Category: Awakening Process

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

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By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

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by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting Your Shadowland Do Its Work

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by Kasha Rokshana

I’ve felt invited back into my own shadowlands recently. Partly from reactions to what’s happening in the world at large, as there really is SO much happening all at once, yet also because of things shaking out for me personally. Plus, being here in Avalon, there is a lot that the Divine Heart Chakra pulse invites you to feel, explore (especially within), and reconcile with.

My shadowland explorations have me exploring my relationship to my truth, to what empowers and doesn’t diminish me as a heart/soul/woman WHILE keeping an open heart. I’ve always been a feeler, but now I’m asked to feel even deeper. And, not for my own sake alone, but for the sake of the service-of-love I’ve come here to embody and offer.

The textures that live beneath the reactions, that open the portals to the vulnerability…the fears, tears, longings, and heartaches that live in parts of me, aspects of my Metasoul, and the sacredness of feeling without mentally tracking. My masculine can have a hard time with the latter sometimes, yet my feminine, as she becomes more and more embodied, usually ‘wins’ that toggle with her heart spaciousness and gifts of self-permission to just feel without needing to ‘know’ a single thing about ‘why’.

The darkness and shadow of the outer world… well, it has its own playout, doesn’t it? Ultimately, my heart and soul trust it all, even as there are many things to feel. As an empath and healer, I feel it’s important to let the cries of the world move through, just as the cries of my inner world do. The world around me also has hurt, aches, longing, and fear. It wants so much it doesn’t feel worthy of receiving yet.

As I awaken deeper to my own shadowland and the power it holds, I awaken to the shadowland of the collective and what is being explored, consciously and unconsciously, by all. I feel the sacredness in everything that is churning and burning, even as I let the impact of it move through my own opening and healing heart. Perhaps the biggest piece that still lies in shadow, is the impact of every choice, action/inaction, and every deeper feeling tone left unfelt and instead overridden.

“The darkness still has work to do…” and it certainly IS doing the work it’s here to do. We can only surrender to that process, trust it as deeply as we can, and let it help us all heal individually and collectively.

Love,
Kasha ❀

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β Visit https://www.soulfullheart.orgΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β 

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

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By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

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by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space,Β 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same…Β 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

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by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began.Β 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❀ 

Love,

KashaΒ 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Open Your Heart To Your Inner World, Then Open Your Heart To The Outer World

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by Kasha Rokshana

You respond differently to your outer world, the more you genuinely respond to your inner world. More compassion, more tears for what’s moving in the collective, more feeling of it through your caring heart, is what opens out…

It’s actually more challenging to ignore the cries of the world than it is to let them move through your heart, especially as you feel, hold, and eventually heal the parts of you that have not wanted to really see it or haven’t been able to see it and feel it beyond their own suffering (yet)…

If we are to truly open up the gates into the Age of Aquarius, we must choose our hearts, our connection with our own Divinity in a way that doesn’t bypass yet fully embraces the dark and the light within and respond to it in our outer world too.

For many of us, the fear-based consciousness that is peaking in our world is not ours to share in… yet, without choosing to care about it, feel how it’s churning and burning around us, we miss an opportunity to embody love and become the love ambassadors we came here to become. ❀

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Crossroads At The Conjunction Solstice

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I admit that I do not have a lot of β€˜this life’ knowledge of astrology and astronomy to get the full breadth of what this upcoming Solstice/Conjunction means from those set of glasses. I FEEL the epicness of it. I feel it in myself and what has been happening around me in community, in others processes, and my own journey of Becoming.

In all of that, I witness great opporTUNEity. An attunement to what we truly are as sacred humans, not just pawns in a sycophantic chess match of fear. In the beginning of this whole drama that is playing itself out, I could feel a sense of a bifurcation. At first, it came as some literal, external process but of course it is really just a projection of what is happening within each of us.

I have been feeling a β€˜crossroads’ or β€˜forks in the road’ in my meditations. One that is paved with Fear, and the other with Love. The Fear Path is one that is clear and yet subtle at the same time. On that path, I see Guilt as a huge influencer in decisions and choices. Guilt keeps us from really choosing what is in our best and highest interest. Another influencer is Unworth. Do we feel that we are worthy and deserving of Love and all it wants to invite us into in our courage, desire, and inner knowing?

