Category: Parts / Subpersonalities

Unanchor From Being In Pain: Message From A Local Oak Tree

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

I wanted to take in some nature the other day, to connect in with myself more after some pretty deep emotional detox waves moved through this last week. There were several huge tidal waves of emotional and existential pieces I hadn’t felt so deeply in a very long time and it turned out that much of the pain I was feeling had to do with several Metasoul brothers who were awakening, stirred up, and needed me. They embody themes of betrayal, nobody wanting to listen to them, inadequacy, comparison to others, not fitting in, disempowerment, banishment, etc. I’ve only felt two specific ‘brothers’ so far, but I feel like there are more.

The veil being so thin right now seems to of course bring with it more opportunities to reconcile other lifetimes. I’ve even recently felt an ‘abusive husband’ archetype in my own Metasoul and that was a huge one to deeply let in and feel. This reminds me that during these times of the veil being quite thin, there are these opportunities to feel deep-seated soul themes that still need our hearts to hold them and our Divine love connection to help forgive and heal them. These darker themes can’t emerge within us unless we are ready for them to, so I always take this as a reflection of my progress even though it may feel absolutely crazy-making to walk out.

It’s also SO important to actually go into and feel these lifetimes when they do come forward, because it does help us understand WHY these themes are so alive today not only inside of us but inside of so many others who express/embody them, usually unconsciously, in different ways.

While connecting within and with nature today, I felt to sit underneath a beautiful, wise oak tree. I touched her trunk, connecting with my heart, wondering about sitting below her and leaning in for a while. The immediate warmth I felt was so inviting that I did just that. I felt rest and safety as I sat down in the tall grass and leaned into her sturdiness. I consciously reminded my parts and my Metasoul aspects to let in the love exchange.

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The oak tree told me,

“It’s time to un-anchor from being in pain”.

I felt this message not just for me but for a collective that seems to be moving through so much right now and always.

I could feel the truth of how this has been an undercurrent throughout my process over the years and how it’s steadily and surely been healing. I feel how this is the invitation for everyone who consciously chooses to keep going inward to clean house, to refine and redefine what it means to love yourself and also to love and serve others. We get to find our own finesse with our ongoing process, to be able to let in as much arising joy as we do arising woundedness. It does feel SO critical that we ALL begin to consciously hold our processes this way if we aren’t already!

There is definitely a balance between the transcendence or bypassing of soul and heart pain and the staying anchored in it.

We get to create a NEW ‘normal’. A new baseline frequency and sense of self, life, and how love moves within us. This is a very personal journey for each of us and for each part of us along with each Metasoul Aspect too. ❤

My beloveds and I are passionate about not just doing this within but supporting your own journey, should you feel resonant with what we offer! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Falling IN Love

Published on by Raianna Shai1 Comment

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By Raianna Shai

In the past few weeks I have been trying to find the space and time to write a blog post, finding that I have struggled to “force” something profound and meaningful out of me when sometimes just living is as profound as you need to be in any moment. I have so much desire to serve love to others and to share what I learn on my awakening journey. Even now, I have many ideas of what I could write about but the words aren’t flowing as easily as they have in the past.

So as I sit here with an open heart, energy and time, I decided just to write about where I am currently in my life. That is what’s most authentic and flows from my heart with ease.

Right now I am falling in love. With myself, with other, with my life and family. I am falling in love inside and outside. I am growing and changing and facing my fears as much as I possibly can to continue letting in all of this love.

My inner process has been focused on a feminine and masculine part of me who are also learning to fall in love. They both have desires, needs, boundaries and fears. My feminine part, who I am calling Shai, is emotional and passionate and a true romantic at heart. My masculine part, named Michael, is discerning, intelligent and has a gift of holding 3D tasks. Together, they are balanced and full of love. Apart, they are opposite forces working against one another creating fear, anxiety and projection onto others.

