Tag: spiritual healing

Opting For The Heaven You Don’t Know

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By Raphael Awen

Opting for the Heaven you don’t know, over the Hell that you do know, will call upon everything in you.

Deep in our essence, we know love in the profoundest sense, yet we struggle to feel it and know it in an everyday sense. We are love. We are heaven. But we took a forgetful journey to the far away land of love’s lack in order to grow into more of love’s ever expanding infinity.

This is where you find yourself now, feeling far away from love, yet actually BEing this love, while feeling the parts of yourself and others that are not yet reconciled to this love that we all are.

You are love, yet you experience hell.

The craziness of this will constantly incline you to attempt to make many temporary and false heavens out of the hell you are actually in. When you live in the forest, you make your house out of wood.

If you want to get to know more of the real heaven that you don’t yet know in your everyday experience, you are going to have to spend some of that bank account that you are holding onto of the hell you do know.

The hell you know is the currency that will buy you the heaven you don’t know, what you really want, if you are willing to spend it.

This will require admitting that the hell you are in, is in fact a hell; that you are willing to leave it; and that you want help to find your way out. If that isn’t true for you yet, you simply aren’t done with your sacred chosen hell and what the time there is meant to bring you.

This will also require that you are willing to authorize a resource(s) that you recognize as being part of your emerging heaven to assist you, guide you…that they represent your higher self, your heaven, in physical form, a projection and manifestation of this future you.

This will require feeling the painful gap between where you are now and where you long to be, and all that this gap is meant to alchemize in you.

If you are at this place, you have entered the place of true adventure, where the first step is actually as grand as the last step, as they are all steps on the same sacred journey, where none is more meaningful than any other.

If you feel like you are not at this place, see if this feels like you, or instead a part of you, and then see if you are ready to show up for this part of you and the hell they find themselves in.

 
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

 

We Are All Deeply Enculturated

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By Raphael Awen

Every last one of us has been deeply enculturated.

We’re left with taking responsibility for the cults we find ourselves in.

The first cult we were subjected to, seemingly by our own choice, was the cult of ‘the individuated out from divine source’. This cult left us with a kind of bi-polar disorder of on one hand fearing being returned to source against our will and having our individuality taken from us, and on the other hand, fearing not being able to ever find our way back to oneness source, left in a hell of separation and individuation forever.

Talk about having all the bells and whistles of having been in what feels like a harmful cult! Our hangups, anger, hatred and dysfunctions suddenly make a lot of sense. Could anything be more painful than losing your awareness of your true identity, leaving you and I out begging life for any kind of substitute scraps of survival forms of love that can be had?

Eventually, as we come to take responsibility for this first cult and the many other cults that we’ve wandered into and find ourselves in, we come to discover that while it most deeply feels like we are separate and separated, we never actually were. We come to see that we are in fact as close as we ever can and will be, and all that is awakening is only a realization of what IS, and not any kind of attainment of anything that isn’t already.

We are left with the task of attaining what already is.

We need all the dramas of life and relationship as the story and culture setting to get us to the moral of the story which is LOVE, not as an injunction to dutifully ‘be more loving’, but as a dawning awareness of the essence of what you and I already are and always were, leading to just simply and truly being the love that we are. The only injunction we’re really left with is ‘just be yourself’.

The deeper awareness in all of this that WE CHOSE this as the soul beings we are, calls us to feel all there is to feel in reaction to our present awakening. Only now can we begin to feel these roots of all of our dysfunctions and querks both related to being human, as well as related to being birthed into being a soul. Only now can we begin to feel and take responsibility for our true awesome power.

It’s like we’ve travelled to a far country, with strange language, weird food, and customs. We don’t know how to be here and we don’t know where to find what we desire as familiar love. When we do find something that feels familiar, that feels like family, we often find that the comfort it once gave no longer does. Our deep inborn hunger for love calls us on to seek new forms and experiences of the love that we are. We find ourselves again invited into new forms of cult and culture, given our bents for attachment and our needs for love. Now, we can take conscious responsibility for what we choose and for what we most deeply want; a new culture of love.

