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Feeling Feminine Stillness In Shifting Times

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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In moments like these, with much rumbling and shifting and changing going on, I feel my feminine stillness arising alongside a deepening trust more and more often. I feel my body, heart, soul and mind too, soaking in a pool of still yet steadily flowing water. A paradox, yes, as we all are too it seems, always in motion somehow or other, always moving with some sort of current, finding our new breath on our way out of birth canals. We find our ways to BE with what IS but still find ways to hold the rumbles, trusting that even as parts of us quake in the emergence of NEW, we will find our desires being answered. Without entitlement, I can feel what is coming and that it’s already here too. I can feel the impending life shifts that are coming and the parts of me that are scared. I can feel the humility this offers too, as I allow in these fears just don’t fuse to them as I used to so often, not all that long ago. MY version of arising feminine stillness and deep trust has been an intense journey of forks in the road, sharp turns around jagged corners, and collapses into the processes of NOW.

I feel so much in my heart that can hold just about anything that comes up now… after having processed so much, I feel as if my container has expanded and can hold as much as it needs to. The next step is really letting in the care of this container, feeling what energies are okay right now, what my body and heart need right now, what my parts or Metasoul aspects need right now.

This process… is the one we are invited into as men AND women. It is a going in to find stillness, to bring this gift into our daily life moments, our relationships, any emotional underpinnings that are being unearthed, any spiritual endeavour or discovery. It finds us like the river finds the ocean. It finds a way to breathe outward while going inward. It is paradoxical and yet it is just what IS, without mental framing necessary. It is the ultimate in self-love that will be more felt by women than by men, in themselves at least, yet this stillness holds an offering to men too, to find their portal in it in a mate, in any feminine connection, and inside of them too to the degree that they can let this in and embody it. More paradoxes there, yes. It is endless.

Where the resistance ends, the stillness begins. And the trust your soul has always somehow had, finds its way to your consciously held life structure, whispering to you of new possibilities, and offering to you some NEW pictures of what is to come, if you can do the work necessary to let it all in… ❤

 

Join Jelelle Awen and I at our next SoulFullHeart Virtual Group Call for Women NEXT Saturday, June 15th. We would love to have you! Go here for more details. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Moving Out Of The Dark Night And Into The Dawning Of The Day

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By Jelelle Awen (with Archangel Metatron)

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The sunlight from the Great Cosmic Sun is emerging over the horizon. It is cresting NOW into our world here with Gaia – spreading its light across all the darkened lands, seeming to melt away with its heat all the shadows that remain. Its rays are illuminating that which has been cloaked and unseen. Light is coming in now, offering clarity on that which has seemed like such a mystery, unsolvable, unknowable, and unreachable.

The sunlight is our healing hearts, our compassion, the BEST of our humanity beaconing out AND going in. The sunlight is our healing souls, our bigness, the BEST of our divinity coming in. We, our sacred humanity, is rising as a NEW day of the soul dawns offering possibilities to each individual soul and to us ALL as a collective. We are rising as we remember our capacities of both heart and soul, how BIG we can BE and ARE that takes no power from other, yet is WITH them and comes from within.

Warmth, too, is coming back to us after so long in the cold. Warmth comes with new tenderness for ourselves and with others. Warmth comes with new, genuine kindness for ourselves and ALL aspects of ourselves AND with others. Warmth comes with new compassion for ourselves and WITH others. Warmth comes with expressions and desires for a much deeper and REALER intimacy with self and with others.

It seemed sometimes as if the Dark Night would last forever. The murkiness of being lost would define us and we might never be found. Parts of us feared that we might remain as shadow people, unable to see through the fog of our own amnesia or the veils we placed over ourselves. We worried that our battling, our urge and need to defend, would destroy us and Gaia. We wondered if we would only be defined by suffering, unable to access the joy of our Inner Child or the goodness of our worthiness or the lightness within our souls.

Yet, the Light Day is dawning. With this dawning comes the invitation for illumination of SELF, to clear the fogs and to lift the veils. The invitation is to put down our arms, our weapons, our shields, our battles, our wars, our conflicts – happening on both the inside AND the outside. To meet and greet our inner battles, to feel and heal the aspects that feel suffering and so bring more suffering into our lives. To DO and BE all of this with love and so transmute it ALL into something NEW.

