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The Tipping Point Of Our Pain

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By Raphael Awen

The simplicity in the complexity is stunning.

When we look at anything troubling us, we can see its roots in the loss of love, or said another way: fear.

We came from love, we still are this love, and yet we are also returning to this love. We attempted to step outside of this love to see and feel its edges. We gave ourselves the experience of what it would feel like to be away from love.

We had to form a resistance to love in order to do this. Like a sail hoisted in the wind, it is the resistance action that creates the movement and motion. Like a baby exiting the familiar womb, the time comes to push against. From the vantage point of our original estate of being so secure in love, of knowing nothing but love, we had no fear of losing love. We knew that growth would require at least the perception of the loss of love.

Actually losing love forever is no doubt the worst fear scenarios that our fears of eternal damnation stem from. But strangely, as great as this fear is, the greater fear we could not abide as consciousness beings was being imprisoned by love, with no way to escape it, with no way of knowing anything different. Without difference, there can be no deference, and thus, no reverence. What good is being a millionaire if you don’t know or appreciate that you are one?

Now, we can really feel the great dilemma that all of our everyday dilemmas stem from. We want love so bad, yet we must resist it in order to create the motions and e-motions necessary to learn of this love. We need fear in order to know love.

If this is true, then the whole point (especially the tipping point) of our pain is the willingness to feel it. The whole point of money is in the spending of it. It can’t do you any good until you spend it. Likewise fear can’t do you any good until you feel it.

We could say that everyone of our souls journeys is all about the willingness to feel our fears. All the dramas and stage sets of our lives are all directed by our souls need to feel, even at the most outlandish of production costs.

Yesterday, I felt a deep collision inside of myself, of feeling one part of my being so wanting to make big things happen, and another part of me so refusing to move a single muscle. I can feel how both of these aspects of my being have always been there, but we’re just wired up effectively to gain certain movements at different times and places. Now however, that wiring configuration isn’t what is working anymore. As I felt into the ache below it all and the triggers surrounding it, I was able to feel with and be with both of these parts of myself and deeply empathically feel their realities – how both wanted, and still do, to help me return to love. Waves of tears were able to move through as I was able to reach out to the universe, my Higher Self and particularly the Divine Father and Mother, for comfort for taking on such a wild ride.

This wild ride was and is the ride of being a being that is all love who needed to go in search of the edges of that love, only to discover there are no edges. We are nothing but love, where even our not-love is contained within the love that we all are.

There’s nothing left but reverence, tears and awe. You can draw upon this love, as this love is in total awe of you for taking on such a wild ride, for your willingness to undergo every feeling scenario that is moving through your circumstances, every bit of your history, from this life and beyond, every gain and every loss, every sorrow and every joy – all of it comes home to this hearth and heart of infinite love.

We needed to resist it in order to discover it, and to be forever changed by the journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Awakenings Invite Integration, Not Avoidance Of Life

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by Kalayna Colibri

Awakenings are not meant to be a ride into a ‘Neverland’ experience where you are exempt from life in some form because you have crossed into newly expanded consciousness.

Awakenings are an invitation into an integration of soul and body, spirit and matter, that is often SO challenging because you cannot pass through a birth canal without some oomph.

You still have to put your pants on and walk out your door… find ways to move through your life’s challenges with grace (though not always with ‘ease’), take phenomenal risks that maybe nobody who came before you in your 3D-based bloodline has ever dreamed of, maybe trip here and there, yet still find ways to come back to that YOU inside of you that your parts have been waiting for to show up consistently.

Not one area of your life can be avoided when on this path as love doesn’t caretake the compartments parts of you have carefully made for the phases of life in which they needed to make them. Awakenings open the doorway for love to flood your life’s compartments and your parts need you to show up for the pain this can cause them. This is a real, visceral sense of the integration invitation from awakenings… and it’s all held in something much, much bigger that you’re now getting a taste of.

And then, when you’re truly ready from the inside-out (NOT outside-in through certifications or any official word from anyone or anything outside of you) you WILL be called upon to embody this service of love you’ve been offering to yourself and offer it to others. And this… this will be the deepest, grandest awakening of all… That you are living into your healing in order to support and connect with others in their own… because we are all inescapably LOVE — made of love, bathed in love, and given love in every single moment of every single breath on this sacred and beloved planet we call “Gaia” and every single one of us, along with every single PART of us, deserves to remember and embody THIS to the deepest degree that they possibly can in this and any other lifetime. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Be Transparent Within, Share Your Authentic Heart With The World

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

This week we feature an article by SoulFullHeart teacher and Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri. She invites you to feel your own process of feeling more transparency inside of yourself so that you can transparently and vulnerably share your authentic heart and soul with the rest of the world, whether in relationships with others or in service to others:

“Inner transparency and disclosure are what leads to a healthy navigation of disclosing more of the preciousness of who you are to your outer world, that so NEEDS you, by the way… this ascending world and all of the beings within it need your heart and soul to be in its powerful nakedness. There is nothing more beautiful, especially when you’ve already done this and continually do this within you too.”

SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher and Facilitator, Jelelle Awen, offers up a new video which is a powerful 5D love transmission and a guided meditation as well. Join her as she rides waves of bliss and feminine integration!

This week there is also a new SoulFullHeart Millennial Digest video offering from Kalayna Colibri and Raianna Shai. The topic this week is “Self Image” and in this video, these two young women celebrate yet vulnerably share their inner processes around self-image and what that has involved for both of them.

Last Sunday night, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna got together for what is now becoming a regular “sing-along” night and out of this time together arose a spontaneous light language singing experience which Raianna captured on video! They share this video and light language transmission with you this week.

New writings and recordings are present this week as well of course, from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna too. Many vulnerable sharings along with a few potent energy updates and exploration of your shadow and desires too.

Kalayna, Gabriel, Raphael, and Jelelle all offer 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. They are available for $55 min. donation per session and more information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Millennial Digest: Self Image

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by Kalayna Colibri & Raianna Shai

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teacher and Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri, and SoulFullHeart Facilitant and ‘Social Media Maven’, Raianna Shai, share about their experiences with construction and also ongoing healing of their self-image as Millennials – a process that has been very vulnerable to feel and live into. They chose to do this video with minimal makeup, a simple wardrobe, and a fuller frame of their bodies as they give you a more visceral sense of what their processes have been like.

Different parts of you attach to the ideals of what it means to be ‘attractive’ or a ‘good person/sister/friend/employee/etc’. Feeling these parts is a process of feeling the many layers of reactions to your body, your relationships, your career or job, etc that these parts have had, very often in an intensely self-punishing way that lowers your frequency significantly. It often takes a lot of loving mirrors held up by people who have worked these pieces inside of themselves and their own parts in order to truly see how this has played out inside of you. There are many reasons why Millennials in particular may seem to be attached to constructing a self-image that can compromise their physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional health. However, this process of feeling what conditioning and self-led practices or habits have led you to become the face that you present to the world around you is a deep one for people of any age!

As Ascension ramps up and intensifies, we are all being challenged to face and feel these parts that have associated ideals of physical and emotional attractiveness with real love. Our relationships all reflect these parts and these frequencies to us as do our jobs/careers, even our choice of spiritual practice. There is an invitation to become more real, to ourselves and to each other, and to realize that what truly makes us beautiful IS our inner ‘mess’ that has so much to tell us as we step deeper into the process of loving it UP.

If you feel moved to ask questions or leave comments, you can do so here on the blog, on Youtube, on Facebook, or you can email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart events, visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

To read articles written by Kalayna and Raianna, you can check out the blog: http://www.soulfullheartblog.com

Kalayna’s teacher/Facilitator bio: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

About the SoulFullHeart process: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Find Kalayna and Raianna on Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/kalaynacolibri
https://www.facebook.com/raianna.tydeman

We offer these and many other videos, articles, audio blogs for free and happily accept any donation of any amount you may feel to offer: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

For information about a bridging session with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and ongoing individual and group sessions, visit
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Don’t miss a thing! Get SoulFullHeart’s free weekly Museletter with all our writings and videos from the week via email through subscribing at http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Returning To Money Earning

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By Raphael Awen

This may be of interest to a few sweet souls here.

Late last month, Gabriel and Kalayna put me onto an app-based online English teaching company called Palfish from China that is seeking to expand their teacher base to serve the huge market of Chinese children and their parents seeking to get their children ahead with English.

I downloaded the App, got familiar, applied, and was easily accepted. In the 4 weeks since I’ve been with them, I’ve been teaching English through the provided app to young Chinese children and have earned over $700 USD by working a few hours in the early mornings each day. The pay works out to $18 USD per teaching hour and goes up from there. Teachers also receive a $30 bonus each time a student/parent makes a purchase following a trial lesson. I’ve ‘sold’ 4 of these already, 2 in the last 2 days! Raianna is about to jump onboard with Palfish as well, leaving another company that didn’t feel like a fit for her.

Palfish is quite entrepreneurial as each teacher must create an attractive profile within the app to draw students and build their student base. The company also books the teachers chosen and available ‘slots’ with the trial classes that they offer to their customer base. Students, parents, company personnel and fellow teachers, readily communicate directly with one another through the app, providing a strong atmosphere of everyone winning together.