We didn’t come here for any kind of instant fix. You were never broken in fact. If anything, you were fixed in love and wanted to unfix yourself being the explorer of the infinite love that you are. You and I came here having it all and we couldn’t help ourselves but to want more. We came here for a process. We came here for relationships. We came here to feel and heal all there is to feel.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Live Stream With Kalayna & Raianna TOMORROW, Aug 2nd, at 4pm CDT!

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by Kalayna Colibri

Only one more week until Lion’s Gate and the energies are helping us open up and out, guiding us to new ways to BE and inviting us to honour the sacredness of our humanity as we move into another year of openings, awakenings and deep movements. It truly feels to me like Lion’s Gate IS the ‘new year’ celebration for the spiritually conscious, as we bathe in the waters of renewing light and incoming waves of love.

Raianna and I felt guided to hold this live stream as an opportunity to feel these energies, to feel the next places in our consciousness expansion and inner healing that they are inviting us into, no matter what age, label, sun sign, etc we may feel most resonant with or that parts of us may be attached to. It feels like this live stream is about feeling our realness, the sacredness of our emotions no matter how messy, feeling how life and Divine love continue to invite us to inhabit vulnerable leadership, feeling how we are being guided to BE with ourselves, others and love itself as we continue to move through our personal activations and integrations on a soul, heart, and star seed level too.

This, we feel, is what the new wave of what has been known as ‘New Age’ spirituality is about… being real, bringing our truths yet with care, being where and who we are in this moment with an openness to feel that this is not all we are or all we’re meant to be and have. From this place of going into our depths, we get to awaken to more of who we are as individual souls and we can connect to our galactic aspects too that are waiting to reunite with us.

We will also lead a guided meditation tomorrow, to hold space with you as we all go inward for a moment and feel our next pieces we’re being invited into in service of love to ourselves and others and our next layers of feeling what the ‘new wave of the new age’ means to us all on a personal level. You may even meet a galatic Metasoul Aspect of yours who has been waiting for contact with you, if it’s time for that in this phase of your personal journey.

We look forward to digesting all of this with you tomorrow and welcome your questions, comments, and personal sharings as well!

Tune into our live stream at 4pm CDT tomorrow (Aug 2nd) on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience or on my Facebook page: Kalayna Colibri.

Much love,

Kalayna Colibri & Raianna Shai

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

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The Road To Lion’s Gate: Enlightening The Metasoul, Embodying Humanity

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Enlightenment is not an achievement.

It is a process of a series of profound and sacred realizations none of which is meant to be an ending place. It is an unfolding of remembrance. A story that we are reading backward and at times you reach the beginning of a chapter. Then there is the space between the beginning and the end of the next one.

You are a process of being, not a state of being. Each state is merely a stepping stone to the next. Whether the state you find yourself in is bliss or despair. The over-attachment to bliss is very similar to an over-attachment to despair. There is a fear of what lies beyond or underneath each. How could an over-attachment to bliss possibly be a ‘bad’ thing?

Any state of bliss is really a deep experience of Self beyond the plot of our karma. This is a state where we are outside the story and if there is a lot of trauma it feels oh so damn good. Why would we ever go back into the story?! We go back because we have a free-willed destiny to bring that very bliss into the story. To recreate the pages with the love that we experience in those bliss moments.

Right now we are walking among the ‘dead’ and unborn. What we have previously thought of as the ‘past’ and ‘future’ is always ever Now. Our story lines, our Time Lines, are converging and merging. This is what we call our Metasoul. Our special story, both individually and collectively. We are in a time of Divine Opportunity to reconcile and bring love to the karma we created as a result of our forgetting. These timelines effect all of our parts whether 3D, 4D, or 5D. Your ‘this life’ wounding is intimately connected to ‘other life’ wounding and vice versa.