The Light Day brings disclosure of that which has been hidden. That which has been packaged becomes unraveled, no longer able to sustain its false edges. That which has been hollow or superficial is invited to go deeper, to move into an expanded consciousness that the light of awareness can bring.

I feel Archangel Metatron forming these words with me (and AS me). So his divinity is shining through my humanity. I feel His hopes and desires for humanity. He longs to have more relationship WITH us, together, seen more and felt more as equals because there are NO hierarchies in the higher dimensions because ALL are ultimately One and return to Divine Source. He feels admiration for all that we have experienced in our Dark Night journey and he offers a hand to us now to pull us through, up, out, of what we have known and into a NEW world with Infinite Vistas of possibilities.

It is an EPIC phase for humanity, in this NOW of transitioning from Dark Night to Light Day. The epicness will play out in ways that may be difficult, painful, mean more temporary loss….as the old gives way for the new. So much support is BEing offered to us by angels such as Metatron, Michael, Magdalena, and many others. And by our Star BEing Metasoul aspects and Star family too, who are helping us with this transition on a cosmic level, yet also will be assisting us on a practical level too as we transition from the outdated modes of 3D lifestyle and into the higher consciousness ways of the light. And, we can find comfort and support in each other, in coming together as soul communities as an aspect of our Dark Night was feeling that we HAD to do it alone and that we were separate.

As we move, now, out of our collective Dark Night, so do we also honor the darkness and what it offers us, what it teaches us, the brinks it brings us too and the edges and the cliffs of our consciousness. We are learning that we can SURVIVE this darkness and that we are NOT it, even as it has been inside of us and needed to reign for a while. We are learning that the substance of us is LOVE and always was even when it felt like it wasn’t. We are learning that what is REAL about us is that which cannot be destroyed or claimed, yet just IS, arising and dawning as easily as the sun greets the day every morning. And so IT is and so are WE, dawning into what we were always meant to BE!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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Let’s Fall

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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It’s that threshold

before the further step.

 

A feeling that there is something

MORE

if only

we tip over.

 

Let’s tumble down this hill

for a jumpstart

while the edge is right here.

 

I want those scraped knees

and grass-stained jeans.

Those ripped up shirts

that tangled hair.

The one way

to tear down curtains

over those layers

that need revealing.

 

I want the melting heart

knee-buckling feeling

of an opening coming out

from deeper within.

From outstretched arms

held tightly

around an us

that can hold it all

somehow…

find ways to be in it

trusting

that the ways it leads us

often unknown

will show the silver-lined paths

of newly trodden soul circles

leading back to the heart.

 

I want the air of it all

the sea breeze

and the moving shorelines.

I want the ease of connection

worked for

contended for

and loved for.

The commitment from inside

that brings it all out

through these filters

no longer hidden

but now faced

and fitted

and trod out.

I want those memories

pinging between us

of lifetimes

still lived

and seeping through.

 

Yes,

I want a lot.

I want it all.

And when it’s here

that downhill tumbling

heart fumbling

reality of its power

will move all the while

within me

As I walk hand in hand

with you

and we find our way through

together…

 

Let’s fall

and rise back up again

over and over

as we have never done before

and bring it all out

to be felt

held

cherished

in the eyes and hearts of each other

and the Divine

sacred love

that holds every moment

and movement

with ever-expanding hands

and ever-healing souls.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

The Beauty Of Our Messes: Living Life From The Heart

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Gosh, claiming someone or something can feel like a big leap of faith. It is an agreement to fall in love. It can get to a point where even claiming the next step of the staircase can feel like a lot, like you and your parts know somehow that life as you’ve/they’ve known it is about to change. Some of us are more cautious than others. Some of us dive in head, heart or soul first, no matter the circumstance. There could be a balance here, and yet the whole point, it feels like, is to allow yourself to be ‘out’ of balance. To let something or someone new that’s arising in your life tip you completely sideways and add some new wonder to every fiber of your existence, known or unknown. Parts of us have all sorts of reactions to this and it’s important to feel every one as it arises, paving nothing over, and yet the messiness of it all, even feeling in hindsight what was buried, IS the point! Sometimes our growth edges cannot be planned or deliberately planted, yet stumbled upon. And sometimes this is the only way to find them.