If you feel drawn to working online, for decent pay, in a supportive atmosphere – you can take this opportunity with you wherever you may go! This is particularly workable for us here at SoulFullHeart as we transition to England this year. For me, I know this will be a fairly short term involvement as serving people in session space is picking up, but the gifts of serving these kids and re-inhabiting money earning after leaving behind career a while back is a HUGE gift.

If you’d like to jump right in, or just check it out further, you can through this link and I’ll receive 30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did (in the event you also become an approved teacher)! Other teachers that you in turn refer/draw to the company once you become an approved teacher will also net you a $30 bonus.

Note: The company is only accepting native speakers from the 5 following countries: US, Canada, United Kingdom, Australia and New Zealand. TESL (Teaching English as a second language) certification or college degrees are an asset, but ARE NOT required for Palfish. I have none of those, personally.

If you’d like to know more, please message me and I’ll help point you in the right direction.

Like I said, If you’d like to jump in, or wade in, you can through this link and I’ll receive $30 USD as a referral bonus just because you did!

Here is the link to download the App for Android or IPhone:

https://www.ipalfish.com/klian/web/dist/teacher/mobile/invite/teacher_invite.html?uid=5202379

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love From Mystery Admirers

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By Raphael Awen

It’s been an interesting experience for Jelelle and I hearing from several people recently who have been following our blog or facebook page for a long time, but who we had never before heard from.

And what was so interesting was that the level of interest was so much higher than casual. Several people have told us that the tone and energy of what we were sharing was something that they readily saw as unique and different. One man told me in session yesterday, after contacting me for the first time the day before, that he immediately related to us because we were not ‘just loving and lighting everything’ in an ungrounded way, yet being REALLY loving to all aspects of the self. I was so amazed as he shared an intimate relationship with us through our blog that went back for three years, but that we had no knowledge of!

We digested together how this was a necessary phase of his process, to go it alone, and how this seems to be changing for him as well. I feel these kinds of changes are happening more and more for many others as well.

How about you? Are you one who has needed a sacred phase of holding your own process close to your chest, so to speak? Are parts of you becoming more comfortable and feeling it is time to issue your trust to an ‘other’ who can be mirror and guide, who can possibly earn your full and grounded trust, to assist you into what is dawning in your life now? Are you by chance one of our ‘mystery admirers’? 🙂

I’d love to be a mirror for you. Your esteem for me or Jelelle or the rest of us here in our SoulFullHeart club is actually a mirror of your esteem for yourself. You were seeing you! You are seeing you!

I offer a 90 minute bridging session for a minimum donation of $55 USD. The flow and results are amazing as you harvest the work that your soul has led. We just get to hold a birthing time together and see where it leads next.

I have time available this week coming up. You can follow the link below to make it happen! 🙂

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Returning To Stillness

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By Raphael Awen

Just spent an hour and a half sitting in a creek that flows into the ocean – never felt so relaxed this life! Jelelle, thank god, found the energy to break out the phone for a pic….. haaaaaa…..

All activity and motion is sourced in and returns to stillness.

The ‘trick’ for us is to be able to feel and resonate with this stillness in the midst of any of our activities. What better way to do THAT, than by feeling and holding the part of you who feels anything but still,…who feels stressed or anxious. We all have access to our Higher Self’s frequencies of stillness, infinite love and clarity, but we need to bridge this access to the parts of us who feel anything but.

Both are true.

One doesn’t negate or cancel the other. One cannot be accessed actually without the polarity and presence of the other. So stop waiting to become ‘spiritual’ and ‘attained’ as some condition from knowing the bliss you already are. Ascension is a come-as-you-are party, people! The universe doesn’t want your polished got-it-together self, as the universe would feel quite out of place with you showing up like that, looking all out of place. The universe is finding its way through you, through your struggle, through your desire and through your trial and what you’ve called ‘error’!

There aren’t any errors, not any more!

There’s YOU doing a sacred journey!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Your Dreamer App Is Requesting Permission To Access Your Desires Folder…

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By Raphael Awen

We’ve all heard that for most people who win a big lottery, it ends up being a major negative effect in their life.

I heard there is actually a class action lawsuit in California of big lottery winners suing the state for the damages and havoc that the big money ‘did’ to them.

But why then does the idea of winning the lottery feel so appealing? I can dream quite easily about what I’d do with the first million, and the second, and keep going from there.

I feel it has to do with how we are meant to dream, but lack the permission to dream.

For many, they find the permission to dream in a lottery ticket. ‘I have a chance, even if a very small chance, but a very real chance nonetheless of really changing my circumstances.’