Because of the abundance of goodness in my life right now, I have been focusing on these two parts in order to be able to continue letting it all in. It’s easy for parts to get scared when things are going well. In a dimension where things tend to “go wrong”, we can make predictions ahead of time of what may not work or what we might lose. In that, we lose the moment. We lose what we have in the present and we don’t get everything out of it that we could.

I’m working on not expecting the worse. On not bracing myself for the impact of something bad. But first, I feel the parts that do expect the worst and discover why that is. The more that Shai and Michael vulnerably share their fears with me, the more they will fall in love and fall in tandem with one another. That’s when their gifts can shine and that love can be shared with others.

We talk about inner sacred union a lot for a reason. It’s so important to start within. To grow the glow of love so brightly that it shines through every pore and into those around you.

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I found this poem from almost two years ago that I thought was fitting for this! It’s from my masculine too my feminine:

I always thought I was different than the other men

More sensitive

More emotional

More mature

 

I thought I was protecting you from the other men

Giving you edges

Hiding your feelings

Numbing your reactions

 

I thought you’d be hurt by the other men

They would crack you into pieces

They would scratch your porcelain skin

They would break your fragile heart

 

But now I see your strength as a woman

Your compassion

Your empathetic prowess

Your stillness and energy, both

 

I thought I could hide you as a woman

Under formless clothing

Under quick-witted comebacks

Under disinterest in romance

 

Maybe now I can support you as a woman

Become the mind to your heart

Become the here to your now

Become the pot to your plant

 

I’m not meant to be your guard,

But instead your partner

Your partner in this dance

Few know the steps to

 

Where our rhythms match,

Our hearts unite

And our souls release the energy

Of every star in the nighttime sky

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Choosing To Forget

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

You’ve chosen to forget.

The desire, the rate and pace, the content of what and how you remember is also a choice.

A dynamic and powerful part of you has been assigned to hold this tension of what needs to remain in the forgotten category and what is safe and timely to be remembered. We could call this part of you, your Gatekeeper, the guardian of the necessary veil who enabled and afforded you to inhabit this desired third dimensional school without imploding.

It’s been a bit of a family joke for those that know me to have a little fun with my forgetfulness around movies. I’ve tended strongly to forget titles, story lines, and often only recall a movie I’m watching for the second time part way into the movie. It’s not all movies as some story lines made profound impacts and memories. Other movies, however, who people around me found interesting enough, I often even fell asleep to while watching.

I asked my Gatekeeper whose name is Rhodes about this, this morning and immediately my awareness expanded out that this forgetfulness of story has directly to do with the strength of the veil that I chose and needed this life. Even with Rhodes himself along with stories of my Metasoul aspects and their timelines, I’ve had trouble recalling some time following after having deep and profound processes of remembering. It would simply get swallowed back up into a sea of a kind of a sea of forgetfulness.

Rhodes communicated today that the strength of other timelines stories needed to have sufficient veil in order that the purpose of this timeline be protected. As I’m awakening, however, this movie amnesia, whether it’s about movies or about my soul history, or even this life history, is making other parts of me feel self conscious. They want to get on with remembering. Remembering, they feel is the answer to what is ached for, and the answer to where parts of me feel, I and they still experience suffering.

I’m told that forgetting is a kind of suffering, a burden to bear, if you will, that we all chose, collectively and individually as a service to the goals and desires of love. Forgetting is not static however. Forgetting is for the purpose of remembering. We hid our own Easter eggs and we wrapped our own Christmas presents. We forgot in order to remember.

I’m told that remembering is ’to be returned to being a member’, after surrendering to a kind of dismemberment from love. The forgetting had its own pains as does remembering, like blood returning to a limb that fell asleep.

I’m told that the whole purpose of forgetting and remembering was to expand love from its original perfect/imperfect state. Love itself wanted to be noticed and to be revered. It birthed duality as a place to get noticed, seen and appreciated.

Getting to know and feel this magical part of you who’s been your personal Gatekeeper is now your opportunity to negotiate the rate and pace and content of your awakening as you lovingly guide yourself and other parts of yourself through this epic journey.

