Tag: change and transformation

A ReLOVEution To End Inner Violence And Violence-Based Choices

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by Kalayna Colibri

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“These violent delights have violent ends  

And in their triumph die”

– Romeo and Juliet, ActII, Scene VI

 

Our suffering so often comes from violent choices.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to bury themselves, to bury their pain, covering it up, numbing it out, putting makeup on it, pretending it either doesn’t exist, or in some cases hiding it in plain sight through sabotage of this relationship or that job or through self-harm in the form of addiction of any kind.

Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to see the world as personally oppressive, racking up reason after reason, building a case for their victimhood, making it inevitable that an intense push-away always becomes necessary and the world feels like ‘us’ against ‘them’. As we assuage the battles within, there ARE times sometimes when we receive violence and abuse or aggression from others and DO need to advocate, to turn away, to all-out walk away from what needs to collapse for the sake of our self-worth and also at times our survival. Sometimes this has a violent playout and fallout. If this situation lasts, there is likely some deeper violence still happening within, because this relationship on the outside represents a battle raging on the inside. It is a climate that your parts have gotten used to… and have not learned how to be or even imagined how to be anything different towards each other.

Violence is chosen when parts of us hold rigidly onto ways of seeing and feeling others. In some cases, parts don’t want to feel others’ perspectives, or, would prefer to feign compassion rather than be in the process that allows them to feel genuine compassion for the first time. This serves as a numbing of the self. It is a focus on keeping the victim inside alive and pushing away the budding King or Queen of heart and soul. It is also violent when we try to press our point of view on another who isn’t ready or doesn’t want to take it in. It is violent too, to use aggressive energy behind our words and point of view. These examples are another way to become numb to the needs of others and the ways in which they need to walk out what they are walking out, without name-calling or unfair readouts. This is a hard thing to avoid doing when we have so much tension inside from us to us and part to part… this does move over time though and is so important to keep feeling as it comes up.

Violence is chosen by choosing to eat foods that are violent to the planet and/or to our bodies. I don’t offer this as a piece to feel shame over, but rather something to just feel into. It does feel important to let this in and to make new choices, feeling the parts of you that have resistance to this along the way, so that they can come with you and not feel as if THEY are experiencing violence against THEM, as this dynamic can happen too…

Violence and revenge in different forms have become a strong underpinning in our cultures worldwide. It is a way to see war as an option, protests as the only means of revolution, and aggressive, ambitious efforts the only way to be ‘successful’.

A reLOVEution can be and IS so different than this… than even those subtle twinges of wanting to fight fire with fire in some way. There is a way that we can stand up for ourselves through boundaries and vulnerability that doesn’t need to result in withholding love in any way. We can find a way to teach ourselves new ways of being in life and in LOVE without committing any sort of violence, suppression or oppression inside.

This is as much an ongoing process for me as it likely is for you too. I have had many years inside of a process of peeling back the layers of inner violence and battles and even recently have felt a Metasoul aspect that still lives in the era of Women’s Suffrage in the UK. Really intense timeline, that one. Talk about fighting fire with fire! She and I have been able to feel that there IS an alternative to these violent means of ‘fighting’… feeling how bringing vulnerability is actually the key to deep inner and outer change. She is still being convinced of the truth of this, as she understandably lives in an intense time and hasn’t really seen this in action, but she is trying and that is enough for me to feel something MORE wanting to come and be inside of me and thus from me to others too. I actually feel her helping me write this piece today… it’s helping her digest her reality and new possibilities that are arising for her and for others.

A new, violence-less horizon is calling, wanting to help us end our personal and collective suffering… how deeply you are able to heed this call is a very personal choice and it feels like any healing of this on any level of your being is a fantastic start!

LOVE to you, fellow reLOVEutionary!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Can’t Steer A Parked Car

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By Raphael Awen

The reason your next steps may not feel so clear is that a part of you has been resisting the natural movement, the flow, the direction.

