Tag: personal process

Video: My Journey Into Service Of Love W/Kalayna

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by Kalayna Colibri

https://youtu.be/yjiXLCTULJo

Recently, I chose to begin space-holding again after a several month break. In this video, I share about my most recent process and also about how I’ve related to service of love in different parts and layers of myself, for many years.

Sharing this video is a way to offer and invite ways to feel where you personally may also be needing and wanting to go inside of yourself as you prepare for service on this journey of Ascension. We are ALL needed to show up and bring our inner love flow to support one another and to hold space for others in their own self-discovery and healing. In order to do that, we need to plant and grow some inner love seeds and cultivate from our own journeys within.

I’m available to serve you in a Bridging Session if you are a young woman 25 years old or younger. For more information on sessions, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Change Outside Requires Making Room For Change Inside

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by Kalayna Colibri

So, here I am…. having landed less than a week ago on the other side of some big big changes. I feel evidence unfolding now that changing geography or anything on the outside inevitably invites and actually requires you to change on the inside too. To continue letting go and letting in. To continue to feel what’s coming up to be felt as your parts acclimate to your new surroundings and circumstances.

Being back in Canada brings up a lot for me. It reminds me of who I was before I left 4 years ago and reflects to me how much and how deeply I’ve changed, healed, shifted. And, it shows me where the residue still is and what still needs to be moved through. I feel so empowered to keep doing this too. I feel so ready to shake off the old now… old reactions and judgements and fears. Old pieces that no longer really matter or are necessary to hold on to. Having been with so many parts of me over the years who have had such deep conditioning from living in a Western country, and especially in an environment outside of the west, I now get to feel and let in the rewards of new perspectives inside of me and let them be more real than the conditioning ever was. I still feel some pieces lingering, some self-consciousness for example, that is starting to fall away more and more.

I’ve begun connecting with a Lemurian aspect named Luta. She has helped me see and feel already some of the old reactions coming up that are ready to be recycled, moved into something new with the help of the Gaia love and support around me. I feel I am more able to move into the NEW with her help right now and my continuing inner process.

I’ll share more as that all unfolds.

Much love to all of you as we all inhabit and let in new possibilities and deep inner and outer change… and everything that comes with for each of us!

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Jelelle recently created a short guided meditation you can follow along with to feel your own Lemurian aspect(s) and to download some of the incredible codes here in Victoria: https://youtu.be/_yKWe2YtFNc

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Fogginess Continues, With Clarity On The Horizon

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by Kalayna Colibri

Today has been another day of fogginess inside, ups and downs in undulating waves, all amid feelings of movement that are leading to a greater sense of clarity and growth. It’s been a day too of feeling and letting in love and goodness… within myself, with my beloved mate Gabriel, and with our dear friend and teacher too, Raphael.

I wasn’t sure if I wanted or was ready to write anything today, but why not? Why not share a bit, just to be real and transparent, because I know and feel in my heart that I am not the only one moving through something intense and into more and more unknowns about who I am, even while I trust that pieces are falling into place too… this trust always seems to be there, even when I can’t consciously feel it!

These processes as they arise are visceral, emotional, powerful… not mental. Digesting it with my beloveds as it unfolds is huge and helpful, especially as another wave of intensity crests over the bough of my pitching and tossing ship. I couldn’t begin to name the intensity, but I can describe it as bliss-mess love and self-realization, supported by the goodness of my relationships and the goodness within that I’ve been healing towards for years now. It’s an overhauling of previous identifiers and a grounding into primal pain as a human being on this planet too.

Woah, right? This is deep stuff… and we’re all invited to move through whatever we need to with these themes and more.

I have had many waves of humbling processes over the years. These processes, these times of focusing inward to flow back outward again, always bring me to a new place of humility and learning about who I am and who I want to be… without any pretense or putting anything on. In fact, it’s actually been a process of taking more and more OFF, to get to the vulnerable underbelly of what’s been going on on the surface, to heal from that place and transform into something brand new.

I’m getting ready, as are all of you, to become something brand NEW.

These energies right now are offering us all much support as we reach a new stratum of Ascension on a personal and collective level. These phases of 4D darkness and purgings are necessary until they aren’t, until what has needed to be realized and felt has been. These times of fog ARE leading to clearer skies, as this is inevitable, even though parts of us may feel an existential terror or as if they are dying. This is the death and rebirth process that the Divine Mother and Father facilitate and hold space for as we continue our journeys back to full-time oneness and love-bliss consciousness, remembering all there is to remember about that too.

You and I and parts of us are not, in fact, dying… they and we are learning to live again, breathe new air again, emerge on deeper layers still from the invasive conditioning of 3D separation consciousness, the ways our parts have had to adapt and cope with that, and the pain of not being with Star Family 24/7. They never did go anywhere, yet we are energetically and heartfully finding our way back to them, and there is a lot to feel in the process of that, it seems.