Story lines from other timelines in your Metasoul await you to be felt and seen and transmuted into love. Karma itself also wants to be transmuted from the expectation of pain to the expectation of bounty and love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

From Those Who Watch Over Us: A Poem

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Solais

It’s okay if you don’t remember.
We aren’t going to leave you.

It’s okay if you don’t know.

There’s not much to know, just to experience over and over again until experience turns into the page love is written on, not the words of love themselves.

It’s okay if you don’t know who you are.

We don’t care how many carousels you ride, how many spins you take, you will still have your essence in the end.

In the end, the only path that matters, is the path you chose in every moment. And no… we don’t care how you were or weren’t, just how your experiments end. The inconclusive conclusions you come to along your way back to love.

Love.

The only Ground Zero.

The only ground from where you rose, and the only ground on which you fall.
The place where seeds are scattered, and growth happens no matter what.
Yes. All else is an illusion.

But…

It’s the illusion you need.

That holographic something isn’t nothing. It’s the most important thing right now right now and right now.

So… walk, run, fly, dream, make love, make war, make peace, get messy, clean up, climb up, and fall down.

Your sacredness won’t break, for it is not porcelain.

Your birthright to live into all realities remains intact.

Here we sit.
Here we watch. Here we wait for you to remember that the path is love, the game is love, and the light, dark, hard, easy stories are the love you are learning and remembering that you are.

❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Current Activations Help Us See, Feel, Heal Our Deep 3D/4D Matrix Conditioning

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

We have grown up in a 3D society that encourages us to stay feeling full, ‘fat’ and flat.

Over-stimulated and underfelt are the many parts of us who continue to show up in life and relationships to ingest and then digest experiences, trauma, and what we’ve been told is ‘food’ too.

We’ve been taught that compassion is only a sidedish to being empathic rather than the main course if we’re encouraged to be empathic at all growing up or to ask for others to feel us… which happens in 4D consciousness too, where being an ’empath’ is often worn as a millstone around our necks instead of deeply inhabited and responded to.

Feeling ourselves in a heart-open way, let alone feeling others, is not encouraged and is instead told to be buried and covered over by the heavy cement of our education systems, our food industries, mainstream ‘medicine’, our consumption of ‘entertainment’ and even ‘spirituality’ itself.

Parts of us have taken on the role of shaming and shunning what is new and different, what isn’t mainstream, as it blooms inside of us and around us. This is typically an Inner Punisher part, yet other parts of you can be wrapped in this too and Metasoul aspects who are afraid to feel themselves, to digest the trauma of their timelines. In this way, this very much applies to 4D consciousness as well as 3D, as there are still matrices in place, rules to follow, ideas that are more acceptable than others, and ultimately still some expectations of how it all should be and look like.

Trauma should be ‘gotten rid of as quickly as possible’ instead of steadily and heartfully investigated and loved…. this is a popular one in 4D and a meme that relates to all of this deeply seated conditioning inside. This has been detrimental to our growth and our possibilities for deepening self-love and respect as well, as parts of us then go back into hiding where they continue to feel unfelt, unheard, and ultimately unloved…

To unseat these pieces, we have to take the space to feel ourselves with deep honesty… this is the hard part, as we haven’t been shown how to do this. You may struggle with taking time for yourself due to a busy lifestyle that you’ve needed for a phase or a relationship that feels rumbly enough already. I myself have been in a phase of more busyness than normal with exploring different ‘jobs’ and a new social world too. This is what’s reflecting all of these pieces to me and is something I’m going into in my soul… what have been the over-attachments in ME that have kept parts of me reeling and spinning in conditioning that simply doesn’t fit them anymore? What timelines are my Metasoul aspects still living in that are being reflected now, where they have perpetuated this conditioning in their own ways or been victims to it?