This healing is meant to bring more bliss and joy back into our grounded humanity as a fuel to lead us to the next unfolding and deepening. Love is on a joy ride and that doesn’t always mean things are in constant bliss or despair. It is just constantly real and sacred. There is a lot happening underneath our created veils, the protection we needed until it was time to let go, move on, and go IN.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Road To Lion’s Gate: Feeling The Rumbles Of The Eclipse

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Here we are on the other side of the eclipse. Picking up pieces, coming out of the ash, and/or integrating all that was downloaded into our hearts and souls. It was an intense time for many. The deep feeling and shedding of all that has been not serving, not allowing love to enter its domain. But the desire for us to heal is strong among Gaia and Her galactic fans. This road to wholeness that passes through many trials and tribulations, is an ongoing, yet lightening, journey.

You are not in some spin cycle of turmoil, though parts and soul aspects of us may feel that way sometimes. This recent ‘event’ was meant to highlight and access that which has been hidden in the depths of your soul. The unworthiness, the shame, the guilt, and rejection. Those energies that have collected in your being as we have traveled and traversed the time/space dimension of experience. It is a time of unpacking so that your load is lightened and your vision and passion become clearer as we all approach the Lion’s Gate.

You and I all have an opportunity in front of us. A choice point. Which direction do we wish to progress? I do believe all directions lead us Home as part of a chosen path, but here is a moment when we can make that an even deeper conscious one. As you assess your life, feel the truths within you, and let them come to the surface of your Now, then you are given a gift to heal and create new timelines. To end cycles and determine new paths.

This is not some blissy affair at times, though on the other side of the pain is the horizon of Joy. It is a deep dive of Metasoul lives and this life trauma that is coming at us at an increasing rate as the veil that we have placed before us is thinning. The protection that was created in the form of Protector and Gatekeepers is beginning to reveal themselves and there is a lot to be with in that awakening.

Over the next week approaching the Lion’s Gate I feel to keep a finger on the pulse of what I feel is moving in our collective, yet also individual, journeys through this next phase of our ascension. We all have a choice to let this be something extraordinary. It is going into the depths that offer the air of expansion and profound new days. Join me in the healing, the discovery, and the creation of what we know to be true and real in our hearts and souls. The stewards of a New Earth that first begins with You.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Anniversary Of Choosing Love

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By Raianna Shai

It has been exactly one year today that I moved to Mexico. Not only that, but it has been one year that I really began to see myself. To honour the unique and different parts of me that may not always coexist in harmony, but that I have come to realize care for me and each other so deeply.

One year ago I began a deep dive into my emotional body and spirituality that shone a light into the dark corners of my existence. What I uncovered were often scared parts that felt unworthy of love. From a fierce protector that did anything it could to protect me and my other parts to those young and pure parts that I felt needed protecting.

The biggest and most beautiful thing that I learned this year was how to love. How to love these parts of me, because that’s all they really need and want. To love others so genuinely that I can let them go knowing it’s best for the both of us. To love all of the souls I haven’t met yet by cultivating love within myself first.

I have learned and felt how setting boundaries (with love) is the biggest way to nourish your soul and to send the message to your parts that they matter. That the energy I choose to be around and take in, matters. I have learned that boundaries don’t mean hate or not accepting someone for who they are. When done from the heart, boundaries are the most loving thing you can do when someone you care about cannot yet see their own bigness or yours.

I spent a lot of time away from my family before moving here but something has changed. They aren’t just my family anymore, they are my soul family. I’m at a place now where I don’t have to hide. I don’t have to put everyone else first because I know that they are taking care of their own parts as lovingly and fully as possible.

I’ve always loved helping others. Talking through what was going on in their lives, making them feel better, finding solutions or a silver lining. But I wasn’t giving that to myself at all. I was so scared of the dark places inside of me that I couldn’t even nourish the light. I would help anyone I could to escape the emptiness I felt inside. I felt so disconnected from my soul and judgement towards the intense emotions I could feel sometimes. It was like a drug hit to be able to feel someone else because in some ways I refused to feel my own parts.