An all too common way parts of us do this is to focus on the ‘impossibility’ of the big step as a way to not take any small steps. Big steps are just a series of small steps.

You can’t steer a parked car and a parked car cannot take you anywhere.

The small steps are crucial to confirming guidance, building trust and being en-couraged to take the next steps. Big movements are always a process, rather than an epic end-of-life-as-you-know-it, mammoth, swallow-you-whole kind of choice that a part of you may be amping it up to be.

If life is in fact facing you with a life or death kind of choice, I venture to say that that is what a part of you has created by resisting the many small choice points along the way. Life never gives you what you cannot bear, but the opposite can sure seem true when we haven’t been paying attention. Parts of us then can play victim to life and change in a seemingly all-too-real reality, hiding the fact we created that reality.

A decision to leave a partner or a marriage shouldn’t be what stops you from beginning to bring your truth, both to yourself and to your mate. Start there and see where that leads. What changes can you embrace in your career while feeling and not denying the desire to leave that career?

Life at its core is about change. Trying to be in life with a resistive relationship with change is like trying to stop the wind. You can resist change, but you only end up resisting yourself and where change wants to take you.

When you don’t change, you become more and more uninteresting to yourself, others and even to life itself too. You are contributing less to the community you are a part of and so naturally you feel less safe and less trusting that life will reciprocate and meet your needs. Your anxiety becomes palpable and obnoxious as you demand that others look after the fallout of your resistance to life, and the dis-ease that you are manifesting around you and in you.

If you are allowing me to speak this straight to you today, I can feel that it is because you really do want to take responsibility to change your relationship to change, and return to actually being in life.

You bring huge air into the room when you do that. You water the souls of everyone around you, which includes all of us, because we are all connected and we are all one as well as individuals at the same time.

Talk about a high spiritual calling, like no other, just living your life, to the fullest!

I felt a need to speak this straight today as I am gathering my own courage again for my next steps, and I so want to be around, up close and personal with this kind of very exciting life giving energy.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Weathering The ‘Perfect Storms’ Of Life

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.

Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…

This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.

You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.

During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…

Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts And Challenges Of Life-Changing Energies Coming In

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by Kalayna Colibri

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It’s okay to let go of your handrails…

In fact, it may be time to do so. The love you have waiting for you is what you’re letting go into now. The unfamiliar will become familiar, will become more known to you as you move forward. The fall is not long once you’ve let go. Parts of you anticipate and think it will be, but that’s not the plan at all. There is so much more to let in once what parts of you grip hard to is let go of. It may be a process of moving one single finger at a time as the grasp loosens and the next step forward into the changes coming in is stepped into. This may be what’s needed and that’s fine… charging through change can create more chaos than you may need right now, but in another way, that may be just what you need too.

These foggy changing times bring momentum but invite us to stay in the moment… these energies coming in now are supporting us to feel our next choice points and to feel all there is to feel in the process of making these choices, inhabiting these changes, and finding our way into this newly emerging life phase and overall timeline. It seems these shifts can be subtle at first, but then once that first step is taken, it can feel suddenly like you’re riding a roller coaster or even a speeding car. I should qualify that and say that parts of us feel it this way, while our soul actually has a deep trust that is leading us. There can be a difficulty in the surrender to it all… there are attachments on different levels of our being and in different parts of us, to how things have been up ’til now, whether or not our life’s circumstances are ideal in many (or any) ways.

We do NEED change. It offers us grist for more self-discovery and healing process and celebration of how far we’ve come too. It offers us more ground for growth, especially if we seem to have ‘mastered’ the old ground, to the degree that we can feel how maybe we’re outgrowing it now – it has become too comfortable and kNOwn, perhaps. You may feel consciously that you are a big fish in a little pond too. Change presses what’s uncomfortable, wounded, in distrust, in pain, in separation, up to the surface to be felt and held. It has a way of creating a chaotic windstorm at times, that can be made much more intense by parts of you that are in a panic and either don’t want to be felt or cannot be felt by you for some reason. Change is really the best catalyst to encourage us to feel ourselves. The smoothest transitions in life usually come when there is a whole lot of surrender to a lack of ultimate control, while still paying attention to and moving along your own chess pieces in each step, though even doing this very thing can still bring up surprises and more to feel.

