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The Road To Lion’s Gate: Feeling The Rumbles Of The Eclipse

Published on by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

Here we are on the other side of the eclipse. Picking up pieces, coming out of the ash, and/or integrating all that was downloaded into our hearts and souls. It was an intense time for many. The deep feeling and shedding of all that has been not serving, not allowing love to enter its domain. But the desire for us to heal is strong among Gaia and Her galactic fans. This road to wholeness that passes through many trials and tribulations, is an ongoing, yet lightening, journey.

You are not in some spin cycle of turmoil, though parts and soul aspects of us may feel that way sometimes. This recent ‘event’ was meant to highlight and access that which has been hidden in the depths of your soul. The unworthiness, the shame, the guilt, and rejection. Those energies that have collected in your being as we have traveled and traversed the time/space dimension of experience. It is a time of unpacking so that your load is lightened and your vision and passion become clearer as we all approach the Lion’s Gate.

You and I all have an opportunity in front of us. A choice point. Which direction do we wish to progress? I do believe all directions lead us Home as part of a chosen path, but here is a moment when we can make that an even deeper conscious one. As you assess your life, feel the truths within you, and let them come to the surface of your Now, then you are given a gift to heal and create new timelines. To end cycles and determine new paths.

This is not some blissy affair at times, though on the other side of the pain is the horizon of Joy. It is a deep dive of Metasoul lives and this life trauma that is coming at us at an increasing rate as the veil that we have placed before us is thinning. The protection that was created in the form of Protector and Gatekeepers is beginning to reveal themselves and there is a lot to be with in that awakening.

Over the next week approaching the Lion’s Gate I feel to keep a finger on the pulse of what I feel is moving in our collective, yet also individual, journeys through this next phase of our ascension. We all have a choice to let this be something extraordinary. It is going into the depths that offer the air of expansion and profound new days. Join me in the healing, the discovery, and the creation of what we know to be true and real in our hearts and souls. The stewards of a New Earth that first begins with You.

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Anniversary Of Choosing Love

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By Raianna Shai

It has been exactly one year today that I moved to Mexico. Not only that, but it has been one year that I really began to see myself. To honour the unique and different parts of me that may not always coexist in harmony, but that I have come to realize care for me and each other so deeply.

One year ago I began a deep dive into my emotional body and spirituality that shone a light into the dark corners of my existence. What I uncovered were often scared parts that felt unworthy of love. From a fierce protector that did anything it could to protect me and my other parts to those young and pure parts that I felt needed protecting.

The biggest and most beautiful thing that I learned this year was how to love. How to love these parts of me, because that’s all they really need and want. To love others so genuinely that I can let them go knowing it’s best for the both of us. To love all of the souls I haven’t met yet by cultivating love within myself first.

I have learned and felt how setting boundaries (with love) is the biggest way to nourish your soul and to send the message to your parts that they matter. That the energy I choose to be around and take in, matters. I have learned that boundaries don’t mean hate or not accepting someone for who they are. When done from the heart, boundaries are the most loving thing you can do when someone you care about cannot yet see their own bigness or yours.

I spent a lot of time away from my family before moving here but something has changed. They aren’t just my family anymore, they are my soul family. I’m at a place now where I don’t have to hide. I don’t have to put everyone else first because I know that they are taking care of their own parts as lovingly and fully as possible.

I’ve always loved helping others. Talking through what was going on in their lives, making them feel better, finding solutions or a silver lining. But I wasn’t giving that to myself at all. I was so scared of the dark places inside of me that I couldn’t even nourish the light. I would help anyone I could to escape the emptiness I felt inside. I felt so disconnected from my soul and judgement towards the intense emotions I could feel sometimes. It was like a drug hit to be able to feel someone else because in some ways I refused to feel my own parts.

Even when no one asked, when they would never expect me to hold as much as I did, I was there. It was my vice, my escape, to be able to be in their world and not my own, knowing I wasn’t happy. Knowing I wasn’t doing what was really in my heart. While also knowing I couldn’t help anyone in the way that I really wanted to.

I’ve got a lot more exploring to do but I feel that I am where I am meant to be in this moment. I am happy, I am becoming more fulfilled each and every day, and I am open to whatever it is this life (and others) lead me to next. I chose everything I have experienced this life and I’m more than happy that it led me here.

So thank you. To SoulFullHeart, to my soul family, to everyone who has ever touched my heart, to my parts, to my experiences, and to myself. For this journey we’re all on is precious. It’s hard, it’s arduous, and it can feel complicated to parts of us. But wow does it keep on giving us gifts!

