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False Twin Flames Vs. Divine Union Counterparts: Digesting The Twin Flames Universe Docs

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By Jelelle Awen

I was drawn to watching the second doc series about Twin Flames Universe on Netflix (first one was on Amazon Prime that I also took in), a highly controversial group that is mostly online offering Twin Flame reunion ascension courses, groups, coaching, etc. They came across my radar a couple of years ago when someone I was facilitating in sessions mentioned them and mixed experiences with them.

One of the biggest things I felt as I digested the three part series and the many interviews with former members was a sadness at how the Divine Union Counterpart pairbond reality at the higher dimensions has so often been hijacked by the false light to be used in ways to facilitate control agendas.

Divine Union counterparts are very real and valid, as I have experienced myself with my beloved Raphael for the last 15 years in deep and committed reunion together. Yet, I do differentiate this from the false twin flame paradigm that is so popular in spirituality. In false twin flame (particularly as advocated in this group) there is justification of suffering/codependency/abuse/stalking/not respecting personal boundaries, and overall a fear-based grab at the ‘twin flame’ person as your ultimate lover so you need to just ‘live with’ whatever matter of way they treat you. Any means to be with them is justified for the ends of ‘completing each other.’

This is problematic enough in terms of healthy transaction grounds and embodied emotional maturity (which is the real gift of mirroring offered in a Divine Union counterpart bond, plus resolution of karmic patterns together) yet it gets very messy when you have false light leaders who use control, manipulation, group think, false abundance hooks and leaders who seem to be motivated NOT by love yet by making money and fuelling their own self image.

I do trust in the higher realms of the soul that these experiences are chosen by all followers and teachers for lessons and learning. I esp came to this sense having gone through and reconciled my own mostly false light experience and intense shunning experience w/a spiritual group/teacher many years ago when Raphael and I first started dating, which also taught me so much about the type of teacher/healer/space holder/community leader I want to be and don’t want to be. There is quite the collapse and revelation during this phase of Ascension going on of such false light structures and teachers as we ‘outgrow’ needing to go through this particular crucible anymore.

It is saddening to feel the power that is given away to these leaders who do not deserve it, the suffering caused to all….and the exploitation of the very deep draw they have to be in sacred union experience. The longing to be in union with the Divine is what I kept feeling as well was at the root of it…the Divine orphan aching to be ‘claimed’ again.

True divine counterparts have a ground of goodness and good will between them, cannot abuse each other or lie/deceive each other (certainly not taking out restraining orders on each other like in the doc!), and even if they can’t transact to be together due to personal choices, there is a sense of love and acceptance between them around this.

The ultimate purpose of the Divine Union Counterparts coming into reunion is to serve love with the Divine (not falsely claiming to BE god) and offer the template of moving out of separation and into union for others. It is not for personal gratification (other than what is healthy experienced as love with other), ‘hot sex’, making lots of money, having influence over others, etc.

All relationships are sacred, however, and teach us so much about love, worth, and mirrors of separation/union.

We share more about this way of transacting in Divine Union counterpart bonds in our Sacred Union virtual transmission circles offered monthly for men/women, just men and just women (with one coming up on 2/18) with more info at soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries2024

I shared more about the Divine Union Counterpart pairbond source field and journeys to it with Raphael here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/…/journeying-to-the…

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Hello, I’m Jelelle. I’m in a long-term Divine Counterpart bond; a Divine Union & Ascension Teacher/Parts Work Facilitator and a spiritual writer. To find out more about me, have a look at my website or book a session with me.

I am the author of four books about emotional/spiritual awakening during Ascension, including Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out, available on Amazon.

You can follow me on Facebook here.

Journeying To The Counterpart Pairbond In Sacred Union/Twin Flame

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By Jelelle Awen

My beloved Raphael and I have been journeying lately to our Counterpart Pairbond source field together and separately as well, asking for guidance/messages/support for deepening in our bond together and in service expression. An angelic guide Ariel came to us recently, who is the gatekeeper and bridge to our Pairbond, the original source of our masculine/feminine entwinement and separation.