Much love from the heart and soul of my process to yours. We are not alone, nor will we ever be… 

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If you’re in the middle of much process yourself, my beloveds offer exquisite, heartful, and powerful spaceholding where you can land it all and be felt deeply: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Invitation From Divine Mother: Breathe Into The Process As Clarities Unfold

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by Kalayna Colibri

“Stay with your heart in this powerful time. Allow in patience as the next clarity unfolds.”

I hear and feel this message from Divine Mother today, after a day of intense process waves yesterday that ebbed in the late afternoon. Lately, process seems to be coming up for me through what can feel like an intense inner fog and a strong desire for more clarity to happen ‘right now’, in this or that very moment… impatience abounds in moments as I feel the changes moving in and through my life, changes that are desired but also bringing me and my beloveds into the next unknown, which isn’t all that comfortable for parts of us sometimes.

I feel how this is likely a bit of a foggy time for the collective too. As more gets unearthed individually and collectively and disclosure happens in small or even large doses on all fronts, it can be challenging to see clearly what exactly the next steps are, outward or inward, or the reasons for it all to be coming up in the first place. The easy answer is that it needs to come up, no matter how messy things may get, but that’s not the answer parts of us really want to hear.

To have patience now and be ready to set boundaries or take space as needed, and to find your courage to enter into your next phase of growth and healing, is the invitation now. Trusting that everything you’re walking (or stumbling) out right now is leading somewhere. Sometimes you have to enter and re-enter your own inner woods before you can come out the other side with new clarity and an even more blissful sense of love and worth.

I know how hard it can be… how hard we all struggle sometimes to just get through the shame spirals, the feelings of not having a purpose, the feelings of, quite frankly, being ‘f*cked’ existentially and in our daily lives too. God, to even say out loud that this is all very sacred, even this intensity, is a lot to claim in moments. If even one small inch of your heart space can let this in, you’re finding your way back to grace and letting in the love that wants to support you through this so you can find out more of your personal love expression in this world.

Jelelle Awen has created many different guided meditations for you to lean into if you need a dose of Divine and self-love. I highly recommend checking out the SoulFullHeart YouTube channel, SoulFullHeart Experience, to find these and plenty of writings that can help bridge you back to your own sense of power and clarity and connection to the love that you are.

Much, much love to you as you keep courageously feeling and navigating the pain and fog that comes up from just BEing in this world sometimes. The Divine in all forms and faces, including your own, hears you, feels you, and honours the depths you’re willing to go to in each powerful moment of your choosing. 

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My beloveds offer space holding sessions if you need something, someone, to lean into now or any time:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Hearth Of My Opening Heart: A Poem

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by Kalayna Colibri

c: September 2016

Tremors move from your heart space to mine.
An overflow. A love place.
A warm hut with a burning fire.
I seek to understand what I cannot yet,
what I may not ever,
what I may know in spite of myself.
There is a garden behind the heart door.
A secret wooden manifestation of many years of collapsing memories and ever-arising lessons.
Love waits for me there,
with more surprises,
with tourniquets,
with salves,
with the ointment of new life and renewal of my essence’s light.

As the door creaks open wide,
I feel the dust fall from my shoulders, into my healing palms Where I can see it.
Where I can feel it.
Where I can touch its textures and hold it close
As it cries full tears of rippling red shadow pulses and black and blue figures dusty in their own rite
Peeling off the once invisible armors they treasured for so long.

Disarmed yet newly anchored in the safety of my own now opening heart
I rest amongst the silk cushions and wait by the roar of the fireplace
Until you come knocking.

After filling your pockets with your own dusty past and present
And rimming your heart with the sugar-coated candy of a caramel-filled chocolate,
Bringing your sticky-sweetness out to be tasted,
I will meet you here, my love.

In brightness and darkness, with sweets and savories I will wait.
I will work.
I will pry my heart open first for me,
Then for you,
And together we will find the fumbling and not-knowing
To be the greatest fun we ever had
And the biggest challenge we have ever faced,
And the greatest dragon we have ever owned on our own, Together, and with the Divine.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

9/10 Energies Invite Moving On, Seeing Next Process Steps

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By Kalayna Colibri

Today 9 turns into 10… it feels like a double-helix of new beginnings and taking everything you’ve learned and moved through to the next level while the old continues to move. This means applying all that you are now in all of the relationships you have… which could mean completing some, while deepening or even just beginning others.

I feel in myself a new beginning arising inside from much work and dedication to going inward, looking in the books and crannies and rather dark places. This work isn’t over and actually, I don’t want it to be. Yet I’ll take this new platform, this emerging foundation and these brand new wings out for a spin and feel all there is to feel in the process of that.

