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Notre Dame Burning: An Invitation From Divine Mother To Feel Your Own Death/Rebirth Cycle

Published on by Jelelle Awen11 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

As I feel into the burning of Notre Dame cathedral, I feel this sense of inevitability and of surrender too. This occurrence is a representation of the death and rebirth momentum process that we are all undergoing individually and as a collective human culture.

‘Our Lady’ cathedral is not just a representation of a patriarchal church matrix system that we are quickly outgrowing and meant to move beyond. The cathedral was not just a house of darkness and wounded shadow representation. To take an overt glee in her burning is to deny the parts of you that are still connected to expressing this shadow. There is a mourning here too in what has been ‘lost’, what has gone up in flames, what will no longer be in the same form…..just as is happening inside of our own personal death-rebirth processes too.

Notre Dame was also a temple created in honor of the Divine Mother…whatever frequencies could and did come through the filtering of the church. Whatever energies just naturally ARE innately in all of our souls in connection to Divine Feminine frequencies. NO BEing or organization or institution is just truly evil and of the dark. To feel this is to be overly polarized to a good vs. evil picture that is STILL anchored to the 3D/lower 4D matrix.

Tribute and celebration of the Mother was the TRUE mortar that held the stone bricks of the outer form together. Over the 200 years that it was created and alchemized, love of the Divine Feminine inspired and motived the formation of it. When I visited there many years ago, I could feel/sense the Divine Mother all around me….even though I wasn’t as consciously awakened to Her energies back then.

I climbed the bell tower’s steep stairs and I felt teleported ‘back’ to the timelines where other souls had done that too. With reverence and appreciation and a sense of honor, they rang the bells that were their means of celebrating the Divine Feminine. I felt particularly connected to the gargoyles and their protective vigilance, which mirrored my own inner protectors and Gatekeepers and guides that had long guarded the feminine. The rose windows reflected back the beauty of the metaphysical….. and I stood in front of them for a long time, feeling waves of appreciation for the devotion that inspired them.

As you go through whatever reactions are coming up in response to the burning of Notre Dame, there is an opportunity to feel your Metasoul aspect (soul fragment) that is connected to the church. You may have a soul sister/brother that is deeply attached to this temple as an outer representation of a deep inner trust and faith that can only be expressed this way. Or you may connect to more of a shadow aspect that needed to declare complete allegiance to the Church as a means of survival and soul experimentation.

FEELING what comes up in response to this event, making it personal, leads to the next discovery places of self and soul…..which is where it really starts to get interesting, cathartic, and useful.

I feel much love and support from the Divine Mother today to help those that need it to digest this event…..and the ongoing support from Her that is just THERE as needed and asked for. That is perhaps the biggest offering of this….a reminder that the Divine Feminine lives and breathes not in a building, yet in each of our hearts and souls….always.

love,
Jelelle Awen
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Energy Update: Last ‘333 Day’ Of March Brings More Completions, Bridging To The NEW

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by Kalayna Solais

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Energy Update: March has felt like the longest month in some ways, hasn’t it? It definitely feels like time was stretched over the course of these last 28 days. And now, coming up around the bend, we have our final ‘333’ day of this ‘3’ month in this ‘3’ year. Phew! I, for one, will be happy and relieved with this ‘month’ is over and more concrete steps can be laid for the moving on from the rubble and chaos into more order, even if it’s only temporary.

This month has so felt like a burning inferno of change and destabilization of old timelines. A month of burning and learning. We have been asked to not only walk on but co-create with the Divine (and those close to us too in some cases), NEW bridges to NEW life phases that hold much unknown in them.

It has felt in moments like these new bridges have been veiled in a thick fog too, adding extra mystery as to what could be waiting for us on the other side, yet the invitation to deeply trust the process, trust the Divine, trust that we are LOVED, has been there too. To TRUST that any risks taken this month WILL lead to more goodness, more love, and even more service of love if you’re oriented to that as I am.