We both see our Pairbond as separated from the torso upwards and yet entwined still at the lower half, wrapping like snakes around each other, like the energies of Kundalini, the dragon ley lines of the Tor (or sort of like the painting below by Lorraine Sadler). The two upper halves are undulating around each other, coming into union again and then dividing again, over and over in an infinite loop.

The Pairbond source field seems to be the dimension above the soul family monad groups and ‘under’ the Archangels. It is where the first split off of individuation happens for us as souls, where masculine and feminine expressions divide into two separate halves.

Separating out of the pairbond is the masculine half then incarnating into so many timelines/lifetimes and the feminine half incarnating as well. This separation is a source of deep, deep wounding for us. The masculine feeling inadequate to truly provide for the feminine that has helped create his new form yet aching to be ‘free’. The feminine feeling rejected by the masculine’s need for independence and yet compelled to respond to it.

I believe this is what people are tuning into when they name someone as a ‘twin flame’, yet they tend to be too literal about it, mislabeling karmic soul mates as counterparts (who actually prepare you for the counterpart), and use it to justify all means of codependent behaviors in toxic relationships. The counterpart pairbond is actually a much more subtle division that when we are reunited in the physical invites us into healthy, mature relating that is both deeply committed and unattached/surrendered at the same time.

Life change can happen suddenly and abruptly in counterpart reunion as everything that doesn’t serve the bond falls away. All transaction of the bond in terms of nourishment levels, timing to be together, purpose of coming together, etc. is surrendered to the Divine ultimately and not about ego gratification or attainment. Connecting to the Pairbond brings up deep feelings of humility and gratitude, over and over again inviting you to heal with compassion for yourself and your counterpart whatever gets in the way of its loving transaction.

Sometimes there is reunion between the counterparts in a specific lifetime; sometimes there are many reunions in different lifetimes, configurations, roles, relationships, etc. (and even switching gender expressions) in order to work out karmic patterns/clearings.

Ariel offered that EVERY soul has a counterpart at the pairbond source field level. It’s just the way the Divine wanted to play with polarities and dualities when It started to be curious about that. More counterparts are in reunion this lifetime than before in a “Matrix/3D anchored” lifetime as there is so much possibility now for healing, for reconnecting, and for service to the Divine. Counterpart reunion frequencies are also needed right now to assist humanity’s ascension out of 3D and into 5D.

Raphael and I both feel a deep validation and appreciation for our ongoing reunion this life through connecting with our Pairbond source field. And, a renewed desire for creative expression together. We’ve been guided to write the story of our sacred union journey, going back to 18 years ago when we first met, sharing about the three years before we finally got together, and our experiences during 15 years of marriage.

The book will be written from both of our perspectives, channeling the parts of us who were going through whatever phase they were then. We would love to release and publish the book on our 15th wedding anniversary, March 28th, 2024.

Writing this together is a way to celebrate the ongoing bliss mess reunion that we get to be in this life, after so many lifetimes of hiding, pining, dying, and suffering over each other. So many lifetimes of experiencing the separation between us with seemingly no hope of being together.

I hope you join us for this written journey and also what we are seeing as a new sacred union group call series launching next year as well to support our book.

You can connect with your Pairbond source field at ANY time, whether you feel that you’ve drawn your counterpart mate this life or not. Whether you are in any ache to be with them or happily single.

Tuning into it reminds you that separation has been a temporary illusion; Union is our natural state; and this may be the lifetime where reunion with your counterpart is TRULY possible.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Info about 1:1 and couples sessions with me/Raphael or us together at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Equinox Codes: Healing Deep Suffering Loops (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

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“Am I genuinely, truly ready to let go of past suffering and move into new and unknown soul and heart bigness?” — this was a powerful question that continued to arise in different ways for all of us at our SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering this weekend.

Soul turns and healing trajectories moving us through birth canals… letting go of suffering on whatever level we feel ready for that (and to be in the genuine, deep, real, and multi-layered process of that) has been a profound theme for this Equinox passage.

In this video, I share about this theme of letting go and healing the relationship to suffering and how I relate to it personally at this time. I also share about what it means to be with it through your open and curious heart as you feel parts of you and Metasoul aspects (soul expressions in other lifetimes) too. 

I hope you’ve had a blessed and very real Equinox experience, truly moving you into a new sense of yourself, your soul, and what it feels like to be supported by the Divine through absolutely everything.