This is something I feel for many right now. You could be coming out of a deep emotional or physical process or both… I’ve always found that the two are inevitably linked. You could be popping through another ceiling of awakening and trying to integrate what you’ve been realizing and noticing about yourself, your soul, the world, your Star family, etc.

There’s a ton of support coming in, always, to help us feel all of this and more. The way you can let in this support is by feeling the parts of you in resistance to it. Resistance to love can be subtle. We all have resistance in some form or other, yet it’s how we relate to and feel that resistance that matters and has the most opportunity for growth, maturity, and letting in more love.

What reflections is life offering you now of where you’re on deck to go next in your personal process? We need these reflections to see what’s going on with us, as it’s not possible to see everything, every cluttered corner of your heart and soul, completely on your own. Life is a hall of mirrors, always.

As we move into this 9-10 day, let’s remember that we are ALL working to love our shadows and hidden places, feel what needs love inside of us, and that we are also always given a ton of love to help us see and be with this process. Nobody is exempt from this, yet we all get to choose how and if we accept the invitation to dive deeper and fly higher.

It’s your graduation day… just as every day could be. A graduation into your next phase of becoming more love and serving love too!

Much love! 💜

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My beloveds, Raphael, Gabriel and Jelelle are all very gifted space holders with magnificent hearts that are ready to offer deep support and illumination in collaboration with you, your parts, your own heart and soul. For more information, visit this page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Your Desires, Letting Go Of ‘Settling’

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By Kalayna Colibri

I’ve never felt very personally drawn to the sense that eliminating all of your desires is the path to true happiness. It’s in genuinely feeling our unhappiness because we don’t quite have what we desire that we set ourselves up for our next process of embodying the change we want to experience. Feeling desires does not have to feel like torture, though parts of you may relate to it that way. It’s not about over-stretching yourself into a pretzel to try and “make” something happen, either… though a phase of feeling yourself do this may be necessary for you.

This process doesn’t eliminate the need to feel gratitude. It’s actually a marriage of gratitude for what you’ve had and experienced and even letting in a mourning process of what you’re feeling to let go of, and a sense that you’re ready to move on now, that becomes the process of drawing in your next timeline.

As Raphael Awen has said many times, “the way you leave is the way you enter”. This lands quite deeply for me as I choose my next desires to pursue and let them land deeply in my heart too. There are things that I want, but more importantly, there are experiences of myself and also of others that I want, that are driving me onward into letting in more of what I truly want at this time.

I know so well the rumble that feeling the gap between what you want and want you have now creates in your being and your life. I have experienced over and over again the process of letting go while also holding on to that picture and feeling-experience that lives inside of you that tells you want is truly possible and invites you to feel all there is to feel about that.

This can become a scary process, especially if it is your first time navigating big changes or shifts, or if you’ve been through big changes before but want to move through it all differently now. It takes great courage to move through your timelines and into the unknown. This may feel natural to some parts of you, but completely unnatural and maybe undesirable to other parts of you.

If Ascension is anything though, it’s a letting go of the need to know and feeling all reactions there are to the not-knowing. We cannot ‘know’ our way through this Ascension process, only be with the unknowns of it and feel ourselves walking all of that out. This is the invitation of change and inner-rumble… this is the path to that which you’ve been most deeply aching for.

What are the desires you have for your experience of yourself, love, life, Ascension? What are you willing to move through in order to have and embody what you desire? Can you feel the parts of you that have a push-pull around letting that in?

It IS possible to hold what you want with a growing maturity and willingness to stumble through some darkness… and it IS imminent, that your desires are leading you to the happiness you crave beyond any previous ‘settling’ you may have been ok with for a while, and the fulfillment of everything your soul has signed up for. ❤️

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My beloveds, Jelelle, Raphael and Gabriel all offer exquisite space holding sessions if you’re curious to ride this unknown horse of your desires more deeply into the next sunrise of your life: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

My Healing ‘Me’ Phase: Sharing My Current Personal Process

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by Kalayna Colibri

Service of love is a crucible for growth… the growth of those you serve and your own growth too.

How many times I’ve learned this and been humbled by this…

We cannot downplay the importance of going inward and soberly evaluating ourselves, feeling if we SHOULD be serving others right now or if there’s something that needs us deep within first.

As my beloved friend, teacher and Facilitator Raphael said to me yesterday, “It feels right to take the space from facilitating. Without that, it would feel like trying to get at a foundation with a house sitting on top of it, which would be a whole lot more involved process.” Bingo.