Even when no one asked, when they would never expect me to hold as much as I did, I was there. It was my vice, my escape, to be able to be in their world and not my own, knowing I wasn’t happy. Knowing I wasn’t doing what was really in my heart. While also knowing I couldn’t help anyone in the way that I really wanted to.

I’ve got a lot more exploring to do but I feel that I am where I am meant to be in this moment. I am happy, I am becoming more fulfilled each and every day, and I am open to whatever it is this life (and others) lead me to next. I chose everything I have experienced this life and I’m more than happy that it led me here.

So thank you. To SoulFullHeart, to my soul family, to everyone who has ever touched my heart, to my parts, to my experiences, and to myself. For this journey we’re all on is precious. It’s hard, it’s arduous, and it can feel complicated to parts of us. But wow does it keep on giving us gifts!

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What Lies Under Staring Above And Beyond

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What is this new world a part of you seems to be awaiting?

Does it sometimes feel like you are sitting at the edge of precipice or the shore of an expansive ocean just waiting for ‘It’ to arrive? The Exposure…The Contact…The Shift…For those around you to wake up to everything that you see, hear, and feel.

It may feel like It is coming for others. There can be so many reasons why parts of you feel like they are stuck in mud, spinning in circles, or constantly in pain. So many reasons why ‘It’ is not coming. Yet what is ‘It’ you are waiting for really?

Permission? You have it if you want it. You already have the authority. It is a part of you that feels unworthy or afraid of actually creating the world you see and feel deep inside of you.

External shifts? Those only shift when you do. When you make the choice to step out of the drama and heal the trauma, the fight, the rage.

Guarantees? The only thing you can control is your level of surrender and persistence. This is your power that does not take but has a steady compassionate march into the unknown, for the world you seek has been veiled into forgetfulness.

Underneath it all is your desire and need to be loved, to be seen, to be free of all that has limited your consciousness from experiencing life to it fullest and deepest potential. It is your (and my!) insatiable appetite for More. To go beyond this broken record of survival and secrecy, and transmute into abundant possibilities of thrival and romance, both inner and outer.

This is what I feel undergirds what the eclipse and Lion’s represent in the deepest recesses of our hearts and souls. It is the reason why we stare into heavens because we are ultimately staring into ourselves. This is the Great Healing that can only start inside of you.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Blood Moon Eclipse As An Emotional And Spiritual Cleanse

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Painting by Annie B @ www.annieb-art.co.uk

There is a vibrating anticipation with this upcoming eclipse. The uniqueness of it creates a buzz on the outside that is reflective of the buzz on the inside. One is not separate from the other. As these celestial bodies make their way into an energetic alignment, so too are our emotional, spiritual, mental, and physical bodies. Imagine them as parts of your own SOULar system. When these bodies start to come into contact with each other, there is a great energy that begins to rumble.

As I checked in with my celestial counterparts this afternoon, I was given a symbolism of what this blood-red lunar eclipse means to me personally, which telescopes out to those that it is meant to as well. (Sometimes to feel the collective you simply just need to feel yourself). There is a big feminine shedding that wants to take place. Just as the uterine wall needs to let go of all that is no longer needed to make way for the new cycle if the seed of creation as not been sown.

This shedding is a felt release of all that is stored inside your own emotive cells. It actually wants to shed those walls that have kept all the stored pain, trauma, and fear in stasis, or cycle. It cannot come with you entering into the Lion’s Gate for it will weigh you down. But more important than the upcoming gateway, it wants to go because it is just damn time!

This is not some intense cleanse with punishing tones, no. It is a sacred process that has you in deep connection with all the areas in your life (both inner and outer) that are no longer of service to you going forward and UP! The length of this event is as it is so that as many of us on Gaia can let go and let in the next steps in the ascension journey.

Even in its feminine nature, it is not a passive process. You don’t come out new on the other side without making some deep realizations and choices. The choices are the activation of what has been learned and felt from seeing/feeling into the depths of your own shadow. This is deep personal, emotional, and spiritual revival.