There’s so much to glean from all of this inner exploration with parts of you and in your soul too, should the timing feel right to really go into it and INvestigate it all… you can find out more about ‘parts’ and ‘Metasoul aspects’ here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I really feel we are ALL being encouraged to SEE all of this as well as to feel it. To let the light activations coming in help it all become illuminated for us and with us, to collaborate with us individually on new ways to approach life and love… especially our sense of self-love, from which all capacity to love others stems. We CAN learn to love and appreciate the conditioning we’ve signed up for while also moving through it into something new.

Much love to you, wherever you are on your own journey with this and so much more… 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Aliveness And Love In Feeling It ALL

Published on by Kasha Rosa2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

As I look out at the horizon, the abundance of natural gifts around me, I feel the vastness of my own future and the potential for all in this human family.

I feel the realness of our struggles. The ways in which we try to bypass but not feel. The feelings that we’d rather not have to experience or relive in order to grow. The past which we would rather forget about than realize parts of us are still living in.

Our true sense of presence is not from obscuring or falsifying our memories of life experiences from this or any lifetime, but from feeling the parts of us and Metasoul aspects still resonating and literally living in these timelines and stories, that still feel the pain we thought we’d healed by now, that still bring all of these feelings of living in these situations into where and who we are now.

As I breathe in and out, feeling my body fill up with prana and light energies, feeling my parts and Metasouls who are vibrating in this and any moment, I feel how alive FEELING makes me. How distinctive this love for myself that grows with each process is from any ‘love’ I’ve been taught or talked at about. I feel this love expanding into the horizon I take in and breathe in. Echoed back by nature, shared with my beloveds, offered to anyone who is ready to take it in and let it support their own journeys.

The love of this world far outweighs the severity of the turmoil… Holds space for it… And IS bringing it into something new, with all of the permission we can give it to do so starting from deep within each of us.

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Class Action Love Suit

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

Anxiety and depression coming up are at first seen to be related to how one feels about this life.

Looking deeper and feeling deeper, one can see how these feelings also stem from the Metasoul – Mirroring aspects of our wider self, in other timelines often holding karmic binds, an expectation of things going wrong.

Karma’s whole point was to bring us to remorse and reconciliation from this polarized extremity and duality of living as if one could harm an other and reframe from harming self.

Feeling the deeper soul’s sorry, one moves the karmic binds from a kind of class action law suit arrayed against you, to a kind of class action love suit, where victim and perpetrator recreate and rewrite the story to one of deep love through the inseparable bond of karma.

I felt this while feeling my Atlantean Metasoul aspect today, who I’ve come to know as Mordecai. At first, it was simply a heightened energy of fearing outcomes. I even had a moment of ‘for no reason’, fearing the car breaking down while driving yesterday, along with other feelings of circumstances turning negative. I was able to feel into this karmic expectation backlash that this was about the reality that Mordecai created for himself, and to feel this all with him and create a new unfolding timeline of deep remorse, asking forgiveness, receiving it and now allowing for the Karmic binds to be transformed into alchemical Karmic love binds.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Healing The ‘Black Sheep’ Archetype

Published on by Kasha Rosa5 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

When you’re a child, you start to learn right away what is expected of you. You’re meeting expectations of when to start talking, walking, even behaving more maturely, whatever definition of ‘mature’ you’ve been taught. You learn, then, about what makes you feel like you’re on track with this and what doesn’t and you take in the impact of that.

As you get older and start to awaken more to your soul but also what your heart really feels and wants, the pain starts to set in… the pain of feeling like you don’t belong and maybe never have. A feeling like you simply cannot ‘win’ no matter what you do or don’t do. Parts of you form to deal with this and find a way to be in the world but you still can’t reconcile your differences; those aspects of who you are that seem to set you apart from everyone else.

In some cases, you may start becoming ‘therapized’ as the only way that your 3D-conditioned parents or authority figures feel they can ‘help’ you. You may be put on medication that numbs and dulls your natural ability to FEEL. Even the anxiety and depression you’ve experienced, which is held by parts of you that are hurting and also feeling on their radar a sense that they really aren’t safe in this conditioning and aren’t being loved the way they need and deserve to be.