Parts of you have likely been reacting to sudden changes in course or personal alchemy, to changes in relationships of all kinds, to sudden shifts at work even, especially if it is work that doesn’t align with your soul calling or what you, your growth, and your Ascension path truly need right now. Consciousness has been shaken up this month too. Lots of pots have been stirred big time by the Divine this month, giving all of us a lot to process!

All of these shake-ups have stirred up other timelines your soul is anchored in too. The veils have been super thin this whole month, giving us the opportunity to work some darker or lower-vibe pieces, integrating the gifts they offer as they teach us so much about ourselves and patterns we’ve fallen into in THIS lifetime/timeline.

A big soul process for me this month has been feeling where my soul aspects are still learning about healthy self-validation, serving love without concern of ‘performing’ or even ‘being seen’, clearing old ways of relating to people in general… it’s been a lot but it’s been right on time too, as the soul calling to step up and get bigger in order to serve more is getting stronger and clearer.

On this next ‘333 day’, it feels like we can expect perhaps some more of the shadows in each of us to become illuminated as they have been all month, along with poignant moments of celebration and excitement for what’s to come too.

I also get the sense that this coming weekend will offer some completions of deep processes held this month and a launch pad for the next phase where yes, there will still be much that is new and unknown, yet clarity will be stronger as long as you can stay the course and keep feeling your parts, your soul, and all of your desires too. ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Solar Flare/CME & Supermoon Reveal and Heal Karmic Polarities: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 18, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

This was a MEGA energy week of geomagnetic storms, strong SOULar winds, Schumann/Gaia frequency spikes, Supermoon occurring during the Equinox, and even SOULar flares and Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs)! SoulFullHeart Creator/Teacher Jelelle Awen offered many energy updates to keep you current on these cosmic events and how they may be impacting you.

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“We were receiving SUCH strong Divine Feminine codes of shadow illumination and revelation of more fear-based/karmic healing timelines with this Supermoon. She seemed to invite us to go deeper into our shadow wounds, especially those connected to the β€˜opposite’ gender and our feminine/masculine relationships within and with others. She was unsentimental in this mirroring, yet loving in the space holding as we continue to process what came up.”

SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!) Gabriel and Kalayna Solais hosted a live stream on Wednesday, March 20th for the Equinox Supermoon where they led you in a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines. Catch the recording on this week’s Museletter.

Kalayna shares a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, a vital and important aspect of your BEing who shifts from guard to guide as you begin to connect together.

There are several new articles and audio recordings from Gabriel, Kalayna, and Jelelle this week to take in about the incoming energies and how they may be illuminating shadow aspects for integration and healing. Along with positive messages of support and love from your Higher Self, Divine guides, and star family.

They are also event updates that will be occurring locally here in Victoria, BC including a free guided meditation circle on March 30 and an in person group session day on April 6th. For more info on these events, visitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

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Equinox & Supermoon Live Stream & Guided Meditation

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This journey of today’s Equinox and tomorrow’s incoming Supermoon has been a mega time of upheavals and transitions, changes and deep transformations, shadow illumination and possibilities for healing on all levels. During this live stream, SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!), Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, offer a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines.

This live stream was recording live on Facebook on March 20, 2019.

Kalayna and Gabriel both wrote about the incoming energies in different blog posts, two of which can be found here:

Equinox & Supermoon Bring Support For Transitions Into The NEW

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/18/equinox-passage-illuminates-shadow-4d-cycle-of-fear-to-heal-and-integrate-with-love/

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Equinox & Supermoon Bring Support For Transitions Into The NEW

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by Kalayna Solais

Waves of love and frustration, moments of fear and movements into deeper trust… a thin veil that has helped me experience another Metasoul connection to a timeline that feels important to keep feeling into. One that influences and infuses my current one with pain that needs to heal on a deep level, especially as service of love continues to beckon and the desire to be in a new, even more self-loving place within me continues to deepen. These are the experiences I have personally had lately through this Equinox and Supermoon passage as I continue my own personal transition into my Higher Timeline and feel all there is to feel along the way.

