
Claiming The Sacred Union Within And With Other That Is Waiting For You


Sacred union from within and with other invites you into deepening frequencies of transaction in all grounds of heart, body, soul, and mind. In this video and audio, SoulFullHeart co-creators, teachers, facilitators, and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen lead a group call teaching about how the 3D/4D/5D self expresses within sacred union and also in the seven areas of life: emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental.
The 3D self is the fragmented self that becomes this way from needing to adjust to 3D density of separation, duality, etc. 4D self is the transitional, awakening self whose soul consciousness is beginning to come into BEing and often clashing with the 3D self and the congested emotional body AND metasoul. 5D self is beyond personality, essence to serve love, higher self IN the body with healthy emotional body and healthy heart.
3D relationship is based on codependence, shrinking, fitting, ‘hookups’ between aspects of the 3D selves of each partner. Many relationships fit into this. 4D relationships are between growing and awakening 4D selves who are changing, growing, awakening. Sometimes one partner is more 4D and other is still 3D, which will eventually lead to completion as the frequencies don’t match and the ground runs out. 5D relationships are bringing in more soul frequencies, metasoul and counterpart soul, multiple timelines and expressions, fluid, committed yet not grabbing, united in service of love purpose together.
Raphael and Jelelle also guide you on a meditation journey to connect with Christiel (who offers you frequencies of healthy king, sacred masculine) and Magdalena (who offers frequencies of queen, sacred femininity). They infuse you with sacred union codes for the joining of sacred and masculine frequencies inside and with a mate, plus you connect with your 3D, 4D, and 5D self. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri also share their experience with their 3D/4D/5D selves connected to sacred union.
This call was originally recorded on August 27, 2017 via zoom. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls for more information about future group calls that you can join live, sessions with SoulFullHeart facilitators, writings, community, retreats, more videos, and more! The personal sharings that happened during the call have been edited out for privacy reasons.
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By Jelelle Awen
This is coming up again recently, so I wanted to reshare what I’ve written about the issues of the twin flame relationship paradigm and what we offer in SoulFullHeart in contrast to this. We feel the ground of sacred union with counterpart mates as being about HEALTHY transactability in ALL areas of body, soul, mind, AND – most importantly – heart. Rather than fixate on what the soul capacity is of the bond, it is all about the nourishment, intimacy, vulnerability, and realness that is able to transact between the two partners in a MUTUAL desire for the exploration for which both are focused on their self healing….which we are offering is effectively accessed through our SoulFullHeart parts work process.
The sense that we share the same soul with someone else just doesn’t feel true to me or resonate for me nor has it been validated by any of my higher self guides/aspects….. other than the BIGGER sense that we all come ultimately from the same Divine Source. I feel there CAN be deep Metasoul connections between two souls and many counterpart pair bondings, many mateship energy expressions across dimensions, timelines, species, etc. I have experienced this with Raphael Awen and written about it many times too.
I get how this Metasoul pair bonding could feel like you ARE the same soul, yet I think there are dangers in thinking this way. The biggest issue to me is when the twin flame paradigm is used by parts of people to loop in suffering patterns, push-pull dynamics, unworthiness, stay stuck in ‘waiting’ for someone rather than healthily letting go and moving on, etc. In general, I feel that over attachment to the ‘idea’ of someone being your twin is ultimately just another expression of 3D codependence expressing itself as a grab to get needs met by another person rather than by focusing within.
Here is a video of Raphael and I talking at a Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Arising Summit about sacred unions versus scared unions:
Here are more writings about sacred union counterpart mates and Metasoul mateships.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

In these moments, on these days, there isn’t much to do but surrender to the tornado and trust that you WILL land somewhere soft and grassy… these times of upheaval actually press us upward AND onward, while encouraging us to go inward.