As children, getting messy was easy! It was the way we learned to communicate, the way we learned to play, the way we learned how to BE with others and also with things. We shed tears over broken bones and toys and friendship bonds. Sadly too we also learned how to punish ourselves from the inside and as we learned what was ‘wrong’ and what was ‘right’ we also learned how to judge others for whether or not they followed the ‘rules’ as we learned them. Parts of us or subpersonalities began to form around these traumas, identities and ways of ‘seeing’ ourselves started to develop. We stopped being willing to get messy, sooner or later, for the consequences, which no one could feel us in at the time or offer us heart-centered guidance through, soon became things to avoid, avoid, avoid… it feels like this is when we learned how to stop falling in love, falling on our faces or bums or even our hearts when necessary, whether over a person or a butterfly or puppy, or a flower we just really wanted to run to in order to take it in deeper! We wanted to play, we wanted to learn how to fly, we wanted to experience the whole world with every sense alive in us. AND none of us were born judges or critics or even fanatics… we just WERE.

Our worlds of discovery, uncovering all we wanted to, became answered by knowledge. So many of us eventually began a path of seeking and spirituality in order to find magic in life again, and yet even this has become a place of only seeking knowledge and not actual experience. Not the same experience that falling into and sometimes on top of your heart can offer. It’s not the same as the inherent sense of spirituality we were BORN with, that got snuffed out because we had to go through phases of this. It’s been a tough road of remembrance and so it continues to be sometimes, but this innocence, this heart-centered love of everything, is still there. The healing, the difficulties, the FEELING is all worth it to find this place inside the inside of us again. We are constantly being invited back inward, back to that place where the magic has always been. We can’t return fully to that place where we were as kids, and yet we wouldn’t want to, for all that we’ve gleaned from our life experience has been a gift that’s meant to integrate with this child within, hold it and treasure it too. As we claim each piece of who we are, who we want to be, who we want to be WITH, we find our way back to the pure love we came from, bringing our full treasure chest with us that we always wanted to find as children but needed life to bring it to us.

A childlike claim of the love of discovery, of life, of love itself… the claim of another in romance, the claim of ourselves in pursuit of our deepest healing and experience of self love and reverence and worth… this is all within us and the more we allow in the possibilities of mess but still go IN, the more we seem to grow and the greater our depths of soul and heart seem to BE.

With each firewalk we endure, we find our power again, and realize we never lost it but it was our power that chose it in the first place. With each step into the wilderness, we find that getting lost only means being found in a new way. With each garden bed we till, we make friends with the bugs and learn to love the dirt under our fingernails. And with each fresh beat of our excited hearts, we learn yet again, that even the roughest seas bring us back to the shores of love and the light we’ve always had within. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Weekly SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 22, 2017

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Welcome to another sailing of the SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter! This week we featured a NEW energy update from Jelelle Awen, regarding incoming light waves lighting us up, encouraging a deepening of soul and heart claims in ALL areas of our lives. We also have a recording from the virtual group call for women last weekend, featuring some stunning teachings from Jelelle that men and women alike will benefit from taking in. The main article this week is from Jelelle and offers us all a perspective on bridging our ascension with our emotional body. This is one of the main foundations of the SoulFullHeart process.

We also feature another pool of writings from the week, by Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna. We welcome you to immerse and soak in the SoulFullHeart ‘heart tub’ with us, as you continue your own journey to feel and heal your own parts and experience your ascension and awakening at deeper and deeper layers of your BEing!

If you would like to take in this week’s Museletter, please go here.

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LOVE to you!

 

SFH museletter May 22 2017

 

 

Feeling Rumbles Within: A Conversation With ‘Love’

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by Kalayna Colibri

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I once decided to have a dialogue with “Love” itself about a year ago now. You can read this dialogue here.  I felt to hold another dialogue with Love now, in the moment. Love is a fun energy to have a relationship with even as we just ARE it too. With this dialogue, I feel Love itself inviting you into dialogue too… it always has much to illuminate and offer us, directly, romantically, challengingly, yet always lovingly somehow as we continue to let it in deeper through personal process and really feel the rumbles and yet comfort it offers too. ❤

Kalayna: Hi Love…

Love: Hi Kalayna! Been rumbling with me a bit today, I can feel that.

K: Yes, Love, I have. Well, part of me has. A part of me that I need to keep feeling for a while as she heals.

❤ : What did that rumbling feel like in the moment you felt her (this part of you)?