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

What Lies Under Staring Above And Beyond

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What is this new world a part of you seems to be awaiting?

Does it sometimes feel like you are sitting at the edge of precipice or the shore of an expansive ocean just waiting for ‘It’ to arrive? The Exposure…The Contact…The Shift…For those around you to wake up to everything that you see, hear, and feel.

It may feel like It is coming for others. There can be so many reasons why parts of you feel like they are stuck in mud, spinning in circles, or constantly in pain. So many reasons why ‘It’ is not coming. Yet what is ‘It’ you are waiting for really?

Permission? You have it if you want it. You already have the authority. It is a part of you that feels unworthy or afraid of actually creating the world you see and feel deep inside of you.

External shifts? Those only shift when you do. When you make the choice to step out of the drama and heal the trauma, the fight, the rage.

Guarantees? The only thing you can control is your level of surrender and persistence. This is your power that does not take but has a steady compassionate march into the unknown, for the world you seek has been veiled into forgetfulness.

Underneath it all is your desire and need to be loved, to be seen, to be free of all that has limited your consciousness from experiencing life to it fullest and deepest potential. It is your (and my!) insatiable appetite for More. To go beyond this broken record of survival and secrecy, and transmute into abundant possibilities of thrival and romance, both inner and outer.

This is what I feel undergirds what the eclipse and Lion’s represent in the deepest recesses of our hearts and souls. It is the reason why we stare into heavens because we are ultimately staring into ourselves. This is the Great Healing that can only start inside of you.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Blood Moon Eclipse As An Emotional And Spiritual Cleanse

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Painting by Annie B @ www.annieb-art.co.uk

There is a vibrating anticipation with this upcoming eclipse. The uniqueness of it creates a buzz on the outside that is reflective of the buzz on the inside. One is not separate from the other. As these celestial bodies make their way into an energetic alignment, so too are our emotional, spiritual, mental, and physical bodies. Imagine them as parts of your own SOULar system. When these bodies start to come into contact with each other, there is a great energy that begins to rumble.

As I checked in with my celestial counterparts this afternoon, I was given a symbolism of what this blood-red lunar eclipse means to me personally, which telescopes out to those that it is meant to as well. (Sometimes to feel the collective you simply just need to feel yourself). There is a big feminine shedding that wants to take place. Just as the uterine wall needs to let go of all that is no longer needed to make way for the new cycle if the seed of creation as not been sown.

This shedding is a felt release of all that is stored inside your own emotive cells. It actually wants to shed those walls that have kept all the stored pain, trauma, and fear in stasis, or cycle. It cannot come with you entering into the Lion’s Gate for it will weigh you down. But more important than the upcoming gateway, it wants to go because it is just damn time!

This is not some intense cleanse with punishing tones, no. It is a sacred process that has you in deep connection with all the areas in your life (both inner and outer) that are no longer of service to you going forward and UP! The length of this event is as it is so that as many of us on Gaia can let go and let in the next steps in the ascension journey.

Even in its feminine nature, it is not a passive process. You don’t come out new on the other side without making some deep realizations and choices. The choices are the activation of what has been learned and felt from seeing/feeling into the depths of your own shadow. This is deep personal, emotional, and spiritual revival.

As you live into your days, feel where it is that your own eclipse may be showing you where there are feelings/truths that have been hidden away, built-up, and cordoned off. Where is the energy stuck and swirling and looking for release…and relief. This is another opportunity to move your reality into a new dimension that is only authorized by your own will to feel and heal it all.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Inner Child Transmutation – Healing As A Key Aspect Of Ascension: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 16, 2018)

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It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week! Go here to read it!

This week’s Museletter starts off with a piece by Jelelle Awen where she invites you to feel your Inner Child and the many frequencies this part of you has and holds. She offers that this part is an important aspect of our Ascension:

“So, connecting with your Inner Child links very directly with your Ascension and Awakening process. It is a KEY aspect of the process. Trying to avoid or divert or bypass from healing the Inner Child doesn’t seem to work very well and shows up in other ways such as abuse patterns in relationships, ongoing suffering, body disease/illness, cap/blocks in ascension, etc.

The Inner Child is a crucial energy to ‘come along’ with you on your journey! Invite them into your heart space and discover the rich and vast rewards of this INtegration! There are so many gifts freed up as you integrate these energies back into your BEing again…”

This week, Raphael Awen has shared the latest SoulFullHeart Patreon Money Update for you to take in and digest along with us. Our money picture continues to shift along with our desire as a community and individual souls to deepen our service-of-love picture. We invite you into this inner world of SoulFullHeart and how we experience/hold money as a community.