You now see yourself as the ‘black sheep’ of the family but also of the culture you’ve been raised in. You may even feel this with your friends or co-workers. I know I have.

In my recent process, I was working with a part of me that always felt she was the ‘black sheep’. We had to go into a scene together where she could line-up her birth family members and feel the lingering judgements and criticisms, the messages of ‘you’ll never make it on your own’ which may not have been directly said but were energized.

Together, we could start to feel their Higher Selves in the room too, and their Higher Selves offered that this wasn’t actually about what it seemed to be about… it wasn’t about me or this part of me being a ‘failure’ (though in a 3D sense it’d be pretty easy to see it that way). It was actually about a wonder they have at the conditioning I’ve been able to say ‘no’ to, the risks I’ve said ‘yes’ to and the trust I now have more and more in my life, even the challenges that sometimes feel like mountains to climb.

In this, I found compassion for them even though I still hold a boundary.

In this, I found a way to truly see and honour myself and my own journey as well as seeing the sacredness of their own.

In this, I could feel how this theme of ‘not belonging’ and being looked down on somehow has played out in all of my relationships in one way or another, even with my soul family and my recent marriage too.

And, in this, I could feel how just about every single one of us who has been on an awakening and healing journey has felt like some form of the ‘black sheep’ and played out this theme countless times, often with angst and restlessness and even suicidal feelings.

On the other side of this process, I could bring this part of me into a new form other than the ‘black sheep’. She was able to shake off the black and the sheep suit came off too. She turned into a young lioness, full of power and presence, yet with heart and vulnerability. She is finding a new home inside of me where she can truly belong and be seen and loved for who she is, even in those times where she is being shown something not-so-easy to see or feel about herself.

You’ve been taught to look outside of you for validation and even for connection to Divine love.

You’ve been conditioned to believe that you’re always supposed to ‘achieve’ and ‘succeed’ even though the goalposts keep moving. This happens in 3D and also 4D in different spiritual groups too where your ‘black sheep’ feelings can become amplified instead of felt deeply, often in the form of ‘tough love’ which is really just outright abuse.

The feelings of not-belonging can be healed as the parts of you begin to unify, one by one, with each other and with you.

Love is the glue that brings your heart and soul back together again to wholeness within that can no longer be severed. Love is the juice that catalyzes the transformation from within. Yours is the love your lost and world-weary parts most need to feel, to remove their own sheep suits… for they were never meant to be ‘sheep’.

They were meant to be ‘lions’.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Energy Update: We Are Integrating Awakenings/Realizations From Lion’s Gate Portal