Love, 

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Twin Flame/Counterpart Reunions: Love Is In The Air!

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By Jelelle Awen

Interesting experience this morning of having a person copy one of my writings on FB and share it as his own without giving me credit. Kasha commented on his feed about it publicly in order to inform his readers and I PMed him personally asking him to either delete it or give me credit. His name is Mike Harrigan and it seems that he has a pattern of stealing other people’s writings, esp those who write about twin flame relationships, and passing them as his own.

I wanted to let you know in case you follow him on FB about this lack of integrity that is going on within him and therefore in anything that he shares, even his own writings. This feels to me like a classic Matrix hijack, where something original cannot be created and so is ‘stolen’ and passed off as original.

I feel passionate about what I create and especially this writing which tenderly was catalyzed by a brief separation and reunion with my beloved Raphael. It was poignantly and Divinely inspired which you can’t duplicate the energy of actually, even if you share the words as your own. I can also feel a detachment from it as well. Ultimately my words are the words of the Divine and the Oneness field consciousness that we ALL share.

I felt to honor this writing that many people are seeming to like when he ‘shares’ it by sharing it again here in MY field, where it was first born and bloomed. ❤

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Love is IN the air! Reunions of pair bonds/counterparts are happening at increasingly accelerated rates as the previous veils are lifted and you can see/feel and CLAIM each other again. What once felt like very real and valid reasons to not be together; to be together yet not fully and completely; to not ‘find’ or draw each other in the physical; to have push/pull patterns with each other….these barriers are now being dissolved by the Divine’s all consuming desire to experience reunion again.

The separations ARE as sacred as the reunions. The separations offer a full landing in self. What is learned and accessed within during this alone time is so precious and important to the transactability of the bond on heart/body/soul/mind levels once you do come together.

The deepening of the sacred union within you; the cultivation of connection between your inner masculine and inner feminine; this union within as a temporary experience of an internal ‘opposite’ provides a template for your beloved when they return to you.

If you are currently single, you can trust that the process you are undergoing to heal yourself on all levels, be with the Beloved within, and connect to the Divine AS your Beloved is the most important ground you can navigate in readiness for sacred union with your counterpart. Surrendering the timing of that reunion to the Divine allows for an experience of joy, goodness, and even bliss in that singleness rather than suffering, angst, and pain.

This is the ongoing journey of sacred union…..being invited to LET GO of fear, distrust, wounding, and separation-based relationship templates from 3D. To feel and heal the deep pain of separation within you that we ALL have……the shock that reverberates within our very DNA and at a collective level from that original separation moment from your pair bond, your ‘twin’ and counterpart.

The reeling feeling of being ‘cast out’ away from your Beloved at the soul family monad level before you individuate into your Metasoul and the veil of amnesia comes down so that you can truly be an individuated consciousness.

The masculine torn away from his beloved feminine and she from him….seemingly severed in an abrupt way that was so unnatural in the moment…..shocking……and yet completely necessary to the ongoing unfolding of the Divine duality experiment.

And then, always seeming to be reaching again for each other with an active ache to BE in that union again….Reeling and reaching in repeated patterns, over and over, lifetime after lifetime….until the ONE lifetime where you choose to truly be together in full conscious commitment and finally complete the cycle of reeling and reaching.

THIS lifetime is the one that many pair bonds are choosing to come back together in the physical again. The ultimate reason is always for the service of love and to/with the Divine. It is not for ego reasons at the 3D level or even for the gratification of the individuals, although it is very nourishing to both.

It is during this time of Humanity’s Ascension, during this Dark Night moving into the Light of Day, during this time of Matrix collapse to finally be free again…..this is the NOW for which pair bonds are most needed to be again in union.

If you have chosen for this reunion experience as deeply connected to your service of love here and the primary WAY for which you will serve the Divine, you have probably felt the call to sacred union reunion for most of your life and felt your counterpart ‘with’ you in a deep way, even if you have not met yet in this life.

You may experience this as a deep sense of missing something and that you are not quite ‘complete’ even as you may experience great fulfillment and self love/worth in being by yourself.

