Category: Parts / Subpersonalities

Feeling Easter As Your Own Death & Rebirth Process

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This has been a very rumbly week leading up to Easter. There has been a churning of death and rebirth going on inside and out. My sacred union with my beloved Kasha has been put to the ‘test’, so to speak, with so much new ground needing an old ground to burn away in order to come into our next level of conscious romance and leadership.

I have needed to be ‘off’ social media to let all of this digest and find its way inside of me. It has been about continuing to find my voice, speak my truth and needs, as well as feeling the fear of doing so. It is this truth that can change so much. It creates and it destroys, but not necessarily in the way that a part of us may feel like it will. It is this fire that is meant to be alchemical and not necessarily harmful.

I was starting to feel the ways in which this fear is more about embodying our true power in the world and what that can actually create. If power and truth in our soul history has been experienced or judged as a ‘negative’, then we will inevitably find a way to suppress said power. We will remain in a push-pull around it. Deeply wanting and needing it, while hiding it at the same time. This creates suffering rather than movement.

This power has been held as a control mechanism inside of me. A way to manage and maintain a particular consciousness while my soul and the Divine are strongly, yet lovely, inviting me into something more essential, more real. Something long forgotten or buried. This is where a tight grip has formed or an anxious fear of surrender. I realized how much a part of me has still clung to this control structure.

In meditation I saw a sand castle on top of a stream. The foundation of this sand castle was collapsing into the stream. The castle was starting to crumble and I could feel parts of me trying to build it back up with more sand in order to keep it up. There was a tiredness in that. A readiness to let go while fearing the unknown of it all. I felt the stream as the Divine Itself, as Love, as the Tao. It just wants me to be the stream. Be in active surrender to where it is meant to take me even if I can’t see around the bend or it winds up in rapids.

It is my vulnerability and truth that keeps me afloat. It is what allows me to flow with my currency and is my true power. That stored up power in the castle just changed form and into embodiment. As the castle fully collapsed, I shed tears. I felt myself collapse into the flow of Love. I felt baptized and renewed. I felt a new connection with Kasha and myself.

As a result, I found myself realizing I needed to go back to my previous name of Gabriel. A lot has moved for me since trying on Aurius, but Gabriel is the essence of who I am in my soul. It is my Divine name. I just needed to flush some things out and reboot it. My beloveds also have an affinity for Gabriel and so that was enough for me to choose to go back. I will keep Amara as my last name, however. It has a frequency I love. It represents my inner feminine.

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me, and I hope that it has a service to you in all that you may be going through at this time. I am always here to facilitate and hold-space for this process that has taken me to new worlds and embodied awarenesses inside of myself in deep terrain. It is alchemical and transformative.

Much love to you this Easter weekend and may you meet your next death and rebirth cycle with grace, compassion, and courage.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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“…incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational” | Testimonial For 1:1 Sessions For Women w/ Kasha

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by Kasha Rokshana

There are many different influences that impact us on our awakening and Ascension journey, all with bigger purposes to that end. Some are easier for parts of us to trust than others while others need us to calibrate to them more before we can let them in. Some are necessary for a phase until we feel ready to move onto something else, still seeking out β€˜THE’ path or process or way of life that will offer us the most alignment with our soul and our deepest growth, along with a sense of being so sincerely cared for that our deepest wounds can come forward to be felt and healed.

I’ve found that the relationship to/embodiment of SoulFullHeart really is unique to every being who comes in the door through sessions, group calls, etc, yet also has a thread of resonance that brings us all together, no matter how close you feel to come to the fire of the essence of this process which really IS a β€˜way of life’ that can align with you in the ways you’ve been needing (though this isn’t true for everyone, of course). It’s triggering, it’s gentle, and it’s very alive. The energy of care from all of us who offer this work in service of love to others AND ourselves/each other really can work quickly depending on what’s ripe to be felt in you and what’s ready, with breathing, to finally be seen.

This particular soul whose testimonial I’m sharing today had been β€˜seeking’ for some time for a process that would meet her where she is and offer her a sense of being felt in a very personal way. This work goes far beyond being a β€˜healing method’ and even being a β€˜process’ in some ways as it’s about deep self-to-self intimacy that expands far beyond β€˜parts work’ and goes into soul territory as well. It’s been sweet to feel this particular soul on her journey coming in through the β€˜SoulFullHeart door’ and discovering so much about herself and her own soul along the way, with her sovereignty intact.