As you live into your days, feel where it is that your own eclipse may be showing you where there are feelings/truths that have been hidden away, built-up, and cordoned off. Where is the energy stuck and swirling and looking for release…and relief. This is another opportunity to move your reality into a new dimension that is only authorized by your own will to feel and heal it all.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Inner Child Transmutation – Healing As A Key Aspect Of Ascension: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 16, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter starts off with a piece by Jelelle Awen where she invites you to feel your Inner Child and the many frequencies this part of you has and holds. She offers that this part is an important aspect of our Ascension:

“So, connecting with your Inner Child links very directly with your Ascension and Awakening process. It is a KEY aspect of the process. Trying to avoid or divert or bypass from healing the Inner Child doesn’t seem to work very well and shows up in other ways such as abuse patterns in relationships, ongoing suffering, body disease/illness, cap/blocks in ascension, etc.

The Inner Child is a crucial energy to ‘come along’ with you on your journey! Invite them into your heart space and discover the rich and vast rewards of this INtegration! There are so many gifts freed up as you integrate these energies back into your BEing again…”

This week, Raphael Awen has shared the latest SoulFullHeart Patreon Money Update for you to take in and digest along with us. Our money picture continues to shift along with our desire as a community and individual souls to deepen our service-of-love picture. We invite you into this inner world of SoulFullHeart and how we experience/hold money as a community.

There are many new writings this week from Gabriel Heartman, Kalayna Colibri, and Raphael and Jelelle Awen, along with some new audio recordings too. This week we have articles covering a range of energy updates; invitations to continue to feel and integrate parts of you and your awakening experiences too; and sweet ways to feel the love that wants to come in and BE with you in every moment.

You’ll find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

Masculine Space Holding For Women

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Lately, I have been holding session space for two amazing women as well as witnessing other women’s processes in our group calls. This has been an interesting experience for both myself and them, especially when there is masculine wounding in the emotional body due to abuse.

What I have been experiencing with these women is a deep and profound healing between the masculine and feminine within. As a space-holder, I represent and reflect something to the parts of a woman that are in trauma. This can be father, son, friend, and/or romantic partner. I become a symbol of the masculine himself, embodied in physical form.

As I have been in the process of healing my own inner masculine, as well as my feminine, I am able to be a new presence in the experience of these wounded aspects. All of this, of course, is only possible through my connection to the woman’s Inner Protector, her inner masculine that has been around a long time in response to the patriarchal dominion.

This connection and relationship helps to bridge a relationship between you, the feminine, and the Protector. He gets to be seen and felt as more than just a tired and dutiful guard. He gets to see how he has been relating to you, how he sees you as a being. Usually, at first, they may admit to seeing you as child-like, yet capable at the same time. An interesting dichotomy that creates confusion in their ‘role’. By having this inner masculine connect to another masculine energy seems to relieve something in them that permits more of the authentic feminine within to arise.

Through this relationship, you and I get to explore the ways in which the personal experience of the masculine has created pockets of pain hidden deep in the caverns of your heart. With an open and compassionate heart, we feel where this has MANifested on the inside both in wounded feminine and masculine parts and Metasoul lives still in deep suffering. Holding a different masculine frequency from the one that has been experienced, can bring up a lot of distrust and a lot of painful memories that get to be transmuted from you to you as you hold these parts of you close and dear.

The healing moments are tender, touching, and quantum. They create new experiences within yourself and help to draw more of what you really want, need, and deserve into your life. It is a service that has been an honor to participate in and serve. It has brought a lot of gifts and a deep sense of admiration for all that Woman as held and been through. There is no sense of duty in this for I am healing that wound from my own experience. There are boundaries and loving nudges along the way.

If you feel that an open-hearted and direct masculine presence is something that is a curiosity to you and could serve a deeper dive into your healing and ascension, I am available for a 90-minute 1-on-1 Bridging Session for 55 USD. We can feel together where you are and where we may be able to go on this journey together of reconciling the masculine and feminine within.

Much love,

Gabriel Heartman
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.