Trusting the rumbles that love wants to send through our life and our current relationship to people, geography, ourselves, the Divine, and even life and love itself, is the biggest invitation and the hardest to inhabit for parts of us. This is when a process becomes so valuable, as we allow in these energies that want to move us into our next places and phases of growth and expanding LOVE consciousness… we cannot always control the depth of change that is being invited into our lives, but we can control the degree to which we are willing to look at the whole picture, to feel all elements of it, to be with the challenges and the bonuses, and to find our way through by allowing ourselves to be IN ourselves and our hearts around it all.

These times of feeling like a whirlwind has picked you up and it’s hard to tell where you’ll land, are some of the toughest phases and also the biggest opportunities for expansion of our consciousness and our overall scope too, it challenges how we see and inhabit life and also how we see and inhabit and love ourselves. There are many gifts here, though the reality of the challenge needs to be felt deeply too. In fact, one feeds the other and when they are allowed to dance inside of us in this way, that is when we pop out the other side, feeling so sacredly different than we ever could have before. We’re on our way, no matter what, to a higher dimension in every way.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Peek-A-Boo You Coming Out Of Hiding During Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

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Peek-a-boo you….. you can come out of hiding, you can open your eyes beyond the edges of fleshy covering-up-full-view fingers.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can BE without masks, you can feel the air of the real on your unobstructed face.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can venture out of the closet, you can let your soul’s light open ALL the doors that have previously felt closed.

Peek-a-boo you….you can open your heart to intimacy in moments with others as you claim it with yourself.

Peek-a-boo you….you can take it ALL in without fear of being consumed or doomed or shamed as you learn to receive and to give.

They taught you to hide yourself because they felt more comfortable in the hiding. They gave you a mask to wear because they were safely tugged away behind their own. They transmitted energies of fear to you because that is what they inherited. They wanted you to close your heart down because theirs had been shut.

Yet, none of this is who or what they OR you really ARE. It is what has been taught and sought, sold and trained in the 3D world experiment. The currency of fear, non-vulnerability, protection, suppression is NOT the actual gold of anyone’s true capacity as a sacred human.

Seeing life with full vision. Feeling life with an opening heart. Awakening to life with your beaconing soul. This is YOU beyond the peek-a-boo games with life that ask you to hide. This is YOU beyond the masks that everyone seems to wear. This is you face-to-face, heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul, raw to life, and taking it ALL in without layers or false skins. This is you AS love without anything in the way of your experience of experience….this is you BEing the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Moving Out Of Comfort Zones In Relationships And Livelihood/Jobs/Careers