These sessions are really ‘initiations’, as are the group calls we hold for the public and those in the process in their own ways! It’s all a part of a sacred soul discovery and healing journey that has a flow to it that is catalytic and dynamic yet also honours, always, your choice and the choice of your parts as to where you are genuinely β€˜ready to go’ inside of you.

Here is Punya’s full testimonial about the process and sessions, as she has experienced them so far:

“Working with Kasha has been one of the biggest blessings in my life. For the last 6 months, I’d been looking to work with someone to get more emotional and physical support with the phase I was at in my life. I met with many counselors, therapists, spiritual coaches, energy healers, and more. I always left these sessions feeling a bit empty, feeling like I still wasn’t getting the support or help I needed. But I also couldn’t pinpoint or put into words exactly what I was looking for. That is until I met Kasha. From the very first interaction with her, I felt such a strong energetic connection to her. Although I didn’t fully understand what β€˜bridging sessions’ were or the approach that Soulful Heart took, I did feel really safe and comfortable opening up to Kasha about my life and what I was going through. She held space for me to share, validated my experiences, and deep down I felt like I was truly being seen and heard for the first time by someone. I trusted my gut instincts and signed up for weekly sessions with her…

I like to think of my sessions with Kasha as β€˜therapy on steroids’ – they’re incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational. Kasha listens to what you’re going through, asks clarifying questions to better understand your inner world, and then leads you into a meditation where you learn and visit the deeper parts of yourself that may been ignored/suppressed….I highly recommend Kasha and Soulful Heart to anyone who is looking for support and guidance in their spiritual journey/awakening, wanting to change their life, wanting to heal from their past, and/or wanting to improve their relationship with themselves. Their work and what they do is truly unlike anything I’ve ever seen before, yet it’s had the most healing and impact in my life in the short time I’ve been doing it ❀“

~ Punya G, USA

For more info on sessions and even FREE 45min intro calls with me for women, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

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Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Spring Equinox Energies: Invitation To Feel Peaking Inner Polarities

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by Kasha Rokshana

Equinox.

Equilibrium and balance.

There’s such a strong pull to polarities, especially this past year. This is necessary, though it’s been a dark passageway and we are still in it. The poultice of C-vid and every opinion/consciousness surrounding it has been backlighting our need to heal some very dark, very stark aspects of our humanity and spirituality. It’s been so challenging to see all of this coming up and out, purging out violently and aggressively in moments energetically and physically… And it’s even more challenging (and understandably so) to truly be willing to FEEL it all and feel the cries of the aching and awakening world within and without.

We all want change for the better, yet we are also all on a sacred mission to be on our own sovereign journeys around that. And, there can be no real ‘change for the better’ without feeling where there’s a push-pull toward being in the process of healing toward that. There’s much to heal, own, and acknowledge and it’s all rather sobering.

The tendency to pull away, turn our backs on each other, set boundaries without love leading, has been strongly coming up. If we are to find our way to another way of feeling through this necessary and uncomfortable phase of conflict, we need to show up for where this tendency lives inside of us, from part to part, from us to the Divine, and then we can better feel where and how it expresses between ourselves and others.

The invitation into equilibrium is about finding more unity, especially within, between light and dark, masculine and feminine. They don’t need to merge and become one energy, but they do get to offer each other gifts as you feel too where and how they’ve been at odds.

We also get to explore this finding of equilibrium without losing our individuality inside of pair-bond/sacred union/twin flame relationships, where each being has their own experiences of life and lifetimes to bring to the bond. Each being has its own polarities to reconcile between fear and love. I feel this coming into balance more within me and that then extends to Aurius and also my beloveds and the women I facilitate too, though the journey of reconciling the light and darkness within is ongoing and always unfolding.

We have so much to feel and heal, to face and confront and come to terms with, while holding it all with love and compassion, especially on the inside. This Equinox is certainly empowering all of us to take our next steps with that process!

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

One Year Later: Freeing Yourself From The Psychodemic

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One year ago we all found ourselves walking through the threshold of a New World Order. An Order rooted in fear, facts, and fallacy. It was our global 9/11 moment and it has forever changed the way we experience the world we live in and those we relate to. We have become Alice in Wonderland wondering when the hell things will ‘get back to normal’.

I don’t believe there can ever be a going back. The collective psyche has been altered. Forget about your DNA, which is still being worked on depending who is doing the ‘working’, but the soul of our humanity is being altered. This has not all been for naught, however. There has been a lot that has become clear for many as this whole grand experiment/experience has awakened a population to what is real and what is not for each of us.

