can find the beginning of the series at https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-gabriel-heartman/recreating-history/

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Our imagination is the portal to our healing and our greatness. It is the receiver and transmitter of our multidimensionality. The stories we create, witness, or both, bring us into a relationship to our selves and our other lives living in this Current of Now. There is no knowing whether these stories are β€œtrue” or not in the 3D scientific way. They are just embraced and felt. It is the feeling of the story that brings us to the precipice of healing.

This can be difficult for many men, myself included, to lean into the intuitive imagination as a guide to where the healing lies. It has direction but it is rarely linear. A more skeptical part of us may have a hard time just trusting what is being seen, or even β€˜seeing’ at all. And then, of course, is the fear of witnessing what we may not want to see. A hidden or repressed reality that lives within us in our consciousness in protected and/or locked places in our heart and soul.

My journey has taken me into a deeper realm of my unconscious, my shadow. It has been centered around truth-telling and care-taking. In my initial explorations, I could feel a deeper distrust of my own power in relation to others, women, and life itself. This comes from a part, or parts, of me that feel to keep a lid on the volcano within in fear of what it may expose, or harm.

When I felt more into it, I could sense a collective male dimension to it. The over-expression and under-expression of true male power. There was a feeling of many timelines where power was abused and lorded over. It was both claimed and given away. It feels like a necessary journey for any man to come face-to-face with his own conqueror, demiurge, and killer, as well as the dominator and suppressor of the feminine.

This is not to assume singular responsibility of guilt for the collective, but rather to feel where power and love were not aligned with each other in our HIStory. Where do we have brothers in our soulscape that are experiencing the horrible events that have caused so much suffering and death? Where have we felt deep shame and guilt that have caused our truth to remain contained in the depths of our being? Β 

This is a cosmic rebalancing act of ambassadorship. A quantum, multidimensional service of love. I feel to stop here and let this digest as I have written more about a meditation experience that I had with Raphael and Jelelle recently. It is proving to open out the possibility of a longer arch of writing that will focus on the journey of discovering and feeling the heart and soul of men. Feels like a big thing to take on but I can follow the feminine in me telling me to take it one step at a time.

To be continued…..

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Messenger Of Your Boredom

By Raphael Awen

Boredom, withdrawal, antsiness, emptiness – none of these are β€˜negative’.

You cannot be negated. A part of you can very understandably want to negate or put an end to these states and exchange them for more desirable ones, but the healthy, alive and lasting way to the more desirable is not by paving over, or powering through, or pretending it’s all okay.

It’s not all Okay, and every passing day is adding to that awareness inside of you. That’s what’s happening here. Your spring loaded soul essence is rubbing up against a path you are on and is producing the friction of the boredom, the withdrawal, the ache for something new.

It may not be fun, but it isn’t negative. This is a very powerful positive and alive soul spark in you that is asking for your attention and love. Your soul wants to take you through a change, a death; yes, but not without the rebirth that follows all death.

There comes a tipping point where the baking in the oven of boredom is done. You are hollowed out to your core. You have made room for what you really want. You have cleared out something profound that you are done with.

You surprised yourself. The new was on the other side of feeling all there was that needed to be felt inside of the old. The old contained all the alchemy to produce the new, as you were willing to feel all there was to be felt.

The universe is feeling through you. What is it like to be in a dead end job that stifles your true creative power? What is it like to remain in any relationship with anything or anyone that left unaddressed, only serves to keep you small? The universe gave you this assignment and is wanting your notes on the outcome. How could you pass the test with flying colors and pass along the rewards to everyone coming in your wake?

In your success, we all succeed. In your failure, if you could actually fail, we would all fail. It isn’t failure, however, if you’re not done. None of us are ever done. That’s the one thing we cannot do, to make ourselves β€˜done’. We are inextinguishable life in an infinite reality. There’s no on/off switch. Life can go through hell, but it is always heaven bound, for it carries its heaven deep inside. You are this heaven awaiting more and more and more manifestation.