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By Jelelle Awen

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Time to move out of comfort zones…. Comfort zones are those places that have become familiar and perhaps beloved to parts of you and, so, are limited to offer the growth that you need and desire. Settling into a place that you feel comfortable CAN be about an ease, a sense of just being ‘you’ and seeing that reflected back to you. It also CAN be about shrinking yourself to fit in with your environment, relationships, jobs, the energies around you. This is more what I mean about ‘moving out of comfort zones.’ Shrinking yourself INside in order to feel more comfortable with the frequencies that you are experiencing on the outside is a sign of being in a comfort zone.
One of the biggest ways staying in comfort zones shows up is in relationships, especially with birth family, long-term romances and friendships. You may have an awareness of a ‘role’ you are playing, a mask you are putting on, an energy that comes up from inside in order to respond to these relationships. You may notice that you are hiding or obscuring or maybe even lying about your budding awakenings, spiritual perspectives shifting, emotional body realizations. It is like you are in the ‘closet’ and parts of you just aren’t ready to come out yet, as this closet has become a comfort zone. You may avoid conflict or confrontation with others who are becoming no longer resonant with you in order to stay in a comfortable place on both sides.
A comfort zone can also be about staying in a lone wolf phase rather than moving into more experience of resonant and supportive commUNITY. Parts of you become comfortable with being on your own, especially if you have disconnected from 3D-based relationships with family and friends. This phase may be a sacred and necessary one for you and yet, also, the deeper desires for resonant soul tribe commUNITY can be buried under the sense of comfort and safety that sets in from being and doing life alone.
In romantic relationships, there can be the deepest ties and binds of comfort zone relating. Even if there is a lot of conflict and tension in the relationship, THIS can become comfortable and familiar to parts of you. This seems to especially be true if these were the frequencies your parents’ relationship was in and you became used to it. Or, maybe in the relationship you have settled into a brother and sister connection where the hotness, body talk, soul resonance, mentally stimulating each other, hearts vulnerably sharing….all these frequencies have been shut down or greatly modulated or maybe never really were transactable in the relationship. Staying in a long-term romantic relationship for which you no longer feel in love with your partner in ALL domains of body, mind, soul and heart is one of the BIGGEST ways that shrinking into a comfort zone can manifest. Feeling the parts of you that are in the relationship and why can help to identify the deeper reasons and motivations for staying in it rather than moving on.
During the flash and crash of the Dark Night stages of awakening, it may become VERY obvious to you what has become a comfort zone for parts of you and what needs to be changed around that in relationships. The clashes start happening when parts of you can no longer show up for the make believe dance with others or hide what you are really feeling. You may burst out suddenly with your truth, long suppressed, and create shock waves in your world. Or, you may cut off suddenly with newly energized boundaries that may be long overdue. Or, you find a soul family group that supports your authentic self and seem to suddenly ‘overnight’ come out of the spiritual closet to all your friends and family.
In whatever ways this unveiling and moving out of the comfort zone in relationship happens, it seems to be a sacred and necessary aspect of the ascension process. As you ‘walk out’ of the old frequencies with others, you are actually inviting them into the NEW with your movements through the heart chord you share with them. The boundaries that you need to set become a compassionate and merciful invitation to ALL for exploration into a healthier and more mature ground of resonant connection. You are inviting them into the REAL and to be REAL about what they feel along with you, whether they can or are meant to show up for this or not. Your movement into this moves ALL as we are ALL connected in the Web of Life.
Higher vibrational relationships based in soul and heart resonance are not about getting comfortable and staying stuck there. They encourage and inspire you to keep growing, to keep arising, to keep BEing who you most authentically are. They are mirrors providing you with a sense of desire to share love, be vulnerable, go into deeper places of intimacy. They encourage emotional risk taking and do not ask you to shrink who you really are to ‘fit’ them. There is a sense of reverence in every moment about them and they are not ‘taken for granted’ or just assumed they will always be there. They arise anew as YOU arise anew or they complete when and if the ground of transaction runs out.
Another area where comfort zones can develop and limit your growth is in careers, businesses…whatever means you earn your livelihood from….. Even living off of disability or financial support from others (whether former spouses, parents, or the government) can indicate a shrinking going on and settling into a comfort zone. Because money can bring up so much anxiety for parts of us and lack of trust, they can cling at whatever means provide a steady stream to assuage that anxiety. Long-term careers and businesses that are more based in 3D frequencies are maybe obvious to you and you may even be consciously unhappy or unfilled in them with desires to change them. However, even spiritually-based income earnings for which you are sharing your gifts can become comfort zones if they are not challenging you anymore to grow and it is more ‘part of you’ that is doing and performing them rather than your authentic self.
Not earning any money or very little and being supported by others (especially if this requires you to shrink to keep the spiritually non-resonant relationship going) is another way this can show up. There is a sense of being disempowered to support your own needs and a deep codependency can develop here, especially for those souls who need to ‘move back home to live with parents’ for a phase. It is challenging in this situation to FEEL and BEcome your authentic self and embody more your higher self as you may be constantly feeling capped by a sense of now being dependent. Even if you don’t consciously feel this, it might be worth it to dig deeper to connect with the parts of you that no longer want to be in this situation and feel ‘capped’ by it. You might even decide to go ‘get a job’ just so you can move out on your own again or into resonant soul tribe commUNITY and on to the next phase of your growth.
As you FEEL what your soul purpose is here to serve love and you trust more that ALL your needs will get met in serving this purpose, you begin to feel how the previous ways and means of supporting yourself financially may be comfort zones that require you to shrink. Money is love energy so whatever way you are receiving it, that energy impacts you and your ascension/awakening process. Higher vibrational livelihood comes from aligning with your soul purpose to serve love here. Feeling in an abundant overflow of love from inside that overflows then in what you experience as outside abundance. Serving your soul’s vocation and sharing your soul gifts rather than ‘doing an occupation’ is a shift into higher vibrational expression that leads to much more joy, fulfillment, and growth.
The HIGH frequencies of love and light that are washing, flooding, and coursing into Gaia’s and our inner atmospheres are supporting these movements out of our comfort zones. The higher frequencies just can’t MOVE in the denser energies of codependence or shrinking to fit 3D vibrations. We aren’t meant to be in zones as those are just another form of compartment and our INFINITE LOVE energy wants to spread, to fly, to soar, to MOVE, to BE without limits. All of the zones that parts of us have created eventually become flooded with love, inviting us to move into our next places of challenge, risk, and growth….over and over until it is more about responding with the leading edge of our BEing to the next growth place rather than needing to move out of a previously trailing edge one based in a comfort zone.