Science Fiction is coming alive before our very eyes. It clearly was never ‘fiction’ but a precursor to what was to come. It has become more of Science Friction. The use of science, ‘facts’, and fear as a weapon against ourselves and each other. We have been in a pinball game or roller coaster of emotion for some time now and it is becoming normalized. Life has become a dystopian novel trying to find its way into our consciousness. The question is will we let it?

As much as we may have a compulsion to go ‘out there’ to and solve the global psychodemic, it feels even more imperative to go inward. Like Neo running into Agent Smith at the end of the Matrix movie, we are being called to find the matrix tyrant within us. Who is this shady creature from the Black Lagoon of our Shadow and Control Center. The Wizard of our Oz. As so many wise and ascended masters have told us, as above, so below. What is outside, is inside.

This ‘creature’ is not a boogyperson. It is a engrained, conditioned, and legacy aspect of us from a bygone era. It is our connection to the System that we were born and raised in. It is being fed a consistent diet of bullshit that it has learned to accept as real food. Just like Neo was hooked up to the multitude of tubes when he woke up in that egg-like container. To meet this aspect of you is to meet yourself, but in this poorly-written and poorly-directed Epic of Gilgamesh we are calling ‘reality’.

I invite you to find and meet this aspect of you. It needs your sacred heart. Your soul spark. Your Divine Self to come and save it. YOU don’t need saving! This part of you does. There is NOTHING out there can can do the saving, the living, the liberating. It’s all you, my friend. This aspect of you has been judged, out of fear and control, to be a dark entity. Not so. The tag was put on it so you wouldn’t find him/her/it so that you could actually free yourself from the spiderweb that has been crafted for eons.

This aspect may not be found easily, or may even resist out of fear. The timing will present itself if you can consistently go into your heart and connect with Love. It is Love that lights the tunnels and caves of this Dark World. It is Love that holds the keys to the locked doors. It is Love that can hold the space for the fear, the hate, the unworth. It is Love that exists within you that is your saviour. It is your shamanic medicine against tyranny, injustice, and control.

I will work on a guided meditation to meet this aspect of you caught in the grids, the web, the inner caves of the matrix. This is where true freedom lives. The crossroad of the heart and soul, using the mind to create what wants to be made real or real-ized. You don’t need a degree to get there. Just a desire for a New World Order within rooted in Love and not Fear.

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and space-holder.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Firing On All Cylinders: Feeling The Blocks To Passion And Purpose

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There is this deep desire to have sex with Life Itself. I don’t mean that in the physical way, of course, but energetically. This fire that wants and NEEDS to create, serve, and heal. In that, it also needs to destroy, illuminate, and transmute.

SoulFire is part of our essence, as is SoulCare. One has a masculine edge, the other a feminine one. Together they make life meaningful, purposeful, and alive. This is not to judge any state you may find yourself in as β€˜less than’ or β€˜lacking’. It is just noting what feels alive and true and what doesn’t. It is in that awareness that you can feel where the fire is and isn’t. Where the care is real and where it is hidden.

You can imagine yourself like the engine of a vehicle that has cylinders where pistons move through to create the spark by which the engine runs. Sometimes we feel like we are running on all our cylinders and others we may only feel like we have half of them online. Like a mechanic, you can β€˜go under the hood’ and see why certain cylinders aren’t firing.

It’s no so much a fixing in the 3D sense, but more of a feeling and heart presence as to what is not letting Love do its job, which is to provide you with the fuel you need to be fully alive and aware of itself.

There can be so much build-up inside your cylinders, or heart channels, that it can bog you down into states that take you into dark times. These are moments of deep rest and deep feeling. Sometimes space-holding can help move things and get clarity as well as an opening to more Love and context.

In two weeks, Raphael Awen and I will be holding a men’s group call about Power, Vulnerability, and Adequecy. These feel like big topics for men and there ongoing ascension and healing journeys. We will also be posting a video soon, with our soul brother James Elphick, having a conversation and meditation about this very thing.

We invite all of our male friends here to join us on this call as well as have a dialogue about what you feel is preventing you from full living and being your most empowered and passionate self. To all our female friends, please tell anyone you feel would be interested.

http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to meeting and connecting with other men around these topics as well as offering our space-holding services. These times are showing us our strengths as well as our challenges and needs. We hope to be a part of that ongoing awakening to our liberated, wild, and alive being in the world.

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

My Heart Is Here To Serve

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My heart is here to serve.

It was not a pretty sight about 10-12 years ago. I found myself in situations that felt like bottoms of barrels. A merry-go-round of anxiety, depression, and inner-punishment all while having the exterior of ‘having it all together’.