There are many new writings this week from Gabriel Heartman, Kalayna Colibri, and Raphael and Jelelle Awen, along with some new audio recordings too. This week we have articles covering a range of energy updates; invitations to continue to feel and integrate parts of you and your awakening experiences too; and sweet ways to feel the love that wants to come in and BE with you in every moment.

You’ll find information about our five-day retreat happening here in beautiful, Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in November, 2018. You can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We all offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD min. donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

We love to share our offerings with you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation in the form of money you feel that resonates with our offerings. You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

Lunar Eclipse Energies: Feel/See Your Highest Timeline & Fears Of It Too

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by Kalayna Colibri

New possibilities… I feel them humming in the background of ‘everyday life’ with a frequency of soft invitation. Nothing is being forced in these moments. You may be experiencing activations, yet you can only ever be invited to step into the bigger container of soul and heart that they co-create with you, not pushed, though if parts of you have resistance to the invitation than it can feel this way to them. Awakening is growth and expansion and eventually, you become too big for the small container your parts have been used to feeling “OK” with in your relationships, job/career, healing path, etc.

‘Activations’, whether from lunar or solar energies, are awakenings into higher timelines… the highest being the one where there are no compartments needed and everything, every aspect of your life, can flow together in a beautiful (though sometimes messy) dance of integration. Maybe you can feel parts of you that are still wanting the compartments and are willing to defend the borders of each area of your life with any ammo they can find. Maybe you can also start to feel that each part who feels this way has good reason to fear the collapse of these borders that they have worked so hard to defend.

This coming full lunar eclipse on the 27th has an energy of feminine invitation… it’s a frequency that doesn’t force, yet illuminates and holds space. It’s an activation of the heart, a gentle flip of a switch on the heart-light, that helps you feel the parts of you that need to be felt through this whole process of Ascension and everything that is being brought to collapse or completion along with it, as well as everything that is being activated in the soul by SOULar energies. Along with feeling and being in relationship with these parts of you, comes the awakening to your highest timeline possibilities, the ones that have felt impossible or at least very far away before. Feeling the push-pull inside you when you feel the picture of your higher timeline opening out is important now, and the feminine helps you make room to feel all there is to feel while also taking steps toward inhabiting/embodying it.

Feeling the “I want it/I don’t want it” polarity dance inside of you is important, especially as you feel the powerful call into service of love and the call to feel your personal desires for your life too. The movement that comes from feeling your parts/Metasoul Aspects around this in a loving container held by you will go much deeper than any “quick fix” or looking only to outside sources to move it for you. The gift of finding that powerful healer within you whose ultimate superpower is the deep love of every part or aspect of you is one that WILL last and is the main ticket to that higher timeline flow you’ve been aching to truly be in.

Much love to you as these eclipse energies continue to flow in and encourage you to just feel… in this moment and every other moment that follows. ❤

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If you’re feeling drawn to asking for support on your journey to illuminating and stepping into your highest timeline(s), I would welcome you to connect with me for a 90min Bridging Session if you are a woman who is 35 or under. My beloveds, Raphael, Jelelle, and Gabriel also offering Bridging Sessions. For more information, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Masculine Space Holding For Women

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Lately, I have been holding session space for two amazing women as well as witnessing other women’s processes in our group calls. This has been an interesting experience for both myself and them, especially when there is masculine wounding in the emotional body due to abuse.

What I have been experiencing with these women is a deep and profound healing between the masculine and feminine within. As a space-holder, I represent and reflect something to the parts of a woman that are in trauma. This can be father, son, friend, and/or romantic partner. I become a symbol of the masculine himself, embodied in physical form.

As I have been in the process of healing my own inner masculine, as well as my feminine, I am able to be a new presence in the experience of these wounded aspects. All of this, of course, is only possible through my connection to the woman’s Inner Protector, her inner masculine that has been around a long time in response to the patriarchal dominion.

This connection and relationship helps to bridge a relationship between you, the feminine, and the Protector. He gets to be seen and felt as more than just a tired and dutiful guard. He gets to see how he has been relating to you, how he sees you as a being. Usually, at first, they may admit to seeing you as child-like, yet capable at the same time. An interesting dichotomy that creates confusion in their ‘role’. By having this inner masculine connect to another masculine energy seems to relieve something in them that permits more of the authentic feminine within to arise.