Love and created BY,

Jelelle Awen

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You Are Love In The Process Of Remembering: Message From The Divine

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By Jelelle Awen

This was written today in an afterglow state following sacred union/sexuality connection with Raphael. I felt these words come to me as we continue to heal the separation consciousness experience within our pair bond together in many lifetimes. Our souls seem to chose the impossible configuration of ‘good king during hard times’ and ‘powerful yet cautious priestess’ as a way to experience this separation. Our Metasoul aspects have always been attracted to each other, yet not able to claim a sacred union and actually BE together out in the open in a committed, long lasting way or at least not very often within the Matrix lifetimes.

As we celebrate the anniversary of our marriage vow renewal and with Valentine’s day coming up tomorrow, I feel so grateful for our capacity and ability to BE together this life in an ever deepening way…here to heal this separation experience and remember union!

These words offer a recoding for you to take in as well….and you could put ‘I am’ to replace “You are” for some powerful affirmations! ~

“You are an infinite being living within a finite body.

You are a beloved member of a soul family anticipating your return.

You are one half of a pair bond/twin flame partnership inviting you into eventual reunion.

You are unity consciousness temporarily experiencing separation. 

You are unconditional love limited only by illusionary fears.

You are light seeding your beacon into the darkness.

You are a power force…stoppable only by your own choices.

You are FREE with no other being/energy/forces able to truly enslave you.

You are the Divine surrendering into the experiment of being human.

You are LOVE in the process of remembering.” 

Reminder from the Divine and your Higher Self ~

Hope you can join us for a group call on Sunday, February 20th to explore healing the separation wound to move into Unity Consciousness. More info at soulfullheart.org.

Coming Out Of Separation and Into Twin Flame/Counterpart Union

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By Jelelle Awen

I am emerging from my Honeymoon bubble with Raphael with a bit of wobbly legs, palpitating heart, fuzzy/altered mind, and hugely renewed sense of life/love/service! We’ve gone in deep together in the way that is unique to our bond in these last days….exploring physical body nuances and pleasures….I could share so much about the shared consciousness altering portal that is Yoni kissing, for example, and will someday!

We’ve also been diving into emotional areas that need to be felt and loved as well. Bringing realizations that arose during our separation and dropping in together into the parts of us that need to be felt in their fears, tensions, and doubts as well so that they can be bonded.

Rather than deny these parts of us or put them in shadow now that we are together again, we bring them forward to heard and felt by each other. We feel remorse as needed, advocate as desired, and LET GO of resentments/grudges and the past as guided. In this letting in and then letting go process, the past resentments literally dissolve between us as they’ve been felt so deeply by us as individuals. The new then arises out of this compassion for ourselves and each other.

Trying to transact EVERYTHING and resolve it just in the bond in a horizontal way doesn’t move it. It isn’t just about more conscious communication together or ‘staying in the room’ with each other or whatever a marriage counselor might advise as ‘saving the relationship’ type strategies. Sometimes a deep inner reboot is necessary where only YOU can hold the safe space that parts of you need to let go into, especially when you are connecting to archetypal energies and deep soul pieces that are many lifetimes in the making.

This was what Raphael and I were invited to go into by our Magdalene/Christ soul family recently. An intense initiation in which we couldn’t feel the hope for a future between us, where we truly needed to let go and lean into ourselves fully. We were gifted so much support during this arduous journey with our soul family here in the physical and in etheric connection with Anna, Yeshua, etc., as our soul family hardly ever went through these initiations alone. Avalon held the space for us with necessary activations and even the quietness of the winter season served us.

I felt during our vow renewal ceremony the Magdalenes celebrating our successful navigation of these grounds and endowing us with the gift of holding the mantle for pair bond reunion and soul family reunion for those drawn to us. Anna shared words with us of support and admiration and we all felt tears as she reassured us that she would ‘never ever leave us.’ And now lately has been the necessary celebration and feasting that comes after the initiation has been ‘passed’. The recovery and reaping the rewards that come from loved freed up from fear by truly GOING INTO that fear and transmuting it.

This is the process I feel Ascension is inviting us into in every moment, whether in a twin pair bond reunion or not….to move into our fears, even the ones at the collective level, and trust that love and the Divine will hold us through them. The bliss and joy I have felt these last days now surpasses the darkest hours of sadness and hurt and pain I felt during our separation. The grief is fading now….replaced by the pure ecstasy of rebooted appreciation and gratitude that flow out of a heart rapturously falling in love with the Beloved.