I found myself using alcohol, speed, and pornography as some sort of escape only to find myself deeper in the mud of Unworth. The maintenance of a ‘normal’ life was wearing thin and cracks were forming. I felt myself losing grip of a life of passion and joy. A part of me resigning to suffering as a way of life.

When I began my own journey with SoulFullHeart I was just looking for a means to find inner peace and a way to support myself doing something meaningful. What it turned out to be was much more. It was a calling back to Self and Service. And there I have found my roots.

The process of meeting and feeling the parts of me, stuck in what felt like a never-ending pattern of unworth and suffering, was a huge heart-opening as well as eye-opener. I started to see the ways in which I was creating a bifurcated world inside of myself. Love was some novel concept that you could see or read about, but not fully feel in my being.

As I have continued down this path of selves-discovery through parts work, and soul-awakening through Metasoul work, I have come to a new frontier in my life previously held in the shadow of my consciousness. We don’t always hide the ‘ugly’, but many times the beauty.

It has been through all my deep movements and initiations (that I didn’t realize were initiations), that I have found myself in sacred desire to serve. Serve those that feel connected my words, my heart, and my past. I may not have had quite the traumas others have had but my journey has taught me that I have a well of compassion, care, and curiosity…the three elements for this work.

Now, don’t get me wrong. There are hard places to go. There are challenges and difficulties. If we are called to heal and grow, this is the real and true path. Some of our parts weren’t baked from a Holly Hobby Oven, but rather from the grist of karma. This is the nature of our individual human story.

In all of that, there needs to be a sense of safety and trust. This is why we meet the Inner Protector first so that we get to feel and heal these places with permission and grace. I work WITH you, not for you. Ultimately, you are the sovereign in any session, I just open my heart and ask questions, offering intuitions along the way. Well, not JUST. Opening the heart is part of what I have worked so hard to get to. It is the fruit of my own inner labour. Now I want to share that fruit.

I have worked mostly with women and have had so many amazing experiences. Lots of growth for both of us. I have an affinity to work with the feminine as I have a close relationship with my own. I am guided by the Magdalene lineage of service.

I desire to serve men as well in their ache to find their own mark in the world through a sensitive and caring heart. I have been through my own sacred masculine journey and continue to do so. I am working with Raphael Awen monthly and will be offering Men’s Group calls and videos talking about men, healing, and spirituality. It is a deep calling to serve men into their Highest Heart and SoulFire Self.

I offer a free 45-minute introductory call to see how I may serve you in your healing into self-love and SoulFire. It is also to see if it is even a fit for both of us at this time. SoulFullHeart is a specific paradigm that is more than just a therapy or healing modality. It is a way of life in the end. Yet, that can be discovered and felt one session at a time.

I look forward to this landing in the heart or hearts that it is meant to. If you know someone in need, please send them this contact. I am blessed to be a part of this community of journeyers, healers, and leaders. I am honored to be a part of your journey and healing as well.

Much love to you whether we work together or not. We are all in this together. πŸ™‚

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Loving The ‘Ugly Duckling’ Within

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β€œWhy do I feel so unlovable?”, this part of me says. β€œWhy do I feel so ugly?”

β€œWho told you you were unlovable and ugly?”, I reply with compassionate curiosity.

β€œI don’t remember. There are just voices. Whispers in the wind.”, he says.β€œI don’t see you as ugly or feel you as unlovable. I feel you needing a reflection of Love so you can see and feel what you truly are. Is that hard to let in?”, I ask.

β€œIt is. You can show me and yet the wind comes. Changes the reflection somehow. I wish that wasn’t true.”, he says as his head looks down.

β€œIt’s okay, dear one. I will stay here every day, every minute, every second until you see the real you. The you that I see and feel. The you that doesn’t hold court for the whispers anymore. I will be patiently persistent because I love you. Always…and in all ways.”, I tell him as he looks up with tears in his eyes.

β€œI would like to see and feel that someday soon. It has always seemed so hard. So permanent. Like nothing can ever change and I will always be like this. I get that I have allowed this perception to persist as reality. I have not felt strong enough to choose otherwise. Maybe with you here with me, reminding me, showing me, feeling me, I can change how I see myself the way you see me. Thank you. I needed this. I may need it in an hour.”, he says with his head down again.

β€œThen in an hour I shall be here too.”

There are times when a part of us just feels β€˜ugly’. I don’t just mean the physical kind but the behavioral and emotive kind. These are times we feel small and want to hide away from the world. It can feel like quicksand and get stuck in a loop.
When you can feel this as a β€˜part’ of you then you can start to access a different flow of energy from Divine love source through you to this part of you. A stream of Love through consciousness.