The preciousness of parts of you can be forgotten in the everyday shuffle and the ongoing dreamings of what you want to experience, be, have next. The emotional and spiritual pain and distrust that they hold can become buried, even in a life that is genuinely good. The gift of these ‘tornado times’ is that they can surface and be felt again, healed deeper, brought with you to that new place the Divine so wants to take you and IS taking you, even if you can’t feel the surrender or see the ground beneath your feet at the time…
This is the ongoing offer, invitation, love we are granted and flooded with. This is what is represented by intense weather patterns that do somehow shift around something inside of us and also reflect the storms inside of us.
As hard as it can be and often is in these moments of poignant and pure feeling, there is always a Divine hand being held out for us to grasp onto, that encourages the authentic YOU to hold a hand out for the parts that are struggling in their fears and suffering in their pain, seeing and feeling the worlds – their worlds – that are collapsing in so many ways, while they reach out for a ‘more’ that they need reminding is not only possible, but already here…
In this bittersweet time of movement… of upswing and downturn… we learn to shift the gears into place, taking all of our precious cargo of self and soul with us. Bringing it all to that ‘Promised Land’ within, that does want to take us to all that we most deeply want and work to feel worthy of. ![]()
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

By Raphael Awen
I want to shake men.
I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.
I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.
I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.
As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.
There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.
You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.
It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?
Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.
I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.
It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.
This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.
I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.
But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.
So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.
Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.
No pressure, and all that!
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I love you and I need you and I want you!
Raphael Awen
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We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.
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“That’s actually the bigger deal here, Raphael, is the wave of desire and ache for change that gets occasion to move through the collective. It’s always there, but today, it gets a unity amplification to go to some serious next levels. We don’t actually want a tidal wave that wipes out everything, we want one that surgically achieves everything you as a species are ready for to let in. This is a huge earth party that others in the multiverse are attending and very excitedly so. Soon, you will all know and see so much more of your role as a planet, as one among so many more and be overcome for years in wonder and awe and reverence that will bring the deeper levels of this change that you know awaits you personally and collectively. It will come in stages. It will come while some won’t see or feel it consciously, but none will not be changed by it. The universe is throwing this party and you don’t wanna miss it.” – AA Metatron with Raphael Awen
This week was another incredible week for the ascension of our species and each of us individually who have signed up for this amazing journey. Raphael tunes into AA Metatron to feel the gift and epicness of the celestial movements that have been occurring culminating in the total solar eclipse. The energies coming in are meant to effect us both collectively and individually. Bringing us to our greatest heights in expressing our greatest desires. Energizing us with the codes to take us to our very next steps if we are willing to feel and heal all we need to on our way there.
We have a lot of fantastic writings from Jelelle, Kalayna, and Gabriel as well that digests all of the emerging codes and arising timelines that are wanting to be made manifest in our Highest possibilities. Jelelle explores integrating our lower and shadow aspects during ascension, Kalayna explores sacred masculinity messages and its importance in the emerging New Earth, and Gabriel tunes into pre- and post-eclipse transmissions from the withIN. We are also excited to include another amazing writing by our newest member Raianna Shai who is discovery the gifts of going in and connecting with her soul guardian. It is a must read for sure!
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By Jelelle Awen

So much collective attention being focused on the recent total solar eclipse INcreased the energies that were available during it. All souls were offered the codes/information/memories of their highest timelines, highest expression lives in their human body that are ALREADY happening. Your highest timeline is your service of love life for which you are aligned to your Divine self expressing as a human. For some, this highest timeline reality would just ‘bounce’ off their unawakened 3D self, yet WOULD go into their 4D transitional self and their higher self…..even if not consciously being connected to yet.
This ‘seed’ of higher dimensional consciousness experience is within all human BEings and is receiving a BIG flush of love light water (especially during this mega month of August energies) to help it sprout, grow, and bloom. This might have led to sudden upswells of emotional sensitivity or feelings of acute frustration or unhappiness in some 3D selves. AND rare joy and bliss as the eclipse ‘event’ penetrated their usual defensive filtering which normalizes and flatlines experience of experience. The 3D self might put these sensations into a five sense reality ‘box’ and file them away as connected somehow to the eclipse but not sure how.