I can only experience the Divine AS Beloved most deeply and truly when I am with Raphael in deep union as he holds the Divine Masculine expression of it. This is how my soul ‘wired it up’ at the soul family monad level before individuating.

I have surrendered more deeply into this now as my purpose for being here to experience this reunion and am wanting to teach/serve from this awareness more deeply as well, even as I am constantly learning from it.

If you feel drawn to experience the clearing of the pathway to experience the Beloved through deep inner connection and through a pair bond supported by soul family, do feel into a 1:1 session with one of us and/or attending a group call event (like the one we are doing on Valentine’s Day February 14th) and to join our online community Portal. More information at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

So many of you on our social media accounts, especially facebook, have expressed your support and resonance withur separation and reunion so you very well may be feeling a call and draw to come closer. There IS a reason you are drawn to our story and that you feel deep resonance with it. Exploring that reason could open up a whole new timeline life of goodness and love!

The home of the love with the Beloved is waiting for you. Claim it and all the love you can possibly let in can be yours….love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, online community portal, and writings/books at soulfullheart.org

Bridge To The Beloved: Sacred Union Transmission Group Call On Valentine’s Day February 14th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

The Beloved is the energy of the Divine in a specific frequency as lover and mate that brings you into personal states of gratitude, rapture, and forgiveness as you receive this grace. The Beloved activates your longing for reunion with your counterpart soulmate, which also happens within you between your inner masculine and feminine if you are currently single. And it is all yours freely by birthright, something you never actually lost, only reawaken to as your soul is ready!

Raphael and I are excited to share from the overflow of a deeper embodiment experience of the Beloved within, with each other and with the Divine during this group call over Zoom on Valentine’s Day Sunday, February 14th at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone….9:00am PST/10:00am MST/11:00am CST/12:00pm EST)!

During the call, we will share about our recent personal experience of death and rebirth within our long-term union that brought us to a place of renewed awareness of the Beloved as the third energy in a coupleship into which we can lean, from which we can draw all the support we need, and unto which the relationship is in service to. We will share about healing the False God projections that block experience of the Divine in this very personal and embodied Beloved frequency, along with feeling and healing the trauma from this life and karma from other lifetimes related to your capacity to let in and embody this frequency.

During this call, we will co-lead a meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene/Magda to bridge to and energize the Beloved through devotional frequencies that come from the heart and soul of our renewed bond and twin pair soul connection (we’ll share more about that too.) and our soul family.Whether you are connecting primarily to your inner sacred union, have a partnership or ache for one, and/or just want to deepen your experience of the Divine AS your beloved, this transmission offers a needed bridge in the moment to support that exploration and invites you into visceral experience of the Beloved!
More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1061373757681405 or https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. The average amount is $15 CAD. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the February 14th group call and check that your email is current.

This group call is also available free to those who are members of our SoulFullHeart Portal, an online community for personal sharings, community connection, and receiving guidance/asking questions with us….I feel it may be the warmest place on the Internet!

You can join the Portal for $14.99 USD exchange per month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Love,
Raphael and Jelelle Awen

New Moon In Gemini: Releasing The Trauma Bond

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What a new moon portal today! The last few days have been intense to say the least. I have become aware, through my deep dive sessions with Raphael, of a particular trauma bond that has existed inside of me between me and my sister even as I have not been in contact with her for over seven years.

My sister and I were born very close apart. When many people met us they thought we were twins at first glance. What I am realizing is that this twin recognition came from an energetic bond between us that I am learning has visitation and abduction trauma built in, as well as many lifetimes in one form of relation or another.

I have come to the realization that this bonded trauma created a pairing between us. A contract that we would forever be in each other’s life so that we would not feel the depths of the trauma. Well, I broke the physical contract years ago, but the etheric contract remained.

I was offered to connect to my sister’s higher self and let her know that I was no longer going to hold my end of the bond anymore as it is time for me to go into the galactic and soul wounding that had kept us in a bind. I have recognized how much of this has effected my relationships with women, as it served as a protection and a projection of wound and care-taking.