Boredom itself is proof of this. What is your boredom wanting to tell you? Can you hear its voice? Give it a pen and paper and let it transcribe its feelings to you. Step into your higher self to listen and to feel all that the boredom wants and needs you to feel. Feel the fear of it never changing. Shed the tears this part of you feels of feeling unnoticed as you give this part of you your deep noticing. Follow the deep light and engagement now found in loving this part of you, in allowing it to fully give to you its gifts that you were not ready up till now to receive.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Care-Taking Is Not Love-Making

I am currently in a process of feeling arising layers of care-taking and truth-suppression. This has been an ongoing theme in my healing journey. I questioned whether to get personal with it but that feels like it hides something. Doesn’t really make it true or real. As one who offers his heart to others in service of love, there can be a part of me that wants to teach from my experience rather than just be vulnerable to it. It is the vulnerability that needs to lead in leadership, not the suppression. That dog don’t hunt anymore.

This all comes about as my sacred romance is seeking deeper ground to walk upon if we are truly wanting to fly. (Yeah, that doesn’t make mental sense but my heart gets it.) Suppressing our truth, whether conscious or not, is a multi-layered dynamic in one aspect, but is also just plainly rooted in fear in another. A fear of being seen as an ass, a fear of harm, a fear of collapse, a fear of getting even closer. The latter is probably the bigger fear for to a part of us, for the higher you climb the farther it is to fall.

Care-taking is not really love-making. It keeps both parties small and parts in stasis. It may feel loving in a way, but in the greater context of growth and genuine care, the truth that feels insignificant is being made so by a part of us that fears that Love is not in charge of the outcome, even if it is completion or judgment. The fear of rejection and pain from within is what we are avoiding.

It is getting in touch with the part of me that doesn’t trust Love, women, men, people, life, et. al. It is a soul reconciliation of karma that may be playing out among individuals and metasoul aspects. There can be a history of abuse on both sides of the coin. It is also the deep fear of intimacy and what still lies in shadow as we go deeper down the rabbit hole.

The care-taking is a resistance to reality. An allergy. It is not a pleasant thing to feel how that can be a part of me that is keeping someone else small in order to feed its own fear of bigness and love. It is not to be judged but held with compassion and curiosity as there is always, in my opinion, a damn good reason. It is choosing to go into the depths of my own heart, seek guidance and reflections from others as that is the only way we can truly see and feel ourselves.

Love doesn’t always feel like it should. It is meant to poke and prod, rattle and shake, crack and release. This hermetically sealed creation we call our reality is bound to give way to a Reality that is found in the depths of our human heart and soul. It is already present. We can deny it, but it does come at a cost, usually greater than a part of us truly wants to pay. The only thing that is guaranteed is that wherever our truth brings us is where we were meant to go.

I guess I did wind up teaching there. Just part of my soul. I feel the words teaching me above all so that it can resonate with those it is meant to serve. If you are interested in feeling more into your healing journey with those that are in constant reflection and feeling themselves, we offer a free introductory call to see how SoulFullHeart may serve you. You can email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

By Raphael Awen

You are the one you’ve been waiting for.

By our very nature, we subscribe to different pictures of reality and then these pictures manifest in our lives as β€˜proof’ of our reality.

We are then biased towards the reality we created, be it a desirable one, or not so desirable, negating the multitude of other possibilities we could have created and seen as real, on the projector screen that we call our lives.

What is more real than our created realities is this ability to create realities, and even reality itself. This reality, we really need a lot of courage to face.

If the above is true, it leaves you and I responsible. It doesn’t offer us any condolences on our bad set of circumstances that life dealt us. It offers you and I deep awareness of our power.

Being responsible doesn’t mean it’s your fault; far from it. This isn’t about fault, but rather, the opposite of your fault. This is about your perfection. You are already perfect AND you are being perfected; both are true. You are taking your perfection out for a spin in a testing ground. You are response-able, meaning able to respond, able to choose to respond, able to choose with what and how you will respond.

My truth is that there is always a response point, a choice point in front of you that is about your deepest and next going-on place. It’s not that difficult to see. It’s not a hidden treasure that will take great tests and trials to discover, but rather something quite plain. Any obscurity around the choice is a product of the part of you who isn’t ready to embrace that going on place.