Because of this, I’ve made the choice to step down as a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for this emerging phase of my healing and deep need of ME. My heart and soul feel a strong desire to serve love, yet the first step to that is becoming MORE love through being with myself and my parts. Without doing this, my space holding isn’t as deep as I desire it to be and not as helpful to the facilitant – the person making the vulnerable and courageous choice to lean into me for that 90min and maybe beyond – either. not to mention that the space held isn’t as safe as it needs to be for the healing to flow from my own love overflow into them to support their own.

I feel too how this process is not just about me as an individual. I feel how this is something that many space holders neglect to look at in themselves and as a result their parts can feel “burnt out” or resentful of their clients instead of in collaboration and heart-openness, which can lead to outright abuse or perhaps something more subtle. I feel how there is something for all of us to feel, whether you call yourself a “lightworker”, “space holder”, “wayshower”, “energy healer”, etc about how much you genuinely care about the person you’re offering healing to, how much respect and love you authentically feel for them, and if there are unowned judgments, triggers, pieces coming up inside of you that need you to show up to feel them in your own space, maybe even taking a break from offering healing to others for a phase, in the name of your own healing and self love growth. The biggest block to being able to vulnerably feel all of this inside of yourself feels to be the block of an overfocus on self-image, forgetting and maybe even hiding that you are also a humbly healing and ascending human being.

My beloveds in this community and healing path of SoulFullHeart have brought me many reflections over this past week that have given me plenty of pause and entry points into my heart too… to see why exactly I’ve been the way I’ve been when what I want is to be and serve love. This was a major sign of something big being out of alignment… we cannot put on the “healer hat” and be one way in sessions while we let parts of us run the show in other areas of our life and relationships with far less care, without one reality spilling over into the other sooner or later. And since the shadow is always wanting to be seen, felt and held, of course this is where the spillover is most likely to happen…

As my process unfolds, I’ll probably share more of the clarities I feel, because in this way I still feel called to serve love and see how what I’m discovering lands in the hearts and souls of others. I hope that even this writing which is more personal lands somewhere helpful inside of you. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Letter To Men, And To The Sacred Masculine: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Aug 13, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter is launched by a powerful piece written by SoulFullHeart Co-Creator, Facilitator, and Teacher, Raphael Awen. In this writing, he vulnerably shares about his latest process with a Metasoul brother (more on Metasoul here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts) and his process of connecting with his own push-pull around serving men. He also digests some themes he feels are moving through all men in the collective:

“What holds any one of us back from our true and deep (even infinite) potential? Why would we settle for good enough, or worse, for ongoing suffering? Why would we believe, and then go on to manifest according to that belief, that this is ‘as good as it gets’?

…I write to men. I call to men. I write to the Sacred Masculine that lives in men and women alike. I declare my desire and readiness along with acknowledging at the same time my reticence to serve men, and this reticent Masculine; in order to serve my highest timeline. Nothing needs to be overcome or suppressed in order to achieve in these new arising domains of being, but instead lovingly embraced as the seed of our ever-present infinite being out experiencing a full drama of leaving and then returning to the fullness we always were and are, but couldn’t quite come to know and feel, until we enter this Now.”

Raphael, along with his beloved and SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Facilitator/Teacher, Jelelle Awen, will be hosting a live stream Q & A tomorrow, Aug 18th, at 11:30am CDT on Jelelle’s Facebook feed and on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience. Catch them live or on the recording, talking about the incoming Ascension energies and the processes going on right now too, as they also take your questions and comments.

There is a brand new guided meditation offering released this week as well, from SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator/Heartist, Gabriel Heartman. It is a meditation offered to help you connect with the Inner Punisher part of you in order to begin a relationship with this part, get to know it, and start to love it as a part of you that needs you and your love to hold it.

There are a number of new writings offered this week from Gabriel, Kalayna, Raphael, and Jelelle, along with a few new audio recordings too. This week they digest the topics of the latest solar eclipse and the energies it offered; sacred union; and different ways to feel and digest your ongoing personal process.

You’ll find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

Whatever You Most Need You Can Recieve: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Aug 6, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter kicks off with a piece by Jelelle Awen. In this writing, she invites you to feel the message of the Lion’s Gate Portal that we have just walked through:

“The invitation is to increasingly trust that whatever you MOST need in order for your Higher Self/soul coming into your body and higher heart capacity to SERVE love will be offered to you.”

Also from Jelelle this week, we have a new guided meditation to offer you that will help you connect with Star Family. Lean into Jelelle’s voice and energy as she guides you to your heart and into a reunion with your Star Family, whose presence you may or may not already be consciously feeling or that parts of you may be feeling resistant to connecting with.

Many new writings and a few new audio recordings for you to take in this week, as we wrap-up and integrate the Lion’s Gate energies. These writings from Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman all offer you different ways in which to digest the incoming love waves and energies and what they have been offering you. Different ways to feel your ongoing personal process are also offered.

You’ll find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.