I have been so focused on healing the Mom wound that I finally found the more subtle sister layer that was out of my awareness due to the depth of the trauma that it was founded on. I am reaching the edges of my galactic wounding that has alluded me for most of this life until this came into view.

What came to me is that this may be true for many of us at this time. Not so specifically from brother to sister, but any bond between two people that has deep roots in trauma. This can be especially true for twin flames. The New Moon energies in Gemini feel to be highlighting this twin dynamic for those that are meant to see it right now.

The trauma bond is something that is hard to let go of as it has such a long history. I had deep tears that I couldn’t place many times today but I could get a sense that this trauma bond was leaving my field and it is almost like losing an essential part of your being that you didn’t really know was there!

The release and detox of this bond feels like a shedding of a skin. It can be a hard process, but when held in sacred space it feels like the most important part of our ascension. I can feel during this time how there is a collective trauma bond exhibited by the fear of this virus. As we clear our own inner trauma bonds, the less energy is added to the collective and thus helps to move the needle one more step toward Love.

I also feel how this will help me to let in sacred romance on a much deeper level that I have not previously been able to transact due to this energy in my being. Quite a remarkable ride the last couple of days. I hope that this provides some insight into your own relationships to see where there may be these contracts that may need a deeper release in order to bring in the Love that we ALL are here to experience.

Much love on this New Moon evening.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Relationship Shiftings/Openings/Completions Q&A W/Raphael and Jelelle Awen (Video)

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This is a livestream on June 26th with SoulFullHeart Teachers, Ascension Guides, and sacred union mates with Raphael and Jelelle Awen talking about relationship shiftings, coming togethers, and completions of all kinds during awakening/ascension. They answered questions and responded to comments about sacred union, transactilibity and resonance in relationships of all kinds, parent-child transition into adulthood, soul family, and more.

You are welcome to ask a question or leave a comment on the recording of the broadcast and they will respond to it! They were also streaming onto Facebook so if you want to see the comments they were responding to, please go to: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women over 35 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Eclipse Energies Bring A Renewed Sense Of The Sacred Masculine Dance

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The Eclipse energies are bringing out something NEW in the masculine. It is trying to birth a new sense of what the ‘sacred masculine’ is, which has felt elusive and puzzling, not to mention hard to define. Any definitions we’ve tried to say are ‘it’ have tended to fall short most of the time, for it is still being rediscovered, along with the sacred feminine. It calls for men who are able to embody its messiness of heart and truth on this path of rediscovery. It calls for women to feel it within themselves as a counterpart to the budding inner feminine. The wounded masculine is alive within us all to some degree, until it has really been felt for the protection it has wanted and needed to offer and the tiredness it is feeling more and more as it realizes it IS wounded and does need our love and healing…

This healing can and does happen, the more we hold the desire for it too. It is so much of what needs to be felt and healed in our world as we ‘kNOw’ it today. It is expressed in the ways we claim to ‘know’ what we cannot in many ways, mental approaches to spirituality that do not ask us to embody it and feel it deeply inside of our hearts as arising sacred humans, and it is our okayness and also thirst for war and battles in any way, shape or form. It is expressed too, through our outrage, through our self-image creation and maintenance, through our push-aways from our hearts and the hearts of others, through the walls parts of us have built around us, wanting to contain and protect was is precious within, wanting to keep itself from being felt for what it truly is.

We see and feel it in our leaders and our leadership inside of us too. We feel it in our sexuality, our desires for dominance (though as woman, perhaps this is more subtle or takes a different form than it does for men), our pushing and action-based lives we’ve led. It is something that shows up often in our daily lives, especially when we have not begun to really see it and feel it.

Perhaps this current Eclipse will help bring in more illumination of this inside of you and inside of others. I am feeling it for myself today and these words are what I want to offer the masculine inside of me, inside of you, and inside of all men…

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To the renewing, emerging, strengthening Sacred Masculine, within AND outside of me…

I invite you into a dance. A dance less structured than a waltz, and as passionate as a tango. I want to fill my dance card with the names of men (and eventually, only ONE man) who feel the pull, the desire, for themselves, for me, for us. I want unchoreographed, spontaneous steps, sometimes in alignment with each other, at other times not. I want the mess of the self-discovery that has us at times wondering how on Earth we’re going to navigate this one, though we both have the gumption, the desire, the courage to keep going inside as the only option.