If part of you isn’t ready to go on and make that obvious choice, what about choosing to get to know that part? You don’t have to jump into the choice your soul knows is your going-on place by forcing or pushing the choice. You are able to choose your response. You can choose curiosity and self awareness (love) to embrace the part of you in resistance to your next choice, allowing self love and negotiation to flow naturally toward empowerment.

If you are unwilling to make that choice, then you are left in a hope-less place. You are employing your power in service of staying stuck, for the moment at least. Codependent friends, family and mates may caretake you in your choice to remain small, but life won’t. Life doesn’t see you as broken and needing to be caretaken. Life will honour your sovereign and powerful choice and leave you to the encircling standing stones of circumstance that you call your life as your current reality creation, awaiting your deeper choice point.

This is how I choose to see you. This is the reality I want to create in myself and those around me. We are the anchors in the storm. You are the one you’ve been waiting for.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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In Denial Of Our True Power

By Raphael Awen

When we deny the true power we do have, we end up reaching for false power we don’t have.

Within each one of us is truly unlimited power and potential. It is not β€˜power over’ others, but it is β€˜power with’ others, because power by its very nature is sourced in the source of The All which is love. When we attempt to utilize power for malevolent reasons, to harm, or to take, we are not connected to our true power, but are acting out of the deeper fear of being powerless.

If we pause to reflect on our own lives, or the life of anyone around us, well known, or not so well known, we can readily see this ongoing relationship we all have with our own power. Even those who reach the heights of what we call and esteem as power, possessing great financial wealth, can actually be the most dispossessed of their own true power. Without an assurance of one’s true power, no amount of external power can compensate for this absence of internal knowing.

You are meant to feel powerful. You cannot live and love in a healthy life without a grounded sense of your own power. Trust in the universe is power. The currency flow of trust and care in relationships is power. Real power is the healthy flow of love that you feel coming to you and through you, that affords you a sense of deep wellbeing in the world.

But what do you do if you honestly lack this? You reach for the true power you do have – the power to be honest with yourself. If you are willing to be honest with yourself, no one, and no thing can stop you. This is personal disclosure.

If that’s true, then why is it so rare? Why are we in thrall collectively to superstars who are full of externalized power, but empty on the inside? Is it because we have been conditioned and conned out of awareness of our own great power?

My truth is that the path for anyone of us into our own power is to find and feel the part of ourselves, the self within us who doesn’t feel powerful, who holds this conditioning of powerlessness. This is the portal to our true power. When we get to really know this part of ourselves, and feel its feelings, its sufferings, going on inside of us, we enter the portal of our true power.

Who would have thought that the path to power would be about exploring our innate feelings of powerlessness? We busied ourselves instead in the self help aisles, and churches, and meditation halls seeking ways to become powerful, rather than to get in touch with our powerlessness. We sought out compensations to cover for our impotence. And in it all, all of these great efforts and undertakings and trophies of power now tumble into a deep call to get to know the powerlessness that they were founded upon, a bandaid to cover over. The real prize is finding this portal that we couldn’t see before that is the entry point of our consciousness into the fullness of power that we are.

It makes sense that we would deny our true power, that we needed to, even, in order to come to terms with such infinite and great power that we are at the essence and core of our being. We needed to learn what it isn’t before we could learn what it is.

Every circumstance in your life that makes you feel powerless, isn’t actually β€˜making’ you anything. You created and drew these circumstances into your life as a theater in which to awaken, a theater in which to choose. It can be hard as hell, (though it doesn’t have to be) but this is also evidence of the power you actually are; you chose a path that would challenge you. You chose a path where there was something truly at stake.

So when will you be done with the pretense of power that prohibits you from entering your true power? When will you leave off the Viagra chemicals of pretense power and begin to re-experience again what a natural and healthy flow of your power looks and feels like, able to rise for the occasion, and to take a bow when the performance is over?

I can tell you that every last one of us, bar none, will be needing to find and feel these powerless parts of ourselves. In an infinite power universe, you are left feeling like more of a beginner the deeper you go.

This is a brand new world and it’s here now. No need to wait on any saviors, other than you. Your desire, your ache, your choice to embrace your next going-on place is what this whole deal is about.

If I, and SoulFullHeart process feel like a resource to you, do get in touch. I’d love to serve your arising bigness into the world. There’s a party of epic proportions underway and this is your early invite.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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