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Unfolding And Transforming Through Emotional Process Work

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by Kalayna Colibri

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This stunning artwork is by Julia Watkins

It’s a phase of unfolding and unfurling. A time of feeling through the constricted, tense places inside that have been protecting the most precious places and parts, the most vulnerable aspects of myself and my soul too. It’s personal and it’s not too. I feel how these new movements that reveal more going on at a deeper stratum inside “me” is also a reflection of the collective. This work builds bridges from me to me and also from me to you, making it so exciting to be with even though there are challenges too! It’s really about uncovering a LOVE bridge, built by and of love. This is a major motivator to keep going IN, remembering that it’s all about love anyways and in that, there can be no harm and no suffering, if love is truly, deeply let in in the process.

I’m venturing into deeper soul territory now, as my 3D emotional/pain body continues to heal. I feel like it’s unfolding like the petals of a flower. Like a lotus, the heart continues to open, growing UP from the mud felt and held and healed within. There is a part of me that I’m beginning to feel very poignantly, who wants to keep a hold on the soul frequencies and pain from emerging fully. She needs me first, it feels like, before much of that can be ventured into, which is fine. There is nothing linear about this process anyways, so it does feel like no matter what, all that I came into this life with the intention of healing, IS healing on a quantum level. Starting from the 3D roots of our humanity here and now, helps anchor us into a seabed that gives us the energy to keep traveling UP. To keep moving UP. I feel a deep honoring of my emotional body, “then” and NOW. I can see the messes and fires I’ve walked through. I can still smell the burning rubber of my inner Maserati, traversing the highways of self at an accelerated pace throughout my whole life so far.

