Category: Change and Transformation
Raphael & Jelelle On The Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show: Recording
by Jelelle Awen
This is the recording of a wonderful interview that we did last week on the Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show with resonant host Crystalline Diamondloveheart. It is 90 minutes of interesting conversation about embracing rather than resisting your shadow aspects and difficult emotions. We talk about how in spirituality the shadow can be bypassed or try to be ‘cleared’ or seen as ‘negative’ and the gifts of embracing yours through conscious parts work process.
This provides a great INTRO to us, our journeys, and our SoulFullHeart work. I also lead a guided meditation to meet the Protector part of you at close to an hour into the call. We also have a special offer discount package on a session, my books, etc. that you can read more about here: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/jelelle-…/
INjoy and we’ll be appearing on the show again this Thursday, April 26th at 8:00pm BST to share some more of our sacred journey and stories together as a couple on an awakening path. More details coming soon about that and how you can either join us live or to listen to the recording afterwards.
One listener said this about the show on YouTube: “So glad you posted your interview with Crystalline. I was on the live call & the energy you and Raphael brought was out of this world. I’m looking forward to hearing it again. And your meditation was magnificent. So glad your teachings are spreading, the planet is lucky to have you both.”
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.
Recreating HIStory: Day 2- Seeking The Brothers Of The Battlefield
This is the second in a series of writings that I am feeling guided to share about my personal, yet very collective, journey into the shadow of the masculine heart, and the soul aspects that are contained within. The purpose is to feel and heal what has still been hidden around power and leadership in the service of Love to Self, romance, community, humanity, and Gaia. I look forward to any engagement that you may feel guided to express along the way. You can even recommend a place for me to go that may have some significance for you. I feel this is a co-creative journey between myself and those that take this in. You can find the beginning of the series at https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-gabriel-heartman/recreating-history/
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A few days ago, with the assistance of the divine feminine guidance of Jelelle, Raphael and I took a meditative journey into lands that seemed to shift and change. It was difficult for me to determine a specific timeline. It was as if multiple timelines were presenting themselves at once. But the theme was the same. A carrying out of orders for an emotionally and spiritually devoid leader. Not following our own heart, but projecting our own power unto the throne of dictatorship.
Death was all around. Bodies strewn across a battlefield. The energy in comparison to my own frequency was quite intense. I saw my own ‘brother’ taking things from other fallen men. We were guided to turn ‘off’ the scene, remove the war vibe, and connect to these souls in trauma. In their eyes, I could see and feel the PTSD. The insanity of it all. The vibration of the violence still lived inside. To feel the serenity of the stillness was a stark contrast. At that moment, these men could feel the depth of how far they had ‘fallen’, how much they had given away in their own search for power.
It was important to stay separate from the scene. I have tended to dwell on the story when all that was needed was to ‘grab’ the brother out of the situation and place him in another frequency that is much lighter and higher. It is not about just releasing the energy either. They needed to be placed almost in an ICU environment that Raphael and I are calling New Camelot, a more 5D frequency. This gives these lives a new lease on a new life. A new timeline to integrate.
What I learned from this experience is that our ‘past’ lives, which are really happening right Now, are energetic imprints in time/space. That is where the karma lies. In this rescue mission, led by our Higher Selves, our Protectors/Gatekeepers, and other guides such as Metatron and others, we are seeking out this karmic energy so that it can be transmuted into love and integrated back into the Metasoul. The gifts of these lives, no longer stuck in the karmic swirl, are the increasing sense of true power that is centered in love and not fear.
Raphael felt, too, that it will be important to bring these lives back to their original timeline(s), so that there can be a completion of the ties that bound the hearts and souls to the leader. A loving “fuck you” and an invitation to bring them and the other men into the fold of our Higher Heart. That is where shit gets collective!
Wow… I am seeing this whole new world of what our imaginations are capable of! We truly have the gift of recreating the world from within, one cluster of lives at a time. This is going to be a wild ride. I feel a possible series of writings coming from this experience that will invite other men to seek their own inner quantum multidimensional healing journeys. That is a mouthful, but more importantly heartful and soulful. I look forward to what is arising and will arise in me as we continue to unfurl what lies at the core of our male story.