What we are missing in this is feeling how the lives we are living right now have been dreamt up by us previously. Everything that is created, is created twice, first in concept or picture, then in ‘reality’. We ‘real’ize things in the personal ‘fact’ories of our creative essence. Even someone who is reputed to be the most uncreative person has created that reality.

We are the creator, and we can’t escape that.

Life is asking us to dream. But to do that, your dreamer app needs permission to access your desires folder. This is why dreaming is a no go area for many people. Accessing the desire body and all that lives there, feels like opening Pandora’s box.

And it is.

Possibly there is nothing quite as life changing as the willingness to feel what you really want. This is how life itself is wired up, and this is how it lives in every cell of your body, in every dimension that your life exists in.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our sessions and process to jump start your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

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Love Is Always A Choice

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Art by Regina Lord of Creative Kismet

By Raianna Shai

It’s not easy being here. It’s not easy being in a human body, in a 3D world.

You may feel lost sometimes. Scared and alone. You may lose all hope of ever finding your way back to love, back to you.

Getting help is always an option. But the best thing you can ever do, is come back home within.

You are strong. You are capable. You are bigger than parts of you are even ready to understand.

You may hear a voice inside of you telling you you’re not good enough. That nothing you do is right. That you’re not worthy of love.

This voice, this part of you, is not evil. If anything this part of you is doing everything in its power to protect you. To keep your precious heart from feeling the pain of judgement from others.

You may want this voice to go away, to stop treating you like you’re small. And saying no to this is important. But what if we give it something it has never known before. Love.

Love is something that every cell in our body responds to. Love is something that can heal all wounds. All pain, suffering and anything we have made to be “bad”.

Because everything IS love. That voice inside of you that cannot bear to believe it’s worthy of any goodness. The people that judge you because their parts are judging themselves too. It’s all love.

In the grand scheme of things, we can be nothing but love. We can act in fear. We can protect onto others, we can get angry, we can harm, but we are still love. No matter what.

So why give yourself anything other than that? Why remain in situations that serve anything but love? Why stay in something that makes your stomach churn, that hurts your heart, that doesn’t align with your truth and passion?

Our soul knows what we need in order to heal. We draw situations that allow us to grow as souls and we need them in order to wake up to this reality. But we still have choices. We can still choose love. We can always choose love.

From my guides, heart, and soul to yours.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, programs, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Be Transparent Within, Share Your Authentic Heart With The World

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by Kalayna Colibri

I’m really getting into this transparent sharing piece, especially because being a “young” woman leading something new in spiritual and emotional healing has meant that parts of me have been afraid on some level to be transparent, in case it’s seen as “too weak” or “not healed enough” in order to draw those I want to serve. This applies across the board to healers of all ages though. Until you’ve done the work to feel and heal the insecurities from the inside out, they remain there inside parts of you and play out sometimes in propping yourself up or posturing.

I feel as if there is a strong invitation right now though, to “come as you are”, whether you are a self-identified/life-identified “healer” or if you are seeking help and healing yourself.

Come as you are… powerful Biblical words in one way, but also a sweet way to feel yourself, your parts, your Metasoul Aspects too.

To enter into your own inner world, stripped of defenses, takes practice. There is an Inner Protector energy that may not want the way your inner world has functioned to shift or change at all. It doesn’t want to give up the ghost on the way he/she has been holding and protecting your other parts. You can almost think of this part as your inner President/Prime Minister, lording over the inner landscapes and keeping everything in order or even disarray if that’s where your life circumstances tend to lean. To feel your Inner Protector is a powerful way to enter the gateway of your own heart and parts, as it is and as they are right now. What’s the state of your inner country, your inner king or queen-dom? You can close your eyes and powerfully feel/see this right now if you want to. It’s illuminating, no matter what.

The more you visit with this energy inside of you and show up to feel and hold it and your other parts, the more it will start to trust your growing authentic/5D Self. The Inner Protector wants to hand the reign of your inner King/Queen-dom over to you, but they need to trust that you will consistently show up first. 

Jelelle Awen has created a beautiful meditation you can try in order to meet this part of you if you’re curious to feel him/her: https://youtu.be/7ciJIvrn0xA

Inner transparency and disclosure is what leads to a healthy navigation of disclosing more of the preciousness of who you are to your outer world, that so NEEDS you, by the way… this ascending world and all of the beings within it need your heart and soul to be in its powerful nakedness. There is nothing more beautiful, especially when you’ve already done this and continually do this within you too. ❤

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If you’d like support and illumination for what’s been brewing and moving inside of you and your life too, I offer 90min, 1:1 bridging sessions for young women around and under the age of 35 (for life experience reasons!). My beloveds offer bridging sessions as well: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much, much love to you on your inner journey! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.