This Equinox and Supermoon journey has brought with it so much to look at and feel. There’s always more to address as we discover more layers in our hearts and souls… the damage and pain, and the joys and gifts too. And this latest cosmic movement has been amplifying this process.

Not only has this Equinox passage been lighting up your shadow so that some parts of you hiding there can come out, but the more you are able to trust in this process and the bigger picture, you have been likely feeling lit UP too by the new possibilities even in the midst of the rubble.

Whether you are celebrating the Autumnal Equinox or the Spring Equinox as we are here today, these seasons are transitional seasons with much being pushed up to look at and feel, sometimes in what could feel like a highly dramatized or charged way. The point of this is to help us see what isn’t balanced and start to bring it back into balance, or into balance for the first time ever, as we move through this new ‘season’.

This is part of this transitional phase into the NEW… the new way of relating to ourselves and each other, the new way of living a life that is more aligned with the Divine, with love, with the ongoing Ascension process of Gaia Herself. We are always in this transition into a more sustainable and consistent higher dimensional consciousness, yet this process is amplified and in some ways expedited during this time of Equinox.

We must bring all polarities with us, leaving nothing behind. Polarities are not bad or wrong. They are what is real. You may at peace with certain aspects of your life in one moment and then as if everything is falling apart the next. These polarized experiences within and outside of you are part of this transition into greater balance and part of the overall learning, healing, and Ascension experience… the sacred ‘bliss mess’ of it all.

There are powerful and poignant energies coming in now from the Divine Father through the Sun and the Divine Mother through the moon and especially this Supermoon. This Supermoon seems to be a marriage of the two energies. Both are beaming down to support you… to feel, to heal, to move more into love on a deeper level, especially within, so you can make more health-based and self-loving choices going forward that will align you more with the infinite love they have for you.

It’s always time to choose to seek out all polarized energies within and to feel them with your warmest heart and compassion. It’s always an opportunity to feel deeper what it is you most want for your Higher Timeline. It’s OK to lean in… to ask for Divine love and support during this time, coming into more trust that it is always there for you and with you.

Much love to you during this Equinox and Supermoon experience of healing, new balance, and profound love harvest… ❀

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Powerful Supermoon Invites Us Into EQUInox From Within

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By Jelelle Awen

The moon sees me and I see the moon…went to sleep by Her intense light and woke up to Her bright like a star in the sky. Our third supermoon in a row and the final one for this year, She is tucked as close as She gets to us and to Gaia. She is beaming down in MEGA style with moonbeam codes to take into our calibrating and crystalizing cells and chakras.

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This Supermoon coincides with the Equinox….bringing in spring here in the Northern Hemisphere. The Supermoon energies seem to amplify the EQUInox energies, which are quite activating usually anyway!

The EQUInox offers energies bringing us into balance…even if that means going OFF balance in order to come back to center again. OFF balance can mean letting go in order to let in, to arise our phoenix selves that are more in aligned trust with the Divine, to see and feel our shadow selves with much love…..as I wrote about yesterday.

SOULar codes are super powerful right now too….as I’ve been taking them in for hours each day since it is finally warm here. Spring! Getting tan again! Digging in the dirt for the first time in many months, I felt the sun codes on my back/face/arms/legs (Divine Father support) and Mother Gaia close again….in my hands, walking barefoot in the grass, leaning against her trees.

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I’ve been guided to eat light right now….just green smoothies and some fruit….cleaning out the body and digestive system in order to let in more love! Lots of activation and clearing of the solar plexus chakras as Divine will and personal will come into EQUInox too. Clearing of the heart and throat chakras too with galactic family support to unanchor the Inner Child from 3D living and traumas and come more into EQUInox union with star family again.

All these cosmic expansion and high vibrational energies invite OUR expansion too…into our higher timeline selves in ALL areas of life. Coming into EQUInox from within between our masculine and feminine aspects…coming into balance as we heal the polarities from within.