Like the part of me said above, β€œI may need it in an hour”, then an hour I shall be there. It is an ongoing process of feeling and showing up that leads to healing and eventually a sense of liberation from the β€œvoices in the wind”.

This is a practice at first and then just a way of being with yourself that is just natural and consistent. It is the alchemy of self-to-self love as well as Divine-to-self love. The transmutation from the duckling to the swan. The wounded ego to the Divine Self. All held in love and compassion, not self-improvement. Just self-feeling.

If you are wanting/needing to feel this alchemy within you to support you in your flourish, please contact me for a free intro call to see how the SoulFullHeart process can hold space for that connection and transformation.

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.Β  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Catharsis Of Soul Scream

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Soul scream….

Hidden and lurking within can be an angst, an anger, a frustration so profound it can rock your world both inside and out.
We are all holding so much inside. Each one of us. Some more or less than others but it is all part of our journeys. Healing sometimes will bring you to the next layers of your soul pain.

This pain from an infinite variety of trauma is stored in the vaults of your soul to be opened and felt when the time is right. When there enough You there to hold it and love it.

Let it rip can be cathartic. It can also be a portal. To release the scream can bring relief, feeling and understanding where it comes from and why it is there can bring transmution and integration.

This Soul Scream can come from repressed truth, witnesses or experienced injustice, Kundalini surges/awakening, and veil lifting. It may be an essential part of our ascension to be intimate and vulnerable with this inner angst.

It holds power, creativity, alchemy, passion, and authentic voice. It is your hidden Real Self coming into contact with the Present. It is gather its sea legs in this dimension and reconciling the trauma and pain.

This is not easy or fun, but it may be necessary to move onto the next phase of growth and healing. When held in safe space such as community and nature it can have life-altering effects.

If you are feeling these rumbles and would like to feel into them more, please feel free to contact me for a free intro call to see how the SoulFullHeart process may support you in this integration and birthing.

*****

Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Serving The Feminine, Connecting With The Inner Mother

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by Kasha Rokshana

In absolute awe I am, of the depth and sacred intensity in the women I serve in sessions and the women I connect with daily in community as well. Our intensity always matches that of the passion borne inside the womb, that rumbles worlds as much as She creates them.

It’s always vulnerable to lead and be led, to hold and be held, as a feminine embodiment in this and any lifetime. The strength of our inner masculines serves to protect us and our feminine essences, as well as the parts who have felt victimized by this body, by this core of who we are as a heart and soul. Sometimes the inner β€˜masculine’ is also a strong and powerful matriarch/wounded Queen/Priestess energy inside that finds it challenging to be vulnerable out of necessary self-protection. Even THIS intensity needs honouring, love, and holding; a recognition of her powerful presence while also helping her learn to feel again, as challenging as that has been for her until now.

I’ve noticed in recent sessions how this matriarch energy expresses in different ways inside of different women. Sometimes we call this the Inner Mother. In one recent session with a young woman in her mid-twenties, we felt how her Inner Mother holds frequencies of being tired and overwhelmed and also victimized by life, much like her birth mother has energized. Another young woman in her early twenties has been feeling how her Inner Mother is also an Inner Punisher who also has frequencies of a Sorceress at times.

I feel, as I serve this dynamic range in women, how much love there is available to continue holding it with an open heart and open hands too, to allow whatever needs to come up in the space to do so. These energies need and deserve to felt and heard, not diagnosed or labeled, even as mirrors are held up for them to start to see their impact on themselves and other parts, as well as relationships on the outside. This is the work of transforming the False Mother into the Sacred Feminine inside, while inviting in the Divine Mother, in whatever form and face is necessary, as the template for this process.

The deep dive inside isn’t actually possible without love and also without support of the Divine Mother, who is the ultimate model for us to feel the inner False Mother and help her heal into more of the healthy, heart-open, capable, and profoundly gifted Queen. It’s Her love that holds the space, really, for which I am but a humble vessel, supporting you to become your own. There’s really no end to this process of deepening this embodiment, no ultimate pinnacle of it, and every ounce of discovery and healing is so worth the journey of diving deep into what (and who) hasn’t felt worthy of receiving, let alone becoming, this energy of sacred feminine love within.

If you’re curious to learn more about sessions with me (I also offer free 45min intro calls if you’d like to talk with me about where we could go in sessions together), visit soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are hosting a women’s call, by donation on Zoom, on March 7th @ 5pm GMT to teach and lead a guided meditation around womb healing and activation. More info here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from sacred Avalon! ❀️🌹
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.