K: I felt a strong urge to put the pain outside of me, to lash out, to pretend that the reactions coming up inside of me were someone else’s doing and not showing me something about ME… or in this case, showing this part TO me.

❤ : Yes, I felt this rumble inside of you. It has taken a while, but you’re getting to know this signal to go IN even if ‘lashing out’ would somehow off-gas the energy though not heal it…

K: Yes, this is something I’m starting to really recognize in the moment it happens. It feels like a desire to contend but I’ve learned now that this is often about a part avoiding leaning into me and instead flooding my space with its reaction, instead of asking for me to be with it and help it.

❤ : Can you feel anything else about this that you may want to share with others as they also grow emotionally and feel me rumble their inner worlds?

K: Well, this is where I get confused sometimes and maybe this part I’ve been feeling feels this confusion too. There IS a time for conflict and contention, no? I mean I’ve witnessed it and been a part of it too. I’ve felt the deeper feelings that can come of the mess, as the smoke clears and the mirror is offered by the whole situation, that really just lands you back into YOU again. I just wonder if there’s a difference between the contention part of me was looking for today in the moment (that I didn’t let her go to, just brought her back inward), and the contention that offers a mess but gifts too… can you offer me anything about this, Love?

❤ : ….sometimes these questions are better answered by experience and experimenting than by mental answers, as you know, loved one. What does your heart feel about this?

K: I feel as if I’m still living into the answer. That sometimes mess is just how we need to learn, and yet mess doesn’t need to happen in the same way always either, giving us chaos to find our way somehow ON TOP of the reactions that can’t always get resolved this way. It feels like the answer is usually about checking inward first, at least for me right now, to see if the conflict is based in a healthy advocacy for self and desires or if maybe it’s a contention a part is having with ME or with another part, actually! Contending with a mate because you or part of you feels mistreated can actually be a chance to see each other more and deepen the bond, unless at this point the bond is completing… but if the conflict is really just from me to me, it could be projecting something outward that means I really need to inward to resolve it instead. In any case though, it’s still about YOU, Love, wanting to move something… wanting to come into each person and relationship more and more.

❤ : Yes, I am ALWAYS trying to help bring something to light that needs to heal and move! So advocating for desires and needs that aren’t being met is where the contention comes from in this example, yes? This is what you are feeling, loved one?

K: Yes, Love, something like that… and we can’t really know until we’re in it if it’s a part advocating or if it’s our purest hearts. This is humbling, actually, as it could still be coming from a wound even if we feel quite righteous in the moment. I think maybe sometimes the contention can be both from a part of us who is wounded and still needs US as well as from our purest center of feeling YOU, Love! Ah, this is so not something just anyone can really feel, is it?

❤ : Not without really being willing to look at themselves, no! Also, this is what becomes illuminated in relationship ONLY, it seems, as relationships are meant to push buttons and oh how I LOVE to push buttons when needed! ❤

K: HA! Yes, yes you do. And even though parts of me may resent that a bit at times, in the end they are given the gift of still feeling you Love…

❤ : …now that there is more of me inside of YOU, Kalayna, and you can hold this mirror up for them! I love to love you and your parts. It doesn’t matter to me if you are messy messy before finding me and letting me in again. You have your own flow of me that is moving you onward and inward to more and more healing, and, YES, MORE love!

K: Thank you for everything, Love…. I know I wouldn’t be me without you, because you ARE me and I AM you… and you ARE what connects me with whoever is reading this and whoever I have the opportunity to BE with in any and every moment. I LOVE you, Love! And serving you is fun too!

❤ : And it will become FUNNER! I LOVE you too, of course, Kalayna. I am looking forward to more unfoldings and flowings with you, within you, to you and from you. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Unfolding And Transforming Through Emotional Process Work

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by Kalayna Colibri

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This stunning artwork is by Julia Watkins

It’s a phase of unfolding and unfurling. A time of feeling through the constricted, tense places inside that have been protecting the most precious places and parts, the most vulnerable aspects of myself and my soul too. It’s personal and it’s not too. I feel how these new movements that reveal more going on at a deeper stratum inside “me” is also a reflection of the collective. This work builds bridges from me to me and also from me to you, making it so exciting to be with even though there are challenges too! It’s really about uncovering a LOVE bridge, built by and of love. This is a major motivator to keep going IN, remembering that it’s all about love anyways and in that, there can be no harm and no suffering, if love is truly, deeply let in in the process.