I want something I can grab a hold of, without tugging or being tugged on. Something that is concrete yet has breathing and fluidity and room for what IS along with what could be and what we both want, starting with what we want inside of ourselves.

The games of old, those ones we never wanted to play anyway, they are being asked to crumble inside of us. They are being set to fall away in avalanches of pure love and sacred union codes coming in, that so do not resonate or match the currently embraced picture of romantic relationship, which is steeped in much emotional and spiritual immaturity and unrealness.

I want to let it all, all we’ve thought we ‘knew’, fly away with the wind in poignant moments of sorting through this from that within each of us and within ‘us’ too. I want to unlearn and relearn it all with you. I want to feel it all bubbling up and bursting within me and within us, and play it all like notes and chords on piano keys, bringing it all to the fore of our relationship ground, that place where it’s safe to do so and yet the precipice of where it could all fall apart (and in phases, needs to) is always there too.

I see you, I feel you, I know you… I trust the heart that is arising and reconciling inside of you, sometimes with contention and male ‘UMPH’. Ugh. YES. The line of abuse cannot be reached by a heart that is working towards its purity and holds deep reverence, respect, love, care, for itself and me too.

I want any resistance that’s here within you, within me, to BE pushed up, to be felt, to be held, to be loved, to be ultimately moved. I do not want the resistance to become the relationship, the reason to slow it all down. I want our parts to know, feel, understand that you are there for them, for your own, that I am there for them, for my own.

I want the genuine, the real, the incredibly HOT sacred masculine that arises from deep within the shadows and caves of the real, the soulful, the heartful, that doesn’t caretake, the penetrates in all the ways it needs to, that mates and creates and brings its truth, even if its truth isn’t polished or perfect or even UNDERSTOOD fully. I want the shit storms. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer

I want the ‘shit storms’. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer healing, to LOVE, to have her stillness that is born from an elegant blossom grown in mud and fun too. I want those portals the masculine and feminine are meant to create together, to bring out from each other, to step into in love that is made in the physical and other levels too. And you’ll know if you can do this, by your reaction to these words, that yes, I do feel are coming from a masculine AND a feminine inside of me too. Somehow, I trust that if you’re meant to, you’ll get this. Your maturity will resonate with it and your heart and soul that desire to FEEL and to HEAL and to make genuine, heart open love that travels to the Cosmos and back again with a woman is what you’ll feel now.

This is not coming from a woman who has solely been burned, been victimized, been abused, though of course that lies in this woman’s heart and body’s history with men who haven’t embodied the sacred masculine before or really even tried (save one, who to this day I still heal with consistently and we help each other move a lot, even just as dear friends). My stories of these experiences are not an attachment, though they also live in my Metasoul as well as my emotional and physical bodies. Nothing inside of me is asking you to heal it for me. Nothing inside of me needs you to be something you’re not, for what you ARE, IS the journey for me and for you.

I feel ready. I feel ready to take on something new. I feel ready for what can only move and heal in monogamous, romantic relationship. I feel a new relationship arising to my own inner masculine that wants to become more of the sacred masculine too, and at the same time, I feel my feminity wanting to arise more and more, to be in the space with me more, to feel safer there than she ever has. To share this with a man, who is also feeling inside of himself a feminine counterpart that wants to arise and heal and be, along with a masculine that wants to do the driving, to lead himself to more healing on a REAL level, to be in deep sacred union mateship with a woman that he sees and feels as body, heart, AND soul and wants to claim with all of his being as she claims him with all of hers, THIS is the dream, this is the desire that is bursting from me today. And this is the ongoing invitation, perhaps right now more than ever before with these Solar Eclipse energies coming in and illuminating, shifting, driving us to more and more healing on levels that maybe we could not have imagined before.

My inner masculine and feminine, who are trying to reconcile something with each other in this moment, it feels like, thank you for taking this in right now. They thank you for welcoming their passion, their unknown about themselves that they are looking to discover, their desire to feel it all. Thank you… and I welcome you into this powerful sense of passionate discovery and rediscovery for yourself too.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.