More to follow…..
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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Embracing Resistances During This Huge UPgrading Process
Energy Update: Interplanetary Shock Wave Brings Collective UPgrades
Interplanetary SHOCK wave came in last night on April 19th that quadrupled the density of the SOULar winds that were flowing in and around Gaia. The magnetic fields near these winds intensified 10 times what they were…opening up the way for a stronger geomagnetic storm. There may have been a SOULar flare connected to this (a coronal mass ejection or CME)….probably would have been minor, yet enough to cause the shock wave. LOTS of plasma released with these energies which usually means and leads to UPgrades!
With UPgrading like this, you may experience mega sleepiness and just HAVE to crash, cannot remain conscious and walking around. I just ‘slept’ 13 hours!! Yet, it was not just sleeping, it was journeying, it was visiting Star Family for a kind of conference and supportive talk. It was also lots of astral self travel, connecting and networking with souls that are in common soul purpose of serving love with me.
All this sleeping came after a POWERFUL and wonderful experience during the Enlightened Loveheart & Soul Show appearance that Raphael and I did yesterday with Crystalline Diamondloveheart as our host. I could feel the expansion of our souls to hold and reach and transmit to a wider audience, which is part of the manifestation of our highest timeline here as galactic ambassadors. The show was a wonderful dance of resonance, personal stories, explanation of SoulFullHeart process, and even a brief guided meditation that I led to meet your Protector! We will sharing the recording of it on youtube too, and you can become a member of her radio show’s community and receive all the replays of her shows automatically here: http://www.theenlightenedloveheartandsoulshow.com/
My guidance this week from Star Family has been that today, April 20th, would offer a collective opporTUNITY for connection on a deeper level to your 5D self or Higher Self consciousness coming into your body. Even those souls that are not yet awakening will feel ‘different’ or ‘altered’ today. If they follow the bread crumbs that their higher self leaves for them, they could start going down the path of awakening TODAY, whatever that means for them! You may be asked questions from souls that previously haven’t seemed interested in your ‘spiritual interests’ or disclosure or ascension. Being open hearted and warm and compassionate toward them benefits YOU too. Becoming a bridge will be a more regularly occurring activity for all of us.
Today, with this extra BOOST of plasma and geomagnetics, you can open up and receive more star DNA upgrades in particular. Also, there is an invitation to feel whatever remains in shadow in your emotional body that wants your love and attention to move out of resistance and fear. These energies help to illuminate that for sure! I shared this yesterday too but it seems so timely….guided meditation to meet your shadow aspects in a gentle and loving way: https://youtu.be/4VnfgzhzzjE
This is a day to be very gentle with the physical body….probably lighter eating, more sleep, less stress, less outbound activities if possible…..no matter what your ‘schedule’ might offer you were meant to do today. A good day to go deeply inward, for hours even, into drift space, into meditative space, into the inner realms even if you cannot connect consciously to what is ‘happening’ to you as you do this. Good day to shut off the mental body for awhile and just float….on Gaia if possible.
One of my beloved Star Family guides offers this message to share, “Hello to all of you brave Gaians who are ahead of the curve in this ascension movement! We celebrate you souls who have chosen in this timeline to experience the ascension of your every living cell and Gaia’s too. We honor you souls who have chosen to become Christed, become Crystalline, become galactic, WHILE retaining and amplifying the BEST of what makes you human. Your capacities for human compassion and forgiveness now can extend to YOURSELF first. And then create a bridge to others with your glowing and flowing self love heart.
These energies from the cosmos support this inner awakening, this inner reclaiming, this inner reunion of all the parts that need you inside. Your star family is there to help you and serve you in this process, when you are ready to reconnect with them.
We are WITH you as you go through all this change and transition. We are WITH you as you transition into your sacred humanity. We celebrate the newness of what you are even as we remind you of the VAST ancientness of your BEing.