The 4D self, however, would be staying up at night, reliving the event, searching on the internet for meaning and explanations beyond the obvious, beyond the 5 senses, beyond the mind. The 4D self would be continuing to move out of numbness, their emotional body coming to LIFE and their soul beginning to remember. The 4D astral self expression may be activating with more intense and meaningful dreams too. This could bring up feelings of depression at how life has been and more acute awareness of how the daily routine impacts you. It’s like you are looking around AT your life and can suddenly ‘see’ it much more clearly, more objectively, and also with an increasing sense of what you REALLY want more acutely. The 4D self is looking for resources to help support their choices of their highest timeline and trusting their intuitions and resonance that guides them to these resources.
The eclipse energies have also activated NEW surges of creative expression and passion connected to the bigger picture. As the new timeline comes into focus for us as individuals AND as a collective, opportunities to make choices (both small and BIG) toward manifestation are offered to us on an increasing basis. Moment by moment, you become more aware of what you are choosing and why. What are you putting your energy toward and why? What is your choice and what is it based on? Is it based in fear and clinging to the 3D, previous, ‘lower’ timeline? Is it connected to love, service of love and the 4D and higher timeline?
Post eclipse integration of these higher timeline realities has been intense and can be felt on ALL the bodies: physical, emotional, social, astral, chakral/energetic, mental. The physical body is the vibrationally densest expression of our BEing and is often ‘catching up’ with the high frequency surges. Amplification of WHATEVER physical stuff you might have going on is happening now. Activation of hormones turned UP, increasing PMS and menstrual symptoms for some of us women. I’ve certainly been experiencing that myself since the eclipse and been just surrendering into it as I feel MORE feminine frequencies being offered to me in all areas of my life, including moving into more co-leadership of SoulFullHeart with Raphael and more balance of feminine and masculine expression related to it.
You may be feeling an increase in ‘ascension symptoms’ such as headaches, neck pain, ringing in the ears, dizziness, interrupted sleep patterns. I do recommend connecting with these ‘symptoms’ directly to ask them what they are trying to tell you about your ongoing ascension process as connected to your physical and emotional bodies, as I wrote about here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/discovering-what-your-emot…/
Your emotional body may be engaging in an ongoing purging out process with what has been previously suppressed and put in shadow coming UP and out now to be felt. The collective shadow is being illuminated and seen by many more souls….and the inner shadow too. The 3D self may be grasping at anything it can to numb this purging process and you may find yourself engaging in ‘lower frequency’ activities that feel comforting for the moment. Urges to eat ‘comfort foods’ can accompany this too and in some cases you’ll want to follow these urges and other times to feel what emotional need is ‘underneath’ the craving.
There seem to be energetic shifts connected to the eclipse energies too, with the continual sense growing in me of activation of our personal sacred geometric gridlines, 5D violentprint chakral grid. This makes ‘energy work’ a much more fluid experience, more multidimensional and not so rigidly connected to the old systems of chakra healing, such as reiki and others. They have been and are effective at activation of the 4D self’s awareness of the chakras and their soul’s essence AS energy. To remain ‘parked’ in the reiki system, however, is to remain in a limiting comfort zone…rather than to see that our energy bodies are actually infinite, fluid, and complex. I don’t feel ‘answers’ around this, just a door opening of exploration into these new grounds that I am excited as an energy healer of many years to continue going through with those souls engaged in the SoulFullHeart process.
The eclipse energies activated Unity consciousness too, in a big way, as the event itself brought together so many in witness of it. Ongoing unity consciousness remembrance and activation/integration of our Metasoul/other lifetime aspects continues with stronger urges toward soul family connection and resonance. Relationships based on 3D frequencies of separation, lack, comfort are continuing to be strained, with some just running out of ground in sudden ways. The social body (as we could call it) is being activated to discover the ‘me within the we’, to go through a letting go phase of the old identity hookups, a lone wolf phase, and to move eventually into healthy We-ness of New Earth commUNITY. Sacred union codes continue to be supplied to water the heart, soul, and body ache for counterpart soul mateship, whose ultimate purpose of coming together is to serve LOVE.