I’m venturing into deeper soul territory now, as my 3D emotional/pain body continues to heal. I feel like it’s unfolding like the petals of a flower. Like a lotus, the heart continues to open, growing UP from the mud felt and held and healed within. There is a part of me that I’m beginning to feel very poignantly, who wants to keep a hold on the soul frequencies and pain from emerging fully. She needs me first, it feels like, before much of that can be ventured into, which is fine. There is nothing linear about this process anyways, so it does feel like no matter what, all that I came into this life with the intention of healing, IS healing on a quantum level. Starting from the 3D roots of our humanity here and now, helps anchor us into a seabed that gives us the energy to keep traveling UP. To keep moving UP. I feel a deep honoring of my emotional body, “then” and NOW. I can see the messes and fires I’ve walked through. I can still smell the burning rubber of my inner Maserati, traversing the highways of self at an accelerated pace throughout my whole life so far.

As the intense throes of inner self-punishment and control, frequencies of “needing to KNOW and prove that I KNOW” continue to dissolve from my field more and more, I feel so much humility emerge around how parts of me have held life up ’til now.  It was so easy to slip into arrogance, awakening at a very young age and feeling my soul gifts start to emerge too. Nothing has been more humbling than letting myself NOT know and instead BE. BE with what IS inside of me, and inside of others. BE with others instead of merge with others. FEEL myself instead of cover it all over, which has helped me to actually feel others too. I have always been empathic, yes, yet a big lesson around this is that parts can use empathy to push away and not allow in genuine, heart-based compassion… unless these parts have first been filled up by your compassion for THEM

I feel as if I am “on my way”, whatever that means right now! A brand new life chapter is opening out now and I’m excited to be with all of you on it too…. however, whenever, wherever we connect. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Still Loved

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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You are still loved….

Even on those days when a feeling of un-importance
overcomes the brightest light
in your heart
and the world seems to keep on turning
despite inner protests to the same…

You are still love.

Even when times of harsh climates within relationships
move across your skies
and a feeling of not being worthy
collapses your ceiling…

You can still love.

Even if that mirror ahead tells a tale
of shadow and darkness
and the you you thought you knew
turns into a serpent of rarest truths unknown…

To move back into the self of this love
that knows this love
that feels how this IS love
is that place where the darkened skies move
into a space of contained wholeness
and held goodness.

The love of this love
is the truest guiding light
and the deepest sinew of a song
calling all back home
to the love
that they always, always ARE.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energies Inviting Healing Of Healers, Service of Love And Relationship Shiftings

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By Jelelle Awen

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Increasing frequencies of love and light continue right now and have been strong over the last few days especially. They feel almost like a pounding into Gaia and into each of us, to whatever degree we can let them in. A pounding in a good way, like a thundering heart beat to pump more love blood to the souls that need it. The time lapse from desire to thought to manifestation is REALLY speeding up….especially if what you are desiring is based on your soul purpose to serve love here and connected to a genuine desire to heal. And, especially if this desire is coming from your higher self, sacred human self, embodying more and more your healing heart AND your healing soul.

Guidance from your higher self is more acute and obvious too….coming through a sense in the heart, feelings of soul resonance, dreams, visions, downloads, synchronistic events, other people, repeating number patterns, and important connections. You are being invited to internalize guidance more and to connect with it in a personal way, not just as ‘outside of you’ coming from a ‘higher source.’ You are being invited to feel how YOU are the higher source and the guidance is the remembrance of the wisdom you can download from the Divine whenever you want.

Those who seem to need these love frequencies the most right now are those that are meant to serve love, meant to lead, meant to be waySHOWers during the intense transition that we are undergoing right now from third dimensional reality to higher frequency reality experience with Gaia.

You may have already claimed your healing gifts in certain forms for awhile, perhaps as a Reiki healer or a card reader or a therapist. Yet, still, you may have been feeling restless too for awhile and wanting to serve MORE, to go deeper in your service with others and within yourself too. You may have a sense that you have ‘reached a ceiling’ in some ways related to your expression of service. Feelings of being tired as a practitioner, being weary of ‘going it alone’ as a healer/business owner (because that’s what it is even as it is a vocation), and sense of being ‘done’ with not having enough money either in the abundant way that you would like.