We are WITH you in love and for love as you navigate this journey into BEcoming and BEing!! ~
MUCH love from me and my star family to you and YOURS!!
Recreating HIStory: The Journey Of Healing The Heart And Soul Of Men
This is the first in a series of writings that I am feeling guided to share about my personal, yet very collective, journey into the shadow of the masculine heart, and the soul aspects that are contained within. The purpose is to feel and heal what has still been hidden around power and leadership in the service of Love to Self, romance, community, humanity, and Gaia. I look forward to any engagement that you may feel guided to express along the way. You can even recommend a place for me to go that may have some significance for you. I feel this is a co-creative journey between myself and those that take this in. You can find the beginning of the series at https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-gabriel-heartman/recreating-history/
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Our imagination is the portal to our healing and our greatness. It is the receiver and transmitter of our multidimensionality. The stories we create, witness, or both, bring us into a relationship to our selves and our other lives living in this Current of Now. There is no knowing whether these stories are “true” or not in the 3D scientific way. They are just embraced and felt. It is the feeling of the story that brings us to the precipice of healing.
This can be difficult for many men, myself included, to lean into the intuitive imagination as a guide to where the healing lies. It has direction but it is rarely linear. A more skeptical part of us may have a hard time just trusting what is being seen, or even ‘seeing’ at all. And then, of course, is the fear of witnessing what we may not want to see. A hidden or repressed reality that lives within us in our consciousness in protected and/or locked places in our heart and soul.
My journey has taken me into a deeper realm of my unconscious, my shadow. It has been centered around truth-telling and care-taking. In my initial explorations, I could feel a deeper distrust of my own power in relation to others, women, and life itself. This comes from a part, or parts, of me that feel to keep a lid on the volcano within in fear of what it may expose, or harm.
When I felt more into it, I could sense a collective male dimension to it. The over-expression and under-expression of true male power. There was a feeling of many timelines where power was abused and lorded over. It was both claimed and given away. It feels like a necessary journey for any man to come face-to-face with his own conqueror, demiurge, and killer, as well as the dominator and suppressor of the feminine.
This is not to assume singular responsibility of guilt for the collective, but rather to feel where power and love were not aligned with each other in our HIStory. Where do we have brothers in our soulscape that are experiencing the horrible events that have caused so much suffering and death? Where have we felt deep shame and guilt that have caused our truth to remain contained in the depths of our being?
This is a cosmic rebalancing act of ambassadorship. A quantum, multidimensional service of love. I feel to stop here and let this digest as I have written more about a meditation experience that I had with Raphael and Jelelle recently. It is proving to open out the possibility of a longer arch of writing that will focus on the journey of discovering and feeling the heart and soul of men. Feels like a big thing to take on but I can follow the feminine in me telling me to take it one step at a time.
To be continued…..
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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The Messenger Of Your Boredom
By Raphael Awen
Boredom, withdrawal, antsiness, emptiness – none of these are ‘negative’.
You cannot be negated. A part of you can very understandably want to negate or put an end to these states and exchange them for more desirable ones, but the healthy, alive and lasting way to the more desirable is not by paving over, or powering through, or pretending it’s all okay.
It’s not all Okay, and every passing day is adding to that awareness inside of you. That’s what’s happening here. Your spring loaded soul essence is rubbing up against a path you are on and is producing the friction of the boredom, the withdrawal, the ache for something new.
It may not be fun, but it isn’t negative. This is a very powerful positive and alive soul spark in you that is asking for your attention and love. Your soul wants to take you through a change, a death; yes, but not without the rebirth that follows all death.
There comes a tipping point where the baking in the oven of boredom is done. You are hollowed out to your core. You have made room for what you really want. You have cleared out something profound that you are done with.
You surprised yourself. The new was on the other side of feeling all there was that needed to be felt inside of the old. The old contained all the alchemy to produce the new, as you were willing to feel all there was to be felt.