ALL of our bodies are being infused with our highest timeline realities. It’s like our dreams have been switched on yet are feeling ever more REAL. Our visions are becoming clearer. Our journeys and the choice points along the way toward those visions becoming illuminated. Our worthiness to receive and BE these visions being watered with self love and love with the Divine. As we come into Divine alignment INside, so does our outside reality reflect this more and more as the Infinite Love that we ARE continues to find its ultimate highest expression in our lives.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.
By Jelelle Awen

“You are being lifted,” the familiar, wise voice inside said to me. This familiar voice could belong to any number of guides/Metasoul aspects that have been revealing themselves over the last years. It is becoming more of a conglomerate these days…less definable as a specific energy and more like a council or alliance or ‘board’ made up of frequencies of my Metasoul expressions that have come forward to support and help me during this intense transition time from 3D to NEW Earth.

This is what is means to be in SoulFullHeart community. I am inspired, awed, and amazed at what I get to be a part of. What I have chosen to surround myself with in order to heal, grow, and create. I see the world through a lens that is so unlike anything out there and is constantly shifting and evolving. I get to see myself in a way that is unlike what I have seen or felt myself to be in the old dimension of consciousness. There is not a day that goes by that some thing alive is happening to others that sparks a corroborating energy in me. It is community on HIGH and is just keeps its dedication to more, to real, and to love. To More Real Love.
But this Love is not just bliss and sparklers. It is about feeling the edges and depths of what is next up on the healing docket. This is not shadow hunting but a real time bubbling up of emotion that is not supported to be repressed, but lovingly guided to arise in its own time. As one person is feeling something there is an effect among the group as we are all connected. As my good friend Raphael is moving through arising layers of suppressed truth-telling, it begins to activate mine. This one entry way then opens itself up to a greater QUESTion of what it means to be masculine in a very feminine offering. It brings up some angst and curiosity along the way. It rumbles and shakes something in to uncertainty, of which the unhealed masculine is not native to. It has chosen certainty in the name of control.
But underneath that maintenance lies a caged animal. A fire that is wanting to make shit happen and blow things up in an attempt to get to a bedrock of something real. There is a violence in that when not tempered by the feminine within and without. Hence being in community with the sacred feminine is what brings a clarity to it as well as the hashing out. I had personally sent my animal into a quarantine when my daughter was a young age so as to not have that energy in my field as a father. Before that I had a very huge temper and was pissed off a lot. As a child it was an embarrassment to my family when it came up in very immature ways. It was a soul angst and a learned behavior from my father, who had the legacy of it from his father.
The essence of this energy is passion and truth-telling. It is about alchemizing and manifesting. It is about being in union with the feminine to light up the Love Shack we call Gaia. But the suppression is wounded and angry. I chose to find a more Zen part of me to assuage the energy so that I could be more acceptable to another part of me seeking something nice and normal. Well, as this part of Raphael has been done with this dynamic, I feel it rumbling this part of me too. It exists in many men I believe as well. I know there are many that are more outed than others, but I feel this reverberates through all masculine hearts, both in men and women. What we experience in community is also happening in the collective heart of humanity.
So this is a post about the arising sacred masculine, that is in a continuing birthing state in us all. It is a journey from an old way of doing life to a new way of being in life. It does scare some parts of me as the unleashing of the animal within does bring an concern of what will come out, but this is all held in a heart that has been working the shadow for the sake of love, so what does come out will be felt in its entirety and hold itself accountable. It will not harm but it may just hurt. Hurt is mendable with an sincere and open heart. This is the reminder I give to this part of me.