As we move into and through these con-junctions, the support and the intensity both increase. We are supported to make choices, yet parts of us can struggle with them. Choices of letting go of old patterns of relating to others, ourselves, and the world. When we get to the root of our needs and wants, the choices become clearer and the rumbles get louder. We are called into choosing a road, grieving the old, and trusting in the uncertain New.

What I feel the Conjunction brings us is the Courage to go into the Unknown of Mind and the Known of Heart. The clearer we are about what serves our heart and soul, the clearer we are about how to serve from that heart and soul. Fusing to our smallness, our fear, our unworth will amplify the suffering. It is time to go into the birth canal of our choice and feel the fear along the way.

We are leaving it behind by feeling it. Grieving with it. Dying and birthing with it. Love is both a death doula and a birth doula. I have been bridging this within myself from part to part, aspect to aspect through Divine holding, connecting with Yeshua, and leaning and learning from my community. I see and feel the future inside of myself. I can taste this Golden Earth when I turn off the static and tune into Soul. It lives Here Now within each of us.

We are presented with challenges as this ascension train continues on its foretold path. Those challenges are met from the inside out and then put into practice in this training ground we have all co-created. What a spectacle of Love when you can see it from that perspective! We are all seeking love even in what may feel in the darkest of times. There is support in so many ways for you to reach for should you feel the need. Consider myself and SoulFullHeart as one of those. This is what we have come here to do and be in this world.

Sacred humans rising and loving.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ascension As A Long-Term Process Rather Than A Sudden, One-Time Salvation Experience

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By Jelelle Awen

I’m not seeing the Ascension picture of a big burst of solar flare event and we are all ‘saved’, ‘raised’, and ‘redeemed’ in that instant without pain, adjustment, or a process at all. What I keep being shown and living out myself as Ascension is the process of it, the loops and the curves, and the cyclical patterns of it. The growing from within hellish transmuting into heavenly reality of it…

The Divine Feminine particularly offers this as She knows about gestation. She knows about the patience that it takes to surrender to a process of birthing long-term rather than wanting to be saved/born/arrive/redeemed in an instant. She knows that the labor pains make the rewards that much more worth it. She knows about the death process where much is given up so that the new can arise out of the ashes.

This seems to be Ascension then….the process of being born in 3D….the choosing, the conditioning, the programming, the conforming, the adjusting, the living it out because it was what we needed and wanted to experience. We became turtles in shells, needing that safe home container and the occasional moments to stretch our limbs.

The process of our soul coming in as our consciousness transitions to 4D….the awakening, the blood coming back to these limbs, the ups, the down, the Dark Nights, the Light Days, the blisses, the messes because it is the alchemical process for which all of life is created and arises. We start remembering then that we are actually Angels and of/from the Divine and experiencing reunion with our beloved soul family monad experience of complete Unity.

Ascension is this process of feeling and healing all that 3D experience and soul experiences in other lifetimes of pain, suffering, isolation, separation AND the grounded and good stuff too of 3D living….both. BEing with the parts of us that have done their duty, been on guard, formed the necessary armor for our ‘tour of duty’ here in 3D. This process of unmasking, putting down ‘arms’, dropping the previously necessary weapons, discarding the shells, letting our wings unfurl and have some room.

So, we arise in all this letting go. We rebirth and are reborn as the layers of what we no longer need and never actually WERE fall away. The feminine within us and the Divine Mother too hold the space for this process, even the masculine impatience at times to just ‘get it over with it’ or ‘have it done.’

She smiles; She comforts; and, sometimes, She lights the match on what needs to burn.