The universe is feeling through you. What is it like to be in a dead end job that stifles your true creative power? What is it like to remain in any relationship with anything or anyone that left unaddressed, only serves to keep you small? The universe gave you this assignment and is wanting your notes on the outcome. How could you pass the test with flying colors and pass along the rewards to everyone coming in your wake?
In your success, we all succeed. In your failure, if you could actually fail, we would all fail. It isn’t failure, however, if you’re not done. None of us are ever done. That’s the one thing we cannot do, to make ourselves ‘done’. We are inextinguishable life in an infinite reality. There’s no on/off switch. Life can go through hell, but it is always heaven bound, for it carries its heaven deep inside. You are this heaven awaiting more and more and more manifestation.
Boredom itself is proof of this. What is your boredom wanting to tell you? Can you hear its voice? Give it a pen and paper and let it transcribe its feelings to you. Step into your higher self to listen and to feel all that the boredom wants and needs you to feel. Feel the fear of it never changing. Shed the tears this part of you feels of feeling unnoticed as you give this part of you your deep noticing. Follow the deep light and engagement now found in loving this part of you, in allowing it to fully give to you its gifts that you were not ready up till now to receive.
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Energy Update: Higher Heart Collective And Personal Healing
Energy Update: Another New Earth Now Wave of SOULar Winds/Storms Coming In
Drawing is by Alexa Allen – alexaallen.com
By Jelelle Awen
SOULar winds incoming again starting today (April 18th)!! Maybe you are already feeling them? These gusties are bringing in a geomagnetic storm with them that is flowing out from WIDE coronal holes in the sun’s surface. This will probably extend for three days through April 20th. And, this is after last week when so many souls felt and were impacted by the winds and geomagnetics that came in with them!
You will probably experience these energies on a physical level again through light headedness, change in sleep patterns, even your organs and nervous/respiratory systems going through shifts and changes as more Star DNA is activated on the multidimensional level. There can also be rushes of BLISS and PURE joy with these energies too. Whatever is UP to be amplified in your feeling consciousness states in the Now is coming forward.
Aches and pains can continue in the chakra vortex areas that are being activated right now, what I am calling the Personal Sun, Higher Heart, and Gaia vortexes. I felt for over two years that the chakras were shifting and received a clearer picture of that in the last couple of months. Here is a guided meditation where I bridge to these NEW chakra vortexes to allow for deeper activation and integration of these recent ascension energies:
Actual SOULar activity in terms of flares and sunspots is minimal right now, so some are feeling that the activation waves are not what they were expecting as connected to the solar ‘event’ they’ve been anticipating for awhile now. My sense is that these winds are meant to bring in more subtle possibilities of transformation rather than a sudden and one time soular FLASH that changes all of society in an instant. I’m still not receiving that sense of a one-time ‘event’ that shifts everything. Many souls would not be emotionally ready for that and it could cause huge chaos and collapse of our current 3D-based industrial systems too.
Rather there is a sense of step by step, sometimes gradual and sometimes more accelerated, activations and then integrations that are available to us in waves. This is being paced, timed and calibrated to our collective consciousness and what we can actually let in and digest. AND, it is also individually experienced at the depths and levels of where each soul is at in their awakening journey. Your personal navigation is greatly respected, as is the soul’s choices around timing and pace. This process is held by our Higher Selves, by our star families, and by the Divine with MUCH love and compassion for the impact on us.
These waves of energy carried on these winds ARE powerful and can be life changing IF you are ready to take them in that way. They can provide a boost to your soul-based clarities, illumination of your deepest desires and passions, and support your need for deep self love. There may be more personal negotiation to do with your Inner Protector and other parts of you that are still attached to 3D life, relationships, and careers before life changes can be made or the next level of 5D consciousness truly embodied. To really anchor into 5D reality as your ‘everyday’ one requires that previous 3D anchors have been let go of and this can be a very painful and difficult process. So, while part of you may be impatient for New Earth consciousness to BE yours in all moments, there may be other parts of you that are still holding on for reassurance and safety reasons that run deep in your emotional body.