This is also about community and relationship where all of this gets to be played out and realized in its fullest breadth. I get to engage in romance that brings out different tones that go deeper that just soul friendship, as powerful as that is. I feel like I am showcasing what it means to be in this SoulFullHeart community. It is what is possible for all humanity. There is a huge desire among us all for more hearts and souls to add to this incredible wealth of healing and loving. It is why we continue to write and offer to others. We want more tribe members that just feel what it is that is possible even if there is uncertainty on what it all means. Others are doing the same taking their questions and fears with them. We want the passion of others who want to serve it to the world first from within and then out.
In this new era of letting in more of what I want, I want to serve this love to you. I want to invite you experience what I experience everyday because it is out of this world…literally! I want others to reflect to me and inspire me to be more than a part of me thought I could ever be. New hearts bring new vision that we didn’t otherwise see or feel before. We get to play in a safe container that allows for real growth and real love, even if it may not feel that way to parts of us. The vulnerability of that is the safety.
Okay, so that is what was in my heart today. It is what comes through being in this incredible union of heart and souls. It is the energy of the eclipse making its way through my veins and into my heart. I claim me as I claim you to be a part of this epic ride called SoulFullHeart.
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The Eclipse energies are bringing out something NEW in the masculine. It is trying to birth a new sense of what the ‘sacred masculine’ is, which has felt elusive and puzzling, not to mention hard to define. Any definitions we’ve tried to say are ‘it’ have tended to fall short most of the time, for it is still being rediscovered, along with the sacred feminine. It calls for men who are able to embody its messiness of heart and truth on this path of rediscovery. It calls for women to feel it within themselves as a counterpart to the budding inner feminine. The wounded masculine is alive within us all to some degree, until it has really been felt for the protection it has wanted and needed to offer and the tiredness it is feeling more and more as it realizes it IS wounded and does need our love and healing…
This healing can and does happen, the more we hold the desire for it too. It is so much of what needs to be felt and healed in our world as we ‘kNOw’ it today. It is expressed in the ways we claim to ‘know’ what we cannot in many ways, mental approaches to spirituality that do not ask us to embody it and feel it deeply inside of our hearts as arising sacred humans, and it is our okayness and also thirst for war and battles in any way, shape or form. It is expressed too, through our outrage, through our self-image creation and maintenance, through our push-aways from our hearts and the hearts of others, through the walls parts of us have built around us, wanting to contain and protect was is precious within, wanting to keep itself from being felt for what it truly is.
We see and feel it in our leaders and our leadership inside of us too. We feel it in our sexuality, our desires for dominance (though as woman, perhaps this is more subtle or takes a different form than it does for men), our pushing and action-based lives we’ve led. It is something that shows up often in our daily lives, especially when we have not begun to really see it and feel it.
Perhaps this current Eclipse will help bring in more illumination of this inside of you and inside of others. I am feeling it for myself today and these words are what I want to offer the masculine inside of me, inside of you, and inside of all men…
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To the renewing, emerging, strengthening Sacred Masculine, within AND outside of me…
I invite you into a dance. A dance less structured than a waltz, and as passionate as a tango. I want to fill my dance card with the names of men (and eventually, only ONE man) who feel the pull, the desire, for themselves, for me, for us. I want unchoreographed, spontaneous steps, sometimes in alignment with each other, at other times not. I want the mess of the self-discovery that has us at times wondering how on Earth we’re going to navigate this one, though we both have the gumption, the desire, the courage to keep going inside as the only option.
I want something I can grab a hold of, without tugging or being tugged on. Something that is concrete yet has breathing and fluidity and room for what IS along with what could be and what we both want, starting with what we want inside of ourselves.
The games of old, those ones we never wanted to play anyway, they are being asked to crumble inside of us. They are being set to fall away in avalanches of pure love and sacred union codes coming in, that so do not resonate or match the currently embraced picture of romantic relationship, which is steeped in much emotional and spiritual immaturity and unrealness.