Published on by Kasha Rosa1 Comment

by Kalayna Solais

There’s a powerful integration phase happening now as we continue to move out of Lion’s Gate and into a NEW rhythm in our lives. Whatever has been stirred up by the high, catalytic energies is now settling more into our hearts and living there, even the uncomfortable pieces that we are still digesting and moving through. There will likely be uncomfortable things to keep digesting, especially as Disclosure continues to unfold and so much is being illuminated by that alone for everyone… even those who until now haven’t bought into it or resonated much with it.
On a 3D level, this has been a phase of many new awakenings. It’s like a whole new class has entered the undergraduate degree program at ‘Ascension University’. The 3D Self and the parts that make it up are having their own reactions to this ongoing process of awakening. You may be one of these souls or you may be currently supporting others in this as they try to understand what is being activated and how to relate with it. We’re being asked to have patience and compassion for these souls, as there’s no need for elitism around any of this, even though bridging to them can be challenging. There’s much we can offer, even in small doses, to see what helps them open their hearts to their own souls.
On a 4D level, much has been brought out into the open from the Metasoul and the veil has been quite thin. Parts of the 3D Self are upgrading too, realizing how NOT 3D they actually are. This is very necessary right now, as the more we are still personally anchored into 3D, the more suffering there is without context for it and parts of us do truly need this context to help move them into deeper awakening and healing experiences along with us.
My own 3D Self named ‘Katie’, which is the name I went by until my mid-twenties, is starting to see her gifts even though this has been a huge struggle for her with the bombarding messages from 3D consciousness that validate insecurities and encourage smallness. She’s starting to see how she was always meant to be a 3D ‘Bridge’, not an entire ‘Self’ that is supposed to lead life and in this way she can help orient to 3D as needed without being fully anchored there. She really has more of a 4D consciousness and awareness than she even thought until now and this is starting to activate in many other 3D Selves too.
This process with ‘Katie’ has been hugely supported by my Sirian aspect, ‘Ineerah’ throughout Lion’s Gate. She has helped me tremendously with catching this part of me up to my reality and the goodness there truly is within me and in my life too. She has been helping me move into an even deeper healing of the baseline emotional reality of this part of me, who expects the worst most of the time and can easily find reasons to feel sad or be in despair. There is a tender new unification happening within as other parts of me come together to offer her the attention and love she needs.
This is what’s possible as we integrate the illuminations of our 3D consciousness habits and our 4D ones too as we move into letting IN more 5D consciousness and re-anchoring there. We can’t skip this process of really looking at it all and feeling it all through, asking ‘why?’ relentlessly and with so much desire to love ourselves more. We can only LOVE ourselves into 5D reality being our new ‘baseline’… any other approach cannot last for long nor is it meant to.
This so applies to everything we hear in the news, everything we take in from the Disclosure world. We are being asked to feel how this impacts us and reflects us back to us again. We are being invited, constantly, to bring our hearts to it and to feel what we want to experience, starting inside of us, on the other side of the necessary mess.
MUCH love to you in this humbling and REAL integration phase, whatever this looks like for you… ❤

 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Increasing Light Exposing The Dark Knight: Response To Mass Shootings

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Somehow this is becoming a tragic reality of the unfolding drama within a country. Within humanity. After two back-to-back shootings on the heals of another just days earlier, it becomes clearer that a country is on a verge. I say a country because the US leads the world in these types of events. The mass shooting. The most numbers in one incident happened in Norway, but the volume of incidents and deaths happen in the US. 

It is also by the hands of men. Young men who all had deep emotional issues prior to the event. They have been described as outside the bounds of intimate community with a deep feeling of rejection and disenfranchisement. Yes, they are mostly white, and many have used their own hate as the fuel for their actions. The hate has been both indiscriminate and specific. We are all affected. 

I get that there is a war going on. It is undeniable to me. It is going on in the heart and soul of a populace of men. This saddens me deeply. It has edges of despair and hopelessness at times. These men have faced their own experience with violence and feeling unloved. When a part of them feels rejected, either by an individual or a group, this part needs to find a way to get its power back. It is a dark knight that seeks the throne of attention in any way it can, and being steeped in violence it has the means already at hand. 

This is a Violence Matrix. One that permeates the heart and soul of the wounded masculine. This aspect of men is permeable to influence in order to feel power. They can become pawns in a much larger game going on. They can create useful distractions and reactions that lead toward a specific goal. It is a soul history of being a soldier for The Cause. A 4D matrix that has deep roots. This is where the healing is if we can get there. The one great effect we have as men is to go into this and find out where that wound lives. That disempowerment, that rage, that violence. 

We all have our reactions to this from despair to indignation. When this happens the Rage of Change comes out loud and clear, but until we learn to love our own Dark Knight the cycle seems to keep recurring. As Gaia continues to enter more and more of the photonic light belt, we are going to see increased exposure of what lies deep within our collective shadow. These men are us. If we disconnect from them, we disconnect from a deeply wounded part of us seeking Love. We disconnect from a soul brother that is still in war and in battle. Fighting for his continued right to hate himself above all else. This brings me to tears. This brings me to wanting to love him and give him a home. No gun control legislation can heal this, even if it can stem it. 

We are being given the opportunity to feel something deeper. This is what Disclosure is offering us. It is not pretty. It is not overly welcome. But it is real and we need to face it. Otherwise, the wheel goes around one more time.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.