MANY blessings and love to you on this magical, special Supermoon EQUInox!

Love,
Jelelle Awen
Gabriel and Kalayna Solais will be offering a live stream and guided meditation to celebrate the Equinox supermoon today at 11:11am PST…I’ll be sharing it on my FB feed here so join them live or watch the recording later.

1:1 bridging sessions with women over 30 available with me, openings available next week! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Arising Of Our Phoenix Selves During EQUInox Passage

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By Jelelle Awen

Swirling and twirling emotions as we move deeper into this EQUInox passage. Ups into bliss and Divine surrender peace and downs into agitation, anxiety, sadness. Coming into balance offers a look and feeling sense of what has been tilted, twisted, reaching, grabbing, overly needing. This passage offers a reflection of what has been overly protective masculine and suppressed feminine…..from inside and in relationships too.

This mirror is being held with SO MUCH LOVE by the Divine. I’m feeling new and richer degrees of tenderness especially from Divine Mother for those of us long on this path. In sessions, I feel especially Mother Mary coming through very often to hold and comfort the previously traumatized Inner Child. She is inviting them into Her lap to receive nurturing and understanding to heal the frequencies of abuse that they received. This is SUCH a wonderful energy to feel move through my heart space to these precious inner children that need it so much.

Divine Mother is so supportive of us as wayshowers too…..ALL we have unearthed, uncovered, led, journeyed into, healed and transformed. Even as She offers the next and the next, there is so much honored for where and who we are in this NOW. Never judgement, yet She will be unsentimental in showing what needs to be seen that is no longer serving us.

Those fires to burn it away are hotter than ever before…..with more soothing and deep calm as balm offered than ever before too.

I’m personally going through quite a passageway of transformation with significant life shiftings too that I’ll be sharing more about soon as they continue to digest and integrate inside of my heart space. There is a feeling sense of deeper self discovery, even after so many years of doing this…and a sorting out of what has been ‘me’ and what is the arising, new service-of-love me. There is moving into more self love even as the mirror of revealing what needs to be seen is stronger than ever and often offered at an awkward angle.

What has previously been able to maintain and sustain no longer seems to have the same ground that it did as it transforms, collapses, and burns away. Even the once so beloved is being outgrown as what was once a womb becomes too limiting.

THIS is a powerful time of transformation that aligns the recent surges of Gaia’s frequencies, the SOULar winds and geomagnetic storms, and the upcoming Supermoon too. Cosmic Feminine and Masculine doing what they can to template the NEW sacred human in ever more balance.

Much love to you as we transform into our Phoenix selves arising from the ashes of the old over and over anew…..

Here is a guided meditation to connect with the Divine Mother faces of Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, Sophia, and Dark Mother:

https://youtu.be/buMlCNQp24c

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions for 90 minutes over zoom for $55 USD min. donation available with me for women over 30 to feel the phoenix arising, what is next, and very important emotional digestion. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

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Global Events Illuminating Shadow During This Equinox Passage

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The heart is feeling heavy with this latest news coming from New Zealand. A place that represented some last bastion of civility and kindness in the world to many parts of us. Not that it has lost such distinction but I could feel a bubble being burst in the collective. Almost like a heinous act being carried out in Disneyland. I admit I do not know New Zealand very well but it is the projection I am working with. I do know it has a relatively small crime rate…and then this.

With that backdrop, the events that happened in Christchurch are amplified. Deep despair flourishes. Ignited rage and seemingly unsolvable questions. Again the reactions are all understandable and necessary. They are part of the grieving and digestion process. How these tragedies can be prevented is a much needed discussion, but in my heart and soul the sadness lies in our human condition. Within the family of our humanity. If we focus on condemnation, persecution, litigation, and legislation I feel we are missing a deeper layer to this story. We are missing the message being sent to us via the lives of 49 souls.