I want to let it all, all we’ve thought we ‘knew’, fly away with the wind in poignant moments of sorting through this from that within each of us and within ‘us’ too. I want to unlearn and relearn it all with you. I want to feel it all bubbling up and bursting within me and within us, and play it all like notes and chords on piano keys, bringing it all to the fore of our relationship ground, that place where it’s safe to do so and yet the precipice of where it could all fall apart (and in phases, needs to) is always there too.
I see you, I feel you, I know you… I trust the heart that is arising and reconciling inside of you, sometimes with contention and male ‘UMPH’. Ugh. YES. The line of abuse cannot be reached by a heart that is working towards its purity and holds deep reverence, respect, love, care, for itself and me too.
I want any resistance that’s here within you, within me, to BE pushed up, to be felt, to be held, to be loved, to be ultimately moved. I do not want the resistance to become the relationship, the reason to slow it all down. I want our parts to know, feel, understand that you are there for them, for your own, that I am there for them, for my own.
I want the genuine, the real, the incredibly HOT sacred masculine that arises from deep within the shadows and caves of the real, the soulful, the heartful, that doesn’t caretake, the penetrates in all the ways it needs to, that mates and creates and brings its truth, even if its truth isn’t polished or perfect or even UNDERSTOOD fully. I want the shit storms. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer
I want the ‘shit storms’. Yes. The masculine in ME wants that, wants to be pressed up, pushed on, noticed, healed, moved, so that the feminine that so wants to dance with it and with YOU can arise more and more as the climate shifts to one where it can, where it is safe to, where it isn’t expected to battle, to be an Amazon, to outrage, but to encourage, to be, to heal, to offer healing, to LOVE, to have her stillness that is born from an elegant blossom grown in mud and fun too. I want those portals the masculine and feminine are meant to create together, to bring out from each other, to step into in love that is made in the physical and other levels too. And you’ll know if you can do this, by your reaction to these words, that yes, I do feel are coming from a masculine AND a feminine inside of me too. Somehow, I trust that if you’re meant to, you’ll get this. Your maturity will resonate with it and your heart and soul that desire to FEEL and to HEAL and to make genuine, heart open love that travels to the Cosmos and back again with a woman is what you’ll feel now.
This is not coming from a woman who has solely been burned, been victimized, been abused, though of course that lies in this woman’s heart and body’s history with men who haven’t embodied the sacred masculine before or really even tried (save one, who to this day I still heal with consistently and we help each other move a lot, even just as dear friends). My stories of these experiences are not an attachment, though they also live in my Metasoul as well as my emotional and physical bodies. Nothing inside of me is asking you to heal it for me. Nothing inside of me needs you to be something you’re not, for what you ARE, IS the journey for me and for you.
I feel ready. I feel ready to take on something new. I feel ready for what can only move and heal in monogamous, romantic relationship. I feel a new relationship arising to my own inner masculine that wants to become more of the sacred masculine too, and at the same time, I feel my feminity wanting to arise more and more, to be in the space with me more, to feel safer there than she ever has. To share this with a man, who is also feeling inside of himself a feminine counterpart that wants to arise and heal and be, along with a masculine that wants to do the driving, to lead himself to more healing on a REAL level, to be in deep sacred union mateship with a woman that he sees and feels as body, heart, AND soul and wants to claim with all of his being as she claims him with all of hers, THIS is the dream, this is the desire that is bursting from me today. And this is the ongoing invitation, perhaps right now more than ever before with these Solar Eclipse energies coming in and illuminating, shifting, driving us to more and more healing on levels that maybe we could not have imagined before.
My inner masculine and feminine, who are trying to reconcile something with each other in this moment, it feels like, thank you for taking this in right now. They thank you for welcoming their passion, their unknown about themselves that they are looking to discover, their desire to feel it all. Thank you… and I welcome you into this powerful sense of passionate discovery and rediscovery for yourself too.
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.