As the intense throes of inner self-punishment and control, frequencies of “needing to KNOW and prove that I KNOW” continue to dissolve from my field more and more, I feel so much humility emerge around how parts of me have held life up ’til now.  It was so easy to slip into arrogance, awakening at a very young age and feeling my soul gifts start to emerge too. Nothing has been more humbling than letting myself NOT know and instead BE. BE with what IS inside of me, and inside of others. BE with others instead of merge with others. FEEL myself instead of cover it all over, which has helped me to actually feel others too. I have always been empathic, yes, yet a big lesson around this is that parts can use empathy to push away and not allow in genuine, heart-based compassion… unless these parts have first been filled up by your compassion for THEM

I feel as if I am “on my way”, whatever that means right now! A brand new life chapter is opening out now and I’m excited to be with all of you on it too…. however, whenever, wherever we connect. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Making Room For New, Making Room For You!

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By Jelelle Awen

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We are feeling the timeline collapsing on the four of us as a community in every day living near each other and the amazing and challenging journey it has been…..it is is collapsing because already we can feel the souls that are connecting with us, drawn to be with us at whatever level and depth they are, and this changes the energy of our ‘group merkabah’ as we like to call it. This group merkabah of the four of us – Raphael Awen and I plus Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri – is VERY precious to me as I feel through all the changes we have navigated together over the years. The biggest one being our choice to leave Canada 2.5 years ago and a KNOWN life with a good income from a painting contract business to come HERE to Mexico with a nest egg and a vision of creating a community together.

What I have learned over these years being connected in daily navigation with these four remarkable BEings is that community is formed not from grand ideals but through moment by moment commitment to spend it in connection (primarily to SELF and then WITH other). It is formed not through epic visions but through willingness to SHARE together, to be vulnerable together, to connect together, to REVEAL yourself to each other. It is created not through hierarchal leadership, but in vulnerable leadership that invites, collaborates, and empowers others to LEAD too.

This timeline that is so dear of our group merkabah is completing because it is MEANT to complete so that we can include others, invite others, welcome others, GROW from others, and most especially making room for the sacred union mates of Gabriel and Kalayna (It sure feels like they are NEAR too, maybe even reading these words!!) And also to make room for the leadership of others in soul gift expression as SoulFullHeart facilitators if they are drawn to claim that.

And, so we’ve been letting go even as we’ve been letting in the NEW interest and NEW souls drawn to us recently. We’ve had two wonderful dinners out in the last week, which is more rare for us to eat at restaurants, spending the precious money that is coming in more and more from SoulFullHeart and the sharing of our soul gifts. We are soaking in the familiarity and comfort that doesn’t come from settling but comes instead from arising FOR and WITH each other in every moment. We are remembering the past in moments, telling stories of our journey together, remarking how different we feel now….

I’ve spent much time, especially in the last week, offering teachings and writings about my sacred union with Raphael and the gifts, challenges, and crucible of growth that it IS. Yet, so, has been the experience of commUNITY with all four us in a form of sacred union. IMAGINE what it will be like when more join us, align with us, and connect THEIR soul purpose with ours through the form of SoulFullHeart. The thing is, I can imagine it, more and more every day am LIVING it and so…..the present and the past timeline that we have known of US is collapsing and completing.

So I honor it even as I let it go…..making room for the NEW, making room for YOU!

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Why Must You Be Safe, Hidden, And Afraid?: Soul Cry Of Awakening

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By Jelelle Awen

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Oh, why must you be safe? Your heart is crying for MORE.
Oh, why must you be hidden? Your soul is aching to SHINE.
Oh, why must you be afraid? Your courage is wanting to LEAD.
Oh, why must you be settling or shrunken or LESS? Your BIGness is right there waiting.
Oh, why must you be lonely? Your soul family and your sacred union mate is inviting you to join them, to deepen with them.
Oh, why must you live in these ‘musts’?…these places that FEEL real and yet are not? The places of ‘shoulds’ and ‘have tos’ that just feed the conditioning self, the masks, and the personas.

Letting GO, Letting IN, Letting God, Letting LOVE…..washes away the musts and the shoulds and the fear and the hiding and the loneliness and the conforming and the shrinking too. This is NOT an easy thing….all this ‘Letting’ that replaces the “Musting” and the “Shoulding”.