Through this relationship, you and I get to explore the ways in which the personal experience of the masculine has created pockets of pain hidden deep in the caverns of your heart. With an open and compassionate heart, we feel where this has MANifested on the inside both in wounded feminine and masculine parts and Metasoul lives still in deep suffering. Holding a different masculine frequency from the one that has been experienced, can bring up a lot of distrust and a lot of painful memories that get to be transmuted from you to you as you hold these parts of you close and dear.

The healing moments are tender, touching, and quantum. They create new experiences within yourself and help to draw more of what you really want, need, and deserve into your life. It is a service that has been an honor to participate in and serve. It has brought a lot of gifts and a deep sense of admiration for all that Woman as held and been through. There is no sense of duty in this for I am healing that wound from my own experience. There are boundaries and loving nudges along the way.

If you feel that an open-hearted and direct masculine presence is something that is a curiosity to you and could serve a deeper dive into your healing and ascension, I am available for a 90-minute 1-on-1 Bridging Session for 55 USD. We can feel together where you are and where we may be able to go on this journey together of reconciling the masculine and feminine within.

Much love,

Gabriel Heartman
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Is It Safe To Want More?

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By Raphael Awen

‘Is it safe to want more?’

‘Can I actually have what I most deeply want?’

‘Isn’t gratitude for what I have the opposite of wanting more?’

These questions repeatedly come to anyone who chooses to awaken their emotional body? They came to me again last night as I felt another layer of what I so deeply want.

To learn of deep abounding beauty that you don’t normally experience is to subject yourself to longing and despair that you don’t currently have that in your life. It takes big courage just to awaken that far. To then set out to obtain that deep beauty as your living reality is to call on resources of courage and choice that will surely be tested and tried moving forward.

How much easier and understandable it is for the masses to choose to remain asleep to desire. In moments, you are tempted to choose the path of the masses if you had any inkling that it could actually work for you.

You know you are here for more. You know that’s ‘just what is’ in your relationship to life. You also know any spirituality that offers the killing of your desire in the name of ‘overcoming attachment’ won’t work for you. You want more and you know it.

But life doesn’t actually offer you any kind of unconditional guarantee that you will obtain the desire of your quest for more, in exchange for your willingness to want so deeply. What life does offer you however, is the opportunity to embrace, and be in the aliveness of your desire for more. This is where the meaning is felt and found. I am a living breathing ‘wanter’.

I get to be in want.

I am a lover of love and love is so infinite and so multi-faceted that in surrendering to being in love’s want, I am sure to always be wanting something more than what I currently have, as beautiful, and even super-abundant as my current reality may be, and may go on to become.

We came from infinite source ‘having it all’ and yet we wanted more. So we came here, to be in lack, and want, to feel all there is to feel about this paradox. I am The All out wanting more.

I do get to fully enjoy every fulfilled desire along the way. I get to be in gratitude for both my wants AND what my wants have brought me. Every attachment that I ever clutched onto for as long as I did, be it a healthy or an unhealthy attachment, was really for me simply LOVE, in the way that it was, for the time that it was. It may no longer be love for me as I move on to deeper experiences of love, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t deep and abounding love in the way and time that it was.

In fact, everything that I ever wanted and will ever want is simply love. Love is the source of all. I’m told that you and I can have all that we are ready and willing to let in, AND, when and as we are ready for it, we can have it TOGETHER too, in community.

How’s that for a deal? How’s that for a new world order? You and I get to be the deepest experiencers of love as we are willing to be in love’s deepest want.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Life’s ‘Perfect Storms’ Support You To Feel All You Need To Feel

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by Kalayna Colibri

The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.

Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…

This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.

You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.

During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons’. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…

Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤

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To support you on this journey of deeply feeling these emotional storms and the sources of them, check out our offering one-on-one Bridging Sessions… a loving space to illuminate and feel your next healing steps: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-sessions ❤️

What Love Wants

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I want you to feel free my beloved
Free to be real, to be vulnerable, to be open
Free to be cautious, uncertain, and afraid

I want you to be able to let in more, not less
To let in that you are desire and desired
That you are alive and living
That you are right and not wrong

I want you to remember your value and worth
Your beauty and sensuality
Your capacity and ability

I want you to trust that you ARE lovedust
That it cannot be taken from you
Only hidden and buried

I want you to know that I know it is hard
That true and pure love can burn and hurt
That it can pierce and collapse
All you thought I was, but turned out I wasn’t

I remember how you never got what you needed
What you wanted
What mattered the most
And I remember how you needed that to remember
What you truly are

I am not going anywhere
For no matter where you go
What you do
I…will…be…there

Always
Fovever
Patient
Persistent

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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