It feels like healers are being asked to go to their next level of embodiment of their most authentic self and to really engage in a process of ‘healing the healer’ in a profound way in order to step into their soul leadership in an emotionally mature way. The woundings that lie below in the emotional body cannot seem to be contained or put away by spiritual frequencies in the same way as they could in the past. These feelings come up to be felt, to be held, to be related with. This process can be about identifying when the ‘healer role’ has taken over, it maybe has become more strategic than authentic, and is blocking to some extent PURE love from coming through you to others. To feel when there is actually a guardedness and protectiveness inside of you, from a part of you (the we call a ‘soul guardian’ or daemon) that resists to lead from vulnerability and perhaps even transparency too. This can be an interesting ground to walk out during fourth dimensional explorations, dark night of the souls, complete reboots of your healing practices, or just very sudden shifts in what you are now drawn to offer and serve.

If you have not yet stepped into and claimed and expressed your soul gifts or service of love as your means of livelihood, the feelings of press around this will probably increase. The jobs and careers that you could previously tolerate connected to 3D reality are becoming more frustrating and your desires for soul expression increasing. The teachers you need or workshops or books or resources for expressing your soul gifts will come to you with ease and the money needed to pay for them as well. If it is to serve your highest expression of serving love, it will find support in your life. If not, it will probably be difficult and complicated until it is finally let go and moved on from.

This is possible in relationship as well. Those relationships that support your highest expression of serving love will have an ease to them, an unexplainable resonance, common ground, easy trust, good will, and mutual respect. Those based on ‘old’ grounds of karmic binds, codependent wounds, playouts between aspects of you, duty and obligation, fear….these relationships can become more complicated, more convoluted, and more conflictual until they probably just blow up, fade away, or arise into something much more nourishing. NONE of your relationships with family, friends, and mates will just remain the same….not if you are truly letting in and receiving the love and light energies that are coming in right now. If your SOUL is (even if parts of you may resist on another level), then the life as you currently know it IS going to shift and change as THAT is what LOVE does; that is what LIGHT does too.

That is the reminder and invitation to remember…that the shifts, changes, transitions, and transformations that are happening and will continue to happen (at probably an even faster rate) are being offered from a place of love FOR you and WITH you. If it doesn’t feel that way, that is probably a part of you that is resisting love or in fear about the next steps. You can be with and feel these aspects of you that are afraid, offering MORE love to them. Yet, you can continue to move forward into your expression of love and service of love as you experience more and more yourself AS love!

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Raphael Awen and I are leading a group call on Saturday, May 27th at 11:11am CST to discuss these energies, among other things related to integration of the emotional body during the ascension process. You can join us by going here:  or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Journeying Into The Reality Of A ‘New’ Part Of Us

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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A sleepy day of process and generally being with myself… the discovery of a ‘new’ part to be with and heal led my day from this morning onward. Entering into the world of parts of us, especially parts we’re just starting to get to know, is a journey of traveling into a whole other dimension inside ourselves! Bringing your pen, journal and heart with you, you venture into your imagination and into the feeling tones of this part’s reality. Their reality can reflect long held memories in our bodies, hearts and souls. It is a place that has no age or time and they have lived there for who knows how long… sometimes they can even tell you! Sometimes there’s a sleepiness in the body and mind that comes into your being, as this journey, especially when just starting to feel a ‘new’ part, can be one of going into long-buried emotional territory and the heaviness is often palpable, somewhat hard to let in and digest.

This process began with an illuminating reflection, a mirror ‘held at an awkward angle’ as we say in SoulFullHeart, yet with love leading the way. This illumination is typically uncomfortable, yet the truth of it was undeniable inside of me… immediate *pings* of connection with this part began to emerge. From there, going in with a curious eye and heart was the invitation as I wandered forward into this now unveiled inner territory.

What amazes me almost every time I go in with a part, no matter how heavy or difficult they might fancy themselves to be, is the amount of relief that comes in just from feeling them, even in these first journal entries. They can heal quite quickly from this effort or sometimes they hold onto their pain for a bit longer. I have a journey with this part that’s unknown for now in some ways, though I can already feel where this may be going.

I wanted to invite you to gaze inside this window of starting a process with a part of you, to see if you can imagine yourself doing this too… there are so many of you who are courageously starting to do this through sessions with us in SoulFullHeart and THAT is incredible! It’s a process that has no limits to the depths that are possible, and all effort, sleepiness, openings and journalings are so, so worth it…

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.