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(with Anna & The Magdalenes, voice of Divine Feminine Wisdom)

Jelelle Awen

THIS is such an intense time…there is no need to ‘go’ it alone anymore. We offer support through 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, videos, and our online portal for resonant community connection….. very unique heart and soul empowering support for the arising of YOUR bigness into your BEing and into your life! more info at soulfullheart.org

Dark Agenda Exposure Necessitates Making VERY Conscious, Self Loving Body/Heart/Mind Choices: Message From Anna & The Magdalenes

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By Jelelle Awen

As I have been doing nearly every morning since coming here to Avalon, I felt to check in with Anna, High Priestess of Isis/Magdalenes-Essenes/the brotherhood-sisterhood of Light, etc., and my soul family monad group around the Ascension process as it continues to unfold in ever increasing ways:

Anna says now, “The Ascension timeline into New Earth 5D reality is accelerating. This acceleration is supported by Ascension codes being provided by strong solar activity, the eclipse window, the conjunction of two strong masculine energy planets Jupiter and Saturn during the Winter Solstice, and the completion energies of this 2020 year.

This process seeds FIRST and primarily within your own heart and soul as New Earth reality lives within you. The outside manifestation of this 5D New Earth reality is lagging fairly far behind in the moment, as so many souls in 3D consciousness are still plugged into its Matrix generated reality. If you look only to the outside, parts of you will perhaps feel little hope and even despair for the manifestation of New Earth in your lifetime. Instead, you will ‘see’ polarization, division, hate and fear, and very dark agendas being exposed that have long been hidden..

Just as we lived with the Roman Empire and many dark emperors/dictators in our timelines pressing their dominance and fear-based agendas in constant persecution of those awakening and threatening these agendas, so are you living through this now with increasing censorship and shunning/shaming of those who are awakening and sharing the truth. We had to find and maintain forgiveness for those who would and did do us harm. This was very challenging in moments! Yet as we connected to the heart of the Divine Mother within us and to Yeshua’s Christ Consciousness embodiment, we accessed this forgiveness as tender balm to the places within us that needed it. And, we could then extend this forgiveness (genuinely!) toward those with ‘ill will’ toward us!

We would be reminded, as I remind you now, of the ultimate purpose of this Cabal of humans and some other ‘Lizard Ones from Draco (not all!) ‘. It has been, always, to represent the darkness that is also in the light of the Divine. Yet, their purpose of doing this, holding this shadow for humanity so that it could be reconciled, is running out of necessity now and has already collapsed on the 4D levels.

For you dear awakening ones who see the light in ALL BEings and hold the New Earth reality of love and peace for ALL, this is a challenging phase for you. Again, you may see and feel little evidence on the ‘outside’ of what your soul KNOWS is possible for humanity on a higher timeline. You may receive little support and resonance from others, until you start too as you draw them to you…as will be happening for more and more of you as you heal your lone wolf inside and let in/join with your soul family to begin to live more in New Earth communities together.

During this phase of accelerated disclosure and collapse of the Matrix, you are invited to make VERY conscious choices in all areas of your life that best support your heart opening and your soul awakening. Choices that best support your Ascension rather than those that would hinder it or delay it or block it. This is especially the case with anything that the dark ones would offer that you put into your body that has not come from Gaia herself in an organic way as medicine.

This is important as the latest ‘medicine’ they are pushing as a ‘savior for humanity’ is actually more like a death and body illness doula for those souls who choose not to ascend into New Earth and to unplug from the Matrix. It serves a purpose in this, even as that can be very hard to see and feel. Yet, you, beloved awakening ones….it is NOT meant for you and could do great damage to your DNA, your RNA, your cells, your physical body and your subtle energy bodies if you accept a ‘jab’ or ‘shot’ of it.

You will always be presented with the choice to choose love over fear, even if it feels to parts of you as if you have ‘no choice.’ Your Divine Self choice would always be for love of self, body, and others. Align to this Divine Self choice and it will guide you through this time and to the other side where New Earth awaits.

It is time now for humanity to arise! You can lead this arising with your choices grounded in trust and surrender with the Divine and with your heart/eyes/soul/mind open in all moments.

We have so much love for you…reach out and we will be there to guide you as you carry/water/harvest the Ascension seeds that we planted in our lifetimes and timelines into the Now.”

Anna and the Magdalenes w/Jelelle Awen

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