These human brothers and sisters are connected to so many others in the world of atrocity. So many that go unheard yet happen everyday all over the world. Too many for us to let in the depth of. The world of social media has opened this Pandora’s Box of our collective shadow and also our collective heart. It tells our story even as it is hard to read many days. We are compelled as much as we are repelled. The rush to censure it really represents our fear of what lies in this shadow. We can’t put the top back on it. It is here and we are being drawn to face it with all the love we can muster so that we can heal it.

The radicalization of hate is reaction to a deep existential fear. A fear of losing identity, of sovereignty, of control. It is a well of unworth and a need to feel powerful when a large population is feeling powerless and scared. Love is highlighting where it has been held at bay out of this fear. A survivor of the shooting even said, β€œA part of me wants to kill him”. Of course it does. It was taken from and seeks something to make it feel better even when in the end justice can’t heal the pain of the tragedy. So the hate lives inside us all. Still. It is just coming out through those that are closer to it.

We cannot ignore what is plainly in front of our faces. The darkness still has work to do. We are being shown that we need to go into our own shadows as we grieve, react, and propose solutions. The energies of the Equinox are here to shed light on that which has been in the dark. Hidden and suppressed. It is guiding us to harness this light so that we can really see…everything. Not just what parts of us want to. This is the real grit of Ascension. It is not all rainbows and unicorns. It is not all hell either. It is our messy way toward embodied light and love.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

The Crucibles & Gifts Of Sacred Union: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 11, 2019)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week we all celebrated the marriage of Gabriel & Kalayna Solais! They were wedded on March 9, 2019, among their closest beloveds. The featured piece this week is a collaboration between the two of them, digesting the ongoing and INcoming crucible of Sacred Union, what it means for their personal processes, and how they are currently relating with it and with each other:

“In this current revolution of our Usness (the bond that lives between each of our sovereign beings), we have chosen to go deeper into this soul pairing. We have felt parts of ourselves that relate to each other’s parts in different ways. Many of our differences and conflicts arise from the meeting of these parts and Metasoul aspects. This is the quantum healing that is possible inside of this kind of conscious union. We are not together to β€˜ride it out’, but to go deeper into our growth and soul edges. We both have masculine and feminine parts relating to each other, soul contracts to feel and resolve, lifetimes of joy and pain to integrate together…”

Join us in person on Saturday March 30, 2019 from 1pm-3pm for a guided meditation and sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high-vibrational guided meditation to connect to bridge to your higher timeline and meet your Inner Protector. Your higher timeline is your life lived at a higher vibrational consciousness which you will experience during the meditation. This bridging experience may offer very specific details about what it looks and feels like or it may be more of a feeling sense or both.

Join us in person on Saturday March 30, 2019 from 1pm – 3pm PST for a guided meditation and sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high-vibrational guided meditation to connect to bridge to your higher timeline and meet your Inner Protector. Your higher timeline is your life lived at a higher vibrational consciousness which you will experience during the meditation. This bridging experience may offer very specific details about what it looks and feels like or it may be more of a feeling sense or both.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be facilitating an in-person group session on Saturday April 6th from 10am – 5pm PST in Victoria, Canada for $111 CAD minimum donation. The group session offers resonant soul community, individual process digestion space, and high-vibration connections. You will get space to share what your current process is and receive feedback and reflections from others. You will also have the opportunity to receive energy healing if that comes up in your process.

Both of these events will take place at the SoulFullHeart Community House in Esquimalt/Victoria, BC. For more info on these events, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Jelelle Awen hosted a live stream on Monday March 11 where she led a guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras. She also introduced you to your Inner Protector, the part of you that is the guard of your essence, other timelines, and other parts. Catch the recording on this week’s Museletter.

There are several new articles and audio recordings from Gabriel, Kalayna, and Jelelle this week to take in. They include several energy updates for this intense ‘3’ month, digestions of the movement into marriage and deeper Sacred Union intimacy by Kalayna and Gabriel, and other energies and invitations being brought in by the coming Equinox.

Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 30 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

SoulFullHeart Community immersion visits are now offered for those who feel ready to experience our community in person! Once you’ve had at least a few sessions, you can digest this possibility with your SoulFullHeart Facilitator.

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Peak Fear: The Uphill Climb Before The Surrender Into Love

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by Kalayna Solais

We are living into a big crescendo right now, especially pushed up by the coming Equinox and this trinity of Supermoons. I keep being offered to call this crescendo ‘Peak Fear’ and that’s certainly what it feels like is happening. We are living into a dark time where the rumble of awakening out of 3D slumber and into lower 4D awarenesses is understandably pushing up fear.

The fear though is not so much coming from a need to fear what’s on the outside and how what’s rumbling in the collective will affect you personally. The fear is actually a reaction to what’s been in your personal shadow and is now coming up to be witnessed, felt, and ultimately loved UP. The fear of seeing timelines/lifetimes where your personal Metasoul has been involved in some of the terrible crimes that are actually quite triggering for you in this moment… yet, it’s surfacing because it’s time to not blame others for the state of the world and to begin taking responsibility, finding forgiveness and love inside so that you can feel compassion for what’s happening outside.

This is not an easy process, to really feel through these darker timelines of which your soul has been a part. Yet, we’re all invited to inhabit this sometimes daunting and heavy task with a pace we’re ready for. It feels like opting to go on journeys via Ayahuasca or Peyote or any other methods of inducing these sort of processes could add to the trauma of suddenly being thrust into these timelines of darkness, yet, if this is something you feel drawn to it may be important to go into it this way. The only piece here is to remember to hold self-love around it and to have a self-loving plan for integration and space for processing what you’ve now unearthed.

This whole process of unearthing and remembering could be much more step-by-step and self-lovingly held and paced if you choose to access your Gatekeeper first, who holds the keys to these alternate and other lifetime realities alive and well in your soul. It’s through getting to know them and negotiating with them that you can begin the descent into your inner cave, unveiling the dark and the light in your personal Metasoul. Here is a guided meditation from Jelelle to help you meet this aspect of you and to start the process of getting to know them too:

I personally have not been drawn to the intensity of plant-induced journeys and have preferred the pace of self-negotiated steps facilitated by an open-hearted other who has also been there. Yet, this is what my soul has gravitated towards with having experienced many lifetimes of these induced journeys for the sake of being an oracle, psychic, etc. and may not be what you actually need at this time.

What we’re intending to heal as a collective cannot be healed by pointing fingers. This method of shaming and blaming hasn’t worked yet in our ‘history’ to genuinely change the world we live in and how it operates. We cannot fire guns (figuratively or literally) and expect to find prolonged, sustainable peace, unless the parts of you that are attached to gunfire being the answer are deeply felt and given the love they so desperately want and need.

We cannot continue to ask world leaders to hold and give us the answers when they themselves haven’t gone inward to find what’s really going on inside of themselves or their own souls. More and more leadership is being invited out from inside of you, starting with leading your own explorations into the shadow that continues to be illuminated by what you’re hearing about, reading about, and reacting to on the outside.

The beautiful thing about all of this, is that we aren’t being asked to do it alone. We aren’t actually being asked to go deep into the desert and suffer for our ‘sins’ or find penitence and to strive for forgiveness from outside of us. We are already forgiven. We are already loved, despite it all, because we have needed to walk all of these timelines out for the sake of discovery, learning, growth, and the path back to the love we’ve come from and simply ARE. Now though… now we have the choice about what we want to do with this information and we can choose to be curious instead of fused to the same reality of Peak Fear we’ve been witnessing and perpetuating in different ways.

Much love to you as you feel into whatever your shadow is illuminating for you… I, myself, am curious too about where this exploration will take me next, for there are ALWAYS gifts to integrate from even the darkest of places we must go within and I trust deeply that I will not be the same person (in a really good way) on the other side of each journey inward.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.