It seems that this is how disclosure of Star BEing reality, technologies, and alliances is being approached as well. There is much sorting through and negotiation of where, how much, and in what ways to bridge star BEing awareness to Gaians. This is being held for application to the collective consciousness AND in the approach to each person as well. Increased star family contact through dreams is happening for those who are ready for it. And some contact in the physical as well, although this is not the favored approach in the moment as it causes more emotional reactivity and even shock/trauma to parts of us. Also, etheric journeys through meditative states are providing ‘easier’ access to star family reunions, contact memories, abduction traumas, and abandonment wounding. This is an important aspect of ‘shadow work’.
I offer here a guided meditation to open up access to your shadow aspects and whatever needs to be seen there around this may come forward for you to feel:
These kind of self-lead journeys with your Protector aspect coming along release sometimes traumatic and sometimes very uplifting scenes and emotional states that have been previously buried in your subconscious mind and emotional body. You are held with MUCH love and care during these movements by your Higher Self and Divine Guides/Aspects, so you can trust that you CAN handle whatever needs to come up and be felt by you.
Staying in heart-based appreciation and trust around these energies allows for a deeper letting in and embodiment of them. These energies are happening WITH you and not ‘to’ you or ‘against’ you. Ultimately, these energies ARE you.
Acknowledge the impacts of these energies on your physical/emotional/chakra bodies, yet also hold in heart that you are choosing to be impacted by them. Embrace the transformational shifts that come as a result of them rather than resist them. Respond with love to the parts of you that may be fearful or resistant or just distrustful of the Ascension process…or are afraid that they will be ‘left behind’.
You are BEcoming LOVE in this Now and as you more deeply realize this, gratitude becomes more and more your ready response.
MUCH love to you as we go through and in and UP together!
Jelelle Awen
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.
Your Soul Purpose Arises As You Arise Into It
by Kalayna Colibri
Your truest and deepest heart and soul vocation is not chosen by you or any part of you. It chooses you! It is not so much a process of grabbing at it or “going for it” as becoming it from the inside out, like a sculpture arising from clay, shaped by the hands of love.
Your soul purpose arises organically from the ashes of what you’ve let go of, the fires you’ve walked through, the choice points you’ve navigated. It aligns with your soul bigness, challenges you to continue your growth path, invites you into a deeper trust in the inevitability of your awakenings and offerings to the world around you. This happens even with parts of you that may be polarized to fear, trying to bury your emerging sense of it underneath layers and layers of self-punishment and 3D focus that serve to keep you small. The greatest and most frightening shifts in life, for parts of you, are the ones that challenge you the most to be your biggest self. Their push-pull around it is about the comfortable discomfort of the womb they’ve been waiting to birth from. You are the mother of your parts, gestating your soul expression, and life is the doula awaiting at the end of every birth canal, working to guide and hold you through what can feel like a very long and difficult journey.
Every part of you will relate to this journey of soul purpose differently. Some will shun it or disbelieve it and others will want it so badly that they may become the dominant part of you that holds your spiritual journey and discoveries, often with an agenda and also an overemphasis on “needing” certifications, recognition, etc. along with a feeling of urgency, of needing to be living it out NOW, without really feeling all of the ways in which you already ARE. If your soul purpose is to arise from the process of your life and your choices, then the grabbing and aggrandizing of it won’t bring it any closer any faster and won’t humbly let it in the process of claiming and deeply becoming it, step by step.
Your vocation may not be exactly as parts of you had imagined it to be, as the “self” you’ve been up until this moment thought it would or could be. Or maybe it is! Either way, you CAN trust that it WILL emerge and in fact already is emerging. You can trust that you are finding your way, even when it feels like a fumble in the dark and that the fog stretches for endless miles around you. You are being invited into your service-of-love self and you are popping through your next and next ceilings, being in your bliss-mess, learning how to surrender to love as the biggest facilitator of all and the greatest “boss”, trainer and teacher you’ll ever have! ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.