This is SO painful at times to be almost unbearable, this process, and it can’t be floated over or bypassed or transcended or just made ‘light’. Letting Shadow, Letting Dark be illuminated by the LIGHT of your courage to love ALL of it that which is inside. To crawl into the deepest recesses, your heart beaming with love, and bring love THERE….even there, to the places and aspects that have been disregarded and disowned. To reparent them, to reclaim, to RE-member them back into love and reunion.

There are times in the awakening and remembering that you feel like you are cracking, the skin you have known is peeling away to reveal the REAL you, the essence that wants to BURST through. And loving even THIS cracking and THIS false skin and not feeling them as bad, just necessary for while they were to be in 3D frequencies.

Feeling how there are NO places inside of real evil or darkness, nothing to REALLY be afraid of or that can’t be transmuted by love. No pain inside that can’t be held and moved by love. And this changes too how you feel about the outside world, about others…how you feel and see everything outside of yourself as ultimately being worth love and forgiveness and made OF love.

Letting Go, Letting IN, Letting God, Letting REALness, Letting Feelings, Letting Love……THIS is the ground of awakening and remembering. This is the ground where the pain can be held and has a sacred purpose. The sacred purpose of being YOU into realness, into your bigness, into your emotional body being current, into your deepest ground of sacred union of self and with your mate, into the embodiment of YOU as Infinite Love.

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Springing Of A New You

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We are on the cusp of another equinox.  Leaving the longer, darker nights of the      winter´s season.  The phase of our cycle that had us going in.  Into our more darkened corners.  It was a time in many cultures when not much could happen externally due to the cold weather.  So it was a time of reflection.  It was also a time of destruction.  Life itself was taking a long slumber.  Letting go of all that had been alive and returning it to the earth.  Much was dying in order to be reborn.  

But now after much darkness and stillness, the light itself is finding its way back to a fuller state.  It brings with it more awareness and a warming balm.  That which was uncovered in the shadows becomes the seeds for new growth, new possibilities.  The days are longer in radiance and there is a renewal and clarity in the air.  Rains may come and go to bring the love needed for the integration and sowing to take hold.  You are being born again, and this time the roots are bigger and stronger.  More closely aligned with your truest nature.  

These inner cycles can occur at any moment and at many times.  They occur in an hour or over the course of a year.  With each passing turn of the wheel, something deeper arises in you.  Some more determined.  You are done with what used to be considered ¨usual¨ and are moving into a new season of authentic.  Or another layer of authentic.  A more You than you ever thought you possible because you now hold the key.  The willingness to see where you have been compromising and permitting.  To not hold judgement but compassion for why, but now no longer need or desire.  

You see the 3rd dimension in the rear-view, the sun setting on this old way of seeing and BEing.  The old connections and patterns that no longer serve.  It was the winter of your unconscious heart and now the birth of new life inside sees a new vision of how it could be, how it was always meant to be, and currently IS.  New life is blooming inside and the rains give way to the freshness of air, the clarity of sight, and the magic of rainbows.  There is a kNOWing that all will never be the same.  There is a birthing of new relationships, new geographies, and new sense of inner fullness and peace.  Storms come and go but the roots are firmly in the ground.

The High Summer of our New Earth lives inside you.  Being showered with LoveLight daily as you clear that which has blocked your leaves from its sustenance.  Your RISE higher, with each influx of saying NO to that which no longer serves, and YES to that which fuels desire and dreams.  It is the Love that you are made of that now imbibes you with the will to BE HERE NOW.  Flowing with the winds of your lover´s heart the tune of your galactic symphony.  
The cycle will soon no longer be for you will have entered a new river of existence.  A previously forgotten world of divine inspiration and circulation.  The time of No Time and the swirl of pastel colors among the sea of a starlit stage.  A time of Love´s eternal grace that recognizes it never began and can never end.  It the dawn of a new season of the Sea of Sun.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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